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#yes I made this because Wilbur said he’d fuck his dsmp character
errorryx · 1 year
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read on ao3 | dsmp, tntduo, 2k words
after the wine stream, i wanted to write up a tntduo ending fic that would resolve the obvious homoerotic tension without feeling too out of character. after a few days of agonizing over the details, here it is!
The first thing Wilbur noticed about Quackity was that he was wearing red. 
Dark red, specifically. It reminded Wilbur of his own burgundy coat, which in turn reminded him of how Quackity was still in his shadow, right down to the dramatic costume changes. (Whether or not Quackity wore it better was besides the point.)
The second thing he noticed was that Quackity’s hair had grown. It was as wild as ever, but now it reached his shoulders, and Wilbur wished he didn’t find it quite so striking. Especially paired with that stormy expression, and the way it blew in the wind as Quackity approached.
Wilbur had been searching for an opening remark on the way here, something like, fancy meeting you here, or perhaps more in the direction of glad to see you’re still alive. Nothing seemed to fit, and Tommy had only laughed at him for trying. “Hello, Quackity,” he said, attempting to sound calm and unbothered.
“Wilbur.” The fury in Quackity’s eyes could have started a fire. Wilbur hoped he’d still be the target when it ignited. “What the fuck do you think you’re doing here? Don’t you know—” His eyes darted around the immediate area in a display of suspicion that was far from unwarranted, but it still rubbed Wilbur the wrong way. “You can’t be here.”
It dawned on him that Quackity’s agitation wasn’t just anger; it was fear, dangerously and deliciously potent. Wilbur didn’t delude himself into thinking he was the primary cause. He wasn’t a threat anymore, and Quackity would be able to see that on him.
God, he was glad he’d asked Tommy to wait a distance away for this. He could practically taste the smoke in the air between them.
“Quackity,” he said, “I have something I need to tell you.”
“I don’t have time for this,” Quackity said.
“Yes, you do.”
“I don’t need your—your apology, or whatever this is, okay, I have shit to do—”
“I’m not apologizing,” Wilbur said, unable to hold back a smile. “I came to tell you that I never fucking liked you.”
“Oh, fuck you,” Quackity growled, and yes, there was that fighting spirit, the thing that had kept what was left of Wilbur burning for so long. “You think you can just come here and say that to me? Out of nowhere?”
“I can,” Wilbur said. “I can say whatever I want, and you’ll listen to me. I can tell you your nation’s a piece of shit, that you only made it to follow in my footsteps because that’s all you know how to do—”
“Oh, because your nation was so successful,” Quackity shot back. “L’Manberg lasted for what, two months before you blew it to shit? These buildings have stood here longer than anything in your crater of a country ever did!”
It was this back-and-forth routine of theirs he would miss the most—the way they took turns raising the stakes, going for lower blows, abandoning all restraint in pursuit of victory. Quackity’s words were water on a grease fire, and Wilbur was all too eager for an excuse to boil over.
“I tried to destroy this place,” he said. “I tried to destroy you too, plenty of times, but I never did. You’re still standing. That’s the beauty of it, isn’t it?” It was impulsive and stupid, but Wilbur had never been anything else—he seized Quackity by the upper arm, some misguided need to make sure he couldn’t get away. “You don’t need me to be your downfall, Quackity. You’ve got that covered all by yourself, don’t you?”
Quackity was fuming, pulling out his sword, and Wilbur was nothing but fire, flames licking up his dead and greying flesh at the promise of destruction. “I don’t need this,” Quackity said, and Wilbur could read all of what he was thinking just by looking at him. “I don’t need you. Let go of me, Wilbur, or I’ll fucking kill you.”
“Do it,” Wilbur said. If he let go now, it would be the last time he ever did. “Go ahead. Kill me.” I know you won’t was implied, not said. Wilbur didn’t need to say it. Quackity would know.
Quackity would look up at him any second, and know.
Quackity would—
Quackity was raising his sword and he wasn’t looking, and—stupidly, impulsively, because he’d only ever been himself—Wilbur moved into the path of Quackity’s swing, positioning himself in Quackity’s line of sight. By the time he finally met Wilbur’s eyes eyes, it was too late to correct its course. Quackity threw out his other arm as if to catch the blade with his own hand, and Wilbur couldn’t react fast enough to stop him.
“Fuck!” they both shouted in perfect unison, as Quackity’s hand hit Wilbur’s shoulder and the sword sliced into them both.
It was a shallow cut, by some miracle. Wilbur could handle it. But the same couldn’t have been said for Quackity, who dropped the sword and began clutching at his hand, blood seeping between his fingers.
Without thinking, Wilbur reached out for him. Quackity pulled away with a hiss, baring his teeth like a cornered animal, his golden incisor glinting in the sun. Maybe I should let him bite me again, Wilbur found himself thinking, for old times’ sake. But the moment passed, and he watched as Quackity snatch up the sword with his good hand, returning it to his inventory. “Don’t fucking touch me.”
