#like the mindset of ''if i post nothing at all then i can't compare it to [insert other authors here]''

[muzzlemouths]

Psst. Just wanted to let you know that you're cool and I hope you have a really nice day today! You seem to be Goin Through It™ and I just wanted to let you know that we (your followers) like you no matter the quantity of stuff you're able to make at any given time (though we most certainly do like what you make, but that's not why most of us stay, I believe); you're very funny and have insightful opinions about writing, and you're always super nice when I stop by to say hi! Please remember to be kind to your mind and heart this upcoming Spring. I hope The Delights come into your life in leaps and bounds, and that you'll receive good news soon!!! <33

ooh...ohh.h.....th.ank you for the kind words........

#ohhhh i fought long and hard to not just. keep this in my inbox so i could stare at it for days #when i first read this my initial reaction was ''oh god is it that obvious'' #''am i like crashing and burning in real time on this blog. live on tv'' #which..FAIR YEAH LMAO #to be 100% transparent here i actually haven't been on this blog all day BECAUSE i was having a day where I was just like. #ahaha my shit Sucks and everybody's just humoring me #comparison kills and i have been stabbing myself like its the ides of march lately #and the fact that i haven't put anything new out is half because of that i'm sure #like the mindset of ''if i post nothing at all then i can't compare it to [insert other authors here]'' #WHICH IS SOOOO STUPID I KNOW I KNOW #self sabotage is my middle name its a bad habit i'm fighting daily but it's HARD #this has just turned into a Whining Session oh no #there's a reason i moved all of this to tags lmao #ANYWAY ANYWAY. GENUINELY I WANT TO SAY THANK YOU #from the bottom of my heart asks like these keep me from going over the deep end #it amazes me each and every day that so many of you choose not only to follow me but to STAY despite my general shenanigans and thinly veil #like i'll have days (like today) where i'm on the floor kicking and screaming over NOTHING and y'all just sit back and wait for me to get m #and it makes me so genuinely soft. the patience and kindness you show me #i will try my HARDEST to be kind to my mind and heart i promise. I promise. #if not for myself than for everyone out there continuously showing their support for me despite The Horrors #and I hope you're right i hope The Delights are somewhere in view soon enough #lord knows we could all use 'em #thank you again #❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ #edit: oh tumblr cut off like half of these paragraphs #thats probably for the best. you can just guess what i said LMAO

[lineli225]

Tomura Shigaraki 's abuse and neglect under All for One

I've decided to make this post due to the fact AFO's abuse towards Tomura is often ignored and even denied, so I'll be bringing a collection of scenes that prove he was being severally neglected during the 15 years he lived with AFO

1- Malnourishment and Underweight

At the beginning of the story Tomura used to be very skinny, his spine visible, very accentuated collar bones.

We can't see if his ribcages are exposed too since he's always dressed, but we can tell he is abnormally skinny and thin.

Some theorize AFO's purposefully keeps him in this state so he's more weak and frail similar to Yoichi. Or so it adds to his tiredness and numbness.

He's also been shown randomly struggling before (it could've been the aftershock of Stain attack, i don't know)

2- Lack of hygiene

He literally lives in pure filth, trash bags, old soda cans, paper, boxes, packages of food that seems ordered other than homemade, it lingers all over his floor, he is clearly a hoarder

It's completely different of the kept and clean bar, and now before you say "That's Tomura's responsibility, he's an adult he should clean it himself!" just think for a minute, if you had a son, that you see as your heir, and bets on their future so much,If you truly cared about them and saw they felt into a hoarder mindset, wouldn't you at least help?

Why not even Kurogiri cleans if Tomura was being cared by him? This clearly is intentional neglect, specially to keep his mood constantly down.

3 - His teeth

Tomura canonically has crooked teeth (compare his teeth to the other's in the jump festa art), cavities or at least what looks like plaques or dirt all over his teeth.

For someone raised by someone as filthy rich as AFO, he should've had access to dental care

4- Shaggy hair

His hair looks un-brushed, shaggy and dirty, which had no reason for before MVA when he became homeless, so why even at the start? How long has he taken a bath or a shower?

Look at the blatant difference in this scene after he showered at the PLF mansion

5- Unkept, ragged and broken nails

despite his hands also being very skinny, his nails are also all rough and broken Now, I know Tomura isn't a kid to have someone cut his nails for him, but this implies he was never teached how to take care for himself.

