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denaliwrites · 5 months
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It's Been a Long, Long Time
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Alec Hardy x GN!Reader
Summary: The two of you danced around your feelings like two tango dancers... who don't know how to tango.
Soundtrack: It's Been a Long, Long Time by Harry James
Requests: Open!
Warnings: Abundant dumbassery.
You'd known Alec Hardy since he first moved to Broadchurch.
He'd stepped into the cafe where you worked on his very first day with the Broadchurch police and ordered a plain black coffee and a croissant. A bit basic, you'd thought at first, but then you'd reminded yourself that not everyone needed sugar bombs and heavy breakfasts to get going in the morning.
Given he was little more than a (rather grumpy) twig, you'd come to the conclusion that he'd probably die of a heart attack if he consumed anything more than his plain black coffee and croissant.
He came in nearly every day after that, and nearly every day it was the same order. Sometimes he picked up an extra drink for his partner, or he ordered a fruit pastry instead of his usual croissant. One time, he'd ordered tea instead of coffee. But for the most part, for the better part of a year, it was the same thing, over and over.
The first few visits, he'd refused to talk to you beyond what was strictly required -- he gave you his order and a thank you, and then he was gone. Over the months, though, he opened up more and more. He'd never needed to tell you his job -- that was easy enough to guess once the Danny Latimer case reached the public. But other details, like that he had a daughter, or that he was a cat person, or that his favorite color was green -- those came after months of only receiving "my usual, please."
Even with him opening up, though, he was hard to get to know, and even harder to fall in love with... yet you managed both. Unfortunately, Alec was an idiot.
Your boss, Alec's partner Ellie, pretty much anyone who saw the two of you interact could see that you were crushing rather hard on the detective. Anyone and everyone, except the man himself.
At first, it drove you up the wall how blind he was to your affections -- you weren't exactly making any effort to keep it concealed, and in fact thought you made it rather obvious -- too obvious, maybe, if all of Broadchurch excluding the idiot in question could tell.
But then it slowly became a game to you -- how clear could you be yet still be misunderstood? Every day you played chicken with yourself -- would today be the day? The answer was always no, even when you gave him a heart-shaped cookie on Valentine's. You'd even said "on me." Hell, before that you'd even given him a peck on the cheek under mistletoe sometime around Christmas.
You were pretty sure any chance you had at romance with him was doomed.
At least, until the Farthing Wood Club Incident.
You hadn't exactly meant to witness a crime. It just sort of happened. You were cleaning up after an event you'd catered when someone broke into the event hall and started tearing through the place.
Quietly, carefully, you ducked into a supply closet and dialed the only person you could think to call -- Alec. Of course. You heard him pick up but didn't dare answer him, even as he got louder and more annoyed, to the point where you had to mute him.
He hung up, and panic flooded your system. Desperately, you called him again, only to put him back on mute when he picked up.
You were relieved when he didn't hang up.
Any thoughts you may have had about why were lost as footsteps approached the closet. They got so close that you could hear the man breathing and, instinctively, you stopped. Several moments passed before he moved on, and it took every ounce of self-control you had to keep yourself from gasping for breath.
He passed by again a few minutes later, then again a few minutes after that.
This repeated a number of times, to the point that you were starting to get dizzy from keeping your breath held in so many random intervals.
"Oi! Anyone in here?" you heard Alec's voice call from somewhere in the building, just as the man who'd broken in passed the closet. You heard Alec call your name, and it filled you with dread as you realized that now the intruder probably knew someone else was here.
You could almost hear the man's head turn towards the closet, but before he could open the door and find you, Alec's footsteps echoed closer -- and the intruder's footsteps made the sound of a hasty retreat.
You didn't allow yourself to breathe until the voice of Alec calling your name got close -- practically right outside the door. Then, with no hesitance or shame, you threw yourself out of the closet and into Alec's arms.
Without thinking, and with nothing in your veins but pure, unfiltered adrenaline, you pulled him into a relieved kiss.
He was pretty predictably shocked at first, especially as mid-kiss your body started shaking with sobs, but rather than push you away or even break the kiss, he simply... held you. Let you ride out the emotions in the way you seemed to need.
Finally, you pulled away, wiping at your tears and panting as everything came crashing down. "G-God, I'm so -- I'm so sorry," you whimpered, looking anywhere but at him. "I don't know why I did that. I just..."
"Hey," he started, pulling your attention back to him. He looked so... calm, so reassuring. "Everyone deals with situations like this differently. Believe it or not, that's not even the strangest thing someone's done t'me in a moment of high stress."
You managed to chuckle a little, but it came out somewhat hollow. "Really? You're gonna try to tell me someone's done worse than kiss you unexpectedly?"
"It wasn't entirely unexpected."
You blanched. "What do you mean?"
"Well, like I said, I've gotten weirder reactions."
Oh. That was... a lot less anxiety-inducing than you were expecting.
"Yeah, well. This wasn't really the way I pictured our first kiss going," you admitted with a sigh.
"Oh? You were picturing us havin' a first kiss?"
Fuck.
And the way he sounded so pleasantly surprised, it threw you off but filled you immediately with delight.
"Well, yeah, I've only been crushing on you since the day we met."
"Oh, why didn't you say somethin'?" he asked.
That brought out a barking laugh. "Alec, I've been dropping hints for months. Some of them were... I dunno, nuclear level obvious."
"Oh... well," he said, rubbing the back of his head awkwardly. "Y'ken, sometimes ye just gotta say it outright for us to get it."
"Yeah, I learned that early on. I guess I just hoped I was wrong or something, maybe."
"It does explain a few things," he said thoughtfully.
You thought it explained most things involving the relationship between you two, but you wondered what he was thinking of in particular. "Oh yeah?"
"Well, there was that mistletoe just before Christmas... and again on New Year... and the heart cookie..."
Leave it to Alec to miss all but the most obvious of clues. Of course.
"Oh, Alec," you sighed. "What am I gonna do with you?"
"Dunno. Grab dinner, maybe? After I file a report for this, of course."
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waltzingwithspirit · 1 year
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PICK A PILE: WHAT DO YOU NEED TO SURRENDER TO ATTACT LOVE?
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Top left: Pile 1 ; Top Right: Pile 2; Bottom: Pile 3
Pile 1:
So pile 1, welcome to your reading, remember to take only what resonates and do not force any messages to apply when they don’t.
Lets begin! 
Surrender your ego
You might be the type of pile who is needs a mental shift regarding relationships. Remember, that relationships mostly require collaboration not compromise. It is not you vs them. If one of you loses, both of you lose. This could be due to past traumas or hurts, but to allow love to come settle in, we must create a space that she loves. She loves gratitude and warmth. She loves a space for growth, she loves acts of service. Broken hearts and wounds run deep, do not expect to surrender fully immediately, Give yourself time to push the boundaries, learn to collaborate not compromise. This won’t just attract romantic love, this will improve all your relationships. Just little gestures that you remember them helps like “Was thinking about you, hope you are well” works just as well. This tells them they are on your mind, don’t be afraid to text or reach out first. This will be different for everyone. A good place to start this shift is to see how your parents/primary caregivers relationship affects your views about relationships, find what doesn’t align to your path to love.
Thank you for letting me read for you, please provide feedback. 
Pile 2:
So pile 2, welcome to your reading, remember to take only what resonates and do not force any messages to apply when they don’t.
Lets begin!
Surrender your belief in Scarcity 
My heart goes out to you, you believe that there isn’t enough love for you. You are the person who cheers up everyone and tells them to be optimistic, tells them that things can happen for them, but doesn’t believe them for yourself. You somewhere carry the belief that it can’t and it won’t happen for you. You are quite stubborn and set with this as well. Whenever you catch yourself feeling or thinking this just say “I have just as much chance for love as anyone else”. This is a good start, you might not believe it at first but keep repeating it. This is a good start as it doesn’t brew a romantic notion of life or is this pessimistic. It is simple, just straight up facts. You have as much chance. Your lack mindset might also be stopping other forms of abundance to enter your life as well. Surrender this belief and see the magic happening. I know that current world state, divorce rates and what not, do not let you dream of love but remember the media doesn’t show you the full story, there are people who love and loyalty have stood the test of time, you just don’t know about them. 
Thank you for letting me read for you, please provide feedback. 
Pile 3:
So pile 3, welcome to your reading, remember to take only what resonates and do not force any messages to apply when they don’t.
Lets begin!
Read pile 1 as well, you might might messages there if you were attracted to it. You belief that for things to go well, for things to go in your favour, you must control them: people, situations. The truth is you cannot control every variable and yes that does scare the shit out of you, but listen to me once: you do not control your heart, yet it beats and keeps you alive, you do not tell your lungs to breathe yet they do. The point is to get power or control you must first relinquish it, things will fall in place. Moreover surrender to the wisdom of your body, the healthier you are the more you attract love. If you feel uncomfortable/weak after meeting someone take note, you body gives you signs, you just need to listen, and this will happen once you relinquish control and try to stay physically, mentally and emotionally fit. These are interconnected. Small steps go a long way, all you need to do is surrender and listen to the signs, yes it is really that simple.
Thank you for letting me read for you, please provide feedback. 
For much such posts -> ELTAROT
Love,
EL TAROT.
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xopinkroses · 2 years
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DMC boys + Lady and Kyrie watching horror movies with Reader♥
Summary; What watching a horror movie with Dante, Vergil, Nero, Lady and Kyrie would be like-- plus their favourite movies :)
Warnings; Mentions of blood/gore/sex and other horror themes
MASTERLIST🌸
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Dante
Dante has a short attention span when it comes to movies, if it doesn’t catch his attention within the first few minutes then he’s going to nope out. He’s more of an action or comedy kind of guy and horror movies are often slower in pace so be careful what you pick out! To keep his focus on any movie, he either needs to get attached to the characters or be laughing his ass off– so comedy horror is probably your best bet. I feel like he’d really enjoy Shaun of the Dead! It's not even a headcanon that he would love that one, it's just the truth. 
You’ll lay cuddled up on the couch, you laying on his chest to keep him still. It’s the only way for him to give most movies a fighting chance. Not that he couldn’t just get up if he wanted, you weigh literally nothing to him after all. He enjoys the affection, and will gladly return it tenfold. Running a hand over your back and nuzzling his cheek into the top of your head 
He has been thoroughly desensitised to gore over the years so it genuinely will not have any effect on him in film. But if it looks fake enough, he’ll be amused enough to keep watching. A well placed jumpscare could catch him off guard and he’ll be annoyed… but also reluctantly impressed. 
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Vergil
 Is not a fan of movies in general. But if you happen to be watching one while he’s in the room, he might put his book down if it catches his attention. Eventually he’ll stop fighting the urge and just sit down beside you, letting the movie take his focus. He becomes fond of psychological horror, or ones that require a bit of thought to understand. I think he’d like Silence of the Lambs, having a borderline scary fixation for Hannibal Lecter; he finds him fascinating! 
Vergil still requires a bit of coaxing to get him to watch a movie with you, but even if he doesn’t like it– he’ll still keep watching it. Both to make you happy and so he can say that he’s done it. Dante and Nero have been making fun of him for not understating pop culture. So he’s been trying to immerse himself in everything he’s missed. Bloody slashers and thrillers just aren’t his thing. He finds the overuse of blood and nudity to be distasteful, and if the acting isn’t great then he won’t be able to get past it. He does enjoy making fun of the movies though. He has a sharp tongue and the way you laugh at his remarks strokes his ego. 
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Nero
Nero is a casual movie goer, not really too fussed either way. He likes some of the classic horror staples but his guilty pleasure is a good romance. He’s a massive softy at heart and a good romance will have him hooked. For some reason I feel like he’d enjoy Candyman. It’s not a straight up love story but he enjoys a gothic romance.
Movie nights with Nero consist of sitting on the floor in front of the tv like children with snacks strewn around you, one of his arms wrapped around you. If you jump at any point he will make fun of you, just saying! He also has a tendency to gravitate towards zombie films, american ones tend to have a lot of action, and he thinks the whole moral descent into savagery plot most of them have is pretty interesting. 
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Lady
A massive fan of the more trashy stuff. Blood, gore, nudity in abundance. Sprinkle in a bit of terrible, overdramatic acting and you’ve sold her completely! Friday the 13th and the Texas Chainsaw Massacre are some of her favourites. She can quote these movies off by heart and you can expect her to be dramatically reenacting them in the middle of the living room as the scene plays out on screen. She’s a closested nerd is what I’m saying. 
You two have movie nights, cuddled together on the couch with a bowl of popcorn in between you. Expect her to throw popcorn at the screen if a character pisses her off, which is a lot. Horror movie characters can be remarkably stupid, but to her its all part of the fun! 
Kyrie
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 Kyrie has never had the opportunity to watch that many scary movies and is absolutely horrified when you actually expose her to one. She’ll hide her face in your shoulder at all the scary parts and yelp at every jumpscare. If she gets freaked out enough she might straight up walk out of the room. 
