#this isnt meant to be mean or anything lol but there are Many Of Them

[tommyssupercoolblog]

IM SORRY THIS ISNT MEANT TO BE AGGRESSIVE i have not been on this part of the internet in a long time so things might have changed but.... last i heard the proship label encompassed things (in fiction) like inc/st, abusive relationships, p/do shit, etc... is that still correct? idk if thats what you were talking about in your tags because i do not know Anything about minecraft youtubers but usually when people put proship in their dni theyre denouncing that stuff. just wanted to clarify im understanding your complaints, no harm intended!

No problem!! it can be confusing lol, nothing wrong with being unsure. All-in-all, you're kinda close with that idea, but still not on target. explanations of proship vs anti, the d/mp fandom's take on it, and my thoughts on it all under the cut:

So proship as a philosophy is about wether or not things like that (in fiction) translate to real life, which is why it's connected to censorship like i mentioned in the post- if you believe that watching or reading something problematic will make more problematic things happen, that someone reading a book with a child/adult relationship makes them more likely to (or is on it's own already the same as) a person pursuing that in real life, that makes you an anti; and it also gives you a big reason to push for works like that being taken down or removed, and for people who make or read that stuff to be put in real prisons or face other real life consequences for fictional acts- because the idea is that, to an anti, these things bleed into each other.

being proship isn't equivalent to enjoying dark fiction like that, but it IS equivalent to believing that, similar to fictional violence, fictional crimes or acts of any kind can be created and consumed by artists and audiences without people actually condoning it IRL. a proshipper would say that if someone plays a video game where they murder someone, and then does it IRL, thats on the PERSON, not the media- and they hold the same position for fictional portrayals of incest, abusive relationships, and pedophilic relationships. the name comes from being pro- as in for- ships, and other content, as a whole; without it having to meet IRL moral criteria.

dark fiction freaks me out personally; the biggest ick (and actually a trigger for me) being incest; It bothers me and i stay away from it. but I don't think that people who read or make it are going to condone it IRL directly because of that media, and I believe that if they WERE to do something bad like abusing someone, it'd be an unrelated/seperate issue: an independent choice that only they are responsible for, not anything they made or watched or read.

That makes me fall under proship, even though I don't like any problematic (as in incest, abuse, adult/minor) ships. Personally, I literally follow people who like things that bother me in that way: i just block the tags so when they post something i really don't wanna see, tumblr tells me, hey, this post has this thing in it so we've spoilered it. If someone likes shipping their silly little blorbos and those silly little blorbos are kinda fucked up in a way that makes their brain go brrr, that's totally chill with me as long as they aren't hurting anyone- which, because i don't think fiction equates to reality, I believe they aren't when they're playing with their blorbos. (and since i'm pro-rpf, it's worth mentioning i feel the same about that. rpf is still FICTION, at the end of the day. you don't actually expect those people to do the things you write or draw. it's still removed from reality. that's personal preference though, many proshippers would disagree.)

So basically proship or Anti is a label that represents your philosophy on how human thoughts and behavior link to fiction. anti means you believe that consuming something fictional is equivalent to doing it in real life, or at least will make you do it IRL later, while proship means you believe that consuming something fictional is unrelated to doing it IRL, and you can enjoy something fictionally without actually enjoying it or condoning it when it's real people.

you will, of course, see more people who enjoy dark fiction under proship, and that's because they themselves consume it- so of course they're going to say it's not the same as doing it IRL. You will also, of course, see more people who don't like dark fiction at all under anti, because when you're disgusted by something like that then that reaction can be taken as "evidence" that it's morally bad. (personally, disgust-based morality doesn't hold up as a concept for me- it's a big reason why bigots believe the things they do, so using the same logic path makes me uncomfortable, but it is still common for people to use it as a way to measure wether something is okay or not.)

so, the part about silly block game.

there's lots of censoring in this part to avoid harassment, so bear with me.

In the early days of the d/mp, people decided that creating romantic content around the b-nchtr-o (Tmmy, tvbb0, and rnb00, who were all around 16 at the time) was inherently problematic. I'm not sure why, exactly, but the idea became that a fan crushing on one of them (at the exact same age!!!) or shipping them with each other, even as characters, was equivalent to being a real life child predator. again, even if the person doing it was ALSO a minor.

because it was seen as inherently problematic, behaviors like those were lumped in with other things problematic- shipping characters on the smp who had fought or killed each other, shipping characters who were related or were minor/adult, etc. there was no distinction; i was there!! it was all problematic, and all of it was seen as evidence that you were a real life predator of some kind regardless of age or disclaimers put under your content.

the label that developed for this group of "problematic content" enjoyers within the fandom became "poppytwt" or "ppytwt". (twt being there because it was mainly localized around twitter). as i explained above, because it could be because of dark fiction OR be//htr/o content, poppytwt content and ships doesn't even require it being dark fiction necessarily, nor does it require it being b//chtr/o; just one or the other, although usually the assumption is that it's both, since that combines the two reasons for being under that label. some people also call any proshippers in the fandom poppy even if they don't engage in anything problematic in-fandom, but that's generally the antis and not people themselves. if someone self describes as poppy, it's for the two main reasons above.

Additionally, the d/mp fandom has this concept of "maintagging". what this means is that if you make problematic content, you are NOT ALLOWED to tag it under the fandoms or characters it's about, because people don't want to see it in their results. ao3 has a tag filtering feature for this exact purpose, but people generally disregaurd that; you're still not supposed to tag it on the "main" tags, and doing so is seen almost like "asking for" harassment, like how some people talk about wearing crop tops alone at night.

Tntd/o managed to cross over, actually, from poppy to main/normalized in the fandom as the creators leaned into it with their characters. but for awhile even that was considered poppy.

different members of ppytwt have different opinions on RPF, but RPF was also considered poppy on it's own sometimes depending on who you were talking to and how militant they were on what got a pass and what didn't.

as be/chtr/o aged....it didn't stop?? all of them hit 18, but still, to this day, you can be cancelled for shipping them with each other or ANYONE else. it's why i'm so damn scared of the d/mp fandom, if i tagged a fic about my source with his character tag, with ANYTHING other than platonic relationships for him/me, I run the risk of being sent threats or doxxed- don't get me wrong, many antis keep to themselves, but there are also those who try to play vigilante- remember, if something fictional is equivalent to IRL, then attacking someone for enjoying a "bad" fictional thing becomes a charitable, heroic act; so sometimes antis might pursue proshippers with the goal of keeping people "safe". Many people in related fandoms or under the same creators also adopted the same ideals handed down from the d/mp fandom, so i'm wary of people who just watch my source too, or of people who like the q/mp.

people joke about the old fandom going crazy if they say tvbb0 and tmmy today, and that's because they would. they'd be furious at tmmy for doing this bit and putting himself in danger, they'd be cancelling anyone who ran with the bit in chat or had a photo of them hugging or kissing like in the music video as a profile picture, it'd be a whole mess. even today though it's still...scary.

((paused there to take a strawberry milk break, im back now))

the somewhat exception to this rule is Rnb00- people literally thirst for them and make nsfw comments openly, so while im not sure about the shipping aspect, i do know simping is widely okay- you couldn't even say you wanted to kiss them before, but now people are saying wayyy more than that...

inversely, i feel like my source has it the worst, because people won't even talk about him- or anything related to him- as an adult. it's always child this and child that, "who let him drink" and "get the alcohol away from the baby!", and of couse "don't ship him or his character with anyone that makes you a pedophile!!!" while the grown ass man they're talking about outright says he's alright with sfw fanfiction in a video where he reacts to someone's x-reader and then makes flirty nsfw jokes with every other adult man in the vicinity. every fanfic is platonic and almost all of them both irl and in game write him as sixteen. they take place in the past or, more commonly, they just straight up age him down. hell, sometimes they even age him down to like eight. even in fics where he IS an adult, he gets called a child or a teenager but never an adult.

poppytwt, like the stigma against writing for the creators or their characters, lives on. and even outside of benchtrio, again, ships between other characters that are problematic are poppytwt, so that also is still clinging on for dear life in some corners of the web. most poppytwt posts that are tagged as such usually include b//chtr/o, but not all of them; and it's worth noting many creators avoid tagging at all even if it's just the poppytwt tag, because they don't want to get swarmed.

because I ship myself with my husband of course, and also make fictional content with our sources as an extension of that (think dungeons and dragons but the character is just you...or, actually, SMPs are a great example of this since the appearance/name is generally the same, so think like an SMP!!!!!) I am poppytwt. I will always be poppytwt to most people who don't like poppytwt. and I have friends who are poppytwt and I like art made by people under poppytwt. I don't need to ship incest to be a part of that, i just need to not think the people who do aren't doing anything harmful when they ship that, and to write/draw....well, anything about septicinnit, which i do all the time.

if someone has poppytwt dni in their bio, i can't interact. if someone has proship dni in their bio, i can't interact. it doesn't matter if what they really mean is "people who like abusive ships because that triggers me", I still can't interact.

