#these two are saving my mental health

[diamondzshelter]

Maybe there is no father in Gru’s life, but he obviously has a dad ✨✨✨

#these two are saving my mental health #for the last 3 months already #I want to draw comfortable things with them #the best dad and the best son #I swear #despicable me #minions the rise of gru #young dr nefario #dr nefario #felonious gru

[disastertwins9000]

- Lee discovering that dark humor is really popular and so he and Leon keep making jokes out of their various traumas. Rise Raph gets after Leon for that one and there is a lot of talk about self esteem

Credit goes to my amazing friend @sapphiretanto who is helping me so much with this au and these hilarious hc’s. plz go follow them

Lee: *motivating the team* There is always more than one way around a seemingly objective solution.

Leon: An elevator?

Lee: Break the cable and fall down the shaft.

Leon: Can’t get into a second story window?

Lee: have someone throw you through it! 😌

Leo: some people say I have daddy issues… jokes on you, I don’t even have a dad!

Leon: ba dum tsss

*gets asked if they can do a backflip*

Lee: that’s setting the bar even lower than my self esteem

Leon: and my self preservation.

Leo and Leon: high three!

HOMIES IN A HALF-SHELL AU

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #these two would be an absolute menace to mental health #save rottmnt #2012 tmnt #disastertwins9000art #my artwork #tmnt fanart #rottmnt fanart #2k12 tmnt #tmnt 2012 #rottmnt leo #2012 leo #homies in a half-shell au #rottmnt & 2012 crossover #my art #hc art #homieswelcome

[parapsychologicalvulpes]

Please Help!!

i really hesitate to make this post bc it's the end of the year and everyone is strapped for money but the past several months have just been slowly getting more and more overwhelming for the things we need to fix.

We've been driving around in a car with the back windows we can't even roll up (one is held up by duct tape and the other is now slipped off the track that we can't even pull it up at this point) and trying to save up money to fix the windows, and a small oil leak.

Two months ago we had to turn off the water to the kitchen sink bc underneath is rusted through and it needs replaced. We're doing dishes in the bathtub with a hair catcher because we can't use the dishwasher.

A few days ago, one of the back tires went flat because the wall has rotted and we have no spare. I need to go to work, but bc of my disability, I have a job that only has me work maybe twice a month. I get *maybe* 200$ a month and I don't currently have government assistance. It's been impossible for us to save anything to fix anything and it keeps snowballing. At this point we are worried how to even get food.

I'm stressed. My wife is stressed. If anyone could spare even a couple dollars so we can replace the back two tires on the car so I could go to work, I would be eternally grateful.

Reblogs are deeply appreciated.

paypal.me/kabegami

#im really sorry to have to make this post but im genuinely at my wits end #i cant afford (physically) to get another job to save money even tho i want to #please only donate if you can afford it obviously #the car is the biggest issue rn but the sink is really wearing on our mental health #the literal broken window of the house is like the least of a priority bc theres just. so much rn. #2/3 of the sinks in the house aren't functioning and one of them we have to park a radiator in front of in the winter #two years ago the furnace died and the pipes burst and completely eradicated all savings we had #we just. need a little break. just a little help #donation post #signal boost #please please just reblog if nothing else

[hussyknee]

I can't disengage from Gaza. I can't DO this. I need a break. I'm afraid how many more people will be dead when I come back. How do you walk away from a massacre. How is this happening. I just want to stop seeing dead children when I close my eyes. I want to stop seeing men stripped to their underwear in the freezing winter and women tortured and the elderly barely able to move.

I can't think of any point before October without thinking of how many people there were alive and whole then. Hundreds of entire bloodlines wiped out, maybe thousands by now, erased off the earth, their stories and memories all just gone. Thousands and thousands of people's parents, children, newborns, siblings, friends, co-workers, neighbours, pets all gone gone gone crushed and buried and rotting under rubble, mosques, schools, hospitals, shops, parks, universities, libraries, farms, groves, gardens all gone gone gone. Things that were alive and standing and solid and teeming and laughing and hoping and dreaming two months ago. Worlds and universes annihilated.

Meanwhile people on here whose governments are the ones doing this using their votes and their money are just...going on with their lives with some fleeting guilt. Like its nothing to do with them. Not haunted, not following the news or seeing the photos and videos and crying and pleading the way we are.

What the fuck is this insane horrible world. How do you live in without hating everyone and everything around you to dust.

Just make it stop. Please just make it stop.

