#starve your heart

[smash-chu]

Long distance loneliness

#my art #doodles #smash-chu's art #not having the luxury of being able to just drive and see someone i know and love #having all my human connection come from digital screens when not visiting my family once or twice a year #it makes your heart sink down into a place that is hard to get out of #a place of acceptance that i will just have to live with being lonely #i love my friends #i just wish they weren't so spread out away from me #in a way i was left back here cause i was the only one that didn't move back to their parents #and now i struggle alone being comforted via keeping in touch online #but it can never replace seeing face to face #getting to be right there next to someone #touch starved is a understatement #but for now that is just how it has to be #anyways #my period is frying my brain making every feeling feel more intense so i feel super fucking alone right now #it's fine it'll go back to being numb soon enough #but sometimes you just need to let stuff out

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hanguang-Jumpkick

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #xue yang #lan wangji #blood #This was supposed to be no.69 but I forgot that I don't number the bonus episodes B*( In my heart it's 69. #LWJ hasn't had dialogue in 10+ comics but that's because his mouth has been busy biting and ripping and tearing into flesh #He and LXC never fought as children so he has all this pent up rough and tumble energy he needs to let out #A LWJ does not hunt for sport. A untamed LWJ hunts to protect his territory and a tamed one hunts on command #however it is very hard to get the loyalty of a LWJ. One must prove themselves worthy by demonstrating acts of standing up for justice #once a LWJ chooses you then he will stay by your side forever. #He will need daily nutrients in the form of head pets. Do not let him starve #I had a lot of alternates for the third panel line. Hanguang-jun-jitsu. Going for the Hanguang-jugular. Hanguang-judge jury and executioner #Hanguang-june means Hanguang-jokes

[skyisgreen-grassisblue]

aghhh i’ve been thinking about the httyd books again and how Absolutely Insane they are…. i ADORE watching people react to them because there’s this one point in the series where everything just feels different. and they don’t give you time to process what on earth happened before launching you head first full speed into one of the best pieces of literature i think i’ve ever read

#i think the point in the series where something ‘changes’ is when we first meet excellinor #as soon as her presence is felt theres just something looming over the rest of the events #that feeling is more prominent when we meet furious too #for the rest of the book theres just something There. something isnt quite right bc what the fuck did we just read #and then all the books following that are DIFFERENT and book 9 (i cant remember if this is there for the other books) #has a warning at the beginning??? like. hey. shit has changed. #and btw these books do an Amazing job at describing fear #the scene with hiccup in the tree trying to escape the witch is chilling #the audiobooks only enhance it #httyd books #how to train your dragon #how to break a dragon's heart #also im making a post ab this later but this was all inspired bc i read the little short side books #and i was really startled when i finished how to train your viking - a mostly light hearted book #and then went into the day of the dreader and it casually informed us that everyone on berk was slowly starving to death WHAT??? #its been so long since ive experienced that kind of whiplash from these books it had me a little :’)

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Anders buddy i have barely done anything 😭

#anders when you show him a bit of basic kindness: you have my deepest gratitude and devotion and i am madly in love with you #buddy. friend. please raise your standards ToT #poor guy is so starved for affection #(& misses the vigils keep gang probably (no bioware i dont believe u that they hate each other now)) #laya plays dragon age #also liams start of his friendship w merrill is so. he never really agreed to bring her along and kinda is uncomfy around her #cus of her whole blood magic deal any everything #but shes also so genuine and lonely and sweet?? and he doesnt have the heart to tell her uh no id rather not come visit regularly actually #(which is true for his friendship with anders too tbh LOL he wanted to keep his distance but also hes so sad and lonely) #((this is ALSO mutually true for him and varric lmao)) #his and varrics first shared trait: getting accidentally attached to people xdd #my ocs #oc: liam hawke #since i got rambly abt him in the tags again lol

[hope-ur-ok]

I am once again just horrified by how many people there are in the world who think the mass suffering of children is okay

#the turtle speaks #like look i get that geopolitics are complicated and finding functional solutions that people will actually agree to is hard #but to just be perfectly okay and unaffected by or - god forbid encouraging of - children being scared cold starving and facing death #thats just absolutely bat shit #and if you support that with your whole heart i do in fact think you are a bad person who doesn't care about others

[ghostforwhat]

when you’re off of work would you please elaborate on your hannibal service top agenda,,, please my family is starving

i don’t want anyone to starve so obviously I will extrapolate on the service top aspect of Hannibal Lecter o7!! I am going to get so carried away and I apologize in advance.

