#self medication

[stonedish]

UFO Cookies 🛸🍪

#girls who smoke #stoner #happy #weed #medicine #bud #pot #self medication #stoner life #smoke #ganja #pothead #thc #marijuana #green #asthetic #420life #420photography #best friends #cannabis

[fuckingwhateverdude]

@nosebleedclub // dec. #28

#alcoholism vibes lately #my writing #my writing tag #nosebleedclub #nosebleed club #poetry #original poem #spilled ink #mental illness #vent writing #alcohol abuse #substance abuse #substance use #self medication #bipolar disorder

[sensitivehandsomeactionman]

#Sam Winchester #Dean Winchester #samedit #deanedit #spnedit #SPN #spn 5.05 #hunter's helper #self medication #the way they wrote this scene is interesting to me #played for humor but still they wrote him drinking #as well as making dean's job sound like sex work #they so often casually mention his drinking and drug use #just the little hints that putting his body on the line takes a toll #danistuff #p.s. love the ongoing labor/class divide in the kripke years

[neuroticboyfriend]

so when a disabled person self medicates unsafely it's abuse, but when health providers gaslight us, lock us up, neglect us, and put us in dangerous situations, it's treatment? interesting.

#ok to rb #softspoonie #substance use #substance abuse #self medication #disabled #disability #mentally ill #mental illness #chronic illness #chronically ill #antipsychiatry #antipsych #ableism #sanism #abuse #medical abuse #psychiatric abuse #psych survivor #neglect #abuse tw #gaslighting #medical gaslighting

[clock-06]

Had a conversation with that same able bodied neurotypical guy from a few months ago except this time one of my girl classmates was part of it.

It started after I left our lab table to go get pain killers and he was like “what’d you just take” and I told him “painkillers” and he asked why and I did a brief explanation of hEDS, ie; so I lack the connective tissue you have so my muscles hold everything together and they get tired and stuff slips, I took those specifically for a rib slipping. And he gave me the typical able bodied look of horror and then the girl in our group is just like “oh yea I took four pain killers this morning” and we high fived and he looked even more terrified. He looked flabbergasted when we talked about our mutual large doses of high strength painkillers it takes to get through the day.

We then go into a conversation about our experiences with pain killers, why we use them, and the shittiest times we have to take them (for her it’s migraines that she gets for an entire week each month where they’re bad enough she vomits) and I’m like oh those absolutely suck I’m sorry they’re that bad and at one point the guy chimes back in with “I can’t remember the last time I had to take pain killers” and we’re both just like :| good for you buddy.

As we keep talking, she reveals that earlier in the month she was in enough pain and delirium that she accidentally got drugged by non-human approved medicine that her mom told her to take (her mom later realized her mistake and apologized profusely). Her dog had gone through surgery and she’d accidentally taken those pain killers for her migraine, and found she was almost physically incapable of moving once it kicked in. She brings up that she thought she was dead once she realized the medicine wasn’t approved and was just laying there unmoving waiting for it. Guy classmate looks like he’s never heard anything worse and is shocked and irked when I sympathize with her.

During this conversation, we bring up the medical malpractice and consistent disbelieving of AFAB patients seeking pain relief. This is something I’m glad to be seeing more stories about online and more awareness being brought to, but it’s a continuing problem in the medical community. And it’s even worse for women or afab individuals of color, as medical students tend to continue to be taught POC are “naturally more resistant to pain” and therefore don’t need pain killers. This, combined with drug abuse stigma, blocks a ton of POC from getting the proper care they need. This problem is only made worse when coupled with commonly misdiagnosed or overlooked chronic illnesses/pain, and it is absolutely disgusting and horrific the amount of people who die or are permanently affected by this kind of malpractice.

TL;DR

Disbelief towards POC and AFAB individuals when it comes to medical situations and pain can and does hurt and kill people. There is a problem with the system which causes many to seek alternative and potentially dangerous treatment/relief, and many people are in enough pain that they will take anything with little question behind what it is they’re taking if it will help them feel better in the moment. Next time someone tells you they’re in pain or you see them take pain killers seemingly out of nowhere, don’t judge them or ask them invasive questions, try to have more empathy and if possible, make things you’re doing easier for them to handle. (Don’t overdo it obviously, but like, maybe get them in a chair with backing instead of a stool if possible or have a place where they could sit when they would otherwise be forced to stand)

#disabled #chronic pain #chronic illness #heds #chronic fatigue #hypermobile eds #self medication #medical malpractice #remember to be kind to others #you don’t always know what they’re going through

[turns-out-its-adhd]

#adhd memes #adult adhd #late diagnosis #undiagnosed adhd #medicated adhd #unmedicated #self medication #caffeine #adhd stuff #adhd brain #relatable memes #not my meme #meme therapy

[craycraybluejay]

Randomly got a super vivid vision of someone I know being turned into a chicken and someone I love who cares deeply for that person not knowing and cooking the now chicken and then bringing it to me to eat. And me somehow knowing what happened. And the fucking AGONY. I was in public when it happened and I wanted to scream-- strangers looking on in horror and confusion be damned. I didn't, but it was a damn close call. It was horrific. Something truly strange. It wasn't just the scene itself. There was some unattainable metaphor about it. And the sensation of losing control-- slipping into psychosis and anxious meltdown just *snap* like that. I wondered how long it had really been since I had smoked-- and so went out away from people for one since I didn't want to exhale in anyone's face. The moment I took a half-hearted hit, the buzz hit me like a freight train. As if I've never smoked before. It wasn't enough, so I took a few more, and the relaxation/anxiety relief/diminishing of psychotic symptoms was near immediate. I had taken so little today that I genuinely had to sit down and lay back so I wouldn't fall over, I was proper light headed. But God, I felt normal again. I felt like I could push that visual and all the obsessive and paranoid thoughts about it away with enough effort when before it seemed insurmountable, true doom.