Besides of course his clear symptoms of depression and suicidal idealism, which, are very obvious, All for One IS neglecting Tomura by keeping him in that state /knowing/ he isn't being capable of taking care of himself.

6- His bedroom

First of all: No windows

Second, notice how empty it used to be, he had nothing but a bed and a desk, but right as he committed his first murder he started to receive toys, AFO is lovebombing and manipulating him to kill more

7- The obvious neglect to his pain

Notice how every time Tomura panics or is even wounded, he is just ignored and left on the floor bleeding out, puking or writhing.

Which uh- it isn't normal to watch your kid writhe in the floor while smiling and monologuing

8- 24/7 Surveillance and lack of privacy

There are cameras everywhere, AFO spends most of the time watching Tomura, even in his own bedroom, and even talks to him, Tomura probably hasn't had any privacy ever since he was 5

Which is a sign of abuse and control

His entire childhood from 5 to 20 is often relatable for people who grew in cult like environments, and homeschooled children who grew under controlling parents, despite the abuse not being as "obvious" since AFO never directly physically hurt him, the neglect and psychological torture is still there, that and more all the manipulation, gaslighting and grooming (think of Mother Gothel from Tangled as an example of this type of abuser)

By the way, talking about it

9- Gaslighting

"but wasn't /you/ who desired my power?"

The entire body possession plot is a clear evidence AFO never saw Tomura as anything other than a toy to play with, the same way he saw Yoichi, but so many people say the possession was a retcon because "early afo cleared saw him as his heir, he even said it's all for him!"

Well, argue with the literal "he's the next me", while he is.... weirdly caressing the screen while he watches his kid with no privacy- 100% creep behavior

10- AFO's bizzare behavior towards Tomura

The way All for One's hands are often shown caressing him or encasing him somehow, which yeah, it's part of the symbology of Tomura's character (hands that can both hurt and save)

But knowing AFO represents /hurt/ and, you know, i'ts kinda weird to caress the kid you kidnaped off the streets like that-

Cuz yes! Picking kids from the street even if they are orphan is illegal!! You should take them to a police station instead :D

Tomura was KIDNAPED by AFO, not saved.

11- Proof Tomura doesn't /feel/ saved

During his fight against Bakugou, when he sees him being helped, besides being "broken" he starts to spiral on "why no one saved me even before i was broken?"

The visual including the granny that ignored him on the streets

AFO broke him.

He recurrently thinks back to when he was on the streets, even though he was already traumatized, and had already killed his family, he still had /hope/ he ADMITS he believes he could've been different if it wasn't for AFO

If AFO had truly saved him,he wouldn't think like this

12- AFO gifting Tomura the corpses of his family to intentionally keep him nauseated, uncomfortable and traumatized, so he never heals

Besides their weird placements- On a kid. the gangster's hands being in his chest...

13-AFO's intentional desire for Tomura's discomfort

If this entire thread didn't make it obvious already, All for One benefits of Tomura's tiredness, ill feelings, nausea, depression and suicidal mindset, and over all physical and psychological discomfort

This ensures he's submissive to his manipulations and orders, keep him feeling hatred and anger due to constant overwhelming feelings and makes it harder for him to think of why AFO does all of it at all.

I could go even deeper than this about it, but i've reached thread limit and am lazy, so I hope you enjoyed this thread!

Thank you for reading

#shigaraki tomura #bnha #mha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #tomura shigaraki #shigaraki #deku #izuku midoriya #all for one #afo #mha manga

[chaysreality222]

How To Get Your Shifting Motivation Back!

hey guys, it's c! it's been awhile since i posted. i've been so busy with my personal life that i've lost some of my motivation to shift. which is why i wanted to make a post about it, to tell you that it is completely normal. if you're feeling like how i do, let's gain back our motivation again together.

Something I want everyone to acknowledge is that it's okay to lose motivation about shifting. You're not going to be and feel motivated all the time and THAT'S NORMAL. It isn't because you're not interested in it anymore, you just really haven't made or had the time. If you're anything like me, you've just been genuinely busy and that's okay too.

Why I want you to acknowledge that is because (I'm not sure if this is a universal feeling but) you start to feel a sense of guilt. "If I made time to shift the past couple of nights, I would have finally made it to my dr", "I should've already finished my new dr script so I can shift", "everyone else has shifted except me because I'm not focused enough", "I'm taking so long to shift because I haven't made any time to". I'm sure all these thoughts and more have passed through our mind when we found ourselves in a unmotivated slump. The guilt + the lack of motivation just causes you to be more unmotivated.

