#you aren’t a failure

[sebcosmothetransguy]

okay, for those who can’t find inspiration, have inspo block (like art block or writer’s block), are mentally ill and are too depressed/anxious/etc. to have the energy/find the inspo/calm down enough to find the inspo/too overwhelmed to find the inspo, are neurodivergent and have memory loss because of it and therefore can’t remember the inspiration for something, are just forgetful and can’t remember the inspiration for something. i’m with ya.

i’m struggling atm to figure out what to post cuz my brain isn’t working cuz my sleep schedule is off and i haven’t eaten enough or drank enough today and it’s currently 1 in the morning for me and my anxiety is going crazy for no reason, so i’m posting this.

what i REALLY want to post is something fun or cool or witty or queer or something else like that, something that will project some positive vibes out into the the small number of following i have and anybody else you comes across my post. but i can’t think of anything, and i’m just scrolling through tumblr looking for anything that might make my brain go “!!! i can do something with that !!!” instead of sleeping like i should (i don’t want to sleep though, i want to post something, not sleep).

so, if anybody else often has this problem or currently has this problem, i’m with ya. it’s frustrating. go sleep though, you can spend your free time tomorrow finding some inspo, it’s not now or never, believe me. you have time. and for anyone who doesn’t listen to that encouragement, i feel you. inspo will hit you in the face sooner or later though, even if it takes a while, and i wish you luck in your scrolling inspo-search-driven efforts.

and any of you who are stressed about trying to create content/posts, even if you only have a small following and not even your own little community yet, take it easy on yourself. people might miss you a little, but they won’t be mad at you. it’s okay if you can’t think of anything to post/are too depressed to post/are too distracted to post/are in an episode of any kind and can’t post because of it/are too anxious to post/anything else like that, because you’ll find something when you’re feeling better again, and you won’t be letting anybody down during the time when you can’t.

so yeah, i feel you if you’re dealing with any of that for any of those reasons. i know that it’s one small thing in the mess of all your other things that are probably going on right now, and that it means a great deal to you, but you aren’t a failure for it and you don’t have to post if you can’t right now.

go sleep, get some rest, stop the scrolling and searching, get something to drink, get a snack or eat a meal, take a shower, brush your teeth, get changed out of those clothes you’ve been in for a week/s, walk around in your house for a little bit, or do at least one of those things, you don’t have to do em all if you can’t.

the whole world of tumblr isn’t on your shoulders. you aren’t a failure for not being able to create at the same pace/quality always. go easy on yourself. <3

#mentally ill #depressed #anxious #anxiety disorder #depression #neurodivergent #memory problems #you aren’t a failure #you’re enough #go get some rest #still not gonna sleep after posting this #anxiety #for the mentally ill #inspo block #out of inspo #neurodivergent problems #for the depressed #for the neurodivergent #for the anxious #for the ones with memory issues #for the struggling artists #take care of yourself <3 #it might seem small to some but it’s big to you and that’s alright

[sincerely-sofie]

*Skitters up to you on all fours and drops this in your lap, then scrambles up the walls and onto the ceiling and immediately falls asleep*

Comic time! Lucky wakes up in the middle of the night and has a chat with Sen in this one.

#ah yes. the struggle of seeing yourself as a machine incapable of truly having an emotional connection with others #no matter how deeply you long for such things #whilst simultaneously seeing that deep longing within you as a mistake. a flaw. an imperfection #you were made to be absolute and impartial #to be biased in favor of your charges beyond that which your ‘programming’ dictates is shameful #you are broken. you are flawed. you want and you want and you want and you’ve never stopped /wanting./ #you aren’t supposed to worry or care or love. you weren’t made for it. #and if you were not made for it then you simply cannot worry or care or love. #these /things/ that haunt you and make you inefficient are not emotions. #they are your imperfections; flaws in your make; symbols of your failures to live up to your purpose #you are broken. you are flawed. and you want so deeply that you can scarcely keep the longing inside you #such a failure you are; to not only survive the fall of the metropolis you were built to give your life to defend #but also to stoop to and revel in such indulgent imperfections as these false emotions the moment your makers are gone to dust #Fun Fact! Sen doesn’t require sleep #and spends every evening standing outside of Sharpedo Bluff / whatever campsite the gang have set up to guard the entrance. #she doesn't stay inside at night because it wasn't something done in the metropolis she hails from. #sentries are meant to watch over their charges. they are not meant to indulge in the pleasant and dry warmth of their homes. #Kip hears about this eventually (he thought it was just Sen not trusting people enough to sleep around them) and FLIPS OUT #“PLEASE would you come inside IT'S LITERALLY HAILING” #Sen is taking so much hail damage and has the gall to look at him and say “You should return to your home. the weather is unfavorable” #Kip just screams into his hands because he might have found someone even worse at self-care than Twig #And with that #it is beddy-bye time for Sofie :) #the present is a gift au #pmd oc #pmd ocs #pokemon mystery dungeon #pokémon mystery dungeon #pmd explorers #pmd eos

