#this. this is why

[xysidhequeen]

Current count since I last slept: 41 hours.

I think I've capped out at 46 before, I'm not sure because my worst fit of insomnia had me in no position to check times. But I'll say 46. So if we hit 48 we're setting personal records!

#i do not want to actually be awake #my body just physically cant process stress #'oh zee why cant you be in a car?' #this. this is why #and you might think: 'oh this cant be because you were in a car!' #it is. it so totally is #and also stress #but mostly i blame being in a car #everytime i get in a car i get sick #motion sickness vertigo dizziness insomnia #my body is violently against automobiles #which is actually so annoying because i finally own one of my dream cars #and wanna know when i last drove my baby? #A YEAR AND FIVE FUCKING MONTHS AGO #Also please for the love of fuck do not suggest anything to help me sleep #i. have. tried. it. #when im dealing with insomnia like this the only way it stops is preceiotion strength meds or my body calms itself the fuck down #no teas no melatonin no meditating no lettuce water no hot milk NOTHING will work #and also even prescription strength meds dont always work when its like this i have woken up like two hours after taking some b4 #when my body doesnt want to sleep it will not sleep #you can tell how little sleep im running on based on how unhinged these tags are

[aritany]

tomorrow i work 5:15-10am and then immediately 10-4pm. there’s no point to this post i’m just miserable

#retail #if you’re like huh it’s been a second i wonder why alex hasn’t responded to my messages #this. this is why #alex talks #life stuff #not writing

[jazzcat247]

"I am getting sick and tired of his meltdowns! When are you two going to step in when he throws a fit!?"

"I was too busy with a VIP band concert, Officer Vanessa-"

"'Throws a fit?' Those kiddos were playing tug-of-war with his ears, vanessa. What did you want him to do? Sit back and take it?"

"Bonnie, please-"

"Listen, if you two don't get that brat under control, managment will have me drag him down to parts and service myself to get those things removed."

"This will be your first and only warning."

#fnaf security breach #fnaf sb bonnie #fnaf glamrock freddy #fnaf vanessa #fnaf dumbo au #ya'll see why i don't have backgrounds? #this. this is why

[girlstressed]

can’t stop smiling in inappropriate situations

#personal #ITS A REFLEX IDK WHY I USED TO HAVE A RBF AND NOW I HAVE A RESTING SMILING FACE???

[stargoyle]

"This person has a secret onlyfans!" "This artist does NSFW commissions!" "This author writes porn on the side!" I cannot begin to tell you how swag and awesome that is.

#text post #sex work is normal its not dirty or criminal why are we still freaking tf out ove this

[thatdelusionalnerd]

ATTENTION TUMBLR

CHOCOLATE GUY'S BIRTHDAY IS IDES OF MARCH

#amaury guichon #chocolate guy #ides of march #cor speaks #WHY ISNT ANYONE LOSING THEIR MIND OVER THIS! #MARCH 15 #!! #julius caesar #The chocolate guy #*10k #*20k #*30K #*40K #*50K #*60K

[theboxfort]

Peace and love

#pink posts #i saw a tweet that was like “i see other people's art” --> i get discouraged #i understand that seeing art that is prettier than yours can be discouraging but why not twist that a bit? #why does it look prettier to you? is it the colors #is it the textures they used? the brushes? #study them and try to put your spin on it #and maybe you'll find your art beautiful as well

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[striving-artist]

The best piece of advice I ever got was not meant as advice, but as an edict. If I was going to threaten people as a joke, it had to be so far out of proportion with what happened that it would be obvious I was joking. This changed how I expressed frustration with others. It then changed how I expressed frustration with myself.

Not “I’m going to hit you” but “I am going to buy a tuna sub from the gas station and hide it under the seat of your car”

Not “I’m going to kill myself” but “I am going to walk into the desert and let the scarabs take me”

The other side then happened. When I mess something up, instead of saying it’s bad and perpetuating negative thoughts, swing hard the other way.

Not “this art is terrible” but “this shall be framed and mounted on the wall in my museum exhibition as testament to the suffering I had to overcome”

Have been doing this since high school. It was my drama teacher who asked me to please stop scaring the actors. The other half of the edict was that I had to say it in a polite tone, and end it with either please or thank you.

Life changing. 10/10 Mr Muëller. Highly reccomend.

#my life #why yes #this is obvious in my writing #thank you for asking

[apollos-boyfriend]

reblog if you agree

#icarus speaks #containment breach #why he ourple #flashing lights

[mudanonaito]

#Dungeon Meshi #Delicious In Dungeon #dungeonmeshiedit #senshi #dmgifs #mygifs #this was so funny to me jdsaghjsdhg idk why #this is exactly how i look waiting for my water to boil when im cooking #500 #1k #5k #10k

[catchymemes]

#yea im an outfit repeater but why r U an outfit remember?? #funny #lol #haha #humor #meme #memes #tweet #twitter

[despazito]

Adult website and period tracker

[saracastically]

now she’s all ready for spooky season—are you? 🌕🐺

#animation #werewolf #artists on tumblr #procreate #idk WHY i had to paint in every single frame in procreate and also in parts #bc the layering meant i hit max layers and had to flatten as i cleaned #but the end result is ok and i could do it on the couch ig #looking forward to their new app! #art

[beaft]

i went to get my t-shot yesterday and it took me an hour and a half to get to the clinic and as soon as i got on the bed the nurse dropped my t-shot and it broke and now they're trying to make me pay for the replacement. i think the fuck not lmao

#why should i have to pay money because SOMEONE ELSE dropped my medication!!! make it make sense #also they kept referring to 'the medicine that got broken' please drop that youtuber apology line and lose the passive voice #it did not 'get broken' YOU BROKE IT #madness. utter madness.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Expertise can't help you here.

#dungeon meshi #kabru #laios touden #falin touden #Happy Thistle Thursday once again. Have I been holding on to this comic for several weeks? Sure have! #I forgot how long it takes for Chimera Falin to come into play. #I still really love my 'better drawn' art of her - unfortunately it was several weeks too early for the anime only folks. #Slowly getting the hang of drawing Laios. I don't know why I struggle so much but I am getting...somewhere. #Meta time: God damn I love how the chimera shows off the expertise and gap between Kabru and Laios. #The truth is: they are both *right* and they are both *wrong*. #This creature is a combination of monster and human and they only have the skillset to deal with one of those. #Kabru goes for all the human vitals - but she isn't human. #Laios tries to approach her as a monster and is struck down by the humanity he sees in her. #She is something new that defies what they *both* understand about the world. And that makes her such a perfect antagonist. #The damsel was the dragon all along! #...She is really so cute though. Terrifying! But adorable. I am so excited to see the boom of fanart for her.