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shotmrmiller · 1 month

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toni i am absolutely smashed rn and saw that u said we could rant in your inbox so here we go it will just be me gushing about how absolutely cool you are like ur account was one of the first i ever found after returning to tumblr since like 2015 and it’s really cool and you write so well and i’m GOBSMACKED that someone like you exists. hello?? beautiful. sunshine. stunning. the highlight of my day seein those lil toni drabbles on my page. embarrassing enoigh i was talking about cod with some irl friends and now we all read ur shit like a lil gaggle of groupies ha ha good stuff mwah never stop being so FREAKING cool (please accemt my proposal, i have ring pops you can have the green one it’s the best) also for the sake of sober me shhh pretend this never happened ok hve AN AMAZING!!! Day night morning evening afternoon.

peace, love, kyle garrick is so freaking sexy,

elle

take this simon art

sorry i scribbled out my oc ok i’m SORRY remember to hydrate and continue on being FREAKING beautiful 🥰🥰🥰💖

idk how to delete that man i’m so sorry i figured out how to delete that last image it was a picture of an apple if you wanted context maybe i should add it back okay no i won’t

anyway sometimes i think about how badly i want biblically accurate ghost to love me and then i think about how i would probably cry if he breathed on me and then gag the second man starts cookin shit like beans on toast?? the fuck is that.

over and up and out,

elle aka elle

YOU ARE SO COOL TONI THANK YOU FOR EXISTING GOOD LORD

i don't remember the last time i had a ring pop but i'll accept it so long we get eloped i don't want a big ol thing but if we dont go to herculaneum then our marriage will be nulled faster than kim k's with that big brute from the NBA.

kyle is so freaking sexy i agree. i don't use that word cuz it gives me the heebies but for you, since youre one drink/edible away from gazing upon a biblically accurate angel in the flesh. feathers? eyes??? he's A CRAZY SEXY BABE and i'd let him stalk me :}

and i also think about BA!simon a lot.

lmfaooooooo beans on toast comment has me screaming

and you're SO real for scarring him up. i need simon with jagged scars that have puckered edges and some of them pull some skin taut and--

you get my picture. that man is simply grotesque and it makes him all that more alluring. like yes king, tell me all about how you got those scars.

+ his like resting bitch face is what i'm here for.

incredible art wish i had that kind of talent but alas all im good at is getting bruised like a peach and throwing my arse in a circle for fictional men 😔

drink your water or you're gonna have one killer headache lmao.

all blues with no clues,

toni ❤️

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antiradqueerguy · 2 months

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coming to your inbox because i like your vibe and have literally no other safe place to rant abt this. sorry if this bugs you delete this if you want but im debating leaving the radqueer community because of ciel/hbki. ive already been wanting to leave for a while, but the thought of leaving has been triggering my ocd and ive not been sure what to do. but after i saw that guy running around and seeing how obviously horrible he is, and how people still somehow like him, i think im going to go through and just delete my blog or ditch it ive seen him talk about abusing his girlfriend on so many different blogs of his and then i go to look at hers and she is so obviously trauma bonded to him, and its so triggering. it makes me sick how shes admitted to not enjoying how he treats her, but says his treatment is okay because its "consensual" but i really dont believe its consensual. and i know its not my business but i literally cant avoid them in this community. ive blocked them so many times but every time they both get termed, i see them again, and get triggered. ive thought about reaching out to opphie, but every time someone does, ciel is alerted and he starts harassing the person reaching out. maybe i just have a savior complex but seeing the way they are together makes me feel sick. i see myself in her and i feel guilty for not being able to help. one of my friends even watched her change her name on a dime in her discord server just because ciel suggested it. its scary that the community just lets ciel get away with everything. i mean didnt he even admit to *graping* her? and people are okay with it because the victim swears up and down that its consensual? it doesnt make it any better that antis treat him like hes just some edgy kid. yeah its true that he is one, but there are also very very VERY clear signs that he is actually a harmful person and that he is actually hurting someone. opphie even posted a list of a bunch of horrible things hes done, and it looked like a cry for help to me, but radqueers were reblogging saying things like "couple goals" and "this is so romantic" i dont know anymore what to do. i know i have to leave that community but i wish there was a way to make other radqueers realize that ciel is not a good person to have in the community. if they want to beat the pro-abuse allegations, they NEED to point out actual abusers like ciel.

TW: using images from ciels past and current accounts and mentions of r4pe

with ciel he avoids everything to do with him and taking accountability for his action, (EH HEM, his past use of ableist slurs towards people)

me personally i believe that ciel is a abuser. he has had a history of abuse and I've documented AS MUCH as i possibly can. i will not let him escape this and his HISTORY of abuse.

to the people who don't know what nonnie is talking about with ciel admitting to r4ping opphie heres a pic

Now ciel has a cult following, his boot licker fans love him, like hmm idk this

he is invincible, unless his connection to tumblr and discord is cut off his fans will continue to protect him and glorify his abusive behavior

#ciel is a abuser get his ass canned

edit: also HIII CIELLL i know you will eventually read this since you have commented on posts made by antis talking about you before, so howdy doo!!!

#anti radqueer #anti #ciel is a abuser get his ass canned

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spearxwind · 9 months

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forgive me if im just uneducated/you dont wanna explain but wtf is rcd anon talking about idk who rcd is

rcdart was an artist on here who dabbled in many popular fandoms (especially marvel, bravest warriors, and steven universe) and had pretty nice art, so they were pretty popular. Around 2016 or so they underwent a very extreme and very abrupt art style shift, where their art became more stylized but more importantly, took a turn into becoming transphobic and also racist.

Their most notable criticism was that they would draw captain america (who they headcanonned as trans) with a huge chest and huge thighs and often huge lips (though they gave huge lips to pretty much all of their designs)

Their racist drawings included drawing black people with caricature features like light lips, weird cheekbones, exaggerated noses, and buck tooth gaps; drawing latino women as very muscular and with facial hair (also could not draw a single latino woman without a sombrero for some reason).

I never saw their nsfw blog (twitter account? idk what the hell it was) but people ALLEGEDLY say that they would draw a lot of really trans fetishistic content and doubled down on the transphobia. I havent been able to verify that myself so take it with a grain of salt.

Their big downfall catalyst was a pretty awful and unrecognizeable drawing of finn from star wars which basically set off all the callouts and stuff and put them in the public eye.

Their case is pretty well documented if you look up the 'rcdart' url youll find tons of images and tons of info. If you'd like to take a glimpse at what they posted, their blog is somewhat saved on the internet archive as well (and obvious TW for the racism and potentially triggering transphobic art)

Its really unfortunate cause they DID have cool stuff going on in some of their drawings, but they were so adamant on cranking up the caricature vibes that the charm is just lost

#unrebloggable cause again i dont want this to escape containment #so sorry anon you had to find out this way #ask #anon #theres probably a good youtube video out there but i havent seen any myself so i cant recommend more than this

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b3llb00 · 9 months

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" We Pull The Tail, Now We See Who Bites. "

Robin of Loxley/ The Hood X Fem!reader.

Summary: Robin got injured during a chase to get some coins for the commoners, so Y/N offers to heal his wounds if she gets something else in return from him. ;)

A/N: I need to stop watching this movie, I’m obsessed and it’s gotten the better of me.

Contains: Kissing, 50% dom/sub reader and 50% dom/sub Rob, mentions of sex, injuries. [WILL INCLUDE: Smut, Unprotected Sex (Use Protection, Yall.) P In V, Oral (Male/Fem. Receiving) , Fingering, Creampie, Multiple Rounds. Mild Dirty Talk.]