[strawberry-carpcake]

I hate that the atla remake toned down Sokkas sexism for the sake of not being offensive bc honestly I think it’s MORE offensive that it’s not included bc they are basically saying that it’s not important enough to teach those lessons and it’s negative to prevent toxic masculinity 🫶 As a girl I loved seeing the sexism in atla, I loved the lesson that it taught and I loved that all the girls were capable and strong but some of them were STILL FEMININE (cough cough Katara. The new show ruined that too)

While I’m talking about Katara, they ruined her too, not just Sokka. Where’s her rage? Her hurt? Her anger? Let her be angry. She’s 14 fighting in a war, she’s supposed to be mad. I loved her anger it was real and gave her flaws and depth. And also she’s supposed to be motherly. What’s bad about that? There’s nothing sexist about that? Some girls DO want to be that way? Also, it’s supposed to show how she was forced to take the role of her mother as a CHILD bc of the fire nation. It shows the negative effects of war and the loss of innocence, it was so important why is that gone???

#Also I get that they were trying to show how how sokka was impacted by the war too but It felt so out of place in s1 #It was rushed #sokka is supposed to become more and more insecure throughout the series after continuous failure #So why was that insecurity just plopped in there in s1? #He’s supposed to be goofy #This isn’t necessarily canon but it’s pretty accepted in the fandom that it’s a coping mechanism or him trying to help katara #In the only ways he can #Sokka is SUPPOSED to be aloof and not as strong in the first season it’s part of his character arc. #Give sokka his insecurities in s2/s3 not s1 #Give sokka his character arc back 😭😭😭 katara too #AND AANG BTW? #He’s supposed to be funny and adventurous and a KID #you want him to be serious? Great! That’s what s3 is for #Good job Netflix you ruined everything great about atla #It’s so good bc the storytelling is flawless and the characters grow and progress and have FLAWS and FEARS an EMOTIONS #They tried to add emotions that aren’t supposed to be there yet and it takes away from the growth and natural progression #I’m honestly scared to see how they handle Azula

[palms-upturned]

Disabled in Gaza suffering disproportionate harm, aid groups warn

Nov 6th, 14:20 GMT

More than 15 percent of IDPs are estimated to have disabilities, yet most shelters in Gaza are not adequately equipped for their needs, the UN agency OCHA has warned.

“Shelters lack the required medical mattresses and beds, causing ulcers and other medical issues that cannot be treated in unsterilised conditions,” it said.

The agency spoke to Um Ashraf, a 60-year-old woman, originally from Gaza City, who is now an IDP in an UNRWA shelter in the Strip’s central area. She is confined to a blanket because her wheelchair broke.

#palestine #free palestine #al jazeera #sharing this one bc i know some folks follow me bc of my disability posts #and i want to make it SO CLEAR that you are not truly advocating for disabled ppl if you aren’t showing up for this #disability advocacy that doesn’t have a basis in anti imperialism and anticapitalism is a failure and always will be

[chronically-persistent]

You know, I really don’t like seeing videos on my feed about how “having a positive attitude will cure your disease”.

I suffer with a lot of depression and negativity, as I’m sure many of us do - this is normal when life gets flipped and twisted. But I try to stay hopeful, to find the good in each day I wake up and can walk. But if I was always positive, and if I denied myself feeling negativity, I would burn myself out. And I can assure you, positivity alone will not cure my incurable disease.

Please stop perpetuating the idea that having a good mindset, and willing yourself to be better, works for all. That’s a great way to guilt people into believing they’re not trying hard enough. We are not failures for having moments of weakness, or for having doubts and griefs. We are not failures for being sick.

