#technically wednesday now ig

[grapejuicegay]

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#nnnghshsk how is it still only tuesday #technically wednesday now ig #i have to be up in 4 hours but i'm having trouble sleeping #i'm supposed to have the day off friday (hopefully) #but this week feels like 3 weeks already #i just want a day off to do some general cleaning #finishing knitting the one sock i've been trying to work on all week #maybe recolour my hair #i'm thinking purple this time #watch the eclipse!!! #this has been 4 am ramblings with kk #it's not even been a bad week #i'm doing some rlly cool stuff at work that i'm so happy with #and my work is getting a lot better #which is a big middle finger to the imposter syndrome #like there was some pinterest aesthetic boards worthy stuff in there!!! #i'm just tiiiiired

[roosterr]

hiii rooster i just binged your whole masterlist an first off i wanna take a bite out of your writing omg 💖

and second i was wondering if you are working on anything right now? feel free to ignore this if you dont wanna share but im very curious

AAAA HELLO TYSM!!!! that's actually the best kind of compliment you could give lol💕💕

I am working on a few things right now, the first one being a request for soap that has been in my inbox for so long (anon if you see this I'm sorry I promise I'm writing it lmao). second is a lil christmas oneshot price and a civilian s/o that's so self indulgent lol I can't even pretent it's anything else. and the last thing on my list is a fantasy/royal au! for gaz, bit I won't say much else bc I literally never write aus so I'm kinda scared of this one lmao

#ask #ig it is technically wip wednesday #i think you sent this yesterday but its wednesday now lmao

[hanniehaeism]

I have chem Final tmr. Im scared actually

#made me realize I don’t like chem with all that review I did. #and the next day I have a math exam I COULDNT STUDY IT CUZ IM TOO SCARED FOR CHEM I CANT SCREW THIS SHIT UP #SO AFTER I HAVE TO STUDY A HELL LOT OF MATH TOO MY BRAIN ACTUALLY FEELING ALL WEIRD AND MELTING LIKE ITS BECOMING ICE LIQUID #Wednesday is my only free week 😔 #and then prom next weekkkkkk yeyeyey #I need to do good I need to save that stupid 76 on that one test that happened like three months ago #Yk when you get a bad grade or one that you wish you did better on and teachers and social workers and everyone is like you’ll get over it’s #just one sill test NO NO NONONON YOU DONT UNDERSTAND NOW I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING IN POWER TO MAKE SURE IT REALLY DIDNT MATTER #I’m just very paranoid my college will decline my acceptance of my chem grade goes down and my French average is always the bad one I mean #chem isn’t technically bad it’s actually above average but ig not my average I’m just scared dudeeeee idk sorry really dumb rant I need sle

[malkaviian]

me: i am cringe, but i am FREE.

also me: IM SO CRINGE EVERYTHING I DO IS CRINGE I WILL DIE FROM EMBARRASSMENT HOW I DARE TO POST ANYTHING

#currently feeling the second one over my ocs #i think all the posts i have queued on my art blog is oc art so ig i will let them be posted anyway lol #i also think its extremely cringe i have 4 posts in the queue like. dude. why are you drawing so much. youre average. (talking to myself) #my therapist told me i should draw when i was that horrible depressive (?) episode and i guess i took that to heart huh. #and now im having a case of severely overthinking everything like 👍 i cant catch a fucking breath ig #luckily i will have therapy tomorrow<333 (its technically wednesday now) #but im not sure how to bring what exactly is upsetting me without sounding extremely stupid. well i will find a way #negative #kinda

[silent-scribbs]

I was on a posting spree minimum on Twitter bc easy on comp So now that portfolio day is passed and stuff is less mess kinda, I can finally slow back down to my normal schedule (Twitter on Mondays and Tumblr on Wednesdays💜)

So that's what I go do! The schedule is in place for me so that I am posting consistently, but not burning/stressing myself out by doing it daily or every other day and having nothing made/done Besides giving me time for art (4 days worth not including day between posting), it also means I can technically have a life outside of the internet XD Even tho I don't since I have no irl friends near and no job and don't drive

