#think again! and please hold

[sollucets]

just yok things for @ahxu-laowen

#not me #not me series #not me the series #yok not me #danyok #first kanaphan #gawin caskey #tuserhidden #arbitrary milestone prompts #rowan gifs #happy pride lmao 🌈 #delivering on 'insane gay yok moments' as promised #i tried a lot of new stuff making this and as such i'm horribly anxious about it and also proud at the same time #text is so so scary. agh. i like my lil handcuffs though :) #oh and hey sof. if you see this and think 'oh so they chose that option' #think again! and please hold #i just got too ambitious & don't have enough patience to wait until both are done lmao <3

[heartorbit]

always by your side

#couuugh. whehezze #hold on #project sekai #emu otori #pjsk #prsk #proseka #ok thatsg enough RANK 96 COOOOOGUH WHEEEZE #literlaly cough wheez ei have fucking covid. i wanted to draw something nicer for the event but my hands rlly hrut snd my throat hirts and #i was sticking my head in the freezer in between matches. #omfg i didnt think the end sprint was gonna be so insane i didnt have enough energy. mfers made me spend 700 gems. nene please. #i never wanna open the game agaon.(guy who will open it tomorrow and sunday) 16 MIL POINTS.. pimh was only 9mil. for rank 80smth. #the hatsune miku colorful stage tiering economy is in shambles #'im never doing that again' [will do it again in august] #event was insane. started out ill -> only 1 rate up card -> charger broke -> assignments -> covid on the last day. Be fr #to my beloved sakurako and fixer i wub you. ill try to finish my nice profile but well honk mimimi. #NSIFFLKE. SNIFFLE. WAAAAAAH #this is so lazy but i havent drawn for myself literally in a week. other than doodles i did between matches #actually theyre like little bobblehead emus all over my sketchbooks i should collage them into anpost #idk how people get that subtle gaussian blur on their lines i tried it but it looks so obvious to me here.. maybe bc i used a thick brush.. #ok wonderhoy i need to lay down so bad tylenol save me. I ACCIDENTALLY SWALLOWED MY LOZENGE IN THE MIDDLE OF A GAAAAAME

[courfee]

“Regulus would be proud of us,” James whispered quietly to no one in particular, still gripping onto the painting like a life raft. 

— Tender Curiosities, Baby!  @otrtbs

#ive thought about this scene for so long it just took me forever to draw cause once again the anatomy of cars is the bane of my existence #like originally i wanted evan and barty holding hands to be visible to have the contrast of sad lonely james and sad not lonely rosekiller #but alas cars wont allow it #ahb just still has my entire heart you dont get it #i have a none blurry rosekiller and a just james in front of blue with stars version of this but i think ill only put them on insta... #tender curiosities baby #art heist baby #james potter fanart #james potter #jegulus #rosekiller #rosekiller fanart #marauders #marauders fanart #evan rosier #barty crouch jr #jegulus fanart #jegulus fanfiction #fic: ahb #art heist baby! #mine #my art #hp #ahb #(sneaky end notes: i do have to admit i am not too pleased with evan and barty but this was my first time drawing them) #(so i couldnt figure it out quite yet hency why they look a little. less efforty...) #(also the snake ring is the same design that i drew for chapter 34 of ahb in my little chapter illustrations for my typeset) #((nvm i just checked back and i am fully lying here i used a different one for my typeset and now im vaguely upset oops) #(i shouldnt make decisions only half awake im going to think about this for too long now i am sad)) #((like suddenly i was like. hold up. i had a different design there didnt i... it was an open ring goddamnit))

[rainbowinbeigeboots]

currently thinking about how doug and michael both call lisa “kiddo” when lisa is in a vulnerable moment with both of them, they both betray her in similar/different ways, and how neither of them see her as equal to them

#AND YET CREATURE IS THERE TREATING HER LIKE MORE THAN HIS EQUAL AND WORSHIPPING THE GROUND SHE WALKS ON #I NEED A MOMENT BECAUSE I AM NOT OKAY ABOUT THESE TWO NEARLY TWO MONTHS LATER STILL #i WISH i could make gifs so i could make this parallel because it’s all i’ve been thinking about after watching it again on saturday #please gif makers i am on my knees begging for this gif set #diablo cody i see what you have done and god every time rewatch this movie i fall more in love with it #diablo cody and zelda williams really did hold my face and say ‘babes this one is for YOU’ #lisa swallows #creature #lisa frankenstein #meaghan rambles

[carefulfears]

one thing that stands out to me about the IVF arc is the way that, for as much as i make fun of her for asking her coworker if she can have his babies, scully asking mulder to be involved in the biggest process of her life (and the most important thing in the rest of her life) is such a healing and reverent experience. like he says “i’m absolutely flattered,” but it’s so much more than that. it’s like…spending your whole life feeling like you should’ve died at age twelve and then being told someone just wants more of you, more and more and more, in everything.

