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[lgbtq-history-museum-cfl-intern]

Being a Student and Acknowledging Mental Health

Wow everyone!

It’s the middle of the semester now and I have to say, I didn’t feel it coming because honestly, I have no traditionally structured classes.

Last week’s post was dedicated to Banned Books Week but this one I’d like to dedicate to something else that was celebrated last week which is Mental Illness Awareness Week (as opposed to Mental Health Awareness Month which is in May). It’s also ADHD Awareness month which has been celebrated since 2004.

It’s believed that around 42% of people born between 1990 and 2010 have been diagnosed with some type of mental health condition, the top 3 being Anxiety, Depression, and ADHD in that order. And oftentimes mental health issues start to present themselves around our late teens and early 20s are and intensify if the signs were already there.

So, as students, we tend to juggle so much, and we usually attend college at a time when we are just starting to discover ourselves independent from the systems that shaped our perspectives growing up while potentially facing unanticipated mental health challenges.

I have personally struggled with consistency in mental health care, mainly due to financial inaccessibility but also because of a lack of self-awareness and inaccurate self-reporting which led to poor self-advocacy.

Last week, after several interviews and testing sessions with a neuropsychiatric team, I received perhaps the most comprehensive overview of my mental health that I have ever gotten. My results both disproved some previous diagnoses that I’d been skeptical about and also brought up conditions I hadn’t considered until then.

See, not all my results were about mental health concerns. Part of the testing was screening for neurological and developmental disorders which if left undiagnosed and unacknowledged/untreated can lead to more complications with existing mental illnesses.

So, for the sake of transparency, I’d like to share my diagnosis because I have always believed that dialogue is a powerful tool for processing and coping as well as fighting stigmas and stereotypes.

Originally, I sought testing for ADHD which I’d been previously diagnosed with but because of my inconsistency, I missed when they changed the standard for treatment. Now, to be treated for ADHD with stimulant therapy, at least in Florida that I know of, you must have an official diagnosis from a neuropsychiatrist. The testing for this was actually kind of fun and I thought I “passed” a lot of the tests. I in fact scored in the lowest percentiles for a lot of the tests, pointing to a clear diagnosis of ADHD.

Other diagnoses that came up that did not surprise me were generalized and social anxiety, unspecified depression, and CPTSD.

The most surprising and perhaps reality altering diagnosis was that they found evidence of being on the autism spectrum. Autism is not considered a mental illness - rather a neurological or developmental disorder as mentioned before - but like I said, if left unacknowledged, can cause depression and anxiety but can also lead to misdiagnoses.

For example, part of this was undiagnosing (not a word but I will be using it) bipolar depression and chronic depression. This holistic testing process revealed that my patterns of behavior and mental state do not indicate sustained episodes of depression stemming on their own or extreme highs for periods of time with impulsive actions and patterns of thinking.

This testing was very important for me because I never felt like my mental health teams were tackling the right issues and I knew part of it was my fault for how I self-reported during times of little self-awareness. Now I can look forward to finding a therapist who can help me develop awareness and coping skills that align with my combination of mental health and neurological conditions!

Unfortunately, access to this type of diagnostic testing is difficult to access especially as an adult because a lot of the testing centers, at least in my local area, are geared towards children and minors.  Therapy and counseling can also be expensive and uninsured. This leads to many who struggle through undiagnosed or misdiagnosed and mistreated symptoms alone and unable to access the help they need.

That is why so many organizations have worked to label certain days, weeks, or months out of the year to simply raise awareness of others’ experiences. Awareness is the first step to taking action.

To learn more about ADHD Awareness Month, Mental Illness Awareness Week, or Mental Health Awareness Month follow the links below:

#history student #internship blog #public history intern blog #history intern blog #public history internship #internship #museum internship #student internship #college student #university student #mental health #mental illness #therapy #student blog #student's mental health #autism #neurodiversity #actually audhd #audhd #depression #anxiety

[the-broken-pen]

Honestly the pipeline of “reading the-modern-typewriter snippets at midnight on the floor of my bathroom at age eleven so I wouldn’t get caught” to “being a tumblr writer myself” is a wild one.

#queer writers #writer things #writer thoughts #that’s crazy #also I love the modern typewriter #the god key #perfection #like I ordered It immediately #and made it a fake cover so I wouldn’t get fingerprints on the paperback #I would annotate it but I couldn’t bear to deface it #it has a place of honor in my home #like an altar #you guys don’t understand I scrolled through every single snippet she had posted to such an extent that I hit the end of her blog #like I got to her first post #because I wanted to read everything she had ever written #because I was like this is a god #still my idol #when internships (cause they’re writing internships) as me who my literary influences are #I always mention her #oh my god that’s my I sound British sometimes #😭 #because she says things like love and darling and stuff bc she’s British and it’s an engrained part of me #not that saying love is inherently British but in the context #just know I’m saying it with an accent #not when it’s the siren tho then that’s just like #sexy #if sexy had a tone #idk I’m demisexual #Christ this is a lot of tags #to whomever takes the time to read these ily

[oifaaa]

i love awful reporter tim and his many enemies and i feel like he's out there starting fights with billy batson's superhero youtube channel. he brings a powerful hater mindset to the live chat in a way that only a teenager calling another teenager cringe can.