Wc: 1.2k * I think. * (Will Prob Change.) IM COPY AND PASTING AND EDITING THIS FROM MY OLD ACCOUNT, SO DONT SAY IM A COPYCAT. THE FINISHED IMAGE WILL BE UPLOADED HERE. IF YOU WANT TO LIKE AND FOLLOW ME, LIKE AND FOLLOW THIS ACCOUNT.

DONT REPOST OR COPY MY WORK, YOU CAN REPOST WITH PERMISSION, ENJOY.

(Btw sorry if this picture is bad, just ignore John and pretend it's you lol.)

»»———-　🏹　———-««

You are setting up traps for Robin to shoot at later, when all of a sudden you hear a loud, groan from him coming upstairs, making a shiver run down your spine. When Robin was back in Arabia and you had to fight him, you ended up sparing his life, but your mercy to him didn’t do much as you still got captured and was set sail in a boat with him for 3 weeks. Surprisingly, you too starting talking and some would even call you " friends " .

You decide to go upstairs to see what Rob was groaning about, and there you saw him, shirtless, his toned torso on display. In nothing but his pants with a wet, bloody rag resting on his massive thigh where he been impaled. You had to close your eyes for a second, trying to push the weird desire you had for him to the back of your mind.

I wasn’t joking when I said the treasury itself was a hard target. You say, slowly walking toward him, this made him look up from his leg to look at you. He decides to ignore your statement and press his rag into his thigh further, making him hiss through gritted teeth. You decide to go grab your medical supplies you used whenever you two got hurt. You always had wanted to be a nurse, but ever since the Sherif of Nottingham drafted you, things changed. But I guess it’s pretty useful to know how to properly treat somebody’s wounds.

Hey! You heard Rob say from across the room, Where are you goin-

I'm getting my medical supplies, dumbass. You say back with a bit of an attitude, not wanting to be told where you’re going or what you’re doing when all you trying to do is help. Oh, sorry, love. Carry on. He said, making you turn your head to see a light smile adorning his features.

As much as you sometimes hated Robin's attitude and sarcasm, you just can’t help yourself to be mad at him. It’s almost like you're drawn under a spell that will keep you from ever getting into any sort of confrontation.

You finally got all your medical supplies and you headed to the small table that he sat in on. Letting the supplies fall from your hands, you organized it quickly, while Rob eyed you carefully the whole time.

Once you got everything ready and set up the way you wanted it, you took one more look at his thigh. ' Shit. ' You thought, his cut is too deep to get a good look at what’s going on, so you’re gonna have to find a way to ask him to take his pants off.

The cuts- uhm. You stutter, Your gonna have to take your pants off if you want me to get a good look at it and fix it.

You were looking everywhere except his face, not wanting him to see your blush-coated cheeks. Even though you weren’t looking at him, you could still feel his gaze burning a hole into the side of your head.

Just the pants or the braies too, love.? He winked at you, causing you to basically turn into putty right in front of him. (Keep in mind they didn’t really have ' boxers ' in medieval England, but they did have what were called braies. They were basically the same thing.)

You decided to try and flirt back to the best of your abilities by saying. Well, first, take your pants off, and then I’ll tell you.

This earned you a chuckle from the handsome man as he threw the bloody rag to the side and very carefully came up from his spot on the table, you watched him intently as you noticed some of the blood continued to trickle down his clothed thigh. He didn’t seem to care, he kept eye contact with you the whole time as he slowly took his pants off. To be honest it felt like an entity had passed when his pants finally hit the floor, and you weren’t disappointed, let’s just say that.. there was definitely a buldge hidden underneath the fabric of his braies, and you could actually see it growing..

You could practically hear Robin’s smirk as he called out to you, his voice low and teasing. Hey, my eyes are up here, love..

You immediately snap your gaze back up to his face, and he just has an amused expression painted all over his features. You could feel the heat start to radiate off your cheeks and your heartbeat start to pick up as you mumble out defensively. Yeah, yeah, I know.. You close your eyes for a second, trying to recompose yourself.

He takes a step forward, biting his lip to hold back a groan from the wave of pain that just shot up his leg. He cocks an eyebrow and says in a lower octave. You sure about that?

[I am currently editing this, and right here is my stopping point. If the story shifts or changes I’m sorry, I will fix it soon.]

" Hmm. If I fix up your thigh, will you give me a kiss? " You say before continuing, " I’ve always wondered if your a good kisser or not. "

He let out a small chuckle when his eyes kept flicking down to your lips. Then he finally spoke up and said, " Sure, love. " You blushed at the pet name. " Maybe I’ll give you something more than just a kiss. " He winked, making you roll your eyes at his audacity to be this flirty when he’s impaled.

" Fine, let me get my stuff.. " You say, heading away to get your medical supplies while Rob just watch you leave with a smile on his lips.

" Mkay, done. " You say as you wrap up his leg and stand up straight, pretty of yourself.

" Well, here’s the kiss that you wanted. " He said as he grabbed your arms, lightly pulling you in before his lips collided with yours.

It feels amazing, and you wanted to be immersed in this feeling forever. You didn’t know what to do, but you were able to make room by spreading his thighs wider so you get closer to him, which made him moan into your mouth. You smiled into the kiss, knowing it could be any moment when John could walk upstairs and see you two start to make out like teenagers, you didn’t care. You just wanted to feel Rob, you wanted his weight on top of you, you wanted him to pin you against the wall and fuck you till your legs went numb and you were cockdrunk.

He wrapped his muscular arms around your waist, pulling you closer and you felt his buldge in his pants grow. You let go of his lips for air and you almost whined at the loss of contact.

" Sorry, love. I don’t want us to get caught. " Rob said with a frown. You cupped his cheek with your hand and kiss him again softly before saying. " It’s fine, we can continue later. "

#taron egerton #taron egerton smut #taron x reader #i love taron #robin hood #robin

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thefirstknife · 1 year

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can we please. go one (1) week without the PVP obsessed people going off about how PVP is the only thing that matters in the game. im so very tired. "PVE people are probably about to find out that PVE can't carry the game because PVP is ruined and we're all gonna quit and play better games" please just can they shut up and go already instead of threatening us with a good time they never follow through on??

I saw that stuff as well, I know exactly what you're talking about. It's incredibly disingenuous and deliberately incendiary to cause more people to bitch about the game being doomed or whatever.

They are constantly using "steam numbers" to show that this is the lowest population count that Destiny 2 ever had and how that's proof that the game is being ruined and dying, that pvp bros and content creators are more important than we think they are, that Bungie needs to make Destiny 3 (yes, that is unironically stuff that people are saying) and other really incredibly tiring things.

Not to mention the vitriol towards the devs. Every time they bitch, more and more people show up in the comments saying awful shit about devs and how they are lazy, they don't work, they don't care, they are bad at development and so on. This is what eventually fuels harassment.

These "steam numbers" are disingenuous because they are taken out of context and they strip all other external reasons from the "low player count."

Is there a low player count? Yes! That is correct. Even when we account for console players, it's still low.

This is nothing new. This is a constant trend. Last month of the season ALWAYS has low numbers. People finished their story and their pinnacle grind and their seals and are doing other things.

