#they don’t care about my music

[ghostickle]

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#I wish I could go back in time never had met either of them #never trusted them never given them everything #I moved in with him because he begged me too I wanted to live alone #and now I’m getting fucked over #I do everything I can for people I pour everything I can into people #give them all my time and energy do anything I can to make them happy hurting myself in the process #and when they can’t get anything more out of me when they got bored of me I get treated like this #and left to rot #with nothing #and it keeps happening #I find a person who I think will genuinely care about me and love me the way I do for them #who truly wants me around #and I trust them #and they take that trust to use me and everything just keeps repeating #why can’t I just be loved #they only love me when they’re able to use me and make me into what they want #ghost rambles #they don’t even hide that they’re only using me by the end of it. #I’m there for every thing they struggle with whenever they feel alone #I get them presents I make them food and treats I get into whatever their interests are so they can show stuff off to me #but no one’s done it for me #they don’t even look when I try to show my art #they don’t care about my music #they were never there when I was struggling #shit there’s been times he found me crying with fresh cuts blade still out and just wants to talk about how everyone hates him #just wants me to drop everything to comfort him #ignores that id been crying couldn’t care less that I relapsed #it’s always about them

[bbreaddog]

Practising Goncharov Theme by @caramiaaddio on violin bc I thought it would add an extra layer of haunting…ness (is that a word?)

Here’s the excerpt I’m playing in the video:

Despite it being in a fuck off key for violin it is a really beautiful piece and it’s absolutely worth the trouble of practising in second position (world’s most hated position) and I’m HOPING 🤞 I can record and (maybe) post a full cover of it someday

#goncharov #music #violin #goncharov theme #oh man i have not posted my face in a very very very long time #possibly years #am i freaking out about it? a little #could i have converted this to audio instead? #well. yes but. it’s not exactly awesome quality in this practise room lmao #i so so badly wanna write out all the technical things I’m doing/focusing on here bc GRRR TECHNICAL WORK IS SO INTERESTING TO ME #but i would be typing out a whole essay probably and i don’t think my followers really. care that much about violin tech #lest they also play violin #i have one (1) known mutual who plays violin and that’s IT #apologies for the metronome ticking in the video #it can be very irritating to listen to #alas… it is also important for not speeding up when playing #anyways #hi caramiaaddio you don’t know me but big fan of what you’ve written here #ESPECIALLY THE CHROMATIC BITS OUGHHHH #the little semiquavers that poke their heads through like TWICE are surprisingly hard #but also they sound extra creepy in a good way #BIG fan #wait wait WAIT WAIT #i think this is my first time posting any of my violin playing here like. EVER. #I’ve been here for OVER A DECADE #AND I’M POSTING MY VIOLIN FOR THE FIRST TIME. FOR FUCKING. GONCHAROV. #i don’t have the right emoji for how I’m feeling rn #personal #mine #my face

[ra1ny-daze]

first will wood of 2024 woaw! !

#i am a bit late. #i just have rreaally specific dnd/oc worldbuilding brainrot #and have spent tens of hours drawing stuff for that instead :’) #it’s the type of shit maybe 3 people on this earth care about (me. my bestie. my dm) #also thinking about starting really boring background practice. maybe do a jacob-drawfee-esque bg challenge idk #i need to learn how to draw good backgrounds in ways that don’t make me want to die #anyways i draw the music man. i am still obsessed w him dw #will wood #will wood and the tapeworms #art #my art #digital art

[forlix]

i don’t know what the fuck to think or feel. heart feeling so heavy

#think i was clinging to the idea that the boys didn’t know or care about him personally and i still don’t want to think that’s the case but #if we’re being realistic they know. they have to know #and everyone in the comments preaching about how bin doesn’t know anything about p*th outside of music has to be new levels of delusional #they’re idols yeah. they’re also humans with access to the internet and we know damn well they read everything we say to them #chris is on fucking skz tiktok like. wake up #it’s like 50% the fact that it was posted in the first place that’s getting to me and 50% the ignorance and babying in the comments #i just feel like fucking shit. my anxiety hasn’t felt this bad in so long #*musings #don’t even think i’m capable of being impartial or coherent rn i just needed to get this off my chest somewhere #like it’s one thing to collab with him on a professional basis and another to post a selfie like you’re friends #wish this song didn’t exist to be so real

[bookinit02]

genuinely i think if i have to see taylor swift’s name one more time i’m going to start breaking things.