I don't want you to feel guilty anymore, because you shouldn't be. Yes, you could've already shifted BUT you can also shift now. There's nothing that can stop you from doing that.

After coming down from the unmotivated spiral, you can finally move on. Now, here's the fun part to getting your motivation back! Here are some tips I think are helpful.

Tips to gain back shifting motivation:

Make a playlist. Gather all the songs that remind you of shifting, how it feels to finally shift to your desired reality, or how it will feel to finally meet the people in your dr.

Create a mood board. Find photos of people, places, and things that relate to your dr. This is a great way to help visualize. You can also add things that you want with you in your dr. (I personally use Pinterest).

Read. Find and read a book that is based on your desired reality. Get connected with your dr again. You can even read some of other people's shifting stories.

Watch a video, movie, or tv-show. Again, find something that is related to your desired reality. It's a great way to help you visualize your dr and everyone in it. You can also watch videos about other people's dr's or what they put in their script to gain more ideas.

Watch your favorite reality shifting content creators. Mine are generally Ati, Kort, Liz, Alexa, and Kay on tiktok. Watching their videos are inspiring and always motivate me to shift. They also have the greatest advice and stories as well!

Keep a healthy mindset about shifting. (This should've been the first tip). Anyways, your mindset is key. No beating yourself up about not shifting. No comparing your shifting experience to others. Definitely no telling yourself that you can't shift either!

That's genuinely what has helped me overcome many of my 'unmotivated to shift' phases. I'm really hoping that this helped some of you out- I know it helped me. Thanks for being here. As always, Happy Shifting!

xoxo, c.

#desired reality #prttygirlshifterclub #reality shifting #shifters #shiftblr #shifting motivation #shiftingblr #shifting #stars #star aesthetic #motivation

[mah-o-daryaa]

For a show that's progressive, one-of-a-kind, ground-breaking for its time, and relies on "Show, don't Tell" a lot throughout the series, it bugs me how ATLA (or, more specifically, Bryke) preferred to tell the audience that Aang is a master airbender without showing us why. I mean, Toph, Zuko, Azula, and Katara are all shown practicing and improving their mastery in bending (although Katara has become rather overpowered), so why can't Aang have the same treatment?

Yes, Aang may be a child prodigy, and he did get airbending tattoos from inventing the air scooter, but I personally think that inventing an airbending technique (which demonstrates impressive ability and skill) is a way to gain the arrows prematurely, but isn't a requirement. Nothing in the show ever suggests just how far he's mastered his native element, let alone the other three. In the beginning of Sozin's Comet, Part 1: The Phoenix King (3:18), Aang says he thinks he still needs to practice his firebending more (which in hindsight makes sense, as he's just started relearning it from the dragons five episodes ago), and Toph notes that his earthbending could use more work too. Right off the bat, Aang is two elements away from complete mastery of all four, but later on he's seen practicing waterbending with Katara, implying he hasn't mastered it either.

We don't even see Aang practicing his airbending by himself post-iceberg, preferring to show off to random girls (like in Kyoshi Island). He just learns the elements, but doesn't really learn the philosophies behind each element. In this regard, he makes Kuruk and Roku look venerated in contrast. (To be fair to Aang, he had a specific deadline to master the four elements before Sozin's Comet that no other Avatar besides Wan had to deal with, but couldn't he try to make an effort to learn from the other nations?) Additionally, compared to Tenzin and Zaheer, Aang doesn't stand a chance against either of them (even though Tenzin is his son, but since Tenzin wasn't the Avatar, he could focus on upholding the Air Nomad culture and legacy). Even Jinora could go toe-to-toe with him at similar ages. He isn't really that impressive in any of the elements, to be honest; we've seen what a master of any specific element can do in both ATLA and LOK, as well as in the novels.

The main thing people often get wrong is that mastery isn't a final goal; it's a specific mindset. As in Pai Sho, what separates true masters from everyone else is that true masters always look for improvement in their strategy or skills. That's why Aang isn't a real master of the four elements: He always takes the easy way out, never trying to better himself or improve what he can already do.

