#this ending is so meaningful honestly

[kan-be]

everyday is a fruk day here but today is especially so 🥳

#I'm just gonna pretend I live on the other end of the world and it's still April 8th here #im so bad with deadlines omfg #anyways I like to think Arthur is telling Francis how disgustingly incompetent this new New York Times bestseller is written #which he took to read just to give young talents a chance for once (with worst expectations ofc) #i wanted to do something big and mEaNiNgFuL yk but honestly? the only thing that means to me rn is spring #please its SNOWING and was -12C yesterday can we please switch seasons finally #hetalia #hws #fruk #aph england #aph france #entente cordiale

[deramin2]

Me, leaning on a wall drinking a CBD kombucha in sunglasses on a cloudy day, having lived through Critical Role episodes C1 E68, C1 E85, C1 E102, C2 E26, C2 E140, C3 E3, C3 E33, and C3 E91 live:

"Hey, you know what the funniest fucking outcome to this horrible death would be? Or the most heart rending tragedy possible that makes Macbeth feel like a happy ending? Here let me post through the very real and intense grief I'm feeling with memes."

#If you're really going through it with sadness that is a totally valid feeling right now #honestly probably healthier than distancing through shitposting #this is just where I'm personally at after being so moved by these stories so much in the end #I love my blorbos so much and I'd love an ending where they survive and thrive #but I'm also a certified tragedy enjoyer and also live a meaningful death #or a meaningful resurrection #critical role #critical role spoilers #critical role memes #Critical Role campaign 1 #Critical Role campaign 2 #critical role campaign 3 #Vox Machina #Mighty Nein #Bell's Hells #Percival de Rolo #Scanlan Shorthalt #Vax'ildan #Mollymauk Tealeaf #Lucien Tavelle #Bertrand Bell #Fresh Cut Grass #l

[a-really-bad-decision]

The fallout show isn’t NOT anticapitalist, but it’s anticapitalist in that way that a lot of recent media goes for, where it makes vague gestures towards ideas like ‘There Is Wealth Inequality, Perhaps’, or ‘maybe a few dozen people having more money than god Isn’t A Good Thing, Actually’. But ultimately it kinda just tiptoes around commenting on anything systemic by offloading the blame onto its shadowy cabal of the ultra-rich, and turning the wastelander underclass into a constant running joke that the audience is expected to laugh along at. Which like. Fine. That’s honestly more than I was expecting I guess. But bad-appling fallout feels like missing the point extra hard, given how much it absolves the US of its role in everything, up to and including literal nuclear armageddon

#fallout #fallout prime #fallout prime critical #and that’s not even touching on the weird tonal dissonance? #like. you can’t make any meaningful commentary about classism in your setting if you’re gonna turn right and around and start jeering #‘look at these stupid ignorant fucks. Isn’t it funny how stupid and ugly and mean they all are?’ #‘It’s probably because they’re so poor and dirty and starving’ #‘And it’s fine when the protagonist of the moment guns them down cause they’re just crazy raiders!’ #you understand why those two messages can’t coexist comfortably right? #anyways I finished the fallout show and honestly? my many many may complaints aside? it wasn’t awful #it very much didnt know what it wanted to be or say #but it was fun enough #I felt appropriately pandered to in parts #and it was clearly very lovingly crafted by the people who made it #overall it would have served much better as a non-canon addition to the franchise #but at the end of the day bethesda can knock over all the sandcastles it likes #doesn’t mean I’m gonna start taking their canon seriously #also moldaver can **** me **** in the ***** ******** *** ***** #who said that

[thedanceronthestreets]

I genuinely don't think straight people can even begin to grasp how upsetting the homophobia in the ted lasso fandom is starting to become. It's coming from all sides: casual viewers i speak to in real life who laugh in my face when i mention the possibility of any of the main characters being queer ("there's more than enough gay stuff with colin being there", "you're making the keeley stuff up she's obviously straight cause she's with roy"), people on the internet saying "who even is this colin guy?" after him being on the show for 3 seasons or "baz doesn't need to be gay as well, stop making everybody gay". And this is about the show that's all about be true to yourself! Be curious not judgemental! Be kind! This show managed to curate that kind of audience. It all just feels so fucking impossible sometimes.

