#this is old af so I do not remember the context at all

[marinatedsaltea]

Oh lord he coming

#transformers #transformers animated #tfa #tfa doodle #tfa memes #tfa shockwave #tf shockwave #this is old af so I do not remember the context at all #might delete later

[ghostsvacuumcleaner]

Salvatore | 2.8k

ao3 | masterlist ✦ Pairing: DI!Leon Kennedy x younger f! reader ✦ Summary: Leon's on a working trip and it has been taking much longer than it should. As he doesn't like to spend much time away from you, he texts you daily, and since you miss him so deeply, you decide to videocall him. ✦ TW: NSFW, !MINORS DNI!, smut, porn with bit of context, explicit, f!reader, little to none f! physical appearence descriptions, masturbation, fingering, age gap mentions, daddy ass Leon

A/N: I have nothing to say in my defense, but that this might have two parts. Cause Leon's flying back home and dunno, you're still horny af, plus I wasn't sure of how to correctly incorporate the song to the post buttt I think Salvatore is my top 1 Leon song. So!

A disgrace of a man he had become ever since he met you, fell under your spell. Leon wasn’t used to staying away from you for this long — the trip was taking longer than expected. A week ago he had flown to Washington for the meeting of annual reports on DSO’s damage control. This type of trip did not usually take more than one or two days, and he had assured you that he would be back by the weekend. He had promised, you made plans and he usually did not breach the promises he made to you; he didn't like to fluster you. You were too good to him, he’d always tell you that. Too good, so good. You wouldn’t complain about his absence, you knew he was a busy man, a well-trained and well-requested agent — your much older boyfriend.

Every time that word danced on your red beautiful lips, he swore to feel a punch in the lower portion of his belly. Was he not too old to be dating in the most vivid sense of the word? To have a girl as young, beautiful, lively as you call someone like him a boyfriend? You liked to say, to recite; it made you delighted to watch the reactions, no: the age difference was never a problem for you.

It was a problem to him in the beginning. Leon resisted; he tried to resist you for longer than he could remember. Weeks maybe. He felt defeated, weak for giving up, but how could he not? When your eyes would met his with that devilish expression, all his control fell to the ground — he was yours.

The room door opened, and he made his way in. It was a spacious room, at least; a quality hotel. You would love that place, he thought. The luxurious furniture, the soft linen and the numerous pillows – the privileged view of the White House. He opened a corner smile as he thought of your reaction if you were there. You were one expensive little thing; before anything else, he took his phone out of his pocket and took a picture out of the window. He sent to your contact, affectionately saved by yourself as bae. 

Your status immediately changed to “online” when your phone rang and you noticed it was his text you were receiving. On the other side of the country, you opened up a foolish little smile lying on your bed. “Like it, doll?” his text said, and your smile grew wide.

You rolled down lying on your belly, and typed your answer.

“Don’t do that to me... I’d sell a kidney to be there with you right now.” you typed, and opened a smile knowing that you had ripped out a sincere laugh from him with your little hyperbole.

Leon laughed briefly. Your mood was indeed extremely funny to him, jokes that sometimes you would have to explain after doing, since the difference between generations was a barrier to the two of you at least in that matter. 

The agent left his already half tired body fall on the armchair that lay in front of the bed, large enough for at least three of him. The blue blazer that decorated his body was quickly thrown aside and he dropped down a few buttons of the white social shirt that came down below, the first portions of his now visible defined chest decorated by the blonde hair that grew around there. As he stretched out to the stand table — a small bar with a few varieties of whisky — and started pouring himself a good cup of Bourbon, his phone rang again. 

After the first drop came down burning through his throat, he opened the latest message you had sent. “Can I call you?”, it was asking.

He licked his lips tasting the taste of alcohol in his mouth, and pressed the FaceTime video call button. It took no more than three seconds for you to respond. 

His eyes were fixed on the screen of his phone. God in fucking heaven, it was a torture to see you like that, he thought. A torture. You were lying on your bed, overlooked; your hair was slightly messy, your pyjamas fell perfectly on your curves, the delicate silk fabric outlined your body like a sculpture drawn particularly to fuck his mind. He opened a smile when he saw the view of you, the lower of his belly kicking in just again. Seeing you like that, laying ever so beautiful, your body so exposed, in a situation like the one he was in right now: unable of touching, unable of even seeing you straight. That was somewhat torture.

“How are you, babe? You look tired.” You asked, resting your face on your hand, a small smile decorating your lips. Leon drank another long sip of his whisky. 

“It’s nothing, doll. This hell of a meeting, is all...” he murmured, crossing his legs and mindfully staring at you behind the screen. “I’m sorry, I won’t make it to the weekend.”

“Oh no...” You shuddered back, your look becoming frustrated in a matter of seconds. “Why are they holding you, did something happen?” You asked furrowing your eyebrows; it was your habit to ask, even if you knew he’d never give an answer.

“You know I can’t talk to you about that, darling...” He murmured, with a slightly defeated smile on his face, and continued, “I’ll be there Sunday night. I promised.” 

You sigh,frustrated and defeated sigh, but agreed. As always, how good you were to him. The silence only lasted for a few seconds before he spoke again in a calm and quiet tone.

“Are you mad at me?”

“I can’t be mad at you. It’s not even your fault...” You argued, shrugging your shoulders quickly, and your eyes focused for a few seconds on the open part of his shirt – a silent invitation. 

“You’re so good to me. I’ll compensate you, I promise.” he said in that soft spoken, deep voice.

He knew exactly what he was doing. He knew exactly what he did to you, how he would put you in your place, how it would make you squirm in want and lust and call for him in your dreams whenever he was that far from you. 

There, dropped in that chair, Leon held the cell phone at the height of his knee, his eyes looking down to where his eyes found him behind the screen; he rested one hand on his face, in the encounter of his jaw with his neck. 

You could follow the well-defined drawings of his chest through the little exposed skin by the already undone buttons, his biceps that seeming to ask to explode out through all that fabric. Your eyes went down through his chest to the path of heaven that made the encounter between his belly and his crotch. You bite your own tongue. If you closed your eyes now, you could perfectly imagine how you would make him twist in your mouth. What a mess.

“You can compensate me now.” you said, after licking your lips. How could you taste the alcohol of his mouth on yours, if the two of you were more than kilometers away? How could he fuck up your head to make himself printed on you like that? 

“How would I do that, babe? Can’t eat you out through the phone.” he smirked, a little smile spreading across his lips noticing your eagerness for him. You were such a fucking fool - couldn’t hide a single feeling, damn.

You slowly flashed, and then got up a little bit by placing your phone in front of your pillow so that you could film yourself without using your hands. Leon raised his eyebrows in surprise when you slowly took your hand through the soft skin of your belly now exposed through the tiny shirt you wore, and began to raise it, gently, almost so slowly that you could now feel his excitement emanating from his look; his eyes burning, his stomach twirling inside in desire. It didn’t take you much to get him on the edge as you so knew from the plenty of times he couldn’t wait for the two of you to get home before fucking the brains out of you against the first car, table or wall he’d see.

“Can’t you? You seem like you are right now.” You smirked, and your hand went further up, beneath the thin fabric of your shirt. You palmed your breast and he could see the shape of your flesh changing as you tightened, more, stronger. Leon stretched his fists, almost able to feel the warm skin of your breasts against him; he could almost feel himself tracing kisses through your neck, bites, leaving marks that you would spend makeup trying to erase. Cupping your breast with his perfect-sized hand, suckling, making you squirm under him.

“Doll,” he said in a slightly alarmed tone. “Don’t do that to me. Don’t torture me like this.” He whispered, his blue eyes like the sea attached to the screen, to you. 

To your body, that he knew: belonged to him. You made that clearer when you started to climb the shirt even further, until you finally crossed it through your neck and threw it to the side. He couldn’t see your face anymore, only your body – you soft breasts, the inviting skin of your belly, the curves that formed your waist, those delicious hips, devilish thighs. You started becoming more and more drenched the more you showed more of yourself to him.

“Please... I need you so fucking much.” you pleaded, your voice muffled by the sounds of your panting.

You liked the obscene look he played at you when he saw you that way. One of your hands continued to massage one of your breasts, your nipples began to express the intensity of your own desire as punctual as they could be; you felt shrinking whole when your free hand began to descend through the lines that surrounded your uterus to the lower belly, inside the tiny, thin short you dared to call a pyjama. 

“You’ll kill me.” He replied licking his lips, his hand reached the remaining buttons of his shirt and he opened it completely. You could see by the emerging volume in his pants that you were not the only one burning in desire right now. Leon grabbed the volume of the bulge in his pants with one hand, in a frustrated attempt to ease the tension; the movement caused his breath to shrink for a moment and he released a low, needy moan. 

“Spread them for me, babe let me see you.” he told you, and you took it in.

You slowly sat on the bed, spreading up your legs as he had asked you, supporting your feet by the bed on the sides of the phone, completely exposed; the fabric of your shorts, alone, was not able to prevent Leon from seeing the perfect curves of your folds, the small well that formed in the fabric in your cunt. He opened up an almost demonic smile. You were not wearing panties.

“Oh, fuck, babe...” He moaned, his hands beginning to shake off the belt of his social pants. “Move it aside for me...” he asked, almost in a flustered sigh, as he let the belt fall freely on the sides of his body and unbuttoned the zipper of his pants with some hurry. At the moment he finally relaxed and released a desperate breath, you could see the perfect format of his cock ever so big, stretching the fabric of his white boxers. You felt your mouth salivate instinctively, and held back a moan of excitement. With one of your arms, you supported your elbow behind you, bending your body back and with your free hand, you pulled aside the central part of your shorts, exposing to him your needy, wet pussy. Your fingers traced a way through your folds to the core of your pleasure - your throbbing and twitching clit. 

Your face flushed in redness as you let your head fall back, but quickly bringing it back to staring at your phone where you could already see Leon’s hard cock twitching through the camera; in addition to your excruciating and burning desire, you could see the entire length, could picture yourself swallowing every inch of his right now. 

“See how you get me? You little evil thing… Play yourself to me, come on, do your

show…” He growled in a hoarse voice, slowly spitting at the glistening tip of his member, reddened by the need and the blood pulsating, his skin burning. “I’d go to that airport and advance my flight just to fuck you, god…” he continued, while his hand rushed from the tip to the base of his cock, spreading his spit through the length and starting to pump in slow alluring movements.

You couldn’t hold yourself from moaning near that man, you could barely hold your breath - your movements became instinctive when you were with him. Whenever he’d be behind you in the kitchen, mornings after a good night out - he’d call himself an oldie and complain about being tired, and the second next proceed to pin you against the counter and eat you up from behind. Just the thought of his tongue against you made you squirm on your own hand, circling movements starting by your index and middle fingers against your sensible clit. 

The muffled moans of his, your panting voice, the little sound he’d make each time his hand ran through his cock - the two of you got lost in the act, you could almost forget there was an entire country between you and him. The way you’d lose it when he started praising you-

“Good… So good to me, come to me, c’mon”, ah. There it was.

Your eyebrows furrowed in pleasure and you instinctively drawn your hand further lower towards your drenched entrance, stretching yourself, feeling the warmth of your walls that so needily called for him. You couldn’t possibly elaborate a single sentence right now, as your head was up in the sky; Leon had taught you to torture yourself. To hold back till you could no more, to try to postpone your orgasm till you felt your own body breaking down, losing conscience. 

He felt himself getting a raw, wild need once he noticed you were in that state he liked to put you in anytime he’d have time to fuck you straight, without a hurry, without the need of being a quickie. Squirming, panting, your body begging you to give in - god. 

His movements started to rush up watching the way your folds glistened through the low lightning of your room, your juices rushing down your thighs, the way you couldn’t watch him without your cheeks looking like burning fire on want and desire. 

His throat closed and he let his head fall back, for a moment, he got uncontrolled and erratic, his movements so strong you could hear a slight hint of pain in his voice, his stomach started flexing and he grabbed on tight to the chair’s arm, your name came out as a growl as he held to the base of his cock, letting out all of his milky seed spread against his chest, that moved constantly and erratically to his heavy breathing. 