I think this quote from Zaheer perfectly sums up what I've been saying: When you base your expectations on what you see, you blind yourself to the possibilities of a new reality. Even though it stems from his anarchist beliefs, it is genuinely one of the more insightful pieces of wisdom in the franchise because it promotes progress, a constant theme in life. Toph was able to invent metalbending because she wanted to "see" a reality where she could be recognized for her own talent in spite of her blindness; Zuko could learn firebending from the dragons because he could see a reality where he would regain his honor and fight alongside the Avatar, and so on. By contrast, Aang only takes things from surface-level, not putting any effort into understanding the true meaning of being the Avatar.

Speaking of Pai Sho, guess which Avatar constantly improved his/her abilities? Kuruk. Unlike Aang, Kuruk readily asked his companions, Jianzhu, Hei-Ran, and Kelsang, to continue teaching him, ever after he mastered the four elements that he was required to do, saying they would all benefit from the experience (the "true master" quote I mentioned above was actually said by him). Not only that, it was even inverted; sometimes they taught Kuruk, other times he taught them (which technically makes him the first known Avatar to teach bending to others). He was right, as during their lifetimes, they were the most powerful benders of their respective elements in the world!

Kuruk also had an intuitive connection to each of the four bending philosophies, which to this day remains unrivaled by any other Avatar, and was also one of the first people to suggest the idea that the four elements are connected (homeboy's literally a younger Water Tribe Avatar version of proto-Iroh, I'm honestly not going to be surprised if Iroh actually learned his belief from Kuruk during the former's visits to the Spirit World over tea and Pai Sho matches). If you ask me, Mone, learning the cultures and philosophies of the four nations is way more important than mastering the four elements, because the Avatar isn't just the bridge between the four nations; he/she is also the symbol of a unified world, and the franchise is saying that only one Avatar even bothered to do that? In my opinion, if we go by this rule, that easily cements Kuruk as the greatest Avatar in history!

Aang, on the other hand, never does this. Instead, he puts the Air Nomads on a high pedestal (which in turn causes him to place Katara on a high pedestal), and doesn't respect or learn from other nations' philosophies. He openly disrespects SWT culture and actively makes sure Tenzin doesn't have any exposure to the culture that Tenzin still belongs too, and worse, he pushes his own culture on other people's throats (remember the time he forced a homeless couple to "give up on hope because it's a big waste of time"? Or the time he forced Katara to not murder Yon Rha?) and values his own nation and values above the rest of the world (like the time he refused to kill Firelord Ozai because "all life is sacred", even though he has actually killed before, but if he doesn't kill Ozai, the latter's going to burn the entire Earth Kingdom to the ground!). That doesn't sound like something the Avatar is allowed to do, but Aang gets away with it anyway because ... hero?

There's actually another Avatar who focused on his/her own nation above the rest of the world. Avatar Szeto, Yangchen's predecessor, became a government official in his homeland, the Fire Nation. Under his tenure, the Fire Nation transformed from a fragmented, disaster-stricken state to the centralized, technologically-advanced nation we know of today. Unfortunately, this led him to neglect the other nations and, shortly after his death, the four nations were caught in a political event known as the Platinum Affair, which Yangchen had to deal with, eventually kick-starting the cycle of the current Avatar fixing their past lives' mistakes, while leaving problems for their future selves to fix. This problem might have even led to the growing ambition of Firelords Zoryu and Sozin as dictators, with the latter starting the Hundred Years War.

Aang not only valued his own nation's values above the others, he also forced said values on his non-Air Nomad companions; signed anti-miscegenation laws and tried to forcefully deport Fire Nationals from the colonies to return the land to the Earth Kingdom, even though they had already blended in with Earth Kingdom citizens, didn't wan to be separated from their families, and Zuko perceived the citizens of mixed heritage as his own subjects; refused to let his family practice SWT culture, even though his children could benefit from being members of both cultures, not just one or the other, and set an example for mixed-race families around the world; refused to teach Kya and Bumi Air Nomad culture because he thought they weren't airbenders and therefore "not real Air Nomads", even though they were just as Air Nomad as Tenzin was, if not more; and forced Tenzin to uphold the legacy of an entire nation on his shoulders. The fact that this was all written by complete accident is the cherry on top, representing just how badly Bryke screwed up.

... On a completely unrelated note, The Other Side of Paradise by Glass Animals (which is also one of my favorite songs) is definitely a Kuruk song. The last third of the song in particular sums up his tragic journey as the Avatar so well, and I always think of him while listening to it.