More under for length:

Is this the lowest it's been so far? It seems to be, though the final month on steam charts isn't over so we can't fully tell yet, but it seems to be one of the lowest. However, there's been similar numbers before during seasonal end. It's quite literally nothing new. We go through this every season, except this season it's slightly lower than usual.

Why is that? Well, the chart Aztecross put to prove there's not many people playing happened on a Monday before the final Tuesday reset of the final week of the season. Yeah bro, very few people have things left to do in the season. They're not bothering. Unlike you, other people have other hobbies and games to play. I haven't played in days, I only got on on Saturday to finish my King's Fall seal and that took 10 minutes. This is what I mean by "disingenuous." It's a cheap bait tactic. Find the lowest number and ship it for cheap outrage engagement.

Others are constantly also posting the cummulative steam chart for every month of Destiny since the game came to steam and they're pointing out that we have lowest numbers now. Which is, again, posted for cheap outrage. They look at the number and see it's low and their conclusion is "game is dying." They don't care about the trend (every season end is "dying"), they don't care about external reasons (other game releases), they don't care about overall how some seasons are just weaker and have less interest (not the first time), they don't care about anything.

They just want people to be mad enough to harass the devs. Because like, what do they think is going to happen when they spend 2 months blogging to hundreds of thousands of people about the game being ruined by evil devs who don't do their job? When they constantly talk about how everything in the game is bad, pvp is bad, pve is boring and easy, story is bad, seasons are bad, events made for fun are bad, small community event is bad. What's going to happen is thousands of people are going to harass the devs. That's what going to happen.

I took the "steam numbers" chart that people are throwing around and I went into it in-depth to explain what the numbers mean and add context to them. You can see it here. It's a big image but you can zoom in and explore. It makes more sense when you see it separated by seasons; you can CLEARLY see the main trend of "low population at season end."

Another thing to consider with these numbers is the scheduling pattern. Shadowkeep released in October, Beyond Light released in November after a delay. October-November are usually months with a lot of other game releases and holidays. In 2019 and 2020, Bungie had an expansion themselves to cover that time. In 2021, there was no expansion in Oct-Nov; and that was the last time the game had the lowest population record ever. WHAT A SURPRISE. In this period, if Destiny doesn't have an expansion, people move on to play other games!!!! WOW! We have the technology to decipher the low numbers!

It's important to also note that back in 2021, that was the first time a game was delayed properly and significantly, so the year was without an expansion and there was a lull in Oct-Nov period. However, at that time, it was the first time this schedule happened and people generally didn't know how will it go. We were also kept in the dark about the seasonal story end (the infamous When Is Exorcism incident) so people had to keep coming back. Now, we're in the same situation; no new expansion in Oct-Nov, seasonal lull, nothing is happening. However, now, we know how this goes. People know how this schedule works AND we're not dealing with an extended season. We know when this season ends and there's nothing to wait for. People are more comfortable taking a break. So there's less people in Oct-Nov 2022 than there were in the previous lowest point, Oct-Nov 2021. It's almost as if there are reasons for this that go beyond "game is obviously dying."

These people also seem to be incapable of understanding that some players just... stop playing. For no specific reason. The game isn't dying, some people just lose interest. Content creators are especially guilty of this, because THEY can't stop playing, because they tied their income to a single live service game. To them, quitting the game is losing a job. Curious, maybe that influences their views about the game and about burnout and taking breaks and the quality of the content?

They simultaneously want Bungie to drop FOMO and reduce burnout, but they ALSO want for there to never be "content droughts." Which one is it? Because these two things cannot both be gone. If you want less FOMO and less burnout, then there will be less content. If you want more content, then you have to get on that burnout grindset.

It's the end of the god damn season. Yeah, nothing is happening. Yeah, fewer people are playing. Players finished their grind in the Destiny mines and are doing other things before the new season drops. Stop catastrophising it for cheap outrage bait. You not being able to take a break and having to keep making new content even when the season is ending and there no new content is your problem. Not Bungie's, not the other players'.

Bungie is not going to force their devs to crunch 80 hours per week so you can have brand new content every Tuesday that no regular player can catch up with. As it currently is, I want MORE downtime. I want seasons to be 4 months and to have less time and more downtime to catch up with stuff. Imagine the outrage though. Genuinely, society if these people would actually deliver on their promise and leave. Someone else will take your place, bro.

Also, as a final note before a dissertation in the tags: these pvp mains are weak. They whine about only having 2 new maps in 2 years. Gambit got -2 new maps. Like, literally we had 6 maps and now we have 4. LMAO. Crucible has a total of 24 maps and 8+ modes, constant updates, Iron Banner rework, multiple Trials reworks, incoming competitive rework, Crucible labs, three different sets of armour, prestige weapon loot, three different seals, entire twabs dedicated just to it. And they whine about not enough attention for the Crucible?

It's getting more attention than any other core playlist. Their problem is that they're not the ones being catered to. An update doesn't count if it doesn't satisfy mister Crucible Main #37. Fuck everyone else I guess! They are the most entitled selfish childish little pricks I've ever seen. They do not deserve Bungie talking the players at all.

#destiny 2 #community #bungie #long post #ask #genuinely though. for the love of god. every 3 months the same horror #just take a break. I am begging #are there issues with the game? absolutely. this season had a lot of them especially with all the weird stuff with challenges and quests #quests that are too grindy and make no sense and requirements that go through the roof #and some content creators eventually ended up mocking players for wanting it changed. because they have infinite time to play and we dont #there are issues. always. i can write a post three times as long detailing stuff i would love to see addressed #but instead we have to explain the concept of other games existing to destiny youtubers #i would love to be able to get some good conversation going with bungie but alas #we're talking about a monday before the final week of the season having less people playing #no fucking shit. nobody is playing on the final monday at 11 am? wow. how peculiar /s #most are done and those that aren't done are waiting for the final week having double rep in all playlists #also like. i said in the image i posted but. do they think bungie doesn't know this? lmao. trust me their marketing department knows #the execs know about how many people are playing. you're not the first one to notice #i'm so tired of this being the topic instead of actual real issues that we can work on solving with meaningful feedback

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niuniente · 8 months

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on the whole kudos/comment thing. I'm an artist and I havn't posted art on instagram in 2 years, that is both og art and fanart. its not worth the 2 mins of my time to post after only to get 10ish odd likes from mostly people ik irl when I can just send it off to my friends and get wayyyyyy more personal and happy responses. yes creatives are not entitled to engament but don't be surprised when they disappear

if its not worth your time to comment then its not worth THEIR time to post.

I'll admit im a hypocrite saying this as I don't comment all the time (mixture of no internet when reading and good old mental illness leaving me with blank brain fog) but I stil try. its not a matter of which is good enough or conveince but if its a good day for me. speaking of trying while I'm here I freaking love dhd, started following from she ra but I love your orginal stuff and you're so sweet. <3

I hope people stop being rude in your ask box

Yes, I hear this a lot. Also, it seems people are willing to discuss about things with their friends or fandom fellow groups but not give the same comments to the person who created that thing. I have a personal experience of this.

Years and years ago, I used to write fanfic with an url no one knew about. It was my secret little account. I was a part of a fandom group for the said fandom I was writing these fics about. The group was lovely and active, and they openly loved to discuss about fanfics and fanart.

Whenever I wrote a fic and posted it, the very same day someone within the group noted the whole group about it. Those who wanted to read the fic went to read it, and then they eagerly discussed about the fic with each other; what did they like about it, what thoughts they had, if they had any metas or ideas of what would happen in the next chapter, how the fic had made them feel like and what was their favorite part of each chapter.