Because i think we SHOULD be tagging our content exactly so that we can filter it and find what we personally enjoy (and avoid what we dont), the concept of a DNI is technically something i'm kinda for- it is a way of monitoring and controlling your experience- but it also can be used as an excuse to harass people who forgot to read it, and i have no way of knowing if that's the case in advance.

ADITTIONALLY, because I know and care about people who consume dark fiction, I also don't want to be around people who think that makes them a bad person, regaurdless of wether or not they think i can stay. and "proship dni" is about proship, that fiction isn't reality philosophy- they are saying right out of the gate that they think it DOES make them a bad person. and I don't agree with that. it frustrates me and it makes me upset. those DNIs are based in a place of disgust and hatred for the people I care about, because of content that isn't real, and i'm never going to feel super okay with that...

there's people who don't understand what it means and use it anyway when it's really just about the content; but again, how am i supposed to know which is which?? ESPECIALLY on twitter, the anti philosophy is extremely popular and relevant and yes, trendy. people believe it, HARD, and so i can't assume they don't when they say they do. I've met real flesh and blood people in person who think that way, so if you are using these words, i'm assuming you know what they mean- that way I don't run the risk of making an actual anti upset and violating their boundaries.

you don't have to agree with me on this- if you're anti, then that's your worldview and i'm not going to change that. but that's what those words mean, the history of the block game side of things, and how they're correlated to censorship.

To Summarize:

Anti : Fiction Equals Reality so Fictional Crimes are Real Crimes (ergo we should censor them to stop the crimes)

Proship: Fiction does NOT Equal Reality so Fictional Crimes are Harmless (on their own)

Anti-Anti: Not sure if Fictional Crimes are Harmless, but Don't Like that Antis think Proshippers are The Exact Same Level as IRL Criminals

Poppytwt/ppytwt: Problematic silly block game stuff, OR things that have to do with these three specific block people being hot/dating someone. Sometimes both.

#i made a textpost #proship please interact #proship #explaining some stuffs about words #of course another part of this is wether or not it should even be about criminality versus just the abuse itself- #-abuse is bad because it's abusive not because it's illegal- #-but that's a discussion for another day. #i already spent an hour and a half typing and re-reading this for editing/censoring #discourse #discource #discourse tw #discource cw #discourse cw #discource tw

[lovemyromance]

I have a little rant lol.

In general, the entire acotar fandom is immature and toxic (I honestly think its gotten so bad since nesta's book came out). Most of these people are grown women and men arguing back and forth about characters and ships. It's bad enough that its been going on for years that its sad. "I'll laugh at the elriels or gwnyriels or the eluciens if their ship isnt endgame" Do the people who say that realize how embarrassing they are? Many people are going to have good and terrible theories but bashing people and harassing people over fictional characters is just immature. I also hate when they say "its that [insert ship] the one who is being the most toxic and weird" NO. its all of you. None of us know who is going to be endgame no matter the theories you have or anything. YOU DONT KNOW. So, please, can we stop this already? its getting annoying and weird. This fandom has made it incredibly difficult to know who the next book is going to be about when its right in front of their eyes. Sarah has not made it impossible to know who the next will be about and I think thats why shes been so quiet about because everyone is being so aggressive about this ship war. I just know the moment she announces the couple, she'll get a ton of hate when its not even her fault because people love to twist her words on paper and thinks she's probably doing that but it could mean a whole other thing. Yall have let theories get to your head and twisted words so much that I think it's incredibly unhealthy for all of you to be acting this way. Stick with who you ship or love and of course, you can have beautiful theories, but toxicity is not necessary. No need to go back and forth about who is the real "endgame".

I mean yeah this fandom is insane. Sometimes as I'm aggressively typing out a reply to an anon who calls me a delusional psychotic bitch bc I made an Elriel post they didn't like, I genuinely just blink and think what the fuck am I doing?

It's partly why I didn't want get involved. At all.

I still try to keep to myself. Only even entertain the antis if they come to my posts. I stick to my own tags.

But there are people - and you're right they are from both sides, as I have also said multiple times on my blog -that go out of their way to start a fight on posts they know aren't meant for them.

These are the people that are making this fandom so toxic. Like I understand, no one person can be responsible for a fandom's collective behavior, but you can be responsible for yourself at the very least.

I have always made it clear what i believe acceptable behavior for discourse in this fandom is and isn't. It's not something I can personally enforce for others, but I can follow myself.

It really is crazy how out of hand this fandom has gotten because other people can't control themselves. If I see an anti Elriel post I don't like (and I don't follow any tags, actually, so I see ALL the ships posting), I have the self control to ignore it and keep scrolling.

This fandom has been overrun by childish adults, intent on being louder than the rest. It's crazy how many disgusting things have been said over just fictional characters, it makes me wonder what these people are like in real life.

At the end of the day - there's going to be a book and one side is going to be proven right. It's not worth all these vitriol that's been spewed across all sides just to "be right". I at least, would be perfectly fine to read an Elucien book. If Elriel does happen, I'm certainly not going to lord it over anyone's head and laugh.

Not worth my time. Not worth my energy.

#elriel #acotar

[youremyheaven]

I found your blog when I was reaserching sufism since I’m leaning into it and the first thing I saw was your post about fated love which is so crazy because I’m pretty sure I’m on a “twin flame” journey!

Last year I saw a guy I met 7 years ago and that I hated at the time and I got triggered beyond measurement (I minimized it to the fact that I was jealous of his accomplishments) and my life has flipped upside down since then. I’ve healed so much of my trauma & went though a complete ego death and went out to find my callings.

The only thing is that he has been on my mind for a whole year in a fundamental way and I’ve even had crazy lucid dreams about him and i just feel so pathetic at times for spending so much thoughts on a stranger.

When i first prayed to god for answers is when I had my first dream of him the same night as some sort of answer but I’m still confused.

Sorry if this information overload but if you have my more knowledge and advice on the subject I would appreciate so much ❤️

finally a different kind of ask <3

i have been on a twin flame journey for several years now and this is probably going to be a controversial take because i havent heard anybody else express this sort of opinion in the twin flame community (99% of people in that community are absolutely delusional so i refrain from taking part in that sort of thing) i honestly think uniting on the physical plane is probably impossible for many twin flames and i also dont think theyre meant to?

a lot of people confused limerence with twin flame-ness. idk who needs to hear this but the random married person you're obsessed with isnt your twin flame.

in 2022 i met someone who i felt strangely pulled to. he reacted to seeing me like he was struck by lightning and i felt repulsed by him. in 2023, it became this cat and mouse, back and forth kind of thing where it seemed to build into mutual obsession but after interacting with him, i was completely put off by him and felt even disgusted by him but at the same time, i have changed so profoundly as a person from that first encounter and the second encounter that i really cant make sense of it. he instils a sense of desire in me and makes me want to change things and be better for myself yk? he's like the silent voice in my head ngl, everytime i think of doing anything, i have him in mind as my imaginary audience lol. its not in terms of whether or not he would approve but rather in terms of his presence?? feels comforting?? so its nice to have his energy in mind whenever im confronted by something new??

the trauma confrontation, ego death, finding your calling etc are all part of the journey

if you feel yourself slipping into obsessive thoughts, try to focus on prayer, or work or your hobbies because its unhealthy to dwell on such thoughts too much but some minuscule amount of feelings for that person (feelings that are very confusing because it cannot be easily defined) will always linger. i wish them well and hope for the best but right now all i can do is focus on what their energy is doing to me aka undoing my life and making me level up lol and each phase of this journey is unique like that.

in my case, i dont expect to ever unite with him physically. i just dont think its possible tbh but i have a very strong feeling that i will run into him again in a few years and that its part of the journey idk

my advice would be to focus on yourself and not on him but by focusing on yourself, you are healing yourself of what is keeping you in a state where you react negatively to them, ykwim?? dont expect to be with that person, the purpose of a twin flame is to teach you things and help your soul ascend to the next level. union cannot be orchestrated and sometimes god knows best that union is not meant to be in this lifetime. but that does not mean this experience isnt valuable. the experience is what it makes of you. and its vvv easyyy to romanticize a person you dont know very well, just trust that its for the best that youre not with them tbh