She’s such a caring person and she doesn’t want any of the characters to die, even if they are having sex before marraige! Every final girl is cheered on to the fullest extent, she needs some kind of happy ending to make everything bearable. She’d probably like more childish movies like the Corpse Bride or Casper, ones that aren’t actually scary. Please just turn this scary movie off!!
She’s going to scold you later for putting her through this. 
~ 🖤
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koishua · 29 days
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seeing someone being hugged is probably one of the loneliest things you can experience. a hug shared between your friends. you're the witness and they're the crime against your shattered heart. the desire to be shown affection but the inability to express the need to be put into an embrace so warm you feel crushed by the fulfillment. the solitude of a girl hesitant to ask for a semblance of love. the soul-crushing realization that is "the distance between them is shorter than where i stand". they love each other more than they love me. a girl i desperately want to be loved by and be the closest of friends with is better friends with the girl i call the moon. of course she'd look at and love the moon who's closer and brighter in appearance. who'd look at the north star if not out of need? so out of reach, out of the system.
it hurt when she came to our room and hugged the moon and slept soundly, wrapped in the moon's arms. i sat across the room on my own bed, watched as they became whole. my voice had to be carried into the empty space between the beds while she could whisper into the moon's ear. it was not the first time i had felt that horrible green beast called envy awaken in the depths of my own bodily hell. it won't be the last. i dreamt of that moment last night. only it was me she was hugging. not the moon. what a horrible lie. i know she loves me as much as she loves the moon. i know that in the very depths of my mind. i just wish she knew that i craved every bit of affection she gave the moon, too. i want. i need. i will die.
i will die when i'm surrounded by all of the people i love. i will die when i'm surrounded by love, unseen. alone in the center of it all. untouched. a ghost. someone— something— that seemingly doesn't require the love of a friend, a lover, a mother, a father. i will die, because i somehow managed to put on a cloak of thorns, disguised as something that doesn't need care every day and every minute. because love is water. if only it was the abundance and not the lack of it that brought my demise. i dream and lie to myself every night— "you are loved". what is love if not the act of pulling one into your arms and pressing a chaste kiss on their temple? what, if not believing in God because of your love's very existence? you're so beautiful. so much so in fact only a higher power could create you with His own hands. let me love you forever.
dear God, make it ache less as days pass, lest i flirt with knives and pills that start to look like the friends who never caressed my cheek and pat my back in comfort. dear God, make it so that i have some of myself left and not cut and serve every little part of me on the plates of people who'll only push me with the back of their forks to the side. let me be consumed because i'm desired. seldom does she seek for the guiding star. why bother when she can count the cracks and spots on the moon's beautiful face instead?
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madamlaydebug · 9 months
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CROWNLOAD: To live a life full of love, to become a clear channel for love, abundance, bliss and joy to flow through .. Keep the vibe up. Be mindful of moments when you begin to push against the stream of your own bliss, you are disagreeing with the safety, the inexhaustible source of life that is already present within. All your pain and suffering are a direct outcome of this. Pain’s sharp edges shadow us, refine us, honing us into glittering jewels. Suffering is only beneficial to the soul if it teaches us how not to suffer again. The key is to know how to absorb and integrate the energy that is awakened.
And if you must speak, then please speak only of the love you want to live. Feel only the reality you are creating. Don’t get caught up in someone else’s cynical, jaded, fearful or faded version of love if it doesn’t gel with what your deepest heart knows to be true. Follow the ascended love masters. The ones who have mastered intimacy, transparency and love, they do not speak of dropping attachments but of forming loving connections. They do not speak of letting go but of embracing. They do not advocate detachment but engagement. They do not use terms like codependency, fantasy or addiction. They exhibit affection, compassion and conscious communication. They are present. Alive. Sparkling. Open. They are the ones to watch closely & take good notes.
Study these principles of love: That a closed heart and closed mind will never invite love to stay. To snuggle. To chat. To giggle. Only lovers do that. And to be a dedicated and devoted lover of self and others, you must first learn to trust the magick. To notice the miracle of life, and to keep noticing it. So don’t repeatedly tell stories of broken, disappointed, frustrated or unfulfilled love. Tell stories of triumph, of reunions, of hope. Then … kiss the stars as the blissings increase. But You will have to sacrifice your fears. Your dying unconscious beliefs will get louder as they take their final breaths. It will require discipline, patience and diligence. And you know what? It’s totally, worth it! I promise you.
How do you wish to crystallize yourself?
- Jeremie Louis
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secretlysweets · 4 months
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My Dearest, Aivelisha Fairysh.
I wish you are happy and in a pleasant mood when you receive this message. As I sit here, pouring my heart out onto this page, I cannot help but be overwhelmed by the depth of my feelings for you. It is with a mixture of nervousness and excitement that I confess my sincere adoration for you.
From the moment our paths crossed, you have left an indelible mark on my soul. Your presence alone has the power to brighten even the gloomiest of days. Your smile, like a ray of sunshine, has the ability to melt away any worries or troubles that may burden my mind. Your laughter, so contagious and full of joy, echoes in my ears long after you are gone.
I have spent countless hours lost in thoughts of you, replaying every conversation, reliving every shared moment, and cherishing every glimpse of your beautiful soul. Your intelligence, wit, and charm have captivated my heart in a way that words fail to adequately express. Every word you speak, every gesture you make, only serves to deepen my admiration and affection for you.
I am well aware that expressing such emotions can be a daunting task. The fear of rejection and the uncertainty of your feelings weigh heavily on my mind. But I have come to realize that life is too short to live in fear, and the regret of never having spoken my truth would far outweigh any temporary discomfort. So, with a heart filled with courage, I lay my feelings bare before you.
Please understand that this confession is not made with any expectations or demands. I am aware that matters of the heart are complex and cannot be forced. My only intention is to share the depth of my emotions with you, with the hope that it may strengthen our bond and open the door to the possibility of a deeper connection.
If, by some chance, you feel the same way, I would consider it an honor to embark on this journey of love and companionship with you. To explore the uncharted territories of romance and to build a future together, hand in hand. If, however, you do not share these sentiments, please know that I value our friendship above all else. I will never allow my feelings to jeopardize the special connection we have forged.
Take all the time you need to process this confession. I understand that it may come as a surprise and require careful consideration. Know that regardless of your response, I will always hold you in the highest regard, and I will forever cherish the moments we have shared together.
With an abundance of love and admiration,
Auriga.
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15 Minute Manifestation Review - Does It Really Work, Legit or A Scam?
15 Minute Manifestation Review: Does Eddie Sergey’s System Work?
 
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Are you curious about making yourself feel more positive through sound waves?
Then, chances are you have heard of Eddie Sergey and his 15 Minute Manifestation Program.
You will hear a lot about it on the net. Many people cite its short bites audio as the best thing about it. And why not? People want something quick and convenient.
The program can certainly give you that. It can be downloaded. Moreover, the commitment time is short per day. However, your process may be different from others.
How?
Well, some people will need less time to get their results. Others may have to be more patient. If you are even looking for information about this program, you are ready to take the next step.
What is 15 Minute Manifestation System?
15 Minute Manifestation is a program created by Eddie Sergey that is meant to help you manifest your heart’s desires: good health, money, love, happiness, and more.
It makes use of frequency-based audio to help change your brain’s frequencies and help it focus on making good things happen.
There is so much that 15 Minute Manifestation can do for you, including changing limiting beliefs with empowering ones.
The best thing about it is that it uses science, brain science, in particular, to help you achieve your goals.
The 15 Minute Manifestation program uses Theta frequencies, letting them enter your brain to help you create more positive beliefs. It will make a difference within the 21 days that you are required to use it. It enables you to connect to the universe.
Who is Eddie Sergey?
Eddie Sergey is the mastermind behind the 15 Minute Manifestation Program. After he had brain cancer as a child, he realized just how important the brain is. It affects how people feel and act.
Sergey believes that by changing the brain’s frequency, people can control their emotions and mindset better.
What is in the 15 Minute Manifestation Program?
The 15 Minute Manifestation Program contains three main tracks. They can all help you focus on your main goal.
These tracks below are designed to change the way you think – for the better:
Track 1: Natural State
The first track refers to your natural state. It helps you get rid of old believes and let new, positive beliefs set in. It is magical audio that provides you with a better, metaphysical outlook. It puts your foundation for what else is to come.
Track 2: New Story
The second track helps you leave the past, especially if you find yourself stuck in it. It will help you to visualize the right way, helping you become more inspired about your life.
Track 3: Moving Towards Abundance
The third and final audio helps you strive for and attract abundance. With this track, you can leave your negativity. When negativity is gone, it can be replaced by abundance in the form of prosperity and possibly something else.
You can also get a bonus track called Deep Sleep Now. From its very name, you know that it is targeted towards those suffering from anxiety and insomnia, more likely both.
How Does 15 Minute Manifestation Work?
15 Minutes Manifestation makes use of brain science. It does this by synchronizing both sides of your brain. This way, your brain allows you to make things happen.
The three audio tracks included in the program all help to rewire your brain.
You need to follow the program as it is meant to go so that you can be filled with all the positivity required to move on to the next step. You need to listen to the audio tracks daily.
Why Listen to 15 Minute Manifestation?
Listen to the 15 Minute Manifestation Program because it provides you with the tools to change your mind and mood for the better. It uses actual science to help you improve how your brain works.
I mean, think about it. Some people shy away from certain products that take a lot of their time. This one is only asking for 15 minutes of yours. Give it a try.
The science behind 15-Minute Manifestation
It uses brain science. The program hinges on the fact that brain waves can be changed when exposed to specific brain frequencies. Theta waves are the most helpful in creating this effect.
15 Minute Manifestation is part of brainwave entertainment. Not only do you listen to relax, but you also listen to feel better about yourself. Binaural beats help your brain change its frequency.
What did I like most about 15 Minute Manifestation?
There are many benefits to using 15 Minute Manifestation. You can devote only 15 minutes a day to the program, which is the most significant advantage of this program over other programs. After all, most people are busy with different aspects of their lives.
Other things that I like about the program:
It is not complicated. Everything is easy to follow.
It can help you change your mindset into a positive one.
It can help gear your brain towards achieving your goals.
It enables you to remove limitations in individuals.
It lets your life go back on track.
It changes your mood, making you enjoy life more thoroughly, as it is meant to be.
It works on your behaviors and even your decision-making.
You get guaranteed results within 21 days.
Does It Really Work?
Yes, it works. It may not work for different people in the same way, but it does. Testimonials have shown people’s satisfaction with the product.
What Other People Thought About This Program
Most people who have tried it found it relaxing. They appreciate the fact that Sergey had thought about their busy schedules when the program was developed.
However, the speed and level of success all differ. While science backs this program, it still relies on how people use the products. They still have to follow the instructions and must commit to the program.
You can read testimonials about it all over the Internet. Many people (both professional reviewers and regular buyers alike) have found some relief from the program.
Some people will hesitate about the 15 Minute Manifestation program. Why? Well, they do have to get through their current belief in life. They must strive to get to the positive thoughts that they have been longing for.
For others, they feel like it is yet another guided meditation product and not necessarily a manifestation miracle.
If I were you, though, you should try it yourself to see just how effective it is for you.
Should You Try 15 Minute Manifestation?
As said above, you should give it a try. The 15 Minute Manifestation can help you turn your life around.
But here is the thing, your personal development depends not only on your brain wave but also on how your mind accepts it. You need to open your subconscious to the waves.
If you are in a negative state, you need the program even more. The 15 Minute Manifestation Program is recommended to anyone who needs some help.
FAQs
Q. What can you achieve with the 15 Minute Manifestation program?
The 15 Minute Manifestation Program can help you achieve many things, such as peace and abundance. It will help you gear yourself towards the good stuff and not the bad.
Sometimes, life can be so rough on you, and it is hard to leave the past behind. The sound waves provided by the program can help you focus on positivity.
Q. Should you buy Eddie Sergey’s 15 Minute Manifestation?
Yes, you should. This advice is mainly directed towards those who have a hard time and want to see the light.
If you deal with anxiety, depression, insomnia, or lingering trauma, you can use sound waves to direct you towards positivity.
Of course, if you have any serious issues that you feel are threatening your life, you need to call a health professional and be seen right away.
Q. Why are 15 Minute Manifestation audios so effective?
They are effective because they are based on science. They rely on Theta brainwave technology to ensure your brain goes through hemispherical synchronization.
With both sides of your brain synced, you can be sure to feel a lot better. Your thought process will be more precise, as it is not affected by your past negativity.
Q. Is 15 Minute Manifestation a scam?
It is not a scam. After you pay the cost of the program, you can immediately download your materials. You are paying an amount of money for actual products.
However, you still need to be careful. Some other sites may try to capitalize on the product’s popularity and sell it with a promise – and yet you will get nothing. So, it is best to buy it from the official site itself.
Q. What Customers Are Saying About the 15 Minute Manifestation?
Customers love how their thought process improves within the 21 days promised. Those who have willed themselves to focus even get results in much less time.
15 Minute Manifestation Review Summary: Is it Worth It?
The 15 Minute Manifestation Program is worth it.