#if it weren't for my kittens i might be in critical condition rn. but they stop me from ever slipping all the way to suicidality #it's fucking miraculous on one hand because i spent the last 12 months convinced i was going to end it all #otoh it's like i got the mental health life jacket i needed just in time to watch this fucking shit for two months without pause #screeeeeeeeeeeeaaaammm #tw death #gaza genocide #free gaza #save gaza #free palestine #death to israel #death to america #death to the west #knee of huss

[alexturner2005]

today i officially quit the shitty job i’ve been at for six years ✌️

#three weeks to go and then i’m using all my accumulated vacation time and some savings to be intentionally jobless for a month or two #bc i’m so burnt out it’s taking a major toll on my mental and physical health #makes me nervous to do but everyone i’ve talked to has agreed it’s what i need to do rn #anyway i can’t wait to never set foot in that hellhole again #they passed me over for a promotion and made me train the guy they hired instead #which isn’t the main reason i’m leaving but it sure doesn’t make me wanna stay

[outerspacious]

my boss has been shitting on me all week so on Monday I’m going to quit my job, which will cause some problems bc then they’ll be understaffed HOWEVER that’s not my fucking problem anymore

#fuck that whole place #I had drinks with my new coworker today and even she said that she’s just there to save money to go abroad soon #fucking shitty ass workplace #im so done with it #destroyed my mental and physical health to make minimum wage with no benefits #WHILE I HAVE TWO DEGREES #im DONE #bye bitch ass boss #better things to come hopefully 🤞🏻

[arsonist-chicken]

Do you ever like.. get a sudden surge of love and admiration and just general happiness because of a friend, so much so that it's almost overwhelming, and you are just so, so glad you met them and hope you'll never have to let them go and get to keep them in your life forever? Yeah ❤️💖🐗🧚‍♂️🦄

#i should go to sleep #but these are the moments i wonder again if i know what a crush feels like and if i can tell the difference between periodical very strong #but platonic affection for a friend and having a tiny crush on them #oh well. in the end does it matter? #but it would still be nice to be able to tell the difference. if nothing else then to know when i actually have a crush on someone i'm not #that close to like that friend or that fond of #fucking hell god please never let me have to let them go. i don't think i've ever met someone i'm that comfortable around and around whom #it's so easy to just be myself #or rarely. maybe with two other friends i don't feel the need to hold back myself from blurting stuff out and interrupting them and #apologising and asking them to continue or just like.. say whatever comes to mind or touch electric pasture fences to see if it still stings #(it does btw but in a sensorally really nice way 10/10 would recommend) #why do amazing people often live so damn far away? last time i met a bunch of people i really got to love was almost lifesaving and #definitely mental health saving. we used to talk every day and now i barely know what any of them are up to :( covid really fucked us over #with everyone just trying to survive and stay sane. we really lost touch and now it #*it's hard to get that back because we're strewn across europe and brasil and the us and everyone's an adult with responsibilities now #i miss them :( gotta try harder to rekindle that #anyway @the universe or whatever fuckers listening: if you put me in circumstances that make me lose touch with her like with them #i'll set the world on fire. she's become far too important to me to let that happen #okay as always i couldn't damn shut up in the tags alright bye bye good night whatever my cat's purring now instead of snoring #scientists of tumblr invent a teleportation machine now. i want to lie in a park and watch dogs and read side by side and remember how good #life can be #mine

[velnica]

What got you into writing about the bard boys? Love your works by the way! :D

Oh this is a great question and I apologise in advance if this sounds like a meandering trip down memory lane, but I have not actually reminisced about this in so long!

I'm gonna have to rewind to 25 April 2022 when I finally finished the Stormblood Bard quest. I practically inhaled both the HW and SB portions, and I was excitedly talking about it to some uninterested friends. I started trawling AO3 for all their fics, tried talking about it to other FFXIV players (which ended nowhere, as I was decidedly not in shipping spaces yet), and then I nearly gave up because no one wanted to talk about them as much as I did 😭

No, I did not go into Tumblr or Twitter yet because I was a dum dum and I could have skipped this initial heartache if I had lol.

ANYWAY someone in a lore channel I was in said that their initial tiff in the Nine Ivies look like two jilted lovers getting annoyed at each other and then an idea started forming. What if they were jilted lovers? What if they had met each other but subsequently avoided the others due to reputations, or unwillingness to commit, or whatever else? And then the smut writer in me started cackling; what if they had a one night stand and they remember it?

Before I knew it I had the first draft of Breathe In written in my gdocs. I posted it and then bam! there was no way to go but onwards. I started finding fandom spaces for ffxiv shipping, and then I found people who also ship the bard boys and the rest, as they say, was history.