#i honestly think ted lasso is gonna fail the vito russo test #cause the potential queer characters they seem to have set up for a queer storyline (excluding keeley cause she'll end up with roy/jamie) #are all minor side characters #and people will be able to skip their isolated 2 minute scenes and just watch the rest of the show uninterrupted #and if the shwo does pass the test then the situation in the fandom is gonna get really fucking nasty #which is fine cause queer people are used to that #i know i say this with ⅔ of the season still ahead of us but then again that means i've seen 7/9 of the whole show #and i don't seem the earnestly turning this thing around in a meaningful way #and as i said even if they do against all odds then the fandom will turn into fight club #meaning queer fans are gonna be the target of hate either way #ted lasso spoilers #just realised how many typos there are in the tags so please ignore that i was Ranting <3

[unboundpower]

❝ Seeing more and more people actually think that dating isn't meant to last, it "only ever ends in marriage or just ends", makes me pretty thankful Vegito isn't ignorant like that. ❞

#amita // ❦ ic ❦ #/ bruh 💀 i honestly hate how some ppl deadass think \ #/ marriage is some magical; meaningful thing when in reality \ #/ theres nothing inherently different between a married couple & an unmarried one \ #/ like. getting married doesnt just suddenly transform you into something else. you're still the same person you have been \ #/ & the relationship is still the same; you're just legally bound to your partner now lol \ #/ some ppl can & have had relationships that last far longer than many married couples'. and they never end up marrying. so??? \ #/ sorry for the tag rambling but man. this kind of mindset is just. so ridiculous \

[aeide-thea]

i've been trying 2 think how 2 phrase this post bc like. audioboooks are great both for people who can only take in books that way AND for people in situations where they need their eyes and/or hands for something else, and i absolutely don't want to knock them (not to mention that like. a really compelling audiobook reader brings their own charisma and tonal palette to the project and elevates it)

but also i've been listening to lotr in one (1) ear as i bike (bc like. i do think it's an important safety consideration to have one ear available to alert me to passing traffic etc) and like. frodo and sam and pippin JUST made it to buckland. this is literally hours of bicycling time we're talking about at this point. if i'd been gulping down the text with my eyeballs i could have finished the book if not the whole trilogy by now!

#like genuinely no shade to audiobooks‚ they are providing me with Book in situations where No Book Ever Booked Before #but you really are stuck with the narrator's pace in a way that's like. by comparison with eyeball reading this is water torture #anyway you really do i think just have to embrace that it is in fact a slightly different art form. and like. that's great! i love that! #but like. idk. literally i saw a post recently that was like. about Writing 4 Audio Performance #and it made what i thought were very correct points abt like. the order in which it's good to lay things out for hearers #but it's like. literally this is simplifying writing. like the kind of writing that i do and love is honestly quite hard to keep in yr head #bc it really requires you to stack a lot of complexity and like. keep it unresolved for a hot sec and then sew it together at the end #and like. that's terrible in an out-loud context! #so like. idk. i think text is great and i think audiobooks are great #and i think the weird pressure to like. not acknowledge they're different in any meaningful ways is. bad actually. #anyway this has kind of snowballed into more of a Position Post than i'd meant to be making #i just think it's funny that the hobbits have made. so fucking little progress. snail baggins = snaggins. #bookblogging #journaling

[theduchessofnaxos]

This paper is actually going quite well.

Too bad it's complete bullshit.