#atla #atla critical #atla comics critical #aang critical #mah rambles #fighting back #kuruk #yes I've done it again #to no one’s surprise #you miscalculated #I love Kuruk more than I hate Aang #if no one gets the reference I'm going to be sad #avatar cycle #past avatars #past lives #anti bryke #yes I'm going that far #I can't even be mad at lok anymore #the seeds for who the gaang would end up as were already planted in atla #so I'm going to the root of the problem

[thewiz9062]

Smiling Critters AU: Dogday's Psyche

NOTE: THIS IS NOT RELATED TO CANON IN THE SLIGHTEST. An accurate description of this au is that I took every playtime.co poster art and promotional material from the game and lit up the rest of canon in a bonfire. Meaning that EVERY character is part of one big cartoon. Thats it. No bigger bodies project, no child souls, no experiments, just a depiction of a cartoon. PLEASE do not ask me to do anything suggestive with anyone.

OK I know it's been a while since I posted one of these but bear with me here this one was interesting to write

So dogday

In my other posts, I've already made him a constant in everyone's lives (as he's the main character) but I want to go into how he thinks because that explains alot of his actions and most importantly, his interactions with catnap.

Tldr, dogday is elation (que demoic giggling if you get the reference)

Now usually when you see a happy go lucky character you immediately go "they've either had the happiest childhood ever and are genuinely like this or they didn't and they're faking it" and that was gonna be my original assessment with dogday. But yk.....that's bland. So i decided to mix the two: pretty bad childhood but they're happy....unhealthily so. Hear me out here:

In my au, dogday was abandoned as a baby at a foster home. So they "raised him" (they just did just over the bare minimum, I don't wanna villianize the workers though because they did have like a bunch of other kids there as well, not excusing them of course) but he was mostly left to his own devices. Normally this would dampen a child's spirit but dogday is quite a fighter, finding joy or happiness wherever he could. Whether it be picture books or TV shows, he found a way to make himself happy. And All the media he knew subtly shunned sadness or anger or anything of the sort. So now all dogday knew was happiness, as anything else was 'bad' and needed to be fixed.

The people around him didn't help his mindset either. After interacting with the other kids there, they usually had some semblance of an uplift in mood for the rest of their day. It usually didn't last long, though, because while dogday lived there their entire life, the others were there due to...unfortunate circumstances. He also could notice how the workers felt like he was a breath of fresh air compared to the other children, who mostly needed consoling, while dogday was 'self-sufficient' (they try I swear they're just not good at it)

So all in all, after 13 years of this dogday... was in a very unique state of mind. If you want a simple explanation, then he has this mental limiter. Anything happy or can bring joy can stay, and any other thoughts get snuffed out immediately. So he's not faking happiness. In a way, he just doesn't know anything else. Present him a situation where someone is sad his first instinct is to cheer them up, and usually it works, but in the situation it doesn't, he'll pretty much blue-screen. Cuz after all, it's always worked before, what else does he know?

So enter catnap.

Catnap is essentially his foil, and his main purpose is to help him see the other side of things because sun and moon dynamic yk I had to do it

Someone like catnap won't be cheered up normally, catnaps sort of nihilistic when it comes to problems, believing nothing can be done about it, cause in his situation he had no control over what happened, so why try and fix what he can't, that's meaningless. So letting his emotions pass by and move on is his way of 'comfort' So dogday's attempts at cheering him up doesn't work, and as Dogday does in those situations, he blue-screens. Normally when dogday fails to cheer someone up and he visibly panics, they'll give him a smile or a laugh, and seeing that instantly fills dogday with relief, even though he doesn't see that it doesn't reach their eyes.

Catnap won't do that however, because of his own coping mechanism. So dogday will panic, quietly spiraling into thoughts like "why isn't it working, what do I do, how do I fix this" and catnap reads his face and tells him to stop, he just needs a moment. Dogday wouldn't understand, he's never seen sadness be good for someone.

And from there his learning journey begins (aka how to feel other things)

God I love making them mentally unstable

#poppy playtime #smiling critters #smiling critters poppy playtime #dogday #catnap #alternate universe #angst #sorta? #btw the refrence was hsr

[theunaestheticstudyblr]

We talk a lot about productivity on studyblr. And seeing what some people accomplish in a single day is absolutely stunning. Like damn you cooked 3 meals, cleaned, studied for 3 hours, worked for 8 hours, took a walk, made espresso, read 3 chapters, AND made a whole painting? Seeing these lists can make you feel lazy or underachieving. I promise you're not. A lot of times you just don't have small "habits" (I can't form habits for some reason so they're more like small, structured items I make a conscious effort to complete daily) that structure your day and mindset. But even if you do, remember that not everyone is 100% every day and some days, you don't do anything and that's ok! Listen to your body!