I followed these conversations without anyone knowing they were talking about my fic. It made me happy to see that what I had written was well received, and people waited for more!

Did any of these people leave me a comment on the said fic they were gushing about? No.

So, the lurker me knew that my fic was well received and liked, but the author me didn't know, because no one said anything. All the conversation was held in a private place among readers but the author was not included in it.

It would have been really easy for any of these fans of the fic just copy the same thing they had said in the private group and post it to the author me under the fic. Very easy support and a very easy way to let the author-me know that yes, this is what we wish to get more! I only know this because I was lurking in the fan group and saw these conversations.

Another experience I've got and it still keeps happening is that if I join a Discord group or any event group, there are always people who know me due FUZZY. They say that they read the comic and loved it. I have no idea just how many people actually read FUZZY, know it and liked it, because the majority seem to be lurkers who I encounter at random like this :D It's always a surprise when it happens, a happy one mind you! I don't know how many readers and fans FUZZY actually had but I think no one can really ever know the full scale of their fans and influence.

I've got IG which mainly operates now as an art gallery for those who wish to see just my art (excluding long comic updates due image limit). Engagement is small in IG and Twitter, where things are fresh for 20 second and then they are forgotten - albeit IG's positive side compared to Twitter is a better search system where you can go through old posts and like & comment them (no, it's not creepy, why the hell giving support for someone would be creepy when we talk about supporting fandom people).

#ask niu

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groovygladiatorsheep · 11 months

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Remember that post where I said I’d stop talking about it ?

Some things happened in between,

I feel like I should explain how I feel about this whole thing.

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So ! It happens you have an option where you can check up on people you blocked ( if they’d didn’t already blocked you and you blocked them back like I did with Nadia. )

And I saw Zaiko answer and Nadia answer, which was to come, which I am here to answer and provides proof !

So, plan out -

1. Nadia coming to me on an alt account to ´apologize’

2. Tracing art for their Gacha mod + answer to Zaiko’s post

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I received, yesterday despite Nadia saying they’d leave me alone in other old screenshots from someone else I also have, here’s one under their old username ;

( do you realize that ? They didn’t ask me to remove the block they “wanted” it. )

I received a text, what kind of text ?

( you forgot about me, but not enough to contact me under another account ? )

Here you go. Alicehopes, aka Alice used to be Azulnadia’s old username.

As you can see, it’s not a good apology. Why ? Because they say they forgive me too, that in their heart they forgive themselves..

What do I have to forgive myself when all I did was break off our ships and block you ? It’s a question I asked myself a lot, I did.

There’s more to the convo, here’s Nadia ignoring the part where I say to take off the video where they traced my art. Their answer is ? To ignore it.

You know what Im talking about when I say art video. In fact you can see the bottom of the screen, I showed them the screenshot of their Gacha mod « Eclipse »

( which was originally named Narkos, an old ship child of mine ! Coincidence or plagiarism, im still not sure knowing them. It’s just a name so it’s a side thought. )

I don’t have the complete screenshot of after that since I did block that account, and the account was deleted after by Nadia.

So ! To answer Zaiko’s post.

I translated the answer, which you can see on their blog with Google Translate, since I’m bad at Spanish.

« that is Mode concept, said Mode concept was created by AZULNADIA AND BY NOBODY ELSE, true, SOME contributed to certain garments, but the vast majority of designs belongs to AZULNADIA. »

Except ! The two traced art from me. No, changing colours doesn’t make it different from tracing.

« If they tell about plagiarism… here I ask them, who plagiarizes whom ? 👀 »

Maybe the one having posted last ? Also know as Azulnadia !

Last reblog on Violan post, which you can feel free to check ! Vs Gacha Eclipse posting time.

19 January 2023 vs 2 November 2022.

« The hat that is there, is very similar to the one worn by the groovy character… but oh no! IT IS IN PTRO COLOR, ISN’T THAT PLAGIARISM OR RECOLOUR ?! 📸 🤨 »

Very good question, but here’s the thing ; you only showed one item, a recoloured one.

What about this ?

Which is the same colour, the same design, the same flowers, leaves.. then again go and take a look if they did not remove it ! No, this do not belongs to Gacha club, but to me I created and drew this designs.

( and it’s the same trait for trait, so it is ‘plagiarism�� )

And.. the date you ask ?

2022 reactions, please feel free again to go and check yourself I reached images limit.

-> Nadia, I no longer take it in if you apologize, you had the chance to and it was simply not an apology, but I do know as stated, you won’t.

#discourse cw #discourse #important #I refuse to be accused of tracing my own art.#and y’all deserve a proper explanation of a part of the stuff I went through during those months.#but yes !#tagged properly so people who don’t want to see it can avoid it ‘#now I’ll really try not answering more stuff #it’s no use

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Hello to the Riptide Pirates! I've heard about their growth recently, when I saw them they didn't even have a captain (not one really well established at least). Glad to know they're doing fine.

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Enough about that, it's time to properly introduce myself! I am the great La Alma, Paramount Champion for a couple years (until some pirates ended up showing me a good fight). Currently, I'm off becoming a chef!

I use he/they, but neos are always a welcomed change! I'm unsure what else to add on here, so I guess we'll talk more later, Mana!

its cheri once again, the list at @oncewaskas will be updated later. for this account, use sol/sols when talking to me tysm!!

okay tag time

#the great la alma! - in character

#suplexed out of character - an out of character (ooc) tag

#to tell one a tale - answering asks

#stepping into the ring! - interactions

#chers played favorites before - if im talking to myself (not on an rp blog) or someone in the server (not on an rp blog) or my sibling, this is the tag for it

as always, wont be 100 percent canon, will have hcs, and spoilers for riptide

#the great la alma!#suplexed out of character #to tell one a tale #stepping into the ring!#chers played favorites before #jrwi riptide spoilers #jrwi rp blog #jrwi la alma #just role(play) with it

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When do you think the window will close for HL to become a power couple or to CO and make a big impact? I was just thinking about how Nicholas is gaining a lot of attention and he's almost 29, not far off Harry. His age hasn't really worked against him. Same with many other musicians and actors who are in their 30s upwards and are doing great. I don't know why but it feels different with HL. Maybe it's because they've been in the limelight for so long. Generally speaking, they're very boring compared to other celebrities. Their images haven't changed much since the beginning of their solo careers. Whereas someone like TS keeps reinventing herself. Harry is still a womanizer and Louis is still a laddy lad. Because they're in the closet they're not unleashing their full potential. It holds them back in every way. It affects both of them but I think it especially affects Harry. He looks so tired and fed up. It would be a huge weight off them if they CO. The longer it takes them to CO the less impact it'll make.

Here's a few asks about Harry in regards to coming out, hussell, citrus fruit bicycles and rebranding, and my answers to them.

Hi, anon!

I think mostly it's because as you say, they haven't really reinvented themselves. They don't have social media precence and is not engaging their audience in other ways. It's like they're tired of playing these games and they're low effort and low energy.

They've also got so much baggage, so many loose ends to tie up before everything is forgiven and forgotten. As much as they are going for a blank slate, the slate is alredy full of paint. They can't rid themselves of their history and former actions.

Harry really isn't bothering to spend much time with Louis. He's been in London for well over a month now.

Well, Harry is on a well deserved break from touring (while pursuing other ventures...) and he's working. Louis is working too. Do you know anyone who brings their significant other to work? They're obviously both prioritising work rn, and they've talked about it and decided it together. We also do not know if Harry's been to see L on tour. So do not fret. All is well in larryland.