Alright going to start this off by saying I do think they’re vers but only in regards to each other, I think for canon relationships, Will has a tendency to allow himself to be directed while Hannibal loves to orchestrate. With each other, though, it grows increasingly and alluringly complicated. Arguments could be made and subsequently thrown out depending on what part of the show you’re watching and post fall is an entire free-for-all because you can’t tell me two grown men survive murder-suicide via cliff and then settle into the puritanical rigidity of who tops and who bottoms.

Okay that being said, honestly i could make the case that both of them lean more toward making sure whoever they’re with is getting the most out of the encounter (maybe for different reasons; the popular trope of Will’s empathy causing a sort of blissful feedback loop and in Hannibal’s case, it stands to reason the politeness overlaps with a challenging sort of hedonism, he’s in control and playful about it) but I think that specifically for Hannibal, Will’s reactions are what he’s constantly seeking and then hoarding. Like. Will responding to stimuli that Hannibal presents is basically the premise of the show and Hannibal very clearly gets off on that, maybe not anywhere explicitly but we see shots of his pupils dilating, his gaze always caught on Will, licking his lips, all in response to Will reacting to him. It’s very rare he’s outright hungry at the beginning of a conversation or interaction, he seems to maintain a sense of aloofness until Will snarks or baits or replies or even defers and then, it’s as though he’s desperate to see more. I'm not getting into the whole them eating meals together because I'll devolve very quickly but like. just keep in mind the way Hannibal watches Will eat, as though he savors Will instead of the meal he cooked. Right. Okay. He gets caught up in Will’s responses very quickly, enraptured and almost stupid about it and trying to immediately trigger more which!! Goes hand and hand with him doing very uh lets say unique acts of service (the malewife jokes are only half jokes); the breakfasts & dinners, the driving, the caretaking. Yes all that’s manipulative but to Hannibal, that doesn’t negate that it’s still getting him the responses he wants and that’s also maybe why he’s so quick to say they’re friends because he’s viewing it as a form of relationship building and quite frankly, that is the only way that man knows how to build relationships; he sets himself up as a crutch and then breaks your leg and unfortunately at that point, for Will, for Jack, for Abigail, for Bedelia, for Chiyoh, you are too grateful to be standing that you forget he’s the reason you can’t do it on your own. The others I mentioned learn either very quickly or very (in painful irony) rudely that he is only a crutch as long as he enjoys it, as long as he can benefit from holding you aloft.

However. In Will’s case, he tries to remove himself and finds that it’s him who can’t stand and he’s immediately resentful and desperate to take back that ability, leaving another gift, another act of service, for Will to prove that he can still provide it and detrimentally putting himself on the map for Jack and Mason in the process. He’s so eager to have Will’s response, he waits at his own fucking crime scene. Will gives him what he wants and he’s too overwhelmed to respond with any sort of power or immediate selfishness, he runs again. And then. Muskrat Farms and his surrender. I feel like I don’t even need to explain why that backs up my case here, that man is so so ready to rescue and then surrender all because Will’s involved; two things he’s never done in his entire life, they essentially reduce him to this almost pathetic thing and it doesn’t give him pause at all because again, they’re acts of service whether Will wants them at that point or not. Like Bedelia said it best, he’s obsessed, he wants every reaction, every word, every sigh and curse, he’s very single-minded about getting them and he doesn’t care who he has to hurt, himself or others, to get them. Now, combine all that and the cliff scene and tell me that man doesn’t spend every second they’re in a bed together completely and utterly focused on Will and Will alone.

#NORTH UR PFP THREW ME OFF I WAS LIKE HELLO RANDOM BLOG I WILL ELABORATE YES #but also hiiiii what are you doing for the rest of your life and can it be me #haha jk....unless? #i'm literally holding so much back lmao like i didn't even touch on Will's response and manipulation of that behavior #tdlr when i write top hannibal its always going to be him makin will come like 3 times before he even remembers to get off n i stand by tha #so so sorry for this but also i am not at all and am completely correct #top hannibal can be good #theres just an overabundance of sadist/power topping which doesn't always mesh well i feel like idk #that man is hungry in every possible way for Will and when youre starved you don't stop to see if youre full you eat until you can't #but then again what do i know i am a dom Will advocate at heart #be he gentle or not #teacupmotif #asks !

