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if youre transgender you have to live. i love you.

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I'm reading a paper that talks about how in sappho 31 she pays very little attention to the man whereas in catullus 51 he can't quite seem to let him go, and while I understand the point being made about male rivalry. I also can't help thinking this is exactly what you get when a bi guy translates a lesbian's poetry aldhjskdf

#catullus #sappho #classics & queerness

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does anyone know a good online english-latin or english-ancient greek dictionary/translator ? i have websites to translate latin/greek words into english but not the other way around

i need to write a birthday card for friday in either latin or ancient greek and the thing is i’ve only been studying these languages for a few months. i can kinda write about soldiers going to war but somehow i can’t say ‘happy birthday, i’m glad i met you, you’re a nice person’

#classics studyblr #classics tumblr #classics #latin #ancient greek #i really need this #also if it’s french instead of english it’s fine too (and even better)

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in one month i’m in Greece. i’m currently being miserable in my bed & at uni but in one month i’ll be miserable in Greece. i think that’s nice. i’ve dreamt of going there ever since i was like, 6yo ? i can’t wait.

#but i’ll have to walk a lot #and i’m like. disabled #my cane isn’t going to be enough idk if i’ll survive this #i still can’t wait tho #personal

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I’m finally reading Seneca’s plays and somehow he manages to make greek tragedies even worse. it’s just so bloody and awful. I like it.

#his oedipus is so… idk i need to think about it #i would like to know what his version of antigone’s play would be #classics #seneca the younger #latin literature #roman literature

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i’m tired of failing classes that i find interesting, just because the things we need to know are not things my brain can learn. i still haven’t found a method to learn history in a way that works for uni. and my executive dysfunction is not helping, end-of-term exams are killing me (current daily routine is 1) not sleeping 2) sobbing during every exam)

latin and greek are saving me though !! i’ll definitely pass my semester but probably not with grades as good as i need (16/20). i just can’t manage to do well in roman history and i feel so ashamed about it because it’s interesting ! i like it ! usually i only struggle that much with classes that i don’t like.

anyway i just submitted an essay (short, only 4500 words and that’s already more than what was asked of us) on the imperial cult from Augustus to Domitian and hopefully i’ll get ONE good grade thanks to this. because i worked quite effectively and it’s the kind of work i’m able to do, what i struggle with are in-class exams (which represent 85% of exams in this class)

#forgive my awful use of school-related words i don’t understand US & UK’s school systems #classics #classics studyblr #roman history #vent #personal

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there’s this girl in my year who talks about mark antony about 5 times a day at least (usually more) and it’s growing on me fr… recently i can’t stop thinking about the end of the republic… i had 5 hours a week of classes on it this semester but her obsession with mark antony and the second triumvirate isn’t helping

gods i love (= hate) the romans they were amazing (= terrible people) and the rumors on everyone are wonderful

#classics #mark antony #marcus antonius #late roman republic #roman republic #roman empire #augustus #octavian #second triumvirate #classics student

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just failed a roman history exam, omw to read fanfiction about gay romans instead of starting to write my essay on roman imperial cults due next wednesday.

(but like… if anyone knows good articles or books on the imperial cult please tell me, i don’t have enough sources)

#classics student #roman history #roman empire #roman republic #late roman republic #imperial cult

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I love u, lesbian hellenic polytheists

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Dionysos References

Books of Myths, Poetry, Hymns, and Plays Involving Dionysos:

The Bacchae

The Frogs

D’Aulaire’s Book of Greek Myths

The Complete World of Greek Mythology

Dionysiac Poetics and Euripides’ Bacchae

Dionysiaca

The Glory of Hera <— take this one with a grain of salt, as it presents Freud’s theories as credible

The Library

Academic Texts on Dionysos and His Cult:

Dionysos: Exciter to Frenzy <— favorite

Pagan Regeneration, chapter iii: Dionysian Excesses

Dionysos: Archetypal Image of Indestructible Life

Dionysos (Gods and Heroes of the Ancient World)

Ecstatic

The God Who Comes: Dionysian Mysteries Revisited

The Glory of Hera

A Mythological History of Ancient Greece. Volume 1: In the Beginning

Dionysos in Archaic Greece: An Understanding Through Images (Religions in the Graeco-Roman World)

Mystic Cults in Magna Graecia

The God Who Comes: Dionysian Mysteries Revisited

Gods of the Greeks

Dionysus: Myth and Cult

Ancient Mystery Cults

Books on Ancient Greek Culture:

