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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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Random thought #10

I don't know if I should love you or hate you...I love there's so much depth to who you are, and I hate there's so much I'll never know. I love how you talk, and the things you talk about, but I hate is not with me you have these conversations. So I guess I do not love you, but I certainly don't hate you.

#random #random thoughts #mental space #feelings #express yourself #life #mood #confused #love #hate #love and hate #crush #emotions #thoughts

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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The colors of a hummingbird

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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TE RETO A QUE ME DETENGAS

CAPÍTULO VII: Ensueño

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F/F, Multi

Clasificación: Explícito

Advertencias: No consesual, Uso de Drogas, Alcohol.

Resumen: Señales mixtas y diferentes perspectivas están abiertas a libres interpretaciones, esto sumado a la fluctuante naturaleza de las emociones humanas llevarán a las protagonistas a cuestionar sus principios y cambiar su actuar, poniendo en duda sus relaciones al involucrarse en situaciones que reestructurarán sus vidas. Esta es la historia de cuatro mujeres, una historia que puede ser de amor, lujuria, egoísmo, obsesión; una historia de múltiples sentidos, certeros solo para cada lector individualmente.

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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Random thought #9

People didn't understand why at ten years old I was so into the idea of having a job. But they didn't see what I do, 'cause when everything else fails, and dopamine is nowhere to be found in the things I usually love, savings are helpful. Sure it won't fix things, and it doesn't make issues disappear, but it can snap you out of that trance of numbness and/or pain. Savings are strategic, that's why I wanted a job so bad, there's a good rush of dopamine by spending money randomly, and for my sake, and the sake of continuing living without the torture my mind provides me with, I shall follow the dopamine! Don't overuse it though, money dopamine should be by all means the last resort...Mix it up with that special playlist that no one would believe you keep close to your heart as to boost your mood and you just might get through that low point that makes you question your very existence.

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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Natural Beauty

Sometimes there's a need for the kind of silence and noise only nature and memory lane can offer...just like sometimes you don't miss a place, nor the people you were there with, but the person you thought you could be, and even were sometimes, back then.

#nature #green #trees #tree branches #light #sunlight #sun #random #my photos #photo #photography #nostolgia #memory lane #throwback #casual #colours #colorful #color #afternoon #people #memories

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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TE RETO A QUE ME DETENGAS

CAPÍTULO VI: Un Vistazo al Plato Fuerte

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F/F, Multi

Clasificación: Explícito

Advertencias: No consesual, Uso de Drogas, Alcohol.

Resumen: Señales mixtas y diferentes perspectivas están abiertas a libres interpretaciones, esto sumado a la fluctuante naturaleza de las emociones humanas llevarán a las protagonistas a cuestionar sus principios y cambiar su actuar, poniendo en duda sus relaciones al involucrarse en situaciones que reestructurarán sus vidas. Esta es la historia de cuatro mujeres, una historia que puede ser de amor, lujuria, egoísmo, obsesión; una historia de múltiples sentidos, certeros solo para cada lector individualmente.

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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Random Thought #8

Preaching about hope and the silver lighting is oh so nice...but sometimes I forget what I say to others...I forget why life is worth living...is it worth living? I don't really know... I'm too tired, tired of trying, tired of ignoring all that's wrong, unfair, all that's straight up sad. The world is an amazing place, beautiful indeed, but I can't seem to put aside the fact that most people stain that picture...I can't blind myself...I wish I could...I wish I could convince myself to enjoy living not only momentarily, I wish I didn't have to pretend just 'cause my mood offends people's optimism, I wish waking up in the morning wasn't so dreadful at times...if only I had the luck to have my own mind be on my side instead of being against me.

Where are you rain... when I need you the most...to make it all better?

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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Christmas lights...

keep shining on

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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TE RETO A QUE ME DETENGAS

CAPÍTULO V: Placentera Confusión

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F/F, Multi

Clasificación: Explícito

Advertencias: No consesual, Uso de Drogas, Alcohol.

Resumen: Señales mixtas y diferentes perspectivas están abiertas a libres interpretaciones, esto sumado a la fluctuante naturaleza de las emociones humanas llevarán a las protagonistas a cuestionar sus principios y cambiar su actuar, poniendo en duda sus relaciones al involucrarse en situaciones que reestructurarán sus vidas. Esta es la historia de cuatro mujeres, una historia que puede ser de amor, lujuria, egoísmo, obsesión; una historia de múltiples sentidos, certeros solo para cada lector individualmente.