#I'm not lying #but I'm definitely not being brutally honest about the historiography here #look the first few works are technically all social histories but there's a qualitative difference from the later ones #and the politics is still important enough that I should get to call them political histories #Also frankly I don't care #I just need to finish the damn paper by midnight and then I will be free of this fucking course #I have never in my LIFE dreaded going to class before this course #And honestly? It's soul crushing! I have no will to succeed here! #My only motivation is that I liked the rest of the semester and I need to pass this class to continue the program! #the professor asked for an additional evaluation (still anonymous) and I'm torn about how brutal to be #because on the one hand it was an enlightening course and I am definitely better equipped as a historian than I was three months ago. #on the other hand every single one of my classmates had completely given up by the end because no matter what we did it wasn't good enough #and also the professor was just fucking mean a whole bunch. But in that subtle way where you feel crazy for noticing. #so the class was horrible but I don't want him to feel horrible but also maybe he deserves it??? I can't even tell if he's actually a dick #or just acts like one #which is perhaps not a meaningful distinction but if he doesn't mean to I'd feel bad being too harsh #though several incidents make me think he meant to #blegh. It'll all be over by midnight! #And then I can focus on studying for women's history and - joy of joys - writing a syllabus about Victorian fashion and politics #I fucking love historical fashion that's going to be absurdly fun

[coldvampire]

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#plagued by thoughts and emotions. #man lmao I’ve bitched out So many times this week from reaching out to people. idk. it’s been so long that I just feel like I’m #not important enough to justify it. & I did manage a bit w one person but also ended up #retreating there too bc I just got the sense I made it awkward somehow #so yknow. really great stuff on my end hdjfk #idk idk I’m starved for meaningful social interaction I’m starved for literally anyone taking interest in me atp #it’s such a roller coaster I hype myself up > doesn’t work out > crash hard & I don’t like it. it’s exhausting! it’s really fucking sad too #I’m so tired of my own company & talking to myself all the time. I’ve heard everything I have to say already there’s only so much I can do #I don’t even know what else to say lmao I feel like I don’t really exist anymore outside of my own head #I feel like I can’t get anyone to just djjfjf care about anything I have to say no matter what? #I’m not enough my art isn’t enough whatever it was a few years ago isn’t there anymore. #and I want it to be genuine I don’t want it to be out of pity bc all that does is honestly get my hopes up a bit but it can’t/wont last #I say that for everyone’s benefit too like djjfjf I don’t want to be annoying any more than other people want to be annoyed #anyway I’m going to try to shake this off a bit bc I can’t do anything right now #and I’m not even sure I’d be in the right headspace to have a conversation without decompressing first

[firefly-fez]

me at 8:00: yeah guys i can’t come out tonight. yeah got another insomnia flare-up, really need an early night. have fun tho!

me at 1am: how are we, as a society ever going to destigmatise disability if we won’t even let ourselves say the goddamned word. maybe the reason you think disability is an offensive term is because disability itself offends you. and of course it does, because it is offensive. The notion that a disabled person did nothing to deserve their disability and cannot achieve success the same way you can because of it offends the idea that you are successful because of your vitues, not your luck. It offends the pride you have in uour work, your success, your wealth and whether you truly earnt it. Disability is offensive only because the innate humanity of a disabled person offends the very propaganda our extractive capitalist society relies on to—

#disability #disability rights #look idk how this happened i tripped and fell into it honestly #but i ended up in a position of disability advocacy at my church #so 2023 is the year i say ‘disability rights’ boys #BUT IF THEY USE DIFFERENTLY ABLED LANGUAGE KNE MORE FUCKING TIME I SWEAR #i gag every time #were making meaningful progress and theyre hearts are in the right place and genuinely some disabled church members might prefer that langua #disability is not a monolith etc etc #but as someone who spent the majority of my life compensating for my disabilith to reduce all the ways it affected other people #‘differently abled’ language is SUCH A TRIGGER #i dont have to prove why im still valuable in order to deserve community and im not doing that shit no more #also #shitpost #created at 1:49am #like please do not take this too seriously my friends #just one girls rambled thoughts

[vulcanhello]

