#use half your brain.

[nectarishes]

In his eyes

#golden wind #vento aureo #pannacotta fugo #my art #jojos bizarre adventure #jojo no kimyou na bouken #overdramatic half finished fugo drawing what’s new #let’s get one thing straight. I don’t give a shit if I get no notes #posting is like how people used to think leeches sucking your blood cured illness #if my jojo drawings aren’t put on my tumblr blog they’ll cause a blockage and my brain will shut down. this too is therapy #also fugio adjacent drawing. even though giorno isn’t pictured #also I’m trying out a new rendering style without actually rendering lmk if it’s doing anything for ya

[hwanswerland]

happy birthday jazzy @woosansang ♡♡♡

#fio.gifs #tuserjazzy #atzsource #san #wooyoung #yeosang #im very sorry i really wanted to include the knees in some way but i couldnt find any video that would have fit the rest of the vibe #the amount of shit i found on discord lmao but most of that i couldnt really put here so #also i hope you rb this at least twice bc i put that san first so the next time i see him in my notes its at least my own set #i hope you have a great day after all the stressful things happening <33 #*like they're probably still happening but idk what words to use here rn but you get me #i hope you find some time between all that to at least yell at me for this and roasting and personally attacking you yet another time lmao #thank you for being my friend <3 have the best time today with your friends <3 #(sorry im still sick my brain is fried i cant think so this half assed whatever has to do sorry)

[pigeontakeover]

Congrats ppl you've done it! Now i have to check every transmisogyny awareness post that sounds just a tad too radfem to see if the op is like, normal, about transmascs and uh wow, a lot of yall are not! Can we stop tearing each other down? Conservatives want us all to stop existing, the whole oppression olympics thing needs to stop

#omg im the op #im sorry for the transmascs that are transmisogynistic #but like saying shit like All TMEs Should Die and Transmascs Are All Oppressing Transfems is very stupid #use your fucking brain challenge! #like over half the time its a white transfem saying it too which tbh checks out #white ppl are def something else 😭 #like i promise that poc transmascs are not suddenly becoming part of the Oppressor Class post transition #transandrophobia

[robobbin]

Happy (slightly late) New Year's to @fic-and-art-for-ships!!

This is my gift for @utsecretsanta 2023, I love circus AUs and the Circus-swap AU is so cute! I adore Frisks design so much ♡ ～('▽^人)

#i really hope you like it! #also forgive me for the late arrival of your gift i had a huge incident with my shitty computer QWQ #but hey! I had as lot of fun redrawing it anyways haha! :D #my doodles #utss #utss 2023 #undertale secret santa #underswap #us sans #circuswap #frans #i adore frans when frisk is aged up to an appropriate age and this is just mwuah! #so adorable i mean just look at them QwQ <3 #their HAIR too augh i love it half up makes my brain go brrrr #this was genuinely so much fun thank you for your patience!! #underswap sans

[silverskye13]

The universe keeps thwarting me [nerfed by the common cold edition] but So Much (for) Stardust is a RnS Helsknight song.

#spazzcat barks #im delirious #but also i started drawing the two lines that make me EmotionalTM and had to stop because its 9pm and my brain is melting #anyway i keep imagining #'I used to be a real go getter' as Helsknight before he started looking like Wels #[taller muscular platinum white blonde hair annoying spotting of freckles constantly red eyes] #and then panning to 'I used to think it'd all get better' Helsknight with hair nearly auburn no freckles dull black-blue eyes #the only real thing setting him apart from his other half being the scars he chose to keep -- even those fading with time #so much for stardust... we thought we had it all....... #eughhh i need sleep #its just a good song okay #life is just a game maybe #im stuck in a lonely loop now baby #i need the sound of crowds now or i cant fall asleep at night #im losing my mind #i think ive been going through it.... ive been putting your name to it.... #[dilerious muttering continues]

[emerynn-art]

pov: you find a weird fucking dog growing in your grandpa’s space basement

#shadow the hedgehog #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sonic adventure 2 #shadow #the way that me a year and a half ago would have been mortified to be out here posting sonic fanart on the internet once more #like im 12 and on deviantart again #2023 cringe culture is dead babyyy #look sometimes youre a sad wee pretween and you use sonic adventure 2 to cope and it irreparably alters your brain chemistry #and you know what? thats okay #shadow the hedgehog original blorbo from my gamecube

[aphsillyos]

his default recall is so cool..........

