#ugh theyre so real

[xiewho]

the duo Ever

#fantasy high #dimension 20 #gorgug thistlespring #fig faeth #fantasy high junior year #when u and ur bff just have zero fucking clue whats going on #ugh theyre so real #fhjy #dimension 20 fanart #fantasy high fanart #d20 #YAYYY IM CAUGHT UP NOW everybody claps #I FORGOT AYDA'S FEATHER i am going to lock myself up #my art

[spirk-trek]

imagine amanda watching how mothers on vulcan share a telepathic bond with their children and not being able to do this for spock

imagine how it would break her heart, how she might worry they'll never connect when she sees a mother touching her daughter's face or holding her son's hand with purpose, without words

imagine spock melding with her as soon as he's able, showing her he loves her because he can't say it, he'll never be able to say it

imagine her being so proud of her little boy for researching and teaching himself to meld with a non-telepath just for her, all for her

holding him after when he's so exhausted he goes boneless in her arms and she strokes his hair and thanks him

and he mumbles something about it being illogical to thank him before falling asleep and she holds his little hand and feels the tiniest sparks of love still there, so small she might've imagined them before he's snoring softly

#this whole headcanon is probably too soft for “real” vulcans but whatever #and ugh spock crying as a baby more than (fully) vulcan children #sarek just touches his forehead and senses what he needs/quiets him #and she feels like a terrible mother for not being able to do it herself #fuck fuck fuck #spock's mind must have been so lonely #like vulcan parents must start bonding with their children the second theyre born right? #with nursing them and holding them and caring for them #wahhh #vulcan #sarek #star trek #head canon #inspiration? #spock #star trek tos #the original series #my text #amanda grayson #sarmanda #star trek the original series #headcanon #fanfic

[puppyeared]

beep beep im a sheep

speeddraw below the cut (audio warning)

song: "Cult of Dionysis" by The Orion Experience

#before anybody says anything i have never played cotl in my entire life and i dont plan to. but. crow showed me some narilamb art #and i. well.. HMMMMM kinda fruity if i do say so myself.. #also i wanted to play around with the lambs design and had fun basing their outfit a little on crusader armor. mostly the cloth in the fron #i dont think id last 10 minutes playing cotl. partly because i suck at strategy games and not hugely drawn to roguelike games #and partly because i think i would cry real tears if i had to sacrifice someone despite fully knowing theyre nonsentient npc characters #i must admit i think the world and gameplay mechanics are interesting.. havent watched any playthroughs but ive been skimming thru the #wiki pages. kindareminds me of binding of Isaac but i dont have the patience for those kinds of games sadly #also apparently u guys are getting a sex update so i feel like ill be in full blast of whatever comes out of that #i might draw god of death lamb because i kind of have an idea of what their horns would look like. but im gonna hate drawing an outfit ugh #noooo dont usurp god and reap destruction for generations to come youre so sexy haha #cotl #cult of the lamb #cotl lamb #cotl lambert #cotl fanart #my art #myart #videos #speeddraw #progress art

[luck-of-the-drawings]