He deserved that, probably. Still, Wilbur wasn’t going to stand there and watch him bleed without doing anything about it. “Tommy!” he called in the vague direction of where he’d seen his brother last. Tommy appeared from behind a nearby sand dune, where he’d almost certainly been eavesdropping on them. “Do you have any gapples?”
“In my ender chest,” Tommy said, racing into one of the nearby buildings. He returned only moments later with a golden apple, tossing it up and down in his hand like a softball. “Q, you alright, big man?”
“Hey, Tommy,” Quackity said through gritted teeth, accepting the proffered apple. “What are you still doing with this guy?”
Tommy blinked in confusion, like he didn’t understand the question. “How’d that even happen?” he asked, pointing to Quackity’s hand. He looked over at the matching slash on Wilbur’s shoulder. It was barely bleeding, so Wilbur didn’t bother to ask for a gapple of his own. Nothing but another tear in his jacket he’d never get around to mending.
“Stupid accident,” Quackity said.
“Oh. Well, eat the gapple then, dumbass.”
Quackity bit into the apple with a wince, chewing and swallowing before speaking. “Okay, out with it, Wilbur,” he said. “What the fuck do you want? Are you just here to antagonize me?”
No more pushing this off, not if it would result in further injury. “Quackity,” Wilbur said, his voice oddly hoarse, “I came to say that it’s been nice knowing you.”
Quackity took another bite of gapple, then another. “That sounds like a goodbye,” he said. With his mouth full it was hard to tell what tone he’d been going for. Each bite sprayed droplets of juice from the apple, and Wilbur almost forgot that Quackity was not a messy eater. Almost.
“Yeah, well…” Wilbur glanced over at Tommy, who had defaulted to what was familiar, hovering at Wilbur’s side. He hadn’t meant it to turn out this way, but he might as well rip off both band-aids at once. “That’s because it is.”
“The fuck do you mean?” Quackity got out, and there was that fire again. It’d be enough to keep him rowing for months at this point. “Why would you be saying goodbye? What are you even doing?”
“I’m going,” Wilbur said simply. “It’s time for me to go.”
He didn’t expect Quackity to understand, not yet. He’d recognize the signs of a self-destructive spiral anywhere, and he knew Quackity wasn’t going to be making any good choices for himself until it was over. For once, Wilbur didn’t want any part of it. He didn’t want to get hooked on the smell of sulfur as he rigged things to explode. He didn’t want another war. He wanted to go home, and Quackity, for all his familiarity, was not home.
You’re going,” Quackity repeated scathingly, but he looked at Tommy—a mistake, if he wanted to understand Wilbur. Tommy could usually be counted on to know what Wilbur was thinking, but this time around, Wilbur had been intentionally keeping him in the dark. When Quackity looked back at him, there was pity in his eyes—the genuine kind, not the disdain that Wilbur normally got in its place. Like he’d stared into Wilbur’s hidden depths and realized just how sad and broken he was.
The joke was on Quackity, of course. Because Wilbur was many things right now, but he wasn’t sad. He was the least broken he’d ever been in his life. He was alive.
“Wilbur,” Quackity said, “what are you trying to say?”
“I think I was pretty clear,” Wilbur said. “I’m going. I can’t stay here anymore, so I’m going.”
“Hey, don’t look at me,” Tommy said when Quackity’s eyes moved to him, “I’ve got no idea what he’s on about either.”
“Tommy, I’ll explain all this later,” Wilbur said. “I promise. You go on ahead, alright? I’ll…catch up with you, man.”
“Go on where?” Tommy asked, rolling his eyes.
“That direction,” Wilbur said, pointing to the left of the casino.
“Whatever. If you two are going to kiss again, I don’t really want to see it anyway.”
“I don’t think we are,” Wilbur said mildly. He knew he’d missed his chance.
Once Tommy was a good distance away, Quackity said, “I’m guessing you’ve already made up your mind, then.”
“I’d invite you to come with me,” Wilbur said. “Really, I would. But I already know your answer.”
Quackity sighed. “I could really use your help about now, you know.”
“You’re still on about the vice president thing?”
He laughed bitterly. “Nothing to be vice president of anymore.”
“That bad, huh?”
“You have no idea.”
Wilbur couldn’t say he was surprised to hear it. “If I were you I’d make a run for it.”
“I can’t do that,” Quackity said. “I can’t leave him. Even if—” He shook his head. “Never mind. Where is it you’re going, exactly?”
“Home,” Wilbur said. “I’m going home.”
“That doesn’t answer my question at all.”
“I’m leaving the SMP,” Wilbur explained. “Going back to where I came from.”
“So this is going to be the last time I ever see you, then.”
“It is.” 
Quackity seemed to be making up his mind about something, but for once, Wilbur couldn’t tell what it was. He took a step closer, unsure what compelled him to do so. It didn’t prepare him at all for when Quackity grabbed him by the collar, pulled Wilbur down to his level, and kissed him.