#twin flame #sufism

[fagsex]

that last post is so me in a way like. ive always like known i was not a girl or female or anything it has never been a part of me even if i did not know what i was was boy/male until i was around 7, i always knew i was not a girl. so my girlish activities were none other than that of a little faggot. and like i did not like... properly realize people saw me as female until they started calling me the d slur in elementary school LOL and i thought it was the strangest thing...

like i identify more with kurt hummel from glee in childhood more than so many actual trans male characters because i did not even fully comprehend how people saw me i thought i was embarrassing for liking like... fairies and mermaids, not because i thought theyd see me as a girl, but because i thought theyd see me as gay.

and so i tried to act masculine in the same way a gay child would, tried to get beat, get into fights, protect girls, and thats what got me called names, and like my mother always saw me as her Daughter but in my mind i always knew my mother didnt know me, so it didnt really click. i knew technically everyone saw me as her daughter, and i was in girl scouts, i knew i was in a category of Girl but like, it was mostly in a group way. like, if you saw a group of 9 girls and a boy, youd probably refer to them all as girls. i think subconsciously this is how i reasoned it. like i really always saw myself as a male child, theres concerned letters home about me being caught using the bathroom standing up and weird shit like that. but my mother never addressed it, so i never really thought of it as something *i* wasnt supposed to be doing, but *people* werent supposed to do.

i dont know! i found out about transgenderism, or transsexuality as i knew it as a younger child, from family guy, as i presume most children did. my parents were open of support of it, even if they made comments like everyone did until like... 2014. 2015, maybe. i realized that the description fit me years after i knew it, because it didnt Click that that was what i was, female to male. i was just male, in my head. i was my mothers girl, her daughter, but i already knew i wasnt anything of hers. i was in girl scouts, but i was a daisy, a brownie, a cadette, i wasnt a girl. you know what i mean? hilariously, it took caitlyn (caitlin? kaitlyn? whatever) jenner's coming-out for me to realize the word i meant, as it was on the radio constantly, i loved the radio, i loved talk shows, i loved the hosts, whether it was local, npr, or shock jocks, i loved it, its why its my talk tags now.

but at the same time, i heard the disgust over it. it wasnt in my house, really, and my father unfortunately wasnt very present, and my mother left us alone, so i wouldnt even have heard it if it was. but at the same time i learned what i would have to call myself, i learned it was a bad thing. i was never a girl, but i always felt like eve. isnt that strange!

this is mostly just rambling and musing, you can share similar experiences if youd like though! i just had a second to really Think about it and put it in writing.

#emergency broadcast system #abt #<- thats for me to find later LOL

[maxeiil]

something i was thinking bout not too long ago

I was reading James 4 and specifically verse 3 caught my eye; "When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures."

a while ago, I had a crush on this boy, my friends and I called him plum (because my sister said he looks like one lol). I was always praying to God that I would get to know him and he'd love me too-- and it was like that for months. I was absolutely infatuated with the boy. I always brushed off his wrongdoings and just saw them as his personality traits. I was just blinded by 2 things. 1, he was Christian, and 2, he was kind to me when I was the new girl.

Even though I was indirectly rejected so many times, I was just so stubborn about Plum. The boy literally said he liked tall, white, light-eyed, blondes, the complete opposite off what I am, and I was still delusional. When I found out he really hated me, I was crushed... But a while after, I finally snapped out of it and realized.

I didn't really like him, did I. I just wanted someone pretty to obsess over, someone so beautiful, I'd put them on some "holier than all" pedestal. My feelings for Plum were so superficial. And James 4:3 made me think.

I wanted it so bad, but at the same time I didn't really want it. If I did, I would have went for it. Because isnt it ironic how every chance I got to talk to him I didn't? I wasn't meant to. Plum wasn't mine. He may have loved God, but that doesnt mean he would love me.

And like I said, I was just grossly infatuated and obsessed. It wasn't even love. It was all wrong--It was just a silly delusional beyond delusional crush. I did want Plum for my own pleasures and just to be happy. But I never had anything with him. And I was never supposed to.

And you know what? I'm now really glad it went that way. God sent me another boy; I'll call him Ari. Now, the story between me and Ari is definitely for another testimony, but I really hope this was clear. You won't get everything you want just because you ask for it. No matter how good you are. God has a plan for you. Wait for Him; Your time will come.

God bless all, Maya <3

#christianity #my testimony #james 4:3 #envy #wait on the lord

[timeisacephalopod]

I've kinda seen some pushback to the idea of representation in media and I don't necessarily think it's bad to point out actual rights are more important than Disney's thousandth first gay character that's fine, but I've had a LOT of people comment on my works about asexual characters and tell me what I wrote changed their life-and it's always that phrase- because they now have the language to describe what they feel. I've had people who ARENT ace or aro comment that what I wrote finally made a concept they didn't understand make sense, or that the way I explained things was interesting and enlightening and I'm kind of a mediocre writer who hasn't written anything in ages.

Like idk, if reading something from a writer who is fucking around and only somewhat talented can genuinely impact someone because they've not seen anything like them reflected back at them in life or media I don't think pushing for representation in media is as "needless" as some people seem to think and caring about that doesn't mean you don't care about more "important" (although if you think seeing people like you in media ISNT important it's because you already have that representation or are privileged enough to not care if you do, in which case maybe pipe down) stuff. Hell, I even got a Facebook message ages ago from someone who found a comment I left in an ace group about QPR's and what they meant to me and how I perceived them and the person no joke said what I wrote two years before they even found it changed their life forever because they finally knew what kind of relationship they actually wanted.

So like sure, of course there's always bigger fish to fry them diversity in media (you know, like diversity in real life lol) but I don't think it's as frivolous as some people are beginning to act like it is. At least not if you're an aspec person it's not, I STILL don't see ace characters almost ever and I'll bet my whole everything if I asked a writer of a show why they'd tell me that EVERYONE has to be in a sexual relationship and characters that aren't won't sell and are boring- I say this because in film school I had a teacher TELL ME every character needed to basically be sex obsessed and when I pointed out a GREAT MANY CHARACTERS are not revolved around sex (Supernatural stars two brothers, I pointed out) and when she asked if I had love interests I was like ??? That doesn't matter- using my aforementioned supernatural example almost all their love interests die or get mind wiped because at the end of the day that's not what the story was about. So actually I think writers who act like that teacher need like 50 reality checks, and representation in stories isn't unimportant and also support indie writers you'll probably find more funky shit there then Disney anyway lmao.

And also even the asexual characters I DO see in media don't remind me at all of myself even if I appreciate the effort, but they never feel real or genuine and their sexuality doesn't get a lot of exploration so 🤷🏻‍♀️ I actually could use more media focused on characters that I can genuinely see my sexuality reflected in in a meaningful and narratively impactful way because I've got nothing.

#winters ramblings #todd from bojack horseman im sure is SOMEONES version of asexuality but i dont see ANYTHING of myself in him #great character dont get me wrong but not relatable to me on any level including our shared sexuality #sex ed got a bit closer with their brief ace character although maybe she got more exploration in season three or four?? #the latest one i havent watched lmao. but being closer and having a moment wjere shes told shes not broken #while DEEPLY vindicating isnt necessarily all im looking for either #like i wamt a REAL character thats ace or aro or both thats written by people who UNDERSTAND what theyre writting #not just well meaning people who dont know what theyre doing its kind of tiring #also idk why theres no dating shows with gay men because reality dating shows are ALL ABOUT who fucks who and who gets together #gay men would be hooking up ALL OVER THE PLACE and the DRAMA youd think reality tv freaks would be SALIVATING #but no none of that lmao. just ru pauls drag race and thats great it is like its not my bag but people love it #back on yrack though the weord blowback representation is getting is strange and its VERY clear to me #the people writing those posts havent gotten dozens on dozens of messages from people like them who found their writing #and haf their life altered forever for the better because someone who KNOWS what theyre talking about wrote a character like them #and it opened doors they never knew existed. doesnt even need to happen with fiction either i had a friend i had in toronto #tell me the info i sent to her on being aromantic changed her life- THAT'S the phrase i keep getting thats TELLING- because it describefld #described** how shes felt her whole life but didnt have words for. how frivolous IS representation if im getting these messages? #not very i dont think if some rsndom indie fic writer who hadnt written anything substantial in years can change someones life #REPEATEDLY might i add. ive been getting a LOT of messages like this lately and seeing this new bramd of discourse latetly too #like maybe YALL have enough that you dont care anymore but speak for your fucking selves

[species-id]

anon essay entries dump #iforgotlol

Time for another anon Essay entires dump lol (:

"hey,

What nonhumans dont understand about oppression is going to make it a million times harder when or if nonhumanity goes more mainstream. Thereres already so many issues now with humans not seeing an issue with using terms that were meant to be for identity , for roleplay. Nonhumans wonder why this is happening and in the same breath say we arent oppressed hear me out a bit.