Watching him get to his climax was too much for yourself and your personal tactic of torture. As you felt the ravenous feeling of your orgasm start to spread through your thighs, up your belly and down your pussy to the core of your pleasure, you let out, above all things, a soft moan - his name. Your voracious breath got in tune with his, as you bite your lip, your eyes ever so alluring boring into his through the screen, your obscene expression and smile as you pulled your fingers into your mouth and sucked onto them, tasting your own juices, feeling the living proof of your own pleasure.

“You’ll be the death of me.” He muttered, staring into you like a predator while you closed your legs and let out a little content laugh.

-

Leon picked up your call while dragging his baggage through the airport ways to the boarding line. A smile formed across his lips. 

“Little darling, I can’t really talk right now… I’m getting to the boarding line, my flight’s in about thirty minutes.” he argued, to which you just smiled.

“I just called to wish you a good flight, bae, that’s all.” You responded. “I’m waiting for you.”

“No no, don’t do that. Don’t stay awake waiting for me, yeah? I’ll be there soon enough, I promise.” 

“You know that no matter what you say, I’m going to do the exact opposite. Right? Right, Agent?”, you let out a soft laugh.

He sighed, closing his eyes.

“I know.”

#leon kennedy x reader #leon kennedy x f!reader #leon kennedy fanfic #leon kennedy x you #leon kennedy smut #leon s kennedy x reader

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for arguing with someone over ships?

🧀⛵ so i can find this later

Yes, this is ship discourse AITA #294729472 you can scroll away, english isn't my first language, my apologies.

So I (16M (But 13-14 at the time)) am in a very niche fandom. As in, we didn't have any new content for the past 5 years and media is old af (2013), very few fans, most of us know each other already.

I used to have these mutuals Cheese (Not their real name) (around my age i think?? I can't remember) and Breadstick (Not his real name) (18M).

We all had our little ships, ok? I like the little (dumbass golden retriever boy) x (badass traumatized man) ship, Cheese liked the little (badass traumatized man) x (literally the same thing but evil and abusive) and Breadstick liked both ships.

I met Breadstick before meeting Cheese so we were already friends before i met Cheese. I thought "Cool, another person likes this little niche thing i'm hyperfixated on!" So we became mutuals.

I didn't anticipate that we would argue about ships, but oh well. So, i'm a very chill person regarding ships, literally any, although i do have NOTPs, i'm not really toxic about my hatred, i just go "Ah, not my thing" and scroll away not without blocking the person, but really nothing personal and no hard feelings, i can perfectly be friends with someone who loves my notp.

In fact, that was the case with Cheese. They shipped my NOTP, like A LOT. But I was okay with it, i mean these are just characters and all we're doing is being silly. I didn't take this THAT seriously. However, when I seemed to talk about my ship, Cheese seemed uncomfortable in some way.

When I was talking about my fankid (call me cringe idc) of my OTP, Cheese got very confused and asked who was i talking about. Breadstick came in and introduced my fankid to them, since he knew about it before. Cheese just started being rude, literally saying swear words (Not against them but, the context didn't really call for it? No one was being mean or mad), saying, and i quote as best as i can, "I don't know what the fuck made you think i knew who the hell [Fankid] was".

I got very mad about it, so i privately dm'ed Breadstick about Cheese's attitude. We began trash talking about them, which, i admit was a very trashy thing to do and definitely asshole material™.

Reason why may i be the asshole: over time, Breadstick just started complaining a lot about Cheese, and I could honestly agree, it came to the point of us disliking them to some degree but not telling them and not breaking the mutual, that could be considered two faced behavior.

This was partly influenced because of another incident. So Cheese and Breadstick where rambling about an OT3 (3 person ship) they had in common, basically sharing ideas and stuff. I thought it would be fun and went "Hey, I have an OT3 too, maybe i should post about it too". So I went and posted about it, but Cheese felt very uncomfortable with that, since basically my OT3 was exactly like Cheese's OT3 but one character is different, "basically".

They said "You have your thing, let US have ours". Felt bad and honestly, maybe i shouldn't have intruded their ot3 rambling. I didn't expect such negative reaction out of them.

In other occasions they complained about me posting a little too much about my ship, even though they did the same thing with theirs. And they also had a mutual that said "If you ship [this character] you suck and i fucking hate you. [character] is too abusive to be shipped with anyone and you can't just make an AU, that would just change him as a character completely" which, dear god, that language wasn't needed, right?. And despite that crazy person saying that, Cheese agreed with their take, despite literally shipping the character in question with another one. And abusively too, which like you do you, lord knows i do that too, but agreeing with a take like that while doing exactly what it is complaining about is weird. On the other side, that person wasn't my mutual, so it's unrealistic of me to expect Cheese to control their mutuals over me, Cheese can mutual whoever they want, but i can still be weirded out right?

That is without including them telling other people to kill themselves over shipping, so it was clear that Cheese took this shipping thing seriously while me and Breadstick to some degree didn't. Honestly another reason why i might be an asshole, clearly they felt their otp was personal and me not liking it + ignoring it caused a bad environment, mala mía, but what else could i have done?

So, clearly Cheese is kind of an asshole to some degree. But i think what makes ME an asshole too is when I trash talked behind their back and cut them off way later than i should've. And also, i guess i shoved my ship down their throat taking by how mad they were about it? I didn't do it intentionally though and i could definitely say they did the same thing too when 80% of the fandom and character tags was them posting about their ship. Again, small niche fandom for old unpopular media, we are keeping it alive ourselves.

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole #ship discourse #posts that make me crave one of those lil cheese dip breadstick snack packs #which i have not eaten in roughly uhhhh at least a decade and a half #but the taste. you never forget that taste

[mingisdoll]

Ateez and Kirby

This list includes the members as Kirby characters. I totally wasn't inspired by old memories of playing the Kirby games lol anyways. This will include games I played on my old DS and my Switch lol

@newworldnet

Hongjoong - Dyna Blade

In Kirby Super Star Ultra, Dyna Blade is a huge colorful bird that will do anything to protect her children. You can fight her after fighting King Dedede in Spring Breeze. Hongjoong is similar to Dyna Blade since he'd do anything for his fellow bandmates kids. His hair has undergone so many color changes. I don't know how his scalp is holding up lol I'm surprised he hasn't pulled a Sehun yet. Only Yunho lol

Seonghwa - Dark Nebula

Originally, I had him for Dyna Blade since he was told he looked like an angry bird back in the days plus he's more motherly so it would make sense. However, I remember that his name roughly means to be a star and his name backwards means Mars. In relation to this galaxy themed thing we got going on here, I decided to choose Dark Nebula. Dark Nebula is the final boss in Kirby Squeak Squad. He's a huge black star with a single pink eye in the middle who gave Daroach ultimate power towards the end of the game. Seonghwa's long black hair is literally giving me life ever since I saw those Coachella pics and vids so I wouldn't be surprised if he put on pink eye contacts and cosplayed as his own version of Dark Nebula. Sometimes, even the brightest stars can suck you in.

Yunho - Void Termina

Void Termina is the final boss in Kirby Star Allies. I honestly had no context behind this other than the fact that Yunho is tall and big and scary only when he's mad though.

Yeosang - King Dedede

Yeosang literally looks like a fucking prince so it shouldn't be a suprise that he's King Dedede. I still remember that one video where he was able to hammer down a shit ton of nails in mere seconds. Homie is strong af so I'm sure he'll be able to swing around that huge hammer that Dedede has.

San - Marx/Marx Soul

Oof. I remember fighting Marx in Milky Way Wishes. He was this innocent little bean until he revealed his plans to control Pop Star and he turned demonic after that. This is literally San when you plant him on stage. Marx Soul is utterly fucking worse and I remember having major difficulty fighting him. I feel like demon mode San fits perfectly with Marx Soul. His stage presence is insane. Marx insane lol

Mingi - Galacta Knight

This motherfucker has had pink hair and now has white hair so I decided to put him as Galacta Knight. In addition, when I imagine Galacta Knight as a human, I envision a tall man with huge angel wings sticking out his back and the tips touching the floor, the white shield with the huge pink star in the middle roughly being the same size as Captain America's shield, the pink lance being larger than life, and the mask covering his entire face so you only see the sharp wolf eyes through that mask slit. Yeah I envision Mingi being the human version of Galacta Knight. Will he have his short pink hair or long white hair though? It's up to the imagination ig lol

Wooyoung - Kirby

You cannot fucking tell me that this man is the personification of Kirby. He's just a sweet boy with a huge damn mouth. He is softness and cuteness personified. The only difference is that he doesn't inhale everything in his path. He only screams. Maybe he can inhale San's di-

Jongho - Meta Knight

Ngl, I originally thought of Mingi being Meta Knight since he's my ult and Meta Knight is my favorite Kirby character of all time. However, I remember playing Meta Knightmare Ultra and this one scene popped up. Galacta Nova asked Meta Knight what his one wish was and of course, in true lone swordsman fashion, Meta Knight answered that he only wishes to grow stronger. In that Vanity Fair video, Jongho revealed that he was born with power and as he talked, he exuded that damn power. That's when I knew that he was more fit for Meta Knight rather than Mingi. Also, now I'm imagining Jongho as the human version of Meta Knight with his lilac hair and hands gripping Galaxia (the name of Meta Knight's gold sword) with that 49.1 kg strength, and piercing yellow eyes through the mask. In addition, I now want Jongho to dye his hair an indigo color since technically, Meta Knight's Kirby form is indigo colored in the DS version of the Kirby games.

#newworldnet #ateez #ateez imagines #ateez fanfic #kirby

[jeweledstone]

Last few night’s dreams were like an entire fucking anime arc man: a recounting

DATE: JULY 14/15, 2023

Ok, so I’ve been having some weird and intense ass dreams lately that have been kinda-sorta connected in a weird way. Mostly because they all have this fucker as a main antagonist/villain in some way:

Yep

It’s gonna only get more cringe from here folks

Basically, his motivations/schemes were pretty similar to Elias’s shenanigans from back in the day (I haven’t seen him or “Dream” in my dreams for a while now and have assumed they were either captured or killed by the multiverse’s higher ups for their meddling, thank god amirite?).

The whole story behind him and why he’s after me in a nutshell is that he apparently has this one sided crush/obsession with the Peppino from his timeline, but was heartbroken after finding out Pep actually hates his guts the hard way (ie, getting the shit beat outta him in the game’s ending). So instead of, y’know, getting over it and moving on like a normal person, our old “pal” Tontino decided to kidnap someone, use some kinda weird black magic to transform them into Peppino, and basically just hold them hostage for the rest of their days. And UNFORTUNATELY for me, I just so happened to be the “someone” he (seemingly randomly) chose for this plan B of sorts. (Note: I’ve managed to escape his imprisonment several times, but the persistent bastard KEEPS. COMING. BACK. I HATE IT.)

I remember the context for how he got his hands on the weird black magic/curse stuff was that he made this pact of sorts with these ghost/demon creatures from another, fantasy-style verse known as The Dark Ones, who ended up appearing in the second or third dream I had featuring him along with their rivals/good counterparts, The Spirits.

Now, the actual anime arc-type shit started in the 4th PH dream where he was made by the Dark Ones to find some kinda ancient relic called the InfraStone which was supposed to have immense magical power as part of their deal/pact…only for the stone to possess him once he found it.

This incident led to him going mad from the stone’s power and betraying and absorbing the Dark Ones, which only added to his newfound power. The rest of the dream was me kinda-sorta teaming up with The Spirits and some other magic users to stop his rampage and free the Dark Ones from his control.

Now, as if this saga couldn’t get complicated enough, there was a part 2 to this 4th dream.

Part 2 took place several months after the possession incident, since part 1 The Dark Ones and The Spirits have seemingly made peace with each other and I (or at least the self I had control of in that dream) ended up living with the magic people that assisted me and the Spirits in a sorta found family of sorts. At this point, it’s been quite a bit since anyone in the fantasy verse had seen or heard of PH’s shenanigans and he was assumed to have fled from there back to the PT verse.

Nope, not in the slightest. Shit was just getting started.