To me this is really the story of how an interest that was fed and nourished can grow to be something that elevates my life. I enjoy the act of writing/creating itself and in the boys I found a subject that I want to explore through many scenarios which is I think just a match made in heaven. I also would like to think that they're cheering me on from between the lines, encouraging me to keep unfolding their stories in my own way and I think that's a really sweet thought that will keep me going in this niche space for a very long time 💖

#vel answers #Anonymous #whew that got long and meandering #sorry anon I hope I didn't scare you with my wall of text haha #I'm an old lady I love reminiscing #especially something as near and dear to my heart #as writing about these two boys had been #they saved my mental health #literally

[sbd-laytall]

#I would just like to say that I KNOW that there are scenes where Sam slices his arm but for some reason I couldn't find any #and this gifset has been in the making for about a year so I really want to finish this #I remember I was watching Yellowjackets for the first time and I was discussing it with a mutual and I realized how much these two are alik #well there's the obvious: after traumatic experiences they endure mental health issues where they hallucinate and get electro-shock therapy #but there's also how Lottie finds comofrt in faith and religion just like Sam (at least in the beginning) #Sam has his powers that he gets from the demon blood in him and Lottie has her connection to the Wilderness so they're both kind of psychic #both of them feeling so lost and angry and being terrified of themselves #Lottie's dad wanting her to be 'fixed' and Sam's dad telling Dean that if he can't save Sam then he needs to kill Sam #and finally they just both feel very queer to me #Lottie losing Nat just like Sam losing literally every woman he's ever loved #tw electrocution #tw blood #tw self harm #hallucinations tw #lottie matthews #yellowjackets #sam winchester #supernatural #spn #gifs are mine #my post

[soldier-poet-king]

Yeah like I'm genuine devastated that it seems like I'm gonna have to fight to get immunotherapy for cats and my family is like why are you making such a big deal abt this but I'm genuinely about to cry but I can't say oh waiting for this cat was one of the few things that kept me alive for a really long time and also let's be real the chances of me getting married are slim at best and my ideal platonic soulmate polycule commune scenario is again, realistically never happening, and I'm an anxious introvert in an extremely individualistic and isolating society, this cat and my houseplants are really all I've got going for me and if that sounds pathetic, yes it is, but I have to keep myself alive and carrying the burden of duty and obligations SOMEHOW

#i WILL just megadose myself with allergy meds everyday if i have to #like yeah thats not healthy and not good for me probably #but my mental health will kill me faster than heavy use of antihistamines will #franposting #im not even exaggerating this is like. one of two hopes for the future i have keeping me going #just one small pleasure in life #since i can be afforded neither romance nor platonic intimacy #the shire is saved but my burden is so heavy. can i at least have a fun cozy lil guy to keep me company #im not allergic to birds or reptiles but i can't cuddle those #im not even THAT allergic to cats #i can breathe fine #i just. don't want to be itchy 24/7 in my own home and safe space #god this is maybe sounding so dumb but im crying. #i want to *** #what wad the point of this #im allergic to everything i care about #and the one thing i did the testing for (mold) i had no reaction to #so it didnt even solve my mystery reactions of late

[champagnepodiums]

to the two anons who sent me long essays taking offense with my word choices when i explained the beef DR fans have with Scott McLaughlin (or maybe it’s one anon idk). I’m not posting those lmao 💀 so don’t send me anymore.

Also insulting IndyCar fans and drivers is never going to earn you any points with me because I am very active in the IndyCar community 💀

#sorry but i refuse to open that can of worms because it’s one topic i will not be nice about #like i know this post is a bit harsh but i don’t have the time or patience so let me save you all the time and energy #any posts of the above topic WILL be promptly deleted #i have to protect my mental health so this is a topic i refuse to talk about further #bc judging by the tones of the two mentioned anons #the convo will devolve quickly

[quillyfied]

It has been a packed and busy few weeks. Lots of good socializing and also doing of Things.

Unfortunately I also feel that my social batteries are so tapped that it is extending into the physical and if I don’t get a substantial period of time to myself to just be quiet and still without staying up until 2am or later, I’m going to sink my teeth into something I oughtn’t.

#quilly has issues #like I’m fine I just want a period of time to rest where I’m not stealing my own sleep time to make up for it #fine but about to not be fine #seriously considering taking a mental health day #but I also know that the end of the month is going to mean winter break #two or three weeks almost solid of having kids to watch all day instead of just half the day #and maybe I want to save a mental health day for then #but holy damn I just want to sit and stare off into space in silence for a while #then clean my room and do other small chores #I’m entering my Petty phase of mentally drained and I hate that

[ramayantika]

Things I tell myself

Neet Or any exam doesn't define me. I am still the same girl. I am still the same Samridhi. I am healing I will live well. There are infinite stars, the bright sun and the moon in the sky. I look at the same heavenly bodies just like the billions of people in the world do. If this doesn't work I will find myself something better but I am not losing my life in this process. I am not going to lose myself mentally. I am not giving up on myself.