Ppl think systemic oppression is people bloody on the streets. And it is. But we cant define oppression by just that caveat to understand its deadliness. Oppression isnt that obvious all the time, and because its not i would say it may be just as deadly.

Now ur probably thinking what does people not considering identity words have anything to do with deadlyness??? Well it doesnt, at least not directly. That would be hyperbole. BUT! These attitudes of taking words of a community and twisting them reveal an attitude that informs all types of oppression.

You see, oppression doesnt *start* in the streets. It starts as a concept, a paradigm. Then a word. Then calling us that. By the time laws are made, its like a mushroom spore. Its BEEN there forever. If you are waiting to talk about nonhuman oppression when a law is passed against us..... Boy i got news for you.

That attitude towards a word is governed by preconcieved ideas that could literally be ancient. Those ideas govern unsaid "laws" that govern how ppl treat us. No matter what law is out there. Transspecies, alterbeing, nonhumans of all kinds are afraid to be fired, not taken seriously , and yes, even unaliving themselves or having someone do that to them. Some work is more risky and has glass cielings for a nonhuman, public work or corporate where you either have to be serious or deal with public perception. Red states ect. The truth is people against transgender identity see us as one and the same, no matter how much yall yell BUT WERE "NOT"!!!

Transphobia is bioessentialist, and there is no room for transspecies identity in that.

I would even argue theres something u see that governs all oppression thats obvious in nonhuman identity but not in others.

And now ur asking.... What ancient idea would govern humans from taking nonhuman identity culture so sloppily????. But also be responsible for everyother oppresion form?? Well....

Anthropocentrism.

The idea humans are separate and greater than animals. I mean society (western) is So engrained in separating human and nonhuman they reserve the term animal for nonhuman s, call themselves people, and all other nature "things".

Not every culture has this vocabulary but you can see how this separation and hiarchy created an obvious rift for transspecies identity but also it created a philosophical weapon for humans that think like this could use , toward other races cultures ect. Dont think ur worthy? They chalk you up to animals. Are animals bad? No, but the shitty western humans think they are, and so you are.

I read a post once on here that said

"Dehumanization as it is known today can only exist as a weapon in a society that disrespects animals and the natural world."

And oh god that has been the best take on nonhuman tumblr i ever seen.

The concept of alienation and disrespect via some sort of weird philosophy about how superior someone is via biology/species is ages old and just takes various forms, and in order to fight all of them, we gotta be aware that it is there, take it seriously, bc no ones gunna do that for you.

None of this "but were still physically xyz -!!!!" leaving out chunks of identities like fuck it yes physical nonhumans, yes growling nonhumans yes weird creature noises!!!! yes to that helps so many that arent nonhuman!! Yes creature noises for neurodivergent humans yes voidpunk Yes we deserve to be engineers, presidents, ceos, and entertainers without looking "civilized" this expectation runs through every oppression i can think of. Be the nice girl, dont be an angry woman, sit, behave, dont stim, you look like a wild animal. We dont reccomend tossing all society out the window, but just saying that to society we exist, in our enboldened state, as an exaggeration. If we speak up, poke our paws out, ask for basic respect. its suddenly too wild.

Well fuck that. Go wild."

#otherkin #nonhuman #alterbeing

[crqstalite]

also i couldn't figure out how to word it.

i. dont like koda anymore lol. i dont think i ever really did.

some analysis...ish below lol

like i doubt this is even slightly relevant to anything anymore considering i stopped writing for her like. months(?) months ago. koda was a weird almagation of everything i ever wanted to do with a shepard and her character suffered for it. she was a war hero with a crystal clean background -- a family woman who ended up with biotics in the end. she had a darkside, part of her she rarely shared. she was everything all at once, and when she couldn't be, i passed parts of her i wanted into other characters.

i originally tried passing it off as that she exhibited a lot of my own personality traits -- acting as if my own emotions weren't really a stake or issue in other people's lives. or that she didn't matter in the grand scheme of things because of her figurehead status.

and that worked. that still works for a decent story beat. she's fascinating and relatable because of it. she was my pet project and she was beloved (by me at least lol) for it.

but since i stopped writing -- i realized it was a copout. characters that came after her (not citlali, because she suffered from so many story changes even i can't remember where or who she is anymore, nor annika for the same reasons) were just. better, because i didn't feel like i was writing about a vessel for the story to flow through instead of around. brione in fact, is the only one i still feel a real desire to write about, and she was never intended to be a shepard. her story was directly about her making her own decisions and making a name for herself.

because they didn't feel like i was writing about me.

all of my first characters in any rpg are me. most of the time. (svenja/reyna/marzeyna didnt suffer from this issue for some reason). and because of that, they get the worst of me most of time. i know the self-insert/mary sue argument has been done at least ten times over since ive been old enough to grasp what it means -- but she was a self insert. a pretty big one at that lol.

writing koda as a self-insert meant i was indirectly using her as a vessel to feel like i had control over my life. she was effectively 'born' in the middle of the covid pandemic and during my sophmore year of high school. i was miserable, feeling trapped and terribly lonely. koda and mass effect in general gave me a place to get away (not healthily, though). now that im in college, she doesnt feel as much of a power fantasy to me anymore. she feels like a person. which isnt bad, but it took away a lot of exploration i felt like i "still" needed to do. the stories i "still" needed to tell didn't feel so. important anymore.

because i'd already done that exploration with myself.

its only been about 2.5 years since then. but ive grown as a person -- and i couldnt reflect those in koda. the flaws id learned to love about myself werent the same as the one id given to her. i couldnt explore them.

there was nothing left to explore. i don't know her flaws anymore, because i realize i wrote her without any real ones. she just. could. she was shepard -- because she was shepard. she was loved by most of her crew members -- because she was shepard. she didn't face conflict -- because she was shepard. she was as much a hollow shell as default shep was, just with a more distinct face and a name.

at the time, i didnt know what made some of my most favorite interpretations of shepard and their story so lovable and fascinating to me. id believed it was just the mere presence of their problems. now though, i realize its because mutuals and other authors allowed their characters to grow without being afraid it would take away from the character.

i couldnt reflect that growth because some of it, id simply never experienced. i have a better understanding of interpersonal relationships now. i can't say ive had an "awakening" or anything (thats a tad dramatic for what im trying to get across lol) -- but im a different person from then to now. two years isnt a lot, surely, but the leap in logic and reasoning from then to now is. large enough that i can recognize i and my perspective is vastly different.

theres no real conclusion to this. not a big fancy ending or some grand analysis -- i was just not great at creating characters. like real ones with real stories and real problems. everytime ive come back to redamancy over the last couple of months, i feel. off about it. not quite right. not quite proud. and i did a shit ton of work for that book when i still felt good about it. when i was still constantly writing 10k word chapters for it.

(which is a feat within itself, im struggling to write three page papers now lol)

i haven't touched it since december almost. maybe longer.

its the longest ive gone without even remotely thinking about koda.

given i suppose its growth. (most likely also that my mass effect hyperfixation died out and i didnt want to admit it. am i capable of enjoying things casually? who knows lol) learning what worked and what didn't -- but its so odd someone that basically defined my fandom presence and myself for almost a year is. really nothing but a handful of unfinished chapters and half baked ideas now.

i don't even know who koda was meant to be. what her story was supposed to represent. someone, surely. but i guess i'll never know.

i dont cringe at her. i value her as someone, maybe something that made me genuinely happy. her relationship with her sister made me happy at least -- her relationship with kaidan made me ecstatic (and arguably mirrors the same type of care and respect i have in my own relationship now, believe it or not. i believe i went and found my own kaidan lol) and her triumphs were my triumphs.

i love space. i love the cyberpunkish future it painted. im such a sucker for it.

eventually my brain juices will probably balance out enough for me to really enjoy the world of mass effect again and koda will get a chance to be revived again as someone separate from myself -- and i wont repeat the same issue with my ME4 protag.

but thats my fascinating thought for like. the next month or so until i have another lol

#welcome to my ted talk lol #anyway ive been lurking for like two days and then wrote this in 20 minutes lmao

[ravenintraining]

MAG 1- Anglerfish

I hate hearing the first episodes of anything over again because the voices lack all of the personality they grow into over time. Especially this posh prick I'm hearing right now.(/j)

(analysis under cut so i don't feel bad)

Anyways, let's get down to business.