Turns out PH was busy making what I can only describe as Pizza Tower 2: Electric Boogaloo in order to have his “revenge” against me and maybe try to capture me again. I remember that since the old bosses from the game were still in the PT fictoverse completely unaware of PH’s current whereabouts, the “bosses” in the second Pizza Tower were basically innocent people from the fantasy verse PH kidnapped and transformed/mutated into horrifying amalgamations that had slight resemblances to the original bosses. (I have no fucking idea how he did this since the Dark Ones have revoked there pact with him since the possession incident, for good reasons ngl) When he finally revealed the whole shebang, I remember my first instinct was to nope outta there as fast as I could (something I’m quite good at in my dreams, but could never do irl cause I’m out of shape af) only for him to catch up to me a LOT faster than humanly possible if I’m being honest. Upon being caught, he did the whole turning me into Peppino thing again, saying I wouldn’t be able to be turned back until I faced him in the tower. (Which I was probably gonna have to do anyway to save the other people he cursed and get his ass outta that verse for good.) I think there was also this catch where if I took too long to complete the Tower, the Peppino TF curse would start affecting my mind as well, mentally turning me into him as well as physically, leaving nothing left of me (or at least that version of me) behind, but my brain might’ve just made that up after the fact for the sake of drama/angst.

The dream basically ended there so idk if I succeeded in conquering the tower and freeing everyone trapped in it, but considering PH has barely showed up in my dreams since then, I think I was able to make it.

So yeah, another dream recounted. Hope you enjoyed, might make more drawing stuff of this dream in the future if I feel like it :)

#jewel's dream journal #pseudo tower #neo shut the fuck up #me irl #self insert #pizza tower #pizzahead #peppino spaghetti #my art #body horror #slowly getting used to drawing the pt characters #they honestly look pretty good in my art style :)

[papa-evershed]

Hellooooo! Here’s me crashing into your ask box to wish you a very happy, happy birthday!

I thought I’d ask you if you can remember some specific scenes/moments from a show and/or movie that triggered your “Oh, I need to gif this IMMEDIATELY!” desire.

And please do go ham on your reply, you know very well how much I enjoy them.

Have an amazing day! 🧡

Hey!!! I fucking love you! I don't know how the hell you manage to to do everything you do, but now you've gone and inspired me to start a fandom-friends birthday calendar. 😂😂 I legit admire how you always reach out to people and remember everyone!! But thank you so much for the birthday wishes, it's been a pretty good day so far so I can't complain! 🥰

As for moments I just had to gif?! There's been a fuck ton throughout the years and the men. 😅I'll answer under a cut for length and lets see what all my old lady brain can remember. 👵 I apologize in advance for how long this could potentially get and just how random the gifs probably are. I never feel inspired to gif cool scenes with witty dialogue, I just gif for thirst reasons because I'm a dumpster of a human. ETA: It got really long and didn't even scratch the surface tbh.

For Rob, I'll start with this one. I feel like I post it every time someone asks me about my favorite gifs or moments but listen, that man's god damn belly makes me feral. The context of the scene is also just peak Dad™ for me so it was 10000/10, absolutely had to gif this the second I watched:

This is an interview but you know when you first start checking out a new dude and you see gifs from interviews/shows where they look particularly tasty and you're immediately like I must find this and watch it or else I will perish. That was this interview for me. And how could it not be? Again...BELLY. Hairy belly. Just big, soft, delicious man meat. And thighs. As soon as I found it I had to gif it for myself so I could make it as obnoxiously big as humanly possible.

I watched this zoom live and the moment this motherfucker turned his head my brain said "gif it". Profile? Nose? Greys?

And this shot too. This man was fucking born to smile, he puts his whole ass into it.

This. His arms here. This scene was dark af but I knew I had to gif it anyway. I adore the shape of this man. It feels so fucking real to me. Soft belly, sizeable arms that still look natural. It's realistic, it's comfy, it's fucking sexy. He's just fucking man-shaped.

I don't even have to tell you why because I know you get it.

I'm an American what do you want from me? 🤡 I'm just kidding, it's not because of the gun. 😅IDK if you've watched Downton, but Thomas is just such a fucking capable man. There isn't a task they set him to that he doesn't excel at and I just felt like it was always overlooked and underappreciated by everyone around him. That shot and scene inspired an entire gifset I made about him being a man of many talents.🤓

I can't even explain it, I just knew I needed it. He just looks so man sized. And fuzzy. Just...go off daddy.

You and I both know I'd suck a dick for a good profile shot. The greys, the nose, the man...👀

I can't post all the gifs from this scene/episode so I'll settle for this one. But I knew immediately I'd be giffing it until my fingers hurt (that legit happens y'all, I'm old 👵) Not only did he spend some time in this episode being the soft, caring uncle but he did it in a cozy sweater and it was like they were sure to hit all my weaknesses at once. Soft cozy men? 👀Then they were kind enough to give us the most beautiful close-up shots of his face. And the boy just has a beautiful fucking face.

For old times' sake, I'm gonna include some Jon just for you but to be fair, I liked him for seven damn years so there were a lot. Too many to list or even remember. But here's a few that maybe aren't the obvious shots!

This one. I remember everyone losing their shit over his ass but I was losing my mind over that "soft flash of belly" (really, I was always fangirling the hardest over scenes where Jon looked softer than he really was so we shouldn't be shocked I eventually left for a man with a beer belly 😅)

Speaking of which, this scene too!

And of course, anytime he was covered in blood. I think I actually giffed this exact shot 5 or 6 different times.

And, the obligatory back of his head shot. There are so many here I could post because pretty much anytime I saw the back of Jon's head I immediately needed a gif of it but we'll go with this one, it was probably slept on a little bit.

Alright this is long enough! Bless anyone for reading this long. 😳 But legit, thanks for the fun ask and for the birthday wishes, Stef! 🥰🥰 Your kindness is one of the reasons I will always appreciate having been in Jon's fandom!

#i can't edit this for typos because every time i do tumblr tries to fuck up my read more insert so we all just gonna have to deal #listen you told me I could go ham 😅

[stormblessed95]

Hi stormy!! You once told us that you watched bts contents with your partner and you just implied that two members of the group are may be romantically involved and he somehow guessed the members you're talking about? 😂 I'm not sure if i remember correctly but i remember reading that post intensely and with huge envy 😭 i so relate to that tweet: "my love language is watching bts contents together" i always tried to watch bts with my mom and sister (because I'm single af duh) but they sometimes indulged me but it's quite rare. They just don't like seeing me in hyperfixation mode. I'm also lucky enough to have got one of my friends to watch gcfintokyo with me but she was not that impressed 😌. She has the same reaction when i excitedly rambled to her JK LENT HIS STUDIO FOR JIMIN TO DO HIS BIRTHDAY LIVE, but then i guess maybe because she didn't know jk and jimin like us and why is it significant. So far, she only has watched bts bon voyage with me. Even with her calm reactions, I was so thankful to have at least someone to talk about my favourite boys. Sometimes I'm clearly aware none of them will have the same reactions as me and i know it's not their fault. They just were not interested. So I'm terribly jealous of you 😭 you both are so cute btw and I'm more than interested if you talk about your personal love story. I'm just rambling my immature feelings 😂 sorry if this is annoying and sorry for my english too. Also stormy, if you can, will you suggest some old contents that i should watch? Whenever i have free time to watch bts contents I'm always indecisive. Which concert or shows do you think is a must-watch for army?

I do watch some concerts with my partner! Not all, sometimes when I say I'm waking up at 3 am to watch the BTS concert he looks at me like I'm crazy and is like "okay babe, well I love you. Enjoy. Wear headphones please" 🤣 but if it's a rewatch (like PTD on Disney+ or just older concerts and he is free at the time) he will sit and watch with me and so will our kids. Same if the concert is happening at a more reasonable hour our time. Lol or will we all sometimes watch MVs, or Dance practices or run bts together. Not all the time, but it's nice when it happens!

And yes, lol I don't remember at all now what we were watching when it came up, since it was a long time ago. I hadn't mentioned before anything about shipping at that time, but i remember saying something about how even though shipping is so weird, sometimes it seems like there could be something there between 2 of the members. And he just went "oh yeah, you mean Jungkook and Jimin right?" And I said "why did you say them??" And he just made some off hand comment about how it seems like they act around each other from the little he has seen in ways that make it seem like they love each other the way he loves me. So for him if someone in the band was dating each other, it only made sense (in his head) for that to be jikook. For extra context, he is a Hobi bias, JK bias wrecker. And Jungkook was the first member he noticed and paid attention to in the group too. The hickey sealed the deal for him. He is pretty darn convinced at this point lol

Absolutely watch all of Bon Voyage or Run BTS if you haven't already! As for shows or concerts, you should go back to the beginning and see those if you can too! Their red bullet tour! The live Trilogy tour from 2015 too! Literally pull a concert tour name out of a hat for them and you can't go wrong honestly. LYSY concerts are INCREDIBLE. Any of those would be a really really good watch. 5th muster was EXCELLENT and should definitely be watched in full. I mean like honestly, pick ANYTHING and you'll have a good time! If you need help finding links to anything let me know and I'll try to help!!

[knackfandomarchive]

could i ask for some lucas headcanons bc all of the ones you've posted so far are really cute lmao (he is my son)

Oh Bestie, you sweet-talker, you!

Umm... I'm so sorry; I had already talked about most of these before; I don't have much and only have like 15k words of prose across all my documents. I'm bringing these ideas up again mainly for context and in case some readers haven't seen them yet. This is sort of like an overview for the first segment of my story, and also some brief character analyses of certain scenes. I'm also not sure what would spoil my story or not.

I forgot how English works (and it's my only language).

Also this is depressing AF... I tried to put all the doom and gloom into this first part, so if anyone reading this wants to skip to the part that says, "I avoid giving Lucas any diagnosis..." then be my guest. It's. Half the post, tho.

And I'll post the art separately tomorrow, so people won't have to read the depressing stuff to see it.

With that, I can shakily point to a few foundational scenes I over-analyzed. Especially this one:

Where to start...

As we may recall in the first game, the Doctor complains to Ryder that it was easier to take care of Lucas when he was younger, and, "now he wants to know How and Why and debate everything. It's really quite trying at times."

This just sounds like puberty to me. Dad agreed; the Doctor probably received Lucas at a young, easy-to-please age and got used to that lifestyle. But as Lucas grew older, taking more independence, and forming his own opinions - normal development stuff - this resulted in conflict - the form of which I'm still unsure of.

So, I have Lucas lose his mom around eight years old. It's that vulnerable spot where he's old enough to remember her well, and young enough that he has little in the way of coping mechanisms. And while puberty is right around the corner, it gives the Doctor some time to know him before then.

Another thing to add, my Dad mentioned something Lucas said while reaching for his locket:

We're taking a literal approach to this. Not only is this device the last thing he has left of his mother, it's also the only thing he has left of his old life; all of his belongings had been destroyed or lost. We discussed possible causes, and I prefer something horrible and yet mundane. Not super newsworthy outside of his hometown. A fire, maybe?

Lucas needed a new home. And his father was never mentioned, which could mean anything (I haven't gotten around to that). In any case, they were not in the picture by this time. Next of kin would be Ryder or other family members.

We can recall Ryder in a later scene asking if Lucas wonders why the Doctor takes care of him, rather than Ryder doing so. Ryder explains his own unavailability as being very busy. I take this to mean two-fold: he was the only alternative when it came to raising Lucas, and it wasn't due to his capability to parent. So, if Lucas had other blood relatives, they never stepped up. Naturally, this results in Lucas feeling unwanted.

So many characters I need to get right... Lucas lost his mom, and Ryder lost his sister. Ryder may have thought himself and his life situation too unstable. Like he couldn't afford the responsibility on top of the grief and whatever else he had going on. Lucas stays with him for only as long as it takes to arrange a plan with the Doctor. I think Ryder might have some mental troubles of his own that would make raising a child difficult. But the Doctor isn't much better on that front.

Doctor Vargas seems to have had a lingering emotional wound since Charlotte disappeared, and based on vibes was likely a lonely, somewhat reserved man. But his living situation is the most stable, and he has kept it together for so long. And if he ever imagined having children, this would fill that need. So the arrangement - as my Dad suggested, and as I will have Ryder suggest - is a two birds, one stone kind of deal. The hope is that Doc and Lucas would help each other get better, and not worse.

