#will prob delete

[care666bear]

cute lil flowers on my pj’s

#me 💒 #and my fuzzy slippers. my lifeline #anywho it’s becoming a habit I take cute fit pics. sorry if u hate me #will prob delete

[dersandmannkommt]

!! tw: ocd !!

new contamination trigger!!!!! woohoo! guess what it is?!?!

showering. yes. showering. y'know, the thing that makes you clean?...had a panic attack in the shower not even 20 minutes ago because if the water if touching me, then it's also touching potential germs and viruses and rashes, and the water will spread to non-contaminated parts of me, and spread it there, and so on. ive convinced myself that i somehow have mrsa??? i know that in less than a week, i'll be okay again, but ocd is ocd. writing these out actually help a lot; reminds me that even though my fears are valid and justified, obsessing the way i do is a bit silly.

if you have ocd, and youre still reading, heres a coping tip (this works for all ocd's btw) (currently the only thing keeping me from running to urgent care "just to be sure"). let's say theres a spot on your arm, dont tell yourself that "its not (fill in the blank), its not ____, its not ____, its nothing contagious!!" because youre only feeding into the fear. instead, imagine the worst case scenario head on. you have to. otherwise you'll just be running from the fears you obsess over for the rest of your life.

you have to imagine the worst case scenario, and then walk yourself through it all working out. like, i also have a fear of cars. ever since i was a kid, i would imagine them flipping over, me getting impaled by whatever i was holding, flying out the window, getting crushed, ect, the only reason i can even get into a car is because i imagine the worst case, and then picture everything working out. the car flipped over? im okay, a trip to the hospital and im home within a few days. or what about something like pink eye? worst case, i get it in both eyes. does that suck? yeah. is it scary? yeah. BUT people get pink eye, and then they. get. better. they wash their hands after touching their eyes, wash their pillow case, put some eye drops in, and move on with their life. i have to be able to do that. i have to be able to continue living.

so yeah, i was afraid to shower. but i did. i dont think i have mrsa. but even if i do, the sun stays warm, the earth spins, and it will heal and go away. if i have it, i will live as i did last week, but be a bit more careful, and change the bandaid out. i will have to contintue to live. just as everyone else.

if you're still reading this, and you have ocd, you'll be okay. stop getting stuck in your head, you know your brain is a little off, thats not good, but it is okay. you're okay. the earth still spins, the moon still rises. if all is not well, dont panic, because all will be well.

#ocd #contamination ocd #severe ocd #ocd awareness #just right ocd #intrusive thoughts #obsessive compulsive disorder #mental health #mental illness #actually ocd #coping skills #ocd help #trying to cope #will prob delete

[sleepytoken]

Hmm. I'm not surprised that someone is stealing my gifs and reposting them on twit-x (whatever it is). But just a link back to the originals would be nice, ya know?

#im not even on twitter x whatever and i found them ahaa #hate that place #but if you are reading this - just source them man thats all i ask #text #will prob delete

[enjoydotnet]

on a really srs and kind of personal note ? mtl

meaning a lot to me below

tldr was in a terribly long abusive relationship with my first gf in highschool who played bass and was super into rock/metal at the time and she basically ruined the genre (and a TON of my other favorite music) for me because hearing anything from that period would send me into an instant panic attack.(7 years later there are still songs i can’t listen to she dealt 1000 years psychic damage to my brain). for a super long time i avoided everything musically related to her for years despite because there was no way for me to reform positive associations and it wasn’t worth the emotional hassle. she’s prob the reason i stopped playing guitar in the first place tbfh. anyway in the most serious way possible watching mtl reopened me to the whole genre and seeing ppl on here talk about their fave music and relistening and discovering things with new and positive associations has healed me in a ton of ways,, music has always been super important to me and being able to take it back for myself ,:. yeag.

anyways pls feel free to give me your fave bands/recs if u read this

#will prob delete #me talking

[0rit]

brush test + 2 min studies dump

#personal: art #will prob delete

[alberta-sunrise]

I’m legitimately so fucking done! I have spent so much time, effort and money in the hopes of becoming a mum and I can’t do it anymore!

I didn’t have a single fucking alcoholic drink last month cus apparently it ups your chances. Nothing…

I’m also fed up of people telling me ‘just relax’… ‘don’t get so stressed about it’… well easier said than fucking done!

I have tried so many different things and nothing so I am officially done!

Rant over… GAAAAAH!!!!!

#ttccommunity #TTC community #trying for a baby #this fucking sucks #i’m done #heart can’t take it anymore #TTC #i need a drink #will prob delete #probably delete later

[perksofbeingaghoul]

Ok, bet.