Sometimes, I wonder if I really do have a psychotic disorder. But then I forget to medicate and whoop dee doo here we go again motherfucker. I wasn't even really stressed today. This whole week has been atypically great, actually. But stressed or not, stable or not, I know I need to keep a steady dose of nicotine (which, yes, works as an anti-psychotic, as well as anti-anxiety. Look it up. Or don't. Idc.) There is nothing more scary than suddenly losing control of something as mind altering as psychosis with no trigger, no prompting, especially around other people. Nothing HAPPENED. Everything was GOOD, I was having a GOOD TIME and smiling and laughing one second and the next I'm freaking out white-knuckling the table and begging whatever this is to GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD.

#schizo spectrum #nicotine #self medication #psychotic disorders #personal #vent #psychosis #hallucinations #pseudopsychosis #actually stpd #actually schizospec #and before someone asks the annoying 'but what about [insert psych med here]' #im poor- hate the psych industry- and every med ive been forced on has made me behave horribly and made diff symptoms worse depending #antidepressants made me more actively suicidal than I'd been for years prior. antipsychs gave me the strong urge to kick a puppy and broke #my emotional spectrum and empathy for like a solid month even after flushing them and refusing to take them #the only one that has helped w anything specifically anxiety or bad trips is benzos #but that doesnt help w psychosis and also rly hard to come by #and also also i have no delusions about the danger of benzo dependence and will only take one during an emergency #on average like once every 4 months if even that #for other psychotics who have accidentally skipped their medicine for some reason-- whether prescribed or otherwise-- #I'm sorry that happened and I hope you were/are okay. be safe

[stonedish]

nugs, not drugs

#girls who smoke #stoner #weed #bud #pot #ganja #happy #medicine #self medication #smoke #stoner life #marijuana #pothead #green #thc #asthetic #420 #420weed #420photography #420life

[worldbuildingwanderlust]

Smokeless smokes

And toothless tokes

Another day of abstaining

Will it make the morning

Brighter?

...Maybe I just need my lighter

#my writing #shitpost #humor #smoking #sweet #cannabis #poetry #poem #creative writing #self medication #spilled ink #poets on tumblr #writers on tumblr #writers and poets #quick write #420life

[xxxnonsenssxxx]

Black Cherry Gelato 🍒 <smalls>

CALIFORNIA LOVE

Hmu if your town be dry 🤪

#self care #kentucky #cannabis #self medication #smoke weed everyday #funny tumblr #weed strains #weed community #small business

[heqp]

#legal cannabis market #legal marijuana market #self medication #medical marijuana #cannabis industry #pnw #grow room

[asktheheirofslytherin]

Happy birthday my Lord. You’re nearly a hundred wow. Hope you’re finally going to therapy in 2024!

Nonsense. I shall continue to self meditate as I see fit.

#voldemort #lord voldemort #tom riddle #self medication #therapy #hahahaha like he'd take care of his mental health #oh voldy #he really should tho

[finallyexploringmyself]

Day one of winter break….there may not be enough alcohol in the state…..

#kids are cray #self medication

[firelordhotman]

i love you addicts who self medicate their chronic pain, i love you high-functioning addicts who self medicate i love you low-functioning addicts who self medicate… i love everyone who has to deal with this terrible choice of staying in a habit you know is not great for you or your health, or staying in severe pain that is even harder to survive. people who get shamed or dismissed as drug-seeking by disability communities that are supposed to be there for you. people that are denied life-changing and necessary medication because of their substance use history, and who have no choice but to turn back to more dangerous substances even when they tried to use something healthier. people who are prescribed opioids for pain but respond far better to natural but illegal substances like cannabis. people who get told to just “get help with their… /Problem/”, as if its that simple. as if there are addiction treatments that take chronic pain into account, as if there are chronic pain treatments that take addiction into account, as if there is any help or resources available for people who need treatment for both of these things at once. people who know theyre addicts and hate being addicts but simply truly cannot manage their pain without substances, people who suffer in pain every day instead of taking medication because they are afraid of addiction, and you know who else? people who know theyre addicts and dont care and have the right to make adult decisions about drugs and do whatever they want with their body anyway, even if it makes them worse. i love you too

#This is not proofread i hope i dont regret this #family history of chronic pain🤝family history of substance abuse #addiction #disability #chronic pain #self medication

[flame-cat]

alright. im kinda drunk and in the mood to talk about it.

autism and the use of drugs and alcohol. i dont think ive met many autistic people who havent at least considered alcohol, weed, or harder drugs as a method of self medication. it dulls your senses, the very thing that makes it so hard for us to function. being able to walk into a crowded room with lights and music and not be immediately overwhelmed feels like a super power. for once you feel normal. like you can talk to people. like you can be part of something

lets talk about it guys. come on. gimmie your thoughts

#actually autistic #autism #in the life #alcohol #weed #drugs #self medication #drunk pheo