Lucas is taken to the Doctor's Mansion, where Ryder will say goodbye. I have Ryder keep a stoic demeanor; he's trying to stay strong for Lucas. Even holding his breath to keep it from shuddering when they hug. But Lucas really could have benefitted from a more vulnerable moment with him, instead. Ryder is the one who gives Lucas the locket as a parting gift. Lucas begs him not to go, but Ryder can only say he's sorry.

I don't know the boy's educational situation exactly, but after that, his grades drop, he becomes more withdrawn, and his friends, if he has any, don't know how to help him. What are the chances they're mainly fair-weather friends, who go play with someone else when Lucas starts being a bummer? At least I haven't invented bullies to harass him on top of this. Actually, there's a chance that Lucas would be the bully, but I haven't decided.

Have I mentioned Lucas crying at night? He can just about gloomily keep it together during the day, but at night, when he's alone with his thoughts, he falls apart, and his crying soon wakes up the Doctor. Losing his mother and then feeling abandoned by his uncle and other relatives, it's a major blow to the self-esteem. And when his whole world is turned upside down in one fell swoop, it leaves him with a peculiar feeling.

Here is where I point out the next aspect:

Right here, this could have been the end of Lucas. And the Doctor can only watch him go. If I look at it from a more thematic view, Lucas's loss is so devastating to him that he'll clutch the memory of his mother and what he had before she died, at the expense of living himself.

So we have a semi-suicidal eight-year-old living with an older scientist and anyone else who lives in the same building. Scientists and their families from all over the world! I still don't know how the Doctor is going to take care of him. Lucas when he's older is grateful to the Doctor for taking him in, but doesn't seem to me to think of him as a father figure (but perhaps I just forgot something). And my grasp on the Doctor's character is extremely flimsy, despite him virtually being the protagonist of the first game.

I'm not sure how familiar Lucas is with Doctor Vargas. The boy's mom was a colleague, and Ryder trusts the Doctor a great deal, so at least they're not strangers. But Little Lucas might not have paid much attention to the Doctor. Maybe they played peek-a-boo a time or two. I can imagine a dark-haired toddler running under tables at company picnics or something. Doc might have showed him a couple neat gadgets or gifted him some. I dunno yet. What could be the KNACK-equivalent of a Game Boy?

During Lucas's crying spells, I kind of have the Doctor treat him like he's physically sick. Hold him while he cries, put a hand on his shoulder while he throws up, that sort of thing. Uhh, soup - in a big ol' thermos. Gotta stay hydrated and replenish those electrolytes.

Lucas crying and the Doctor consoling him is a regular occurrence for maybe a week or two, and the Doctor can't hide his exhaustion well. Still working out the details, but essentially Lucas doesn't really stop crying after that, he's just quieter about it and lies about it and Doctor Vargas doesn't press the issue. But the Doctor does worry. Lucas seems exhausted all the time, and when he's not hunched over and listless, or politely playing along with whatever to satisfy the grown-ups, he's throwing tantrums about the pointlessness of homework and anything else he doesn't want to do. I made that up. Sometimes he does still find joy in some things, and while it's temporary, it gives Doctor Vargas some hope.

The Doctor's thoughts, as they often do, turn to Charlotte, and how he felt after losing her. And what happened on that fateful day.

Lucas has a well-known love of puzzles. Because I want him to. And especially puzzles in video games. And what is science but a series of puzzles?

Before his mother's passing, I imagine Lucas enjoyed school and gained some reputation among his peers for being a nerdy kid and very smart. Naturally this would result in some peers getting close to him to improve their academic metrics or because they have similar interests. Maybe he has an interest in - the foundational stuff a seven-to-eight-year-old learns about - physics. I imagine he found his mommy's work very interesting and would ask her a lot of questions, sometimes rehashing the same ideas again and again (as my sibling did when they were little).

After she's gone, he still loves puzzles, but much like anything else, the experience of playing with them is tinged with regret. At the Doctor's place, I'm sure there are some other children and young folk living there, too, but I don't know how Lucas feels about them. I have to make so many characters...

I think Lucas would piece together some jigsaw puzzles in the lounge areas. And also slurp up much of the hot cocoa during winter time, but I digress.

Hmm. I need him to accumulate a small collection of toys, but I'm not sure yet who gives them to him and when. If he receives them all too soon and from strangers (scientists who find him endearing), he might feel sour about being pitied. At the same time, if he had a lot of toys before the fire, he'll sure miss their absence. Anyway, some things like: a small chess set, from which he'll lose some pieces, sidewalk chalk, a new gaming device with Tetris and a few other games on it, jump rope, a skateboard (actually a longboard), a Rubik's Cube, and some plushies. I want him to get the device and a plushy or two fairly quickly.

He mainly plays with the gaming device, and while it fills time and is entertaining, it does not fill the void. Still, the Doctor taps his shoulder one day.

"So. I heard you like puzzles?" Said more like a statement than a question.

Lucas doesn't fully understand the situation at first, on the order of a few hours or a day or so, when the Doctor shows him the orb. Doc tries to have a heart-to-heart moment with Lucas, but what the Doctor *says* reads like Chekhov's plasma cannon and I don't have the 'payoff' for that lined up, so I might change it.

But once it clicks for Lucas, it's like a switch is flipped. He smiles more and starts getting genuinely excited about things again. It helps that I had a pipe-dream of making Knack's puzzle a mini-game, so Lucas finds it fun. I'll want to add more to it, probably, depending on how I interpret Knack. I also have a headcanon that Knack's orb resembles a plasma globe in some tactile characteristic; Lucas likes to touch or hold it at every opportunity because it vaguely feels like something is going on in there. It's just so cool! The Doctor may or may not appreciate the novelty.

So it's like, Knack provides Lucas an opportunity to climb to his feet again. More indirectly than the screenshot, though.

I apparently got someone's game-play video confused for a trailer, and misinterpreted the YouTuber's voice as Lucas's voice, so one version of this post mentioned Knack having an incidental role of 'guardian' to Lucas. I still might want to play with that, though.

Anyway, if you're curious as to why Lucas finds the orb so much more satisfying than other puzzles, it's because of the angst. I had initially intended for Lucas to work on the project as something to distract him, much like any other puzzle, give him something to look forward to, and help him bond with Doctor Vargas. The Doctor himself hopes it can help the both of them move on from their losses, and hopes it can help him teach Lucas a thing or two.

But, somehow surprising even to me, Lucas seems to have taken it upon himself to solve this particular puzzle as a measure of value. If he can play a big part in solving it, and contribute to a grown-up scientific achievement, then he's worth all the trouble, right? Then he'll actually amount to something and be worth loving.

... I'm not sure what to say next except that I want to bonk him on the head with a paper towel roll and tell him he's being silly. And then give him a big hug.

At least he lets himself be happy again. In fact, his educational situation might flip from being too aloof to being too distracted. Doodling odd symbols in the margins of his homework and tapping his feet when he should be studying.

He still cries at night sometimes, though. Umm... trying to rack my brain here...

I avoid giving Lucas any diagnosis. Is this a bad idea? Would it be preferred I name his issues, and do research on them?

I kinda just make stuff up.

Okay, switching gears now. This part is more scattered because I don't know how to string the ideas together.

I think I mentioned the Doctor taking Lucas to places like museums and carnivals and aquariums.

Lucas might be prone to jealousy, at least when he is young, and becomes slightly possessive over the orb. This doesn't come up much beyond pressing his lips together, avoiding eye contact, and nursing a bitter feeling when the Doctor improves some experimental hardware without Lucas's prior knowledge. Lucas wonders if the Doctor had continued solving parts without him. Not sure if I should drop it.

Lucas is about ten years old by the time Knack is Manifested. I picked ten years old just 'cause that's about two years of working on the puzzle, enough time to build that machine. I don't want it to take too long or short because the puzzle I'm going with currently makes the Doctor look a bit stupid.

I have Lucas as twelve years old when the first game starts, because that's about middle-school age where the puberty does the things. And about 16 or so in the sequel, trying to balance the moved-out thing with the uncharacteristically immature behavior.

Also because Ava seems about 16 and Dad said that number makes sense for her role as a youth leader, and Ava and Lucas seem like peers. Man, they really flopped on the framing for the scene in this shot! I can hardly see Lucas at all with low brightness. Maybe it's different when you play it yourself.

Dad also told me something that I interpreted to mean most media is really bad at establishing ages. So I'm not sure what to do with that.

Anyway, ten years old.

I'm still not sure how, after the excitement of success subsides, Lucas will initially react to the creature made of stone. His reaction will probably depend on his background. Early drafts have him fed fairy tales that paint goblins unfavorably. And since the creature resembles a goblin in some aspects, Lucas freaks himself out or intimidates the little guy. But these drafts felt silly or off, because the creature is all smiles when he wakes up, and we know he's friendly. Also the Doctor just stands there. So I'll come up with something else, probably.

Regarding Knack's relationship with Lucas: When I see other people describe their relationship as sibling-like (a headcanon), they tend to position Knack as the elder. I may need to double-check; the fandom is pretty small and I haven't read much of the fanfictions. Another headcanon I saw a couple times is that Knack had been alive/conscious a long, long time ago.

But recently someone told me they interpret Lucas as the elder!

My interpretation is that Lucas steps up to that particular plate, first.

My idea goes: before anyone knows for sure that Knack's creature type also includes being a person, Lucas treats him a bit like a toddler and a pet, himself acting as the older brother and sorta babysitter. Still trying to decide if Knack knows he is a person at this stage... It seems like in both games, Lucas tends to talk to him like he's giving him a tutorial.

So I gotta figure out how the Doctor, Lucas, and some other folks turn a sweet little bean into the Knack we all know and love. And how Knack and the Doctor etc, do the same with Lucas.

Lucas is so silly!

I know you saw the one about the first night, Bestie [D;? but I'm not sure how to explain it concisely here. A lot of these I feel would be best shown in a comic series.

There is very much a theme of reciprocation in my story. That might be the wrong word. I'm thinking of familial affection. Lucas just doesn't get enough, and so, doing unto others as he would want to be treated, offers attention to Knack. What to list as examples... Reading him stories, nuzzling, very simple dancing. Probably more but I am my brain is made of Swiss cheese.

I did mention Knack being a sleepy baby on here at first, but I don't think I mentioned that Lucas worries if he's dying or something. It's like if you brought home a baby creature, but had no idea what it eats or needs to live, and then it acts groggier and less responsive, and can barely hold its head up... The Doctor kind of scoffs and says it's highly unlikely (not in a mean way), possibly thinking of Knack more like a device. But even if the Doctor is confident, Lucas isn't convinced. And Baby Knack doesn't know how to ask for what he needs, so he kind of furrows his brow and squints and makes little grumbling noises and like. I'm not sure how to describe it. It's like he kneads invisible dough or something? And he frequently glances up at Lucas or the Doctor.

Lucas tries really hard to not-cry and seem reasonable, but he can't help reaching out to pet the little guy's head. The creature responds very favorably, still sleepy. Leading Lucas to bring him into a hug, possibly picking him up. The creature is soothed by this, and after wrapping his arms around Lucas, he promptly falls asleep. Or something idk. Everything is a work in progress.

Knack occupies a weird role at first, and even later on occasion: something sort of like a pet, but not quite. Lucas is primarily the one who initiates the interactions like that, but sometimes the Doctor does as well. Knack himself does not understand until later.

I know it's silly to have Lucas pet him. He's basically a rock, even if he reminds me of a teddy bear sometimes. But look at that face! Lucas can feel warm and fuzzy just knowing that his little puzzle buddy likes him.

I also have Lucas very interested in Knack as a person, like how he's feeling and what he thinks. I think it would be funny if he gets good at reading Knack's body language, but not so good at interpreting his words sometimes. I'm kind of throwing out that scene in 2 where Knack gives Lucas an odd look for presuming what he's thinking and framing it as a 'talk'; if Lucas paid any attention to Knack, he would have done something like that a long time ago. And so I have him *do*: Early on, Lucas talks to the Doctor for Knack, like an untrained interpreter. And sometimes even airs his own grievances as if Knack is 'saying' so.