#not me arts tag #ive never used his default skin so i didnt even know what it looked like until now....ough #i wish u could mix and match sounds or recalls with skins................ #i honestly forget half the time hes supposed to be like. Cool and Suave and a Competent Badass #because my brain is always like. god hes so small and floppy and will die if you breathe on him wrong #also hes always crying and breathing heavily in my ear so im just like. poor guy #he should be at the bed taking a nap not fighting....... who made him fight.... stop that he doesnt belong on the battle field #he might be a badass hitman or smth but my brain is like #this is just a sad theatre kid who took gymnastics #''aphelios how is your assassin training going'' aphelios who has only been reading the acrobatics textbook: my what #is there anyone still reading these tags. hi there #i have a lot of thoughts on him. im very obsessed with his animations #like he has a laugh animation for every weapon....... #all the various weapon animations... #maybe the real reason we wont have a legendary for 10 more years is all the animating they have to do #i mean his base animations are so good id honest be like OK if they reused them #cant rly do much better than already Top Tier animations #unless we get an alune legendary..... #hope alune is super awesome and badass and all the aphelios voicelines are a really shy awkward guy or smth #like you look so cool and awesome fighting and the whole world doesnt know ur listening to a lil guy in your brain the whole game #the contrast would be very funny methinks #if anyones still reading this. yes i know riot made up some reason about budget or whatever for voices #but i choose to believe aphelios is head empty no thoughts and thats why he doesnt talk to alune #(STILL GOOFY OF A REASON... lots of VAs can do both genders of voices.... like. what about kindred and kayn....) #then again wouldnt be surprised if they were overbudget on the animations but still smh my head into oblivion #can relate to a guy who simply doesnt wanna talk #(said after 10000 tags of talking to myself) #i should really put my thoughts onto a separate post or blog or something #anyways have i mentioned i think hes really cute

[spicyicymeloncat]

Yknow something that gets me abt certain fanon depictions of kai is that he’s portrayed with no sense of self preservation, as if he’s self sacrificing and burned out, and I think I dislike it bc it feels like the opposite of his character most of the time.

Yeah some of the actions he takes are harmful to himself in some way, but it’s never intended to, they were ways of coping and making himself feel better.

Like the green ninja plot, he is insecure in his place, so he strives for the highest title to make him feel better.

The red shogun isn’t him beating himself up and not caring about his own well being. He was winning fights, fully engaging in the job, taking his frustration out on others and drinking away his issues, and yeah there’s self loathing in that, but there’s also him trying to make himself feel better, to redirect hurt away from himself.

Him prematurely concluding his parents were the bad guys in s7, is (imo) his way of rationalising his mixed feelings, in order to keep himself okay.

He’s not a reckless war machine who throws himself into battle with no hesitation, he tries to keep himself safe.

Kai is self-prioritised and yknow I think people in general really demonise that kinda of trait both in fiction and irl and that’s actually kind of harmful. The self sacrificial trait is so grossly over romanticised and idk it’s a breathe of fresh air when you see a character who doesn’t start out that way or end that way. Like nothing wrong with that trait being written, it’s just like sometimes it feels like people are only allowed to prioritise themselves if they previously have no sense of self care, bc then it’s seen as a healthy improvement. But in any other case, it means you’re selfish and that’s a bad thing apparently.

Like no. Being selfish and loving yourself and thinking you are hot shit and the smartest person alive and prioritising things that make you happy. None of that makes you evil or morally wrong. If in attempts to meet your needs you try to hurt someone else, or end up hurting yourself, then the action you took was bad but the intent isn’t! Fuck the media that finds people loving themselves as immorally wrong! Fuck it! It is not sexy to hate yourself actually.

I want more fanon Kais indulge in activities that make him happy, Kais that make bad decisions in trying to protect himself and Kais that have good coping mechanisms because he’s still trying to protect himself he’s just found better ways of doing it.

Bc it’s canon and it feels like it gets erased a bit because people somehow don’t find self love appealing unless the character was self hating first.

#tangibly related but the people who think that kai sacrificed everything often forget that Nya #every fucking season she is sacrificing and giving up shit #like she is right there #she’s not AS bad either but like she does so much for the sake of others yknow #can someone #someone write a fic #where kai teaches Nya to have more self preservation and to not get flung about by others needs #pls #anyways half way through this post I realised I have So Many Issues TM #Like oh god #the whole ‘I don’t matter! my only purpose is to be there for my friends’ fucked me up so hard that like to this day #i cannot see when someone crossed multiple boundaries that they probably shouldn’t #because my brain is lazer focused on trying to be convenient to them #like oh man #im traumatised #and Ik there’s definitely so many of you on tumblr who are probably the same #because we live in a capitalist society where the walls subtly remind you that you must be convenient #and so many of you are queer and used to having to repress your identity for other people’s comfort #and so many of you are neurodivergant/disabled and are told every day that meeting your needs are inconvenient for everyone else #BUT THIS IS WHY WE SHOULD BE PROUD OF BEING SELFISH AND LOVING OURSELVES #BECAUSE ITS HARD SOMETIMES AND THE FACT THAT WE CAN FIND LOVE FOR OURSELVES IS SUCH AN AMAZING SKILL #AHHHHH #sorry for cutting so deep into this #i need a therapist maybe #ninjago #Ninjago kai #ninjago analysis