Here is a quick summary of why it is worth it.
One, it is legit. So, you at least do not have to worry about that. There are so many dubious products online. This one will give you what you paid for.
Two, it provides you with a 21-day guarantee. It does not limit you to a week or less. Sergey knows that different people will pace themselves differently.
Third, the creator knows what it is like to feel like his brain was giving up on him. His cancer as a child made it difficult for him to focus on the brighter side. How can you do that if you were always in pain and on the brink of death?
Four, it is based on science. It makes use of sound waves to change the frequency of your brain. This change in frequency will better balance your brain.
Five, it helps you live a better life. Users can testify that they have tried the product and have felt better afterward, maybe not in one day or two, perhaps even in weeks. However, that is something.
For us here, writing the 15 Minute Manifestation Review for you, we also tried it to give you a better picture of the product.
Six, once you have paid for the product, you get the materials you need. You do not have to pay again. You can listen to the audio as many times as you want in the future.
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[ Requiem / Accepting ]
Dearest Wanda,
It has come to my attention that those who routinely and knowingly place themselves in harm's way, particularly in the defense of others, will often compose a missive to those for whom they care most deeply in the event of their untimely demise. It seems only appropriate, then, that I should compose such a missive to you, as I have come to care for you to a depth that is objectively impossible to quantify. There is no scientific or mathematical measure, no formula or equation, and perhaps most frustratingly, no assemblage of verbiage in any Earthbound dialect which proves capable of satisfactorily describing my affection for you.
Save, perhaps, one.
Love.
It is a word that is as subtle as it is profound. A word that skims the surface of shallow expression and strikes to the emotional core in equal measure. I have examined numerous analyses on the word and its usage -- for this, I apply my own offerings on use of the English term, specifically -- and found that many find frustration and even despair in the breadth of its use. Because it is such a generalized term, there are those who find it loses its meaning.
Such is not the case for me, which I find a curious happenstance. As a machine, I should characteristically find solace and assurance in that which is immutable. I am not required to give consideration to things which do not change, nor things whose definitions and boundaries are firmly based, and thus my computational power remains at peak efficiency when considering calculations and solutions.
Yet I owe my very existence to things which are in a constant state of fluctuation and evolution. One could even say my existence is owed to specific avenues of both love and hatred... joy and despair... strife, triumph, and failure. Such are the elements present in the creation of anything with meaning, and I must believe that my existence bears that in abundance.
Without these things, I would not be here to scribe this message. And without these things, I would have no reason to author it.
Upon the first moments of my activation, I could perceive this world only in numbers, elements, computations and equations. I required the values of all in exact measure and detail so that I could properly function. It was a most frightening experience, and I was instantly sentient, intelligent, self-aware, and able to efficiently communicate in every language known to man. I can hardly imagine what such an experience must be for a newborn infant, who cannot even properly conceive of the things it needs and lacks the means with which to communicate, save for crying aloud its distress.
My own distress is settled now. And that is owed to you.
For it is in you that I have found solace. It is in you that I locate comfort and assurance. A most curious thing, since you have also sought the same within me. I am led to wonder... is this the strength of humanity? The realization of interconnectedness in all its beauty as well as all its flaws?
And in all this, I cannot offer numbers or proofs with objective quantification. I can say only that love exists... and that I feel it when I am with you.
If you are reading this notice, then this revelation likely comes as small comfort and no small amount of pain for you. I do not wish for you to be aggrieved, but clearly that cannot be helped now... so instead I choose to offer what I still can, that you might find assurance within these words.
I cannot isolate the moment I first detected within myself the sensation of love, deeper and broader than notions of simple affection. I am uncertain I wish to make efforts to that end, for to do so might create disparity between us far after the fact. After all, you have also said you cannot pinpoint when you felt your heart stir... you know only that it did, and never stopped. So it is with me. And I would have seen us together for as long as we ever could be. A "happily ever after", as it were.
Perhaps, then, it is to my shame and regret that you still live and I do not. That our "happily ever after" was cut short by circumstance. But if this is a shame and regret, it is singular in nature, for I would not trade away a single day or moment I have ever spent with you. No matter the tears, the awkwardness, or even the conflict, I would share in it all over again, because all of those moments put together create more than just the sum of their parts. They are what created the foundations of our relationship and permitted it to last this long.
My perception of time is very different from that of most. As I possess perfect recall, I can recount every moment I have ever experienced. The ones I recall most frequently are ours. I live within those moments as fully even now as I did when they unfolded, for they are the times I felt growth and change within myself in ways I cannot quantify.
I compose the last of this letter as you approach me with a smile on your face. It will take an eternity for you to shift your weight from your left leg to your right. It will take even longer for your smile to bloom in full, and yet how I will cherish it from the moment I see it to the final moment of my awareness. For I can see within it all the hope and joy you deserve, and none of the pain you do not.
When you reach your hand out towards me and take hold of mine, my awareness of contact with all other elements in the world becomes dulled. The world may still exist but it is irrelevant compared to this contact, this moment.
I just feel you.
Hold me close, my love. And give yourself permission to let go, when it is time.
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What's Spirituality ?
Transcendent feelings promote behaviors that connect human beings and stabilize prosocial connection . Stepping absolutely right into a meaningful life requires a shift in the way we present up for ourselves and others. Dealing with everyday challenges turns into easier once you’ll have a confirmed non secular technique to free your self from toxins. More than a combination of different strategies and core parts, this follow revolves across the idea of purification of your physique and thoughts. Each of the major spiritual orders of the Catholic Church and other lay groupings have their very own unique spirituality – its personal way of approaching God in prayer and in living out the Gospel. The Musar motion is a Jewish non secular movement that has centered on creating character traits such as faith, humility, and love. Spirituality in nursing is not only a way to determine the patient’s non secular concerns, however it also offers you an opportunity to establish your personal religious needs and values. It helps you establish that life is greater than what we see, it is beyond the needs of the body, it is past the wants of the thoughts, it's a non secular experience which makes us what we are. The spirit wants love, the spirit needs attachment, and a sense of belonging; the need of which is the most when one suffers from an sickness, especially a deadly one! A nurse is the one who is responsible to take care of these people, to consolation and soothe their troubled spirits and heavy hearts. Emotional and non secular wellbeing overlap, like most aspects of wellbeing. Before Feng Shui Environment Abundance Flow Reviews proceed, we thought you might prefer to download our three Mindfulness Exercises for free. These science-based, complete workouts won't only assist you to cultivate a sense of inside peace all through your day by day life, but may even give you the instruments to boost the mindfulness of your clients, students, or employees. For occasion, some feel spiritually connected in church buildings or religious temples whereas others could feel it when they're meditating. People who follow spirituality are sometimes extra excited about having good relationships and being related to others. According to research done by the American Psychological Association,religion or spirituality has optimistic influence on romantic/marital relationships and youngster growth. They discovered that non secular beliefs or behaviors typically strengthen marriages and affect relationships and constructive interaction with relations. While the understanding of spirituality differs throughout religions and perception systems, it may be described by finding meaning and function in life. Religion and spirituality usually are not understood in the same way, though they often overlap. Positive emotions as leading to faith and spirituality. Greeson, J. M., Webber, D. M., Smoski, M. J., Brantley, J. G., Ekblad, A. G., Suarez, E. D., & Wolever, R. Q. Changes in spirituality partly explain health-related high quality of life outcomes after Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction. This work brilliantly wove psychology and spirituality into a guidebook for a significant life. While there will all the time be differences in how people join with their personal spirituality, having an open house for it to point out up is a vital place to begin out. However, both of these methods of believing in one thing help folks stay happy, meaningful lives. As a neighborhood or group sharing the same beliefs, faith functions as an especially supportive social community. It creates sensible implications for everyday behaviors in adherence to the beliefs, rituals, and practices of the group.
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Patisserie course schools in Australia offer a range of Certificate iii in patisserie certifications
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Culinary Craft is the perfect destination for all things delicious. We train our students to bring out the master chef in them and slowly master the craft of winning hearts, filling the stomach and electrifying the tongue. We have a wide range of courses classified as Certificate III in Patisserie course Australia and even offered by institutions. Culinary Craft teaches how to prepare delicious dishes from different cuisines, be it Chinese, Mughal, Mexican, Italian, Mediterranean or Continental.
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Silphium
Julius Caesar kept a cache of it in the government treasury and the Greeks even put it on their money. It was worth its weight in gold – but no one knows if it still exists.
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Long ago, in the ancient city of Cyrene, there was a herb called silphium. It didn’t look like much – with stout roots, stumpy leaves and bunches of small yellow flowers – but it oozed with an odiferous sap that was so delicious and useful, the plant was eventually worth its weight in gold.
To list its uses would be an endless task. Its crunchable stalks were roasted, sauteed or boiled and eaten as a vegetable. Its roots were eaten fresh, dipped in vinegar. It was an excellent preservative for lentils and when it was fed to sheep, their flesh became delectably tender.
Perfume was coaxed from its delicate blooms, while its sap was dried and grated liberally over dishes from brains to braised flamingo. Known as “laser”, the condiment was as fundamental to Roman haute cuisine as eating your food horizontally in a toga.
Then there were the medical applications. Silphium was a veritable wonder herb, a panacea for all manner of ailments, including growths of the anus (the Roman author Pliny the Elder recommends repeated fumigations with the root) and the bites of feral dogs (simply rub into the affected area, though Pliny warns his readers never, ever to try this with a tooth cavity, after a man who did so threw himself off a house).
Finally, silphium was required in the bedroom, where its juice was drunk as an aphrodisiac or applied “to purge the uterus”. It may have been the first genuinely effective birth control; its heart-shaped seeds are thought to be the reason we associate the symbol with romance to this day.
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Indeed, the Romans loved it so much, they referenced their darling herb in poems and songs, and wrote it into great works of literature. For centuries, local kings held a monopoly on the plant, which made the city of Cyrene, at modern Shahhat, Libya, the richest in Africa. Before they gave it away to the Romans, the Greek inhabitants even put it on their money. Julius Caesar went so far as to store a cache (1,500lbs or 680kg) in the official treasury.
But today, silphium has vanished – possibly just from the region, possibly from our planet altogether. Pliny wrote that within his lifetime, only a single stalk was discovered. It was plucked and sent to the emperor Nero as a curiosity sometime around 54-68AD.
Legend has it that silphium was first discovered after a “black” rain swept across the east coast of Libya over two and a half millennia ago. From then onwards, the herb spread its broad roots ever further, growing luxuriantly on lush hillsides and forest meadows.
It might sound strange – after all, North Africa is hardly famed for its greenery, but this was Cyrenaica, a land of tiered highlands with an abundant water supply. Today parts are known to receive up to 850mm of rain (34in) per year, which is nearly as wet as Britain.
The region was originally settled by the Greeks and annexed by the Romans in 96BC, followed by Cyrene a couple of decades later. Almost immediately, silphium stocks began to decline at an alarming rate. Within 100 years, it had disappeared altogether.
The thing is, the fussy plant only grew in this region. Its entire range consisted of a narrow strip of land about 125 miles (201km) by 35 miles (40km).
Try as they might, neither the Greeks or the Romans could work out how to farm it in captivity. Instead silphium was collected from the wild, and though there were strict rules about how much could be harvested, there was a thriving black market.