He's not a slow burn, but a quick and fast burning star./// Even if Harry lost all his fans tomorrow he would never be described like this. He's been hugely famous and successful since 2010, that's 13 years. Even as a soloist he's been around for 8 years. A fast burning star is a two album wonder like Shawn Mendes.

You misunderstand me, anon. We are talking about H's career not being designed to last until he's 80yo here. He can't stunt until he's 80 and expect to keep his fans. He can't rely on his good looks and womaniser image to bring in fans in the year 2073. In order to do that he'd need a different fanbase demographic and a different USP.

I see you mentioned that you are on twitter, so what im about to say might not be news to you but I have to disagree with that ask mentioning Harry’s new stuntship is garnering positive attention, full disclosure im not on tiktok but I have been monitoring Harry/Harries/Larries on other social media platforms like twitter/instagram/tumblr to see the reaction of his fandom, I have to say that there is a general indifference to H and her, most of their outings don’t even make noise outside of a relatively small portion of Harries (im basing this on comparing the numbers of interactions Harry gets on his own versus he gets with her, bigger update accounts dont even posts updates on them (it is funny that hld does and other dont lol) -i saw his team got an account posing as a new pop culture account post about them tho it is hilarious), he has a large fandom that is known to be online all the time so a couple of hundreds of people talking about those outings is nothing compared to thousands of people reacting to his ‘newest’ tattoo reveal, funny enough that is the most he was talked since the tour ended, that must be alarming to his team seeing that he has a new fling, so we know how exciting and erratic that gets within fandom with girlfriend harries acting like they are the ones in the honeymoon period of said relationship and larries trying to prove that it is yet another pr attempt, larries have the biggest “whatever” energy I have seen we have when it comes to this, what must be concerning for them is that this is not a consequence of conscious effort on fandom’s part, people just don’t care. I’m of the opinion that his team pit hets against larries or vice versa to generate nonstop convo surrounding Harry, but that is not happening rn. I give them that they tried something new with this pr, they chose a poc interest which became a hot topic for just a minute but people quickly got used to that “reality”. However some poc harries are not as much pleased by this situation bc they are realizing that so much of Harry’s public persona and life is just him/his team reacting to how he is perceived so they are feeling like this is not something genuine but an attempt to savor a part of Harry’s image -this i observed in older harries (when i say older I mean people aged 22 and above), younger ones are just accepting it as is.

I talked about this with another blog in detail, but his former stuntship being so exposed ruined the fantasy of boyfriend harry for too many of his fans especially older ones which is a shame bc it shows a)they got wiser to his public persona/brand and didn’t like it b)those are the fans that needed to stick around for harry to have a longer career as they were (imo) leftovers of 1D fandom, they literally outgrew him, I watched some of them leave during the former stunt and now im seeing the ones that are left publicly making fun of him, I know so many of Harry’s fans, larries or harries, are not ready to talk about this but boyfriend H is an enormous selling point of Harry as a brand so his team being so invested in pushing stunt after a stunt is not helping him, on the contrary it is giving non-larrie fans an opening to question what he/his team serve as harry styles. They are catching up on the fact that there is always the same formula at play when it comes to his private life or his interactions with his fans or his need to be seen only when he wants to sell smth. I saw his team paying well known accounts on instagram/twitter to post about him, his music, his heartfelt moments from the tour, name anything outside of his relationships (there is nothing wrong with this by the way, so many of celebrities do this to get their news out there ‘organically’) but GP don’t respond well to Harry, he might be well known but the reputation he has with gp wont help him prolong his career, on top of that seeing the state of fandom rn, he is in desperate need of rebranding asap, idk if his latest antics have anything to do with showing record labels that he has what it takes to get another multimillion dollars contract but they are failing and turning off some of his fans that are in his corner from him.

Hi!

Yes, yes, yes! I hard agree. I think you, i and the tiktok anons who thinks hussell is garnering a lot of attention just have to agree to disagree on this.

As i said, i think we're at a cross road. He needs to makes some decisions on how to proceed next. Does he want a short career or a long one, does he want to risk losing core fans, does he want to risk becoming a laughing stock and not be taken seriously as an artist? Or does he want longevity and respect?

Harry is a multimillionaire. Why the hell would he rent L*me bikes in London, where he lives, when he could just use his own bike? Antis are so stupid. How do they explain him disappearing for weeks and then getting spotted every single day. I'd bet they think that in the month over the holidays we didn't see him that he never left the house. Ridiculous lmao. The real reason why they are arguing against L*me being a PR deal is because by admitting that Harry does PR it means that his 'relationship' with TR could be PR for L*ewe. Which means his other 'relationships' could be PR. By admitting he does PR it opens up a can of worms. So they'll never admit to that no matter how obvious it is. They're ignorant by choice.

Hi,

Again, i'm not happy about the name calling here. Antis have been gaslighted for years and it's not their fault. So please refrain from the name calling. I've seen a lot of het harries calling out the citrus fruit promo, so some see it. Some i think is seeing it, but they have an ingrained need to defend him from critisism. There is no doubt it's promo.

I think the relationship with TR is to repair his image after the damage Holivia did, and also the L*ewe connection. It's image rehab and it's working. They picked a poc, an unproblematic woman and it's a 'low key' relationship. The Harries and the gp are eating it up. It's getting him back into people's good books. People are really invested. I can't see it being a short stunt, it'll be at least a year. If it ends in a few months it's not going to look good for him. Harries want to see him settle down and are questioning why he isn't. There will be more questioning when he hits his 30s. Short flings are going to make him look as if he can't hold a relationship down so the stunts will be longer. You said that we might be due for a rebrand sooner than we think. I wish for this too but I don't see him CO very soon as he's with TR. He holds hands with her so they do want people to think they're in a relationship. If he isn't CO soon then what kind of image rebrand can he get? He can't be rebranded as queer as he's still going to stunt with women. He'll get even worse backlash. I can only see them pushing his het image more. Showing that he can hold down long term relationships with women. Doing the power couple thing with a woman. Which I think I'd rather not have lol.

Hi!

Would you repair a failed pr relationship with another pr relationship that might also fail? That's a big risk to take. I'm not sure i agree that hussell is image rehab for harry. People are tired of stunts in general and i think no matter who he chose as a new stunt after O, we'd be just as fed up and tired.

Also see two asks above. There is fandom disagreement on this point.

I don't know if this is going to be long or short. It depends on Harry's next plans, and we're not privy to them yet.

A rebrand doesn’t have to mean a coming out. It might just be changing the target audience, changing music genre or changing clothing style. Maybe he's doing more movies or maybe he wants to start a luxury clothing brand. We don’t know.

Hussell will never be a power couple. She's too unknown and not on his level. And i don't think Harry would want that either. He'd look visibly unhappy and uninterested if they tried that. More than he already does with her now.

#harry image #hussell for ts #number 35 #rebranding #coming out #stunting

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it takes 2 seconds of research to know that although tarot reading as we know it today (with each card representing a certain archetype) was conceptualized by a french person, there are records of romani people using tarot cards (as in those used in europe to play card games) to read fortunes long before the western conception of tarot. don't just comment "shrugs" on something you clearly don't have the background on especially if you're white

"two seconds of research" well anon i did four hours! four hours of research.