This will not stop me from wanting to check my notifs, and also spam-liking 90% of what I see on twitter notifs for ppl I follow bc FOMO (plus I just like all the art I see and such)

Some silly fun stuff

Currently making a comic where my WH sona is introduced and Wally learns about sneks. sorta. It's on paper and one of my phone screens is now 98% not visible, so I can't rlly take a pic. I'll try and make digital version tho bc the paper version won't be 100% 👌

Also I got a list of things I'm gonna be trying to make/do/finish

Minimum 1 animation (I have a wally one that was a test)

Finish digital painting of Wally (and make the apple LESS PEACHY)

Some of my Welcome Home persona sketches

John Doe bc I wanna get back to the boi 💜

Figure out more stuff to animate/draw

Stuff of my OCs ig lmao

Oh I also need to make an official commissions thing -,_-, I'M CONSTANTLY OPEN TO SOMEONE ASKING ABOUT COMMISSIONING ART FROM ME, I just don't have my info out in the open publicly bc the effort required to make images for it (and also I'm worried that I'm either too specific or not specific enough constantly, but that's why ppl ask questions)

You can always request smth tho 👉👈 I'm open to trying new things even tho I'm super perfectionist about stuff

#maki mayhem #Basically if u want me to make smth #we can talk about it first #then deciding on smth #pay part first for sketching out idea #and you can cancel (no refund) ONLY before confirming sketch (which is when start working fully) #But then that's what I'd do if it required serious sketching work. Aka it's a render. Otherwise #bc it's super simple #full pay upfront and I show progress #BUT I'M TOO SCARED SO ONLY SIMPLE DOODLES AND SUCH FOR RN #So like $5 for smth super simple and no color per character or whatever #$10+ for everything else lmao #If you couldn't tell im awkward and anxious I hope that gives it away #art requests open #until I say so/no more #pls spare me

[raindropsandstardust-blog]

Just got back from my holiday party at work and GOD AM I EXHAUSTED. (read about it under the cut if you want, I had a lot of fun)

It started at midnight with white elephant. I ended up with coffee and a stranger things mug. I don’t like coffee but getting a special interest mug was a win.

Then we had technical difficulties trying to start the movie. Oh yeah I work at a movie theater btw, that’s why this was so late. We did it after close.

After changing the room we were in, we got it working!! We watched the new Puss in Boots movie :D It comes out on Christmas I think? But yeah it was enjoyable even tho I had no idea what was happening bc I never saw the first one 😅😅

I have things to do tomorrow, or today ig now but whatever- so I went home after the movie. They are apparently playing hide and seek in the theater now, which I would’ve loved to stay for but again I couldn’t.

But yeah! I have a lot of things that makes go out difficult for me (mainly it’s the tism), but I managed :)

The things I’m doing tomorrow is seeing Mean Girls the Musical. ON A WEDNESDAY. Yes I’m wearing pink bc obviously

#neurodivergent #autism #autistic #work holiday party #mean girls #mean girls the musical #movie theater job #movie theater #white elephant #puss in boots #puss in boots the last wish

[agustdtown1]

ohhh yeah, maybe! i never liked super loud music in highschool or lower, so maybe i’m making up for it now 😭🤷‍♀️ idk. i rly wanna go to one of their concerts tho. the guy, i’m talking to? yk who i’m talking about😭 it’s getting a little confusing but, he said he wanted to take me for my birthday🥹 but that’s in july and he was like “what if they aren’t on tour?🥺” LIKE- it’s the fact he said that. that’s enuf for me☹️ so cute ANYWAYS gosh i gushed

yeah! it was super great, and i was glad ppl recognized our costumes. tomorrow night, or ig tonight? idk it’s technically halloween now but we are going to another party. but this time we are going as rick and morty😭 he came up with that one and i’m fine with it

and omg, that is gonna look so good! i love wednesday. and felt! black clothes are just always good. like, black t-shirt and jeans? yes. black sweatshirt and leggings? literally perfection. black just matches everything

-🧝‍♀️

aww that’s so nice of him, i hope you guys can go to their concert and have a good time !!

ohhh that’s also a good costume!! i’ve never watched rick and morty but a lot of people say it’s good ^-^

and yeeees, my friends told me i looked good, although i was a little bit uncomfortable with the skirt but i really liked the whole outfit, and i totally get that, you can never go wrong with a black t-shirt and some jeans !!