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This Is What Each Zodiac Sign Needs To Remember In May 2022
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Aries You intend to have an outstanding Springtime, right? For one reason or another, home is where you intend to stay at. You do not wish to head out as high as you usually do which is extremely strange for you. Well, overlook those feelings you have, and also head out much more. Associate people, and do not stress over the unfavorable energy which is eating you presently. Rather than losing your mind regarding it, attempt to channel that energy into something else. Take the negative energy you're feeling, and transform it into something valuable. Taurus You're mosting likely to burst with power. Ignore the pain you have felt for the last couple of months. That finishes my friend in May. This is your month, as well as you know it. So be smart as well as use it very carefully. This period is abundant ground for your connection or if you aren't in one, it's the best opportunity for you to be in one this month. Don't be shocked if you satisfy your for life individual in this period. The factor is, that every little thing will be turning up Taurus. Enjoy it while it lasts. Gemini Spend some time on your own. You have had a tendency to other people's needs for rather some time. It's time for you to quit as well as ask yourself what is that you want? If you remain in a relationship, you can pause. If you do not have an option of moving away from the person you're with, then try meditating. Keep your sensations to yourself. Do not disturb your loved ones or scare them with how you're feeling presently. This won't last for life. Simply take a deep look inside, and also attempt to recognize what you desire. Every little thing else will fall into place. Cancer You typically maintain your emotions hidden deep within. Your emotional walls are unfailing-- nothing can tear them down. Okay, this is who you usually are, however, the month of May is begging you to be various. Adjustment that perspective at the very least this month because it's one of the most painless duration to do it in. Find an individual you can trust, and also open your heart and your spirit to them. Something good will come out of it. When you launch what you have got bottled up within, your connection with individuals you respect will be more powerful than ever. Leo You're going to be establishing a fine example this month. Typically, you are hardworking as well as you stop at nothing, however, for some reason, this month your perseverance will affect every person around you and also inspire them to be much more like you. Now, this is not an easy thing to birth. There is a great deal of duty in front of you. So, keep striving to establish a good example for others. It will certainly feel extra meeting, and also this month, your life's function will certainly be more clear than ever before. Virgo You'll meet someone brand-new, a person interesting. You'll take a trip a great deal and also hang out with all kinds of people, but there is going to be someone unique. What will certainly puzzle you is that he or she you feel a deep psychological connection is not someone you'd typically be drawn in to. Don't let this stop or scare you. For once in your life, go with the flow, as well as stop evaluating points. Pursue a change in discussing your feelings since that is the only way you're going to get closer to that individual you such as. You see, it's up to you what will certainly occur. Libra Have a peek into your past, and also link loose ends which are privately badgering you. You want to do new things and see the world. You wish to take a trip and meet new people. Whatever you're picturing right now is feasible as well as within your reach. There is just one point you require to do, and also it concerns money. Link those loose ends you have, and make a strategy that will work this time. Keep in mind, that anything is feasible if you make it possible. Scorpio Holding a grudge will not obtain you anywhere. If you remain crazy at individuals, that sensation can only turn you into a resentful and also upset person. The month of May is attempting to show you that you require to let go of the anger. Makeup with people you care about. Bury the hatchet, as well as move on with your life. Do not wait till it's too late. Keep in mind, times fly, as well as before you know it, you find yourself crying over the past and also things you can have done ... but you did not. Sagittarius Allow people in Sagittarius. You can't go through this life all by yourself. In May, you'll have the perfect possibility to do that because there will be someone knocking at your door. It's a person you would certainly never have seen on your own, not in a million years. However, you recognize what? That's exactly the type of somebody you require. That's why you need to open your eyes since love is right before you. Your entire life you seemed like no one comprehended you. Well, he or she will. You simply need to let them. Capricorn This is your month Capricorn. You'll feel imaginative and lively. Primarily, you'll prosper in everything you do, so make certain you take advantage of that. Use every ounce of your strength and will to be successful in your goal, and you'll make it. Your love life will finally flourish. Generally, you are a bit a lot more typical, as well as individuals perceive you as chilly because you're personal regarding your feelings, and now ... you have a chance to show your person you truly like them, so do it! Don't be reluctant because deep down, you want to allow everything you're feeling out! Aquarius Romance is not your thing. Every person understands that, yet this month you could shock all those that believe they understand you. Things can be serious even if they are enchanting. You'll discover that currently. Let whatever you're feeling out in the open. Stop concealing behind that harsh outside you've constructed not to obtain hurt. Most of us know it's an exterior anyhow. Welcome those feeling you so easily disregard since they make you really feel juvenile and also not as severe as you wish to be. Lighten up a bit because this month is asking you for it. Pisces Your life is kind of a hot mess today. As far as your work is concerned, you're extremely busy and that's all right since you like it that way. You wish to have points to do. Sadly, that organization is impacting your connection with the people you appreciate. It's okay to take notice of crucial points, yet it's not all right to forget points that truly matter. Maintain your family and also your friends close to you. They are the greatest assistance you're ever going to get. Nothing can contrast with that. Read the full article
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from home 01 || jjk & reader
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title: from home pairing: jungkook x reader genre: richkid!jk, baker!reader, fakedating!au, fluff, angst, e2l, smut in future chapters word count: 7.1k+ prompt: jungkook is the youngest of five boys, the last in line to truly inherit any his parents’ money. but what if his mom suddenly cuts him off due to his current poor behavior and he’s forced to learn how it feels like to be part of the working class?
a/n: i hate cliches but i also love them so i’m gonna write them lol also i know ‘from home’ is an nct song, don’t come @ me. in addition to that, i’m hoping i can expand my writing and be able to lengthen it as much as possible! (well... this chapter only has 7.1k but baby steps...)
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Jeon Jungkook is a disappointment.
Well, kind of. His four older brothers think so, especially when he comes stumbling at noon on a Thursday, hair disheveled, shirt buttoned all wrong, half tucked into his pants with the zipper down. “He’s already fucking drunk.” His second eldest brother, Jonghyun, hisses, standing up from the dining table of his parents’ home. They’re supposed to have a scheduled lunch together, and although Jungkook is surprisingly on time, he’s still intoxicated. Jungsik and Jongseok, his other big bros respectively, only shake their heads in their seats, finding this situation all too familiar. The baby does it again.
The oldest of them all, Junghwan, does nothing. His eyes say it all—the glimmer that once was evident in them was drowned, full of nothingness when he looks at his youngest sibling.
But their mom didn’t think of it that way. She spoiled Jungkook like crazy, to the point that he’s the way he is today. Mrs. Jeon saw potential in him the moment she birthed him in 1997; full of love, life, and glory, Jeon Jungkook was going to be off doing great things. 
Yet, ever since Jungkook ripped into the age of 16, everything changed. He started smoking, cigarettes, weed, name it and Jungkook has done it. By the time he turned 17, he was experimenting with different types of alcohol, far and wide, and eventually moved up into sleeping with multiple women consecutively. Coincidentally, they’re rich from wealthy families with nothing but dollar signs in their eyes when they see Jungkook, his beauty just being a perk of the package. In spite of his women endeavors, he had enough respect for his mother not to bring them home.
“Mother,” Junghwan finally speaks up, voice stern and face hard. She comes peering out from the back, the house servants trailing behind her before they all realize the sight of Jungkook, clumsily tripping on his own feet, quickly running to his aid while his mother only gasps in horror. “Jeon Jungkook does it again. He can’t just come to a family lunch, no, that would be too easy. He has to do it while reeking of alcohol, on a weekday, all in broad daylight. This is what happens when you let your child run wild and do whatever they please with all the money in the world. They turn out like him.”
His words are harsh, but they don’t impact Jungkook like they used to. No, not after he discovered his love for vodka, whiskey... all of the above. He learned that before seeing any of his family members require at least a couple servings. Stepping into the Jeon’s residence means being criticized, words that come shooting at him like bullets and in the beginning, they pierced through his thin skin with ease, heart clenching in pain at the men he idolized and admired. His skin hasn’t thickened since then, but alcohol does a great job of numbing it all.
Mrs. Jeon glares at her eldest son, the next in line to take over the Jeon Corporation when their father retires. She loves all her kids equally, yet gifted Jungkook more attention than the rest. To be fair, she couldn’t help herself when she saw those pools of sweet chocolate called orbs, begging for her love and affection. “Jungkook, why are you drunk already, love? It’s only 12:30. You probably haven’t eaten lunch yet.”
“But I’ve already had breakfast,” He slurs, the housemaids attempting to have him seated at one of the chairs at the dining table that extends from one end to the room to the next. Seat big enough for two people, he slides down in it, head falling to the side in drowsiness. “Mimosas. My favorite breakfast drink.”
“What’d you do? Champagne with a sprinkle of orange juice?”
“Mmm, didn’t have champagne. Worked with vodka instead.” The four men grimaced. 
Their mother’s face softened at his response. “Jungkookie, baby. You can’t just come marching in here like this. We’re having a lunch, together, as a family. You’re lucky your father is coming here late, or else you would’ve been kicked out in seconds.”
“You’re lucky I didn’t kick you out in seconds,” Junghwan chimes in, expression unwavering. “This is ridiculous, Jungkook. You need to stop acting like some bachelor. What are you? Twenty-three? Kim Taehyung was that age when he proposed to his now wife. Yet you’re still fucking around with mom’s friends daughters who innocently are just looking for love. How reckless is that?”
“Junghwan.” Mrs. Jeon says through her gritted teeth, eyes shooting daggers at her son. “Stop it.”
“Hyung has a point, mom,” Jonghyun interjects, making his way toward Jungkook before sitting on the armrest of the chair beside the youngest one. “What has Jungkook even done other than come to every event drunk, spend all our family’s money, and fuck around with women he has no intention of marrying?”
Mrs. Jeon raises a brow at Jonghyun, sucking in her cheeks in disbelief. “You boys are acting like you guys have never been through this phase.”
“Mom,” Jungsik, the middle child and the most empathetic of all, attempts to console his mother’s anger toward his older siblings, humming soothingly. “We all got over that by the age of 21. Jungkook is twenty-three.”
Despite being completely under the influence, the pain is evidently still there. He regrets not drinking an extra glass or two of that make-shift mimosa. They speak of him as if he’s not even in the room, and it makes him feel sick. He knows this feeling well—and his stomach stirring isn’t from the alcohol. Jungkook can’t even look at his mom at the moment, a bit embarrassed by how all his brothers seemingly gang up on their mom just because she was defending him. He really felt like a baby.
“Well, what do you suggest I do? Tell him to get married? You wouldn’t want that, right, Jungkook?” He gazes at the table. Mostly because he doesn’t know what to say, especially if she’s suddenly taking suggestions. “I take that as a no. So it’s settled, there’s nothing we can do.”
“Why don’t you just like... cut him off?” Jongseok proposes, shrugging at his own idea. “I mean, just until he gets his act together. He’s not getting any younger, and if he actually put his brain to use, he could be part of the company, leading in a division. Jungkook isn’t stupid, he’s just acting it.”
At this point, Jungkook’s consciousness begins to fade, slumber creeping up and drowning him like quicksand. For the first time, he regrets consuming so much alcohol because when he’s awake, he’s sleeping on the couch of one of their family rooms with his mother sitting in an armchair, worry washed over her face.
“Mom?” He jerks up, pushing off the blanket that someone had laid on him while he was asleep. “Everything alright?”
“Jungkook,” She begins, and he can already tell it’s going to be bad news. “I think I’ve spoiled you too much. When I first saw you as a baby, I thought that you needed everything, and I wanted to give you everything. Your brothers just grew up so much more differently than you did, your dad wasn’t so swamped with the company and had an abundance of time with them before you came along.”
His mom doesn’t look over at him. She looks uneasy, something eating her insides, and he feels nothing but remorse for her. Jungkook wants to move closer in attempts to comfort her, but it seems that she purposely sat at that distance. “I thought that giving you everything you needed and more meant that I was giving you the things that your father couldn’t give you and look where you are now... wasted every single time you come home. You haven’t had any real jobs, and when I supported you during your modeling endeavors, you threw all of that away! And for what, Jungkook? I gave you everything... and now I feel like a horrible mother.”
“Mom,” He reiterates, his voice soft and apologetic. “You’re not horrible. You took care of me, defended me against all of my hyungs, and guided me through the hardest times of my life. But maybe you’re right, I can’t do it anymore. I’ll do better, mom—”
She finally turns to see him. Her eyes are bloodshot red from the tears, bags underneath them from years of taking care of her five sons that have increased over time from Jungkook’s shenanigans. “No. Jungkook, I’m cutting you off.”
He nearly chokes on his spit. “What?”
“I’ll give you an allowance every month. It’s not a lot, but it’ll be enough to get you by. You can stay in my studio apartment downtown; I haven’t been there in a while so it’ll require some sprucing up.” She places a manila envelope on the table with Jungkook’s name written across it, wiping the tear that streams down her cheek. “You need to learn to fend for yourself, Kook.”
The next morning, Jungkook finds himself lying flat on his bed, staring up at the ceiling with his legs tangled in his satin sheets. Just like that, in an instant, he lost everything. He should’ve stayed sober before coming, or at the very least, took one shot of vodka rather than... well, a couple cups worth. Sleep didn’t come easy that night but the guilt crept in like a tsunami. All that went through his mind was how he let his mom down, her favorite son, and that she had to come to terms with this new arrangement. Disappointing his brothers was something he’d done continuously over the years anyway, so the chance of finally making them proud has gone out the window but with his mom, there was a little bit of opportunity left to show her that he wasn’t completely a fuck up.
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“Thanks, Hyungjin.” Jungkook is grateful that his mom let Hyungjin drive him downtown, and to come up to help drop off his belongings. The older male nods, tipping his hat at him. Hyungjin had been Jungkook’s driver for as long as he could remember; from piano lessons, early and late school drives, to even his one-night stands, where Jungkook would panic call Hyungjin and he’d come almost immediately after. Although he’d hope to see him again, he knows that this may be the last time Hyungjin drives him. “I hope I get to see you again.”
“Of course you will, Mr. Jeon. If you prove yourself to your brothers, I’m sure that they’ll be more than willing to accept you back into the family with open arms.”
Jungkook scoffs, shoving the key to the apartment into the slot of the knob. “I wish. I’m sure they’ll find a way to still keep me out. They hate me, Hyungjin, and I don’t know what else I’m going to do.”
“No, no, Jungkook. They’re your brothers. They have nothing but love for you. Tough love, maybe, but love nonetheless.” Hyungjin carries a portion of the suitcases and bags when Jungkook opens the door to the apartment; the both of them sneezing and coughing abruptly once they step inside. The entire apartment was dusty, dark, and gloomy. The windows had these black long and heavy curtains that blocked any sunlight from seeping through, and the remains of his mother’s paintings and canvases sprawled all across the floor with splatters that coat the wooden floors and brick walls that all were collecting dust.