I mean, I *guess* I could have Lucas be oblivious to Knack's emotional situation unless it suits him, but then like. I dunno. That doesn't fit the little guy I made up so far. What feels more like Lucas?

Lucas sometimes imitates Knack's mannerisms and vice versa. Also expect recycled dialogue. I think Lucas vicariously experiences some adventure through Knack.

I still think Lucas gets swole by playing with Knack all the time.

Later, Knack and Lucas switch big-brother-little-brother roles based on the scene.

(I got this screenie from MoeePlays. The rest of the unwatermarked ones are from FullPlaythroughs.)

You may also see Knack playing the big-brother role while being Little Knack, if I can communicate that well enough. I think it's interesting. And the reverse.

Dad compared the way I describe Knack to Lennie Smalls in "Of Mice and Men", and suggested Lucas could be made somewhat like George. I must say, I hadn't read that story before then. So that was a wild ride! Now George, he's kind of prickly, which Lucas seems to be in the second game, but I'm a little hesitant. Dad also mentioned something about George's dream, and maybe Lucas could have something like that. I think I know what he means, and it's probably a reason I feel stuck in the 'ending' I had written; the dream feels impossible.

Jumping around again; if you were to talk to Lucas about Knack, and Knack was nowhere to be seen, Lucas would probably think of him as Little Knack. I looked too far into Lucas calling Knack "little buddy" at the start, and couldn't remember if Lucas called him something different later. I also interpreted this to mean Knack often hangs out with Lucas as Little Knack, which is supported by a brief shot or two in 1, and the title screen of 2.

Lucas considers Knack to be his achievement on some level. In fact, I consider this to be what he was alluding to in the museum in 2; that "without me, the Doctor would never have known-" how to bring Knack to life. I can imagine a young Lucas, when people are told that the Doctor had solved the puzzle and created Knack, saying quietly or thinking to himself, "*I* made this."

He goes back on that idea later. For Reasons. I might change that also, though. Then again, if I change the story every time I get caught and scraped up in a prickly patch, I wouldn't have much of a story anymore. I wouldn't necessarily say Lucas is naive. He's pretty smart and can sometimes pick up on things, but he can be willfully ignorant. If that doesn't make sense out of context, don't worry.

Changing the subject, Lucas kick-starts Knack's mischievous streak. He kind of teases him? Best example is the GIF I wanted to make but turned into a slideshow. In the garden, Lucas growls in jest at a Little Baby Knack, who reacts ferociously and growls back with rough red lettering, lifting his paws a bit and shifting his weight from foot to foot. Lucas laughs, delighted, and Baby Knack's expression shifts a little into amusement, before the GIF loops and they return to growling.

To clarify, Knack is playing, here. Although it does take him a few moments of fleeing and fawning to realize Oh, you're threatening me as a joke. Two can play at that game! Eventually, Lucas feels that Knack is acting too aggressive for his comfort, and, failing to notice that Knack is mirroring his own body language, worries he'll get a good punch to the gut. Or worse. He tries to de-escalate with the offer of a hug, which allows Baby Knack to play a mean prank.

And at one point I want Lucas to try smuggling Knack to school for the express purpose of scaring the crap out of Lucas's peers. For fun!

Another thing about how I wrote Lucas is that, when he is younger, at least, he isn't all that shy with Knack after like a day or so. I'm not sure how to say what I mean... It's like, Lucas has a tendency to get excited and touch, lightly pull, or grab Knack's arm(s), to get his attention, turn him around, or drag him somewhere. It's also a means of affection. He's gentle about it, but still. He isn't usually so grabby with other kids.

One of the things I considered playing with Knack is whether he might bite a family member when he is a 'baby'. But the more I think about it, the more the answer resounds no, he wouldn't. In one scene I wrote, Knack makes a non-lingual, idle threat (growling at him), but Lucas calls his bluff and takes something from him anyway. Lucas actually scoffs at him, incredulous.

Do not look to Lucas for guidance on how to treat children, animals, or operate heavy machinery.

Umm, what else. I bet Lucas would pass out if someone strokes his hair. First thing that comes to mind is Charlotte experimentally trying motherly things, feeling awkward about it and stopping. Lucas murmers something like, "You can keep going :)" Realizes what he just said, "I mean, if *you* want to," and scratches the back of his neck and looks away.

Along with a grappling hook (or maybe the Doctor gave him that), Ryder gives Lucas a butterfly knife for his twelfth birthday. This sounds very familiar to me, so either I thought about it before, it's practically canon, or someone else had mentioned it and I just can't remember. Or it could be a regular pocket knife.

At some point, to someone else, I have Doc describe Lucas as becoming more responsible since Knack came into his life. But of course, since the Doctor can never let Lucas have anything, he amends it with, "at times."

I also have this screenshot:

What was I going to put down for it...?

I remember seeing a review where someone mentioned this scene, gave an extremely reductive summary of it, and they thought "It plays out like a parody of kids movie/game “you-can-do-itism” but it’s not parodying anything in particular." I was rather miffed about that, to say the least; I thought this scene was a major characterization moment.

Lucas is curious/a scientist.

Knack puts so much faith in the Doctor that he limits himself. He also comes off like a major teacher's pet with his quoting ability.

The Doctor thinks himself so smart like he knows everything without testing it thoroughly. To the point where he has told Knack that he is incapable of something.

Lucas encourages Knack to try new things.

Not sure how to put this, but it comes up again in the Key Confrontation. Could be related to 4. Lucas is skeptical of the Doctor's authority and offers an opposing viewpoint. He prompts Knack to stop viewing the Doctor's words as gospel, at least temporarily. This is why I want Lucas and the Doctor to be/become foils in my story. Lucas sees himself in Knack.

Knack believes in the Doctor, sure. But he also trusts and believes in Lucas.

And one last thing, because I can't escape upsetting topics: there may be some parental favoritism going on between the Doctor and the boys. I loathe the idea, but it slots into my current framework with unfortunate agreement. I had a conversation with Dad about it, and he said, uhh trying to remember... it's a reasonable idea. He spoke of Lucas coming into his own and how it challenges the Doctor's ego, meanwhile Knack does whatever the Doctor says without question.

I don't think Lucas would resent or blame the Doctor's Greatest Creation, but it would impact his self-esteem. I don't know what that looks like yet.

Umm, I hope this was worth the wait; I had a lot of fun! I want to add more but I'm kind of scatter-brained. Also this is 4.6k words apparently.

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[alarrytale]

i recall an old interview (maybe from 2011?) where simon said he picked louis to be in 1D bc he had 'style' and the band needed someone with 'style'. i just think that's... interesting.

Yeah, i see what you're getting at and i agree.

I saw a tiktok making fun of how fangirls in the 80s thought George Michael was straight despite acting super flamboyant, and on the tiktok someone commented something like "that's us with Harry Styles now". Wanna guess what the replies said? "Yeah but Harry's actually straight."

Zero self-awareness. One has to laugh.

Heteronormativity is a funny thing. Gaslighting also do a lot of damage. It's sad.

You mentioned how Troye makes music solely for gay people because he sings about poppers and bottoming. How was Harry allowed to be so explicit in Cinema and reference popping? If he wasn't stunting with women, he'd basically be just like Troye! I wonder how anyone can think that man isn't just dating women for his career!

I didn't say soley for gay people, it's just that queers are his target group because they are the only ones who'd find it relateable. Harry isn't very explicit. "I bring the pop to the cinema. You pop when we get intimate". Harry brings the soda to the movies. You snap when we have sex. Pop meaning poppers here in this context isn't very explicit. It went over all the gp's heads. Also it's peanuts compared to Troye. Go read the lyrics to rush and watch the music video and you'll see the meaning of explicit. Harry is very far from troye. Harry needs to unpack the 50 layers of metaphors he's wrapped his songs in first and start making out with men in his mv to get on troye's level.

That´s the thing - like everyone´s different, gays are also individual people and these "typical gay" stereotypes should be called out for being old fashioned. Last week I told my gay friend how funny it is that in hairdresser salon work 3 gays and each is very different. Or how about other famous openly gay men - does Ricky Martin look stereotypically gay? I don´t think so, I still remember him during late 90´s and 00´s when his popularity was on peak and he was sold just the same way as Harry is sold now and no way I would guess him that 10 year later he will CO as gay. Or Ian McKellen who I also doesn´t find stereotypically gay. Man doesn´t need to be flamboyant or has some manerism, be flamboyant or has higher voice and he can still be gay af.

But while I´m writing this, I´m still quite new here and my opinion that Harry is gay is kinda fragile because even last year I thought he´s straight because those stunts and womanizer image just made a damage on me. What are your reasons - beside zero chemistry with woman - that Harry is gay and not playing it? Asking because let´s be honest, there are days when I question my opinion about him being gay.

Ricky martin not stereotypically gay?? Ian mkellen not stereotypically gay?? I have to say i disagree anon. Ricky has a babyface, is too well groomed, no body hair and a fake tan and his trousers and his shirts are a size too small. That's pretty gay looking to me (playing into stereotypes here). Ian McKellen is super camp and looked like a twink when he was younger (still playing into stereotypes here). I do agree, of course, that you don’t have to be stereotypically gay to be gay.

About harry, since he's straight passing he has to make some effort to come off as gay. He's often hinting while talking (using gender neutral terms, saying gender is not that important in what to look for in a partner, hinting that he looks at men, saying he doesn’t eat pussy etc.), he also sourround himself with queer people, he queercodes (dresses queer, worn earrings, nail polish, high heels, uses make up, worn dresses), he's taken on a gay acting role (what is the motivation to do that if you're not queer?), he's waving rainbow flags and helping people come out, worn rainbow pins and sing songs alluding to not being straight. He's also head over heels in love with louis, which is something he's been struggling to contain for most of his career as a musician (looking at him, touching him, admiring what he's like and writing too many songs about him).

#louis image #harry image #queercoding #flamboyant #boyband politics #troye sivan #fandom #long post

[basedkikuenjoyer]

Crescendo

Luffy picking his nose during big reveals is I C O N I C. Whatever this is all building towards, it feels like we’re seeing it escalate. It’s so weird seeing the concepts I was thinking about starting this blog spelled out. Been going on all Egghead. Ketsu, or a detached Act 4. Vegapunk’s dream, or Luffy’s reaction to it actually, is a big example. For how I felt about someone else from Wano. 

I’m talking about Yamato in this case. There’s no point in rehashing A Tale of Two Hannya, the basic idea is all you need. In a vacuum, Yamato is cool and flashy but his motives look more shaky the more you put them in the context of the arc. Especially when he comes in halfway sharing the stage with that massive foil in a girl we’d been spending two years getting to know very well. The more I see of Vegapunk, the more I’m disliking him. Bonney & Jinbei are right, the genius sorta has a bad habit of blitzing past everything to make a big to-do about what he’s interested in. I don’t think he has the sheer capacity for malice under the rosy goal as Big Mom, but he’s reminding me a lot of both Kozuki Odens. I'm starting to see how this guy could work alongside Caesar/Judge, which makes the cover flashback interesting.

Shark Daddy with the ominous af Chekov’s Gun! But wait...Luffy doesn’t even know what a CP0 is? Does that imply he doesn’t know about them chasing Robin/Brook? Who interfered in his fight? About Izo’s death? Izo’s someone he should remember from Marineford based on the gunman’s actions; helping Luffy get past Kizaru (!) and being the one trying to talk Ace down from being a reckless hothead (!!). Usopp explicitly knows all about the relationship, and don’t forget the other Chekov’s Gun in X Drake being the sole witness to the Commander’s fall. 

Makes Izo both an echo of “Nothing Happened” and Bon’s many sacrifices. Remember how much it frustrated Luffy that Bon kept bailing him out? Ashura died to protect the Akazaya, Izo for the Straw Hats with a dash of repaying his own favor. This gets more fun as we move into 1069 though: 

Love this. Luffy reaping the benefits of a title. Just a nice little beat about "class" from Kaku. The old timey talking dude who had a name double in Wano. We’ll have another one about hierachies in the same chapter, with the Seraphim command structure. The cool thing though is how we’re framing the fight. Uh...feel familiar? CP0 has an independent mission, crosses paths with a notorious pirate by sheer coincidence, willing to ignore him until the pirate pushes the fight for his own motives. A major incident indeed! 