#🍑.answers! #🧝‍♀️ anon

[sad--tree]

3 days left of my vacation time and instead of bein productive and doin all the stuff i wanna do but am usually too tired from work for ive...... been doing nothing instead so thats. cool. really love that i finally get a much needed week off from my job that i hate and i end up a lethargic depressed mess by fucking wednesday. love that for me :/

#its like. i NEEDtge job for more than just money reasons but i RESENT that so much #i dont WANNA go back to work monday but what am i doing instead?? #spending literally hours of the day lying on the sofa feeling pathetic #i had actual concrete goals for this week too but it all kinda folded by tuesday #and by wednesday it was full blown depression apathy #i dont even wanna think abt how thursday went ugh #im getting a haircut friday morn which is technically today ig but like #now im stuck feeling indecisiveTM abt my hair even tho ill probably just go back to my mullet #as it was pre forced quarantine grow out i mean

[sleepingfancies]

emotions are high and grades are low lads

#personal #what a rollercoaster of a thursday. anyways #wednesday. i forgot it what day it was #technically thursday now anyway ig

[leofiat-bunny]

I’m wondering if we’re going to get the “Ball” scene that what’sherface brought up when trying to talk to Leo, despite him ignoring her.

I want to know why he let her kiss him, he had his fists clenched, so he didn’t want it, obviously because he loves Fiat. But what could she have said to make that change? Fiat or Leo, I couldn’t tell which, but I think it was Fiat, said something about maybe they should’ve stayed friends. So, are we getting a full break-up scene? Am I going to absolutely loathe episode 11?

Also, will we get a good ending? Because the ig post of the last scene thing, if it’s not a good ending, then it isn’t the end. I have way too many freaking questions and I have to wait until Wednesday for more information. I know one thing for certain, I am probably not watching episode 11 when it comes on because I don’t think I can do it until I know that they’re going to get their happy ending. I refuse to believe that they’ll end this series on a bad note, even if they want to bring more to their story, there are going to be a lot of pissed off fans of this actually ends badly, even if it means a second season, or otherwise.

I hope we get a good ending because I’ve been loving this rollercoaster, but the way episode ten ended killed me. The stupid cursed episode is likely to kill me more because it’s too much to hope that this gets solved in episode eleven and handled the way everything else has been, well-communicated. I am going to lose my mind 🙄😭

Part 2:

Okay, I just sent a really long ask, but I have an actual theory this time! Okay, first, I said “Ball” rather than saying “Banquet”, I’m slow.

Okay, so we see the girl that Leon was “casual” with the one time in the early episode. She was friends with whatsherface, she saw Leon there, episode 2 or 3 I think. Anyways, King wants Fiat, wants to take what Leo wants most to ensure they win again. To do that, he gets the one girl involved because she clearly has wanted Leo a while, but she gets the girl that slapped Leon to get involved too. Basically, take Leon and Leo, then Fiat is left for King to “pick up the pieces”. Obviously the Leon thing didn’t work, but from the previews, the Leo thing did, and it’s all about splitting Fiat and Leo anyways. So Leon probably never mattered, it was just a thought.

Also, it was Fiat, but I wonder if the thing Leo was mad about was Fiat getting so drunk. The King thing probably made him mad, he must’ve been there to see it, at least it looked like it in the preview. But yeah, I don’t know if that’s all true, but I think that’s where I’m at right now anyways.

Sorry for the super long asks…

Thank you for the asks; and there's nothing to apologise for when it comes to their length 😊

The reason why is blackmail I'm 99.9% sure. What blackmail? Against Fiat. I think probably a return of the video OR Curly took his own video of his time with Fiat.