[avallachs]

btw i have 0 respect for people refusing to stay informed about israel and palestine because of their “mental health”

#wow it must be sooooooo hard for you to hear about people being starved + dehydrated + bombed + dehumanised + denied medical care #under attempted extermination from a genocidal ethnostate. wonder what it’s actually like for them. but don’t you worry about that though. #your mental health is more important 💕 fuck you. from the bottom of my heart. fuck you. #ophelia.txt

[rose-colored-lottie]

Courtney Eaton: Belize

#courtney eaton #yellowjackets #lottie matthews #WIFEY LIVES #she should take a holiday in Melbourne next #and sneak me a copy of parachute #a girl is starving #did your heart fall to your ass when you saw she posted a video thinking it was her singing or are you normal? #never been sadder to hear nature

[janaknandini-singh999]

currently thinking about how even the most cruel and cold emperor Aurangzeb got so melted and mesmerized by a Hindu classical dancer mistress that he legit FAINTED on seeing her for the first time in a garden

full story here

#there was this play in college about Aurangzeb and this mysterious lover of his #so there was this girl who was playing her and was so nervous for giving the audition #they had chosen her coz she was also a kathak dancer so character ig? #anyway she was practicing and freaking out more and more coz she couldn't get her lines right #I went over to help her and she was so relieved that she told me to be Aurangzeb for one line so she could practice and recite her part #I said ok #I was supposed to say “toh shayari ka bhi shauq rakhti hain aap?” #she looked at me up and down and whispered “nahi sirf ishq ka” #I STARTED COUGHING SM SHE WAS LIKE KYA HUA ARE YOU OK YOUR GAAL ARE ALL LAAL AND I WAS LIKE MAAAAM??? GAY PANIC HO GAYA IDHARRR #LIKE BRO. #the way she looked at me I- #I'm warning y'all these gay bitches are deadly af but they're too starved to do anything about it it's me I'm bitches #later there was this part where Aurangzeb would pluck a flower and she would say “Arey nahi- mera matlab hain huzoor poora bageecha #aapka hi toh hain bas woh phool mat todiye kyuki woh jodo mein khilte hain toh aap ek bhi todenge toh dusra murjhaajayega #foreshadowing her unfortunate early death :( which drowned Aurangzeb in grief and made him so cold hearted #desi aesthetic #desiblr #desi tag #desi #desi culture #desi stuff #desi academia #desi dark academia #desi girl #just desi things

[irbcallmefynn]

One of the few plusses of being touch starved is people can say they're petting me or rubbing my belly or squishing my face and my genuine responses make them happy and that makes me extra happy. It's like I get bonus points and they get a little return on their investment!

#bedposting #touch starved #like when you say your petting me or squishing my face and i start keysmashing or going awawawa i honestly mean it #and you showing that my response made you happy too is just gonna make me even happier #it's basically the secret to my heart <3 #and some of you already kinda cracked this code and that's why i love you so so much. you know who you are! :3

[hephaestuscrew]

The amount of platonic love and tenderness in Michael's farewell letter to Louisa is off the charts. And one of the signs of that love is the kind of focus Michael places on small mundane things about Louisa. Like the detail with which he describes the ways she laughs: "your short little laugh. Not quite a bark, but a shift so sudden that it has to be genuine. [...] So real, never forced. No melody to it, really, but still musical. Sometimes short and guttural. Sometimes a cackle, like notes going up a scale". Michael describes Louisa's laughter in such a specific way that shows the attention he pays to her and the way he holds her ordinary mannerisms in his mind. He doesn't describe her laugh with the kind of typical compliments that could be seen as generic - it's so clear that these descriptions are specific to Louisa and his memories of her, and there's so much love in that specificity. 

Then there's the story of Michael bringing whiskey back from the kitchen without even realising, and the way he remembers Louisa's expression when she noticed: "everything, everything I needed to know was there, every freckle and contour. There was no judgment. Your face was open, your eyes soft and understanding, your mouth bent into the smallest knowing grin, your expression just barely pinched, just a touch of pain". There's something so profound to me about the level of attention he pays to the details of her expression, and how those small signals communicated something important between them without words.

These are two characters whose relationship has been repeatedly confirmed to be purely platonic (and remaining platonic) both within the podcast and by the show creators. It means so much to me that as part of that platonic dynamic, Michael pays such close loving attention to Louisa, and he remembers these ordinary details even when he's dying and hasn't seen her in months, and he says things like "your face, I could fall into it, like it was a calm lake or a pool. I could fall into it and float."