my TWO FAVORITE THINGS IN THE WORLD, VAMPIRES N COWBOYS... deacon keller is SUCH a fun character, hes charming and funny but ALSO formidable and STRONG when he feels he needsta be. i hope him and arthur can get a chance to talk more and be better friends. l ike really good friend s. . like. like really good f. hangon i gotta go i think i hauve rabies.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #deacon keller #arthur bennett #OOUGUGHHAAOGUguguhh i feel so cringe whenever i ship two characters. like theyre not even REAL #why cant i be more 'hyperfixated' on getting bitched or something. CHRIST. anwyay i want em to hold hands or smth. yknow. freak stuff. #SO DEACON KELLER!! HE OVERHEARD ARTHUR TALKIN ABT THIS PLACE GETTING ATTACKED.. WE SAW HIM APPROACHING #AND THEN THE WHOLE FEAST PORTION OF THE PARTY HAPPENED N HE GOT STUCK #BUT HE KNEEEWW HE OVERHEARD ARTHUR SOMEHOW!! i just think thats neat. hes dedicated to protecting his people. hes respectable!! #GOD he doesnt even have that much screen time but i LOVE HIMMM n his silly lil shadow steed named Sunshine.. like cmon.... ugh..... #hes sweet n hes funny and he CAARES about the things hes in charge of on some levels. he certainly does his best to look after his own. #god idk what else to write here other than how much hes been on my MMMIND lately. the doctors are still running diagnostiscs #i just think hes so neat... also i think its funny that hes afraid o snakes. OH YKNOW lemme just talk abt my damn art. first o all this too #SSSOOO LONG. WEEKS EVEN.IVE BEEN WORKIN ON IT SINCE EP 5 WAS ON PATREON.it was sposed to be justa buncha doodles but then it Evolved #idk man...cowboys are just so cool...especially w VAMP POWERS..fastest shot in the west for a REASON BABY...n with the red smoke #n the glowing eyes..CMOn thats so cool i hadta get my visions into reality. the eyes were inspired by the music video for RATTLESNAKE (kglw #that where the IM THE SERPENT lines come from.lyrics from tha song.ooh yeah i love kglw so much...i also have other hidden messages here #i like to hide things...ALSO ALSO. I HAD SO MUCH TROUBLE W SO MUCH O THIS. the two bits with arthur n deacon biting eachother. AGONY #POSES ARE SO HHARRDDD SAME WITH THAT doodle o arthur slammin deacons head into the ground. WEEKS to get that pose RIGHT. I BLED SO MUCH #OHH AND GUNS???COWBOYHATS?? HIS GAY LIL JACKET? W THE DANGLIES?? AGOONYYY IT TOOK SO LONG TO PERFECT IT..especialy guns. OUUUHH #i also dont draw mustaches enough... which sucks bc im weak for a good mustache... BUT i think im doing pretty well on that. #it was hard but yknow what!! i think i did good! i rly like how this all turned out!! EXCEPT FOR THA FUCKIN RIBBON BOW THING I FORGOT TODRA #IN THE TOP RIGHT... THAT I JSUT NOTICED...its fine its fine i dont care that much. this is good enough to FEAST upon so im content n happy. #anyway i gotta leave ina few hours to start TRAINING for my NEW JOB!! CHEER FOR ME!! TRUCK IS A BLACKJACK DEALER NOW!! IEAAAHHH BABYYYY!!!! #thanku for reading my weird lil scrolls i bury beneath my posts. if u leave tags i WILL absorb them. and feel joy.

[shopcat]

if they met each other in elementary school steve would be like you know i have a horse and robin would look up from the dogshit coloured pencil drawing she was making and would be like this is a PEGASUS -_- and steve would panic and be like i know. i own one of those too. and robin would be like no you fucking don't because she was one of those little kids that swore and steve's eyes would get huge and he'd be like oh my freak she said the f word but on the outside he'd be like YES I DO i can SHOW YOU i have to brush her every day or my mom gets mad at me her name is rosie and robin's like ugh why is this dork even talking to me and would look him up and down and realise they both have bandaids on their knees but his is pink and hers is blue and to her that is a +1 point in his favour plus she secretly absolutely cannot miss the chance of this being real because she knows pegasuses obviously exist but why would STEVE HARRINGTON have one that's so not true

and she decides that like okay fine steve harrington's house gives out full sized hershey's every halloween and he always has this huge pack of pencils like the real fancy ones with the cool colours like silver and and gold and 4 shades of pink and he lets everyone borrow them and doesn't even get mad when kids shove them into their own bags so maybe he does own a pegasus but he TOTALLY wouldn't love her or anything he doesn't deserve her at all but robin really really needs to see it and make it love HER so it runs away and lives with her instead because she has a HUGE backyard okay it always takes her dad ages to rake up all the leaves and she goes well then prove it and steve is like :D okay come by my house after school !!!! and robin's like i can't i have swim lessons and steve's like it's fine i have a pool and this makes sense to their child logic and she's like fine tell your mom to call my mom and steve's like okay and then he walks away really quickly to go have a panic attack in the boys bathroom because he was lying from the beginning and needs to figure out a way to dress rosie up so that robin will believe that a pegasus has been magically transformed into a senile golden retriever. and robin continues colouring in her dogshit horse with wings with a blue pencil that was carefully labelled "s.h."

#🍦 #THEYRE SO CUTIES #i really like those two pictures of them they're so cute also the idea of this has made me cry obviously #imagining themlike. 10 or 11. still just kids but the funny kind #like are they getting into any secret government lab monster conspiracies no. are they trying to orchestrate breaking into mark h's house #to take all his limited edition dr pepper that he selfishly hoards away in his closet steve KNOWS he's BEEN there it's the TREASURE TROVE #robin trust me and he won't even notice they're gone COME ON it's limited edition!!! . yes they are #i'm imagining like all the bobs burger adjacent shenanigans like louise gets into. kids r so fun #thehre like yes santa is obviously real and also all monsters and unicorns etc. but also i know the word motherfucker and just learnt #what watergate is and i WILL be talking about it and playing secret government ops with my friends #ugh #anyway #sts