#these last paragraphs got me but ESPECIALLY the highlighted bits #his most meaningful relationships being his friends and his sister all of who he outlived all of who he initially struggled to truly connect #with. it makes me very sad honestly #i havent seen star trek 2009 in a very long time so i didnt remember this #but at the end spock was talking about how hard he had been working for romulan/vulcan unification and when it all got destroyed his last #mission with the red matter thing to save romulus was basically a suicide mission #it just makes me really sad #and while it makes sense and hes obviously at peace with death but still :( especially when whatever shit happens in aos happens #this guy gets instantly teleported to a universe where everything is WORSE #and i mean that in the romulan issue sense and in the hating jja sense #okay anyways. go read this for instant insanity #captain’s log #trek books #tos #dsc

[mimdecisive]

honestly I think almost everyone has moved on from SPOP at this point in their life and tbh good for them.

#any blogs I followed are long abandoned #I’ve stuck around bc I’m autistic enough and also because I have seniority in this fandom #at the end of the day I think spop served it’s purpose but honestly I don’t think it really has a lot of rewatch value #there isn’t enough competent storytelling for it #there are some people who still cling to it like it’s some work of art #but really the only thing it did that was in anyway meaningful was have 2 girls kiss #like there is so many things they do inadequately plot wise. it’s just not done very well

[emmamountebanks]

ik siobhan, miles, and zach are kinda eating up the quarry but they also get decent screentime (if u keep jacob alive at least)

but i just want halston, ariel, skyler, and evan to sign on for just a few more scenes, and give us more of them. i bet u so much more was planned for them but covid got it cut. and i want them to know how many people adore their characters and wish there was more of them focused in the late game story. and to come back and give us what we deserve

#the quarry #honestly too even fucking brenda song like. kaitlyn gets good screentime sure but her playtime is only really at the end? at least in terms #of meaningful scenes #but we know emma abi max and nick get dick all for story-related screentime #even jacob too tbh hes kinda just running around all over the place half the time #but if we could get like a jacob/nick reunion in the woods? maybe emma and abi find them? #maybe max too if we can get him back to the lodge? #like god just #FUCK i need more i feel so unsatisfied and the 'covid cut a lot of stuff' is eating me alive

[multicarinata]

they literally sent him to a farm upstate 👍

#feeling honestly completely normal there were No other options but they didn't do anything really fun within that framework :-/ #bit disappointing given the iron grip s1 had on my cock or. hm I guess I'm the kind of person 2 use that metaphor now? but no television #could EVER come close to that so likeee it was still pretty good. season all about exhaustion and regret and not getting things #felt as if the finale could have been about twice as good by being 15 minutes longer b/c the abruptness caused certain meaningful parallels #to be unexplored. but for the themes of getting written out of your own story that's fine! it was Fine it was not outstanding it didn't mak #me do the tails gets trolled face. also what the fuck happened 2 hands did he even find out what happened to blackbeard at ANY point #felt like around ep5 it stopped being about any of the characters and started being only abt putting the cause to sleep because there's no #other way it could end which made it kinda painful given the overarching message of the REST of the show. also didn't love every woman bein #put at the end of their agency but it worked w the concept of having to mold back into the broken world. and I did fall very in love w how #silver's recount of what happened is TOTALLY open to disbelief. guy who is another guy who writes his ending for himself FOR that guy. #who only exists because of a story some guy made abt him / who only exists bcs of the story empire made abt him et Fucking Cetera #gotdamn! awesome show! I love a narrative #showsposting

[pu-butt]

Discussions of nostalgia porn aside if there is anything that can be said about That 90's Show it is that it can be added to the ever growing list of shows that should have had 20+ episode seasons like it would have had in ye olden days because you simply cannot realistically sell any sort of character development or relationship development in ten 22-minute episodes and it is such a loss that networks and streaming services keep forcing creators to try to do so anyway