#it reminds me of 'sixth extinction' / 'amor fati' #when he quite literally was tied down and couldn't speak #and the way we hear him try to SCREAM when his mother just leaves him there #but his mind is Silent from the moment he hears scully in the hall begging to see him #and he couldn't crack a joke or run out the door #he literally just had to lie there and feel it #feel it on his Skin #her hand holding onto him #her tears falling onto his face #listening to the overwhelming depth of her fear that she is failing him and her devotion and her dedication to finding a way to help him #her Pleas for him to just 'hold on' #'i think that...if you know...if you could just find a way to hold on...i need you to hold on...please...' #everybody go listen to the civil wars' cover of 'talking in your sleep' #i don't think it can be overestimated how much of an impact that had on them and the lightness and healing in s7. that he Had to hear it #and then with the baby thing it's like...he CAN'T deny her that. he HAS to say 'yes' #there's no part of him that's capable of denying her something that she desires this badly. enough to ask for outright #and so he HAS to let himself be wanted and be invited into this unimaginably important and personal thing #let himself be a part of something bigger. be SEEN as someone who is valuable in a way that's bigger #and again he can't run from it and he can't deflect it and he can't hide from it. he has to just accept it #txf.txt #per manum

[puppyeared]

Ever since I was a little girl I always knew I wanted a butch twice my size to call me a good boy

#it hasn’t happened yet but I think it will fix me once it does #Im not much of a boy or a girl or anything and I gave up trying to put a name on it. but I really like that phrase #its weirdly pleasing and I wish I had more situations where I could call myself that…. sigh #I noticed that whenever I do smth like look both ways before crossing the street or hold the door for someone #I find a little voice in the back of my head praising me like wow!! good job!! you’re such a good boy!!! #idk what that says abt me but im not complaining. I am a good boy #I hope everyone is having a good week!! and if not I sincerely hope it gets better and the weeks to come #im updating my blog again for fun ^_^ #so far I’ve updated my header icon and text color but since im on the bus rn I might go back and change things when I get home #I also saw someone walking across campus wearing nothing but a t shirt and shorts in -15 Celsius weather #yapping

[humanmorph]

the movie night scene may be a season highlight so far. cori 🥺💗

#palisade spoilers #palisade #coriolis sunset #friends at the table #i dont have a grasp on what casual cori wears this is pyjama wear. which i think is fine for recovering. or a movie night #art #fatt #rosa art #PLEASE zoom in on the first picture and look at my stupid details that took me hours. do this for me #its 3:30am lol.lmao even #ill reblog this again tomorrow but if i stay up late to finish a drawing i cant NOT post it. it would kill me #the devotion isnt finished on purpose btw she was doodling while hunting was talking to her about his anime ova and then got distracted. #the scribbled out bit at the to-do says call dad. god dont i love putting in details i then feel i have to point out #enjoy them wont you... i do #Edit: Hold on “also I choose to believe she decided to spell devotee with an I like cori” courtesy of jack clementineskesh #That's actually so cute. Ahu. W. Cori 🥺

[ganondoodle]

as cool as their design is im really starting to dislike the sonau in general, aside from their stuff suddendly being everywhere and everything being about them and how cool(tm) they are now with the mystery stone turning people into dragons and the similarities between the sonau and the three dragons (naydra, eldra, farodra) its actually not an impossibility that they used to be sonaus as alot of people have been theorizing about ..but ...... idk that would very much ruin their otherwordly yet ethereal mystery to me

i probably sound like some hater whos trying to find something more to dislike about totk all the time but i promise im not!!

the three dragons being some unexplained mystery, beings that are there yet few can see them, timeless, nigh untouchable, they dont act on anything, they dont talk, something about them has always made me look at them in awe; if it turned out they were just yet another cool(tm) sonau guy that ate a stone ... :/

not a fan of that one lads, but dont worry, i will keep my thoughts to myself from now on, i dont want to ruin other peoples fun nor seem like i just hate everything ... the three dragons are just really important to me so i had to say something