We are doing our best, and this type of misinformation only serves to cause harm.

#me looking up videos on coping with grief #youtube: MAYBE TRY BEING POSITIVE #everything in moderation #hope is so important but so is grief #otherwise you bottle up your emotions and let them festrr #you aren’t a failure for being sad or grieving #chronic illness #disability #chronic pain

[odinstits]

Still waiting for the T to make me hot lol

#idk I have always had a weird relationship with my face. which isn’t uncommon but usually people aren’t attracted to me #and outside of one relationship after coming out nobody has ever thought of me romantically you know ??? #and I have literally been told I’m ’beautiful in an unusual way’ #idk maybe it’s the complete failure to mask and nobody here knowing how to be normal around trans people but I’m fighting a losing battle #(know I’m being impatient but bear with me) (have no trans friends to talk to)

[linklethehistorian]

So while working on a drawing WIP of mine, I was watching a video from Drew Gooden on the Avatar Netflix adaption (note: I have never seen Avatar: the Last Airbender, and I don’t particularly plan to, either; I am just a fan of Drew Gooden’s videos and I like to learn about various series I will probably never and honestly have no desire to directly, personally interact with), and I think that he perfectly summed up in very short terms what I mean when I say that the Fifteen anime and manga are both poor adaptions of the original story.

[Transcript: “Now, before I continue getting mad about every single aspect of this show, I do wanna answer a more general question of like, ‘what should we expect out of an adaption?’ — because it may sound like I’m trying to say that this should have been a one-to-one recreation of the original show, when that is not the case.”

“You can, and should, be able to change things; why even bother spending all this money to make something that looks worse, if it’s going to be exactly the same? But, those changes need to enhance the story; they can’t be at odds with the spirit of the show, or fundamentally change a character.” /end Transcript]

While I still need to finish my article on Fifteen and its anime adaption, and later better address the manga, this is the point I want to hammer home to people who refuse to get the position I am coming from:

I am not saying that either the manga or the anime would be bad in and of themselves if they were wholly original stories, or that there is anything inherently wrong with adding content that was not in the original source material.

I am saying that they are bad at being adaptions; they are bad at representing the pre-existing story they are supposed to be telling in a new medium. While they could be perfectly fine and serviceable — if, in my opinion, far less compelling — stories if they were original content with no previous source material to adapt from, they are not that, and that is what makes them bad. They are horrible representations of the story they are trying to tell, and for an adaption there can be no greater failing than this.

The biggest changes that were made to both the anime and the manga do not enhance the story.

They do not fit the spirit of the source material.

The anime fundamentally changes a major character and re-writes an entire scene and major plot points in order to allow them to have an excuse for a few seconds of cheap fanservice for a popular pairing/character — which could have still been had in an even better way without mutilation in a different scene they actively decided to remove in order to save time that they completely squandered anyway.

The manga in certain crucial chapters takes visual creative liberties that do not at all fit the spirit, tone, or descriptions within the source material in order to play up a horror aspect that very simply was not intended to exist in the first place, and in doing so fundamentally alters important characterization, along with unnecessary and tone-altering tweaks to a few choice lines of dialogue.

An adaption should be just that: an adaption, not a re-imagining, not a re-telling, not a re-make; its job is to tell the story and elevate it as much as possible using the unique perks of the specific medium it is being brought into. For both anime and manga, this should have been done through the use of visuals (and in the case of the anime, movement, music, and voice acting) to bring the scenes described within the original source material to life and fill in the blanks based on the rest of the picture painted there, as well as expand on certain points and add to them using the spirit of the original story.

Both the anime and the manga have times when they prove that they can do such things quite well and quite efficiently, but then utterly fail to do at some of the points where it matters the very most, and that is why it can’t and shouldn’t be forgiven.

It is not a matter of not being one-to-one with the original with every scene, it is a matter of completely ignoring the most fundamental and important aspects of some of the very most crucial ones of those scenes in favor of “doing its own thing”, even if it means completely ignoring the points the original source material — and the adaption most closely worked on by the original creator (the stage plays) — tried to make.