“Uh... I guess Mrs. Jeon isn’t tidy when her artistic side comes out.” Hyungjin jokes, eyes skimming around the apartment. He walks over to sink, turning the knob of the faucet on, and Jungkook doesn’t even notice that he’s holding his breath until he releases it when the water flows out of the spout. “Least there’s still water? I think your parents are still paying for this place.”
After shoving as much of Jungkook’s personal items into the apartment, Hyungjin brushes his hands off on his slacks, straightening his back afterwards. “Well, Mr. Jeon, congrats on the start of your new future. I know that technically I’m not supposed to drive you anymore, but... if you are in dire need of help, please don’t hesitate to call me.”
Placing a hand on Hyungjin’s shoulder, Jungkook sighs. “Thanks, Hyungjin, really. It means a lot.”
After sending Hyungjin off, Jungkook does some scavenging. For one, there’s some plates in the cabinets that he could use for the time being. No shampoo, no loofah and... when he opens the fridge in the kitchen, his face scrunches up from a whiff of the odor. Milk. Of course, his mother left half a carton of milk in there and hasn’t been back for months. “Guess... I already need to go shopping.”
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“Your total is going to be ₩62,636.00.” Packing the groceries that had been scanned into the brown paper bags that were stuffed into another plastic one, you push it down the line for the customer as she’s shuffling through her purse for her wallet.
“You know, I am the bag boy, right? I can do it.” Hoseok, a fellow co-worker of yours, comments at your actions, hooded eyes darting in your direction in annoyance. “I know you’re trying to be nice to me because Hyeri broke up with me last night, but that doesn’t mean I’m incapable of working.”
“Hush,” You demand, yet face blooming with smiles for the customer who replicates the expression, sliding the credit card into the payment terminal. “Have a good day!” You’d cry out with every receipt you handed to a customer as they’d walk out the store, slouching immediately afterwards from the exhaustion that washes over you. “I’m just trying to make today a bit easier for you, Hobi. I know how much she means to you.”
“You’re kidding right? I’m rich, I’m only working here because I’m trying to save some money up to leave that household but I haven’t left yet. I’m thinking of doing some type of yacht party tonight; drinks, girls, all my homies getting drunk, it’s a great way to truly mend my heart.”
You roll your eyes at the male, leaning back against the register. “If you keep spending your parents’ money like that, you don’t have to leave. They’ll just kick you out.”
He gasps. “I sure as hell hope not, not ‘til I’m ready.” Shaking his head at the thought, he freezes as his mouth gapes open. “Ah, speaking of. Mrs. Jeon actually cut off one of her children. Mostly because he’s a brat and needs to be taught how to be humble... and grateful... and maybe not to be such a dick.”
“Oh?” You raise a brow questioningly. “Which one? Is it the one you’re friends with?”
Hoseok wags his finger in disagreement. “Not friend, acquaintance. We’re party buddies, but he and I don’t talk deep things like you and me. But yes, it’s the baby of them, Jeon Jungkook.”
The name is familiar. His face is plastered on almost all of the billboards that you’d pass by on your route to work. Jeon Jungkook was one of the heirs of the Jeon Corporation, and his mother being the CEO of the supermarket and café chain you had been employed at. Despite all of that, he chose to go the path of modeling (from what you know, it’s just for fun and games), and did nothing to help his family out in their business. Although you never found yourself involved with the media, Jungkook was an image hard to get rid of. His news was everywhere, especially since you had no idea how to remove the Apple News notifications from your phone. Tech wasn’t exactly your strongest suit.
“Interesting. Well, that sucks for him. Can’t have it all.”
“You say that because you’re not rich,” He frowns, crossing his arms. “You’d be living a different life if you had some more money.”
Leaning over the counter, you tap Hoseok’s nose with your pointer finger. “And I’m okay with where I am. Working two jobs, saving up money for my dreams while paying off my student loans... I’m okay with that. Yes, I’m tired, and who wouldn’t kill to be rich, but let’s be honest here. Coming from money, and money that’s not yours, sound horrible.”
“And it is,” Someone sighs, dropping their groceries onto the conveyor belt. “Money that’s actually yours being spent doesn’t feel as fulfilling as when you’re spending someone else’s, but having them control how you spend it... well, it’s not the best.”
“I mean, I feel great knowing that I earned my own money and—“ As you turn to meet with this customer, you’re speaking to the devil himself. Jeon Jungkook. “—oh, uh, Hello.” Magazines, pictures on the internet, billboards... all of them do not do Jungkook any justice because he’s not just gorgeous in person, but he looks like perfection on legs. The way he pushes his long locks back when they begin to irritate his eyes, his skin is milky smooth, supple and soft, and when he shoves his hands into his pockets afterwards, all you can think about is how his arms flex in the sleeves of his T-shirt. 
“Kook,” Hoseok greets, forehead crinkled in confusion as he extends his hand for a shake. “What... why are you here? I’ve never seen you at a supermarket before. Doesn’t your personal chef take care of those things for you?” He’s feigning ignorance, afraid that his assumptions of Jungkook’s withdrawal from wealth is only gossip spread by the middle aged women. Jungkook lets out another heavy sigh, shoulders dipping in disappointment. “Well, you probably heard from your mom... who heard from my mom. She kicked me out. Cut me off. So... I’m trying to fend for myself now and get some groceries for dinner tonight.”
“Where are you staying?” 
“Uh, my mom used to have an art studio downtown. She’s too busy to go there anymore, so she paints at home now. So the studio is pretty much abandoned... therefore I’m residing there now. I’m also getting an allowance every month to live off of.”
You snort. It was truly an accident, but the words coming out of Jungkook’s mouth were unbelievable. His mom made him leave the house yet gifted him an apartment and an allowance? Does anyone even consider this as being kicked out? “I’m sorry,” He turns to look at you. “Is something funny?”
“I... thought you said she cut you off?”
Without saying it, his face contorts to a visual version of an, And? 
“Well, if your mother really cut you off, you wouldn’t even have an apartment. You’d be living on the streets or sleeping on your friends’ couches in rotation. Trust me, I know, I’ve been there. And you’re still receiving an allowance from them?”
Jungkook thinks he doesn’t realize that you’re from a wealthy family as well. “You... have been cut off of your family money and kicked out?” 
Hoseok bursts in a laugh, hand in front of him in an attempt to stop himself before apologizing. “Ehem, sorry. She’s never been cut out, her family isn’t well-off in the first place. She’s trying to say she did the latter, sleeping on her friends’ couches on rotation. Me being one of them.” As you’re scanning his groceries one by one, sliding them down to Hoseok, he bags them quickly and efficiently as Jungkook’s eyes dazes off in amazement at his skill. “You... said you’re still getting an allowance from her?”
Jungkook nods but he’s completely immersed by yours and Hoseok’s quick movements, shuffling through the bags and scanning the items. When his toothpaste doesn’t beep, he watches as you start typing in some group of numbers into the register. The system recognizes it immediately before you turn back, resuming into your previous actions. He admits that this isn’t the first time he’s been in a supermarket, but the last time he remembered stepping foot in any of his mom’s businesses was probably before he hit puberty.
“So that’s going to be... ₩113,552.00.” Hoseok looks up when he realizes that Jungkook hasn’t moved from his position. “Jungkook?”
Jungkook shakes his head from his daze, quickly rummaging through his pockets for his wallet. “Sorry, I was just... you guys are really good at that.”
“At what?” You ask, confused with your brows furrowed. 
He gestures the register and bags with his chin as he pulls out his wallet. “The whole... register thing. You guys move fast and... expertly. Where’d you learn to do that?”
You and Hoseok freeze. It’s weird to hear, exclusively forthcoming from someone who’s known to be arrogant, and yet the expression on his face is genuinely impressed by the show the two of you had just put on for him. “Uh... basic training? They just give you some tips and you just do it.”
“That’s it? It’s that easy?” He says, eyes bulging from his head at the simple response. 
“Well, I wouldn’t say easy,” Hoseok rephrases as Jungkook inserts his credit card into the system. “It gets tiring when your shift gets long. But the task itself isn’t difficult, just becomes brutal.” You shake your head in affirmation, wiping the counter down with a rag. “Don’t look down on your local grocery store employees! Where else would you get your groceries without them to help you?”
He laughs, and he’s so pretty when he laughs, but what subsequents after his laugh isn’t so... pretty. “I won’t, but I don’t think I’d ever work in a supermarket either. Not really for me. I think I have more potential than... everyone here.”
Hoseok eyes his friend quizzically. “Uh... I didn’t think I would be either. I didn’t choose to work here, you know. I want to move out eventually, so I’m saving money. Do you think she chooses to work here too? No. This is temporary for us, Kook. But even so, there’s people who have to work here because it’s how they put food on the table.”
He only shrugs. “I guess. I just think I can do better than this. Thanks for the family discount though! Even though the allowance my mom gave me paid for it.” 
And with that, he leaves. 
“Who the fuck does he think he is?” You jeer, completely appalled by Jungkook’s comment. “Is it because he’s the boss’ son? Is that why? That’s so ridiculous, why didn’t I say something—“ Hoseok interrupts your rant with the sound of your name soothingly coming out of mouth. “Let him be. I believe in karma and it’s going to bite him in the ass later.” You let out a dejected sigh, caving into his words. “On another note... you’re coming to my yacht party right?”
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You hate Hoseok for luring you here. 
He’s got chicks in bikinis, dancing away with their drinks swaying in their glasses, waists so thin you could wrap your hands around them. Guys are lounging, admiring the view of both the sea and the women, alcohol also accompanying their hands, whispering things here and there when they catch a sight of you— jeans and a crop top. You were not going to let Hoseok see you in a bikini, no matter how nice he is to you. He’s still a slob at heart.
When Hoseok spots you through the crowd, he hollers your name. “Oh my gosh! You actually came! I’m so stoked! Which text convinced you to come? I did all those things, just in case any of them are actually the reason why you came.”
hoseokie [1:03PM]: pls come to my party hoseokie [1:03PM]: we’ve got tacos hoseokie [1:04PM]: we’ve got white claw hoseokie [1:05PM]: we’ve got pigs in a blanket hoseokie [1:05PM]: we’ve got some weird hors d'oeuvres hoseokie [1:06PM]: we’ve got fresh fish hoseokie [1:07PM]: we’ve got... mini sandwiches?? idk i’m running out of nice things to mention hoseokie [1:09PM]: what about.... chick-fil-a? i know chicks dig that hoseokie [1:09PM]: i take that back, i know you’re into the feminist thing and don’t like it when i say collectively chicks like something
You frown. He’s so annoying.
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Ah. There it was. The true reason why you’ve decided to come. 
The picture mostly shows the food that sits at the table, but the angle that Hoseok takes it from gives you a glimpse of the kitchen, a delicious glance because right there is a take for inspiration for your own that you’d like to see for yourself. With that, you figure you’d hit two birds with one stone; getting to steal an idea for a small kitchen and celebrate Hoseok’s... breakup? You’re not even sure what this is for.
“Uh, where’s the kitchen? I want to wash my hands.”
He’s kind of drunk, so you’re thankful he doesn’t probe for more information, like why the kitchen and not the bathroom. “Downstairs. Do you need me to take you?”
“Nah, I’m good.” You grin, walking in the direction he points afterwards. On route to the kitchen, you spot the catering of Chick-Fil-A. Guess he kept to his word after all.
That’s when you spot him. 
Jungkook is sitting on one of the white leather couches that Hoseok’s yacht is built with, arms resting on the top of the seat while surrounded by women who giggle with their hands on his chest with hearts coming from their eyes in admiration. “Kook-ie, you’re so funny! Who knew someone like you would have such a beautiful personality!” 
You have to swallow the vomit that’s begging to leave your body.
Finally downstairs, you get to see it yourself with your own eyes. It’s beautiful. So beautiful that you can’t believe that a room can look this beautiful, and on top of that, it looks untouched. Reaching the stove, you almost hold in your breath from all the excitement forming in you, pulling the handle out to peek inside. “Jesus, stainless steel, great for cleaning, so much space, enough for inventory, and so much wattage—”
“Are you getting turned on by a stove?”
Fuck. Slamming it the oven shut, you abruptly straighten yourself. “Uh, no.” Turning to see the owner of the voice, you frown at the sight. Of course, with your luck, it’s Jungkook. “I’m just really curious on how people do their kitchens. I wanna open a bakery and want some ideas on how to work with a limited amount of space.”
Your breath hitches at the view; the shirt he has on is barely even buttoned, exposing his toned chest, and his hair is slicked back with a comma curl that hangs over his forehead. His lips are pink and plump, arms are tight in their sleeves, and when he leans over on the counter across from where you stand, the smile that tugs on the edges of his mouth is so pretty. “Hire an interior designer. Why do you need to do it yourself?” His breath already reeks of alcohol, and the drink in his hand almost screams that it’s not going to be his last either. “I don’t have the money for it.”