#Greater Boston #Greater Boston podcast #Michael Tate #Louisa Alvarez #You know that post that's like 'mortifying ordeal of being known and all that #but sometimes a friend mentions something small about you #and you feel like your heart is being cradled in their hands'? #That's what I think about when I think about Michael starving to death after months of isolation #and yet still holding in his mind the specific sound of Louisa's laugh #and the way she looked at him in a moment of vulnerability #Sometimes I think about Michael saying 'It will be that look that welcomes me to whatever’s next' #or how Michael is always afraid but not with or of Louisa #and I have to sit down for a while... #If you'll allow me a ramble #I think often having a high level of loving focus on someone's small characteristics #- particularly on things like their face or their voice - #is seen as inevitably a romantic indicator #and I think that assumption dismisses the experience of looking at - or thinking about - a friend #and feeling so full of platonic love at their ordinary details #not because of how they look or indeed because of any of those individual details themselves #but because those details are a part of someone you love and so they become suffused with love #And that's something I hear in the way Michael talks about Louisa's laugh #Their friendship is so beautiful #Even if he didn't call her his best friend or say he loves her in his farewell letter. you'd know it from every other sentence #Greater Boston podcast spoilers #Greater Boston spoilers #the empty man posteth

[rafent]

cannoli - how does your muse express love? how do they act when in love that differs from how they act around others normally?

𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒 ( also asked by @twistedisciple )

Rafal's love language relies primarily on materialistic and verbal ways of expressing love. The former is straightforward, easy, and tangible. It requires little explanation, is less compromising compared to outright confessions, and doesn't necessitate putting his heart as openly on display. He gives handmade confections to the Divine One once during their support chain and attempts to do so again in a wake-up event.

Nil was also fond of gift-giving, specifically flowers. Rafal for all his former masquerading did retain parts of Nil that he not only emulated but went on to preserve in his own behavior - unconsciously or otherwise. In terms of verbosity on the other hand, words come to him with a good deal more difficulty. This is also a perfect segue into how he behaves while in love.

The hardship in expressing himself and easy agitation with emotions will perpetually be there, underlying. Rafal's sense of embarrassment at vulnerability is a response to his survival instincts to remain guarded. After centuries of keeping his true feelings and even his identity under lock some part of him will always keep his cards close. But it doesn't mean that he isn't susceptible to cracks; private or veiled moments of appreciation for the one he loves when he thinks they aren't listening.

Rafal: I do not know if I could stand to wait another thousand years. Not for you. I believe I would lose my mind. To mourn for you like that...it would break me.

Alear: (awakens)

Rafal: Ah... No, it was nothing important. I am glad to see that you are awake. Listen...when the end comes...let me be the first of us to sleep eternally.

This eloquence within itself is already a massive difference. The Rafal who is holding himself back or is on platonic terms and the Rafal who is in love and actively being encouraged for his advances are two different beasts. I like to envision a set of floodgates straight up bursting open when it comes to the enamored aspect of this identity. He's bold, forward, possessive, and jealous, but also plaintive, sensitive, and deeply loving once given the green light.

Get past his guilt, move past his walls, and the door opens into someone who essentially sees the object of his love as his priceless treasure. His treasure in every single way who he doesn't want to share with anyone else. In foresight, Rafal is pretty emblematic of how a hoarding dragon might love; selfish, attentive, absorbed, and unwilling to relinquish the jewels in his hoard.

[ Ally notebook — Every Day With Rafal (JPN) ] "He may be easily embarrassed and won't tell you his honest feelings, but he cherishes you deeply. When you're alone with someone, he gets so jealous that he glares at you from afar. He keeps his promise ring in a container made of his own scales and protects it so that no one else can see it let alone touch it."

Oh yeah, and did I mention Rafal is also a cheeky flirt.

Ironically, Rafal is more 'dangerous' when he knows he has the favor to act. He's emboldened, he's passionate, he suggests to spend time together without batting an eye, and doesn't skirt around the prospect of physical relations. Intimacy in this regard is another method he uses to quantify and prove the depth of his regard, which he outright says. This dialogue is exclusive to JPN Rafal's Pact Ring wake-up event.

Rafal: Today I have time...how much I yearn for you...I'll make you understand it.

Whoever he is in love with, he effectively keeps them on their toes and sometimes even walking on a bed of nails which warrants the saying: never a boring day.

#◜ ₊ — 𝓡 ˚ ₊ 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆 𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 ╱ askbox. #◜ ₊ — 𝓡 ˚ ₊ 𝐌𝐄𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐎𝐅 𝐏𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑 ╱ headcanon. #floreix #twistedisciple #“how does your muse act while in love” ummmmmmmm. well- ( proceeds to drop the most loaded response ) #rafal is my favorite partner in the game but more specifically jpn rafal #he has zero chill i can't express that enough #the sense of Heart Palpitations and aggro ping and fight or flight is so real with him #where did this all come from ? answer: being love starved for so long and suddenly releasing those floodgates. also being rafal

[bi4pan-polls]

Bracket

The polls will start on Monday, 3pm EST!