Now for our main event. Oh, Vegapunk and the Devil Fruit lore? No, have you been paying attention? It’s cool for us yes, it might even have some solid implications to what I’m talking about incidentally. It’s not important right now, it feels big but the lore is kinda vague and grandiose. It’s not really a technical detail about how they work beyond what we knew, Vega even admits it’s just his theory, and the crew there is asserting it’s just Luffy. Are we building to a “Chosen One” story or a subversion? The thread I’m talking about running underneath is why I think the latter. Now for the real closer:

Woah woah, Sentomaru!? Not surprised. Vegapunk’s bodyguard but had blatantly Japanese vibes. Folklore homage, the weird little bit about the Kanji in his name. Being honest, I didn’t really intend to cover him in the big Buggy, Croc, Hancock, etc. round-up. I...was saving him for grander ambitions. Had I been right about Kiku at the end of Wano, y’all would have gotten a joke post about how it was obvious because she even had her own “Fake Straw Hat” in Sabody! Oh..but the timing doesn’t work out you say, that’s part of the bit. Seriously though, you have a lot of foreshadowing for Wano in Sentomaru and Kin/Kiku’s bond immedately remind me of Sento/Kizaru. And now we're...giving him the same rough backstory?

But damn, this is brutal. First, Vegapunk is kind of a dick here. He really is using that against Sentomaru. Especially with the dramatic irony we know it’s set up to put him in a situation of directly having to choose between Vegapunk and Kizaru. That’s a lot of rough potential. But then how it ends...right after setting up this idea of Awakened Zoans losing themselves to the ability, Luffy’s carefree attitude in G5 leads to letting Sentomaru get rocked when he could have easily prevented it. Beautiful. Bring on the next batch, I’m excited!

#one piece #chapter 1069 #chapter 1068 #sento-fukken-maru #Post-Wano Musings

[the-stray-storyteller]

I couldn’t pick which one, so I’m using ALL OF THEM!

Which WIP of yours has the longest chapters and which one has the shortest?

What is your most self indulgent piece and why?

Talk about the first character you made

When did you start writing ? How ?

Give spoiler with no context for your WIP

Do you have any repetitive tropes or themes in your story?

What you hate about your writing style?

What do you love about your writing style?

What is your opinion on "Kill you Darlings"?

Which genre do you hate to write and why?

Character/WIP Lore! (blabber about character/ WIP of choice)

Name a WIP that you scrapped and why did you do it?

Which villain are you proud of making?

Describe your writing spot.

Which WIP is your comfort WIP? (Like your comfort food, y'know?)

Who is your most traumatized character? What happened to them?

Assign colours/ colour palettes to your WIPs

Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?

Do you share rough drafts or do you wait until it’s all polished?

Share a snippet of an old wip that you never posted.

Tell me about an upcoming WIP

What most platonic friendship you have written?

How do you stay on track story-wise?

Do any of your stories have alternative versions?

Tell me about the order in which your characters (in any WIP) will die in a horror movie.

Holy shit! It took me a while to answer these. I tried to keep the answers as brief as possible. Post is going to be long af.

Which WIP of yours has the longest chapters and which one has the shortest?

Havenpoint has the shortest chapters (1500-2000 words) and Defenders has the biggest (2500-3000 words)

2. What is your most self indulgent piece and why?

Defenders is definitely my most self indulgent work. It is mainly because I am too emotionally attached to the characters in it and I am afraid that I might just ruin the storyline because of that.

3. Talk about the first character you made

Evelyn Rose was the first character I had ever made. She was an OC for my first and last fanfiction. She also happened to be an author's darling and now that I think about it, she would have been a very annoying and super self indulgent character.

5. When did you start writing ? How ?

I started writing at the age of twelve. An unfinished fanfiction was the first thing I wrote. I really got into writing during covid, when I started writing the original Havenpoint. I started writing Rebel and then I was falling down a rabbit hole. It was just so exciting because I had so many ideas in my head and I could take out and put somewhere.

6. Give spoiler with no context for your WIP

Kinda hard seeing that even I don't know where I am going with my WIPs. But I think I can give for Defenders.

Strawberries are alive

Ebony tables are evil for villains

Frankenstein baby

Apollo is in Andromeda galaxy

Not Italian

7. What you hate about your writing style?

I feel like I use the word 'however' too much. I can't divide the paragraphs to my satisfaction.

8. What do you love about your writing style?

I honestly don't know.

9. What is your opinion on "Kill you Darlings"?

already answered this

10. Which genre do you hate to write and why?

Romance, I just don't get it.

11. Character/WIP Lore!

I....I don't have the energy for this one. Its gonna take too long

12. Name a WIP that you scrapped and why did you do it?

I had a WIP that I don't remember the name of but I had scrapped it because it sounded too much like Cassandra Clare's shadowhunters.

13. Which villain are you proud of making?

Verity Hale from Rebel.

14. Describe your writing spot.

I sit on my study desk but not on the side I am supposed to be sitting on. My study desk is placed perpendicular to my bed. So I sit on the bed and place my laptop on the side of the desk where I write. Its right beside the window.

15. Which WIP is your comfort WIP?

Defenders

16. Who is your most traumatized character? What happened to them?

Any character from the batch 1 in Rebel. They have seen war from the frontlines at a very young age and have been used as killing drones.

17. Assign colours/ colour palettes to your WIPs

Rebel is red and black. Defenders is gold and black. Havenpoint would be muted and darkened spring colours.

18. Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?

Most of the time, I write as as I go.

19. Do you share rough drafts or do you wait until it’s all polished?

I usually post the second draft, which is not exactly polished and which I keep editing.

20. Share a snippet of an old wip that you never posted.

The Playground:

Do you remember when we were kids? Kids below the age of ten, running out to play from the early afternoon to the time the sun dipped under the horizon. Do you remember? We would come home and find scrapes on our arms and legs and small bruises littered everywhere. We never knew where they came from. When we became older we thought that we had gotten hurt while playing but never noticed because we were having too much fun. After all, children below the age of ten can get distracted easily.

21. Tell me about an upcoming WIP

I am trying to make a WIP called the Masque. It's mostly about this masque shop. The artists working in the shop make magical masques, some of them based on popular characters in classic books. The masques gives certain abilities to the person who wears them but at the same time they place a curse on them. The longer you wear it the stronger the curse begins. Now the masques are addictive to wear, very addictive because it makes the person into what they think is the perfect version of them.

22. What most platonic friendship you have written?

The relationship between Skyler and Ah-dainn from Defenders.

23. How do you stay on track story-wise?

I don't.

24. Do any of your stories have alternative versions?

Defenders does, in my head.

25. Tell me about the order in which your characters (in any WIP) will die in a horror movie.

Going with the characters in Defenders first.

Ah-dainn would die first trying to protect somebody.

Jay would die second because he didn't want to listen to Skyler and did something stupid.

Ren would go next because she found a creepy doll and tried to kill it.

Ivy would die trying to escape from a window.

Skyler is the ghost.

#tag game #Havenpoint #Defenders #The Playground

[hkblack]

Beta Blog Spotlight Week #2

Continuing the Beta Blog Spotlight this week is something completely different that I think is fascinating to discuss as a beta reader. @tickety-boo-af's Clematis Bloom: on fandom, memory, and queer resilience (G, 4316 words)

The AO3 Tags Include: Essays, non-fiction, Fandom, Self-Reflection, Resilience, fandom old, I'm not even that old, in my thirties, cw emotional neglect, finding beauty, fandom made me queer, Therapy, somatic therapy, Healing

Clematis Bloom is a Personal Essay reflecting on the importance of fandom in youth, the relationships formed in fandom, what it means to return to fandom after a long hiatus, and the healing and discovery that can happen from a strong and positive fandom community.

My favorite line:

We built a world of our own, grafted onto a fictional story, and it was a space of extraordinary possibilities: one where we could explore who we were and what we wanted to be.

More thoughts on this gorgeous essay and the process below!

About the beta-read: I'm going to go into some more context here than I would for a fanfiction piece because I think it's very important. This was not the first thing I beta-read for tickety-boo-af. We worked together on a DIWS gift exchange fic whose number will surely come up one day for this spotlight. (I'm gonna laugh so hard if the fates decide that day is next week). We started chatting during that beta-read process and realized that we were both fairly newly back into fandom, having both left in the early-aughts with college and real life tugging us away from the fandoms that anchored us as teenagers. We bonded over the mutual weirdness of trying to find where everyone went what with livejournal and ff.net being more or less gone, and how odd it was to get used to Discord. My early fandom was Harry Potter, tickety's was The Matrix. I had remembered enjoying pieces of The Matrix--but I also remembered my father being absolutely in love with the badass action sequences and me quickly deciding anything he liked clearly was not meant for me. I recently realized this was wrong and decided to watch all four Matrix movies in one day after chatting with Tickety.

Yeah. You read that right. All four. One day.

Tickety got the live reactions for all of it. I'd apologize, but apparently I was the highlight of some Matrix fandom-spaces for all of my reactions. So it was worth it.

After that intense day, tickety asked if I would be willing to work with them on this personal essay. Of course I said yes.

I share this background because I think it's important to establish the trust that is inherent in beta-reading. To be quite honest, a 500 word crack piece can go to any beta-reader as far as I'm concerned, but personal essays or longer fics that cover a topic or a story near and dear to a writer, you have to trust the person on the other end. It's so important to have someone who knows how to tell you something isn't written well without making you feel like you've had some personal failure (read more about that here), especially when the piece in question is something so personal.

Which means I cannot stress enough that as a writer you should never feel guilty for telling a beta-reader "thank you, but no" if you don't think they're the right person for the job. And as beta-readers we must not take that personally. If someone is looking for a particular style, or a particular touch, or is hoping to find a beta-reader who has specific experience so that they can relate more intimately with that story--we have to let them tell us no. We must also respect what they are asking for. If someone says "I need this specific type of beta reader who has this specific experience" we should never jump in and say "I don't match those criteria but I'll do it." Asking someone to beta-read for you, especially if its a piece that's meaningful, can be a vulnerable thing. And it is really hard for some folks to say no, especially when they are saying no to "I can help!" and they are trying to be more comfortable with asking for the help they need. It is better to let someone who does match the criteria to offer first. If you see a request languishing in public for a few days with no response, and you feel you can do at least half the ask, then I think it's appropriate to ask them if they've found someone and say things like: "I have that experience, but my SpAG skills are rough--happy to lend a hand though!" or "I haven't had that experience, but I'm good at the Flow check you're looking for. Let me know if I can be of use!" But if you don't match any of the requirements, let it go! There will be other asks you can fill, and other readers who can help that reader.

Anyway! Tickety asked for feedback on style, the order of the paragraphs, thoughts on section breaks, and sentences that needed some TLC. There were other people who were also close to Tickety and knew more of their history and life story who were also leaving comments, and it was really neat seeing us all in the doc at the same time on occasion, leaving different notes, joking around with each other, and in general having a moment to bond with things like "omg same tho ouch"

What I love: honestly, all of it. This is such a vulnerable piece, and Tickety did an amazing job of bringing poetry to their thoughts and feelings that rereading the essay for this post put me a puddle of mush all over again. As a teenager, fandom helped me discover my pansexuality. As an adult, fandom has helped me find my demisexuality too. And as a writer, fandom helps me shove these identities onto my characters, laugh like a maniac and then go "now smooch! smooch so I feel seen in media! SMOOCH!" ya know, like a normal person. ;) But Tickety really demonstrates the power of finding and establishing oneself as a person in fandom communities in this essay and I love that.

If any of this sounds even kind of familiar to you as a person in fandom, I really encourage you to give Clematis Bloom a read. Get a box of kleenex and a cup of tea ready, because you might need it as you process your own thoughts and feels. But if you just need a good reminder of the positives of fandom, of the beauty of online communities and the things we do for completely faceless and weirdly named strangers (she says, after several paragraphs of calling a human "tickety"), this is the essay you want to read.