[wuntrum]

mentioned maybe switching to something in tech career-wise to my therapist and he told me someone he knows who got a certification in cyber security w/o any other schooling and 2 years later is now making 300k/year working from home. grits teeth

#personal #like damn okay maybe thats where i gotta go for real 😭 #like i dont wanna be rich! i just dont want to have to worry about money allllll the time #the idea of also having an indie press to help other ppl #publish books (as well as my own lol) sounds really lovely... #and itd make the taxes thing so much easier 😭 ugh idk man #staying at my current job until top surgery at least. bc theyre rly understanding

[monsterroonio]

more surface Rood because I am obsessed with them. They're so emotionally stunted its crazy

#look at them!!! #ugh #i love them sm #theyre so nervous #its so funny because in the underground they literally try to kill eachother in public #but on the surface they get scared to hold hands #enemies to lovers realness #rood #surface rood #red #roo #roo art #underfell sans #fell sans #underfell #underfell sona #underfell oc #dude idk what she is anymore #shes swag #thumbs up

[softsummermover]

i love this costume. its like some kind of high fantasy military uniform or some shit and i haven't seen anyone talking about it

+ this was a period where jon was very soft and roundly shaped and im here for it ngl. also shoutout to the way his hair was styled for this photoshoot it also adds to the Vibe i feel

#also check out chris!!!! the silly fish man #hes standing with his legs spread out real far so he still fits in the picture next to jon lmao #theyre both looking really good here ugh #yes band #jon anderson #chris squire

[gayspock]

i havent been to the gym since i moved out & i wanna get active again but fr -_- i feel like everything is too much faff, too expensive or something that will bore me to tearssssss

#egg.txt #i was like ok before i go sign up to a new place i'll do the chloe ting workouts just to get a routine back in #my god . i have never wanted to sob more from just being so understimulated in my life #but theyre all the SAAAAAME. IM GOING TOKILLMYSELFFFFF. #and the stupid music makes me want to put knives in my fucking ears #i'd gym again but i just couldnt keep waking up at 5am i wasnt getting sleep & half the time i wasnt even able to get a good work out in #like it would be 30mins max of actual exercise and then like #+ so much more time just getting there and it was wrecking everything else in my schedule #it sounds so dumb but even shit like having to drop my bagg off & pick it up every day meant i had to get later buses (& more) #and it would mean just losing hours in total at that point. for what. for a 30 min workout. when i wasnt making any progress with anyway bc #i was getting no sleep? 😭 #i wanted ot try running outside again but ugh not to be a baby but people have been harassing me in the street so much more again and i jus #cant fucking do it broooo #and im too shy for most classes . the other stuff is crazy expensive . im going to start gnawing on something for real #i was thinking abt bouldering but it looks so crazy fucking expensive #its rlly a shame bc i did rlly start to get into running too. i could get a treadmill but idek where to put it rn and it feels crazy #to get one when i dont even have a couch... ehrm

[anxiously-sidequesting]

the only reason why I dont post more about gretta darkkettle is because then I'd actually get Serious on here

#listen yall im not really the type of person to let a fictional character get me actually riled up (negative) irl #cuz theyre just tools in a narrative not real people #but like dont some of you have just That One Character that you actually just Hate. #actually i dont think id have so much of a problem eith gretta if she were written to actually face consequences and not be a free woman #but like. we have a game that introduces serious issues within it right? please portray that PROPERLY .... #like okay we all know that wizard101 isnt exactly the pinnacle of genius and sensitive writing #theres like 800 more topics in the game that were handled horribly that are much more important than gretta but. #i wont even get INTO gretta ANYMORE SUALAJSOSHDU she. she ugh. she really makes me (commits murder on a wide scale) #like i was thinking of doing an essay on her but for many reasons i decided against that. one of those reasons is that I Love Myself Actualy #anyways this post is useless. HAKWHEOEH bit idgaf i like to air out my thoughts like stinky laundry #its always noteworthy to me when fiction actually makes me MAD. a lot of the things in wizard101 is like that for me. goos job kingsisle /s #wizard101 #wiz101 #w101 #text posts

[theprodigxl-daughter]

gotta love how christians on tumblr will see us being like 'I would fight god in a parking lot' 'christianity ruined my life' '*extensive post about all the ways the church traumatized you*' and think 'wow surely these people seem like people who would love to hear about christ. it really seems like if i say "god loves you" or, worse, if i offend them and tell them to repent they WILL convert'. like, my guy, what's not clicking here.

