#what's important is we have angst

[rookesbane]

HEAVEN IS NOT FIT TO HOUSE A LOVE LIKE YOU AND I

Francesca by Hozier // Doctor Who S9 "Heaven Sent" + "Hell Bent"

#my laptop is back and so am i #if i can't move on then neither will any of you #anyway #does it count as #web weaving #if i only used two references lol #whatever #what's important is we have angst #i've wanted to do this since i first heard this song #it's insane how every line fits #twelveclara #whouffaldi #doctor who #twelfth doctor #clara oswald #dw #dwedit #dwgifs #timelordgifs #heaven sent #hell bent #dw s9 #dw series 9 #peter capaldi #jenna coleman #hozier #mine #*mine: edits

[soldier-poet-king]

Larian really pulling a reverse uno by focusing hard on astarion's prettyboy flirt vibe in all the marketing and then making his arc about reclaiming bodily autonomy

I love them for it. It's everything I wanted from astarion. I'm obsessed with him.

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #astarion #ANYWAY I HAVE MANY THOUGHTS #just like..vibrating at my desk at work. CAN WE TALK ABOUT THEMES??? WHAT ABOUT TRAUMA AND RECOVERY #What about TRUST and HAND HOLDING AND HUGS AS MORE IMPORTANT SIGNS OF SAID TRUST THAN SEX #i mean we can also talk about hot vampires i am ALSO here for that #but hes my blorbo bc of the angst and thematic potential of it all

[apotelesmaa]

> looking for a tenma siblings relationship study

> ask the op if the study is actually about the tenmas or just treating saki like an accessory to tsukasa

> they don’t understand

> pull out an illustrated diagram explaining the difference

> they laugh and say “it’s a good relationship study sir”

> click the post

> it’s treating saki like an accessory to tsukasa

#project sekai #listen I love tsukasa as I love all the wxs members but i also love saki and cannot stand u people #don’t even get me started on when people fridge saki for contrived tsukasa angst. I’ll kill you. #i could also go on a rant abt how saki is so disrespected in general by pjsk fans #& as sm1 with a (less severe) chronic illness I do not appreciate how her illness is only explored in relation to how tsukasa feels abt it #but I think I would get too frustrated #gripping ur shoulders. read the doll story again. #also if ur talking abt tsukasa’s character & don’t mention saki u have automatically failed #before any of his relationships saki is the most important like it’s not subtext it’s literally just text #did we forget the dazzling event where he finally has a breakthrough in his role bc he talked to saki. #or the main story where he’s like yea saki is literally the reason I pursued acting #or the doll event where he’s despondent bc he thinks saki is mad at him & then when honami comes to his school #his first reaction is to sprint over like WHAT HAPPENED 2 SAKI IS SHE OK (sprints home) #or saki canonically being his no.1 fan. smh. u cannot separate them. and why would u want to. they’re so funny. #+ saki saying he made her hospitalizations more bearable. picking up on his mannerisms. crying during the doll festival bc they had a fight. #the dolls being her favorite things bc of how it symbolized their bond. #the complex tenma sibling mental illness web in general makes me crazy. #saki is like I love u but I wish u wouldn’t worry abt me so much and rely on me more & then tries to hide issues to make him not worry #tsukasa is like I’m always worried abt u and I don’t want to burden u because I feel like I need to always be a rock for u #ough. love them.