I've spent many of the last few weeks trying to visualize the layout of the Archives(for fic writing purposes), and the part where he can see thousands just from where he's sitting (in a room with a door separating it from the rest of the area, as is mentioned later) really throws all of that off. I like to think he saw a bunch of boxes full of papers and assumed those were statements, even though in the event that his predecessor wasn't an eldritch horror they're probably be print-offs from seminars or audit logs or literally anything else. In my head all of them are actually mounds of scrap paper from a local school so that Elias has to deal with the information overload of creative writing classes.

"so the only thing in most of the files are the statements themselves" this is REALLY outing Jon for not understanding what an Archive does. Why, pray tell, would the research be down in long-term storage? When you have a whole section of this Institute called RESEARCH DIVISION? Obviously they'd keep their OWN RECORDS UP THERE. Probably digitized by now because you all had your own computers. Give me a BREAK.

"he's not likely to contribute anything but deh-LAYS >://" i think you should re-adjust that stick up your ass it's starting to effect your Brain. you've known this dude for all of an hour tops calm your tits. Technically speaking so far the only one that's delayed you was your inability to record something digitally and so it's You who is currently delaying the Archives. Chomp my dick loserboy.

Just remembered that these recordings are available to the public. Dog no college student gives a shit about you and your problems they're just gonna make fun of you on the internet. Actually I think a really funny socmed au could come out of the twitter commentary of someone reading the statements from the magnus institute bc the transcriber drops his drama ALL OVER them.

they must have gotten SO many statements in 2012. I mean, people thought the world was going to end. This of course is the largest part behind why I think the Extinction isn't real and is just a version of the End, because it would have manifested in either 1999 or 2012 when everyone was so worried the world would end. (which also, sidenote, i think could have been perfect explanations of end rituals that failed. i think end avatars would 100% try at least a few times)

sorry I haven't even gotten to the statement yet. idk this one really isnt even that interesting? like oooo dude trips on brick path, stranger ignores that he hurt himself and wants to bum a cigarette. i think it would be better if the anglerfish like actually got its hand(s?) on him and then he got away instead bc without that the only scary part is the implications the episode name gives you. it leads to a great reveal of what happened to the victims later on in the melanie statement (stapling her skin back on) but without that context it's just a dude who's talking to you without opening his mouth.

"el oh el" i bet tim and sasha took the tape after he recorded it just to hear how jon would pronounce 'lol.' i only think that bc that's what I would do.

it is interesting that the body doesnt show up in the images though. like i figured considering the way the stranger loves manipulating digital tech that it would get a kick out of the picture showing the guy just floating there boreing its eyes into your skull. like i get it was meant to be the "light" of the anglerfish creating the illusion of a harmless creature that then turns out to not be there but come onnnn is that Really a stranger thing to do. could be so much better. the stranger should get a suggestion box i have some thoughts.

okay that's all folks. catch you tomorrow for the same shenanigans

#mag relisten tag #tma tag #the magnus archives

[princesstokyomoon]

a few weeks ago i was talkin to my gf, and she said cus my sleep is so Fucked i should try to get drugs for that. and when i said "lol the docs always just tell me to eat better and sleep better to fix my sleep schedule, they wont give me drugs", she said i should just get them to give me meds for my depression, cus her ones also help with her sleep.

she didnt seem to understand what i meant when i responded "NAH my depression isnt bad enough, they wont give me drugs for it"

she sorta went "but your therapist acknowledges you have depression?"

so i went like "yeah but its always been considered the Mildest form you can get, they wont give me shit for it. like,,, cus ive never been suicidal as a result of it, that means i dont need drugs."

and i could practically Hear her brain whirring at the idea that i am not suicidal over the voice call. like,,, she just paused in a Particular way she does when she WILDLY cant relate to what im saying.

and it pops into my head every so often and makes me sad. makes me sad when ANYONE feels that way. but i hate the idea that she couldnt relate to the idea of wanting to live? not just that she feels that way, but that im Literally helpless to do anything really. Like,, both of us have Royally fucked up health and sleep cycles, so its hard enough for us to find the time to voice chat (she doesnt particularly like messaging), and she doesnt drive, and tbh even if she COULD i dont think id want her coming to my house while i live with my mum. she struggled enough with the idea of her existence when she came to cheer me up after my dad died, i dont want to have my gf deal with her regularly. but i cant go to her often either, cus i have a cat to look after. wouldnt be so bad if it was JUST the one cat, but my sisters cat is here too, and the two hate each other. so while my sister cant have her cat, my mum looks after her cat, and i look after mine. i cant just leave my cat Alone for too many days thats not fair to her.

it just feels very much like im in a rock and a hard place and im Failing

im 99% sure im NOT failing, my gf is very much the type that would call me out if she was upset with me, its one of the things i love about her. but my brain is constantly in a war between Desperately Clingy Hopeless Romantic, and Extremely Distant Chronic Loner with Zero Dating Experience, and it starts to feel like EVERYTHING i do is wrong, no matter What that thing is.

i HAVE talked about this with her, and jfc i am Blessed she is so much more patient with me than i am tbh. but still im Frustrated by my constant desire to DO things for her, and my even MORE constant inability to do any of them. and the Only thing that makes me not freak out about that is that she has Directly told me she doesnt NEED me to do any of those things.

i dont want any advice for this really. im just very tired, procrastinating going to bed, and needed to scream a little. i didnt even know i needed to scream about this till i started, i went into this post thinkin itd be a "hahaha funni stori" about the differences in our depression and now im here WELP

#sucidal ideation mention i guess???? #im just rambling dont mind me #DONT WORRY I AM NOT SUICIDAL THO QUITE THE OPPOSITE #just dont want anyone accidentally triggered

[dovewingz]

anyway heres my predictions for the next interlude iv maps

ivypool + dovewing

hollyleaf + one of her brothers, or cinderheart

bluestar + fireheart

alt. bluestar + ghost!snowfur

evil!ravenpaw (a comeback) + fireheart or graystripe

mapleshade, somehow. with someone

dawnpelt + tigerheart (post flametail death)

#this isnt meant to be mean or anything lol but there are Many Of Them #im actually rlly excited for the leaf and ash one #cotton speaks

[solariaswitch]

Were Darcy and Stella set up to be narrative foils?

A lot of people showed an interest in my “hot take” (although it really isnt a hot take lol) post about Darcy and Stella being supposed narrative foils and asked me to elaborate. And in full disclosure..,, The more I think about this take the more stupid it sounds but then again, the dumber the theory, the more I like it. And I think this one is pretty cool, even if it might be my imagination and my tendency to overanalyze details that weren’t actually meant to mean anything all. But first things first. I’ve received two questions about what narrative foils are, so here’s a short description that I copied from wikipedia; a foil is a character who contrasts with another character [...] in order to better highlight or differentiate certain qualities [of each other]. And this is exactly what I think Stella and Darcy were meant to do; to contrast each other while also highlighting that witches and fairies really aren’t all that different. 

Now, why do I think they were meant to be narrative foils? Well, to begin with, the writers of Winx really seem to enjoy making their heroes and villains foils. Bloom is a narrative foil to both Icy and Valtor, and one could argue that Faragonda and Griffin are as well. With Stella and Darcy, the first thing to look at is what might be the most obvious part of this relationship; the powers. The relationship between their respective powers parallels the relationship between Blooms and Icy’s fire/ice powers. Light and dark, clarity and deceit. Their powers are two sides of the same coin. Light powers have commonly been associated in almost all cultures with truth, enlightenment and protection, while dark powers are connected with chaos, mental disarray and manipulation, and yet one can not exist without the other. Just take a look at some traditional symbols in many cultures, yin and yang, the celebration of midsummer and the equinox as the times where light and dark are equal. They always contrast each other, it’s their one inherent quality.

Further, Stella and Darcy have personalities that share strong similarities while simultaneously being complete opposites - once again highlighting the yin/yang kind of relationship, where there’s always bound to be a similarity between light and dark. Stella is impulsive and cheerful, loud and expressive. Darcy is all about control, and she’s very emotionally restrictive. But they share some interesting similarities. They both operate as second in command in their respective groups. They’re the respective “hot girl”-stereotype as well, but they live this out in very different ways. Both of them are obviously very pretty and know that their looks can gain them attention and get their will through. Stella expresses at several points that she often feels that people struggle to see past her appearance and that she often feels people only see her as pretty. Darcy also uses her beauty to have people do her bidding, the most obvious example is the Riven ordeal in season one. They’re also both the most fashion-conscious within their respective groups.