Firstly, realize that lists like the one I listed are probably exaggerated. I doubt someone can cook themselves a meal while at work and unless they're getting up at 5am, they probably don't have time to get all of that done. This is the first thing you gotta realize. Social media is full of exaggerations and lies. This includes the studyblr community. So don't fall for the expectations that you see here.

Secondly, get a schedule for yourself. Get up at a certain time, make your bed after you get up, go and wash your face. This gets your mind to transition from being asleep to doing things. Wash dishes after you use them. Hang your laundry after you finish it. Put things away after use them. Keep your shoes in the same spot and get a shower schedule going. These small things are hard at first, but get easier as they become more routine.

By doing things immediately, you don't create much clutter and your cleaning time is cut down drastically. It helps so much. Trust me.

Have relax time. I've posted this before because it's IMPORTANT. SCHEDULE YOUR BREAK AND RELAX TIME AND TREAT IT LIKE ANYTHING ELSE. IT'S NOT LESS IMPORTANT.

Find easy snacks and meals! Look at pinterest or Instagram for ideas! Egg and cheese wraps, peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, salmon and mashed potatoes, etc. Especially if you work a lot like I do. The majority of my diet is "easy meals" at this point.

Make time for healthy habits. Meditation, yoga, a jog, the gym, running, swimming, reading by the creek, dancing to weird music, just get up and move and give your mind a break. You charge your phone. You need to charge yourself too.

Sleep. Please. Get a full 6-8 hours of sleep. Don't glorify sleeping small amounts. It's not a competition. I hate seeing people compare how little sleep they got, like bro that's like bragging about eating nothing but bacon and potato chips or something. Get sleep. Have a night time routine. Make sleep a sacred night time ritual even. Please. It's good for your body, your mind, your immune system, your skin, your future brain, etc. It can reduce your chances of getting in a car crash even.

Realize that life isn't a race or a competition. Life is something so short and it's meant to be enjoyed and savored. Please do something every day that makes you smile. Do something every day that makes you laugh. Do something every day that makes someone else smile. Live each day like it's the one you'll be remembered for. Spread love and kindness, especially to yourself and make sure you remind those you love that you do every chance you get. At the end of the day, you're living life, not racing in a societal race to be the most accomplished and you need a reminder about that.

#study blog #student #studyblr #student life #study hard #productivity #school #studying #university advice #school advice #life advice #advice

[chimscake]

5 𝙵𝚄𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙸𝙽𝙶𝚂 𝙸 𝙳𝙸𝙳 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝚃 𝙶𝙾𝚃 𝙼𝙴 𝙼𝚈 𝙼𝙰𝙽𝙸𝙵𝙴𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽 𝙵𝙰𝚂𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚂𝙿𝙴𝙴𝙳 𝙾𝙵 𝙻𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃

Since I feel like I owe you a little update: I'm working on a big post about everything I know on the law from the scientific perspective, as I said in the last post, but since I want to make it as complete and understandable as possible, it is taking a lot of time. Since the beginning of February I've been literally re-reading a shit ton of books and taking proper notes to make this post. Today I can say it's coming along really nice and I hope it will be ready to post soonish, but I can't guarantee anything cuz I've been and will be super busy with other things as well. Since I really don't want to leave my blog empty for such a long time I thought I would make a shorter post to fill the void. I hope you like it &lt;3

DISCLAIMER: as we all know, all you really need to manifest is affirm once and believe it's done, so you don't really need to do any of these things. But if you struggle with consistency when it comes to saturating your mind, you should consider trying things that are more fun, so that you have more incentive to do it. It is your universe after all, so why not do something a little more exciting that just sitting in your house?