[bottombaron]

it honestly surprises me that i don't hear anything about the very real possibility that Nandor could have sired Dracula

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #nandor #nandor the relentless #in case you're wondering: Vlad jr. and his brother were raised in the Ottoman empire in the 1400s #and would have been exposed to many generals and other important people coming and going thru the palace #or during their military training #if Nandor didnt know him then he could have clashed with him in Vlads' rebellion against the Ottomans when he reclaimed his throne #or even after that #Vlad had a /lot/ of Ottoman interactions to the point that I can't beleive that making Nandor an Ottoman general #when its a little tricky consindering the Ottoman empire didnt really gain traction until the 1300s and originated much farther north #so i have to believe someone made that choice - that would have put Nandor in direct contact with Vlad - on purpose #or my wild theory of Nandor being the true inspiration for the Dracula character and Stoker just took the name b/c it sounded cooler #(which is what actually happened in real life) #Nandor was Bram Stoker's ex and Dracula was a salacious hit-piece with name changes #ok ok but getting back to Nandor being Dracula's sire #imagine the angst! the drama! #Dracula is the archenemy of Van Helsing! how delicious!! #give me 20k fics of the antics of Nandor sireing the 1 enemy of Guillermo pls and thank you 🙏

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

I am at 59k on this Ninjago fic i swear I'll finish it this month I will work on nothing else I am going to finish this--

#knox rambles #save me y'all every time i sit down to write the last big couple of scenes i end up adding a new unrelated scene instead #I've added like ten new scenes in different places and three new cameos from characters i wasn't going to write and i'm adding another scen #right now right this second I SWEAR I'M GONNA FINISH THIS SCREMS #I keep sending people my wordcount so y'all get to suffer knowing too #definitely splitting this into chapters because my gods #what am i even writing you ask? kai angst #well everyone angst thye all get angst but we're destroying kai right now #told my friend like 90% of the fic and realized i have three major plot points going at once #and they all play an important role to angsting the crap outta kai #only a little extremely confusing #okay i'm stalling i gotta get back to it #its so hard to write with my computer overheating i need to see if i can steal the laptop from my fam #Me: we certainly have been inactive on our blog by the time this is out people are gonna have it show up on their dashboards and go who dis #i KEEP GOING BACK TO RE-WRITE STUFF TO HGKSJLSDFJFKD #OKAY GOING GOING HOPE Y'ALL HAVE A STELLAR FIRE DAY

[saintchaser]

"do we still love each other?" remus asked; their kitchen was drowning in the night, the only light being their cigarettes and the moon. the room was filled with smoke, and remus could only see, through the haze, sirius' eyes shining.

"i don't know," sirius answered, and there was a vulnerable sincerity in his words. "i wish i could give you an actual answer." he let out a laugh, and that was the moment when, even if he was over him, even if the war was eating them apart, blood and flesh and howls of pain, remus realized he was still in love with sirius.

#HELP ME GOD #i can't remember what i was reading that made me think of this but it's short and i had the time to write it #for whoever cares about my life this week has been HECTIC. i'm getting close to the end of the school year and i'll be saying goodbye to #most of my classmates and friends and i have important exams coming up and. wild ride guys. wild ride #anyways #sirius black #remus lupin #wolfstar #wolfstar angst #? i think it counts as angst #my writing #do we still love each other?

[lord-squiggletits]

Actually re: the last post about IDW Optimus and politics and moral grayness, if anyone here has read The Wheel of Time series, I actually compare IDW OP to Rand al'Thor in my head a lot. They have sort of the same background of "normal guy gets singled out by a person of Great Authority and put on a path to saving people" followed by a path to leadership hinging on "I became the Chosen One so even though I just wanted to save people, now I have to get involved in these bullshit politics where people are more concerned about securing their own power or spiting their enemies instead of uniting against evil."

Then there's a part of WOT where Rand becomes way darker and edgier, where basically as a result of a severe incident of betrayal and trauma, he goes "You know what, fuck you people, I tried to be nice and you just stabbed me in the back and tried to literally use me as a tool for your own ends" and he basically became a major hardass. To the point where I think there was at least one point (if not multiple) where after Rand extended some sort of diplomatic solution and got rejected, he was basically like "fuck you," fought an entire city on his own and won, then made himself the ruler and went "your armies belong to me and you're going to prepare to fight the Dark One like you SHOULD BE DOING." That phase is sort of comparable to Orion working under Zeta (OP flashbacks, Autocracy trilogy), in which OP's ideals are buried under disappointment and he's seeing these complicated, shitty political realities playing out where it seems like nothing is getting better and his attempts to work with the Decepticons only end in (from his perspective) being blatantly lied to and having his goodwill taken advantage of.

