Something I've noticed that's been helping me a lot lately is shifting the question from "what can I handle right now" to "what would make me feel better right now?" It makes me stop and honestly assess without pressure of Productivity. Sometimes the answer really is 'lie down in the dark under the covers' but quite often I'm finding if I detach my well-being from my productivity the answer is usually a list that looks like: eat something I can picture, drink water, consume salt (for my dysautonomia), take a shower, take my medication, put in earplugs for sensory overload. Some days it even includes 'go for a walk' or 'go to the library.'
For me to get here its required some previous experience with doing those things and knowing what works for me when, but it's made a huge difference. I've been regularly stopping mental spirals and sidestepping executive dysfunction walls that would have kept me in bed all day.
Also once I start taking of one bad it lightens the variety of bad feelings and helps me maybe target some other things that would now make me feel better.
That said, I have never been able to make myself better through brow-beating or berating myself about healthy habits or what I Should Be Doing. It started with the phrase "be kind to yourself" and I built from there. Taking a moment to answer the question "what would make me feel better right now?" with honesty (and patience/acceptance if the answer is that lying in bed would be the thing that would truly make you feel better right now) is an extension of Be Kind to Yourself.
Idk, thought I'd share in case it helps anyone.
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Every morning my brain spins a little wheel and picks what's going up be fucked up that day. Usually it's my pain perception or energy level, sometimes it's my mood, sometimes it's my sense of balance and I could do without that, but VERY OCCASIONALLY it will Mad Lib slap together, "TODAY'S BROKEN THING: your (noun:[ability]) (verb:[to sense that]) (object:[you are disabled])," and today is one of those days. I feel fucking good? I slept well? I jogged big sections of the way to lunch because I could? My legs didn't cramp up? I'm in a super good mood?
This happens so rarely that I actually register it as a problem and go through the day thinking, oh no have I finally developed bipolar, is this mania, and it's like, no, dipshit! It's functioning. Of course it feels good and you feel good about it. There's nothing wrong with having nothing wrong with me for a moment. You really don't understand how disability changes you until you're wondering if your temporary relief is a mental illness...
But enough of that, I'm having a good day and I hope everyone else is too, and if you aren't, I hope you'll have one very soon. 💜 ✌️
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Right. I need a nap. I’m feeling resentment about friends getting to do Cool Things again. And I’m old enough to know I’d feel less jealous about it with my leaky batteries recharged a bit.
(it’s not their fault I live far away, and have disabilities affecting getting to do Neat Things On My Own at least.)
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How much widespread pain could you endure every minute of your life before you became an unlikable disabled person who isn’t worthy of sympathy from the rage and grief you’re carrying alone, just like us “cry baby, attention-seeking, cringey, bitter, militant, and angry cripples”?
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thinking very much about how faerie magic is very tricky and never "3 wishes happily ever after done and done" in that it's always a trade when you make a bargain with a faerie. it's always equal value what you give and what you take when you enter into a faerie boon. and i think that applies to the cauldron/mother as well
and nesta, who took from the cauldron, who ripped out that death and that fatal power and was Made, of course had to relinquish something just as monumental in return. so i think she doesn't have the self-healing abilities that she should as a high fae and in fact pain is quite exacerbated by her powers, meaning if she gets wounded, she heals as if she were still human. and her human conditions remain with her even as high fae as well. which is even more ironic considering that i think healing powers go hand in hand with death powers if only she could hone them :o)
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Hi!! I just wanted to tell you your writing is really good and you answer requests so great each time!
Can you answer (if you feel like):
What gives you inspiration to write and also, how did you start writing/ what got you into writing?
It's been great reading your stories! Thanks for sharing them 💐💐
Thank you for the kind words! And— *GASP* you gave me flowers? You’re so sweet! I offer you some candy in return! 🍫🍬🍬
So I started in this community just over six months ago, and since then my writing has flourished. Before then, the only time I wrote anything was for a writing assignment or an essay, or basic things along that line. I never really wrote anything creative, and quite frankly I didn’t know I could write in the way I do until about four years ago, when I started writing fanfictions with a friend.
Since then, I’ve written all kinds of things. I like to believe I draw my inspiration from the world and people around me. A lot of my ideas come from conversations with my friends, and what-if scenarios my brain throws at me in the most ungodly hours of the night. Of course, there are other places where I draw inspiration from, the people of this amazing community being many of them!
Anyway, hope that answers your questions! Thank you again for asking!
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the most useless dating advice that i keep seeing crop up fecking everywhere on the internet is the whole “work on yourself before finding a date” line, because you just know the person saying it is a neurotypical who is largely ignorant of chronic mental illness or believes that having one is some kind of personality flaw rather than a medical condition
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