Now, let’s talk about character design. Darcy and Stella have the same eye color. And it’s an uncommon eye color, which has led many people in the fandom to speculate if Darcy might be Solarian. Straffi actually put a lot of love and effort into character designs, enough effort to hire actual high fashion designers to help draw the outfits of the show. And so, I’d like to think that not much was left to just pure coincidence. Additionally, it’s an interesting detail to note that Darcy’s secondary color is gold, and Stella is often presented with some purple in her transformations. Here, have these shitty side by side comparisons I made to show my point (and thanks to @bitchatcloudtower for helping me notice this!);

I think that the creators of the show were trying to make a point to highlight these narrative similarities in season one, but then gave up and settled with having Bloom/Icy as the main narrative foil relationship. The Stella/Darcy one is only shown a few times in later seasons but is a bit more prominent early on in the show. In the episode “Date with disaster.” Darcy disguises herself as Stella in order to steal her ring. They chose to specifically send Darcy to steal the ring, despite the trix being fully capable of using illusion powers to send anyone (we see them turn Knut into a human, and Stormy can change her appearance in season two). Arguably, Icy would have been a better actress and had more success at finding the ring, sending her would have made more sense. I think that sending Darcy was a deliberate choice made by the creators to highlight that they were setting Stella and Darcy up as narrative foils, similarly to how they were setting Bloom and Icy up. But like many early subplots in winx, it was buried and forgotten about, or in this case just never explored that much more. Intentional or not, I think it’s an interesting thought.

#darcy #stella #winx club #this is the worst take i have in the fandom and im not even a little bit sorry #actually i am sorry #winx meta

[antiloreolympus]

7 Anti LO Asks

1. Do you know what really gets my blood boiling about this comic? Persephone and Demeter's relationship.

In the myths, Demeter and Persephone loved each other more than anything. Their reunion is so important - it marked the coming of spring and growth. A whole cult was dedicated to this for crying out loud. Yes, the myths were far from perfect, but the Persephone and Demeter myth showed the strength of a loving mother-daughter relationship with Demeter searching endlessly to find her child that was ripped away and had her innocence forcibly taken.

Now, RS is not the only author to make Demeter this over-bearing mother type in order to put more positivity onto the Hades-Persephone relationship. However, RS takes this trend to a whole new level - to the point where I would even consider it misogyny.

How is it, she takes this beautiful mother-daughter relationship and makes it out to be an abusive and controlling one, and then takes the Hades-Persephone relationship from a forceful one to a loving, perfect relationship with no problems? How is it ok to ruin one relationship to elevate another?

I understand that many versions of the myth try to downplay Hades' actions, and even make it so Persephone actually falls in love with him and there is no rape. But it doesn't change that this relationship was problematic, and meant to represent the loss of innocence.

Then fans have the gall to claim this comic is feminist and then claim on top of that that Demeter and Persephone's relationship was the same in the myth? These fans clearly don't know the myths, and neither does RS.

Making Hades a good person is fine. Changing it up a bit to make Persephone's loss of innocence something else is also fine. But ruining Demeter and Persephone's relationship? Especially when Persephone has to spend half the year with her? So horrible. 

2. im sorry, but rachel cant introduce KRONOS coming back and then dropping it for several episodes to focus on a stake-less trail and persephone not knowing what lingerie to seduce hades in. like thats too much of an earth shaking development and huge stake plot point to just ignore for months to focus instead on something as minor as hxp's relationship, which only points out a huge flaw: why is hxp's relationship so minor in this? isnt the whole point supposed to be about them?

3. I think LO completely dropped the ball over Hades’ characterization. 

From the first ep I thought ok, this is good, we have some bones to see he’s not that lucky in love and is just tired and lonely, and while ignoring the creepy actions towards Persephone, I thought ok, Artemis hates him, Hestia hates, even Ares hates him, maybe once Persephone finally sees the underworld and probably gets to know him it’ll be a clever twist and they’ll be proven wrong. The underworld will turn out to be fair and just, the citizens will love Hades, he’ll be revealed to be a good leader and king and not like his brothers, it’ll be like everyone saying Hades of myth isn’t actually that bad, and it’ll help reinforce why this sweet and bubbly Persephone wants him, she sees the real him, not the mean rumors and assumptions, this is perfect.

And then it just didn’t happen. The exact opposite happened, actually.

We’re shown the LO underworld is cruel and unjust, where the poor dead are forced into slavery and Hades created a harsh class divide with him and him only on top, the citizens hate him, the underworld gods don’t trust him and openly seem ok if he’s taken out of power, he’s not a good leader and king and doesn’t even want the job yet keeps it for his own ego and grip of power m, and on top of it all he is just like his brothers, if not worse. He loves to get violent over any little slight against him, he hoards wealth and resources to enrich himself while his citizens starve and struggle to survive, he’s corrupt, he controls all the media and laws to bend to his will, sleeps with his brothers wife for centuries behind his back while claiming to be holier than thou, he has sex with his secretaries who are made dependent on him for any way to survive, and now he lusts after his barely legal intern who is also now dependent on him for her way to survive, and that’s only what I remember off the top of my head.

LO perfectly set up to prove Hades isn’t the devil or the false pop culture assumption that he’s evil and to show some actual facts from myth, and yet Rachel only ended up reinforcing exactly that and even making him even worse with her made up ideas, all while thinking having Persephone ignore or excuse it somehow makes it not bad or even a good thing. It’s honestly kind of impressive just how bad of writing that actually is. 

4. Chapter 172 is not that interesting. It’s setup had me excited to see Hephaestus and Hera and learning more about echo, but it’s cut so short. Because again the story can’t leave HXP out for 2 seconds.

I can also see why Zeus is gonna go insane. 

5. i agree w/ other anon. LO should have pulled a PJO or a BoZ and just made up OCs and have them interact with the gods than whatever Rachel thinks shes doing, which is lying she's being accurate and faithful while completely changing all of it, removing what is needed, and adding what isnt so that it lines up with no actual myth besides like, various 50 shades fanfic she read in 2015 and some popular tumblr text posts.

6 . the animation studio behind blood of zeus literally can only draw one face for the men and one face for the women and they were still able to make the gods all look distinct and hot while LO can't even bother to use more than 6 colors and can only have the women look as tiny as possible with the biggest boobs while the men are all just lego men.

7. ////FP SPOILERS////

Okay so like I stopped reading LO way back before season 1 ended, and a majority of my knowledge of the series comes from what I read here on your blog which is enough for me lol and I decided to read the latest 5 chapters just to see what's up (on zahard. I refuse to give the actual series any views)

And I just. Could not take the whole scene with Daphne running from Apollo seriously? The anatomy and art inconsistency was so distracting that i genuinely could not find it serious. Even when Thanatos discovers her hibernated body I couldn't take it seriously because of how she looked?

And when Hades had that call (??? Was it a call? Or his inner dialogue? I couldn't really tell ngl) with Zeus and said he's causing Persephone unnecessary distress, and that she didn't pose any threat. B!tch??? She killed a ton of mortals??? She has no control over her powers???? She's literally a fugitive for the aforementioned things??? She apparently woke Kronos up? (Idk if anyone knows about that, again my knowledge only spans to whatever I read here) Hello????

And I have a lot to say about the chapters starting the trial but I'll only mention one thing; Hades saying "I don't think blindly supporting my little brother would be doing him any favours (as a ruler)" had me cackling. This is coming from a guy blindly supporting a girl he's literally only known for a few weeks, who's like what, only recently turned 20? Sit tf down Hades you're not cool, you creepy ass overgrown smurf.

Overall I still hate this series lmao. Regarding art though I feel like I wouldn't be so miffed about the anatomy much if the character designs were consistent and the story was compelling. They literally change hairstyles and body types frame by frame, and it's distracting.

The timeline from what I read here is laughable. 4 years in publication with almost 200 chapters and you're telling me only like a month has passed canonically. That's wild and such poor writing.

And as someone who literally will sympathise with any lead character pretty quickly, the story makes me hate them. It makes me want to root against them. I also hate the fact this trash is somehow top ranked on webtoons when so many other stories are far better then it.

Anyway, many thanks to this blog for existing and allowing me to dump so much text here to vent out my hate for this series lmao. You the mvp fam, hope you're having a good day 🥂🥂🥂

#anti lo #anti lore olympus #lore olympus critical #lo critical

[hyperfixiation-of-the-week]

Just wanna say really quick that:

1) Thinking the MCU would give us good queer rep is naive. Its not something I ever believed would happen.

