#some people even dare think it’s good

[autism-alley]

y’all headcanoning poseidon as purposefully sending medusa’s head back to sender knowing gabe would open it is like. entirely missing the point of sally jackson’s character and also SO fucked up if it was poseidon?? who used medusa’s head to kill an asshole man?? like!! what the fuck! not to mention sally jackson?? ms. sally jackson? who kills her abusive husband? who on multiple occasions rejected the help of the man who is both a god and her former lover bc she wants to build her life herself—? and who does it? “if my life is to mean anything, i have to live it myself.” those are sally jackson’s words. the abuse itself was already incredibly watered down in the show and that is upsetting. to have gabe accidentally kill himself because he’s a bumbling idiot waters down her agency against her abuse and is even more so upsetting. to have not just a man but a literal god kill her husband for her is so. do you not see how that’s even worse. and then add in that god being poseidon and the method of murder is medusa’s head? i don’t even have words to articulate it, just—

no matter how you cut it, narratively you only disrespect and degrade sally when gabe’s life is taken by any hand that isn’t hers, and having that hand be poseidon’s is just wild.

#WIIIIIILD TAKE #and i don’t even think some of y’all are hearing yourselves #sally jackson herself told percy he cannot kill her abuser for her #that her life only has value if it’s in her own hands #and that was said to her CHILD who Also suffered at the hands of gabe. #can you imagine how it looks disregarding that sentiment so a literal god can save her? #the god partly responsible to blame for medusa’s fate in the first place? #sometimes depicted as her rapist? #doesn’t look good! #as a disabled woman i am all for needing to be saved #wanting to be saved #not feeling shame in needing help #but sally jackson is not only Not one of those people #but someone who shaped so much of her identity around saving herself #how dare the show take it from her. #and for fans to rub salt in the wound? #i know y’all don’t mean it like that that’s why i’m not angry #but i want y’all to rly consider what you’re saying #pjo show crit #pjo show #pjo fandom #percy jackson #sally jackson #poseidon pjo #medusa pjo #ris raves #gabe ugliano

[neonbuck]

i think it should be considered obscene and predatory to have cops and the military in kids shows. promoting that kind of lifestyle/agenda to children is so creepy

#.txt #despite the phrasing here i do mean this almost 100% sincerely #when cops or soldiers appear in kids shows they should be idiots or straight up villains i think #i had to phrase this like even more of a joke on bluesky because a lot of twitter migrant furrys are fake leftists #'how dare you insult my ex military bf some people have to join because theyre poor' ;-; boohoo wah wah waaahh #i was in that position and i did warehouse work. was your bf too good for warehouse work? lol #and wheres my damn award for getting injured huh.

[pokimoko]

I have had it with these motherfucking spam bots on this motherfucking site.

#personal #tumblr stuff #vent post #spam bots #i've been getting like 1000 spam bot followers a day for the last few days and blocking them all is getting--dare i say--TEDIOUS #wake up. block 300 bots. go to work. come home and block 500 more bots. spend evening checking tumblr to block bots. it's becoming a chore #it's starting to feel like I offended the tumblr gods or something. this is ridiculous. but like hell will i let them win #i won't let my follower count be 50% bots. i feel like a deserve a tumblr badge or something for fending off so many bots. #tribble #the trouble with tribbles #a very apt metaphor i think for these bloody spam bots; block one and five more come to take its place #but upside: the spam bots are helping me compile a Rosetta Stone for the word 'Untitled'. woo #also if you just joined tumblr and want to follow me: for the love of god personalise your bloody blog #i don't care if you have a icon or a summary. if your blog and likes are empty i'm blocking you #because i don't trust empty blogs and i really don't have the time to sort out who's real or not right now #(though if the blog's offering free mp3s 'just click the link!' or is advertising US keto gold coast gummies i know for sure it ain't real) #but hey! good news to people who followed me in the last four days who haven't been blocked; you passed the blog captcha test #anyway just had to get this frustration out of my system; gonna go block some more bots now i guess. i'll be very happy when this stops

[uncanny-tranny]

Maybe it's just me, but part of why I never really felt completely secure in being public about my own artistic endeavors was how... being proud of yourself in any capacity for any reason is almost a faux pas, if that makes sense.