It was funny—Wilbur had always expected Quackity’s kiss to feel like a wildfire, uncontrolled and overpowering, something that would reduce him to a pile of ashes. Instead it was much more subdued, like a flickering torch in his hand, gentle but sure. As long as he held it steady, it would never go out.
Quackity was not his home, but maybe in another life, he could have been.
“Well then,” Wilbur said when they broke away. “I guess Tommy was right after all.”
Quackity crossed his arms, the faint evidence of a smile visible on his face. “Go fuck yourself, Wilbur Soot.”
Wilbur took one last look at him, flushed red and defiant as ever. Quackity was as unapologetic as Wilbur for the way things had turned out, and Wilbur wouldn’t have it any other way. He didn’t need Quackity to be sorry. He didn’t need him any other way but this, wild hair and wilder eyes, tasting like all the colors of an open flame.
The last thing he noticed about Quackity was that they’d been missing each other the entire time.
“You’re alright,” he said, and forced himself to tear his eyes away. He was glad he’d saved this stop for last. If he’d had any more time to waste, things might have turned out very, very different.
“You’re not too bad yourself,” Quackity said, amused. “Goodbye, Wilbur.”
“Goodbye, Quackity.”
He headed north, towards Tommy, towards home.
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That's 1,613 more posts than 2021!
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I tagged 139 of my posts in 2022
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#seriously tho if you have ideas please tell me writers block  h u r ts
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
I love to think that when either Wilbur or Quackity is questioned about the nature of their relationship with the other that they’ll be all like “WHAT??!! H-HIM??? My relationship with him is PURELY business, I want absolutely NOTHING to do with the likes of HIM,” in utter indignation at this suggestion and then cut to five minutes later where they’re making out against the burger van.
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#4
you’re in his DMs, I’m terrorising the casino he owns whilst simultaneously trying to fix every mistake i’ve made in the past. We are not the same.
212 notes - Posted August 22, 2022
#3
Ok but like- I’m just saying if a Revived Wilbur and Quackity had a wedding (yes I know of the multitudes of trauma, I’ve thought this whole thing out lmao), then you can’t tell me that Wilbur would just show up in the most gorgeous, lacy, fitted, ivory-white dress ever, and then just throw his filthy old trenchcoat on top and act like he’s a fucking fashion icon.
He’d just be walking up the aisle and everyone there would just be like smh Wilbur couldn’t you go one day without the trenchcoat you bloody JD kinnie.
Also Tommy would most definitely be the flower boy and throw cactuses and shit at people he didn’t like, Niki would be Wilbur’s maid of honour (we love ignoring canon to make fluffy scenarios /hj), Slime would be Quackity’s best man and naturally, it’d be a classic church prime wedding as per tradition.
256 notes - Posted January 10, 2022
#2
the men of the dsmp really just knew that straight relationships weren’t gonna be a thing so just said fuck it and went about dating men
281 notes - Posted July 13, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
i am starting to genuinely belive that my mans c!wilbur just had a massive sexuality crisis in limbo- 
like he comes out of complete and utter sexual depravity almost 100% gayer? my guy probably didn’t have much to do, and when the mind gets bored, the mind starts to think of homosexual things.
i picture him just like sitting alone in the train station, absent-mindedly throwing a rock at the walls, when his brain is just like- “Ok but hear me out- what about men?”
“and what about quackity in particular?”
LIKE- you cannot tell me that this man wasn’t on Wilbur’s brain 24/7, where else do you think this sudden urge to go see him came from?? C!Wilbur definitely had nice thoughts about a certain pretty man, questioned his sexuality ten times a day, and with a splendiferous revival ended up almost 500x more homosexual. That’s just how it works now.
i also have like another million theories about how he changed during the course of his limbo but we’ll save those for another tumblr post shall we-
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c!Dream and the rules
(/dsmp /rp, all names refer to characters, not content creators)
I think one of the most striking parts of Exile is something that I rarely see talked about, and it’s Dream’s rules. Or rather, how his rules were made to be used as justification to hurt Tommy.
The thing about exile is that, outside of the initial rule of “Don’t go back to L’Manburg”, Dream never told Tommy the rules, yet constantly operated under the assumption that Tommy already knew them, and had accepted them. The rules also changed constantly, without Tommy ever being notified until he was already in trouble.
The second time Dream told Tommy to put his armor in the hole, he didn’t tell Tommy to do that right away. Instead, the conversation went like this (slightly edited to remove stammering and unrelated dialogue).
