so much is happening i want to scream:(
the way my job gives me so much anxiety it's not even funny. that place is a fucking disaster. i get told im going to be part time and im out here working 40hrs a week, and i dont even get my second break usually like im supposed to. there aren't enough people in the department i work in and they pull people from it for other departments anyway. one of our team leads basically told us all our sections looked like shit tonight and he was going to walk us though it and make us tell him everything we did wrong. i was stuck somewhere else for most of my shift and couldn't work on my section, so when i tell you i was so scared dude you don't even fucking know lmao i literally cried because I'm still new and i didn't want them to think i did a bad job or im not cut out for it or whatever. and he never even showed up. he said it to "scare us into doing our work" and im so mad about it. i almost threw up for that ??
im so fucking tired and dehydrated and it's so hot in there i barely even eat on my lunch break and when i get home after my 8hr shift. i can't tell if im losing weight (unhealthy obvi) or if i have looked like this and didn't know lol so i just try not to look at myself if i can help it bc what.
i never really know what i look like, but when i do, it's ugly and i hate it.
also im working on moving into an apartment (i say 'me' but im not alone sgsksh) idk living is hard yk it's a lot and it's stupid and where my stuff is im not even staying bc sarah is a fucking bitch for no reason and i will hurt her feelings if she looks at me so yeah there's like so much shit happening and I'm so overwhelmed like hello i can actually only do so much pls why
anyways i am really tired and i want to cry and sleep forever and ever:( is this what happens when you keep things 'bottled up' lol
omg also? i haven't gotten my period yet like since April and im 🥴🤨 bc where is she yk and then im like babe you're literally a ball of fucking stress and anxiety please take a Xanax but back to stress im so worried i will get my period on my 8hr shift with nothing and i don't drive myself so that is like extra fun yk wow
the way i have never talked so much and i do it like this where nobody will read it sgskdgd this is who i am as a person irl though so congrats if u read this ig hello
also since I'm fucking word vomiting i guess and ive already come to terms with how nobody will read this, i hate this place. like tumblr i mean. idk it just like sucks to feel like you deserve more than you get yk and i actually am allowed to say that. my moodboards do not do nearly as good as i would like to think they would when i make them and it sucks. because believe it or not i start out thinking they're so pretty and the lack of interaction makes me doubt my own abilities and i hate that. and how I have so many "followers" with the amount of notes i get LOL what a joke actually. especially when they're also content creators. why are you even following me then yk like i only provide one thing and you don't even seem to like it so what are you doing here. it's annoying honestly. how can a content creator be the one not giving support. smh.
i think i need to go to sleep bc idk what i just said and if anyone reads this i feel like ppl will be mad at me so that's where I'm at lolllllll i h8 myself <3
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Looking at Etho with my big ol' eyes. Why do you have a pattern of becoming quickly attached to people who bully you. Yes they're doing it lovingly teasingly jokingly but how is the easiest way to get your attention to be a bit mean to you? Over here leaving mail and statues at Joel's like a cat bringing mice to his doorstep. Stealing from Gem and being in her general vicinity after she roasted you during a boating trip and constantly calls you washed up. The first time you see Cleo in last life you're like heyyy so I bet on you to die first, can you do that for me? and when she rightfully calls you out for being rude you just ask "don't you like that sort of thing?". Not to mention all of limited life followed by secret life. What's up with that. Hey get back here
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don’t know how to really articulate this properly but I really dislike the way people continuously talk about emily axford’s incredible creativity and system mastery in the context of the men she plays with--like yes I understand she can be a menace to DMs and that is a part of her charm, but I hate how the conversation is boiled down to just that one small feature, to the point of completely ignoring her improv skills, knowledge of the game, strategy, and emotional roleplaying? like why is the entire conversation around her feature on critical role about her being a threat to matt, and not about what an excellent player she is? why is it that an incredibly talented and intelligent woman can only be conceptualized as a threat? when she pulls an amazing move, why is the whole conversation about how she has threatened the DM instead of about how impressive Emily is? I understand that its a joke, I guess I just think the joke is getting old.
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Something I love about the Zelda series is how Link and Zelda's relationship can change drastically in between games. Like, in Twilight Princess, the two don't really interact much outside of their first meeting. They have a mutual friend in Midna and that's it. There's not much there platonically, much less romantically. At most it's a "this is my girlfriend Midna and this is Midna's girlfriend Zelda" type of situation.
Then you have the next major release, Skyward Sword, where the two are most definitely in love with each other. They're so super into each other and almost everyone knows that. Unless I'm forgetting an entry, it's the closest zelink has come to being canon without them explicitly stating it's canon. And this dynamic comes after the game where they barely know each other. Love that for them.
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Anyway, Dick's alt universe/alt timeline kids are wild.
There's the Dick and Kori kids, Mar'i Grayson and Jacob (Jake) Grayson:
Mar'i is named after Dick's mom but with a Tamaranian twist and Jake is named after no one. Mar'i and Jake both can absorb energy, project energy and fly. However, only Mar'i has super strength. Jake also almost died at birth because of his mixed DNA and had extreme difficulty controlling his powers. He went from extremely sickly to nuclear bomb at a moments notice. Mar'i took up the mantle of Nightstar, married her uncle (?!?) and had two kids. Jake never picked a 'hero name' but he still helped people. Eventually he had a son that he named Richard.
Then there's the Dick and Babs kids, Johnny and Tommy. They're twins... I think. It's unclear. Either DC forgot the kid's name and started calling him a different name or there are two identical boys. There is speculation that John's (named after Dick's dad) middle name is Thomas and that's where the confusion is. I'm going to assume that there are two kids however, because they grow up to be very different people.
Thomas (named after Bruce's dad) took up the name Red Hood because he thought Jason was very cool. Thomas works very closely with the Bat family however and the name seems to be that only thing of Jason's that Thomas emulates. John got kidnapped as a small child and was experimented on until he developed powers. John has energy projection powers, super strength and flight. He went by the name 'Firepattern'. He was brainwashed by a cult and worked for them until his father found him again as a teenager. John Grayson actually exists in a few timelines but this is the one that gave him more than just a cameo role.
Then there's Elainna Grayson. She is Dick's daughter but they never say who her mother is. Barbara is not her mother because Elainna's mom is dead and Babs is alive in this timeline. Elainna takes up the mantle of Batwoman and fights alongside the Bat family (despite her father's objections)
Anyway... Dick has five different alt kids and three of them have the same powers and the other two took up mantles that weren't his. Very funny stuff right there.
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