[familyofpaladins]

You've heard of [person/character/show/story/media/art] living rent free in your head right?

Now get ready for: that, but each is a little bird in the nest of you mind, some birds are there for a long time and some just a little while, as they come and go and theres some you feed more than others And it's not until you realize that suddenly "theres less birds here" "where'd the other babies go?" That the bird you started to feed a couple days ago is Cuckoo bird

#(Metaphor for when you have a new special interest that suddenly takes over your brain- #that you cant even focus on other things that used to live rent free in you brain because it's all [CUCKOO] now) #Sometimes theres multiple birds that get along okay (I can focus on each without distracting from the others) #with maybe a favorite of the bunch #but I switch between them fine #And often there will be a new bird that visits for a bit before flying away #And other times a new bird just comes in all of a sudden and takes over #But most of the time. I think it's just a new bird to visit for a little while #and then suddenly it's the only one in the nest #Where my other babies go? Whyd you push them out?? Yet I dont stop feeding the cuckoo. I cant. I have to feed the baby #Anyway. Tmnt is a cuckoo but there is now another cuckoo in the nest and they're fighting #We'll see if the new one manages to push tmnt out or if tmnt will regain the upper hand #The 'new' cuckoo has actually been here before. But it had been well over 4 years since it was the leader of the nest #And almost a year and half since it visited . (So it's been building strength since and came back with a vengeance lol) #I'm taking the metaphor too far #I'll shut up now #Midnight rambling #It is 2:30 am #living rent free in my head

[b-rainlet]

'Swing Kids fails at showing how cruel the nazis truly were'

This is a movie about german children who weren't inherently in danger by virtue of being 'the right race' whose only 'wrong-doings' were listening to the wrong kind of music and still they were constantly threatened and beat up, were forced to join the HJ to not endanger their families, one of them had his hand hurt so badly by a nazi he couldn't use two of his fingers anymore and had to teach himself to play guitar three-fingered, they were used to gather information for the Gestapo to the point the mc distrusted his best friend, they witnessed beatings and deportations and the shooting of a man on the run, the movie quite literally ends with the teenage main character being sent to what's most likely a concentration camp for dancing to the wrong music

#Are you perhaps simply desensitized by other movies which show violence as a way to entertain? #Which isn’t wrong but I think it's important to keep in mind that all of the things I just listed ACTUALLY HAPPENED #'oh they only showed the nazis beating up people' ISN'T THAT ENOUGH ALREADY #DOESN’T THAT MAKE YOU SCREAM FROM THE TOP OF YOUR LUNGS #these people could just gang up on somebody and beat them half to death #Out in the open on the fucking street #How can you think about this for longer than two seconds - let alone watch it play out on screen #And not feel absolute devastation wash over you #Besides I had to stop this movie when I started it two days ago #Because of the scene in the car where the Gestapo guy talks about mcs grandma #And sending her away 'to get better' because I absolutely couldn't think about the implications of that #Within nazi germany #Without crying #Anyway Swing Kids actually lived and died in the third reich and that's awful #But yeah maybe you're simply used to the balcony scene in Sh/ndlers L/st #Swing Kids #Brain loves movies

[separatist-apologist]

My favorite thing about Baldur's Gate 3 is how unsubtle all the books Tav picks up are.

This week, trending at the library: THE CURSE OF THE VAMPYR, BHAALSPAWN AND THEIR INSATIABLE URGES, SHAR WORSHIP 101, DEVIL PACTS AND HOW TO SPOT THEM, MYSTRA: MOTHER OF ALL MAGIC OR JUST A BITCH, WHAT IS A SOUL COIN ANYWAY, and featuring LULLABIES OF THE DEAD THREE'S CHOSEN and a collection of LORD GORTASH'S MOST PRIVATE LETTERS

#like godddamn tav USE YOUR BRAIN HALF OF THESE WERE IN THE CRYPT!!!! #bg3 #im so normal about this game

[deus-ex-mona]

“i’m all alone, but i’m as happy as can be!”

