I respect pharmacy workers and I acknowledge they are underpaid and overworked.
However, I should not have to find out that my adhd meds are on back order because I called to find out when I can pick them up. Pharmacies should tell the prescriber and the patient if they can't fill the god damn order so that there is time to look for alternative options.
And to the guy who told me to "have your doctor order something that's in stock" when your fucking coworker told me yesterday that the meds would be available for pick up today: that's really fucking helpful, thanks! I wonder why I didn't think of it? oh wait
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Randomly got a super vivid vision of someone I know being turned into a chicken and someone I love who cares deeply for that person not knowing and cooking the now chicken and then bringing it to me to eat. And me somehow knowing what happened. And the fucking AGONY. I was in public when it happened and I wanted to scream-- strangers looking on in horror and confusion be damned. I didn't, but it was a damn close call. It was horrific. Something truly strange. It wasn't just the scene itself. There was some unattainable metaphor about it. And the sensation of losing control-- slipping into psychosis and anxious meltdown just *snap* like that. I wondered how long it had really been since I had smoked-- and so went out away from people for one since I didn't want to exhale in anyone's face. The moment I took a half-hearted hit, the buzz hit me like a freight train. As if I've never smoked before. It wasn't enough, so I took a few more, and the relaxation/anxiety relief/diminishing of psychotic symptoms was near immediate. I had taken so little today that I genuinely had to sit down and lay back so I wouldn't fall over, I was proper light headed. But God, I felt normal again. I felt like I could push that visual and all the obsessive and paranoid thoughts about it away with enough effort when before it seemed insurmountable, true doom.
Sometimes, I wonder if I really do have a psychotic disorder. But then I forget to medicate and whoop dee doo here we go again motherfucker. I wasn't even really stressed today. This whole week has been atypically great, actually. But stressed or not, stable or not, I know I need to keep a steady dose of nicotine (which, yes, works as an anti-psychotic, as well as anti-anxiety. Look it up. Or don't. Idc.) There is nothing more scary than suddenly losing control of something as mind altering as psychosis with no trigger, no prompting, especially around other people. Nothing HAPPENED. Everything was GOOD, I was having a GOOD TIME and smiling and laughing one second and the next I'm freaking out white-knuckling the table and begging whatever this is to GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD.
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I hate when I’ll be complaining about some stupid bullshit a coworker does to other coworkers and half the time their response is to lower their voice and go “well…. You know…. I’m pretty sure they’re… on the spectrum, you know?” And every time I have a split second when I have to consider saying “you know I’m autistic, right?” just to make them vaguely uncomfortable for a few minutes and actually think about what they’re implying but of course I do not do that because the gratification is not worth a large sect of shitty coworkers knowing that about me and then talking about me like that every time I do something vaguely annoying or dumb but man…. It does get tempting sometimes
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i do not often stop myself from posting embarrassing thoughts as is evidenced by my entire account but the thought forming in my head was so bad i had to stare blankly at a wall for 5 seconds and ask myself what i was doing. and not bad as in Bad just that you can’t be admitting that sort of thing dude
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Guess who has two thumbs and just got re-diagnosed with ADD (new insurance lol) and is starting meds for the first time in my lifeeeeEe!
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oh yeah PSA btw idk how many ppl know this or if doctors ever mention this but I sure as shit wasn't told-
Do not take Adderall or other similar ADHD medications if you have psychotic disorders/schizophrenia/anything similar. Adderall and other stimulants can worsen symptoms like hallucinations, paranoia, etc. Pls be careful with how your medications interact with all of your conditions, even if you think they won't relate.
(Personally I use the Drugs.com app to check for interactions- you can log all your medications plus conditions and see what can cause problems with what, plus a lot of other really useful tools for keeping track of health)
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