#somehow they seem to leave me alone???? but i've seem what's been happening with my mutuals and ugh #its disgusting #not that we can expect them to respect boundaries but like. #most if not all of us have extensively discussed our trauma in these blogs bc it's what we created them for #some of us have shared here what we perhaps would never tell another soul in real life #these blogs are a open wound for all to see because for a lot of us being open about this hurt is what allowed us to move towards healing #which is why these blogs and this space is sacred theyre supposed to be a safe space #but OF COURSE they wouldn't respect that #and it doesn't surprise me it really doesnt but oh boy #the expectations were low and they weren't met how can a group of people suck SO BAD #leave us alone for fuck's sake #ex christian #ex religious #exvangelical #ex fundamentalist

[qeyond]

Ok for real tho they went off hard with the aesthetic of the physical LABB Murder Cases novel. Like they did not have to make it so damn sexy but they did and god bless em for that

#qeyond sucks #labb #death note #like for real im looking at my copy and like #no wonder i turned into an emo kid look at that shit!!! #matte white embossed half dust jacket?? black fabric hard cover??? silver and black font?? #the textures of the card stock on the front and back?? the semi see through parchment??? #the opening art?? the chapter art??? the font choices?? the whole layout of the story and the yellowed pages??? #mwua mwua mwua kisskisskisskiss #oh and the little black ribbon bookmark?? LETS GOOOO #like i loved this book so much i bought a replacement for my original one from 2008 #cuz when i was a kid it got all scuffed up in my backpack + my mom accidentally spilled coffee on it :((( #it was physically fine but the silver print was rubbing off and the dust jacket was super fucked #i kinda wish i kept my original tho idk where it went. i probably sold it when i moved out to downsize #got the newer one second hand at a con #ANYWAY in love with all both the death note novels theyre so pretty #perfrctly pretty like the mangas ugh #please pay no mind to the photo quality nfjsjjfs #anyway im just wow you beautiful bitch #they put their whole pussy in this thing #end rant. i just 🥺🥺🥺💕💕💕💕

[veilkeeper]

inspired by that tav as a companion ask game, i realized that roz would be a really interesting companion, so i wanted to get my thoughts out while they're on my brain

they'd probably be encountered shortly outside the nautiloid - or, as i discussed in my ask, on the risen road. as a githyanki, shadowheart isn't into them, but its whatever, theyre chill, and it becomes apparent very quickly that while they take the tadpole business very seriously, they have identified the PC as the Leader, and they are following.

they're not very outspoken. they dont have a lot of ambient dialogue, they're blunt (in a sort of funny way), they answer questions that you or other party members ask, but they don't really offer up anything freely, even when the PC talks to them in camp.

however, if the PC keeps them in the party, they will occasionally make comments about the environemnt. maybe they mention recognizing the area or they seem weirdly knowledgeable about faerun for a githyanki, so back at camp the PC can ask them questions about it. sort of like sten in DA:O. and they'll tell the PC about how they were forced to leave their creche as a child. if the player changes them out of their camp clothes (or once you reach a certain approval threshold) it triggers a cutscene where you see their (extensive) burn scars and the PC can ask about them, and they would explain that they were badly injured when their creche burned and they were taken in by a woman in elturel.

if the PC takes them to the creche (established after their own creche was destroyed), particularly if they're taken to the monastery above it, they would have a lot of commentary about lathander and seem really... sorrowful about the state of disrepair, and if asked about it later they would say that the woman who took them in was a healer dedicated to lathander, that they spent a lot of time in the temple in elturel, they would even ask about your gods if you have any.

none of this is offered. it would always be the PC approaching them and asking. the more time invested in them, the more they're willing to give.

after both roz and lae'zel are declared Hshar'lak (because they both would be), and if the PC has talked to them enough, they would ask for help tracking down the woman who took them in, mauna. they express a desire to right a wrong, that perhaps they had been hasty in leaving her behind to return to their people, and that they'd like to make amends with her. this properly starts their personal quest.

as their questline progresses, it starts to become clear that mauna's relationship with roz was... pretty bad, actually. mauna leveraged the fact that she saved their life to make them feel like they owed her, so that they would do a lot of dirty work to help her in her aspirations to climb the ladder and become a political powerhouse in the temple of lathander. and eventually, with or without the PC's help, they track down mauna in baldur's gate.

but theres never one moment where the PC can dissuade them from going back to her. saying "she used you and you deserve better" doesn't change their mind, they already know she was using them (and likely will again). that's the status quo for them: they are a soldier and spy, and have always just been a tool for others. instead, it's the culmination of the time the PC has spent with them, the way they've been treated, that might change their mind: if the PC failed to talk to them enough, disregarded their thoughts, or encouraged them to simply follow the PC's lead without question, they practically beg mauna to take them back and will leave the party then and there to retake their place as mauna's hand. however, if the PC took the time to get to know them (maybe even romance them), they were treated like a person worthy of time and respect, if the PC asked for their opinion and took it seriously, they would on their own decide to denounce mauna in a confrontation that is them, for the first time, sticking up for themself and demanding better.