#aka top 10 things i wish i could drill into my coworkers brains grrrrrrrrrrrrrrnrhrhbgbgbfbfbfnf #‘you should get a bf’ ‘when are you gonna get married and have kids?’ how about n e v e r #i just want to sleep when i’m not on the clock mans i don’t want to waste my precious sleep time on others #i mean. i don’t even leave the house on my days off. not to go shopping or anything bc sleep is more important~~~ #and stuff can be bought online anyways s o o o o o #g o d speaking of online purchases thoughhh this massage seat i bought online came in yesterday and it works amazingly well~~~~~ #used it for half an hour last night and i was relaxed enough to sleep for 11-12 hours straight #wish i had space for an actual massage chair though but this will have to do… #it’s been my dream to own a massage chair for the longest time…… but ig this massage seat is good enough…… #i can just slap it onto my desk chair and b a m ✨instant paradise✨ #speaking of instant though… one of my coworkers was commenting on my love for instant noodles the other day #‘you’ll ✨d i e✨ faster if you eat a lot of cup noodles yk?’ he said #so ✨o f c✨ my mouth chose to work faster than my brain when i replied with ‘i’m fine with that bc i won’t have to work then’ #he and another coworker laughed :( sadded #b u t i finally had my cup noodles that i ‘customised’ at the cup noodle museum today and it was good~~~~~~~ i have good taste (self praise) #the best part was the lack of spring onions!!!! bc screw spring onions really who decided that they should be included with most cup noodles #or just noodles in general? the texture sucks and they don’t even taste good man. why would you even add spring onions? #it’s number 2 in my list of most hated food toppings. it loses only to ikan bilis bc s c r e w ikan bilis or dried anchovies or whatever #they’re known as >:( i hateeeeee how takeout places will just assume that you want ikan bilis and lop on a huuuuugeeeee serving of them #atop your food as you desperately and futilely b e g them to stop #and when you try to pick them out they just!!!! keep turning up everywhere instead????? #like hello???? how did you manage to get to the bottom of the bowl???? you were only added as a topping!!!!!!! #also. their eyes are really creepy. and the heads get detached from the bodies all the time and just. seeing the eyes ruins my appetite. #wait this was supposed to be about my coworkers and their pushiness in a matter that doesn’t concern them how did we get so far off-topic— #chizuutan chizpost

[givehimthemedicine]

just a ramble of thoughts on El's kinda dicky moments this season ("I want today to be about you and me" right in front of Will, rejecting Mike's identifying with being bullied):

El doesn't really have the social experience to always realize how the others have traumas they're processing too, and that her way of going through hers can have an impact on them.

or theirs on her. she doesn't realize Mike's behavior towards her is in fact the impact of Mike going through it, but a different "it".

you know how there's a certain moment growing up where you have that realization that, ohh wait, so everyone else is the main character in their own story, like I am mine? El's around the age for that, but she's still a big step behind, still also in the process of realizing that she even is her own main character.

while she's naturally empathetic and loving, the til-recently-only-memorable part of El's upbringing really gave her no experience in like… not being the center of attention, or having to perceive others' emotions. NOT that "being the center of attention" in the lab was ever a good thing, or resulted in her feelings being valued or anything like that.

yet while she was the sole focus of the lab, SHE was never important or had any agency. even once she was the only number, she was still just a number. a prop in someone else's story.

it's gotta leave her with this weird "I'm at the center of everything but also I don't matter at all" perception of herself.

which is how she's selfless in big ways (helped find Will at her own expense, ready to die to save them all from the demogorgon, saves the world every so often, etc), but then also has these little moments that come off pretty self-regarding in her treatment of Will and Mike. it has a lot more to do with being severely developmentally behind than knowingly being an asshole. I think the others (for sure someone as perceptive as Will) know to account for that, but it still must sting sometimes.

I think this scene is something important for El -

hearing Max's trauma dump was the first time she's ever listened to one of her friends speak at length about their feelings. I'm sure she would have listened to any of her friends any time, but no one ever really opened up like that (and Max still isn't opening up to her here). maybe especially no one tries to confide in El because they either think they shouldn't because she Has It Worse, or that she wouldn't get it.

but El does get it. Max doesn't use the word "monster," but that's kinda what she thinks of herself. she thinks she did something unforgivable. El's fresh off getting some closure on her own monster arc and then turns around and finds out Max has been struggling all this time with something similar.

seeing her best friend cry and hearing her actually talk about her darkest feelings - ones not so different from El's own - idk I think that's gotta be a big moment for El in her perception of other people