“Sure you do, you have two jobs. Why do things yourself when other people can do it for you?” You roll your eyes at him. “Because, unlike you, I have student debt. I need to pay for that and start a business. It’s not easy. I need to make a profit somewhere.”
He shrugs before saying nonchalantly, “I’ll pay for you.”
“With what money?” It comes out faster than you expected, but it’s too late to back down now. “With the money my mom gave me,” He responds calmly, tapping his fingers against the counter. “It’s more than enough to start a business.”
You nearly piss your pants. His mother’s allowance was enough to fucking start a business. Jungkook was indeed not in lack of resources and with the way his mom was taking care of this meant he will never truly learn responsibility.
“Are you kidding me?” You’re almost gasping for air. “Your mom gives you that much money for an allowance? What are you? I thought she was cutting you off. At this rate, you’re never going to actually be an adult. How are you even going to prove to her that you’re capable?”
He gets up from the counter, startled by your sudden outburst. “What makes you think I’m incapable?”
“You were just about to give me money to start a business. This is the second time you’ve met me, Jungkook. You don’t even know me. You don’t even know what the business is for, what my plans are, and where it’s going to be. You were just going to throw away good money without even having any knowledge of what it’s going to be used for!”
Unsure what to say, he speaks the only thing that comes to mind. “I trust you because you’re friends with Hoseok, and well, I trust Hoseok.” How could a guy with five older siblings who all went to prestigious ivy league universities, including attending one of them himself, be so gullible and naïve? 
“That means nothing, Jungkook. All it means is that we have a mutual friend. I can’t stand kids like you, strutting around with all the money in the world without knowing what to do with it. You have no real responsibilities, no real life plan, no dreams— nothing! All you do is fuck around and get drunk. What a fucking waste of space.” You shake your head before climbing up the stairs out of the lower level of the yacht, heated from Jungkook. He hasn’t actually said or done anything actually wrong yet you can’t help but hate him. Jungkook was born with a silver spoon in his mouth and all you can think about is how you were born with a plastic one instead.
You’re not actually anyone to Jungkook. No, not really, especially since yes, like you mentioned before, it’s only the second time he has met you. Whether or not if the proposal for paying for those things were serious, he wasn’t sure why he made you upset so easily.
But it hurt. Those things you said really hurt— more than when he speaks to his brothers.
So he drinks. He drinks the pain away or just enough that it fades to the point he doesn’t notice it as much anymore. 
When you catch him slouched on the couch alone, cheeks flush pink from what you assume is from the beer sitting in his hands loosely, guilt washes over you. Without much thought, you’re already making your way to the innocent looking boy, buttoning his shirt up and tearing the can from his grip. You figured you’d take him home, it’s the least you can do after flipping him off earlier. 
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With Jungkook’s arm draping over your shoulder, you wince when the button on his sleeve tugs on your necklace. “Jungkook, could you at least try lifting yourself up so I’m not doing all the heavy lifting here?” He doesn’t say much but mumbles with drool coming out from the side of his mouth, emitting a whine from you. 
“Oh my god, is that Jungkook?” Mrs. Jeon drops the book she reads in what seems like a living room, rushing toward your side before Jungkook vomits again on the marble floor. “Hana! Nayeon! Please come clean this up— quickly, quickly, please.” She pulls his other arm over her shoulder, tugging him along with you before reaching the couch, letting him settle down easy. If she wasn’t here, you would’ve thrown him on it. “Sorry CEO Jeon, I wanted to take him back to his place but... I didn’t know where he lived and I didn’t really feel comfortable leaving him by himself like this. So... I googled your estate and here we are.”
She gives you a pained smile, clenching your heart at the same time before she’s draping a blanket onto Jungkook’s sleeping body. “Would you like some tea?”
It feels weird sitting on a tall stool chair at a marble countertop island in such a huge kitchen. There was more than enough space to hire a staff sized for a large wedding venue, and truth to be told, you were jealous of the appliances that were stocked. If only you could touch the deck oven, just one touch...
Mrs. Jeon says your name for the first time since you’ve introduced yourself, interrupting your thoughts. “Ah, yes, CEO Jeon?”
“You keep calling me that. Do you perhaps work at one of my franchises?”
Rubbing the sides of the mug full of tea anxiously, you nod. “Two, actually. I work at one of the supermarkets down in Seoul, and a café at the University. I admire your plans and how you treat your employees, so I based my search on that.”
There’s a smile that jumps upon her lips, and it’s genuinely full of joy in comparison to the one she shares when you dragged Jungkook in. “A hard-working class citizen. I love that.” She brings the mug to her lips, taking a sip of her tea before sitting it down gently. “You brought Jungkook here. Are you two... an item, maybe? I’ve never seen him bring anyone home.”
Hastily, you wave your hands in front of you in denial. “Oh, no, no, CEO Jeon, we are not. If anything, I brought him home.” You pause for a moment as she eyes you carefully. “Oh, wait, no, not like that, I meant brought him to his home, here. Not to my house. Gosh, no, that’s weird.” Mrs. Jeon laughs, leaning back, almost stumbling off her seat and you were already set on your toes in preparation to catch her. “Geez, my son displeases you that much? Honestly, I wouldn’t be so opposed if you told me that you both were in a relationship.”
You blink. “Really? Why’s that? I kind of expected you to hope for him to go for someone who’s a bit more... accustomed to this lifestyle? Not that there’s anything wrong with it... I just... this is a bit different.” 
Although you had been preoccupied with dragging Jungkook into the house, there was no missing in the way their home looked. Chandelier hanging in the hall off the ceiling with crystal-like features that you were sure were actually authentic diamonds, walls and floors were marble and granite, portraits and paintings that hung on the walls were originals, and the size of the home itself was... breathtakingly prodigious. The kitchen alone was a prime example— from your own personal research and knowledge, the appliances were top tier products of the industry, only the best of the best were able to afford it. Not to mention that the dimensions of the kitchen was about four times the surface area of your apartment.
Mrs. Jeon shakes her head in lack of approval, tapping her fingers against the ceramic cup. “No, I want my sons to go for love that they feel is real. But for Jungkook, I always hope for more than just that, someone who can teach him that this life of luxury isn’t necessarily everything. He hasn’t found anyone yet, or at least, I still hope it’s you, but I figured cutting him off the money would be the next best option.”
You tilt your head to the side, mouth open in hesitation. “But... you didn’t cut him off. Jungkook still gets an allowance.”
“Yes, but—“
“Sorry to interrupt, but isn’t that defeating the purpose? Like... you want Jungkook to go off and learn responsibility and what it means to be a functioning adult yet you’re still giving him money. I don’t want to criticize but...” You’re expecting her to jump at the chance to interject, mention something about how you’re overstepping, but she does nothing. Instead, her shoulders slouch and she frowns. “Am I doing this wrong? Should I take his allowance away?”
Honesty seems like an iffy noun to act on at the moment, but you speak words with it, nonetheless. “CEO Jeon, don’t get me wrong, you are a great person. But if you’re trying to teach your egotistical and spoiled-rotten son some life lessons, putting a step stool down for him isn’t going to make it any better.”
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“It was you, wasn’t it!” Jungkook exclaims, stomping into the supermarket with his face flushed red with anger, hair pushed back with a vein popping out on his forehead. He has his pointer finger directed at you, startling Hoseok as he shoves Jungkook’s finger down. “Ok, I get you’re mad, but no pointing please. You may proceed.”
He scoffs. “She did this, you know. My mom cut me off. Completely! Done, I’m so done for. How the hell am I supposed to pay for anything? All she gave me was the money I earned from those modeling gigs in the past. What the hell is that going to do for me two months from now?”
“Uh... I don’t know, get a job?” You say sarcastically, unfazed by his fit of temper. If childish is how he’s going to act, he might as well embarrass himself while he’s at it. “It’s not my fault that she decided to actually cut you off.” Jungkook doesn’t get the right to come in here, full of flames just because of something you suggested to his mother the night he blacked out. He doesn’t, especially not after you learn from Mrs. Jeon why she wants to do this in the first place.
“Where the fuck am I supposed to get a job?”
Hoseok stares at Jungkook blankly for a moment before pointing to a sign behind him, taped to the wall with big letters printed.
CASHIER FOR HIRE @ THE JEON MARKET! PLEASE SEE AN ASSOCIATE FOR DETAILS ON HOW TO APPLY!
Jungkook lets out a heavy breath of defeat, falling back against the counter, fingers raking his strands of hair back stressfully. “Fuck, fuck...” He closes his eyes, head falling back. “... Fuck.”
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It’s barely even the start of his first day and he’s presently on the verge of throwing another hissy fit when the apron doesn’t tie around his body like it does for the other workers. “Are you fucking—”
Snatching the fabric from his hands, you can see through Jungkook’s orbs that he’s ready to pounce at you for doing that, but you’re already standing on the tip of your toes as he dips down unconsciously for you while pulling the loop over his head. “This is so much easier when you’re calm, cool, and collected enough to think like a sane person.” He mutters a quick thanks, jutting out a puff of air from his lips. “Also, tie your hair up, will you? It doesn’t look professional.”
“Professional?” He scoffs, shaking his head as you’re slipping off the hair band that’s on your wrist, handing it over to him that he grabs unwillingly. “This place is far from professional. It’s a freaking goddamn supermarket.”
“It’s just... in your face and we have an employee handbook that wants your hair out of your face so the customers can see your lovely smile.”
“You think my smile is lovely?” His heart is warm at the compliment but it quickly fades when you respond, “No, it’s how it’s worded in the handbook. I’m only quoting what I read.”
“Why are you helping me anyway? I thought you didn’t like me.” This was true, notably since you’ve last spoken to him was with fury and fire in your eyes. But you merely just roll your eyes this time, turning away to turn the dial on your locker, pulling a slip of paper out to hand to him. “I was assigned to train you. Here’s your locker combo. Don’t think I’m doing this to be nice to you.”
“I’m still trying to understand what I did wrong that made you hate me.”
Tying your own hair back in the magnetic mirror that hangs on your locker door, there’s clips in your mouth to push your bangs back and Jungkook can’t help but find the action so... attractive. After taking the bobby pins from your mouth and slipping them into your hair, you straighten your shirt before turning to face him. “Because I can’t stand entitled people. And you are one of them.”
His mouth drops and closes several times before he finally gets the guts to speak up. “You don’t even know me.”
“I know enough,” Tugging the apron over your head and knotting the strings behind you, you inhale sharply afterwards. “I know that you’re the CEO’s youngest son, the bachelor, who basically doesn’t really do anything but freeload off his parents and spend their money. You’ve never had a real job before today and if I’m being totally honest, I kind of expect you to fail.”
“To fail?” He exasperates, his posture stiffens, in disbelief of your perspective. “I haven’t even started the job yet and you had this image of me build up before I even get the chance to clock in.”
“Speaking of, come here, I’ll show you how to clock in.”
Trailing behind you to a mysterious machine that hangs on the wall, he can’t help but attempt to sink everything in around him. He’s in the back of a supermarket, his mother’s supermarket, one of many, dressed in their uniform with his luxurious hair tied back, hidden away from all the people to admire. The locker room has flickering melancholic lights that he realized are unflattering when he looks at himself in the mirror earlier, and the people here drag their legs when leaving through the double doors to start the shift, all the way to the end. 
“Hello, Earth to Jungkook?” You wave your hands in front of his drifted gaze, frowning at his sudden daydream. 
“I can’t believe that it’s gotten this bad. I have to work... like a real job. I’ve never had a job in my entire life.”
“Well, yeah. I mentioned that just moments ago.”
His stare shifts to you, worry written all over his face. “I’m above all of this, above all of the people working here. I know what it’s like to be happy—I have money for god’s sake, I don’t need any of this. I could be working some corporate job right now that requires less effort.”
“Jungkook, I haven’t even started the training yet.”
He still hasn’t learned how to clock in before a shift yet and he’s already prepping to quit this job. 
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Selfishness In Their Eyes
genshin impact, part ii
your sweet voice softly whispers ‘where are you’ and i slowly begin to gravitate towards you, the center of my universe. the only thing i could ever care for.
yandere, abuse, confinement, delusional mindsets, gaslighting, self-depreciation, self-harm mention, stalking, unhealthy relationships
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part one, part three, part four
Wolf Boy ─ Razor
obsessive, stalker, uncertain
Is he still human, or is he forever going to be regarded as the lone wolf who rambles deep in the dense forests of Wolvendom? Everyone wanted to know for they too are curious about this riveting individual, curiosity swirling madly in their eyes whenever his name is thrown into conversations. And when he’s forced to come up with an answer to himself, there’s always that same, despised hesitation eternally laced in his diffident voice. Razor continues to live silently in people’s shadows, able to tread behind them cautiously without leaving any tracks behind. This is a life he was brought into, having been raised by feral, but loyal creatures that thrive at the dead of night. The thought is already inane for him to live in harmony with people at this point, or so he was made out to believe. It’s only that he hasn’t gave much consideration till now.