That's really what my ideal phase 2/3 story for Optimus would've been lmao. Still with the same idea of "gee you ARE fighting for the greater good but aren't you going a little far," but balanced out with a rightful dose of "I tried to be diplomatic and nice but no one listened, what else can I do but use force/politics/manipulation to make people see reason if they won't stop backstabbing and betraying each other in time to fight the Actual Evil Force who's going to kill us all."

WOT Rand even had a part of his character arc where he went so far into "humanity sucks, they would literally rather get slaughtered by the ultimate evil than set aside their petty bullshit long enough to work together" where he almost committed murder-suicide in a fit of despair that maybe humanity wasn't even worth saving at all. Only for him to be saved from the edge of despair by realizing "Wait, the world SHOULD be saved, because even though humanity sucks and so many people are evil, good still exists in the world and we can still fight to make the world a better place than it is."

LIKE IN A WAY RAND AL THOR IS BASICALLY IDW OPTIMUS in terms of the general shape of his character arc. Just the difference is that Rand got written as just a character with flaws and virtues coping the best he can under immense pressure and trauma. Whereas IDW OP got written more as "God the world fucking sucks and Cybertronians might just deserve to die bc we colonized people" and also everyone is constantly calling him a fascist and even the titles of his story are comparing him to an actual genocidal tyrant who killed 100 billion+ people. No joy or humanity just a scapegoat for evil living in a shitty world where everyone is miserable and "maybe our entire race IS doomed and we DO deserve to die" is like, a repeated motif of the entire story all the way to Unicron. As opposed to being treated as an obviously shitty worldview that the characters grapple with and go "no actually the world can be a good place and our society can recover from war and we don't deserve oblivion because of the cycle of violence we're trying to escape."

#squiggposting #like in theory i dont have a problem w what barber wrote. IN THEORY #i do enjoy depressing angst stories where the moral weight of war and shit is measured #and ppl ask questions about if the world can ever improve or if we're just doomed to repeat history #my problem is just that barber went too hard on the 'maybe we all deserve to die' #and not hard enough on 'actually we can improve and overcome our history' #i guess making OP some white guilt and fascism allegory was more important #like literally the depressing worldview wasnt some story arc the characters were trying to overcome #literally all the way through unicron it kept coming up #and literally not till OP 25 did the narrative finally go 'actually trying is enough' #so like the ending was fucking great and OP defeating unicron by the power of love was even greater #the rest of the story leading up to it not so much #idw op love

[transingthoseformers]

An idea that I adore is a Cybertronian becoming a minor deity to a small human settlement. Especially if it started long ago, back before any semblance of what we would call civilization. I love it beyond words. Especially if said mech is considered a benevolent god, helping these fleeting but ingenious organics where they can.

Especially if this "god" sticks around, even as these humans begin to farm and build their own little sanctuary, guarded by this shifting giant that has stuck around for many millennia. This means so much to me and i Fucking Love It and imagine this following deep into modern times and a major human government tries to stick their noses into this "myth"

#transformers #writing ideas #extra points if it's a Decepticon who otherwise wasn't used to being important in their functioning #i can see so much fluff and angst in this #also imagine them having a name in the local language and being described in very metaphorical ways!!! #we know how i love symbolism #it would be a much softer and wholesome relationship than what we see in bayverse. i am correct.