#Beta Read by HKBlack #Good Omens #The Matrix #Essay

[melodygatesauthor]

Happy early birthday to you! May I request a Kapkan x Reader with the romantic line, "You remembered my favorite food?" It's the little things that count-

Of course, I can't ask this without giving you a gift. (or rather, questions to entertain your mind with)

We appreciate you writing for the R6s fandom, it's great to have more members that are active within the community. Your longfic of Kapkan has had me in a chokehold since November lmao. I'm a sucker for enemies to lovers. (Ik that the longfic isnt exactly this)

How long have you been into Star Wars? What brought you into it? I used to be REALLY into it years ago, though I have fallen out and perhaps I may join back in.

This one I hope you can answer, and fyi i mean NO ill judgement while asking. What makes you and others so interested in the kink of non-con? I find it hard to read when I know that others irl have trauma because of it. I know that you've clarified that it's just because it's all fiction and that you don't support it irl, but I guess I can't wrap myself around this topic? I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense, but I'd like to know and like I've said before, I am not having negative feelings to those who enjoy non-con! No one should shame you for what you like in fiction.

That being said, keep doing what you're doing and I hope that you have an amazing birthday!!!

Im aware of what I wrote is long af and im sorry-

Hi Nonnie!

Omg so much to unpack and I'm so so so excited to do that. You don't ever have to apologize to me for long asks, I like them. Answers below the cut.

I'm going to fulfill your request in a different post. I have several ahead of yours but it's on my list and I'll get to it as I go down the line. I cannot wait!

Thank you for your kind words about my longfic (The Recruit and the Hunter for others to have context)! I don't get a lot of attention here for it, probably mostly because it's AO3 exclusive, but I'll be adding it to Tumblr at some point! It's definitely a favorite of mine and I've put a lot of work into it. I would say it's enemies to lovers adjacent? lol it's got a similar feel to it! On your note about having others involved in the community, I have noticed that the writings for X Reader are scarce! There are a few of us in the community that I think are keeping it going. I hope more people will get involved!

So as far as Star Wars goes, I watched it all the way through for the first time in 2015 just before The Force Awakens came out and when I watched back then I thought nothing of it. It was good but like, it was just a series to me, nothing more. Fast forward to September 2022, I had a dream about Kylo Ren. Yes, literally had a dream about him randomly and then I couldn't stop thinking about him. (True story) I googled if people even read fanfiction anymore, and turns out THEY DO and hey, 30 years old isn't too old to read/write fanfiction (no age is, you can be 90 writing ff, just have fun). When I found out they did, I rewatched the entire Star Wars movie series again through a new lens...information gathering for fic writing. The second I saw Kylo fucking Ren coming down the gangway in TFA for the first time through this new lens....I knew I was ill. Thus sparked my Star Wars obsession and the spiraling that lead me to write for all these other fandoms, Siege included (although I've been a Siege player on and off since it came out back in...was it 2015?).

This is a great question and gets a section all on its own...

On the subject of non-con in fanfiction (please don't read if this topic is sensitive to you):

To start, I can assume that other people think like me, but as I answer this, I ask that you keep in mind that I can't exactly speak for anyone OTHER than myself. I know what I like and what I'm comfortable with and that's all I can TRULY speak on so bear that in mind as you read through my response.

There are a couple reasons I think that I enjoy non-con. I'M SPEAKING PURELY FROM A FANTASY STANDPOINT GOING FORWARD, NOT A REALITY STANDPOINT. One reason is societal. I read somewhere that it's possible people gravitate to the subject of non-con in fanfiction (primarily women in ff spaces), due to societal factors. Meaning, that women who are from more sexually oppressive countries, America being one in some ways (being primarily a Christian/Catholic country and always teaching people, again with an emphasis on women since it's more "obvious", to save it for marriage), might be more inclined to enjoy "non-con". It's thought that this is due to the idea that it's attractive to think that someone finds us so desirable that they just couldn't help themselves. Further, it's the thought that the blame, again in some ways, is removed from the woman. She didn't go out acting promiscuous, this thing just happened to her, this sexual encounter. She couldn't stop it from happening and for some people the idea of feeling desired and not being able to control that it's happening and therefore it's "guilt free" is attractive. THIS IS AGAIN FOR FICTIONAL SPACES, not REALITY. No one wants this to happen to them in real life or to happen to someone else in real life period.

The other reason is that I just enjoy the purely feral and primal urge for a big man to conquer and take what he wants. Again, not something I'd want in real life or that I'd want someone to go through, but the thought is hot to me. Man want vageen, man take vageen, it's literally that barbaric and simple. I have many kinks in fanfiction that I DON'T have in real life, and non-con is certainly one of them for this reason.

Now as far as "finding it hard to read/write because others have IRL trauma because of it", while I understand completely where you're coming from, and I'm not trying to change your mind, I encourage you to think about some things. Firstly, you are perfectly valid to feel uncomfortable reading something, and that's why I said I'm not going to try and sway your opinion. Let's just understand that first and foremost. Secondly, there are other things we read about that have caused people IRL trauma that no one shakes a fist at, murder being a big one. Just because I enjoy reading/writing a fictional murder-mystery, does that mean I don't feel bad for real people who have been murdered or family members of victims? Not at all, I feel for them, but I'm still intrigued by the story I'm reading/writing. What I find interesting, (and this isn't a reflection on YOU, there's a lot of people who think this way) is that for some reason the subject of non-con is disturbing for some, but the loss of a life (murder) is fine? That is something that I still am trying to figure out! I hope this clears it up a little?

EDITED TO ADD: It also allows lots of people a safe space to indulge in a very unsafe and downright dangerous thing. We can "experience" something horrific without actually being in real danger and it allows us to enjoy it that way.

Thanks for the great thought provoking questions! I really enjoyed this exercise! I'll get to your fic soon!!

#melody answers #anonymous

[acircusfullofdemons]

on my god im looking through an old Daydream Journal from 2018-2019 (aka from when I was 14-15) and:

I really wrote a whole list of differences between me & Calypso (who is/was my parame). One of the "differences" I put was "Girl" for me & "Boy" for Calypso. I'm screaming....HONEY. NO YOU'RE NOT LMAO

A list of events that happen in Phantasmagoria, which is SUPER outdated now but really funny when compared to what it's currently like.

First notes of Emory!!!! HE ALWAYS HAD A LITTLE SISTER WHO WAS A WITCH AND DIED TO PROTECT HER DAMN HE REALLY DIDN'T CHANGE AT ALL OMG

A one shot with what I think are scrapped paras, though Glitch & Juliette are mentioned for some reason. Also I think Glitch had a girlfriend named Wisteria at that point?? (I think that Wisteria was merged with another para, Pandora, since they were so similar)

My god I had a paracosm called "Mad Scientist Club" that had, shocker, a bunch of Fandom Mad Scientists that I liked. Memberes included: Dr. Steel, Dr. Horrible, Varian (?? maybe, did I know about him then?), and Romeo. The 'plot' was just them meeting up and doing Mad Scientist Things together, very found familyish.

There's so much fanfiction. I forgot that [Kids Show] had SUCH a chokehold on me oh my god. Why did people tolerate me...

Light's End was called "A Shadow of Sun" & it mainly focused on Shaodw & Sunny as kids/getting to know each other and IT'S SO CUTE??? I wrote it as a show and damn. Maybe I'll redo LE like that. Or make ASoS the prequel.

ASSEMBLED MONSTERS EARLY NOTES??? Oh...oh wow. This is just an edgier version of Monster High, jesus. I REALLY HAD A CHARACTER NAMED "MARY FRANKENSTEIN" & THOUGHT I WAS CLEVER. OK. Also possibly the first mention of Vincent with the note on Edward Hyde's daughter? Look, he's one of my all-time favorite characters. But why tf is Elliott on that list, I-

THE ROMEO & JULIET AU!! MY BELOVED!!!! omg omg omg this is the FIRST version. I hate the play so much but GOD this is one of my favorite AUs for my paras.

EARLY PHANTASMAGORIA LORE MY BELOVED <3<3<3

A crossover between my Primparas & Fictparas?? Man I wish I remember the premise of this AU it's weird af without context.

Watching Nostalgic Dreams slowly turn into an original paracosm is pretty neat ngl.

WAIT. WAS SPYRO THE DRAGON A FICTPARA/PARACOSM AT ONE POINT???

Wow, so many AUs were made.

OOoo, there's a list of INtO's (at the time "Viyrus") 'arcs' + what happens in them.....might steal - wait is it stealing if you originally wrote it but changed it? ....might....change it back...???

Anyway. This has been your reminder to ✨write things about your paras/paracosms down✨

#paraportal #actuallymadd #luka.txt #console: phantasmagoria #you may be wondering if 14yo luka was okay. the answer is clearly: NO! #to be clear tho I did know about MaDD at this point. I think that's why I wrote the 'me vs. cali' list in the first place bc #I knew he was my Parame/Paraself (he's both). and now he's also a Verit <3 #uugghh i remember so clearly sitting in my room in my grandparents old house just. daydreaming & writing in that journal. #oh and going on madd amino lskjfd I used to be so active on there damn.

[bookwyrminspiration]

Hello! I have a few things for you to think about!

Emery x Bronte

Kenric occasionally being a little shit and pranking Emery once the nerves of becoming a Councillor wore off

The Council is ineffective because the people on said council have the biggest tendency to get on each other's nerves (/pos) all the time. Like. Yk that misery x cpr x reveses puff meme?

Emery: Misery

Kenric + Oralie: Cpr

Bronte: Reese's puff

When they have their political discussions in the brain bubble half of it is Kenric bullying Bronte about how old he is and Bronte screaming about he he deserves respect and how "Back in my day-", Oralie is gossiping to Ramira and they're making bets about whether or not Emery has a secret live affair (Tbh I think that he's shipped with Bronte the most easily because they're both old men that enjoy reading/knitting listening to old music. Differences include Bronte hates all the fancy parties and how he has to dress up in more than just black and silver whereas Emery loves the chance to show off his looks and power and is absolutely vain af but Bronte finds it annoyingly endearing) and everyone is shouting over each other so Emery has to resist the overpowering urge to crinkle his nice shirt and rest his arms on his legs and his head in his hands and rub his temples to try soothe his aching head

Nonsie, so much just happened in this ask it's beautiful. When it comes to Emery x Bronte, I have a post here with some of my thoughts! I think they're fairly entertaining, if unexpected.

As for Kenric being a little shit, I think out of everyone on the council he is 100% the most likely to be one. He was the fun one! Everyone else is either so serious or aloof--side note: just remembered the scene where the council is voting on something and Emery makes a decision and that causes others to cast their vote certain directions and I'm unsure how I feel about that--so Kenric's gotta break up the atmosphere!! I also think he's probably just incapable of anything but optimism and positivity (even when confessing to having regrets as a councillor), so while everyone else is off moping being serious councillor people, he's just going on with his life and enjoying it.

In canon the council gets on each other's nerves (/neg) all the time, so it'd be interesting to flip that around and see them in a light where they're fond of each other. Also yes I do know the CPR meme! I think I'd classify Bronte under the Misery section, but that's just my opinion. Kenric was probably the most Reese's puffs out of everyone, but I can see why you'd group him with Oralie. Either way, it's an entertaining categorizing system! I hope they all enjoy screaming lyrics at each other.

Your description of their political discussions is amusing but I'm also horrified for the implications of their effect on the elven world. They are being led by clowns. I mean, we already knew that, but this is like a new level of clownery! I would not want them in charge of my world and well-being if they're spending the time gossiping and yelling at each other! How are they going to fairly judge and merit out decisions when Bronte is trying to claim seniority and Emery is constantly having to block out discussions of his love affairs!

here's hoping Emery has some strong pain relief to deal with the idiots in his head. This portrayal of them seems like a found/forced family via proximity, which is a less common one, but entertaining nonetheless--outside of the context of canon, that is, within canon this would be a nightmare, but that's what fanon is for! I'm going to watch them from afar because I do not want to get in the middle of anything that is going on with them (/lh)

#kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #quil's queries #nonsie #the council #i feel like I saw a fic with this concept once #not like. exactly what you said. but with this vibe #where the council was more like a family and they liked each other #instead of all the tension and formalities of canon #they might've had a game night #I cannot remember #no clue who wrote it either #it just vaguely rings a bell #long post

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Give me something to hold onto: Chapter 1

Summery:

Age regression AU: Stolas and Blitzø are friends. And when they find out the other regresses, they now want to take care of each other.