#i liked her casually as a kid #and i still like a lot of her music now #but i can barely even fucking listen to it anymore bc she is EVERYWHERE #like literally i don’t care about her and i don’t care about travis whoever #and i don’t even care about her in a negative way like i don’t care if she’s selfish and narcissistic and a performative activist #and her jet emissions or whatever #bc literally 90% of celebrities are like that she’s not special #i am just so tired. of people ALWAYS talking about her #and being expected to have an opinion and be up to date with whatever meaningless drama is going on #genuinely no hate to my friends that like taylor bc i don’t mind that #it is more just like. Everywhere #i cant even go on tiktok without seeing her name 300 times i cant DO THISSS #ok. rant over. 😭

[alangdorf]

Listened to Eternal Dance Engine ~ Shall We Dance!! one too many times (and then like a hundred more times afterwards for good measure) and dropped everything to go draw this. Also tried out a new shading process which kinda did what I wanted it to but I’ll keep experimenting

#art #len’en #tsubakura enraku #tsurubami senri #suzumi kuzu #that’s right!! I deliberately left the front of Tsubakura’s hat out of frame and mixed their outfit details so it could be either of them #quite excited about that I think it’s fun #to note: I don’t seriously ship Tsubakura and Tsurubami (hedging my bets on the possibility they could turn out to be related) #(and also like I’m me I don’t generally care about shipping much) #but I think it’s funny to joke about and frankly I think it’s hot when characters are manipulative #anyway title of this piece ‘shall we dance’ subtitle no. 1 ‘fellas is it gay to when the imposter is sus’ subtitle no. 2 ‘all job interview #/firings should be set to threatening latin dance music’ #also not exaggerating between Tsurubami’s and Suzumi’s version of Eternal Dance Engine I really might have listened to them for eight hours #I think I like Suzumi’s a little less overall but the last minute slapppps #digital

[rosethrorn]

I’m just

My math teacher was talking about his sneakers and how he got them from Jimmy Butler because he trained in my school’s gym one summer a few years ago while living in my city and he and his crew or whatever bought our girls basketball team a new set of Nike sneakers

The one thing I had to say about that whole thing- THE ONE DAMN THING- was, “Oh. That Guy. He was in the new Fall Out Boy music video!” And my math class fell dead silent and I was just like 😶

#let’s not forget to add that I also said #his name was Heat Wentz in the video #please #why am i like this #I can’t even be normal about something I don’t care about (sports/basketball) #because I just HAD to make it about my special lil interest in some dudes from friggin Chicago #apparently Jimmy Butler still has a house here #but whatever #fob #which is cool I guess #fall out boiiiiii #fall out boy #fall out boy patrick #patrick stump #pete wentz #joe trohman #andy hurley #so much (for) stardust #fallout boy #music #basketball #jimmy butler #heat wentz

[biillyhargroves]

Billy and Eddie taking Steve to his first rock concert. it’s probably Metallica. they dress him up while they’re pregaming, a little bit of both of their styles, Billy’s shirt and Eddie’s jewelry and a pair of old boots Steve fished out of the back of his closet. they play him every single album the band has put out. they all tailgate in the parking lot, smoke and drink and Steve gets to see Billy and Eddie in their element, with all the other metalhead “freaks” that schlepped out to the city for the show. and when they get to their seats and Steve feels the bass kick for the first time? Eddie headbanging and air-guitaring on one side, Billy scream-singing on the other. (it’s the first time Steve has seen Billy let loose like this and he’s honestly in awe.) Steve talks about it for weeks after!!! and they make it a tradition. at least once a year, the three of them pick a concert, any concert, even if they have to road trip it, get all decked out and have the time of their lives.

that’s it, that’s the post.

#they can be dating they can just be besties i don’t care #i just want eddie and billy sharing their music #using it to connect #folding steve into that community #harringroveson #stilldie #steddilly #don’t mind me i’m on my way to a concert and Thinking About Things

[the-meme-monarch]

do you think there could be a weird route with your oc ham? maybe like RadioRaze or something? anyways have a good day!!! :)

i like to think a weird route with ham would be pretty much impossible bc ham is a kinda stubborn and maybe-a-little-mean-on-purpose 12 year old with no allegiances NDNDNHSJ she’d find out lancer was in your inventory and just talk to him the whole time and ignore you and the only reason he doesn’t immediately ditch you for trying to tell her what to do is bc lancer is there and he wants to talk to him bc he seems like fun. have a good day too :]

#you’d tell him to do something and she’d go ‘you didn’t even say please so no. also you’re old.’ #the monarch’s court #like in beatdown route with sweet he thinks you’re on the same side with the same goal and you pretty much peer pressure him int #into worse and worse shit in the name of his cause like ‘this is what you wanted. this is how we do it’ #ive been thinking ​ham doesn’t care about his brother’s revolution bc Well Queen Was Nice To Me I Think She Just Doesn’t Like You Guys #she does think the music ban is real though he just doesn’t really care bc she’s not part of the band anyway #deltarune ocs #mostly unrelated but i think it’s neat that (with my headcanon) that kk and ham grew up with the same parents(capn and sweet dont reme #don’t remember them) that kk seems to hav become a neutral ground people pleaser type of person to avoid conflict w sweet and capn but h #but ham became combative to people telling them what to do. he also doesn’t like conflict but in that she’ll tell her brothers to stfu #kk became passive while ham became combative even though they came from the same environment and upbringing. thats what i was trying to say #anyway i should draw ham again. i miss him