[godsfavoritescientist]

my god im so so sorry for this one but imagine if bill *did* come back from the dead. imagine that the “different form in a different time” was the kindest possible interpretation and he got to keep all his memories and got to come back to the same dimension his ford lives in, just a few months or years after he got erased from existence.

imagine bill feeling remorse. imagine bill regretting all the ways he hurt ford, and wanting to be better. imagine that all of these things lined up perfectly, giving bill the best second chance he could have ever asked for.

and then, imagine bill watching ford from afar for the rest of ford’s life without ever interacting with him. imagine him keeping his distance, and vowing to himself that he’ll never re-enter ford’s life ever again, so he can be absolutely certain that he’ll never hurt ford again. but he still can’t help but watch ford from afar, feeling torn to shreds inside with guilt about their past, and about how bright and incredible of a person he destroyed his chances of ever being with again, and he is endeared and surprised and delighted by ford over and over again, even after so many years of knowing him, even when only watching him from far away, and the one small solace bill has is that ford looks so happy now, and bill loves getting to have the knowledge that ford is doing alright, and is happier day by day, in this new world that he thinks doesn’t have bill in it anymore.

#billford angst #bill angst #would ford still be happy if bill revealed himself to him? who knows! #if i was bill i would be too scared to find out. #cant imagine a more fitting punishment than giving bill all the tools to give him the chance to try to make amends #bill can torture Himself. idk coming back from the dead changes a person #really puts things into perspective. makes taking over all of reality seem less important y'know #makes a person have time to think. time to start taking accountability and feeling guilt. #or maybe the axolotl is even like 'if you apologize to ford i will give you *all* your powers back' #and bill still never talks to ford again #heartwrenching thoughts tonight. what the Fuck #its not about if bill deserves this or not its about me going 'hey wouldnt this be angsty' #*bill* thinks he deserves it and thats all i know. we are sharing wavelengths we are exchanging thoughts we are looking at ford together #and going 'augh that poor man' #godsficideas

[theemperorsfeather]

New member of staff asks for a couple examples of our schedules showing certain things on them (which I am not sure we have, as they are uncommon items, and not all proposals require graphical schedules), and I have to wonder if he first asked the senior person on the project for help with the schedule and the senior - who is chronically, perpetually Too Busy - was all "oh ask Marketing" instead of taking the fucking time to think about what timelines actually might make sense.

#it's fine it's fine we have to be 100% done by eod thursday to print the fucking thing but it's fine #it's not like we just realized the big important text piece in draft may be only 1/3 of what we need #it's fine #he hadn't started revising that text anyway like he promised #i hate it here #angst and woe #work bullshit

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Okay actually following what I said earlier I see that anyone who writes about this man is performing a service to the community

#went on a03 and searched Pouf's name out of curiosity and found 10 pages; half of them maybe actually about him holy shit #i knew he wasnt a fan favorite but. my god. the most surreal aspect was scrolling and recognizing author names #bc they've posted their works here too sjdkdsj my ridiculous fluff fic is an important act for this community actually #i saw some writing where someone broke glass and wanted to make him clean it up then shoved him into it #and that's what's prompting me here; to each their own im definitely not into the strong dom and sub dynamic there #but my god. what if we made him happy actually djffjfk like yeah angst fits him so well and it is fucking delicious under the right #circumstances but also. what if we stopped being mean to him fjkdj i know he's earned it like i KNOW but. #i am going to be so nice and sweet to this bug and am no longer concerned about characterization after what i saw on a03 jfjffk #i like to imagine i do a fairly decent job of writing him but i think I'm worrying over nothing - it's just nice to have content of him lmao #shai speaks

[magical-xirl-4]

Zack's characterisation in Rebirth worries me because if they don't develop him more then he just won't be up to the standard that the other characters are at. If they're going to give him a big role they need to give him depth

#part of me thinks he wont have as big of a role as we think but his characteristion will still be good #other part of me thinks hes going to have a big role but he'll still just be dumb himbo puppy man #like GIVE HIM ANGST AND MAKE HIM PROCESS WHAT HES BEEN THROUGH AND DONE FOR SHINRA #zack #final fantasy #give him the negative qualities that was intended for his character like having a big ego and being a womaniser #then have him grow out of those traits #the devs clearly very much respect the OG and he was barely in it. but they rereleased CC #so its confusing me as to how important he will be #all im hoping for is that he wont overshadow cloud. or aerith. or anyone really #while having zakkura moments