I've noticed how it's almost expected to perform the air of humility, but is that humility? Is it humility to say, "Oh, I'm sorry for clogging your feed with my awful art" or anything to the effect of self-deprecation?

I think that's why I so often gravitate toward those who make "bad art." There's a sense of freedom that is only achieved with the level of hubris that being unashamed in the number of people who hate your art. I wonder, though, how many people don't hate the art as much as they hate that they can't chastise the artist into humility, into recognizing how "terrible" an artist they "actually" are?

#art #i have clinical enough anxiety to not need people to expect self-deprecation from me when i do anything... #i always find it fascinating and almost freeing to see an artist make their own shit and be PROUD of that work #i unironically need to watch the room because that's the type of energy that i need so desperately #i do genuinely wonder if the largest critics of some of the 'worst' pieces of art do just tend to hate that the artist is openly prideful... #...that it isn't necessarily the art itself that completely enrages them but that they don't have the weapon of shame and humiliation... #...to put the artist 'back in their place' (the bottom)? #maybe i've been overanalyzing people's intention but i do wonder #i'm not saying you aren't allowed to dislike art (i dislike SO much art)... #...what i am saying is not all hatred of art is created equal and not all of it is something that is really as bad as it's portrayed #i need to emphasize that you are allowed to dislike art for whatever reason. there's some art i don't like for pretty petty reasons... #...but i don't think that requires me demanding artists to be ashamed and self-deprecate whenever they dare show their pieces #i think so many people are conditioned into self-hatred that anybody who shows any level of self-respect is off-putting though #like that's something i've really noticed a lot #and i think this is an aspect of the trend towards seeing self-hatred as neutral and even good

[icewindandboringhorror]

Hrmm... Revising my game and I feel like there's still sooo much writing left to do, for something that probably won't even amount to much, so.. I do want to narrow my focus more (especially given my health problems seeming to get worse/less energy the past few years), but I'm not sure how would be best to...

I currently have 5 characters as the Main ones with full planned questlines and such, with each character having 6 quests you can do for them. But I haven't really started the writing for the 5th main character. So then I was thinking, if I were going to write 6 full quests worth of content anyway... is it better to allocate that time on just doing a Complete 6 Quests for ONE single character, OR would it be better to do something like.. choose THREE side characters and do 2 quests for each of them? So that people have a wider variety to interact with and sort of sample around (of course with the idea that, once the first version of the game is released, IF people actually care about it enough to make it worth the effort, I would then add additional content to complete those 3 characters stories as well)

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SO... If you were playing an interactive fiction sort of game centered around talking to & doing quests for a cast of characters (like there's no larger plot, more it's just about interacting with people, every character kind of has a self contained story, the focus is just learning about them and the world and exploring the area) --- Which would you rather have?

(and of course it would be stated up front which characters have only partial questlines, so people don't expect them to have full quests like the others and then get disappointed, or etc. etc.)

Basically, is it better to just focus in specifically on having one fully complete questline? Or for there to be a few stories that are not complete yet, but have more initial options available?