1) Making fake phone calls even in public: I used to do this a lot a long time ago. I would simply hang out and go to the park or to the mall or anything really and I would pretend I was on the phone with someone talking about my desires as if they came to be already. I just LOVE the looks on peoples faces when they hear me talk about my blooming business and the crazy things I bought. The only difference is now IT IS ALL TRUE

2) To manifest being rich, surround yourself in wealth: walk through a wealthy neighborhood, go into a luxury shop, hang out in a luxury hotels lobbys... this truly helps with feeling in the wish fulfilled because the more time you spend around wealth and luxury the more you will get used to it and the more it will feel and be part of your life. If you feel insecure about walking into Louis Vuitton or any other luxury shop just because you don't look like you are rich and you are afraid of being judged listen to me right now: I've worked in retail for luxury brands and I can GUARANTEE you that there are plenty of wealthy people who shop at these places and look like they don't own a cent. Shop assistants never pay too much attention to how people present themselves because it's not always a good indicator of wealth, so just relax and go inside like you own the place, even if you're wearing h&m.

3) If you want to manifest a relationship with an sp, do things that you would consider romantic for yourself. Buy yourself flowers, comfort yourself with kind words or take yourself out on dates. This is useful to get yourself used to getting pampered and to make your subconscious belive the fact that you are in a relationship even more clearly. One day I bought myself a rose and I kept affirming that my sp was the one who got it for me. This one works like a charm

4) Work on you confidence and your mindset. Being confident and believing that things are always good in your life and that nothing bad can happen to you is a state that gets you literally anything. Do things that make you feel confident and positive as much as possible. For me these are wearing clothes and makeup in the style I like, complimenting other people, listening to music, eating food I like and spending quality time with the people I love. I recommend praying if you are religious.

5) Know/affirm that capitalism ain't shit compared to you. People, and especially young ones, are afraid of the consequences of capitalism, such as global pollution and the fact that the rich are getting richer, while everyone else struggles to afford groceries and rent. The state the world is in can be reason for negative thoughts and loss of ambition. But as the conscious creator you are, you can just decide that these aren't problems anymore and that the situation is only getting better, you can decide that billionaires have to listen to everyone else and make the world a better place. Here are some of the affirmations I use:

"capitalism ain't shit compared to me"

"i am the one billionaires hate because im getting richer without playing their game"

"world leaders and billionaires do as I please because they are afraid of my power"

"the rich are getting poorer and the poor richer because i said so and thats it"

"i am an environmentally conscious and generous billionaire"

Hope this inspired you <3

Chimscake

#manifestation #law of assumption #loa #loassumption #manifesting #master manifestor #affirmations #selfcare #self love #subconscious #self concept #specific person #unlimited money #money #wealth #luxury

[jewreallythinkthat]

Holy fuck the victim mindset Jews have is insane. People are not protesting shit because they hate Jews or Judaism. It has fucking nothing to do with religion. People are actually just fucking seeing things for the first time ever, thanks to technology. They are seeing information that is not controlled by a news source but by the people living and experiencing what’s happening everyday.

People are dumb and don’t care about stuff unless they are seeing it every day which is why Palestinians and so many others are protesting and posting. If they stop people will stop caring and pretend everything’s normal. The reason people don’t talk about other atrocities is because they genuinely don’t know or it just isn’t effecting them because they live far. It has zero to do with Judaism.

I don't know what to tell you mate but when you open with accusing an entire group of playing the victim, you're already deep in the rabbit hole of Jew hate. If you'd accused me, singular, then I'd have let it slide (I think you're wrong because you have no idea of my life and experience but whatever), but instead you decided to attack the entirety of the Jewish population. That's antisemitism...

I can't control what people see but I am highly aware of the quantity of reporting that goes on because it's literally my job to be and people lost interest well before news etc stopped stalking about Ukraine and the Uyghurs in China.

Shockingly, I know, I have no issue with people protesting war. My issue is the double standard to which Israel is held compared to every other country.

Re. the religion comment, once again I am reminding you that Judaism is an ethnoreligion (although I don't like that term myself) and Jews are an ethnic group who have religious practices which are no known as Judaism.

Also, I don't know if it's something you came across because I don't know you and your history, but people have been libelling Israel for far longer than the current conflict. People send hate and death threats to Jews and Israelis all the time, the current conflict has apparently just given permission to more people to justify that sort of behaviour to themselves. Even when Israel isn't in the news, people are obsessed with it. I'm not responsible for what you care about or take notice of, but I for once am very aware of when people make sweeping generalisations that include the slaughter of my own family.

#antisemitism #ask answered

[olderthannetfic]

There's something that has been annoying me a lot. And I know people do it because they want to be nice and encouraging, but still...