[thebeautifulfantastic]

mulder and scully look so sad in season 5. i am diagnosing them as being in need of a good night's sleep and a kiss

#there’s like. several main emotional beats throughout the season and they kind of become more unhappy as the season goes on #cause we start out with redux which is of course intense and mulder is being very affectionate with scully who thinks she’s dying #and then to wrap up the cancer arc we have detour where they’re just happy to be alive and working together again #and scully makes a few attempt at starting a more serious romantic relationship with mulder too but he doesn’t exactly respond in kind #(that’s a whole other post to unpack) #but in the post-modern prometheus they seem pretty happy still AND THEY DANCE #but then the emily arc drops (devastating) and scully pulls away a bit afterwards #then there’s a series of cases where they’re a little bit distant #mulder’s in his own slightly dark headspace during patient x/the red and the black #like. okay #they’re not unfriendly or cold with each other #but there is this sobering realization #this ‘i am in love with you and you are the most important thing to me but you have also cost me everything’ #they know they’re in deep and there’s no going back #but what adds to the angst and underlying sadness is that all this goes unsaid #they’re masters at dancing are the truth (in the words of maisie peters) #which now that i say it is ironic because so much of their mission is to reveal the truth #season 5 is peak repressed feelings #the x files #meta finding tag #msr #belle speaks #txf liveblog #belle liveblogs #txf s5

[aslisjournal]

#I have a bad habit of developing my film months later #and I have 0 memory of what I took #my cousin and my sis we went to this *fair* we saw on tiktok #I don’t even wanna call it a fair #and it was literally the most ghetto #ratchet #atrocious #thing I’ve ever seen #and I like ghetto but not this type of ghetto #It was basically an empty parking lot #with 3 games #anyways back to the important thing #me #isn’t it sad that you can look at a pic of yourself and just know what you were going through #I was so sad here #lmfao #aren’t I always #I’m just grappling with the idea that life does NOT bend for no man #And I have this personal beef with patience #I’m in a season of angst which feels strange as I’m in my late 20s #I’m allowing myself to be as a I am which is an attempter #I’m going to attempt to touch the sky and see the stars and travel to far places #And be a dreamer with my head in the clouds #for if I cannot be then I will attempt #Cause I really love these things too much to not go for it #so you will most definitely find me in the intersection between desire and suffering #they all know me 🤍 #to me you are suppose to suffer in the attempt #Love is beyond The Self and The Self will always reject and resist that

[chaninfused]

A new hyunjin fic 👀👀✨✨✨

Also Roseborn sounds like a very cool title, what's it about? 👀👀👀👀👀✨

(+ HIIIIII FURATTTTTT XDXDXD HOW'VE YOU BEEN)

Have a good day!! 💞

yes, a new hyunjin fic to add to the arsenal 👀

roseborn is the backstory for hyunjin's character in another wip called gilded kingdom (I posted graphics for it like last year or something). I started working on it earlier this year, and it's about 22k words so far 😭

honestly, I don't know where to start with this one 🤔 hyunjin and mc in this story are enemies who are forced to train together, and slowly, they learn to open up to one another. in a few words, it's about self discovery and first love. both characters feel oppressed by the world they live in and together, they lift each other up.

it's a slow-burn, enemies to lovers, forbidden love mess. basically all my favorite tropes rolled into one. it also has the most fight scenes I've ever written so there's that odd piece of information 😭 I guess it could be called character driven since every scene revolves around the main two. I like to think I did well on their progress :P

the world itself has been in the making since 2019 so it's kind of complex and large, but it's still very special to me. despite being a majorly angsty story, I truly hope it will be received well whenever I post it 🤸🏻‍♀️