#I guess I just feel weird about investing too much into characters if possibly nobody will like them. so the idea of being able to sample #around a wider variety opens up the option of like 'hey even if neither of these 4 are your favorite - you have 3 other options soon too!' #or whatever. BUT I also am very anti-the trend of releasing half finished games or shit like that where people preorder and then #the game sucks on actual release and isn't fully playable or good until 5 updates later #HOWEVER.. those are giant companies with hundreds of employees and millions in funding. I feel like it's different for someone #if they're just like ''hey I am getting zero money for this and doing it entirely on my own in my free time and before I do like 50+ hours #of work on top of the 100+ hours of work that I already did - I would like maybe to at least see some proof #people are interested in this - so I'm releasing the game with like a small amount of the originally intended content removed #that I still have planned out and hope to add later and the game is still entirely done and completely functional #except for just a few quests I might add later.. sorry'' etc. etc. ??? like I think that's different. but maybe some people dont see #it that way and would still be like 'grrr.. how dare there be unfinished options..>:V" idk #And the nature of the quests is such that it's not weird to have it be partial like.. again.there's no major plot. it's not like the quests #are leading up to some dramatic thing and having them half done would make it feel like a cliffhanger. It's meant to be very casual just #chilling and doing little tasks and such. And last thing to clarify I guess - by 'side character' I don't mean taking some unimportant bac #ground character and forcing them to have quests. I mean like.. originally the game had 8 full characters and I thought that was #too much so I cut it down to 5. So I still had everything planned for all the side characters too. Id' just be like.. re-giving them #quests and focuses that were already planned from the beginning but that I got rid of.. former main characters banished to the side lol.. #ANYWAY... hrmm... hard to decide... It's just so niche I think. I feel more and more like I should just get it to a 'proof #of concept' state and get it out there to interest check rather than invest in it soooo much for nothing. Because I really do not have the #tastes other people do or interact with games or have interest in things in the same way. A lot of the stuff that I love (slow. character #focused things with basicaly no action or plot where its' just about getting to explore a world and learn about #people in a casual low stakes setting but ALSO not romance) I think people find very boring so... lol... #This year as I try to pick the project back up again after abandoning it for like 3 years I keep looking at stuff and going.. ough... #yeah... cut this maybe.. I should cut that too.. I should make them a side character.. remove this.. blah blah.. #Though I did ADD a journal and inventory system and other things that like People Expect Games To Have so.. maybe #that will count for something.. hey..you can collect items.. it's not just 'talking to elves for 600 hours simulator'.. are you #entertained yet? lol.... When I was making my other tiny game for that pet website and I gave it to the play testers and someone was like #''it should have achievements so I feel I'm working towards something concrete'' I was literally so blindsided like..??... people WANT that #in games..? is the goal not simply to wander aimlessly &fixate on world/character lore& make your own silly pointless personal goals? I did #do them though because it IS fun to make up little achievement names and such but.. i fear i am out of touch so bad lol..

[snekdood]

Some of yall deeply underestimate how much some cis men are threatened by trans men and our masculinity. How theres so many cis dudes out there that want to rape us, thinking that will make us detransition. How many incels out there are mad at us for betraying womanhood and not sucking their dick. How much they want to force us to detransition, how much they want to kill us and force us into hiding which, to me, minus well be killing us since theyre smothering who we are for the sake of a status quo. We shake their fundamental understanding of the world. Its one thing for a GIRL to be a tomboy to them. They think its cute, like a baby pretending to be an adult. Its a whole other thing for someone percieved as a woman to try to actually be a man to them. They think thw fact we have the gal to assume we can escape their grasp, to escape the kitchen or whatever tf, means we're disrespecting them and trying to "destroy" them, rather than what it really is, us trying to be independent. We're the exact thing these types of cis men hate. Sometimes they tolerate (emphasis here bc im not saying they accept yall. Dont twist my words)trans women bc they fetishize them but they want to completely eradicate us becayse we threaten the patriarchy by virtue of deciding we dont need a man to take care of us, we want to be the man that takes care of ourselves.

#and bc ik how some of yall are on this site and how uncharitable you are let me be clear: just because they TOLERATE trans women/fems #sometimes. doesnt mean i think they actually respect you or see you as you. im not abot to say you somehow have it easier. they want to use #you and then dump your body somewhere. im well aware of that. but they *also* want to entirely entrap us and our identities and keep us #smothered with no escape. its why were seeing child marriage laws. its why were seeing anti abortion laws. its why we're seeing rights #stripped away from ppl wrongly percieved as women becayse theyre so threatened by us and how we think we can be on our own #that they have to try more extreme measures ro control us our bodies and self expression. its why candace owens goes on saying #'does women voting actually do any good for anyone??' #and no. entrapment isnt them somehow caring about us mlre than you. thats their alternative to killing us but its not an alternative bc it #fundamentally strips us of our rights and autonomy. and also. entrapping us and forcing us out of our gender. like i said. minus well be #killing us. its not likely we'll just get to run away free from these men if they get this type of power. its more likely they kill us for #even daring to betray them their values and words. #so how tf is anyone more privileged in this situation? in trans spaces? can we really fucking say someone has it worse rn. #is it really worth it to try to divide and weigh who has it worse. bc they want both os us dead for being who we are. #and its not like they dont offer yall an out to. its just their out is ALSO basically killing yourself bc they want you to conform to #cishet white manhood. #also it goes both ways. cis women are like this towards trans women. its the proximity effect. #where you get more upset with different people who are also more like you than other ppl #the difference i'd argue though is cis men- at least the ones in power- have more of an ability to remove us than cis women #like its easier for them to do.