What makes one silly human any different than the rest? There’s nothing particular about you that stands out to him... besides one thing he can’t place a finger on. Is it because you keep on getting yourself lost in these woods consistently, now becoming a regular occurrence and a part of his non-existent schedule of bumping into you, then having to escort you to the closest exit as you hand out sheepish apologies for the careless display of incompetency? This issue is not a big deal, really. If anything, he’s just slightly concerned for the lack of direction a being can actually have. Isn’t survival the most important instinct for humans? Did it die down as the world progressed? But of course, Razor never says anything more than the typical automated response built in, couldn’t be bothered to deal with someone else’s issues when his pack beckons for him through their cries, right? Not at all. You’re starting to appear more in his mind... laboriously. The cause of the toss and turns in his already short-lived sleep, and the visible bags resting under his eyes. The thought of you irks him endlessly.
What have you done to him?
After many days of the agony of contemplating alone, Razor resorts to the only person who must’ve known what he was currently dealing with: Lisa Minci. She should be familiar with this feeling all too well, he’s sure of it because what does she not know in her library of abundant knowledge? He questions these conflicting feelings of his, letting his heart spill out for once as an act of desperation with all the words he could find within his limited vocabulary. He does not like it, he does not like the control it has on him... a mere stranger, is able to afflict so easily. These signs must be of hate, uncontrollable spite maybe, pure frustration at most. That’s the only way he can truly be able to understand.
Well, in a way, she can’t help herself from snickering at his honest struggles. Unfortunately, it’s much more than that, revealing the issue biting at his exposed neck albeit painstakingly slowly in the simplest way. Surely, he is able to breathe properly once again... just not yet. Knowing this issue hasn’t solved anything, it requires effort. According to her, he is deeply in love to the point of destruction. Is this how adoration is supposed to feel, uneasiness? None of the human knowledge he’d study prior mentioned anything or went in depth about this subject, what makes her so sure of this? The word seems to be full of affection and hope, when Razor feels anything but. In order to ease those worries, she tells him why not have it the other way around. Why don’t you make that clueless traveler of yours be the one who’s troubled with these mindless feelings.
But he can’t, Razor has no experience in this field.
So he starts by stalking through your shadows, noting silently about your habits, interests, information that’ll help him get to know you better. There’s still a couple of issues to be resolved on his own before approaching said target. He’d like to understand fully what makes this human frankly so appealing to him. Why he has so many fantasies involving them in dubious ways, and why they’re so attractive. You’re so kind, too kind ─ timid than any doe he’s ever laid his ravenous eyes on. This is weird, much more thrilling than any hunt. All the things you do, simple and all, are so adorable to him. What is this warm sensation slowly building up in his chest? It feels... pleasant for once. Now this is what it should be like, how ‘love’ truly is.
He’s happy you have the heart to continue to meet with him.
But these happy moments could only last for so long, nothing hardly ever does because forever is not always. The voices in his head, ever so prevalent, pushes him to act on his predacious urges. Mark them. Hurt them. Make them suffer... Getting louder the more the rendezvouses went on. Doesn’t help that you make it your goal to see him at least thrice a week. Your lips, so luscious and pretty, imaging how they’ll look if drool was pooling out of it uncontrollably from the immense pleasure he’ll bless you with. And your skin, free of blemishes and scars, how badly he dreams of ruining it with his teeth, his claws, and his knife-like tongue. It appears that Razor does not possess the self control he thought he attained.
Stay... still.
His throat growls in agitation at the reluctance. He has the current need to mark that empty spot on your neck, the need to claim, but you keep moving around. Thrashing, struggling, sobbing for someone to come save you from the one who is only trying to love you.
Not ... hurt you ... love you.
Razor does not know if he is wolf or human,
but he is happy either way.
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Exquisite Delicacy ─ Xiangling
stubborn, stalker, harmless
Did you happened to order a meal from Wanmin restaurant on one of your lengthy journeys? Probably not, but that doesn’t stop the chef from prying into your life with a specialty dish of hers. Xiangling, a connoisseur of the finest, strangest but tastiest food, pleads to serve you for the rest of her life in hopes of winning your golden heart with a unique palette. Expand your horizons, she beams, it does not hurt to. Traveling everywhere is no big deal to her as she isn’t confined to one spot unlike some of her envious peers. There is plenty different ingredients to test out, an excuse to be used for her dear father to not fret over her well-being. Plus, more chances to continue to court you, yes? You being a traveler cannot stop her.
Nothing negative cannot reach her... ish.
She always knows where you are, appearing out of nowhere scaring the serenity right out of your eyes ─ trying to pass it off as a mere coincidence, or how navigating through Liyue is second nature to her when delivering meals to faraway customers (which is an innocent lie). Creepy, but hardly dangerous. Scaring you is never her intentions, it hurts to see you cower because of her. Why... Why are you looking at her that way? What is there to even be afraid of? She just wants to be with you as a loyal companion, an overly-attached lover if possible. 
Not only is there one loyal protector who is willing to risk everything, but two. Guoba knows how extremely precious you are by the way she spews on and on about some let-loose traveler currently camping in Liyue. It’s not like he completely understands the situation himself but, as long as she remains euphoric, then your presence will be accepted, and sooner or later sought out for. Break her heart on the other hand, and that is another story to recite. Guoba too, will never even think of letting you go in regards to his lovable companion. Having a sulking, dispirited Xiangling is the least of his wishes, so do not bother trying.
No need to dwell about cooking anymore. The obligation to lift a pan is a worry no more, she’ll take care of it, no problem. Remember all those left over slime condensate? Or lizard tail collecting dust in your inventory? Nothing’s straight up impossible, they’ll be tossed into a dish for an extra kick, a delectable taste that’ll surely enhance your combat skills for a limited time. Doesn’t that sound like a wonderful treat? She’s already drooling over the thought of it, feeding you lovingly despite your refusal, even if you are tied down to a tree stump in smoothen rope. Stop fighting her. It’s a waste of energy, doesn’t an adventurer needs lots vitality to move around the world?
There is no such thing as judgement, until you give it a try.
Ever wonder how exactly she knows where to go when looking for you? Her handy dandy map of course, full of annotations and cute sketches scribbled all over it. Not only is there data regarding locations that need to be visited again, but also the places you commonly travel to. She is motivated to try every location each day in order to catch sights of you. time is no opponent, distance is no obstacle. Being welcomed, however, is a sore subject that should not be brought into question. That slight grimace planted on your face when she comes into light has her doubting at times, do you really not like her at all..?
Having her around is not a bad thing, admittingly. She knows how to cook up a mean meal with the most outlandish ingredients, knows a thing or two about creating medicinal herbs, and can fend for herself against ambushes. In other words, theoretically the perfect teammate. What’s holding her back from that potential is her obsessive behavior regarding you. The stalking needs to come to a halt, and maybe, just maybe you’ll come to like her.
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Shining Idol ─ Barbara Pegg
clumsy, obsessive, insecure
A deaconess of the Church of Favonius at day, a hardworking idol by night ─ her song reaches Mondstadt’s heart, capturing them in a riptide of desire and devotion, everything she personally feels not. Barbara, striving to be better each day, cannot comprehend these positive emotions you give her. The lewd acts of accepting that one charming kiss you placed atop her hand, or that sly wink you sent her way onstage when she was performing in town square. She has a responsibility to ignore all possible distractions, anything that’ll deter her from the burdens of a humbled protestant would be blocked out in an instance when given the chance.
So, why hasn’t she done so with you?
Falling over nothing is common, falling for someone isn’t. You see, years and years of dedicating her time and attention to one of the seven hasn’t allowed any room for relationships to manifest, for romance to blossom properly. Embarrassingly enough, she has no experience. Zero. Only the plentiful stories Lisa shares anytime she stops by the library, and still not understanding them half of the time. They sound melodious against her ears, intriguing, a whole new adventure to be encountered without having to move across the world. Convenient for someone like her. So sweet, yet so wrong.
Will fret over your health and safety, comfortably abandoning her own. A curse of selflessness which’ll follow her down to the grave. She’s so used to looking after others despite her youth; Jean, Bennett, everyone’s at least had a visit or two at the chapel to patch up small accidents. Nagging you constantly, although softly as can be, to at least try not to put yourself in unnecessary danger. Daring travelers are bound to be hurt, it’s almost unfeasible to not, but maybe tone the carelessness down a notch. Seeing you in pain distresses her so much, her fans start to watch over you in hopes of their idol being less troubled.
Return the hospitality, and you got yourself a flustered Barbara.
Um, please look after yourself more! As much as I lov- like, to see you, I am not fond of the reason why you come here so often.
What was it now, the tenth time that you’ve almost succumbed to death? Always testing the boundaries of an eventual demise, always stressing her out. But maybe that’s one of the traits she comes to adore, that brazen behavior of yours.
A-And... if that’s not achievable, I will do m-my best to aid you any way possible.
She trusts her older sister, but apparently not with everything because one issue still hasn’t been disclosed. Jean is already too busy with her duties, too busy keeping their home harmonious, free of troubles. Why should another problem be pushed onto her wearied shoulders? It’s just the typical problems that comes with love: The doubts, the bottled up emotions; the anxiety. She prays to all the Archons above that it’ll eventually solve itself given enough time. But pleading can only get people so far, Barbara knows that an effort must be made in order to create the change she wants. Hard work is the most miraculous magic, after all.
Unlike the others, her insecurity is what prevents her from seeking a future with you. Tid bits of concerns, worries always pokes at her when she’s so close to confessing. An inferiority complex that spirals into immense feelings of worthlessness, stopping Barbara from ever acting upon her selfish wishes. Even if you too reciprocate every ounce of love, openly displaying it, something in her convinces otherwise. Surely you see her as just a really close friend, comfortable enough to touch her freely without much thought. You probably prefer her sister, or Amber. Literally anyone other than her.
There’s so much better people out there.
Again, Barbara is basically an idol. She is aware of this fact, have been for a while now after hearing about some fans waiting outside the church to catch a sight of their supposed Goddess. Few people out there adores her to the point of obsession which understandably rubs her off the wrong way, but they are nowhere as crazy in the tales. That, she is thankful for and will continue to not disappoint them with future projects, hopefully. Who knows what they’ll think of her then if all doubts of her actually turn out to be true. And she doesn’t understand their fixations and compassion until someone from a whole different world steps onto the stage.
You’re perfect.
So perfect, she shouldn’t even be able to breathe the same air as you.
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Astral Reflection ─ Mona Megistus
obsessive, lucid, manipulative
A significantly well-known astrologist, wandering aimlessly around Mondstadt for whatever end goal she has in mind ─ which she doesn’t know. Mona continues to hold herself in high regards, high expectations, and a low budget in order to make do with little money she has. To balance all of this while also trying to cover that very fact is a struggle itself, but this is simply mandatory. People will start to think less of her if they know the truth about their beloved star seeker, someone who can’t even keep a single penny. She feigns wealth in order to appear more dignified, commendable to the eyes of curious wanderers. You especially.
Oh goodness, compliment her, praise her whenever you can, she exists for it. Hanging onto every word like a delirious puppy, not even bothering to contain the satisfaction sparkling in those pale green eyes of hers. She’s so smug, so weak for your undivided attention. This is what keeps the motivation going, the only drive besides a desire for endless knowledge. It pushes her to do everything within her power to impress, enchant, and captivate all recognition from you. The outsiders, their opinions ultimately do not matter compared to you. With this aggressive support, anything is almost possible. Almost.
She wants you to be happy, always, and the only thing she thinks that will earn your affection is piles and piles of gifts. She likes them (even though she hardly has the chance to scavenge any), you must like them too. Who doesn’t? By that, prepare to be spoiled relentlessly. Name whatever material, meal, weapon ─ anything you lay your pretty eyes on. She will find a way to obtain these riches through whatever means, detrimental or not. Skipping meals, making contracts she could never keep, crazy loans, so many things that’ll hurt her on the long run but, it’ll be worth it in the end. That bright smile of yours rejuvenates all exhaustion. Like none of those bad things ever happened.
How pathetic, convincing herself that everything will be alright with measly encouragement. How whimsical can someone possibly get?
Taking advantage of her divination isn’t what she planned but, it helps out so much. Mona can manipulate just about anything in your life with a reading of hers, she can make you just as paranoid as her with a single fortune. That is the power that lies within her, someone who dedicates their entire life understanding the meanings of the stars and above. She does not receive any money from these endeavors, her beliefs are simply too strong to accept any form of payment. But you... you pay in another form unwittingly. Your uttermost faith, the trust you place willingly in her shaky hands.
Maybe that’s how she relies on self-harm; to make up for all the deceit and pained lies, to keep her somewhat sane.
There’s no point in lying. She can sense these fallacies from a mile away, there is no hiding. The truth will reveal itself gradually, whether it’ll take days, months, years ─ time is no matter. You can understand the frustration she bears whenever someone tries to cover up the facts behind white lies, or so they claim. You are her, uh, recent lover. It hasn’t been long since you two gotten together officially, and there’s still a few tiny problems that you lie about to not ‘bother’ her. Heart-wrenching, not being able to trust her that much. Still, she can’t fuss at you for that. It’ll be hypocritical of her to say something, so Mona stays quiet, waiting until you have the courage for her consolation.