Religion and Art in Ancient Greece

Greek Religion: Archaic and Classical (Ancient World) <— favorite

The Gods of Olympus: A History

The Glory of Hera

A Mythological History of Ancient Greece. Volume 1: In the Beginning

Prayer in Greek Religion

Ancient Greek Religion (Blackwell Ancient Religions)

Race and Citizen Identity in the Classical Athenian Democracy

Human Sacrifice in Ancient Greece

Friendship in the Classical World (Key Themes in Ancient History)

Aphrodite and Eros: The Development of Greek Erotic Mythology

Girls and Women in Classical Greek Religion

The Homeric Gods: The Spiritual Significance Of Greek Religion

On Greek Religion: Cornell Studies in Classical Philology

“Reading” Greek Death: To the End of the Classical Period

From Death to Rebirth: Ritual and Conversion in Antiquity

Prayer, Magic, and the Stars in the Ancient and Late Antique World

Citizen Bacchae: Women’s Ritual Practice in Ancient Greece

The Greek Way of Death

Athenian Myths and Festivals: Aglauros, Erechtheus, Plynteria, Panathenaia, Dionysia

The Sacred and the Feminine in Ancient Greece

Psyche the Cult of Souls and Belief in Immortality Among Ancient Greeks

Gender and Immortality: Heroines in Ancient Greek Myth and Cult

Ritualized Friendship and the Greek City

Everyday Life In Ancient Greece

Siren Feasts: A History of Food and Gastronomy in Greece

Magika Hiera: Ancient Greek Magic and Religion

Myth and Thought Among the Greeks

Myth and Society in Ancient Greece

Myth and Tragedy in Ancient Greece

Magic in the Ancient Greek World

Ancient Magic and Ritual Power (Religions in the Graeco-Roman World)

Greek Mysteries: The Archaeology of Ancient Greek Secret Cults

Greek Religion: A Sourcebook

Ancient Greece: Everyday Life in the Birthplace of Western Civilization

The Greek Way of Death

Devotional Texts:

Written In Wine: A Devotional Anthology For Dionysos

Miscellaneous:

Athenian Myths and Festivals: Aglauros, Erechtheus, Plynteria, Panathenaia, Dionysia

Rain, Conceive! Ancient Mysteries of Demeter & Persephone; Dionysos; Percival

Old Stones, New Temples

Prometheus: Archetypal Image of Human Existence

thehellenicguy’s resources

#resources #helpol #masterpost #dionysos

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having to reassure my mother about the fact that i want to medically transition is both funny and sad. i thought making her read stone butch blues would help but it didn’t (i think she still liked it tho). i still have to explain to her that i’m transitioning toward queer masculinities and not toward cishet manhood. it’s exhausting.

she has this weird idea that masculinity is inherently toxic and that i’m betraying women if i want to look like a guy. she keeps telling me about the changes and how male puberty is basically disgusting, just because she is “worried” for me/my body. at this point i find myself laughing about it sometimes.

like, come on. my scars due to past self harm will probably never fade away. i used to starve myself. i’m physically disabled. my body is bad enough already, testosterone doesn’t have anything left to “ruin” !

anyway, i try my best to explain to her how subverting masculinity is important, and how i can want to medically transition without wanting to be a cis man and while still identifying as a lesbian. and when the conversation is over i go sit by my altars and i pray to deities that are very transsexual themselves and very supportive of my queerness

#transness #trans #transsexuality #transgender #queer #queerness #queer masculinity #lesbian masculinity #butch #lesbian #transmasc lesbian #religion & queerness #personal

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🌙 Subtle Artemis Worship 🦌

Spend time out in nature (e.g. go on a hike, take a walk outside, visit a nature preserve, etc.)