Or maybe, paralleling that time, it's blackmail that would somehow take Fiat and/or the team out of the competition and Leo "knows how much that means to Fiat" and completely fails to recognise that if he'd been given the option last year, he'd have sacrificed the competition rather than letting Fiat pay the asking price. 😒

It was Fiat who suggested they should have stayed friends. Will we get a break up? Maybe - technically? A super short one. I don't think either of them will be seeking other people.

(I don't think they would even if the break up lasted longer than I think it will, not for at least a few months on Fiat's part, and not at all on Leo's part.)

I am pretty convinced we will have a good ending. But I think ep 11 will end poorly. And I, for one, will almost certainly loathe this ep.

Would I be better off not watching for a week? Probably.

Will I be watching straight away tomorrow? Yep. 🤷‍♀️

But if you have the strength to wait, I advise you to go for that.

The idea that the other girl timed it because of this plan is a good one. I think, quite possibly, she was told about the plan and decided to take it as a sign to shoot her shot now.

I don't think Leo was mad at Fiat being drunk because of the "when we were friends, I could take it". It doesn't make sense for him to be being mad Fiat was endangering himself, since that would have upset him when they were friends.

I just posted some speculation, which you might be interested in?

I hope you don't mind it took so long to get an answer 😳

#leofiat #don't say no #don't say no ep 11 #don't say no speculation

[idroppedmycrackers]

Monday, May 24

Breakfast: watermelon, apple, and strawberries

166kcal

Lunch: tofu noodle spaghetti and salad

(Was at an old friend’s house and couldn’t take pics so these aren’t mine)

75kcal

Dinner: Veggies w tofu

151kcal

Snack: seaweed, and fruit roll

65kcal

Review

Exercise: 100kcal

Fasting: 8:30pm-9:34am (13hrs 4mins)

Total: 457kcal

Net: 357kcal

Journal: today I went to see a friend for lunch and I felt super rude for bringing my own food so I had some of the salad they made with only some vinegar. My dad doesn’t understand my issue still, and my mom is trying the make me ‘understand’ I need to gain weight. I know I’m technically underweight or unhealthy or whatever but I haven’t been to the ugw yet and I’m stubborn. I will get there before I even think about recovery. I’m thinking Mabey I could try to convince her out of bringing me to get checked out because I don’t want to even have a chance of being put into some inpatient unit. I feel stupid to even consider myself even close to sick enough for inpatient, in just a day and a half I went from 44.4 kg to 45.7. I think it’s also the weight from the food Mabey but I look fatter so I probably just gained. As soon as my family left me home alone I decided to take lax, idk if it will wrk cus it never rly worked but ig I should at least try. It has Been hard to just quit b/p and I think on Wednesday I will go and buy food to binge on cus my mom will notice missing food now. I was loosing weight and finally was getting into the swing of things but now I’m kinda screwed.

#anorexik #anamia #low cal ana #annnna #anorekcia #food log #tw #tw Ed #ed #proannnnna #proana #ana #notproforanyonejustforme

[skold]

so since i have received a bunch of messages about it at this point i wanna address it cuz i can’t keep talking about it

on wednesday ERW shared a post from zombinatrix on instagram about a podcast in which she talks about how john 5 “raped her 16 year old friend“. i don’t have a screencap and it’s easy to find if you go to op’s instagram.

i cannot listen to the podcast because it includes really graphic accounts of op being raped/abused by manson, however i have dug through all the comments on both her ig post and the public patreon post with the podcast attached. here’s what i’ve gathered

this happened in 1999. op was 19 and her friend was 16. they got backstage or otherwise into the after party; i’m not sure which.

the sexual contact the friend had with john was otherwise consensual.

either she did not disclose her age, she lied about her age, john did not ask her age, or john assumed she was 18+ based on the fact that she was backstage/at the after party

here’s some information i know about john in regard to his sexual activities with fans, both from him directly and from reading stories from fans who had sexual contact with him

john had a crew member whose job was specifically to go find girls in line to go give backstage passes to. part of that crew member’s job was to ID the girls to confirm they weren’t minors.