Propaganda is allowed and encouraged

Media and character will be under the cut :D

Left side of the bracket:

Huntlow from the Owl house vs Jesse Swanson/Beca Mitchell from Pitch Perfect

Dimond Heart/Amethyst Heart from Magic Warrior Dimond Heart vs Sayaka Miki/Kyoko Sakura from Madoka Magica

Jesse/Ally from Amphibia vs SatoSugu from Jujutsu Kaisen 

Jay/Kai from Ninjago vs Stephanie Lauter/Peter Spankoffski from Hatchetfield

Nao/Reko from Your turn to die vs Max Bennett/Sandra Wilkinson from The everything goes wrong show

C.A Cuipid/ Venetia SoulSong, Venetia belongs to @rai-knightshade and C.A cupid is from Ever after high vs Alexia/Bernard from Craig in the Creek

Jack Kennedy/ Dave Miller from DSAF vs Rashmeile from Entropic Float

Mel/Cree ocs by @melodemonica vs Webber/Wendy from Don't starve

Right side of the bracket:

Luz/Willow from The owl house vs ItaFushi from Jujutsu Kaisen

Hannigram from Hanniball/Kataang from Avatar the last Airbender

Han/Lando from Star wars vsSakuSyao from Cardcaptor Sakura

Nagisa Misumi/ Honoka Yuskishiro from Precure vs Cassandra/ Alonzo from CATS

Professor Kukui/Professor Burnet from Pokemon vs Spideypool from Marvel

H.G wells / Lenore from Edgar Allen's Poe's murder mystery dinner party vs Sora/Riku from Kingdom hearts

Professor Plum./ Miss Scarlett from Clue vs Draculora/Lagoona from Monster high G3

Travlyn from Aphmau's mystreet/Bumbleby from RWBY

#ninjago #hatchetfield #fandom poll #tournament poll #poll tournament #the owl house #pitch perfect #magic warrior diamond heart #madoka magica #amphibia #jujutsu kaisen #your turn to die #everything goes wrong show #ever after high #craig in the creek #DSAF #entropic float #dont starve #hannibal #avatar the last airbender #star wars #cardcaptor sakura #precure #cats the musical #pokemon #marvel #edgar allen poe's murder mystery dinner party #kingdom hearts #clue #monster high gen 3

[insurged]

find yourself mutuals who will talk about tiddies and pegging over a span of several days

#i will be here trying to get starters replies & asks done :3 #these are words of wisdom talk to your mutuals ooc <3 #it does wonders for the tumblr experience #even random ass vids and pics of anything #just reaching out is enough 😘 #also my muses are touch starved poke them #* ⟢ 𝐎𝐎𝐂 ━ ( clench your asshole super tight & scream it from your heart ) #//ns.fw #just in case lmao

[cosmic-sail0r]

The kingdom hearts fandom is like one of those ecosystems at the bottom of the ocean that goes absolutely nuts when there’s a whale fall acnsncnd

#Like. Listen we’ve been starved of content for over a year and out of nowhere Nomura just drops missing link crumbs? #You bet your ass we’re going nuts ajcnsncdn #I love it here ajcnsncdn #kingdom hearts #Ever speaks

[thebirdandhersong]

you know in terms of the whole body image journey thing, it has been a HUGE relief to be TOLD by my doctor that it was a good thing I gained weight. She was like girl you WERE lighter in high school and that wasn't..... a good thing (paraphrased.... my doctor does not talk like this lol). You're a healthy weight now and I want you to maintain this. Do NOT try to lose any more weight. And I was like okay that's actually......... that really helps, actually. First of all being told to my face that I don't have to lose weight but also that I shouldn't be focusing on going back to what I looked like in high school. It really helped with realising that I should be focusing more on whether or not my body is healthy and functioning and strong.

#also really good to know that i apparently have a strong core >:) #it is easy to play comparison games with my model cousins and my (uni days) model mother but we aren't put on earth for THAT ish! #i'm here to dance and sing and to ilsten to the birds and to write and to read and to laugh with my friends until my stomach hurts #and none of those things requires me to starve myself or to over obsess about things that are in the end a waste of time #say something true and beautiful songbird!!! #anyway it is a GOOD thing to eat good food and to exercise in a way that makes your body and heart and mind happy #and it is a good thing to exist in the body God gave you and to take care of it without beating it up for not being another body #slings and arrows of outrageous fortune in year 21