#ganondoodles talks #tloz #totk #totk spoilers #totk spoiler #besides i have leanred that i tend to have the unpopular opinions and frankly im tired of the hate directed at me #if you disagree thats fine but please dont spam me with why you think its cool actually #bc it just feels like yet another argument starting as to why im wrong and need to be talked down to and also suck actually #sorry its been all over my timeline on twitter so i just had to throw my dumbass opinion out there again #and it was a few times more than id like in a row where my random thought posts where torn apart by arguing people needing to prove im wron #the dragons where something i just absolutely loved in botw #they hold a special place in my heart and i dont like the thought of them too being just yet another sonau thing #i feel more secure posting my thoughts here than on twitter #but still i dont want to sound overly negative so i will hold back from now on #unless im exhausted and overly tired and not feeling that great physically like right now i guess lol #ill just have to grit my teeth and try to ignore everything i dont like but everyone else loves like always #anyway i need some sleep #ill be fine after that i think #and then try to resume work on destiny and a commission i havent had the energy to get to

[oifaaa]

the mexican digimon dub didn't add a sibling that doesn't exist or make a character a stereotype of valley girls

That sucks why would the Mexican dub do that extra secret siblings are always so much fun and a stereotypical vally girl iconic

#ask #anon #honestly don't understand what you were trying to get at here #“Look at this one example of a bad English dub dont you feel foolish” #oh no anyway moving on #i dont really understand the point you were trying to make so please feel free to elaborate #also please tell me when this dub came out #i think i know but im willing to be pleasingly surprised #since they usually dont do fun things like that anymore #and im still holding out hope theyll force Sanjis current english va to do the joey wheeler accent again #just for 1 episode please thats all i ask

[gojooooo]

sukuna begging yuuji to take him back because he wants to feel his emotions again instead of his own emptiness and nothing but the closeness they once had is enough for him. and when yuuji does, because he feels incomplete as well without sukuna, he spawns into the domain again and walks around the familiar place, hesitantly calling out sukuna’s name to confirm he’s really there. “sukuna…?”

“…kozō” he hears in return, fondness in the tone, and when he looks up at where he remembers the throne to be he sees a face so similar to his staring down at him with a smile, a hand immediately reaching out to slick the pink hair back. after everything they went through there’s no reason to keep dancing around it – they belong to each other.

#cue yuuji starting to cry because his kuna is back #maybe he can keep the arms and mouths but i need yuujikuna back sorry T_T #they bask in the comfort for a while sukuna sitting on his throne with yuuji on his lap and when they hold hands yuuji obviously goes #“hm i almost forgot what having two pinkies was like” and sukuna sighs “stop being dramatic you have three more now” #sukuna kissing every scar on yuuji’s face and affectionately running his thumb on the ones under his eyes because they’re on there again <3 #would sukuna inherit yuuji’s scars i think the answer is no bc he didn’t have them before but i like to think that he can do whatever he #wants. bc people thought he used yuuji’s face just to spite him which is so diabolical of him hehe #or maybe at first he was forced to wear yuuji’s face and couldn’t restore his true self because he was only a few fingers #and if he comes back and yuuji welcomes his presence instead of resisting it/restraining him then he’s free to look as he pleases #i could talk about this all day it’s so fascinating to me #and the fact that gege changes sukuna’s tattoos mask etc all the time does nawt help but it’s fun #my post

[sleestakkk]

there is something so devastating to me about the post leading up to round six where ivan is reaching towards till’s neck while till is facing the opposite direction paired with how in round 6 ivan now has his hands wrapped around till’s neck and till is STILL not looking at him

#i just rewatched the video and cried again #so i’m in a mood #god THE NECK #GUYS PLEASE TELL ME YOU’RE THINKING ABOUT THE NECK‼️‼️‼️ #anyway something something all of the art centered around ivan looking at reaching towards or touching till’s neck #something something him pretending to chock till in round 6 something something #←the insane ramblings of a mad man #they have me in a choke hold (←haha…. (distant sobbing)) #alien stage #alien stage till #alien stage ivan #alien stage round 6 #round 6 #alnst

[flowercrowngods]

i need someone (steve) to take one look at mike wheeler after being told that this kid readily walked off the quarry at twelve years old, and see past his walls and his bullshit and see the kindness and bravery that lies beneath the trauma and depression (and puberty). i need someone to take one look at him and see that he’s not doing fine at all — and hasn’t for a while.