[kaltacore]

one super important detail about carver's 'pro-templar' stance is that he openly admits that he never saw magic as a threat before kirkwall. he can be petty and constantly annoyed by his siblings being all magical and special but he never thought of them as abominations who need to be locked up for everyone's safety. kirkwall is the reason he starts to express doubts and we know how fucked up the veil here is.

if he joins the order, he does that out of necessity but i'd say he's also that rare templar who's motivated not by fear for himself but by fear for the people he cares about and at least one of them is a mage. this city is full of demons and abominations and blood magic, situation here is a lot more complicated than in ferelden and there's also his not-so-almighty mage sibling who doesn't seem to be concerned about this. even though they can be killed by one of these things. even though they can become one of them.

also he desperately needs purpose and if he was never taken to the expedition he finds one and does so by his own choice. and for the moment he thinks it's the right thing to do but the order never helps him resolve his doubts. he's never proven wrong because there are still demons and abominations threating the city. he's never proven right because some things templars do are completely unjustifiable and straight up cruel. this is not the purpose he wanted. this is not the reason worth deeping the rift between him and his sibling even more than it already was but it's too late to quit just like that. it's not like he despised the templars. it's not like he didn't understand them completely. but the way he bitterly says "you don't understand this life. i didn't" to sebastian summarises how complicated his time in the order was all along

#honestly i wouldn't say that carver is a good templar. he's loyal to whoever he serves but that's just. his way of things #good templar fucking hates mages. it's not like i'm exaggerating tho. almost all templar characters who got major promotions in the games #were traumatized by some magic accident first and then were allowed to work with mages. while they were dreaming of massacring them #or they were just. willing to kill and torture people with no traumatizing background or whatever. even better #carver is just not like that. he thinks this is a respected promising job. he can see a point of it #and then we have these cut lines where cullen mentions templar!carver was threating anyone who dared to mention hawke. well #is he that pro-templar tho. or was he just raised among mages for all his life and was taught to believe that magic is a normal thing #but then got exposed to the whole city where mages were causing problems. a lot. and started to wonder if his family was just an exception #(yeah yeah mages were not in fact the root of a problem but we're talking about character's point of view here #and carver is a lot more concerned about his place in said family and the world and his relationships with his sibling #than the veil and stuff) #as a result we get a story about distancing yourself from the people you love for a cause that was not worth it #a cause you chose and regretted but some things cannot be undone and you have to live with it now #i don't usually go for this route but it is so tragic actually. hits almost as hard as warden bethany #carver hawke #dragon age

[coquelicoq]

oh no this reality dating show is really sweet actually. this was not supposed to happen. crap. crap. i didn't sign up for this!

#dammit! they're all flawed people in whom i am rapidly becoming invested! how dare they make me care about their contrived #relationship problems!!! #i was supposed to feel soooo above it all but now i want to see them grow up happy and healthy :((((((( #FUCK! SHIT! MERDE ALORS! #on the one hand the premise of the show is genius and perfectly tailored to avoid the main things i don't like about reality dating shows #on the other hand i just find it so ridiculous that anyone would go on this show that i can't take these people seriously #or i THOUGHT i couldn't! but now i don't know!!! #and they're all so young so that's helping me cut them some slack #one couple is 24 and has been together 5 years and i'm like oh babes. of course you're doing this. good for you. live a little #television #my posts #also just heard a guy use 'dont'. hand to god #the donts are out there. i'm not making this up!! #granted he didn't really say much of a word there...it was like d[rest of word is swallowed] #but it had to be dont just based on the syntax and the fact that it definitely wasn't duquel #anyway the show is called the ultimatum france #probably that is not the french title lol #i think it's probably l'ultimatum: on se marie ou c'est fini #anyway this was NOT how i planned to spend my evening. peeved at my sister and these complex humans and the world in general rn #how dare you how dare they &c &c

[cakemoney]

i don't want to put my uninformed foot in my mouth or get involved with the Discourse but i've been seeing the two extremes of reactions to the korean low birth rates issue (on tumblr and twitter both) and i'm just kind of like. look. i feel like "low birth rates (in many countries but especially japan and korea as part of this conversation) are more broadly the result of capitalism/a culture of overwhelming overwork that makes social relationships and having families incredibly inaccessible to young people" and "low birth rates are very much a part of the current conversation about misogyny and social expectations for women in korea especially in the context of reproduction as 'unpaid labor' for women" are statements that can both be true