Dream: Do you have, uh… something you wanna put on the floor here? Tommy: Yes. (drops two pieces of red concrete as Dream digs a hole) Dre-eam! You’re evil. You’re evil. Dream: Anything else, Tommy? Tommy: Nope! Dream: Oh c’mon, I know there’s something else you wanna drop down here. Tommy: (panicking slightly) No, there… (messages BBH “take this and run”, throws him the disc BBH had gifted him earlier) Um… I don’t reckon there is! (pause) Dream: Okay, are you suuuure? Tommy: YES. Dream: Alright… How ‘bout your armor, Tommy? Tommy: Well, no, this is- I actually earned this myself. Dream: I know you did! Tommy: Leave me alone. Dream: Just drop it in the hole, Tommy. Tommy: Wh- no, NO, you can’t just come and demand things from me! I’ve been exiled, I’ve done your shit, what do you mean?! Dream: (sing-song) Tommy… Tommy: What? (Dream hits Tommy with his axe, taking over half his health) Tommy: (screams, drops his armor) OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY!
The only rule Tommy was aware of at this time was that he wasn’t allowed to go back to L’Manburg. Dream had taken his armor the night before, but there was no indication that he expected Tommy to do this constantly. Taking his armor upon initially arriving at Logstedshire made some kind of sense, allowing Tommy to keep it would run the risk of him trying to fight his way back into L’Manburg. Taking his new, very shitty armor (seriously it was an iron chestplate and a pair of golden leggings he got from a ruined portal chest) made no sense at all, so the fact that Tommy was confused and refused to cooperate at first isn’t unexpected in the slightest.
And the thing is… Dream was aware of this fact. Throughout the conversation, he never really sounded annoyed, and was actively teasing Tommy at times. This isn’t a good thing btw, it’s a sign that he was fully aware that Tommy didn’t know what he wanted from him, and that that would create a situation where Dream could “put him in his place” as it were.
If you’re a parent, and your kid does something that’s not allowed, without knowing it’s not allowed, you don’t start off with a beating. You sit them down, calmly explain the rules to them and explain why those rules are there, then send them on their way with the knowledge that they shouldn't do it again.
This interaction wasn’t an instance of Tommy acting out and Dream correcting him. This interaction was a trap. Dream set Tommy up to fail by not telling him the rules beforehand, and when Tommy offered even the slightest bit of resistance and asked why he needed to drop his armor, Dream jumped straight to beating him. It’s a powerplay, plain and simple.
This is demonstrated again with the destruction of Logstedshire. Dream got pissed that Tommy disobeyed him by having hidden chests with gear under his house, and retaliated by destroying everything Tommy had built, destroying every item he’d collected, killing his pet and only foodsource, barring him from the Nether, banning everyone except himself from visiting, and telling him to start over from scratch after a whole lecture about how Tommy betrayed him.
Again, I wanna point out some specific lines from this lecture that illustrate my point very well.
Dream: You were lying to me! You were lying to me. Tommy: No- Why was I lying?! Dream: What do you mean, why were you lying?! Tommy: I wasn’t hi- I wasn’t- Dream: You hid things in a chest knowing they were things I wouldn’t want you to have! And you hid it in a way that way I would never find it!
Except Tommy didn’t know that. The contents of the stash were all items that Tommy had obtained previously without any issue (diamonds, emeralds, iron, ender pearls, some pickaxes, and some purely sentimental items like flowers, a jukebox, and pictures of Tubbo and L’Manburg). In fact, the vast majority of them came from Tommy’s aboveground storage, which Dream had full access to, and had looked through before!
Dream also never said Tommy wasn’t allowed to hide stuff, and there was nothing to suggest he didn’t want Tommy to keep secrets from him.
There’s been a theory floating around for a while that Dream knew about Tommy’s item stash beforehand, since it was a very strange place to dig a hole (like, right in front of the house in the center of Logstedshire itself, instead of out in the plains where the TNT wouldn’t damage any structures), and Tommy had previously forgotten to cover up the entrance ladder. While Dream hadn’t looked inside the house, he would’ve definitely heard Tommy place the block back.
If this theory is correct, then this was yet another trap. Dream knew Tommy had a hidden room, and instead of just saying “hey, I don’t want you to have a hidden stash, go put this back and fill in the room” (which would’ve still been bullshit btw), he went COMPLETELY ballistic, destroyed EVERYTHING Tommy had, and while doing it, kept admonishing Tommy for betraying him, said shit like “I thought we were friends”, and even accused him of preparing to attack Dream. Again, a powerplay.
Hell, even the exile conflict itself is this! Tommy was exiled for griefing the king’s property while being a high-ranking official in L’Manburg. Except Fundy, the then-president’s son, CONSTANTLY griefed Eret’s shit after the L’Manburg war, ranging from ripping down one of their towers to “shrink” it, filling another tower with water, and multiple elaborate plots to steal the throne from under their nose. But apparently, between all of that shit and the exile-conflict, the rules were silently changed, meaning Dream could exile Tommy for breaking a couple blocks and placing some rude signs in George’s house. Even the punishment itself was changed without warning, as Tommy went from being exiled from L’Manburg to exiled from “everywhere that’s ever been touched.”