#i have this thing in my drafts where steve finds mike at the quarry after dustin told him mike essentially jumped down there #and all steve hears is ‘my friend was ready to die at 12 tears old’ #‘my friend was deeply depressed before trauma even got to take a hold of him’ #and steve thinking years ago ‘when i first liked a boy i came here too. thought about jumping’ #and mike just. looking at steve and suddenly falling apart because yes sure he did it for dustin but he also just. wanted to. #has been wanting to. and then will was gone and people always say bad things happen to boys who like boys and mike has been feeling guilty #back then yes but also ever since. it never stopped. just like his love for will didn’t stop. and asking steve if everything is his fault? #for liking will and then liking el only to fall for will again #and steve hugs him and tells him that he’s going to be okay and that the world ending isn’t mikes fault at all. #and that if he ever thinks about jumping again?? he needs to tell steve and they’ll find a way out. #idk it’s like. very heavy to think about but please i need. i need more steve and mike bonding #and this has probably been done before bc it’s been years but yeah. uh. #internalised homophobia internalised biphobia and impressionable kids who think all the wrongs of the world are their fault #yknow yknow the usual

[dirtytransmasc]

CW - mind-blowing lack of critical thinking skills, spider slander, etc.

what in the HOT HELL is this (blurring out the user cause I'm not here to start drama)

Bored??? the poor thing looks emotionally damaged.

he finally got rescued by the people who abandoned him for months, who he was willing to be tortured and die for, and he had to watch his brother die because of it. not only did he die, but he died in front of him, for him. spider and Lo'ak were the ones holding him up as he bled out (we can't see from the angle, but he also probably held pressure on the exit wound).

he saved his dad (which I won't be discussing why I don't blame him for that, cause I don't care enough) who cared for him more in a couple of months then the Sully's did for him in 16 years. he has no idea what he's supposed to do, what's expected of him. he feels out of place in what should be his family. he's never been included in family life with them and now he's at the funeral of his brother. the women who almost killed him literally 5 feet away.

he looks like he's dissociating, numb, cause I don't know, he's a kid who just want through a shit ton of traumatizing events back to back. he looks hesitant because he knows one wrong move, one ounce of perceived disrespect could get him killed.

he looks like a traumatized 16 years old reacting to his brothers death. cut him some slack. there is so much going through his head, he's just floating through the motions.

if you think he's being disrespectful, check yourself, cause that's genuinely terrifying.

#spider haters are something else #like this is embarrassing #'bored'? #please get a life #he looks like hes 5 seconds away from having a breakdown #he looks like hes trying to hold it all back cause he feels like it isnt his place to mourn #hes showing every display if emotional trauma. neglect. and mental shutdown in the book and you think he looks 'bored' #if you truly think that #please never interact with a single greiving/traumatized person ever again #cause I havent been through hald the shit he has and thats still what I look like when I grieve #disbelief. numb. somewhere else. #thats just how some people cope #dear god #I have little hope for people some times #avatar spider socorro #miles spider socorro #miles socorro #spider socorro #avatar spider #spider avatar #avatar 2 spoilers #avatar 2 #avatar the way of water #he'd be acting like this regardless of neteyams death #he literally went through SO much trauma #so of course he looks like absolute shit at HIS BROTHERS FUNERAL #its the nail in the coffin for his mental health

[two-bats]

redraw of a redraw :) wanted to see how far i’ve come and i’m pretty happy with where i’m at (previous redraw) (also here’s speedpaint because doing those are fun!)

[ID: a digital screenshot redraw of Eddsworld The End Part 2. tord, a white man with light brown hair, is in the foreground. he’s only visible from the waist up to the bottoms of his eyes. he’s injured and covered in blood his hand hovers over his injured arm. in the background are two soldiers, patryk and paul. they’re both also white with darker brown hair. paul has a bandage over one eye, but they wear nearly identical uniforms consisting of a blue coat, red sweater, and dark pants and boots. they stare in shock at tord, patryk with his hand covering his mouth and paul with his hand on his chest. the sky is orange, indicating sunset. End ID.]