#laughs awkwardly #gender #especially considering the ways patriarchal expectations and capitalism very much intersect in terms of quality of life for women #ex. women being expected to have kids / raise kids / do all the housework and cooking in a relationship #while ALSO existing in a society where women (even married women) have to work demanding jobs to deal with the high cost of living #AND women are systemically discriminated against in terms of pay / job availability / work environment and harassment #all of these things add up. these conversations are not opposing points of view. you know? #and also like. not super comfortable with how TERFs are discussed in terms of non-white cultures #TERFism / radfems as a MOVEMENT (and a cult) is very much rooted in white supremacy / ideals of womanhood #again. multiple things can be true at the same time. yes i do see (from my perspective involved in taiwanese social media) #some east asian feminists engage in transphobia in ways that approach radfem rhetoric ('women are victims of men' 'men are predators' #type generalized sentiments which you can imagine gains a lot of traction among women traumatized by patriarchy) #but movement-wise i don't think it's fair (or just in good faith) to generalize radical feminists from non-white countries #to straight up TERFs. which again. rooted in white supremacy. keep feeling like i have to remind people it doesn't make sense #for asians to be white supremacists and that not all oppression on earth stems directly from white people. you weirdos #'what are you talking about' in east asia the type of feminist statements called 'radical' are stuff like. #women shouldn't have to wear make up every time they go outside. women shouldn't be expected to do all housework. #should men pay for women on dates. debates that i think in the states we kind of take for granted as stuff settled years ago #even if some feminists might be transphobic it's not necessarily Transphobia As Core Tenets Of The Movement. does anyone get the difference #basically what i'm saying is. wow these tags got long. maybe let's not apply uniform standards of 'correct language and values' #to non-white people and attack them when as all movements they are fluid and influenced by the people living in it #TERF-style transphobia is not the predestined course for them. maybe it's more productive to have open discussions about transphobia #to work towards inclusivity and solidarity in these movements than to prescribe White Internet Morality to them #and declare that they're evil when they are still very much having conversations that need to be had. thanks i think that's all #essentially. i find that 'how dare a non-american movement not have morally pristine vocabulary priorities and membership #as determined by white leftists' to be in itself kinda a racist attitude

[ranger-kellyn]

i say this as someone who has been working on taking this to heart as well, but like......babes....y'all have GOT to let go of the need to have your art is interpreted exactly as you intended it to be. you're fighting a losing battle. nobody, literally NOBODY. will interpret it exactly as you intended it to. that's the beauty of art!

stop needing to control every little thing!! let people interpret it how they want!! even if it's the exact opposite of your own intention!

and i know this is easier said than done, but stop stressing about the bad faith takes as well!!! that says way more about them than it ever will about you!!! block and move the fuck on. or turn off comments! most places let you do that now.

if you're literally so pressed about someone interpreting your art "wrong", you should probably just use geocities or something else and make your own website to host your work, or just stop posting on such public websites in the first place. you will never be able to control how people interpret things, so stop stressing about things you literally have no control over.

#was watching this really good animatic over on youtube but the intro was this long pause going on and on about how #''this isn't about shipping!!! don't you dare think this is about shipping!!! i don't want anyone thinking this is about shipping! #I don't want anyone to think /I/ actually ship these two!!'' #and it's like............. #who????? cares?????????? #like in some ways i understood bc it was something that could easily fall under rpf but like babes the people who are into rpf are going to #get their ship fix from your work all the same #if people in your life would literally cancel you or try to ruin your life over just the THOUGHT of you being into rpf-- #i hate to tell you but you need better friends #like rpf isn't my thing but i don't care if someone is into it tbh #so long as they're following the same courtesy i do with my own fics of 'you don't send it to the people/things it's about' #i would never send or even mention my fics to any of cynthia or diantha's VAs if i had the chance #don't send to/tag in/etc to the people it's about #i care far more about a person's real life tangible acts than whatever 'weird' fictional shit they're into #stop giving in to the thought police #anyways this is a very roundabout way of me saying neo-puritanism is going to be the death of art #talking tag

[nyankoizumi]

how it feels to chew five stickmen.                           stimulate your senses