[carefulfears]

I just love how carefree mulder and scully are in david’s episodes, it’s a side of them we so rarely got to see… 😔😔😔

yeah, me too. david writes journeys for mulder, with clear morals and arcs. the unnatural is about valuing “life on this planet,” finding space for joy and connection in the midst of blinding pursuit. amor fati is about commitment to your purpose, realigning to who you are at the core, who you were as a child. the promises that you made to yourself then. hollywood a.d. is about legacy, what we leave behind: does it matter if it’s warped, or if it’s nothing, so long as we loved and were loved well?

david’s episodes are classic hero’s journeys, active lessons for mulder as a character. but these are all things that scully already knows, so she gets to be passive and lighthearted and wise. they aren’t having anything beaten into them; they’re growing through storytelling, through play, through identification. they’re growing through watching a movie at 3am and rambling to each other. they’re growing through eating gross fake ice cream and reading old newspapers on a saturday morning. they’re growing through swinging a baseball bat, hips before hands, all night under the stars.

#this is why i love his dancing zombies at the end of ‘hollywood a.d.’ so SO much #mulder sitting out on the grass spiralling about how the dead are thought of and spoken about and the things that impact legacy and memory #things that are so deeply important to a man who spends his life chasing ghosts. who lost 2 family members that year #and scully is just next to him giggling and holding his arm like…they’re dead mulder! they don’t care! #eyes lit up waving that bureau credit card at him #and the way he’s just like….sigh. okay. #and gives it up and takes her arm so they can go out #when the music starts playing and you can still see mulder and scully holding hands in the background #and the zombies all get up and dance <33 #one of my favorite moments of the show. they’re happy. and that’s something. #and that’s what i love about david’s eps because who gives a fuck where the zombies came from! #who gives a fuck if the baseball player was really an alien! who gives a fuck who the boy on the beach was! #it doesn’t matter. it’s so metaphorical and just there for the lesson. and the lesson is always loving and beneficial for the characters #asks

[patrickztump]

last month when fall out boy made the executive decision to play just one yesterday for the 8 ball at my show, that move launched me to the outer edge of our solar system and i have yet to come down from that high. every time the song comes on i am on cloud nine, still in disbelief it Actually Happened.

last week i saw my cousin and he cheerfully asked, “how was the concert?” i answered casually, “it was good, it was really good!” but i had to bite my tongue because i wanted to go into great depth about the 8 ball segment, the song they chose, last time it was played, how so very special it is to me, how badly i wanted it, and how mind blowing it is that everything lined up and that’s what i got. but, i held back. because not only is there not another soul in my life as Insane about this as i am, they all Really Don’t Care.

#god is testing me and my strength to be normal about this #sad fact of the matter is i haven’t told my best friends about this detail or anything regarding the show bc i know they don’t care #only one of them has read about it through my ig stories and where i shared the video. but that’s it :( #babble post #music mutters #fall out boy

[compacflt]

Do you have any opinions on what kind of music mav and ice like? I’m just curious as someone who has motorcycle riding 80s navy dad whose favorite two artists were Madonna and Bruce Springsteen if you think the answer would surprise us? Or if they’d be as predictable as always

Yeah nothing crazy. kinda predictable i guess. classic rock, country rock, classic blues, nostalgic 60s folk, contemporary stuff when it comes on the radio and isn’t unlistenable by their middle-aged-white-man standards.

+ of course ice’s somewhat gay Fleetwood Mac entanglement

#Look i was born in 2003 idk anything about 90s music tbh. 80s yes but not 90s #it’s one of those things I don’t feel qualified to discuss #most of my opinions on questions like this are inspired by what my white dad b. ca. 1970 enjoyed in high school #so that’s where you get ‘beast of burden’ by The Rolling Stones in my fic. that’s a ‘my dad likes this song’ song. #so what else did my white dad like that i feel is in line with ice and mav #? #uhhh. okay. Donna summer. counting crows. the foo fighters. Joni Mitchell. Peter Paul and Mary. bill withers. Burt Bacharach. Whitney. #Coldplay! they listen to the radio so i think they’re into some 21st ce artists as well. like to a Normal degree. #they don’t follow celebs but like the music. they like old t swift but like to a normal white dad degree. #my white dad is really into dua lipa for some reason. ice & mav don’t give me that vibe #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #asks #it’s one of those things that’s like ‘you should really have ur own hcs about this bc everyone’s are going to be too specific’ #like ice & mav’s sex lives & what they prefer in bed. I certainly have my hcs but they’re so specific it’s not worth #discussing because they won’t be universal so who cares. they’ll just live inside my head #the act of sharing hcs is very vulnerable & not always worth it tbh #better to shove them into a narrative somewhere #ty for the ask anon 🥺❤️❤️