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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Random Thought #7

Everyone has bad days, and you don’t choose when they happen, so you might have to go about your day-to-day life even if you feel miserable, and that’s alright, even if instead of days they are weeks…or months. I’ve had some nasty couple of days lately, and I had to suck it up, didn’t quite accomplish that, but no matter what, if I learned anything from the past is that I should feel miserable…I should let it happen and not deny it because pretending every day of your life should be good definitely does not help, it only makes it worse, because it will never be like that. So yeah I had a couple of breakdowns, and yes I indeed didn’t seem a fucking mess to others. Still, the fact is that I feel whatever I feel no matter how I show myself to the rest of the world, and by allowing myself to suffer when I needed to Years ago, I put myself together faster now, so the tricks my mind plays on me might never leave me, but moments like these remind me that they have stopped controlling my life. Sure it sucks to not be yourself momentarily, but it just makes you appreciate more the person you chose to become.

A decade ago I doubted constantly whether I would make it this far, and honestly days like today and yesterday, and I don’t remember how many more before that, I questioned myself again, just like fifteen years ago I couldn’t see beyond the end of the day, and even that was hard. Now I know it’s not me thinking that, ‘cause I’m not my depression, nobody is just their mental disorders, just like overcoming them is not the same for everyone, and it doesn’t take the same amount of time.

Five years ago I wanted to be someone that could say that it does get better, and I thought I needed to achieve certain things to find that promised ideal, but my accomplishments are mine to know, and only comprehensive and knowledgeable to those who truly know me. I didn’t need to reach what others painted for me, and it does get better, each day that I get to snap myself out of that trance of doom it does, I just had to keep going, and keep changing what I thought I knew. I can only hope that everyone struggling notices what “better” means to them, and holds onto that.

So embrace your bad days as part of the process that got you to improve, celebrate your better you, and see the better self of people around you, see beyond the coping the world sometimes demands of us, celebrate them, that too can keep you going.

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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Be Confident About It

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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TE RETO A QUE ME DETENGAS

CAPÍTULO IV: Deseosa

Historia Original

F/F, Multi

Clasificación: Explícito

Advertencias: No consesual, Uso de Drogas, Alcohol.

Resumen: Señales mixtas y diferentes perspectivas están abiertas a libres interpretaciones, esto sumado a la fluctuante naturaleza de las emociones humanas llevarán a las protagonistas a cuestionar sus principios y cambiar su actuar, poniendo en duda sus relaciones al involucrarse en situaciones que reestructurarán sus vidas. Esta es la historia de cuatro mujeres, una historia que puede ser de amor, lujuria, egoísmo, obsesión; una historia de múltiples sentidos, certeros solo para cada lector individualmente.

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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Random Thought #6

Asking for help is more than hard, it takes strength that sometimes no one has. Anything could be the thing that breaks you, everyone should have someone that listens, someone to complain to, someone who understands. It might happen that you don't have someone for that, just like many others, but as you might wish to have someone, you can be that someone for others, to somehow help them deal with it...I just hope people that are struggling, whatever the reason, know that I'm right here for them if they ever need it.

#random #random thoughts #mental space #mental illness #mental health #feelings #express yourself #get help #get healthy #struggles #hardships #strenght #life #mood

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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Casual photo day (throwback)

#dawn #sunset #sunshine #inspiration #tree branches #casual #nature #green #sun #sunlight #light #photo #trees #photography #my photos #warm #afternoon #throwback

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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TE RETO A QUE ME DETENGAS

CAPÍTULO III: Con los Sentidos Inhibidos

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F/F, Multi

Clasificación: Explícito

Advertencias: No consesual, Uso de Drogas, Alcohol.

Resumen: Señales mixtas y diferentes perspectivas están abiertas a libres interpretaciones, esto sumado a la fluctuante naturaleza de las emociones humanas llevarán a las protagonistas a cuestionar sus principios y cambiar su actuar, poniendo en duda sus relaciones al involucrarse en situaciones que reestructurarán sus vidas. Esta es la historia de cuatro mujeres, una historia que puede ser de amor, lujuria, egoísmo, obsesión; una historia de múltiples sentidos, certeros solo para cada lector individualmente.

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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Random Thought #5

Panic attacks are a form of torture that no one should endure, just like depression and any mental health issue you have to face, and no one should ever undermine your experience. But no panic attack is stronger than you, depression is not stronger than you, no matter what, you can get through it. The amount of hardships your own mind makes you deal with are not worth giving up on life, and that's what you should never forget...that's a message that goes for whoever reads this...and myself.

#random #random thoughts #mental space #mental illness #mental health #feelings #express yourself #depression #anxienty #panic attack #panic attacks #life #mood

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althenyxmindscape · 1 year

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Le Voyage dans la Lune

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