#avm #read this if you dare #this doesnt even come CLOSE to explaining everything goin on inside my head #but i guess i can note some stuff #firstly blue is such a little hater because he REALLY isnt cool with people who have hurt his friends #its like they get all older brother about it so thats why they still hate mango's guts #two a lot of the color gang consider red as a younger brother/just a sibling #and three the romantic relationships; purple might've sorta developed a crush on green but he doesnt know that #so he thinks of them as a friend and they dont wanna mess things up so to the friendzone they go #next endie and red have a thing for each other but endie is so dense about it and they dont see each other enough to go anywhere #so they stay friends for now but the others all know endie has a massive crush on red #and lastly vic has given mango the tittle of hot guy i wont shut up about except he doesnt know them so its a bit weird and parasocial #you know the drill #and all of these. arent fully canon in my mind it depends #im not one to genuinely believe in ships in canon unless stated otherwise by the media #maybe purple is the exception cus i see him doing that thing where someone your age shows you a pixel of kindness and you're head over heels #animation vs Minecraft #i actually reccomend doing this even if its not understandable too #its fun to think about #OH and green has a complicated relationship with mango because he isnt sure he's good for purple yet he has to prove himself #but he wont tell him that #on the other hand mango respects him as purple's friend #im not tagging all of these #avm ships #i guess

[redrockbutch]

There is a not insignificant portion of disabled people who saw all the jokes about "do yoga to cure your Parkinson's" and assumed that applies to literally any prescribed movement whatsoever and they are furious if you point out that stretching throughout the day or going to a physical therapist might help even a little and I don't fucking get it

Some people lash out even if all you say is "moving an arm you get a vaccine in will prevent that dead-arm thing!" like it is the most virulent, defensive insistence on being utterly doomed and nothing could possibly ever help and I don't fucking get it

#there are obviously exceptions to this but the online disabled community acts like every single one of them is an exception #and all PT is just doctors trying to hurt you and not listening #and I'm sorry but being sedentary is much more harmful to most people #it is highly unlikely that resting forever is going to suddenly give you more energy and movement but PT probably will #and this isn't possible for everyone! and that's okay! #but absolutely nothing has been better for my fucked wrists than using them and building up muscle support around the joints #whenever I slack is when pain pops up and this is not uncommon!!! #idk. I think it's a reaction to having your boundaries pushed constantly but #sometimes. speaking personally. saying 'I can't do that' is actually just saying 'I won't even try and you can't make me' #bc it's the only way to assert autonomy #this does not make it a good impulse and people hang on to it for a really long time and won't even consider it's unhelpful #sigh #disability is difficult but you almost certainly Can affect your circumstances in Some Way and that will make you feel better abt yourself #cassidy.txt #and this is not about 'I went and it was unhelpful' this is 'how DARE you imply stretching can cure chronic pain!!!!' #okay well no one said that

[holyshit]

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#'fandom rant' anon #yes feel free to always come to me if you want to rant <3 i get it lol #and yeah i've definitely noticed that to- i love people not blindly following their faves and having a healthy level of criticism #because that's super important! hero worship is never good! #but yeah then you get some people who fall back on that when they legitimately don't seem to like them or one of them anymore #and it begs the question why they're still here if they're disappointed by everything they do #not in a 'how dare you be disappointed in my fave way!!!!!' (because i don't care) but in the way that they don't seem happy to be here #i do think it's complex because people have complicated relationships with these kinds of things- like they used to bring you joy but now #they don't and it's hard to give something up #but there's some people i genuinely think would be happier if they took a step back so they could realize whether this fandom is genuinely #something that makes them happy or not #and then proceed from there #because they just seem to be angrier and angrier or sadder and sadder as they move through the fandom #and even though we deal with some heavier topics in this fandom- it is still a fandom and the purpose should be having fun #and yesss about what you said about expectations #i really dislike the catastrophizing that happens in fandom so often #like i understand trying to brace yourself for the worst but when you're constantly spreading the worst case scenario #it's just.... needlessly miserable. especially when the worst case scenario doesn't happen the majority of the time so you end up with so #many people anxious or disappointed about something that hasn't even happened yet lmao #and like you said- it doesn't end up being a 'bracing yourself' situation when people are just as angry and disappointed when it does happen #and also 100% about people getting mad at others for not being angry enough or sad enough- that is entirely unfair and more of #a 'misery loves company' than anything because this is a FANDOM. you should want people to have fun! you shouldn't want them to be stressed #and anxious constantly over celebrity's lives. we have enough anxiety about our own lives lmao #sorry this is making your fandom experience worse than it needs to be :/ it is hard to avoid sometimes #hopefully you find people to follow that make you more happy than sad or anxious #ily!! #asks #anonymous