2) Many people DID think this would happen because....many MCU fans ARE naive due to.....being queer teenagers who are desperate for representation

3) it IS queerbaiting in one of the most literal senses. Disney allowed for 1 (one) line of dialogue pertaining to Loki being MLM, and 1 (one) quick flash of evidence that Lokis sex is fluid. These were both done to trick young naive queer fans into thinking they would expand upon this, when they never actually had any intention of doing so. They did this fot views and profit and media attention. Literal queerbaiting

4) uh personally? I dont think you can include Mobius in any of this....i am sorry my friends but.....the Loki/Mobius ship seems to be the kind of thing where a bunch of people see something that wasnt actually intended to be there. And then they go online and post abt how OBVIOUSLY IN LOVE these 2 characters are, which makes others go into the series with pre-conceived notions of what to expect. Which makes them see things that simply arent there.......i am really sorry my guys but..... The writing for loki and mobius never intended for them to be anything but friends.

5) i still like Lokius as a ship but....cmon guys i mean......Mobius is just not involved in the queerbaiting debate. The Lokius relationship was not obvious enough to be considered queerbait.

6) Its not the fault of the viewers if they were queerbaited. This is maybe the biggest media corporation in the world, and blaming young queer kids for feeling let down is ......shitty.

7) especially because in the comic books, Loki IS canonically queer! And he has been for a LONG TIME! so when young queer kids see that Loki has prior canonical evidence of being queer, its only natural for them to HOPE that MAYBE marvel will give a shit about that. And it feels cruel and shitty to.....yknow....make fun of them for it.....

8) the MCU is not the only media corporation that is guilty of this. Supernatural comes to mind but thats a whole different can of worms entirely.

TL;DR:

The Loki show queerbaited its young naive queer audience by promising genderfluid MLM loki, and then never delivered on it. Mobius isnt involved in the queerbaiting bc his relationship with loki is obviously meant to be platonic, sorry guys.

Dont make fun of young kids for being let down by this. Im SURE that all of you felt heartbroken when you realized at the age of 17 that Sherlock or whatever was queerbaiting you.

These kids are at that age now and going through the exact same thing, so to say "its your own fault for being queerbaited lol!" Is kinda shitty.

#moi #loki #lokius #loki 2021 #THE DISCOURSE #mcu #marvel #queerbaiting #mobius

[goldenroutledge]

can i please request “ I love you, I always loved you and I never really stopped. ” with Rafe🥺

second chances

pairing: rafe cameron x reader

wc: 1.8k

warning(s): mentions of throwing up, swearing, angst 😩 & fluff but a happy ending (this isnt canon rafe just a smidge of alcoholic rafe)

a/n: thanks for requesting! im combining this one with “I regret letting you go, okay?”. its more of an imagine lol, you’re welcome 🥰

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2 weeks. It had been 2 weeks since you’d heard from or seen Rafe. As much as you wanted to stay away from him, you couldn’t help but let your mind wonder if he was okay. You always would. Which is why it hurt so much to be apart from him. The two of you had never been apart for more than a few days throughout the entire year you’d been together. But it went down the drain once Rafe began to lose sight of himself, partying and getting wasted until the sun came up.

You hated watching him be so reckless, but you still would rub his back when he threw up in your bathroom. You still let him in every time he knocked on your window and needed a place to crash. Loving Rafe meant loving all of him and his mistakes, and you were more than willing to do so. It’s not like it was all bad, either.

He still paid you attention, but not as much as he used to. You drew the line when you began seeing pictures of him talking to another girl at a party. It could’ve been innocent, but it still broke your heart. He was paying more mind to random girls instead of you. Rafe came over at the end of the night like always, the smell of alcohol replacing his regular fresh cologne scent. The worst part was he didn’t even protest when you suggested taking a break. He walked out with no argument, which hurt you all over again even if you were the one to mention it. Was this what he wanted all along?

You didn’t get a wink of sleep that night, seeing as it’s a little hard to fall asleep when you’re violently sobbing. But soon enough you ran out of tears left to cry. Through the missed calls and irrelevant messages on your phone you finally slept, not bothering to go through them all. Most of them were from Sarah, as she had probably gotten wind of the news at that point.

Truthfully, you didn’t have many good friends. That was something you and Rafe bonded over. People attach to you when you’re up but not caring enough to be there when you’re down. You fought off the urge to call Sarah, you didn’t wanna talk about it with anyone. Anything anyone had to say right now, you didn’t care to hear it. The ‘It’ll get better’s and the ‘He didn’t deserve you anyway’s.

True colors were shown, and you knew they couldn’t care less if you and Rafe were broken up or not. But bashing him wasn’t something you wanted to do either. You wouldn’t let a bad word be said about him because he had been good to you. You settled on texting Sarah, sending ‘i’m okay’.

She read it almost immediately, your phone ringing shortly after. “Hello? Y/n?” She spoke anxiously.

“Hi, Sarah. How are you?” The lack of emotion in your voice made her frown.

“No, how are you, Y/n? Are you really doing okay?” Sarah had been one of your closest friends, so she knew how much you loved Rafe. Even if she didn’t really like hearing about her brother, the way you spoke about him as if he was an angel on earth made her happy that you could find that happiness.

“I mean I could be better. I think I’m gonna take a trip for a few days.”

“Oh.” She responded disappointedly. “I was hoping I could see you. When do you leave?”

“Tomorrow. I’m gonna go stay at my family’s vacation house in Nassau. I need a break.”

“Okay, whatever’s best for you. I’m all for you having fun.”

“Thanks. Maybe you can come by before I go? I’ll have to leave around noon.”

“Sure! I’ll see you tomorrow morning?”

“Yeah, see you tomorrow morning.” You confirmed, saying your goodbyes and hanging up. You sighed, dragging yourself out of bed to complete the packing ahead of you.

-

11:00am

“Where’d you go, Sarah?” Rafe asked his sister as she walked inside the house.

“None of your business.” She replied coldly. He followed her quickly, through the hall and to the kitchen.

“Come on, just tell me.”

“Fine.” She punctuated her sentence by shutting the fridge door loudly, grabbing a water bottle. “I went to Y/n’s. Remember her?”

He nodded at the confirmation, but ignored the last rude comment. “Was she okay? Is she doing alright?”

She sighed in exasperation. “You don’t get to ask that.”

“Please, Sarah. I’ll pay for your next shopping trip just please tell me. It’s driving me insane not knowing.” She smirked, holding her hand out and waiting for him to pay up. He rolled his eyes and grumbled some curses, digging through his wallet and slapping $200 in her hand.

“She’s fine. But I’m sure you’ll see that when she posts all of these bikini pics.” She giggled, counting the bills in her hand.

“What bikini pics?”

“The ones she’s gonna take in Nassau, silly.” She blurted, walking past him.

“She’s going to Nassau? When?”

“Like, an hour.” Sarah shrugged, looking back at him. “Toodles.”

-

Your older sister and brother were coming with you so you wouldn’t be all alone. Where’s the fun in that? They were ready to go for the most part, but were finishing up some packing in the house. Swinging on your porch swing after Sarah just left, your phone went off with a text message from the blonde girl. ‘i’m sorry in advance, i tried to stop him’.

Before you could reply with a ‘stop who?’, Rafe’s truck was flying down the street, coming to a halt at your house. And it was true, she had urged her brother not to go but he was never a good listener anyway. “Y/n?” You froze like a deer in headlights at the sight of him rushing up your driveway.

“You shouldn’t be here, Rafe.” You spoke.

“We need to talk. Please?” As if on queue, your sister strolled out of the house with a few bags to load up in the car.

“Oh, hey, Rafe!” She greeted politely, but confused as to why he was here. He replied to her with a smile, offering to help her with the bags before turning back to you. “You ready to go, Y/n?” She shouted in your direction.

“Yeah.”

“You going somewhere?” Rafe asked in a more hushed tone for privacy.

“Yeah, far away from you. Nassau.”

He hummed. “How long are you supposed to be gone for?”

“2 weeks.”

He sighed, running a hand through his hair. “Oh. 2 weeks.”

“What did you come here for, Rafe? I need to leave soon.”

“Right, uh- I just need to explain myself. Before you go. Please?” His eyes wore a pleading look, the ones you couldn’t resist.

“Fine. Let’s go for a walk.” You settled, leading him to a more private area of the property. A few minutes of silence went by, Rafe being the first to speak up. Seeing as though you were pretty much silent.