...I was originally gonna make a different point here. I may put it in the reblogs, because I still think it’s very interesting. But, in the middle of writing this essay I had to stop because it was late, then I spent the entire next day packing up because I’m in the middle of a move. It's now the next evening, I'm sat in my new room, on my camping bed, I opened this doc because I pretty much forgot what I typed, I reread it, and then I realized… This isn’t an isolated series of events. This is a pattern for Dream.
Before Tommy first joined the server, there were only three set rules: no stealing, no griefing, and no killing people. Except by that point, those rules weren’t enforced at all. In fact, Dream broke all three at once at one point, by killing George and burning his diamond armor because he didn’t feel it was fair that George got to run around in full diamond when everyone else still had iron.
Tommy joined the server, and broke the rules like everyone else. He stole shit, broke shit, killed George for funsies… and he got exiled for it. Seriously, they dumped him in an empty snowfield for breaking rules that nobody had enforced for weeks. So technically, the Exile-arc isn’t even the first time something like this has happened to him!
During the events that would eventually spark the Disc War, Sapnap stole a bunch of Tommy’s items (including the only Netherite chestplate on the server at the time), and told him he’d only give the stuff back if Tommy helped him with a conflict he had with Ponk. Long story short, Dream tried to intervene and was killed by Tommy and Sapnap, and Dream stole Tommy’s discs to force him to apologize. He then kept the discs, and the Disc War followed. Sapnap, despite being the aggressor and arguably forcing Tommy to participate in the conflict, was never punished.
This proves not only that the rules can change whenever Dream feels like it, but that they’re arbitrarily enforced. Dream refuses to punish his friends for the same crimes he endlessly fucks over Tommy for.
L’Manburg was created in part because of the fact that the rules were unevenly enforced. Tommy, Wilbur, and later Tubbo were repeatedly killed, stolen from, imprisoned, and even held hostage for very minor crimes, while the people killing, imprisoning, kidnapping and stealing from them were able to do so without impunity.
This was also the point where Dream just started making up new rules; there was no rule against having governments on the server, or making a separate area where Dream’s rules wouldn’t apply, so Dream banned governments, and used this new rule as an excuse to kill them, take their items, and tear their land to shreds.
And that’s another thing: the punishments for breaking Dream’s rules are INCREDIBLY harsh.
Kill him non-canonically one time? Your most prized possessions will now be dangled over your head and used to hurt you for the next few months.
Make a country with different laws that doesn’t infringe on anyone’s territory, has no desire to expand, is explicitly pacifistic and open to trade negotiations? You’ll be forced to fight a war you’re in no way equipped to fight, you’ll be betrayed and murdered and have your land destroyed in front of your very eyes until you literally have no choice but to surrender.
Mildly vandalize the king’s house, which nobody else has ever been punished for? You’ll be dragged into court, exiled from your home, and subjected to weeks of abuse until you believe that all of your friends hate you and you actively want to kill yourself.
Hide some stuff in a secret chest? Your only shelter will be exploded, your pet/only food source will be killed, all your items will be destroyed, you’ll be banned from the Nether, and none of your friends will be allowed to come see you.
This is all such disproportionate retribution it’s ridiculous. It’s like punishing someone for speeding by blowing up their car with a ballistic missile.
So to sum up: Dream’s rules are arbitrarily enforced, and he can just straight up make them up on the spot if he feels like it. Sometimes, he won’t tell you a rule exists until you’ve already broken it, and you’re treated as if you broke it out of malice instead of genuine ignorance. And if you do break a rule, and he decides you have to be punished, it will always be a punishment so harsh it doesn’t even ATTEMPT to fit the crime.
I don’t know about you, but that sounds pretty fucking corrupt and tyrannical to me.
When people say Tommy deserved exile, or made Dream spiral into villainy, or abused Dream somehow (seriously I’ve seen this take multiple times and every time it makes my brain melt) by breaking the rules, I would invite them to take a step back and ask themselves, why did that rule exist? Did Tommy know it existed? Was it enforced for everyone other than him as well? Does the punishment fit the crime?
Dream has a bad habit of making up rules, or enforcing old ones that were never enforced before, to punish those who threaten his power. None of the Dream Team were ever punished for anything, despite committing the same crimes as the L’Manburgians. That is, until they founded Mexican L’Manburg (i.e. went against Dream’s rule), at which point they were attacked by Dream and George was dethroned for “not being neutral enough.”
Tommy should’ve faced consequences for what he did. But those consequences should’ve come naturally, and been carried out by the people he hurt. Like, if Dream hadn’t intervened, griefing George’s house would’ve resulted in George griefing Tommy back in revenge. In fact, he DID do that, by turning Tommy’s entire house into granite and putting the Jump In The Cadillac picture on his front lawn.
These are natural, proportionate consequences. Exile was none of that. The Disc War was none of that. Everything that happened to L’Manburg was none of that.
Dream’s rules and how he enforces them are inherently corrupt and tyrannical. To pretend it’s anything but is disingenuous at best.
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youreyeslookliketheocean’s DSMP Fic Recs!!