#that 90's show #truly devastating to the quality of shows #and so so so noticeable in this one #i truly liked the vibes of it so much #but there was too little time to sell me on leia/jay #and definitely too little time to make leia/nate make any fucking sense #the only relationship that was developed even the slightest bit was leia and gwen #and that is why their friendship is a million times more meaningful than leias romantic love interests #and obviously leia and gwen should end up together #like genuinely even putting aside the lack of development on those other relationships #leia and gwen had the best chemistry from episode 1 #and honestly at this point i wonder if the writers knew that and both jay and nate are decoys #or if they truly believe that one (1) decent conversation per boy doth maketh a compelling love triangle #honestly i am rooting for a second season because i did laugh out loud multiple times which is rare for me #but god they better get more episodes #and they better get on the leia/gwen train

[readymades2002]

i wish i had a way to talk through things with another person but the only people i see in real life i live with and every time i have actually opened up about how i’m feeling it has gone incredibly badly, in part because i’ve isolated myself so far from human beings that i don’t think i’m able to feel or express things in a human way. so i’ve stopped trying to do it.

#i've discussed my art with my mom more recently but in the vaguest terms because i'm always ashamed of how shit it is #and that it is of course usually some embarrassing media thing and she tries to show interest but i can't be honest about it #when i get passionate about things...when i've done it before i look up at the other person while im talking #and i can see them slipping out of my reach and its like being untethered in space so i dont anymore #that or i actually communicate my needs or what is hurting me honestly and then have it used against me or someone else #i talk to people but it is all this like. meaningless chatter that makes me grit my teeth how much its just a courtesy #i cannot relate to human beings with jobs and lives and experiences and friends and skills and so i'm alone here #and i end up crying on here every few hours because disconnecting would be a death sentence but keeping it all inside of me #would fucking kill me and it just. im not reliable enough or warm enough or brave enough to even message people one on one #in a way that means im a meaningful part of anyone's life so its just. yelling in the post editor i go and pretend it helps #i dont want to word it but it is really really deeply terrifying to me how bad its gotten. i really can't imagine a way out of this #i don't think anyone i live with does it maliciously but it feels like i'm being handled like an irritating animal all the time #not like a person. not like an adult. #i dont know. i feel like i have interesting insights into the world and the things i like. i feel like theres so much beauty #i want to show other people to try and express my love because i can't do it in words or gestures #and i feel like it could be so beautiful if i was just understood. if i could just be #i have to stop talking about this now im sorry

[lonewolflink]

it's been a long time since i looked forward to a caps game this much

these boys just know how to pull me back in...so glad i managed to finish my work before puck drop today. i'm not expecting the boys to pull out a win tonight, exactly, because they've been so up and down all season...but the unpredictability is fun.

has ovi really recaptured his form post all-star break? how good are our baby boys hendrix, mcmikey, and miro, really? what's the ceiling? is charlie lindgren a god in goal, or a mere mortal having a hot spell? how much did max pacioretty believe in this team to DECLINE a trade to the new york rangers for a playoff run? is spencer carbery the best coaching hire this team has made since barry trotz, or is this a one time magic spell he accidentally cast and the clock is ticking? is john walton right? is it ok to believe?

#i want walton to be right #so fucking bad #i don't think they'll make the playoffs in the end #there's just so many other teams in contention and we have the toughest schedule of them all #...but #even if they don't make it #i know they're gonna FIGHT for it #and honestly #watching my team play meaningful games for as long as possible #is a hell of a lot more fun than being out of it #like we were last year #or like the penguins (ew) are right now #i'll take my team any day #keeping things interesting #:) #i love them #i always will #go caps go #also i hope the caps make the playoffs just to spite all the media ignoring them #the amount of journalists talking about buffalo having a chance of making it #when we have games in hand!!!! and more points!!!! than them #is astounding #not to be the most caps fan caps fan #but #I SMELL THE ANTI OVI BIAS ALL THE WAY OVER HERE #you'd best believe if the roles were reversed between the caps and pens rn #hockey media would be slobbering all over crosby like he was the second coming of christ #“what a leader” #“never quits as long as there's even a slim chance” #when it's ovi and the caps?