Good time to remember that Tim is atleast 18 in this au but also he's beeb harassing poor Billy for years he's beeb blocked several times but Tim just keeps coming back

#ask #anon #hes 18 when hes officially a journalist #but before that he did do internships / work placements #and had his own news blog

[slythdiaries]

12.09.23

Been a long long while since I posted. A lot happened meanwhile so, here's the update folks

I got an internship!!

So my study schedule has been a bit messy trying to squeeze in sessions here and there while traveling.

What's worse than an uncertain life is a stagnant one. This changed routine is a welcome treat.

#indian studyblr #study blog #studyblr community #studyinspo #100 days of productivity #studying #study space #hustle #study aesthetic #studyblr #study motivation #new studyblr #studyspo #academia aesthetic #internship #math #mathblr #mathematics

[compacflt]

can i just say that I'm haunted by the image of Ice wearing "one of Mavericks cheapest rolexes". One because of the mental immage of Maverick being the kind of men who not only owns multiple watches but also Rolex, which is absolutely delightful, because oh the quiet vanity of that. And two because of the implied and groundbreaking (to me) domesticity (and defiance of the not talking/acknowledging the thing between the 2 of them) of wearing another person watch. I'm screaming into the void about your brilliance. So I need to ask, do they do that on purpose (before the mission) in a sort if roundabout way of acknowledging each other presence in their life? What would Mav wear that belongs to Ice (apart from that USNA ring eheh)?

pilots/sailors/doctors etc who do high-level specialized work with their hands tend to really be Watch Guys. and “cheap” rolexes (sub $7k ish) are actually pretty affordable if you’re making >$150k a year and want to treat yourself every fifth christmas or something. source: know several sailors & doctors. ALSO the watch ice is wearing in his famous gay plane photoshoot is actually a rolex. So theres some evidence ice at least is (annoying, ostentatious, bad with money, and) a Watch Guy. Maverick’s also wearing a kickass chronograph in TGM so i think he’s also probably a Watch Guy. also… you know, status symbol, honor, et cetera et cetera…

they probably wear each other’s socks because in-regs socks all look the same and they’re both men so who cares. i also hc that they’ve always worn the same size in shirts so each other’s t-shirts are also free game. and was very confusing at the start of their relationship when trying to figure out whose shirt was whose after a midnight rendezvous. lots of accidental shirt mixups. and, yeah, each other’s watches, because most people only see the status and don’t see the detail, and most people aren’t around both ice and mav enough to recognize that “omg last month adm kazansky was wearing the same omega chronometer capt mitchell is wearing today!! theyre totally together!!!” so if ice buys a new watch and maverick salivates over it, sure he can borrow it, whatever. and i think there’s a scene in wwgattai when maverick wears ice’s pj pants hold up lemme find it

“in bare feet.” now wtf does that mean. that could use a rewrite.

ice also wears mavericks leather jacket when they’re on their baseball date in debriefing. at some point when you live with someone long enough your stuff becomes their stuff which was the point of this graf

thinking about it… trying to decide if they’d wear each other’s cologne. that seems like a little much. no i don’t think so.

#oooh! this is the first time ive read this section of debriefing since i posted it! and wow it’s really just okay! #ugggghhh the house. the house.. *shakes fist* all my narrative problems have to do with the house… #would ice and maverick really get free LockMart/mcdonnell shirts? no idea #ive been working my first aerospace & defense job for a month now and ive gotten Boeing fidget spinners and raytheon sunglasses and #LM t-shirts so it’s not out of the realm of possibilities #but i am also not a federal employee so idk. #thx for the ask anon. i appreciate your use of the word ‘haunted’ #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #top gun #asks #man. i have such a problem with verb-tense agreement when it comes to ‘there is/there are’ #in the second one it should be ‘there are all these…’ man. i can’t ever get there’s/there are right #oh wait you’re not anon #i am a Watch Guy but $20-$80 vintage novelty watches i find on eBay not Rolexes #i feel at some point i should change my blog header. it’s still my politics but #given that i am literally working in defense rn it feels a little hypocrit. ok. will change it. #alright as of this post my header has been changed to reflect the material conditions of my summer internship

[yourpostisonpinterest]

@biggest-gaudiest-patronuses

@vikingofficial

i found your post on pinterest!