(also the reason i answered with shrug is because the anon called it TACKY, not appropriative. if they think it's tacky i'm not going to dispute that, i had nothing else to say in regards to the tackiness.)

this is going under the cut bc i have a lot of screenshots and links and im doing this on my computer so its doing that thing where it wont let me reorganize images.

first of all: the idea of tarot being exclusive to roma is hotly contested and considered even by some to be offensive and pushing the card-fortuneteller stereotype

ok, now, onto your main claim regarding tarot itself:

"although tarot reading as we know it today (with each card representing a certain archetype) was conceptualized by a french person, there are records of romani people using tarot cards (as in those used in europe to play card games) to read fortunes long before the western conception of tarot."

so we're talking about different things. cartomancy with playing cards ISN'T TAROT. tarot is a different subset of cartomancy! there are many, including roma-exclusive bocht and dukkering. what you're referring to is classic cartomancy, which also wasn't invented by roma people, nor was it likely invented in one place at all.

throughout the 14th-18th centuries, cartomancy began popping up all over Europe. Notably, the first example we can find of cards with fortunes on them are from the Mamluk games brought from Turkey vis-a-vis Muslim trading in Spain, as old as 1325 if I recall correctly. It's likely they could be older, but due to fragility, we don't have many surviving sets. Not only that, but records in 1379 show that a game called "Naib" had been introduced by Muslim people in Europe, also played by cards.

In the 15th century, you also saw Lot Books pop up in various parts of Europe, which were even used by clergymen for a short while, before it began to be regarded as witchcraft. I could go on a lot more about the history of "good" divination and "bad" divination but to be quite frank it's not that relevant.

From here on I'm going to be referring a lot to things from A Cultural History of Tarot, by Helen Farley. Good read if you like Italian history.

The playing card deck as we know it predates anything resembling tarocchi by over 50 years, to start. If anything, records lead us to believe Roma people used the belgian-genoese card set for most of their cartomancy, which lacks the 21 additional archetypes of tarot, even in its early stages.

What Roma people DID bring to Europe, however, was palministry, something that originated and India and that they brought over during their migration, and most early accounts of their fortune telling (at least, anything more descript than the word sortilege) included this. however, picking up fortune-telling as a main source of income only really began to occur in the 1500s and onwards, as Roma were highly regarded tradesmen in the form of metalworking, horse care, and various other industries. Naturally, this would shift with the cultural pressure they were under as persecution changed over time.

the regular playing card tarot, while we do not have a definite creation of, was likely created in the late 1300s or early 1400s in Italy, as murals seen with the specific trumphs can be seen from that time period. The oldest full tarot, the Visconti Tarot, which was dedicated to the life of Duke Filippo Maria Visconti-- at least, two of the three known decks. The symbolism on this tarot all specifically relates to him, which was likely the case for any other hand-crafted card deck. These would be expensive, and noblemen were the most established players of Tarot and Tarocchi, even if cheap packs had appeared by the mid-1400s.

Tarot only spread to the rest of Europe in the 16th century, however, when Milan fell to Swiss and French forces. If Roma people were already actively using it and travelling with it broadly, the game would've been spread beyond Italy long before then, since we have reports of Roma people in Europe as early as the late 1300's. It also only began using a standard pattern (The Tarot of Marseille) in about 1700. The first record of TAROT, SPECIFICALLY, being used as a divination tool is from 1750, found on a sheet of card meanings from the University of Bologna.

By this point, Roma people had already taken up cartomancy with their own practices and with easier to find decks, certainly, as well as the use of crystal balls. However, all of these methods that we know of were done for money for people outside of the Roma culture as a way of survival and tradesmanship. For some it was spiritual, but for many it was just business, and they had their own cultural divination that we don't have record of because it's closed. (Fun fact: the use of crystal balls was because European people already associated it with divination from the Druids.)

the first form of tarot divination bears no resemblance to that which arose in 18th centure France, which was first evidenced in Etteilla, or a Way to Entertain Oneself with A Pack of Cards, which was published in 1770.

Much like the Renaissance era Italy, 18th century France was in a spiritual crisis; that is, faith in the church had waned rapidly and people were desperate to find something else to believe in. This is the first boom of modern occultism as we know it, and it's a really long and complicated and troubling matter that does involve a lot of cultural appropriate, but I'm going to stick to what's relevant here.

Etteilla, and his contemporaries, all assigned the origin of tarot to Roma people under the assumption they were from Egypt. The big spiritual movement of the time was Hermeticism, a belief rooted in the idea that Ancient Egypt was the center of all human knowledge, and that its mysticism could elevate you to a god (or something along those lines). Egyptomania was in vogue because Napoleon had just conquered the country and was importing in raw materials. The misconception that Roma people were from Egypt was well established (and in the early years, Roma people used it as a way to get letters of safe-keeping and alms from noblemen when charity was in vogue with the church during the 1400s-- this doesn't excuse the misconception, but it is part of why the misconception initially spread), and so, in keeping with his fanatacism around Egypt, these occultists claimed that Roma people were the keepers of secret esoteric Egyptian knowledge-- and that THEY, THE CHOSEN ONES, were entrusted with "translating" it. It had nothing to do with actual Roma people. I'm not even sure any of them were ever actually recorded talking to these weirdoes

Skipping over a lot of details, this would happen again about a century later in Victorian England, during the height of their Egyptomania. This is when we'd really get the version of the tarot we know today, complete with a reading style and spreads that have no basis in anything other than French and British people Making Things Up.

However,

I'm not going to say Roma people don't use tarot. As mentioned in many articles and various sources, it was adopted as a way to make money and survive, since it could be transported easily and the cultural fascination around it was strong. I'm not even saying it can't be spiritual to Roma people-- as seen in this article, it very much can be and is. And I won't say that the conversation around divination as a way to make money isn't important-- fortune-telling laws disproportionately target and are enforced upon roma populations, which is an indisputable fact. I think the initial anon calling it tacky is well within reason.

However, your claims that it originates solely in Roma culture is wrong, and is something disputed by both other Roma people and primary historical sources.

If you'd like my other sources I'd be happy to supply them but a lot of the information is found in A Cultural History of Tarot, as well as a few other books I read.

also why do you always accuse my mutuals of all being white. the reason i opened the question to my mutuals is because I have roma mutuals or maybe even just a mutual who knows more about the history than I did. good lord

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HELLO FRIENDS I AM SUPER HYPE TO BE HERE. let me introduce to you my baby noh suji, also known as hannah noh, also known as hannahyes on youtube and on tiktok! she’s a decently popular youtuber (just short of 1mil subs!) and has a decent following on tiktok as well. her about page is here and i don’t have a plots page but i will Attempt to get one up maybe

i’ll put some info up about her under the cut but PLS LIKE THIS TO PLOT!!! i would Like to keep my plotting through tumblr ims bc i get very mixed up outside of them hahaha

basic/bg info vague alcohol tw

she’s from seongnam, south korea which is just outside of seoul

her family is middle-class, a bit closer to the upper side but not much

she was raised an only child but she had one cousin who was her age that she’s still close to to this day

her parents were happy together and she thought they had the perfect relationship

around middle school, her dad was going through Some Shit and turned to alcohol and she watched her parents’ “Perfect Relationship” go completely down the drain and they struggled for a while through that

it took a few years but her dad eventually made it through that but her image of her Perfect Parents was completely ruined

eventually during high school, they ended up telling her that they were going through an amicable divorce and stuff

this kind of ruins her ideas on romance in general, but she finds that her parents ended up just staying friends and she saw them both quite a lot (not together until around her graduation but having them both in her life was a big thing for her)

she starts at kyungwon as a communications major because her youtube channel (see next part) is slowly starting to gain traction and she decides that if she should probably have a backup career in case her youtube doesn’t take off but it’s good enough for some pocket money/cash to save up with

she does one semester at kyungwon and then does one year abroad in canada at the university of british columbia

which is coincidentally where she meets jinwoo and long story short—they’ve been dating for almost 1.5 years now

she’s been back for about a year now, finishing her 5th semester

she’s also in the dance club and has been since she started at kyungwon

about her!