#just.... ugh i love them so much #the idea of a companion that you really have to work for #you have to approach them and encourage them to speak up and *be there* for them #*prove* that you care about what they have to say #and people who dont take that time? never even know what theyre missing #theyd wonder if roz is bugged because they never seem to get dialogue for them #but the real roz enjoyers would know the TRUTH #idk i just think itd be neat and i love roz so much so i put too much thought into this #roz #finally unleashing this on the public. it's been cooking for long enough. feast.

[epicdogymoment]

once again rubbed the wrong way by friends who unintentionally reveal that they dont really engage with my masculinity in any real way and see me as nonbinary (female-lite)

#leologisms #...................i need more trans friends. in real life #its so frustrating. your gay friends knowing youre transgender but still being able to tell that yeah. they really do just see you as #female-lite. and pushing back by overcorrecting the other way. but im NOT a trans man! and im not a woman either! and the label #nonbinary doesnt fit me even if other people might understand my identity best as under that label. im just transgender. none of #your business. but hearing people say 'well thats why you dont date men' and 'ugh i hate men' etc while i KNOW what they mean #the fact that theyre ok just saying that around me. TO me. a bisexual transgender. feels so bad. #not only am i not masculine in their eyes theyre also telling me that to them masculinity is inherently. dirty. dangerous. but thank god IM #not like that right? hahaha!!!!! thank god i would never be attracted to masculinity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #.........god. anyway. the thing that prompted this happened a few days ago now and it was just a throwaway comment #but my awful brain loves latching onto those. so whatever.

[nyxi-pixie]

THAT EPISODE WAS THE BEST SEROTONIN BOOST EVER FRFR

#been DYING at uni and now im giggling kicking my feet bc these loser gay people are alive and well #cant believe chuuya was in his actor extraordinaire era like slay i guess #THE STICK IN FANGS????? #im giggling a little #mori took him to a halloween store #CANON #anyway #win for soukoku AND shin soukoku (THE LIL BIT AT THE END WITH THEM WTF THEYRE SO ????) #and ayas alive #ugh bless asagiri for never actually killing characters hes so real #soukoku #theyre so dear to me i knew they wld be fine #bsd episode 61 #bsd spoilers #i guess we get to see all that again in manga form over the next few months WOOOOO #sorry to my non bsd followers if u see this hi

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#my dads back in ohio again so im back on my own. i still feel terrible but at least i have a plan #i have 2 weeks of this semester left. so i have to not fail my genomics exam and work on a group project plus grade a bunch #shouldnt be too hard but everything makes me so tired rn and i just feel this barrier between myself and everything else #even when my dad was here. i just dont kno how to feel happy. just varied levels of stress #but after the semester is over ill have to find a job for the summer. which super stresses me out bc i havent really had a real job outside #academia and im worried about how stressful ill find it bc im sure its gonna suck but at least i wont have to work on my project #i just think if i had a normal job that doesnt dominate every aspect of my life id feel a little less terrible. or at least i wouldnt send #myself spiralling so much. if i stay here i might not survive it #but what if ill just make myself miserable wherever i am? i dunno. but im gonna try to find a non academic job this summer with the epa or #maybe the usgs. i mean ive gota a bachelor's and a masters in environmental topics. that's gotta count for something #just get a government job. pray for a not terrible set of coworkers. and build something from there #it just sucks bc i feel like everythings falling apart and like i kno if i gave it my all i could pull thru and get my phd but im just so #tired of struggling against something everyone else can do. i just cant read at a level appropriate for what im doing #ugh. i dont wanna study for genomics. i just wanna sleep. i just wish i wasn't in this position #and now i a baby about it. i mean my sisters r in similar positions bc the youngest is currently looking for a teaching job. and my middle #sister is looking to move to new york city in the next 6 months and she'd be quitting her job for that. so we're all sorta in flux #i just wanna not be flailing. not watch my hopes and dreams collapse. be excited about anything. im just sad bc i have to make hard choices #even if i know theyre the right ones to make if i want to continue to exist. sometimes u cant have the things u wany. #and that sucks and i hate it. theme of the year: sometimes life sucks and theres nothing u can do abt it #unrelated