Figured it was about time for one of these... :)
Mostly SBI-centric because they’re my favorite dynamic. I’ll probably add to this list as time goes on, and I also want to go back through my ao3 history and find some lesser-known fics I really enjoyed to rec them all. But for now...
* oneshot  ** unfinished work
** the lights go out (my heart goes still) by curseworm
With his old home unwelcoming and his new one gone, Tommy is alone. After hours of staggering through the freezing snow, he finds a cabin.
Technoblade’s cabin.
He hides himself away in the deepest corner he can find, taking only what he needs to survive, wasting away in the cold and the dark. He’s petrified at the thought of being found out, terrified of what he thinks Techno would do to him.
When Techno finds his injured teenage brother huddled in a filthy little cave beneath his basement, the rage he feels is immeasurable. The voices demand blood, and blood he will give them. Dream won’t be getting away with this one.
(On the other side of the world, in a country that floats on a man-made lake, Philza gets himself in a bit of a pickle.) 
** The hearth down under by Crystalquill
A tiny change gives Tommy the courage to flee to the Nether instead of the cold tundra, finding an unlikely ally in the midst of a fiery hellscape.
But tiny changes can alter the course of history. The SMP will never be the same.
(Lots of cool Nether worldbuilding in this one!!)
to be a wanderer, wandering by hydrangeasheart
Tommy's feet drag in the snow.
It's so, so cold. He's so cold. His toes are freezing. His exposed shins feel like they’ve been cut open-- even the one that’s bandaged. His wings have gone numb, which is almost, almost good, because now he can’t feel the shifting, broken bones inside of the left one, just under feathers and muscle.
He doesn’t know why he’s still walking.
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Or, Tommy leaves the exploded ruins of Logstedshire behind, and walks until he finds somewhere safe.
And things keep going from there.
(A canon-divergent AU, splitting off somewhere around when Tommy started hiding out below Techno's house.)
that’s, like, a hundred miles by No_one_you_know (and then “as long as i’m here”, and “he’s my brother, i just raise him”)
Dream would kill him. Dream was going to kill him- he was going to- no, he wouldn’t. Dream was his friend- friends don’t hit each other- Dream was supposed to take care of him- Dream /was/ taking care of him.
It hurt to breathe. It hurt to think. He couldn’t clear his thoughts as he stumbled to the family computer, pulling up a tab on google and frantically typing the name into the search bar.
The words Technoblade Watson stared back at him, the little black bar at the end of the letters blinking slowly, mocking him.
Why, of all people, did it have to be Technoblade?
in short: the one where dream sucks as a parental figure, tommy runs away, and visits his least favorite family member technoblade.
passerine by thcscus(blujamas)
Do I really need to put the summary here? Pretty much everyone knows this fic. Also, though, if you enjoy this one you should totally read thcscus’ connected fic, “shrike”!! It’s only at 2 chapters right now but it’s already really good and has this dark, foresty aesthetic I love...
not with a bang but with a whimper by dip_dyed_ghost
He knows Tubbo doesn’t care about him anymore. He knows that. He’s been shown that. But it doesn’t stop Tommy from caring about him. He brushes the pads of his fingers over the compass’s glass and wonders how he’s doing, if he’s tired of it all yet, if he needs help. He watches the way it points strongly in the direction over the ocean. He hopes he’s alright.
Even after everything, he hopes he’s alright.
During his exile, Tommy finds a drugged and hurt Tubbo on his doorstep. He can’t not help him.  
(This one has a neat take on potions, in my opinion. Also it’s only 4 chapters so it’s a quick read!)
take this compass, follow it home by lightning_anon
Tommy's a fuck up, he can't pay attention, and never sits still. He taps his hands, pushes people away, and has never had a best friend. He's a screwed up, forgotten kid lost in the foster system. He's also just been placed with a new family. Tommy knows how this goes, he never ends up staying long. After all, no one wants a fuck up like him.
Why would this house be any different?
Or: the obligatory sleepy bois foster fic, but with a focus on the neurodivergent kids that inevitably get lost in the system.
(Genuinely want to see more books like this in original fiction. It’s part of what inspired my newest og wip, “To Build a Home.” So sweet and I feel like I had my eyes opened to some neurodivergent tendencies I never knew existed. I read this in a day and can’t rec it enough.)
bloodlines by youreyeslookliketheocean
Tommy’s an orphan on the run from his previous guardian. Philza’s a king who prides himself on keeping his kingdom in an era of peace. Wilbur’s the crown prince, and Techno’s right beside him as his adopted brother. When Phil’s kingdom of Pogtopia is threatened by the bloodvines—a strange, brainwashing plant infecting many of the surrounding kingdoms—the four must work together to keep the kingdom, and their family, safe. --- A royal au sbi fic... + the bloodvines, for spice.