#linklethehistorian #my thoughts #thoughts #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bsd novels #fifteen #bsd anime #bsd stage play #fifteen manga #fifteen stage play #season 3 #bsd arthur rimbaud #randou #I know I’m talking to a wall but seriously people need to realize that adaptions are supposed to be adaptions #and that the moment it fails to be that yes it is in fact a bad adaption no matter how much you enjoy it as its own thing #you can enjoy it as its own thing if you must and still understand and acknowledge that it is a bad adaption #an adaption that does not adapt a story to a new medium but rather changes it in unnecessary ways that do not elevate the original is #not an adaption #but a failure of one #as at that point it has become a complete reimagining #and reimaginings are not bad….but they are if that was not what they were supposed to be doing in the first place #and if they aren’t upfront about the fact that it is NOT the same story but only borrows parts of it

[uniteds]

this is a general football thing I’ve been thinking about for a while but it’s fascinating to me how some clubs that have historically had this elevated sense of self importance, exceptionalism, and heritage tied to themselves always seem to have the hardest time transitioning out of that heritage. like it’s a constant cycle of nepotism and mismanagement until something finally clicks, at which point they’ll turn it into a new sense of exceptionalism.

#liverpool after paisley and shankly for like 30 years #united after sir matt and after sir alex #barcelona after messi and barcelona after both pep and rijkaard #just cruyffism as a whole #but then you have heritage clubs like bayern and madrid who have that same sense of exceptionalism but roll with the times as they come #they aren’t trying to desperately recreate a bygone era #and then you have other heritage clubs like the Italian ones that adjust expectations with the times so they’ll at least allow for failure #and they’re still holding on to their history — like nobody would put them in the same category as city #tp

[stinkrascal]

marriage culture especially in the south is so fucking bizarre to me because i know people who have been together for less than a year before dropping 50k on one single day which they very obviously cannot afford but they shell out anyways because It’s My Special Day!! or whatever and then they move in together for the first time ever and fight constantly because as it turns out cohabiting with a person you’ve known for a total of 8 months comes with its fair share of surprise compatibility issues so now they’re 50k in the hole and theyre stuck with a man who doesnt understand it is commonplace to flush the toilet after usage and theyre all like “Marriage is so hard :/ You’ll understand one day when you get over the puppylove stage jaiden” motherfucker my partner and i have been together for six years and have been living together for five years, rest assured we cohabitate very well together, as it is that i learned my partner knows how to operate a bathroom very early in our relationship. this isn’t a marriage thing my dude this is the consequence of marrying someone you don’t know anything about

#it wouldn’t make me so mad if they didn’t try to delegitimize my relationship #just because we aren’t married #sorry i didn’t realize relationships weren’t serious unless you drop 50k on one day #also i’m just very against people marrying without even living together first like you are setting yourself up for failure #how is your 8 months more legitimate than my 6 years bro #oh well at least my boyfriend flushes the toilet #his dad’s side of the family is so fucking weird bro. we’ve been together 6 years and yet his aunt won’t even acknowledge me #because she thinks i’m some harlot for us living together?? IT HAS BEEN FIVE YEARS MOVE ON!!!

[mycological-mariner]

God you ever cant remember whether or not you took a medication? On the one hand you don’t wanna flood your system if you DID, but on the other you really don’t wanna fuck around and find out what happens if you didn’t.

#and its not a med I’m like ‘oh No worries I’ll just take it next time’ #nah this is 1000mg of an anti epileptic that I take 2x a day #looking at the packet of tablets like ‘WERE THERE ONLY FOUR OF YOU SIX HOURS AGO???’ #not to mention the stress from the theatre situation has been really screwing with my seizure activity (and other medical problems - #but heart attacks and high risk if kidney failure aren’t as exciting rip) #and BECAUSE of the stress I KNOW ive missed a couple of doses of meds over the last week #seizure threshold isn’t lowering its dropping like a guillotine #but that’s no worry - ive got my seizure alarm charged and IF I have a grand mal ive gone ahead and removed everything in my space #that could potentially cause bodily harm (I’ve sliced my face open before lol but that was coz I went throng a glass coffee table on tile) #pain meds for the migraine are finally kicking in #thank god sweet relief #I cannot believe this whole theatre situation has put my HEALTH at risk #im gonna lose my mind #its just. three. more. weeks #and even then with the stupid fucking coronation we LOSE an entire day of work!! #fuck the monarchy #for that reason alone! #(/j but eh the sentiment is still the same) #how do people remember if they’ve taken a medication??? #ive only been doing this for 12 years lmao #I should buy a pill box. but then I KNOW I’ll forget to refill it #besides every pill box I’ve owned doesnt fit all the pills - not even for a single day #MAKE LARGER PILL BOXES DAMN YOUR EYES #I ought to come up with a pillbox design for ppl with a shit ton of meds - something accessible ya know? #coz I KNOW I’m not the only one who struggles with memory and cognition + takes a ton of pills throughout the day #but as it is I just look at the packaging and do my best #anyways