#gimmick blog #pinterest #yourpostisonpinterest #unpaid intern #internship #theft

[seoafin]

on a much lighter note I did pass the first round of the scholarship I applied for while I was in japan to study abroad I have an interview next week for it so positive wishes would be appreciated mwah mwah

#this blog is my good luck charm I think I've gotten everything I've posted about so far #my job at the bookstore my internship my japan gig and this scholarship #sooooo

[mystudydiary-blog]

08-05-2023

It's been a while since I posted :(

I already finished 8 weeks of my 11 week internship at the Belgian federal tax administration. My team works on appeals made by companies about VAT.

In the beginning I worked on old files that were already closed so I could practise. But now I'm working on current files and it feels nice being needed.

I'm so tired though. I've postponed my thesis to august because I feel dead when I get back home in the evening.

I really have to start writing my thesis report though. I've been procrastinating on that as well lol. I need to submit that at the end of may but my mentor needs to read it first because of confidentiality so I should probably finish writing it a week before the deadline.

I have started applying for jobs already! I applied for 2 jobs at tax administration where I'm doing my internship and maybe I get offered a contract when I'm finished. We'll see what happens

#mystudydiary #mystudydiary-blog #studyblr #internship #tax administration #taxation #vat #value added tax #productivity #university #my post #may 2023

[ask-heta-dzayer]

what do you think of miss vietnam?

Algeria: " i really like her company, but we do not talk as much as we should, i wish to build a stronger alliance in the future"

Algeria: "and i'm eternally grateful for that,"

The picture:

[Notes: Arise VietAlge nation there is much to speak of about these historical links, here are some interesting facts: Vietnamese monarch Hàm Nghi was exiled to Algeria in the 19th century after resisting french conquest, which coulld be their first contact. They both lived under France for a while, they could have met at the time too and bonded over being captive. Algeria wasn't just a colony to France, he was a part of France and got dragged to all his wars, including Indochina war, which led Algerians to meet the strong resistence of the Vietnamese people, it gave great inspiration for Algeria to fight France and get free, with Vietnam smuggling weapons to Algeria. After liberation, they officially established relations and many Vietnamese moved to Algeria and married Algerians creating this mixed community that is still present today. Algeria was in favor of Vietnam joining The non-Alignement movement (NAM) which they were both active members in, Algeria is still very fond of that movement and carries big hopes for the global south. Coincidentaly Algeria is wearing Batna's traditional clothes, and i just read today that Batna was recently made a twin city to Điện Biên Phủ. Today the two countries feel like their relations could expand further.

Outside of this, just feel like their minds align in many areas and so do their personalities. Sorry for rumbling!

Also don't mind the pic, i had to draw these four together at least once to get it off my bucket list, we'll pretend it was at the Algiers summit w khlas. ]

#hetalia #aph algeria #hws algeria #hetalia ocs #hetalia fandom #historical hetalia #aph indonesia #aph Cuba #aph ocs #aph hetalia #aph vietnam #i'm sorry #but realistically speaking the three of them are pretty short #including Cuba #first time drawing Cuba i'm sorry if he's not accurate i had no ref at the time #plz keep sending asks in i enjoy drawing for them on the bus/subway journey to my internshiP #also smn had been following my old blog *lenny face* #why is it that i know all the askers #anonymous asks #would Algeria call Vietnam Vivi? idk its my blog my rules sue me

[solid-snakes-solid-snake]

there is supposedly a fortnite leak that solid snake is being added in the new season. If this is true guys im going to supply you with so many fucking gifs of him doing gay little dances

peter griffin is also here but not important

#this is emily btw i am an avid fortnite player #ijm losing it #also losing my mind because its finals week. butgood news guys i got an ecology internship related to old and new growth #trees #you guiys probably didnt know this because me and sarah share nothing about ourselves on this blog. i am a biology major with a field bio #focus. emily fun facts #now im going to get paid minimum wage to look at leaf samples under a microscope for hours lol #okay byeeeeeeee

[jadecitrusmint]

5/10/2023

Work sheet for my work prep camp ^^; we’re doing a mock case of implementing new tech systems for a library, I’m learning how little I actually know about tech lol

#studyblr #studyspo #my notes #academia #notes #productivity #digital notes #aesthetic notes #internship #study blog #uni student #college studyspo #college studyblr #uni studyblr

[lgbtq-history-museum-cfl-intern]

The Final Count Down

Sunday 11/26/2023

Technically I’m supposed to be on vacation until tomorrow, but I have some time on my hands and thoughts on my mind.

This is the last day of classes and I’m working on some final assignments: The last touches on a research paper for the capstone course for my Interdisciplinary Studies major, a PowerPoint for the Hands-on History Internship Showcase on Friday, and a reflection on my service-learning hours with the LGBTQ History Museum of Central Florida – again, for capstone.