“I’m sorry, Y/n, for these last few weeks. I’ve been an inconsiderate asshole and I hate myself for disregarding you like I did. You don’t deserve that.” His voice wasn’t very loud, but you could hear him loud and clear. You didn’t say anything, though. The sounds of your footsteps beside his filling your silence. “I regret letting you go, okay? And I know you suggested the break but that was only because I was being an idiot. I miss you a lot.”

You had to keep from looking down at the ground so tears wouldn’t pool in your eyes. You hummed in thought. “I guess you don’t realize what you have until it’s gone.”

“Yeah. And that was stupid of me. You told me to tone down the partying and I didn’t listen. I’m sorry about the pictures, too. I don’t know what I was thinking, Y/n.”

“Clearly you weren’t.” You quipped, smiling and nudging his arm. He chuckled at your lighthearted insult, his eyes softening in the short but sweet eye contact you made. “I miss you, too, by the way.” You admitted sheepishly.

He let out a small sigh of relief, watching you fidget with your rings before taking your hand and holding it in his. You didn’t fight it off, in fact, you intertwined your fingers to give him some reassurance. You both smiled at the contact. Rafe thought for a moment, deciding to take another leap of faith. He cleared his throat. “Do you think you could ever give me another chance?”

“If you slow down the partying and stuff. I don’t wanna have to be worried about you all the time, Rafe. It’s not good for me.”

“I know. But I’d never risk losing you again.” He stopped walking, turning to face in front of you. “Please? I’d do anything.”

“Like pay Sarah $200 just to hear if I’m okay?” You asked him teasingly. He turned red, mentally cursing Sarah for telling you he did such a thing.

“Uh- yeah. I just um, wanted to know that you’re alright.” He stuttered out.

“You’re crazy, Rafe.” You laughed to yourself, patting a hand on his chest. “And clearly I am too for giving you another chance.”

It took his brain a moment to register your words, before he picked you up and spun you around a little. You shrieked at the sudden movement, as he placed you back down and held you close to his chest. “Thank you, Y/n. I love you, I always loved you and I never really stopped.”

“I love you too, Rafey.” His heart fluttered at your nickname for him, but he would never admit it. He really didn’t have to, you could feel his heart racing in his chest. It was your turn to take a leap of faith, guiding his lips down to yours in a passionate kiss.

You only pulled away because your phone rang, your sister’s contact taking over the screen. “Y/n? Where the hell did you go? We’re about to leave you here, damnit.”

“Shut up, I’ll be right there.” You told her before hanging up. “Babe?” He hummed in response, his hands finding home on your hips as you hung your arms around his neck. “Would you like to come with me to Nassau? I mean, I think it would be a nice way for us to start over.”

“I’d love to.” You both wore matching grins on your face, leaning in for a kiss once more. “I gotta pack all my stuff, though.”

“Let’s go then, we’ll get it done faster if I help.” He agreed before you rushed to his house, asking your brother to stall your impatient sister. You got back home just time, cuddling up next to Rafe in the backseat on the journey to the airstrip.

Paradise, here we come.

a/n: the ending was ass goodbye. this whole thing probably was OOPS 😩

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9-1-1 and Lone Star reactions (5/2/22)

9-1-1 (May Day)

i wanna fuck this Claudette bitch up

Albert clean shaven again?? thank god

i'd still set the world on fire for angela bassett

i used to like Josh but lately i feel like his character has been so weird like ooc and super annoying

those two just standing by sipping their coffee watching May go tf OFF at Claudette iconic truly

Eddie to the rescue

THE ALARM ISNT WORKING OH FUCK

oh this is crazy. Albert? Monday??? dude

wait so they're RIGHT above the blazing fire and not noticing any heat or anything. i mean i guess? cause like shoes they wouldn't feel the floor getting warm if that's a thing that would happen? idk im not a firefighter lmao i might be being stupid that just seems odd

okay okay NOW right after I type that Claudette goes "why is it so hot in here" Okay nvm ig!

NO WAIT SO THE FIRE WAS RIGHT OUTSIDE THE ROOM NO OKAY I FEEL LIKE THEY WOULDVE NOTICED THAT A LITTLE EARLIER THAN JUST NOW LOL

if they're abt to make me sympathize for Claudette........im not sympathetic towards rude bitches who are proud of their rudeness idk sorry!

like yeah that seriously sucks and im rlly genuinely sorry that happened to you Claudette BUT too many shows have shitty characters with poorly written sob story redemption plotlines that are meant to make me forgive their behavior. and im not forgiving your behavior bc of this!

"Josh, you're a dispatcher, not a firefighter. Today, you're a guest in this house."

"He's been waiting months to say that."

AS HE SHOULD YEP YEP YEP GET HIS ASS EDDIE

sorry maybe im being too rude to Josh for no reason i just can't stand him anymore 😭

i like Carson can we keep him around he's fun

Eddie getting Buck to stfu abt the fire-truck-on-leg aftermath god they're the greatest duo. Now kiss ffs

BOBBY ARE YOU CRAZY

yeah no time to wait around and share meaningful looks GET THE HELL OUT OF THERE ITS ON FIRE

you can't just make me watch Albert almost die and then trap May and Bobby under the ceiling AND THEN cut to a goddamn lowe's commercial

the 118 coming together to try to save Bobby im not crying youre crying shut up

THEYRE OKAY THANK GOD for a second i was thinking one of them was gonna be dead and i was RLLY gonna be crying then

YES EDDIE man knows where he belongs

Evan Buckley im gonna smack you if you don't stop treating Taylor like this I hate Taylor but I also hate Lucy and yknow what i hate the most? Buck's vanishing character development idk

May calling Bobby her dad IM NOT CRYING YOURE CRYING SHUT UP

pre Lone Star comment: im hoping this week's episode has a little Marjan cause i missed her last week there was hardly any of her i missed my girlfriend ! but judging by the preview i am not very hopeful for much Marjan screentime SO MAYBE NEXT WEEK

(back to 9-1-1 this episode isn't over yet)

i may dislike Josh but the mlm rep ! woohoo !

han brothers <<<3333 i love them

WOAH THEY KILLED OFF CLAUDETTE????

wow and something's up with Monday OH MY GOD THE PREVIEW FOR NEXT WEEK????? HOLY SHIT

9-1-1: Lone Star (Shift-less)

BANGER song in the beginning omg this song always reminds me of the Psych episode Talk Derby to Me cause it plays at the end when Shawn and Jules are skating together god i love Psych

dude what just- Tyler???

are pay phones wired to like not require money if you dial 911. cause like Owen didn't pay for the call and that would make sense cause it's the emergency line

i'm gonna Google it

YEP yep they can't charge for emergency calls that makes so much sense i had never even thought abt that

omg i forgot abt Wyatt

did Judd just throw up a peace sign cause oh my god that's funny

sidenote: im drinking an energy drink while watching these. it's currently 1am. im surely gonna regret this

room 127? 127?? nct 127?? alexa play superhuman

im rlly enjoying looking into Owen's childhood. as heart-wrenching as it is, it gives his character a further depth that was needed

THE CLOWNNNNN OHHHHH

oh god Judd oh no

"Hey, Wyatt, look at the damn thing. You ain't gonna make it worse." i laughed i love Judd sm

i mean he DID say he'd scream and pass out !

follow up on the pre Lone Star comment: no Marjan whatsoever i still miss my girlfriend this is devastating

no cause i relate so hard to Wyatt being all panicky not knowing what to do until Judd passes out and he's basically alone to figure it out himself. i work so much better, even under pressure, when no one is watching me

i love May + Bobby having their "she called me dad" moment AND Wyatt + Judd having their "he called me dad" moment in the same night that's so fun

Overall Comments

it seems 9-1-1 is still adhering more to the format of emergency calls, while Lone Star is more fleshing out the MCs' storylines.

i don't think one is better than the other necessarily, but i do miss having more consistency with Lone Star's format. but the storylines they're working with are pretty damn good and they're actually making me CARE abt the first responders' lives outside of the job. given that the show is meant to be centered around the job.

in 9-1-1 i'm usually less invested in the non-emergency storylines but i think that's because it feels like an afterthought for 9-1-1 while for Lone Star it's more of the focus now. that's interesting.

although, Lone Star focusing more on MC storylines does mean we see some character wayyyyy more than others and i don't like that very much. i miss seeing more of marjan and paul and all of them cause it feels like we're focusing so much on owen, judd's family, and even tk. love them all and love their plotlines.

just wish there was a better character balance in Lone Star. but the same could be said for 9-1-1 sometimes so yknow 🤷

right i think that's all i wanna say thank you and goodnight it's 2am !

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