he was sometimes having sexual contact with 3-5 women in one day.

john did not have PIV sex with “groupies”. he’s said this himself on jamey jasta’s podcast in an episode that is now behind a paywall because he didn’t want to risk having more kids since he already had two at the time. he only had manual/oral sex or other outercourse.

every “groupie” story i have read about john both corroborates the above point and indicates that he was incredibly nice and polite and didn’t pressure them into doing anything with them. this is from dozens of stories i’ve read.

as far as john’s character in general, i have never heard anyone say anything even slightly remotely bad about him. not a fan, not musicians he’s worked with, not other industry members, not music journalists.

so, this is what i believe to have happened. again i want to stress i have not listened to the podcast in which the accuser’s friend tells the full story, but it would be incredibly triggering for me and i have already been in a bad place mentally for a myriad of reasons

it seems the friend either lied about her age or had a fake ID to get into the after party or backstage, OR op being of age meant she was able to get the friend in.

if the friend was talking to john, there’s a very good chance john assumed his crew guy who found girls for him had already IDed her.

i don’t know what kind of sexual contact the friend had with john, but if she says they had PIV sex, i don’t believe that aspect of it. manual/oral or outercourse i would 100% believe.

and here’s my thoughts on the situation

is it partially john’s responsibility to confirm a girl is of age before having sexual contact with her? yes. can he be held fully accountable if she lied or didn’t disclose or had a fake ID? absolutely not.

i can imagine what happened to this girl WAS traumatizing regardless of whether she “consented”. i believe her 100%.

i also understand that people who are under the age of 18 cannot legally consent to sex, and that john having sexual contact with a 16 year old girl is technically statutory rape.

that said, i do not think 16/17 year olds are helpless children who can’t make questionable choices. i also do not think that having otherwise consensual sex with a 16/17 year old is as “Bad” of a crime as forcibly raping a person who is of age. i just don’t. and that’s IF the adult knows they are underage.

i also just tend to assume that any “rock star” type who was big in the 80s/90s fucked around with a few 16/17 year old girls, whether they were aware of her age or not. i know we all hate when people say “it was a different time” but pre-social media it was SO easy to lie about these kinds of things and also get away with shady shit. doesn’t make it okay. it was just a different social context.

again. I HAVE NOT LISTENED TO THE FULL PODCAST. if anyone has or would be willing to and could share any details with me i would love to know more so i can add to or amend this post to be more accurate to the events and my own feelings.

as of right now i do not believe john had any intent to have sexual contact with minors in any way, let alone malicious intent to violate their limits and consent.

#rape tw #abuse tw #post about john #<-- so i can find this later

[thekidsarentalright]

only tuesday (ig technically wednesday now but whatever) and i already have done all my homework but 2 assignments lets go babyyy <3

#i had like god idk how many 10 or 11 to do and in the past 2 days did 8/9.... epic of me #txt

[thoughts-of-the-unheard]

technically this essay was due friday but its also due monday but i havent had time to write since wednesday and now its sunday and im only like six pages in when i have to have at least 8 and i want it to get finished i love the topic and i know what i want to say but i dont want to write it i needed to shower today and i dont even have time to do that, let alone another two pages of the strongest argument ive ever had to make, if theres a single flaw my entire point will be dismissed, i am so tired, ive been waking up like hours before i have to for the past six days in a row, granted the one day was only 40 minutes early but the point still stands, and i havent been able to get back to sleep nor could i get up and be productive, so my days were longer and im exhausted, and i guess thats what was wrong with me yesterday because after like 4:30 i was just bleak just completely sapped and i dont know why but, with the exception of the customers who dont know me, literally everyone asked me what was wrong and i couldnt give an answer, it was kinda funny actually because within seconds of being at work my one friend asked if i was alright and i asked why, did i not look alright and he stared at me, squinting, and said “you seem......” but he never found an accurate word, i was just off, i have depression and i know when im in a Mood and how i am during one and ig how to ride them out and i know thats not what it was but i still cant explain it 

theres a lot going on in here and my computers dying so i guess ill go to sleep