All I can think about is graduation! I’m so close, I can feel the end nearing!

My nerves are finally dissolving, leaving me with anxious anticipation, and a bit of “senioritis” as I chug through these final tasks.

Once the semester ends, this internship will fulfill the last course credits that I need – pending the History Department’s substitution – to complete my history minor.

Even though UCF has an Interdisciplinary Studies Master’s Program, I’m looking forward to turning in my application for the Public History Master’s Program by the priority deadline (January 15th). I aim to start my degree in the Fall of 2024 and, after learning about another student’s experience from Rollins’ Archival staff, I plan to take one seminar course at a time.

The only exception would be if I’m accepted into the Summer Research Program at UCF, allowing me to earn 6 credits the summer before.

This plan to take things slow is to hopefully avoid burnout and allow me to work with plenty of thought, care, and attention to my master’s degree. I’d also like to have time and energy to dedicate to internships and other forms of hands-on learning experiences like volunteering – maybe even a job that provides opportunities to expand skills that are relevant to public history professions.

Thursday 11/30/2023

Tomorrow is presentation day and I’m first up on the schedule (thank goodness! I’ll get to just sit and listen to everyone else’s experiences for the rest of the time!)

I’m literally functioning on meeting and due dates:

Tomorrow is the Hands-On History Showcase.

Sunday, all of my Capstone Assignments are due.

The following Friday, my final is due.

Then the Friday after that is graduation.

After that, I have about a month until the priority deadline for applications for the Public History Master’s Program at UCF.

That’s as far out as I can think right now.

I’m full of excitement and anxiety, but I’m also hopeful and optimistic!

Most of all, I am grateful, and I plan to spend some time throughout the following weeks communicating that to the mentors who positively impacted my undergraduate journey – pretty much all of them. (I was wondering if I was going to get sentimental leading up to graduation and, finally, here I am typing through calm tears as I reminisce on how lucky I am to have so many wonderful people to reach out to with gratitude.)

I’m glad this is how I chose to spend my final semester. Earlier this year, I was thrown off my path and I was heartbroken trying to piece together a new plan that accommodated my limited capacities as a student living with disabilities.

Now, two weeks from graduation, I stand firmer and more confident in my plans, goals, and desires.

Thank you to the wonderful faculty, staff, and peers who taught me so much along the way! Without their support, I would not have accomplished all that I have throughout my undergraduate career.

See you next Fall as a master’s student! (fingers-crossed)

Friday 12/01/2023

The showcase just ended and that just about wraps up the semester for me!

Everyone else had some incredibly enriching experiences and it was cool to see someone else who participated in the HerStory: Women in History Internship at the Orange County Regional History Center.

It seems the structure of it has come a long way, allowing her to accomplish so much more hands-on work than I had during my time there!

There was a lot of diversity in the projects everyone worked on, so I also learned other ways of being a public historian and doing public history work.

Hopefully, when I enter the Public History Master’s Program at UCF I’ll get to work alongside some of these wonderfully talented individuals!

Thanks for following my journey!

- Marena

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[blueberry-gills]

How much money do you think I'd have to bribe my parents with for them to send me to that Ranger school in Almia instead of here

#slash jay. slash jay. sla #i mean being a ranger does sound cool and all. but there's the whole. only having one pokemon thing #maybe i could do like...an internship??? over the summer??? #but there was something like that with lental that i really wanted to do too so. idk gfkgadlgda #pokemon irl #pkmn irl #pokeblr #pokeblogging #rotomblr #//aka mod has started playing shadows of almia (and has made a whole other seperate blOG FOR IT-) so uh yeah 😎👍 JKDAGADJL

[outofcontextdiscord]

oh I was going to send a pic but I can’t :( I see a little picture of Morshu by your pfp on posts though what is that??

That indicates which admin/mod made the post, as oocd is a sideblog.

That’s the icon for my main, @mas-y-menos

Admin Boa

#not oocd #admin boa #atm its just me but i want to get a team again by the time o graduate #so if i do get that internship (and the commute that comes with it) the blog can still go #ask

[slythdiaries]

18.09.23

The corporate vibe☕

So the first week of internship passed and it was a mix of excitement and nervousness, I'm still learning, there are things I'm good at, things that need improving, everyone around seem to be so much more smarter and invincible

*sighs*

A little overwhelmed but taking it one task at a time.

#indian studyblr #study blog #studyblr community #studyinspo #100 days of productivity #studying #study space #hustle #study aesthetic #studyblr #study hard #study desk #desksetup #work in progress #internship #being in your 20s

[buticanfixhim]

#sorry yaar time nahi mil rha tuje pareshaan karne ke liye #I'm busy will all the wrapping up internship and research and assignments #but i stalk ur blog everyday istg