[velvetjune]

judging people who played alan wake 2 solely on if they loved the musical sequence or not

#alan wake 2 #im joking around but also not #such a unique gaming experience that was incorporated w so much love and care #ive seen confusion here and there on why there’s even the musical chapter in-story #mostly when they performed at the game awards lol #but imo it was a great way for Mr Door to work together with the Old Gods and their mode of storytelling/communication (rock and roll!) #to try to tell Alan what’s happening to him to help him rise from the spiral #and of course there’s everything with how much Alan often restrains himself based on rules he imposed on himself #the dark place has its own power and rules with artists work but this was one way of #Alan essentially going ‘I know what’s happening here. I know the rules and I HAVE to do all this to save myself and my loved ones’ #to which Mr Door/Old Gods go ‘you absolutely do not [throws Alan in musical]’ #something something about how it helped put him in the mindset he was at the end of the game #to realize he could work w saga and not sacrifice Logan or Casey. that he’s not in a hopeless loop of destruction #but in a spiral with hopes of ascension and change #(basing this off the initial ending — haven’t finished the Final Draft) #alan wake #I don’t know if im making sense but that was my interpretation #my other explanation for the musical is that it’s there because it’s fucking awesome and creative #reminds me of the starkid ‘guy who didn’t like musicals’ with the confusion of the main character #(although hilariously it seems like Alan is proud of the musical even if he lives in a state of ‘wtf is happening’) #before my essays in the tags end want to say that the dark ocean summoning also deserves this love and I found it equally fun to ‘We Sing’

[damthosefandoms]

damn they’re gonna have nothing to talk about during the stable scene in season eight huh

#so I’ve been trying to keep positive about the show and overall I am but I think this episode was a major letdown #them! and now it’s four fucking pearls? four? FOUR? #I’m just a little bitchy cause I don’t care for the music they picked and they should’ve had hotel california playing in the background #since they couldn’t do pokerface and all. and listen MAY CASTELLAN? REALLY? IN TLT??? #why. Why. next week they’re doing crusty’s and they’re gonna cut it all I just know it because that’s my favorite scene in the series #no Annabeth beating up a dude in a truck in a car wash?? booo #I just. like I accept it won’t be perfect and I respect people’s opinions on parts they didn’t like about the other episodes. but I liked #pjo tv show #percy jackson #pjo #Percy jackson and the olympians #my post

[casualhedonists]

my friend keeps reposting taylor swift hate and i’m like. girl it’s fine you don’t like her but the way you’re always posting about it irks me

#tell me if i’m alone in this but. it’s just weird to me #as an example here’s this #like i’m not a sports girly myself #but as i gonna go traipse around the internet saying football sucks?? no? bc i have better uses of my time #am* #like last time i saw this same friend we were hanging out at her house and we were watching f1 bc she loves f1 #i don’t care for f1 but i also didn’t throw a hissy fit i was like. oh fun a new learning opportunity #and i’m not gonna go on an internet rampage about how i feel kinda meh about sports #bc. i just have much better things to do with my time?? #also it’s just not that deep #i love my friend don’t get me wrong but. sometimes this one thing grates on me #if you don’t like something or you’re indifferent to it? fine but why make it this massive deal?? also every time i mention taylor she goes #oh yeah i’m not a fan kinda hate her and her music #EVERY time. like. it’s not necessary #just a hint of altruism. patience. tolerance. it doesn’t hurt #｡･:*˚:✧｡ mimi speaks! #starting to think i need a vent tag atp

[sadgirlautumn]

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#on one hand I’m glad we have this new album announcement bc we’re back to talking about the music and not her personal life but there’s #still people talking and arguing about it and it just feels so pointless #like I really could not care less about who Taylor is dating as long as they’re not a horrible person #it’s just always weird when people start full on becoming fans of her bfs and then switching up on them so hard when they break up #j*e was nice because we knew nothing about him and he was sort of boring so it was like once every few months people would talk about him #and I could laugh along but with TK stuff being so constant and unavoidable it’s just exhausting bc I could not care less #like I don’t feel how the football bros feel about seeing Taylor constantly in regards to TK but it’s still not my ideal dash preference #like I’m glad y’all are having fun it’s just not always fun for everyone else and that okay!! #I just don’t like that my little getaway from my life is being taken over by stuff that I don’t care about you know??? #I can’t get decent song analysis anywhere else #anyway xx