(Yes I’m self-promoting. But, in my defense, I’m very proud of it. If you checked it out it would mean the world to me :’))
Heat Waves by tbhyourelame
Dream has always held a gentle admiration for George, but when their nuanced friendship trickles into his sleeping mind, he awakens to a new world of conflicting emotions and longing. Lost in the midst of a heat wave, he continuously listens to a song that works itself in to the very core of his heartache. Floridian nights, unsent messages, spiraling infatuation, and terrible, terrible weather.
Another fic I think pretty much everyone knows about. Listen, listen... I was once an idiot who said “Oh no, I’ll never read Heat Waves. It’s irl, not characters, and it’s probably cringe”... No. I was so wrong. This fic is wonderfully written, with a pretty quick moving plot and great characterizations. You do need an ao3 account to access it, though. Just to let you know. (Also read “Helium”, unfinished and hasn’t updated in awhile, but it’s the continuation). 
Guitar Strings and Keyrings are What it Takes to Build a Home by Anonymous
Techno was adopted by Phil when he was 12 years old.
He'd been enjoying his morning before Phil came to him asking if he would mind them taking in another kid. Against his better judgement, Techno agrees and ends up with two new foster brothers who he was determined to not get attached to, no matter what.
Tommyinnit’s unbeatable method of avoiding sudden death by eneliii
“I uh,” Tommy starts, not knowing how to break this to the hero lightly. He hates to be the bearer of bad news. “I think your powers are broken? It’s not a bad thing of course, but like, I swear you tried to mind control me and it like, totally failed. Which is fine, honestly, don’t feel insecure. Everyone’s power stop working sometimes… I think.”
Sheesh, this is very awkward. Why is no one else talking? Why is Philza looking at him like he grew three heads? Why is the Blade staring at him so intensely? Why is Willow still frozen?
“Did I, did I hit a nerve? Yikes,” Tommy hisses, “Well um,” He steps back, bracing his legs and bending his knees, “This was like super fun, but I’m - I’mma head out.”
or,
in which Tommy manages to annoy the hell out of Phil, Techno and Wilbur by being both impossible to catch and irritatingly endearing.
or or,
a crack fic where Tommy is a vigilante and Phil, Techno and Wilbur are the heroes hunting him down.
(Feel like I am obligated to say how incredibly funny this fic is. Seriously. I have a distinct memory of sitting on my neighborhood park’s swing, giggling hysterically, while reading this. Well...until the end... but we won’t get into that...)
** bones in the ocean by bunflower
“Your reputation precedes you, y’know.”
“Does it, now?” Philza watches him coyly from where he’s now leaning against the wall, arms folded around his chains and gaze half-lidded, his lips curled in an arrogant, cat-like smirk.
“The Angel of Death, the ferryman of the Styx, the terror of the western seas. One of the most feared captains ever to sail, and yet, I have to wonder… how did a man like you end up all on his own? We searched the area where you were found—not another soul in sight. So,” He fixes him with a long look, allowing the silence to hover like a dark cloud, the words rolling off of his tongue with all the venom and smugness he can muster, “—tell me, Philza. Where is your crew?”
OR: Technoblade is a naval captain, and Phil his unwilling prisoner. Somehow, they manage to come out of it as friends in the end.
(Is this fic considered popular like passerine/Heat Waves now? Cause I feel like it’s reputation precedes itself, at this point... Pirate au.)
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Okay! That’s it for now. Like I said, though, I want to add to this over time and also dig back for some older things I’ve read. Also, if you have any recs feel free to send them in! I’m about to go back to school and therefore might not have time for reading fun stuff, but whenever I get the chance I’d love to check them out!!!
Happy Reading!!
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Hot take: Tommy played a huge part in why Tubbo is suicidal like that. Here, I said it.
Imo Tubbo defo internalized the "discs are worth more then you ever were!" and "if discs don't matter, then why any of this matters?" lines.
Tubbo also possibly (aka most likely) blames himself for the Exile, especially after saw the pillar, while (bonus hot take) Tommy really fucked up those negotiations himself.
Tommy is not the only one to blame, Wilbur, Dream, Quackity, Technoblade are there too.
/rp /dsmp
i personally think this is one of the most interesting hot takes i've ever received.
for one, i'd like to say i agree with it, but i don't think that'd be true. while i do believe tommy's fussing over the discs + the way he seems to not see or recognize how tubbo's trauma affects his day to day life hurt tubbo, i don't think tommy does it on purpose and therefore i think it's unfair to blame him for it. also, tubbo definitely blames himself for exile and for most of tommy's pain, partially because of how tommy ("i'd never do this to you", "you're a monster", "tubbo, you can't do this”) and his cabinet ("you're literally acting like schlatt right now", "tubbo, you can't do this", "tubbo, this is your fault") reacted to it on the first place.