It’s unpleasant, being in love. She knows how unhealthy this is, how stimulating this all-too familiar feeling truly is, for she is reminded of it every time the sky darkens and confidence begins to abandon her. Discovering how such desperate behavior of hers will only lead to desolation and loneliness, and still accepting the outcome nonetheless is a tragedy waiting to happen. This can be avoided, but Mona does not pry. Fate cannot be changed, nor can it be reversed she enunciates. It can only be but accepted. 
Stars, do not lie.
Mona gazes down at their reflection on the water, shadows casting over her eyes the more she ruminates.
Maybe that’s why humans do.
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Juvenile Galant ─ Xingqiu
mocking, manipulative, curious
Leaves Liyue citizens in awe of how graceful the son of the Feiyun Commerce Guild really is when there’s not much work put into that perception of him. Everyone is so easy to please, to fool, and his object of obsession is no better than them. Xingqiu, not having to be shouldered with managing the guild’s affairs, spends most of his time mirthfully in solitude; a peaceful existence. Whether it’s being buried in all sorts of novels, or sharpening his blade work for the next enemy ─ all hobbies of his will typically be relished by himself. The obligation to entertain those around him is no issue, but only for a moment. Freedom is nothing but a social construct in this world. That, he will forever long for.
Something about being a hero, your hero, pleases him substantially. Granted, you’re completely capable of handling yourself, else you wouldn’t be a solo traveler, there should still be moments of helplessness every once in-a-while. Whether a situation is manipulated or not, he’ll come to the rescue. How wonderful it feels to see the apparent relief roll off your shoulders when Xingqiu makes a dashing appearance. Sudden, but needed. He’s heard you cry out his name in an act of desperation before reaching you, that hopelessness... The feeling of being depended on, needed.
He craves them all.
Will write a story inspired by the likes of you two in his free time. It will not be published for the world, Archons forbid. This is a personal treasure, not even to be revealed to the main inspiration. Instead, it’ll be enjoyed privately at his own leisure. Just a little hobby of his, nothing too serious. You’ll see the journal glued to his side sometimes, wondering what in the world has him enthralled. Safe to say, you want to find out his little secret like any other individual. Take a peek at it however, prepare to face any consequences. Well, it’s not very kind to poke your head in places they shouldn’t be, he murmurs with a warm smile, didn’t bother to ask, did you?
Xingqiu is mean. You’d assume that Chongyun was simply exaggerating in his rants, but it’s true, not getting a taste of the bitter medicine until later on in the relationship. His tongue is sharper than any blade, can pierce through the toughest hearts with a single word, excelling in a specific art known as degradation, and a tad bit of manipulation to put it all together. Something about your reactions, your tears, encourages him to bully you even more. This is just a way that he displays his attraction to you, it’ll hurt, but at least it’ll hurt with love.
My liege.
His voice calms you down with ease despite the condescension that comes, gentle fingers combing through your hair to cease the endless crying
Settle down, now. It was a mere jest of mine, you know I truly don’t mean it, right?
He revels in your suffering, thoroughly. It’s interesting. You’re interesting, and he hopes you’ll continue to entertain him for as long as you remained hopeful, and curious. Eventually, a toy begins to break, and broken toys are to be disposed of because what use are they to the owner then? Not that he’ll let that happen, he’s sure something will be able to bring you out of the shell when the time comes. A bit of experimenting does not hurt. And in the case of failure, he can ask a small favor of Albedo to test out a few theories in mind that might be able to light the spark in your eyes. Can’t have a lifeless husk now! It’s forbidden. Your liveliness is what made him fall for you in the first place.
At some point, Xingqiu will bring up something similar to marriage. Since his family would not allow him to associate, let alone be united with someone of no status, then why not do these sacred vows behind their backs? The ceremony will be private. Just you and him, nobody else to ruin a beautiful moment. At the altar of Jueyun Karst, the moonlight pouring out through the open windows, and onto your face as you anxiously confessed an oath to him, as does he. And a breathtaking kiss seals the chilling night.
You were born for this moment.
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Prinzessin der Verurteilung ─ Fischl
obsessive, delusional, vulnerable
As the so-called Prinzessin der Verurteilung, falling in love shouldn’t be a hassle. She’s been through plenty of suffering to deal with smaller issues such as this. No way is she crying over this, but of something of way more importance. Fischl, the only main character in this unfortunate universe, tries to do everything in her power to prove that you two are simply meant to be. This world carries an invisible magnet, pulling your fates together, mending them into one. It may sound ridiculous like many of her other theories, but it’s true!
Especially tries to stay in character around you, wanting to display her cool, reliable side. Highly sophisticated vocabulary, intricate metaphors, whole monologues no one but her familiar can understand. An attempt like this only leaves you confused with even more questions that still hasn’t been answered, an appropriate reaction. How long can she keep this façade up until you get tired of her like the others? In fear of having this possibility, it doesn’t take her any long to quit the dialogue ─ not completely, just enough to where it is comprehensible.
She still has to keep up a cool image.
A typical tsundere, although not too much where it is annoying. Will deny any acts of affection or favoritism towards you even if it’s frankly obvious. She’s embarrassed, nervous about the chance of facing rejection if you were to know, so don’t be surprised when she retracts a statement that sounds oddly similar to a confession. A normal act of the slip of a tongue, don’t get it too distorted ─ she stutters. Her face burns a vibrant red the more your doubtful stare stays on her... Why does your presence make it harder for her to stay in character? Is there another ability you have that you are not made aware of?
And, um, can you... wait till she has the guts to actually confess?
Definitely asks her familiar to watch over you when possible, which mind you is most of the time since being affiliated with the adventurer’s guild is no easy feat. Oz is aware, certainly concerned for his lovesick master the more this went on. A girl like Fischl couldn’t possibly know any better about this matter as much as she claims, he knows better than that. Doing this leaves her at a huge disadvantage during battles, coming back with bandages wrapped all over her frail body. He needs to be there, her bow is not all that she needs out on the battlefield, but he cannot go against his master’s orders.
Hm? What about all those injuries she bears? It’s none of an unsuspecting traveler’s business.
There’s a hidden side to her. A side you’re able to see. behind closed doors, behind scratched-up eyepatches, is a vulnerable girl who drowns herself in a fantasy to escape the loneliness that followed her as a child. She doesn’t want to grow up. It’s scary, everything is, but no spell currently exists to intercept the flow of time. A vivid imagination will have to make do as of now. Her outfit is much more casual at home. Long golden locks flowing out onto her shoulders once the hair ties are removed and the air of elegance dissipates into thin air. Retaining facades, are of no more. At least, not until she has to head out for the next mission that is assigned to her.
Alas, she is just a typical girl.
She is plenty of touch-starved. Any sort of affection leaves her wanting more. Her parents were the only ones showering her in lots of love before she’d reach an age where she should’ve outgrown it. This skinship you give out is a lot different... embarrassing, but appealing. Every forward action of yours easily strikes some fluttering feelings into her: Constricting bear hugs, gentle forehead kisses, and shy hand-holding. Although receiving head pats are a personal favorite, makes her feel accepted, loved again.
You make her feel at home.
No, you are her home.
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Trial By Fire ─ Bennett
reckless, possessive, oblivious
A reckless adventurer who doesn’t know their limits. Alone, motivated, and unknowingly harmful to those hanging around him; Bennett, stays enthusiastic through all, able to change most of his negative feelings into eternal hope like a fellow ally of his. But anything that has to do with unconditional love will simply be embraced, that is the exception. Envy, lust, greed ─ these emotions are normal, therefore, should be accepted no matter how damaging the consequences shall be. Not a lot of things goes his way, or ever do, so why not indulge himself in a bit of ignorance, for it is universally known as bliss. The world is practically encouraging him to when you were introduced into his pitiful life.
Doesn’t particularly realize his romantic feelings for you, not yet anyways. Passes it as just a desire to protect someone against all, as buddies, friends, whatever! That’s not important. What’s important is that you two need to stay together at all times from now on. Any moment separated only calls for trouble, and nobody wants that... Actually, there will be, tons of them the more he ponders off. Although it doesn’t mean that it cannot be fixed. Heroes tend to find themselves in tight spots, but they always manage to triumph through! That’s right, he will find solutions to these hardships.
Forces you to be a part of Bennett’s guild, coughs, convinces you! Force is a rather harsh word, isn’t it? It’s best to tag along with him at all times, the world is too dangerous for someone precious like you! So much. That he just might go insane if you’re not around. He’s convinced that since you’ve associated yourself with him, you too are affected by his extreme bad luck. That is why it is his responsibility to look after you, to protect you from his downfalls ─ isn’t he the most suitable person to. Aw, aren’t you ‘blessed’!
A part of him despises your interactions with anyone else. You have him already, why do you need someone else? No one is allowed to join his guild anymore, every position has already been fulfilled. Healer, main damage dealer, enhancer, they can do it all with two people only. So don’t bother recruiting others, or talking to them in general. If anything, he’ll take care of it, he’ll take care of everything. Just sit tight for him like a pretty doll, won’t ya? There is no need to waste energy on some nameless individual.
There you are! I was looking all over for you... And who’s this?
His arm slings over your shoulder, tugging you closer.
How can I possibly help you...?
Disgustingly affectionate. His hands always find themselves on you... as an instinct, or maybe a hidden desire. Wrapping an arm around your waist, padded fingers dangerously prodding close to your thighs, testing the waters on how close can he possibly get till you finally cower. But the thing is, you don’t think he’s doing this out of ill intent. Bennett is not that type of person, so you’ll let these hands of his continue to wander all over you even if they prove to be uncomfortable. How long will you be able to withstand it, this unpleasant affection...
He’s no stranger to lust.
Bennett will risk his life for you, a guarantee in any situation. He cannot avoid pain, for it will continue to follow him to the ends of earth like a curse. Still, it’s not like he’s going to go down so easily. He’s escaped death so many times he’d lost count, not much can bring him down at this point. And because of this, he shall be deemed your destined hero. Anyone that stands in the way are just bad guys waiting to be exterminated!
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Frozen Ardor ─ Chongyun
protective, short-tempered, lucid
Conceived from a clan of famous exorcists, and obtaining excessive positive energy that others may know as talent, when it is nothing but a curse itself ─ Chongyun takes this matter into his own hands to prove to everyone, to himself, that he is completely capable of exorcising without the need of an inborn trait. It’s troublesome, that power. He overcompensates this hassle with harsh training, withdrawing himself from things that he cannot personally enjoy sober. In other words, congenital positivity places a huge burden on his life. If he is to live without it, then his very existence would be much, much gratifying. 
Discipline is key if people want to learn. He uses this in every aspect of his life. Naturally you’ll have to undergo the same training as him; withstanding harsh weathers, battling against enemies thrice your size, all things wearying. This will drastically improve tons of things such as endurance, restraint, and perseverance ─ but you aren’t as durable like him. Healing takes more than a couple of days before continuing a session, those are what you dread. You can argue with him all you want that this isn’t necessary, he’ll insist that challenging the mind and body will assist if you retain an open mind which you aren’t doing so far.
Chongyun just wants what is best for his partner, whether that means projecting his own problems onto them.
Will consider taking you with him, and act on it. Chongyun can’t exactly... watch over you when you’re too busy across the world, silly. Perhaps if there is a chance you can halt these obligations for now, instead, joining him on a path of becoming a future exorcist as a beloved apprentice under him. How can anyone skip this opportunity? You can ask your clients for compensation who can pay big money. He’ll show you the ropes, the responsibilities of being one. There is pleasure in seeing how thankful the victims of spirits are after the exorcism takes place.
Kindly deny his offer, and he’ll kindly take you by force.
Do not anger him. He is trying with all his might to not get annoyed over such unwillingness, but you are simply pushing it. He understands why you are acting like this, a brat, he’s not completely blind to the situation. To be forced by some acquaintance to stay with them or else is simply maddening, it would have been strange if you accepted his overprotective nature so easily. What he is trying to accomplish however, is for you to eventually give up, accept your intertwined fate with him. You don’t even have to understand anymore.
... Though it fails, your mental fortitude is simply too strong to be reckon with.
He will snap, especially when trying to run away ─ that is the last straw. All reasoning leaves his body the moment you make a dash for the exit, grabbing onto the ends of your hair and harshly tugging back despite your pleads of agony. He gets that angry. All that emotion Chongyun had to contain the whole time will be let out in an instance; a waterfall of wrath, frustration, all that agitation you caused him prior. And remember, he has no memory of what took place the next day.
You are now at his mercy.
That is why there is no point in bringing that up. What are you running on about? Him... hurting you? Stop bending the truth. Those bites and cuts all over your body did not come from him. If anything, you probably got them by accident, or was it from the tiresome training yesterday night? Whatever. The fact that you had the audacity to blame him straight away is irritating enough. 
Although, it is okay, you are forgiven. We’re human, we all make mistakes.
You’ll just have to be corrected.
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