[srvphm]

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#3rd FUCKING TIME of getting my vent/personal sideblog nuked #I get why the two previous ones were deleted. still pissed but understandable #but this one?? I made sure to never break the tos and I don’t think I ever did #none of my posts ever got flagged #youre not allowed to be mentally ill online anymore its fucking infuriating #oh you can say pretty much anything is an adhd symptom and you can armchair diagnose anyone with NPD #but if you dare show a symptom you are out. it’s not allowed. #protect people etc etc I get it okay I don’t condone encouraging self harm #but not every post about an ugly topic is promoting it jfc some people just wanna vent or make jokes about their situation or share experien #ofc ill never get it back because they’re not gonna read my appeal #and even if they do and I havent broken tos it’ll still be considered too close to the line or whatever #I’m not here to ~encourage~ anyone and I honestly don’t see how I coukd even go about that #seeing as I DONT romanticise and sugar coat shit. #I should be allowed to have a blog that makes some people uncomfortable. they can fuck off if they don’t like it. #but noooo it’s harmful to be unwell. coke zero memes is promoting self harm apparently. having unsettling thoughts is dangerous. #and that’s over a year of posting gone in a second #and yet another good url I’m never getting back :)

[junepegbert]

brndnelas smmlsaaal

#ksospspspsuygsgdhdh…….&.&.$: #so anyways. #it’s soooooooo. unfortunate. #how much i hate the idea of being cared for #or well i don’t hate it #it just feels. wrong on every level #like all day today whenever one of my buds tried cheering me up i ended up wincing cause it felt so wrong #and like i love it and i appreciate it because it’s more than i could kindness than i’d ever dare ask for or much less wish for #but i still can’t get over the idea that i haven’t earned it or don’t deserve to feel bad or whatever #i mean part of it’s also how i struggle actively helping myself #ie there are things i know make me be better. but i actively chose to avoid doing them #because well on some fundamental level i don’t really want to feel good. like at the core of my being i do deserve to feel awful constantly #but i rarely do feel bad because i get used to whatever problems too fast #so i dunno. i guess i just hold onto whatever sadness or anything i get because it’s the closest to me ‘getting what i deserve’ that i’llget #and i don’t want these people i love to worry about me or even think about me in the context of someone who needs help but i’m still just. #like. some dumb kid y’know. and it’s so upsetting all the time #and i dunno i guess i could go on about my dad #and say something like ‘ah with him i had to earn love and respect! these people just love me no matter what and it feels wrong’ but that’d #simplify this way too much. i’m just kinda miserable at the core of the concept of ‘me’ #so i dunno. it’s hard. i don’t like it. and i don’t think i realistically can get better from it #because well i only ever day dream about getting *worse* #and getting everyone around me to finally see me for who i think i am and so they all leave me #but it’s so. i dinno. #vent

[theamazingannie]

The fact that Parkland and March For Our Lives and everything started my senior year of high school and i just graduated college and nothing has fucking changed is just absolutely devastating and infuriating

#we live in a world where you are either subjected to terrible news constantly all the time #or you feel guilty for daring to try to enjoy your life while terrible things are happening #and it’s just so exhausting #TikTok is supposed to be where I go to watch cats and funny skits #but i follow so many teachers and they’re all talking about this #and i follow lawyers who are all talking about this #and even the customer service people I follow are talking about it #like the barista who talked about how people came in to plan an nra fundraiser event #literally the day after this happened #and i got out #i dont go to school anymore #but that doesnt mean i dont open my phone every day and learn about some new tragedy that happened #to fucking babies #and i have to finish packing but how am I supposed to do that when all I can think about is children dying #and the people who Can actually fucking do something about it don’t care #not to mention I’m going to be living with my conservative parents for a little bit #and i swear to god if they say anything about this I think that might destroy my relationship with them for good