other characters have a tendency to demonize tubbo, and that's because, differently from most other characters in the smp, tubbo makes most of his decisions from a rational viewpoint, not from an emotional one. by nature, he's someone who relies on critical thinking and logicality - of course everyone was mad at him for exile, how could he do that to his best friend? however, tubbo didn't exile his best friend: he weighted two different decisions and chose the one that would protect his country while exiling a l'manburg citizen. tubbo didn't exile his best friend, he protected his country. that's how he makes decisions. sadly (and understandably) most characters don't get that, and so they get mad at him for it. he then proceeds to internalize that and hates himself even more.
i don't think tommy played a huge part on it because i believe tubbo's suicidal tendencies come from a feeling of disposibility, not of tommy's treatment of him. it doesn't come from his cabinet's treatment of him, it doesn't come from new l'manburg, it doesn't come from the disc war. all those things contributed, yes, but i think the matter runs deeper.
i think tubbo first started to believe he was disposable during the final control room. eret was someone he trusted deeply, someone he'd die for, someone who killed him in the pursuit of power. back then, tubbo was nothing but a mere sacrifice for something more important. god, no one even cared about it, because fundy was a child and wilbur was a leader terribly betrayed by his own and tommy died a second time in less than an hour and tubbo needed to be level, and rational, and calm. there were more important things at hand. he was disposable, everyone else wasn't, he needed to think.
(or at least that's what he believed in)
it carried on to l'manburg. wilbur himself admitted to not being the best leader to tubbo he could've been, and, while wilbur cared about him, tommy was the one he called brother. i believe tubbo internalized that quite a bit - he was not the first choice, not to anyone.
(he was to tommy, of course, but tubbo never realized that. he never saw it, and he kept not seeing it until he was almost murdered and tommy begged for his best friend's life in dream's vault. i think he still doesn't see it.)
tubbo was a trophy to schlatt. he was a symbol of schlatt's victory, of his power, something to hold close and shove into pogtopia's faces. not important, not a person, but a pawn, a piece easy to move and to kill in the grand scheme of things. tubbo was a spy but he still cared for schlatt, and he was still proud of being called a right-hand man. he was made as a clown, decorating his own execution and going down with a bang. wilbur didn't come for him. tommy didn't come for him (he wanted to, but tubbo didn't know that). quackity stood by and watched. everyone stood by and watched. technoblade betrayed him because there were more important things in sight, and his death was a good way of swaying the manburg citizens against schlatt.
i think tubbo thought he deserved it, in a way. for not being good enough. wilbur didn't trust him, schlatt made him believe he was cared for and then made him die beautifully, colorfully, publicly. he immediately forgave techno because there was no point in being mad over it- he wasn't the important one in the story. he wasn't the main character. in the big picture, tubbo saw himself as disposable.
and tubbo could see the big picture from the start. he's one of the most rational characters in this entire story for a reason.
it didn't stop, not for a second. he was elected president of a crater and he wasn't enough to fix it. everyone ordered him around because he was sure he wasn't good enough to make decisions himself. he exiled his best friend and tried to tell himself it was the right choice no matter how much it hurt and no matter how much he was yelled at. he tried to execute technoblade and it tasted bitter and wrong on his tongue but, in the grand scheme of things, he kept doing everything wrong and if quackity told him technoblade was still a threat then he was probably right. ranboo betrayed him and he instantly forgave him because he knew it was for good reason, because he wasn't good enough. his best friend called him a monster and he agreed. dream humiliated him and he agreed. no one came for him. everyone stood by and watched, just like they did in his execution.
they stood by and watched because they knew he deserved it, he thinks. they must know he deserves it, because he knows, as well.
tubbo's suicidal tendencies stem from a feeling of unimportance, of the certainty that if he died it'd be okay and make no difference at all. it might advance plot, even, and, while tommy and quackity and dream and wilbur and everyone contributed to his train of thought, at the end of the day it just circles back to the fact tubbo is too self-aware, too rational - the war, the hunger, the pain, they all made him like that and now he understands. he understands schlatt never cared. he understands eret was willing to sacrifice him. he understands dream manipulated him. he understands that, to a lot of people, he's just a pawn.
and he accepts it. he accepts it, and he's willing to die for it. he'd like to die for it, actually, because then maybe it won't hurt anymore. maybe he won't have to understand it anymore.
tubbo has a skewed view of himself and the world around him caused by trauma. he presents that trauma in a way no other character does, and so everyone thinks that trauma doesn't exist and unknowingly contribute to it. it's unfair to say tommy played a huge part on how suicidal tubbo is because it runs deeper, it holds stronger. it comes from the inside out, from tubbo analysing the world around him and understanding how everything works because he's a rational character by nature. he's the one who does math, who builds nukes, who manages to rebuild entire countries in a matter of days. he knows what games they're playing and in the big picture (the one he sees so clearly, even tho tainted by his messed up perception of himself) he's just a pawn, and, if he dies, it doesn't matter. it just doesn't matter.
tommy contributes to it. as did quackity, and wilbur, and schlatt, and eret, and fundy, and dream, and even sapnap. however, tubbo's suicidal tendencies are a lot more complex than just that.
send me a hot take!!!
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