#eleven #character analysis #mine #long post #kinda off topic but i'm obsessed with the way they showed el's reaction during the part about how max just stood there and watched #that's like half of why i wrote do not cry btw #el cant not have one edgelord brain cell that's going 'if you didn't help billy bc you thought he deserved it why did you also not help me' #anyway #I know the Hopper letter had feelings too but she didn't actually see him or hear it read in his voice that was just us #and it coming from your BFF hits different

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: January 9

"I Heard It Through the Grapevine" by Creedence Clearwater Revival

#song of the day #I'm at my grandfather's house now! #he's more than half deaf (partial hearing in only one ear) and the only thing more substantial than his record collection #is his sound system #CCR loud enough to feel in your bones. take a shower while the music plays and feel the water droplets vibrate as they fall. it's amazing #I missed the fuck out of this old man. had no idea the extent of it. I missed him so bad #old man with his La-Z-Boy perfectly molded to his body and his turntable collection and his novelty soda cozies and his model planes #it stormed like hell all day and none of us could hear each other speak over the wind and thunder and dogs howling and blessed CCR #so we've just been hanging out. played monopoly except again we couldn't hear so it was like monopoly + charades #sensory input through the /roof/ I forgot what it was like here. bliss for my brain #tomorrow if the weather stays calmed down I'm going to ask him what 'who'll stop the rain' is about #get those soothing background 'fuck vietnam' sounds going while I do my reports for work. missed this shouty old man like hell

[the-woman-upstairs]

Really wish someone had told me the first Saw film had a plot not dissimilar from a gay porno because I would’ve watched it soooo much earlier.

#the void (2016) completely rewired my brain so gore doesn’t bother me half as much as it used to #so i’m just now getting around to the Saw films and uh…. #saw 2004 #saw movies #wish i had whatever Adam and Lawrence had going on #definitely earns a spot in the pantheon of god-tier horror film romances #also happy anniversary to the film #cut your foot off in a saw trap only to experience 9/11 the next day 💀 #chainshipping

[bunnyb34r]

Having to explain to my mom that 5min crafts is a content farm/what that is. That sure they have some genuine hacks, but a lot are genuinely dangerous and bad

It's like I'm not trying to be the parent, but I've been on the internet daily since I was 9 years old and you respectively have only been on it for maybe 8 years? Consistently? And only on Facebook. Like man the shit I have seen has aged me a lot more mentally than I care to admit.

It's so hard too bc I know I should like a know it all/conspiracy freak when I tell her not to get a reddit bc she's gonna get sucked into a WS cult and get radicalized, or when I tell her Facebook reels is the same as tiktok. Which she has continuously forbade me to have since it came out (bc evil chinese company. It's okay when it's an evil American company though). That she needs to be careful and not just believe whatever she sees, but it's like for once I DO know more and I DO need to be the adult.

Like I remember having so many fucking talks to get her out of that SAVE THE CHILDREN shit and debunking the wayfair shit, and the Hillary Clinton shit, and all this shit. I constantly am telling her "nope that's antisemitism in disguise, heres why" ab stupid theories and shit and why they're harmful and it's like I want to fucking scream

Idk where I was going with this but like god I'm tired

#and she gets mad when im 'parenting' her and its like well then fucking use your brain!!! think before you share shit! ask questions!!!! #had to explain that the reason jfk had a diff coffin on air force one wasn't like a body swap but bc the first casket wasnt secured right #and the man was LEAKING in the fucking casket and they had to get a clean easier to transport one #that it was his family that didnt want it open not the gov like the man had half a fucking head at that point!! what did you expect?! #and then shes like well how do YOU know all this shit. how do you know YOURE right and Its like bc i check my sources?? bc i know how to?? #bc i actually use my brain and dont sit in a digital echo chamber validating what i want to hear #thankfully we dont actually get fox in our house somehow (god probably) and we dont have cable so she cant watch fox & friends #but Facebook is it's own fucking up hill battle and it's like go back to playing 1010! and shit on your phone instead #and she stays on Facebook for that dopamine hit and its like i know you have adhd and your dr doesnt believe you but for godsake #i stg she's the reason my body hair is still turning white. it initially stated bc my dad was causing us so much fucking stress and then #it lessened a bit but now im finding more and more like my body is eating the pigment sgdgdgdgd #im gonna go gray by 35 i stg i have ONE white hair on my head and have gotten several on every part of my body like eyebrows and armpits ect #the funniest is leg hair like oh okay go grandpa #ANYWAYS im tired and i guess i needed to get this out #marquilla