But can the Imp and the Owl overcome what had broken them?

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SFW Age regression is a coping mechanism and it's fun, nothing else. DNI if you don't want to read it.

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💜🦉Little!Stolas and Little!Blitzø🐴❤️

This is for everyone who wanted more Little!Stolas content! 💜💜

⚠️May get angsty in later chapters, but for the most part, nothing too triggering, just in case there will be TW above every chapter.⚠️

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This work is an Age regression fic. So there will be things such as: Diapers, pacifiers, cribs, bottles, exc.

(Tbh, I'm not 100% sure what this'll have.)

It'll be mostly fluff/comfort.

But it will also have:

Cursing, mentioning abuse, trauma, substance use, and talking about mental illness.

Mind the Trigger warnings at the beginning.

🧸Age regression itself is not sexual, it's a SFW coping mechanism and it's valid Af. 💖❤️🩹

"Have you heard from the news? Clouds are falling from the sky, and everything that's pink is now blue?" -Little space, Sxye.

~~~Stolas and Blitzø:~~~

At the alter Blitzø and Stolas stood.

They gazed into each other's eyes, smiling.

Stolas held a beautiful bouquet he had borrowed, and Blitzø was wearing a beautiful blue boutonniere.

They smiled at the realization that their old lives would transform into their new life together.

"Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to witness this man and this man in holy macaroni."

"Holy what?" Stolas whispers.

No one acknowledged the question "Do you take this man to be your lovely wedding husband?"

"Um, yes. Yes, I do." Stolas says.

"And do you take this man to be YOUR lovely wedding husband?"

"I don't think you're saying that right." Stolas says.

Blitzø shushed him. "I do too."

"I now pronouns you, husband and husband! You may kiss the-"

"Wait- stop!" Someone yells in the crowd.

Audible gasps fill the room as a green frog runs into the room.

"What the..?" Blitzø asks.

"You can't marry him! I love him!" The frog says.

"Stolas!" Blitzø scolds. "He can't say that!"

"Why not?" Stolas asks, holding a toy frog in his hand.

"Because he's already in love." Blitzø explains. "Remember? He married the rooster last week!"

"Ohh right." Stolas says. "Sorry, I forgot."

"Yeah, so...the snake can interrupt instead." Blitzø compromised, handing Stolas a snake stuffed animal.

"Okay." Stolas says happily. "Stop! I love him!" Stolas shouts, playing with the snake plushie now.

Another gasp fill the room as the snake declares his love Blitzø's toy dinosaur.

"Snakey?!" Blitzø gasps.

"I love you, Dino. Please don't marry the Imp!" The snake says.

"Snakey, I can't love you anymore." Blitzø says.

"But...why not? I always loved you!" Mr snake says.

"Cuz, I'm marrying the Imp now." The dinosaur says.

"Marry me instead please?" Snakey asks politely.

"Nah." Blitzø said.

"...please?" Snakey asks again.

"No thank you. I'm good." Blitzø says.

"Oh...okay...well...I guess you'll die then." Snakey said casually.

"Wait, what!?" The Imp and dinosaur ask.

"Pew!" The snake pulls out a water gun.

"Nooo!!!" Stolas's imp plush shouts.

"I'll save you, honey!" Blitzø says, throwing the dinosaur in front of the defenseless imp.

Both Stolas and Blitzø laughed.

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Okay, it wasn't a real wedding. They were marrying Blitzø's stuffed dinosaur and Stolas's stuffed imp.

Stolas and Blitzø love marrying their stuffed animals to each other when they were regressed; it makes them happy.

So, for some context: let's go back a little to see what exactly is going on here...

~~~Past, A year ago:~~~

"Prince Stolas?"

Stolas started choking on his drink, coughing and heaving, but then assured everyone who might've cared: "I'm fine!"

"We caught this nasty imp trying to sneak into your chambers, what should we do with him?" One of the hellhounds asked, not worrying at all about Stolas.

"Into my chambers, really? Oh, well. That is, concerning." Stolas clears his throat. "Just leave him to me, I will handle him accordingly." He smiles.

The two Hellhounds shrug and drop Blitzø on the hard ground.

"Follow me, Imp." Stolas orders, leading Blitzø through the castle.

With limited options, Blitzø listened and followed the bird as told.

They pass by a hallway and Blitzø looks at the pictures on the wall.

There was a picture of young Stolas, and his weirdo father who still gave Blitzø a strange feeling just by the picture alone.

Blitzø cringes, not one of his fond childhood memories.

Then, a picture of Stolas and what appears to be his wife...? But, he looks miserable. How can he be so rich, married, and be so miserable?

Not his business, he supposed, it's not like he knew Stolas.

Then, a picture of Stolas with a kid...

Huh. Good for him. He has a kid.

He looked happy there at least. He looks miserable in the other pictures,

Blitzø thinks about his own daughter at home... he has to talk himself out of this! "Look, I didn't mean to interrupt your- whatever- party? I was just trying to-"

"Don't bother with excuses, I know why you were here." Stolas says.

"You do?" Blitzø cringes, regretting his decision for a moment as Stolas closed the door, trapping them both in Stolas's bedroom.

"Yes, you are here to ravish me, weren't you?" Stolas asks dramatically, posing himself against the door.

"Uhhhhhh, you?" Blitzø asks.

"Why else would you be breaking into my room?" He jokes. "You could've asked to visit you know, it's been a long time, but I have a very good memory." He smiles cutely and claps his hands so the room's candles lit up.

"Oh, yeah." Blitzø laughs, not really expecting Stolas to remember him. Suddenly, catching his eye was the book he was after, behind Stolas at the top of his bookshelf.

He needs that fucking book!

He leaned in closer, playing along with Stolas's little game. "Well, you know, I figured since you're a prince and all it might just be easier to scale the walls and slip on in." Blitzø says. "Certainly is easier than going through your fucking staff..."He mumbles.

"One would think you might be here for nefarious reasons, if you are sneaking in during the cover of night." Stolas says.

Blitzø was a little confused...since it's still the daytime. But he figured playing along would be better. "Well, I wanted to crash the party, and it's always more fun you know to make an entrance!" Blitzø lies.

Stolas chuckles. "I recall how you enjoy making an entrance!" They walk to the couch in Stolas's room and sit down together. "So, over two decades since I last saw you. Are you still a circus clown?"

"Oh no, not anymore. I kill people now." Blitzø says.

"Oh dear, how afraid should I be?" Stolas asks.

"Well...I mean..." Blitzø looks at something behind Stolas that made him look anxious.

Stolas looks at him confused.

"Uh- how afraid do you wanna be?" ~ Blitzø asks seductively, getting closer to Stolas and taking his hand.

Stolas stepped back. "Uhm, well..." he looks behind him reluctantly, not sure where exactly Blitzø was going with this when...

He looks back at Blitzø confused. "Were you trying to steal from me?" Stolas asks.

"Uhh...what?" Blitzø wasn't sure how to answer that.

Stolas raises an eyebrow and hums. "Wouldn't be the first time," he crosses his arms, "now would it?"

Blitzø was now the nervous one. "No no, I was definitely here because you're...uh, cute?" He suggested.

"Mhm." Stolas tilts his head. "So, you aren't after...this?" Stolas asks, using magic to grab his grimoire.

Blitzø lies. "Nope, just...you. You fucking hot bird, you."

"Look- I'm sorry...what's your name again?" Stolas asks. "It's like glitzo? Or something, right?"

"It's Blitzø..." he says, crossing his arms.

"Blitzø? Didn't it have an O in it before?" Stolas asked. "Like, a clown name? I distinctly remember you having a-"

Blitzø rolls his eyes, his tail swinging back and forth in irritation. "Well, not anymore. It's silent now."

Stolas nods. "Alright...Blitzø. As much as I think you're...very...alluring. I doubt very much you feel the same way about me. I have very fond memories of us as kids, and I wouldn't enjoy seeing you get arrested. So, if I promise not to kill, arrest, or hurt you in any way, will you please just be honest with me?" He asks. "I'm sick of the lies and manipulation."

Blitzø hesitates. "Well..."

Stolas raises his eyebrows. "Well?"

"Okay, fine! I honestly can't believe I'm actually telling you this shit...but, I need to access the human world." Blitzø says. "And I remembered when we were kids you told me about the book, I thought I could maybe use it..." he admits.

"You listened?" Stolas asks, his pupils dialating.

Blitzø shrugs. "Yeah, course I did. It was interesting."

Stolas couldn't help but smile for a moment, someone actually found something he said interesting? "And you even remembered?" He asks. "How could I forget being sold as a playmate and taken to a castle with the strangest kid in history?" Blitzø asks. Stolas's smile dropped. "Oh...right. But, why do you need access to the human world anyway?" He asks.

"I don't expect you to understand." Blitzø says, rolling his eyes. "My company hasn't been doing so hot lately, we can't get enough kills in to pay for rent, and I can't even afford to pay my employees what I owe them...so, I had an idea. No one is more desperate for vengeance than sinners." He says.

"So, your plan is to kill the living as revenge for the sinners?" Stolas asks.

Blitzø nods. "Yeah. There's a lot of bitter people out there." Blitzø says. "We could make millions with this idea."

"Hm. Interesting." Stolas says. "Well, I'd love to help you, Blitzø. But, this book is very...very...important. I can't just let you have it." He explains.

"I get it. Look- I'll just show myself out." Blitzø says. "Thanks, Stolas." He says.

"For what?" Stolas asks.

"For not killing me." Blitzø says. "I have a daughter at home, though I doubt she'd really notice, eventually she'd run out of food." He jokes.

Stolas's eyes widen. "Blitzø, wait-!"

Blitzø sighs, then turns around. "What?"

Stolas thinks about it. "Okay...you can BORROW my book for your business, but there has to be some ground rules." He says.

Blitzø raises an eyebrow in intrigue. "Okay...?"

"I need you to be careful with it." Stolas says. "It's very important. It's not a toy!" He says. "Don't use any spells you don't recognize."

"Okay." Blitzø says.

"And I need you to return the book every full moon so I can continue my duties." Stolas says.

"Fair enough." Blitzø nods.

"And, I need your phone number." Stolas says.

Blitzø's eyes widen, then he smirks. "Really? Wow, Stolas. Smooth. Didn't know you had it in you-"

Stolas panics. "Wait! No! No no no no...that's not what I- I-I just-"

Blitzø smirks, loving seeing a royal so flustered.

Stolas takes a breather. "I'm married... I just want to be able to contact you in case I need my book back, or something happens!" Stolas says flustered. He rubs his arm anxiously.

"And what exactly do you get out of this deal?" Blitzø asks.

Stolas shakes his head. "I'm a father too. I know it's not always easy." Stolas says. "I dont wabt anything from you except... well," he suggests. "If...you'd like, I mean. We could hang out sometime? We seemed to get along fine as kids... you were the only real friend I had. The only honest one, even if you were a bit...critical and rude and stole from me. I thought about you a lot, and I... I know it sounds absolutely pathetic! But, I could really use a friend right now, my life's a mess!" Stolas says, exasperated.

Blitzø sighs. "I hear ya... my life ain't exactly perfect."

Stolas smiles. "Maybe we can help each other...what do say?" Stolas asks, holding out the book to Blitzø.

Blitzø looks at the book, then up at Stolas...

Stolas smiles.

Blitzø takes it....then pulls Stolas's arm closer with his other hand.

Stolas hoots in surprise as Blitzø grabs a red marker from his jacket and writes his number in Stolas's hand.

"I'll see you on the full moon, Stolas." Blitzø says.

Stolas smiled as Blitzø left as discreetly as possible.

He had a friend!

Things only could get better from here!

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Idk when I'll update next, but the first 2 chapters are being posted now.

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