#yeah roseborn is my pride and joy :') #and yes like sit it was meant to be 7k or smth.. we dont talk about that 💀 #uhh thats all GSDJFKS idk what to say bcs im afraid of spoiling anything important lmao 😭 but i promise it's an interesting story #def not as boring as i made it sound ITS FULL OF DRAMA AND ANGST #but also lots of substance mc and hyunjin have MANY cute moments i was sure to stuff the plot well #hehe >:) #farashat 🦋 #sundooq 💌

[rosykims]

ok. ok. i think im finally (mostly) settled on elspeth's ending and her handling of the landsmeet in particular. illegible hysteria below

i spent like 20 hours of this game hyping up an alistair/anora alliance but i dont think i can do it in practice im too weak Lol. BUT i do like the idea of trying it anyway and it falling apart bc everything always falls apart in this universe. so yeah, alistair does do the dual in the end, despite what i said the other day (he's the one who at this point wants to be king. so why not) much to ella's horror. the detail i mentioned about loghain being the only person to defeat her in her tourney days still carries symbolic weight, because it was ELLA who trained and mentored and levelled alistair up through the blight. shes like babe if i cant beat him you shouldnt risk it !! and so him then BEATING loghain regardless is a nice lil "student surpasses the teacher" moment and also drives home that ella is a good commander and theyre both stronger than they were.

ofc this means alistair obviously goes rogue and does what he does at the end of the fight — regardless of the promises of mercy ella made to anora and their attempts at an alliance lol. which sucks and its not as neat a solution, but emotions were high and its understandable and also L + ratio + loghain sold elves into slavery. ella got her vengeance over howe earlier so shes like sigh ok anyways. SO. the alliance is a bust, but alistair is hardened anyway so its not the end of the world. he rules alone post canon with ella still as adviser and his mistress, BUT :) im thinking about him refusing to take a wife in this path, specifically because he's trying to convince ELLA to marry him and make it official. she always rejects him but its in an ahaha.... unless 👀 kinda way that encourages him to keep trying. i mean the only reason she doesnt feel like she can is bc Duty and Responsibilities and Obligations blah blah blah..... ALL of which she could still honor while being queen. so yeah. completing her story and having her reaffirm her grey warden duty + alistair's king duty, and their mutual dark ritual sacrifice, but with the open ended possibility that a happier ending IS possible at some point ! when she's ready ! maybe after she cures the taint :) who knows

#oc: elspeth #ok im feeling better about this actually. i hate feeling paralyzed by lore it happens wayyyy to often bc my brain is broken #i think the reason im not feeling the anora/alistair choice anymore is bc it requires alistair to make that sacrfice PLUS the dark ritual #like the ending was supposed to feel like it's ELSPETH bearing the brunt of the angst FOR ali and yet that route just #fucks him over way too much and ella by extension. i do like it in theory but i wish the dark ritual didnt have to be involved sigh #but whatever this ending fixes all of that ! and the ritual actually suppports this choice imo #alistair feeling less beholden to c*ncieve an h*ir bc hey idk if u forgot but i actually have a fucked up kid out there somewhere lol ! #really the only loose end im :/// about is anora #bc she was important to ella :/ very important #and having that whole aspect of her story finish with 'oh alistair exiles her or puts her in prison and we all move on' just. ugh. #i WISH there had been even the slightest mention that anora knew how to fight or was interested in it at least #bc if ella could conscript her into the grey wardens THAT would be a lot of fun lol #like 'your boyfriend killed my dad and stole my throne but you tried your best but also fuck off' is suvh a good dynamic :( #idk. i'll have to think abt how i can fuck around w canon to make that ending more satisfying since that is ofc what i Do lol <3 #im just shouting into the void w this mostly but i love her so much and im having fun so. #i think ive realized thru fixing up this worldstate is that i love angst but with a healthy serving of hope on the side #ella's hope that her love for alistair can fit with her duties as commander #cillian's hope that anders can be redeemed #ashara's hope that she's not too far gone to forgive solas. and that her love can still save him despite everything #man. #ANYWAYS THANKS FOR READING IF U DID LOL