I have written poems about me bleeding out and being surrounded by red blood around in the bathroom as I whisper God's name. That's just a poem I am going to live happily with friends and family around me in a nice bed and with the people I choose. Not my profession nor can the society define me. I have stuck around even now for a reason. There must be something good coming up. Good things will happen to me. I have hit my fists and fingers, scratched my thighs and slapped myself and even wondered to hurt myself with sharp needles and blades. I am better than that. I am not harming my body for some 720 marks. I am not killing myself for 720 marks. I will work hard yes but even if I don't get it I will not let that dictate the rest of my life

I am going to find friends. I am going to learn to be a little soft to myself. I am going to learn how to understand my mother and her incomplete desires. There will be a day with the sun shining on my balcony and me sipping coffe with a book on my lap

There isn't going to be blood or grief. My self worth will never be attached to a paper. I exist here for multitude reasons. Sometimes when I think of me choosing to let go of everything thinking if I get a terrible result, I willl probably die.

But then I see my brother whom I took care of since we were children. We are twins but I grew up earlier than him. I think of my mother who slept with me from the time I was a little baby. I think of papa and think that his world would crumble to dust if I ever choose something utterly drastic to me if things go wrong. I think of my friends who call me weekly who might wander why I no longer come online to post poems or photos of the sky. I am not going to make anyone feel guilty for never knowing this side of me. When I remember that poem of me bleeding out in the bathroom I also remember my boyfriend (what a terrible way of letting you guys know about him) he is a gem and so nice so patient. He reads all my poems and stories, listens to me ranting about all my dance production scripts that I have drafted.

I can't hurt these people. I can't hurt myself.

It's going to be alright. I am alive. My body works in a very good condition. I have art to contribute and create. I am alive.

I am going to live well

****

#samridhi speaks #I don't know what's wrong with me I wish I was like my friends more stronger #maybe I am different I always was. #I don't know how did eveything transgress to this #but I know I may lose neet I may not get the best degrees or best colleges like other friends of mine #but I will be happy I am going to heal I am going to explore life I am going to do something great in my way #I want to save myself first #also I hope my boyfriend never reads this because he is going to cry because he knows what all went wrong in the last two years #neet rants #tw blood #mental health #tw self harm

[aldercaps]

“this too shall pass” teeth clenched, crying

#been having a TIme #can't do full days at art school without overdoing it and being sore and exhausted for the next two days #cant participate in everything needed done at art school without doing full days #can't walk the whole way without fucking up my feet. can't afford to take the bus everday #can't afford nice things without dipping into savings #can't do too many chores around the house AND get my coursework done #augh augh augh #can't afford a pet. desperately needs animal companion for mental health #anyway. im going to go walk some dogs with my partner and try not to feel awful about skipping class today #maybe watch some vampire diaries with my other partner since apparently there are imminent werewolves #lads im Going Through It #im doing so much better than i was this time last year. as in im not actively suicidal skdjhfs #genuinely. manageable levels of depression now its wild. there are still the agonies #but the joys have returned too #just gotta keep reminding myself #homepost

[nullians]

.

#feeling like throwing up with how stressed I am about my finances lately #good reminder of just how fragile my situation is anyways #it's like... why are you guilt tripping me about needing money for doctors when you spend so much more on things that are not necessary? #like... I know. This is how this power imbalance works but uhhhh #just last week she has spent more on home appliances than I've asked her to give me to go see dentists and... I feel awful #one - bc she said we should save up but doesn't do so herself #two - bc this is the first time I'm asking about money for health reasons in 3 years if not more #I don't get ill and I don't do fashion or cosmetics and I just #don't really buy things except occasional entertainment (art & games) #the rest is just food and materials for uni #negative #personal #I just feel like shit #like I know! I could've kept my health a bit better but also... hey. You win some you lose some and I chose to lose health for uni+family+ #mental (somewhat) stability #and the clinic won't even tell me the exact price so I have to be prepared for a gap of 4000 pln so it's a nightmare #sorry just. sorry

[kozidraws]

On one hand it's nice to have a lot of time to draw but on the other hand I think I'm using it as a distraction for how irl is going rn. I'm applying for jobs like crazy when I'm not drawing. Gosh I hope I get a reply soon.

#will try to go to unemployment office sometime next week #gotta go to the doctor first #kinda stressing out #my housemate who owns the place I'm paying rent is flat out ignoring me atm #I've told him the situation #and he has said nothing #which is making me uncomfortable #I've got two months of rent saved up #after that #i don't know what's going to happen #I don't want to be homeless #I wish I was better at art #at least then I could have some stability #damn it #trying to have strength and staying positive is so hard #because my mental health has been atrocious as well #at least I bought anti depressants