Dancing, especially at night and to music that makes you feel wild and free

Playing an instrument (although this is more for Apollo, I believe it also works as a form of Artemis worship)

Wearing jewelry that reminds you of her

Having imagery of deer, horses, or dogs around

Having literally any sort of animal symbolism around (she is a Goddess of Animals)

Investing in nature/animal conservation efforts (can simply be spreading the word if you can't afford to donate or volunteer)

Creating art of your favorite flower, plant, or animal

Keeping a picture of her in your wallet

Taking a walk outside during the crescent or full moon (only if it is safe in your area to do so)

Learning about self-defense (I feel dedicating a pocket knife, if legal, to her is a great idea)

Learning archery

Befriending neighborhood animals, such as cats, birds, or dogs; leaving food out for them

Lighting a bonfire with friends and having a good time together; dancing around it is especially great (please be safe about doing so; I don't recommend drinking first)

Star-gazing and moon-gazing

Showing compassion to others, such as through volunteer work or holding doors

Taking a warm bath at night

Having a candle that reminds you of her (no altar needed)

Wearing animal-inspired outfits or doing animal-inspired makeup

Visiting a local zoo, aquarium, or butterfly pavilion; taking the time to learn about new creatures

Watching nature documentaries or movies about animals (it can be movies/shows starring anthropomorphic animals)

Being curious about local fauna and flora

Learning how to safely forage for food, such as picking berries or mushrooms

Meditating in the dark of the night, especially on a crescent or full moon

Making a list of your goals; focus on completing these one step at a time

Taking new risks, especially ones that give you a sense of thrill and excitement

Sending kind messages to loved ones, especially those having a difficult time

Learning to prioritize your own well-being; taking care of yourself first and foremost

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May add to this later! For now, this is my list of discreet ways to worship Artemis. I hope someone finds it helpful. Take care, everyone! 💚

#artemis #artemis worship #helpol #devotional stuff #devotional acts

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this semester is awful, i just want it to be over already. my mental health has been getting worse, i don’t even want to talk about my physical health, and i’ve generally been miserable. i’m behind everything in multiple classes. the thing is, my grades are definitely high enough to pass the semester (i just need a 10/20 for this), except i need way higher grades (≈16/20). the french school system is bullshit, so everyone knows the grades aren’t representative, and if i want to study abroad one day i basically need full scores in everything or i won’t be accepted. like, schools abroad consider a 12/20 to mean we’ve failed the class. my first semester’s grades were amazing but it’s all going downhill this semester and it’s so frustrating. i can’t even listen in class so ofc i can’t do these 10 pages essays for next week and i won’t be ready for the "you have 3 hours to tell me absolutely everything that happened in this time period and it needs to be at least 9 pages" final exams. also my disability accommodations are either useless or not respected ! i’m exhausted.

#i hate uni #i want to study abroad #but it’s all so expensive #looking at other classics courses abroad is making me cry #the classics program here is just so bad #why is your first year equivalent to 4 years here #vent #personal #venting here because people irl are tired of me having anxiety attacks about this #i’m gonna pass this semester but i’m not gonna Pass this semester so it’s all useless

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it was so good btw. I love it when academic books are easy to understand

and I’ve been rereading the Odyssey this past week, I’m at Book XX right now (I’ve been reading very slowly because of uni). I’m using tabs to keep track of every single time Odysseus lies or cries. there are a lot. the Odyssey is just him lying and crying. or his family crying and him lying to them.

currently reading The Tears of Achilles by Hélène Monsacré to prepare for my rereading of the homeric epics… it’s so interesting

#classics #greek myths #odysseus #the odyssey #homer

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i have not listened to anything in my roman history class this semester because my disabilities were having fun being disabling, so i’m extremely ignorant on roman/latin stuff. but classicists on tumblr make me want to study it intensely… it suddenly sounds much more interesting than in our lectures about provinces and economy and battles with too many dates and too many names. maybe this (the urge to understand online memes) will give me enough motivation to not fail my end of term exam in this class

#classics #‘how often do you think about the roman empire’ but the answer is actually not enough #the class is on the end of the republic + the beginning of the empire #and i haven’t understood anything tbf #but i’ll have to translate actual latin texts at some point and i’ll need the context #and i also need the context to online classics conversations #roman empire #ancient rome #latin language #ancient history #classics studyblr

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I really wish I could make my cane into a devotional item for Hermes and/or Hephaistos. but I can’t, because it’s often on the floor, dirty, I get dust and mud on it. also I can’t figure out a way to make it pretty.

but I live through my OCs so one of them has the cane of my dreams lmao

#helpol #hellenic polytheism #hermes #hephaistos #hephaestus #drawing #my ocs #devotional stuff #disability

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Hey your response on the post about Artemis and healing, on how you too feel issues with cities and isolation-- I cried. I felt so seen and understood and I think I was meant to see that today. Thank you. I know that post was circulating a while ago, but I just wanted to say it touched me deeply and resonated with me.

I’m so glad it could resonate with others and make you feel seen 💙