so she’s really good at being a fake extrovert despite being introverted

like she likes talking to people and making new friends but ultimately she’s happy to just be at home in bed in her pajamas scrolling tiktok tbh

but she’ll talk to anyone! she’s self-proclaimed “good at smalltalk” but mun isn’t so pls don’t make me thread it

generally has good friends????

she’s in the dance club and that’s literally it but she’s been there for a few years now and always enjoys it and is likely friends with everyone there

about her youtube channel/tiktok

she’s basically a mix of rachhloveslife (specifically this) and joanday (with things like this)

aka she tests recipes and different hacks and random things she found on tiktok as well as does random vlogs

she started her channel when she started high school, mostly because she was going through a somewhat turbulent time and wanted to record it for herself

she started with vlogs and she also wanted to practice english since her mom is a gyopo and she had learned it since she was young

she does a lot of vlogs like this where she just spoke english the whole day, usually walking around hongdae or itaewon

she gained a following because she had a video where she went to a kpop group’s fanmeeting go viral and also another video of her speaking english

she also vlogged a lot in english when she was in canada

now that she’s back she’s mostly doing the testing videos, but she still vlogs when she’s 1) bored or 2) going to interesting places

her tiktok account is mostly just her doing dance challenges

and sometimes pranking jinwoo with her friends

but she’s 1) pretty and 2) good at dancing so she has a decent amount of followers on there too

she doesn’t promote either account on the other but if anyone knows her from one or the other she’s happy

idk how this got so long sdkjfgkjdhsf

plot ideas

y’all knew this was coming but anyone who’s watched her youtube videos LOL

exes 👁️ (pre-dec 2020)

honestly she’s not a bad student but she tends to do the “i’m working on my career” and her career is ... the youtube channel so anyone who doesn’t really think that’s a real career is welcome to give her their two cents tbh

dance buddies!! dance is definitely a stress reliever for her so anyone who wants to join her

wow this was supposed to be bare minimum and i didn’t even get there

uhhh probably friends in general

canada friends????

friends she made by walking up to them while they were speaking english and suji going “hi can i practice my english with you” LMAO

tbh i’m better at brainstorming so let’s brainstorm

if u read all this ily

#kw:intro #( wowowow this is long lmao )#( sunflower house — ooc )

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zwampy · 2 years

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sometimes i think about in depth blogging about my feelings and life and i dont know what worth it would have but . hoo.

im so tired of being eternally broke, but i always will be. like the only way i get about to anything cool is by the grace and pity of others. i see other people in nice new clothes, TRAVELLING... TRAVELLING... taking photos on their brand new phones, with friends, and its VERY HARD not to feel bitter and down. or like, i see people making jokes i made, but nobody heard, and it’s nobody’s fault i have a small social circle and outreach, but seeing 100s of people go haha about something you said already a long time before you’re like... oh my god Lord throw me a bone now maybe

anyway i do count my blessings i really do i TREASURE the little good things that happen to me, TREASURE, but also it’s exhausting constantly keeping back the “you know, it could be a lot better than this” thoughts

i think i need to severely limit seeing accounts from people who have rich families or just got lucky or whatever. like im always thinking about how we’re all struggling, even if you “got lucky” it’s like... why would you stop talking about the horrific inequalities or sharing charities or talking about our garbage cities its ???

like i saw a news article in the related of something else i was reading, and it was like “[influencer/youtuber idk] explains why they moved to LA” and im like... uh... because theyre rich now? why would they move to a people hostile dogshit traffic choked city? because its LA and thats where influencers go now that theyre rich? why doesnt every single other person make a pained face seeing that. dont you cringe? why arent you cringing?

everything loops back to city building and walkable cities for me apparently. this is a ramble. im just keeping myself from getting too down :^( its hard. i know you understand. no point falling into the pit though, but i do feel this absurd need to clarify myself to strangers online like “BTW... I DONT HAVE A LOT OF MONEY... I TREASURE EVERY GOOD THING THAT COMES MY WAY... IF WE ALL HAD MORE MONEY WE WOULD CERTAINLY BE HAPPIER... ALL THESE POSTS I MAKE I’M SELF AWARE... IF YOU SEE ME SOMEWHERE PRETTY, I’M THINKING THE WHOLE TIME “HOW BLESSED I AM TO BE HERE”... I CAN’T BE LIKE YOU, IF YOU’RE WEALTHY, I’M NOT LUCKY ENOUGH TO BE YOU, AND YOU SHOULD COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS, AND BE GENTLE TO OTHERS AND GIVE WHEN YOU CAN, BECAUSE YOU ARE PRIVILEGED”

im not re-reading this. life has been hard! not going into details lol. i just need to cosmically reach out to strangers online sometime to go “we’re struggling, right? we don’t have money like some people do, and we’re never gonna. let’s stay strong, at least i’m not struggling alone”

tattoo on my forehead that says “ a lot of bad things happened to me and some continue to happen so don’t compare yourself to me because we are only barely the same species, it’s not fair and we did not run the same race”

hmmm... let’s hope we get a little luckier soon

image reward for reaching this point

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suicidemonkei · 6 months

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WOW my tumblr is 7 years old

Today i decided t go through my tumblr, to see what my sweet teen self had to say when i made this account. Mind you, i stopped using tumblr ever since my suicide back in 2019? but damn i went through my tumblr posts today... I was a sad piece of shit. I laughed, because i matured but also lowkey not trying to go back and feel the emotions i was going through but I'm glad i got through it on my own. I'm glad i had this space to share how i felt. I had family and friends, but no one wanted to listen how a teen is feeling, and that's fine. My parents grew up differently. I stopped because i didn't want them to call me silly, stupid or think im doing this for attention. Because that always seems to be the reaction from people i know when they hear about these things .

Although, that day when i cried for help, i was told i was doing it for attention from a really close friend. Even though i never really liked talking about it, because at this point i was hearing voices, telling to off myself. It was sucking the life out of me. But that day i broke. My glass was overflowed.

ANYWAYS. The important thing is that im glad im here today. I'm glad i got a second chance. I'm glad i have a loving family. im glad im making music even though i never saw it coming. It was definitely a gift from God. He had something planned out for me.

If anyone very reads this, please dont keep your feelings to yourself. Who cares if they think your silly for feeling a certain way. Cut the drinking, the smoking, the people you consider as "friends". Isolate yourself when it feels like a hurricane. I knew God isolated me. I didnt understand why i was going through these things, till he showed me. I encountered God at my work place in March 2023 after shooting my first music video, which was demonic. Because i felt the same heavy depression i went through when i was a teen. So i questioned. Saying all sorts of things to the sky. "Why" this and "why" that. "If your real, please come to m. show me"

The next few days, i encountered God at work. I froze. My whole body, heart and mind, felt lifted. Like every single negative thing i held and lived inside me was gone. I was filled with God's love. Typing this is really making me emotional. Now i understand i was filled with the holy spirit too.