[cobrakatharsis]

bloodsport by raleigh ritchie as a lawrusso song from johnny’s pov [literally lying dead on the floor]

#full credit to purty-pumpkin for using it as a caption for her art #and making this link in my brain light up and inflict fatal damage #ALSO THE ‘maybe i’m just being selfish’ LINE #it’s about the perceived selfishness and violence of his love #expressing it in violence channeled into protectiveness because that’s all he understands #and he believes at his core that he was made a monster by his teachings and the violence instilled in him so stopping isn’t even an option #perceiving his love as a failure ‘fall short’ as overstepping his bounds as kreese’s soldier ‘break rank’ #’i am all yours i am unmanned i’m on all fours willingly damned’ it’s about the SUBMISSION #and what that means when he’s putting himself on his knees in front of daniel. half his size and scrappy and Kind #the assumption that the relationship is not equal but he doesn’t Care if the feelings aren’t returned so long as he can be useful #‘don’t fight me now ‘cause you might need me later’

[haunted-maids]

I HAAATE YOU (college board)

#i’m doing my exam this friday and i don’t have my accommodations!! I AM GOING TO FLOP #if you need accommodations you need to submit them by january and it takes them 7 weeks to process the request #7 WEEKS. just so i can get extra time #and my school didn’t tell our teachers the cutoff bc they assume disabled people aren’t in ap #so now i’m stuck!! i’m set up for failure!! all because college board and my school sucks!! #i’m going to send them a rather. Strongly. worded email. #i think that’s deserved. #c/m.txt

[dxckgrxsonx]

Just wanted a clarification. You said you were drunk last night then dropped banger after banger Jason smut. Is that the key to good writing? Interesting…

Absolutely!! Rule one of writing: get drunk as fuck and post nonsense.

Tbh, I’m surprised anything I posted last night made sense lmao. I haven’t read back through any of them yet out of pure, unfiltered fear. I just had vibes and went ‘yeah sure that’ll do’.

On a more self reflective note. I think that being drunk—or at least tipsy—helps give me the confidence to just write. I’m quite self conscious about my writing and more often than not second guess my own skills. Being a little drunk helps keep that worried part of me quiet.

I’m absolutely ready to cry over the fact you think they were good. Please know that I am mentally giving you a forehead kiss 😘

#I’m trying to work with myself enough to accept that not everything I do has to be perfect #I’m allowed to be bad at things #and there aren’t going to be consequences for not being perfect #I’ve come to realise that I’ve got quite a big fear of failure #the joys of unrealistic expectations pushed onto you as a child #anyway!! enough of me booing in the tags #I adore you my darling anon 💕 #asks #answered

[terriblelizbians]

*long silence awkward smalltalk voice* so, the railroad strike, huh?

#i need to read more about it. i don’t fully understand everything about the situation. #but seems to me pretty fucked up if — bc they work in a field that is critically important to basically everyone — these people aren’t... #...allowed to exert any sort of negotiation power? #like ‘oh sorry you’re too important so actually we can’t let you ever have a say in your own working circumstances’ #but. im not sure if that’s actually the point where the failure occurred? like that’s just on top of things? #which is why i have to read more. my brain is full of law school my comprehension of news articles is low

[george-rr-binks]

The way people are calling Nope’s side and subplots and meanings transparent like ok you can just say you don’t know what words mean

#not understanding it isn’t why I didn’t like it #but you can’t be mad that a layered movie doesn’t click for everyone on the first go #and some people aren’t curious enough to give it a second #which guess what #is a failure of the filmmaking #and by extension the filmmaker #Jordan Peele keep directing maybe stop writing #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #nope

[fail-front-door]

Bading Ding.

#ok el don’t pretend like you aren’t stalking my tumblr #bro was on tumblr all throughout that party 😭😭 #failure: a love story #fail front door