#eddsworld #ew tord #ew patryck #ew patryk #ew paul #i'm queuing this at the same time as my last art post so yet again if there's anything not quite right about my description please #let me know so i can make it better!! this is my second time describing my own art #bats arts #been holding onto this one for. a while. #started this piece back in fuckin december and finished it in january i think #sorry no finished it in march

[hella1975]

you ever have a fic get you in such a chokehold you start pacing your room and talking to yourself

#THIS FIC WAS WRITTEN FOR ME SPECIFICALLY #BURN IT ALL DOWN BY DOROTHYCANFLY ON AO3 THIS IS GENUINELY ONE OF MY TOP 5 FICS OF ALL TIME EVER #IT'S GOT THE BEST DABI CHARACTERISATION IVE EVER COME ACROSS IT'S GOT REALLY WELL WRITTEN DABIHAWKS #THAT FITS BOTH OF THEM LIKE THEY'RE MEAN AS HELL ABOUT IT AT FIRST #IT'S GOT STUPIDLY DEVOTED TOUYA-SHOUTO IT'S GOT PROTECTIVE BIG BROTHER TOUYA #IT'S GOT MENTAL ANGST WRITTEN LIKE A DREAM THE WRITING IN GENERAL IS INSANE #IT'S ACTION PACKED BUT DONE WELL SO THAT IT'S NOT TEDIOUS IT'S FUNNY IT'S GOT TWISTS #IT'S KEEPING ME ON MY TOES I NEVER KNOW WHAT'S COMING OR HOW FAR THE AUTHOR IS WILLING TO GO #IVE LITERALLY READ 300K WORDS IN TWO DAYS AT THIS POINT LIKE I AM ABSOLUTELY FINISHING THIS TONIGHT #WHAT THE FUCK EVEN AM I GONNA DO WITH MYSELF AFTER THIS #EVERY NEW THING THAT HAPPENS LITERALLY HAS ME GETTING UP TO PACE ABOUT #I CLOCKED OUT OF MY MUM TELLING ME OFF EARLIER BC I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS FIC #DO U KNOW HOW DANGEROUS THAT IS BASO JUST SIGNED MY DEATH WARRANT BUT I DIDNT CARE #losing my goddamn mind respectfully <3 if anyone has read this pls yell with me about it #and if anyone knows mha and wants a fic rec PLEASE let it be this one it's my fav mha fic ever and ive read A LOT #it gets quite smutty in the middle but if that's not ur thing the author tws very well and u can kinda just scroll #so that u still get the important character developments without it being just pure smut lol #god this FIC. holding it in my fucking fist and squeezing the everloving life out of it im going INSANE #i cant remember the last time a fic got me this way im literally giggling about it all #HE FOUND A REASON TO LIVE AGAIN THEY TOOK THIS MANGLED BLOODY BOY AND SAID WE LOVE YOU #YOU ARE GOOD YOU CAN STAY YOU CAN REST NOW WE'LL TAKE CARE OF YOU AND HE CHOSE THEM! HE CHOSE THEM! #OVER HIS REVENGE AND HIS RAGE HE CHOSE THEM! IM GOING TO BE VIOLENTLY SICK #like the author LETS DABI BE A CUNT. the first chunk of the fic he's actively not a good person #and his coping mechanisms are shot to shit and we WATCH HIM GROW FROM THAT i have cried several times over the most mundane shit #goddddddddDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDAKSJFJKAGSFIUAHGJKAKG #mha #fic rec

[kastheoryenthusiast]

its that time of the fucking month again call me steve harrington at the end of chapter 15 of this fic because i am screaming and sobbing uncontrollably i am going absolutely Off The Rails and need to be sedated effective immediately : https://archiveofourown.org/works/49226149?view_full_work=true @bigskyandthecoldgun you absolute sick fuck. this fic absolutely destroyed me and i dont think i could look at seafoam green the same way ever again but in all seriousness this fic is genuinely like. so so so beautifully written. you wrote and adapted their characters so well this is like peak steddie to me and it changed me in a fundamental way i dont think i can ever recover from something like this and i need this fic to be in my hands right now. im gonna tape it to my wall. and then cry about it or something please read this. whoever reads this post i need you to click the link. if i suffered through this amazingly written masterpiece of literature im gonna make everyone suffer through it as well ill probably edit this when im more coherent and when my brain actually starts to work again cause right now its on overdrive and like about to explode for the 15th time but please read this i beg of you

#steddie #steddie fic #eddie munson #steve harrington #stranger things #holding them gently in my hand #this fic killed me and id let it do it again #fic review (i have you held at gunpoint to read it) #because i think this needs a tag cause i might do lots of these now #i cant stop reading about the blorbos #if you do have recommendations though please send ill take anything