Now what did i see? It was all white and bright. I saw white clouds. Then the clouds started opening in the middle. Gold bright light was shining through the opening of the clouds. Then i saw God's hand, reaching out to me. I promise you. As i saw this, i cried so much. All the bad things i've done, every negative thought, memory all gone. I felt free from my sins. My life changed ever since my encounter with God. I cried for 2 weeks straight. He showed all the times where i felt alone. He was there, when i was admitted at the hospital, he was always there. I just want to share so much. He changed my life.

Open your heart to him. Hes always listening.

I found an image that looks very similar to what i saw

#god #godisgood #jesus christ

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minheeskitten · 8 months

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Vent post. Dont read if you dont want to see the following.

Tw: Dysphoria, Negative self talk. S/h ideation. Asexuality talk, arospec talk, queer struggles. suicidal ideation

Something about being on the asexual specturm.

I have the thoughts. I want to be able to write more of them.

But i always feel i write smut best when horny, you know?

Except i dont get that way often, so my reach massively drops every time i stop posting

I do love writing but the asexuality can make it hell to feel inspired to write smut.

Ive stopped wriring as much because my asexuality hits me like a truck. I dont get as wxcited as i did before.

Purity culture fucked me over so bad i cant even be normal about sexuality. Makes me feel broken for being ace.

My full queer identity is as follows, Transmasc genderfluid. Aroflux, panromantic, lithsexual, demisexual, bisexual.

Being so deeply aroace makes it hard because i feel like i dont fit in, you know?

And being transmasc in a sea of comfortable femme afab readers and writers just makes it hard for me to feel involved wheni wanna write things id absolutely enjoy.

Rhe dysphoria also hits really hard because of being someone who if you saw irl without any knowledge of my identity, youd go 'oh a woman.'

Feeling pretty dysphoric lately and been rhinking about trying to get onto Testosterone.

Most of my moots are afab and use feminine pronouns and im out here like the only transmasc here.

Im worried that people dont interact because they cant relate or cant find me. But if its not relating then how do i fix the issue? Being trans is integral to who i am. And i feel bad because of how little i can post and talk to others.

Honestly i hate being inactive. I loved my followers on my old account but i dont know how to get rhem back, because they followed me for the x reader things that i do not do anymore.

I dont do x reader because it feels wrong weiting for fem readers when im transmasc and incredibly dysphoric some days.

I cant write afab often because it makes me uncomfortable in my skin. Maybe if i get top surgery ill feel better.

Im hoping i can top surgery and be on T. Because im incredibly dysphoric as of late and just dont want to have my tits anymore. I want to be a guy.

I dont want bottom surgery that doesnt make me dysphoric its just my breats being so large.. Double D cups are not fun especially when you're trans.

Sometimes i just want to cut them off and never aee rhem again. But i know that i cant DIY that sort of thing. That would be deadly. And i dont want to abandon all of the friends ive made on here and other places.

I feel like my body was wasted on me, because i cant appreciate it the way it is. Makes me feel incredibly awful about myself. My self image is terrible.

I feel like dying would be better some days yet i dont want to leave any of my friends. They mean so much to me. Anyone who interacts means the world to me.

Rhe idea of death is a concept ive found intriguing for years. But im not sure id be able to commit. But it always starts with a bit of seld harm, doesnt it?

Sorry if this was something sad on your dash today coming from a smut blog. I dont think you were expecting that from me today.

I dont know if ill make rhis sort of vulnerable post again, but i hope that this at least gives you some of my perspective.

If you read this, thank you for taking the time to read this.

I know rhis was a vent post but like. I needed to say it.

#talks <3 #serious post #vent post #transmasc #transgender #asexual #aromantic #acespec #arospec #aroace

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locally339 · 2 years

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feeling like i should at least explain this shitty ass drama I've been in for the last who knows long before NuggetB0iYT comes after me with his gang or whatever you want to call it. more or less, this just feels like someone trying to milk the fuck out of things that aren't even worth riling up anyone over in my opinion.

for all i know this happened a few months ago and my memory is often foggy over things like this so this is as much as i can remember clearly about what happened to me, my friends, and even my boyfriend.

i was on discord, in my boyfriend's server (we weren't dating yet) and i was just hanging out with some friends. the server was always nearly quiet due to Nugget spamming mute on literally anyone he could, but we eventually moved on from that.

for what i know, SpacyQuaser5617 was his favorite to harass. almost daily i could see Nugget talking about things like how Spacy is a baby or how he'd like to hurt him. nearly pushed him to suicide but in the end, Spacy was still alive, and everyone eventually moved on from that (now that im thinking about it i should have tried to help Spacy before he blocked me for whatever reason)

I was in a bad mood at the time and nothing was really helping to calm me down or whatever so I dm'ed a few people, and then I went to the server I usually went before it was deleted by Nugget.

Spacy's 1 week mute had finally expired, and he actually got to speak for a minute. all he says before probably being muted again was something like "i'm back"

Nugget is online and just responds with "welcome to hell"

all I said in response to that was just 8 simple words, and thats what set off the ticking timebomb.

"well, with you here, I can see why"

and I ended up getting backlash after backlash for that. random dms from random people that were most likely alt accounts of him and his friends, and some of the people i knew well weren't spared the backlash either. I swear I saw a channel celebrating one of my friends getting really sick as well.

sometime when I started dating my current boyfriend, videos started surfacing about him harassing someone in perfect English.

it was obviously sketchy with some of the claims.

1. the harassment claims were weird because he was speaking proper english, correct grammar and everything despite him at the time not knowing English that well. (he is Brazilian)

2. the rule 34 accusations seemed more like an inside joke that went too far instead of something to be taken seriously. (if anyone really has any proof William Cat draws rule 34 could you please link here? the one image he has on rule 34 doesn't count since it doesn't match any of his artstyles.)

3. him forcing a relationship on two people that i have looked up countless times and don't show any results. maybe they do exist but there was no proof that i could find of this being real so for now this stays debunked.

there is a few more things i would like to point out, for anyone really looking for some proper dirt on Nugget, but i can't prove too much as usually when he does this kind of thing, it's gone before i can screenshot it.

he has posted NSFW art of bob x opheebop in a server with mostly minors.

he has (if you already haven't gotten the hint) harassed multiple people over and over again, me being one of the victims obviously.

and he has drawn some questionable art of characters, minor characters. (i only have one image but if you ask around there might be a few more people who have more proof than i do)

one more thing to address, he has attempted to try and resolve this, but all he said was the equivalent of that he's black and i'm not.

do whatever you want with this information. if you're gonna take my side, go ahead. if you're gonna take Nuggets side, all i can say is good luck defending someone who's only excuse of why he should keep doing things like this is that he's black. there's a lot more to be addressed, but that's all i can remember. you can dm me on Twitter for the proof. till then i feel like I've said enough.

Locally_Blob is my Twitter username. dm me and if im awake i'll show you the proof.

this probably won't go anywhere as always, but i don't really care if it does anymore. I've tried again and again but it always just vanishes from whatever i post it on. so thanks to whoever keeps spam reporting it to make it disappear or whatever is going on just to protect someone who really needs a wake-up call at this point.

if Nugget can expose my boyfriend for things that happened half a year ago, i can expose Nugget for things that happened half a year ago.

locally339 signing off. goodnight.

#explanation #controversy #blobsona #discord stuff #call out #long reads #i swear i'm not making this up

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