#me #spring #green #curly hair #green today #plus size #fat babe #co star #body neutrality #body positive #thick and juicy #body #👀 #not feelin myself #will prob delete #💕 #🍑 #cute #I guess

[fvcking-damage]

coming out is so fucking exhausting. i had forgotten about that part. feels like a truck ran me over

#it went well #but damn my eyes hurt so damn much from crying #ryan rambles #will prob delete #just knowing that my mom still loves me the same is all i could have asked for

[nicky999doors]

bleep

#will prob delete

[racoonsmonaut]

there always has been a mutual understanding that if one of us dies,the other one won’t have the strenght to keep going on for long either.

i am starting to forget how your face looked like.

#j #will prob delete

[lonelym00n]

does anyone else’s family make them feel how lana del rey felt when she sang “can’t a girl just do the best she can”

im sorry that i cant be everything u want me to be fam, i try

#just need to let this thought be heard by someone #stressin #will prob delete #sporadic thoughts :d

[devoutjunk]

hips were extra crooked yesterday but i dyed my hair & walked to dinner in the rain & put my most impractical pair of pajamas on when I got home & took a terrible mirror picture bc for once i felt hot not in spite of or to spite my scoliosis but just hot

#selfie tag #will prob delete

[winchestershiresauce]

I was wondering what was gonna send me spiraling into anxiety this week...

Tonight is graduation for the school I teach at and I just found out, less than three hours before the ceremony, that I'll be doing the grad portraits as they get their diplomas?!

I hope they're okay with the most mediocre amateur automatic settings photos ever because I haven't done photography in years. 😭🤢

I'M SO STRESSED

#personal #will prob delete

[deadboyswalking]

[This was from a costume party] me and dabi get long tongue rights I guess

#will prob delete

[treatbuckywkisses]

so much is happening i want to scream:(

the way my job gives me so much anxiety it's not even funny. that place is a fucking disaster. i get told im going to be part time and im out here working 40hrs a week, and i dont even get my second break usually like im supposed to. there aren't enough people in the department i work in and they pull people from it for other departments anyway. one of our team leads basically told us all our sections looked like shit tonight and he was going to walk us though it and make us tell him everything we did wrong. i was stuck somewhere else for most of my shift and couldn't work on my section, so when i tell you i was so scared dude you don't even fucking know lmao i literally cried because I'm still new and i didn't want them to think i did a bad job or im not cut out for it or whatever. and he never even showed up. he said it to "scare us into doing our work" and im so mad about it. i almost threw up for that ??

im so fucking tired and dehydrated and it's so hot in there i barely even eat on my lunch break and when i get home after my 8hr shift. i can't tell if im losing weight (unhealthy obvi) or if i have looked like this and didn't know lol so i just try not to look at myself if i can help it bc what.

i never really know what i look like, but when i do, it's ugly and i hate it.

also im working on moving into an apartment (i say 'me' but im not alone sgsksh) idk living is hard yk it's a lot and it's stupid and where my stuff is im not even staying bc sarah is a fucking bitch for no reason and i will hurt her feelings if she looks at me so yeah there's like so much shit happening and I'm so overwhelmed like hello i can actually only do so much pls why

anyways i am really tired and i want to cry and sleep forever and ever:( is this what happens when you keep things 'bottled up' lol

omg also? i haven't gotten my period yet like since April and im 🥴🤨 bc where is she yk and then im like babe you're literally a ball of fucking stress and anxiety please take a Xanax but back to stress im so worried i will get my period on my 8hr shift with nothing and i don't drive myself so that is like extra fun yk wow

the way i have never talked so much and i do it like this where nobody will read it sgskdgd this is who i am as a person irl though so congrats if u read this ig hello

also since I'm fucking word vomiting i guess and ive already come to terms with how nobody will read this, i hate this place. like tumblr i mean. idk it just like sucks to feel like you deserve more than you get yk and i actually am allowed to say that. my moodboards do not do nearly as good as i would like to think they would when i make them and it sucks. because believe it or not i start out thinking they're so pretty and the lack of interaction makes me doubt my own abilities and i hate that. and how I have so many "followers" with the amount of notes i get LOL what a joke actually. especially when they're also content creators. why are you even following me then yk like i only provide one thing and you don't even seem to like it so what are you doing here. it's annoying honestly. how can a content creator be the one not giving support. smh.

i think i need to go to sleep bc idk what i just said and if anyone reads this i feel like ppl will be mad at me so that's where I'm at lolllllll i h8 myself <3

#fayth using her blog as a diary #but fr this time #this is a diary entry #oops #tw body image #?? #body dysmorphia tw #kinda but I'm tagging it just to be safe ? #does that make sense #me asking like anyone will read this anyways LMAO #im too funny sometimes #will prob delete #again not like anyone will read it #so im out here talking to myself #lol #fayth rambles #ignore me #long post #actual bullshit nonsense

[atticdemosdyke]

the thing about grey sweatpants is that i WILL think about your cock

#especially if ur a butch #but in this case its my weird coworkwr who i’ve NEVER been attracted to before #who is not a butch #he is a cishet man #love him v much as a pal but i have neverrrrrr #the post period horniness is stupid #and grey sweats are my weakness #will prob delete