I keep on seeing "the stats of your fics say nothing about the quality of your writing" posts and I just can't apply that to myself.

Sure, it'd be silly to compare the amount of kudos/comments of a fic with 1k hits to one with a hundred. But if I take fics from the same fandom, with the same pairing and dynamic and similar themes, and all either oneshots or multichapters with the same amount of chapters/completion - if all that is taken into account and I look at fics with the same amount of hits as mine but 3x more kudos and 4x more comments, how can that not speak about the lack of quality?

Obviously either my writing isn't as good or my fics are boring/don't resonate with people.

Or am I missing something?

Seeing those ratios and not coming to the conclusion that I'm not as good a writer feels like turning a blind eye on things and deluding myself.

--

Those are more comparable, but it still depends how you advertise and if you do at all.

If you have 100 hits from randos browsing and they have 100 hits from followers they directed there from social media, you're going to have fewer kudos per visitor. Comments are more variable and have a lot to do with how much you comment back and how much the fic offers easy entry points to conversation (questions to ask or whatever).

It's totally possible you are a worse writer, but so what? That's not a crime. What are you going to do about it other than practice?

It's also highly possible that your prose is okay, but your choice of tropes is unpopular.

It's not deluding yourself to go "I can do it!" and keep going. The way you phrased that last bit is like there's some objective and immutable status of Bad Writer. It also seems like the mindset where being down on yourself is "honest" rather than a good way to discourage yourself out of practicing to get better.

[noa-de-cajou]

Non-human life expectancy and loss: Comparative thoughts on my ttrpg characters

As some of you may know I tend to make ttrpg characters whose life expectancy goes a long way. I won't talk much about Swan here but I'll look into Lubell (age immortal) and Ether instead (500 years life expectancy). Trying not to spoil too much about Ether for my fellow players.

Lubell has lived thousands of years. She was aged 60 during the campaign and experimented two major losses at 40 and 45 : first her kid that she had to abandon, then her lover who was brutally killed. Lubell is extremely one-dimensional in her grief: everything is her fault and she must atone for the rest of her existence. She used to deemed worthy of living only the people that she loved, all the rest could burn every color of the rainbow for all she cared. Only after her losses did she realize that she made many people suffer the same grief she was experiencing. And she's killed hundreds if not thousands of people as a demon paladin in 45 years. The guilt Lubell feels is not just guilt for abandoning her child and not stopping her lover from getting into a dangerous situation: it's the guilt of a thousands lives wasted she carries. That's what her grief is about. It's the loss of her family as potential validation pattern, it's grieving anything she could have been.

Lubell doesn't want to heal because she believes healing and living on would be unfair to everyone she hurt. That she doesn't have the right to experience anything good because she had her chance and wasted it. (Ironically, she ends up with two of the healers of the party. Something something growth, something something character arc.) She went from not giving value to any life outside of her scope to not giving her own life any value. She was shown that it wasn't the way. Such a mindset only brings more hurt. But before that, Lubell was unprepared for grief because she avoided every good relationships she had (until forced into the party) and was always surrounded by nearly-immortal people. Hence self-sacrificing tendencies, because grief feels like a worse fate than death to her, like a virus her body wasn't used to. To Lubell, loss = self-blame. Killing the BBEG, however, was a mercy that finalized her getting out of that mindset. I may develop on this in another post.

To summarize: Lubell experienced loss and the grief that came with it very brutally, twice, and therefore saw it as a terrifying thing that had to be kept away at all costs.

Now onto Ether.

Ether will be 119 when the campaign starts. Her relationship to loss is completely different: loss is something that's embedded into her, something that's inevitable. Ether lost many people that were very dear to her, and not just lovers. She saw complete strangers age and die while she stayed exactly the same, she saw countries and people and customs change all around her, she witnessed the world after a war. Ether lost people and lost many homes, not all of them to death. Ether expects to lose something the moment it falls into her hands, but can't bring herself to throw it away. Ether sees grief as a constant that doesn't drown out all the good, but to her good is impermanent. There's nothing she can really keep, and the more she ages the more jaded she becomes. Ether can't help but feel like she's *too* permanent. There's the loneliness of not feeling attached to her elven counterparts and never being around people with the same temporality. There's the loneliness of changing more slowly than everything else around you. The loneliness of the world changing as soon as you get attached to it.

Where Lubell sees grief as something to avoid, Ether powers through it because loneliness is much worse to her than loss. If you're grieving, it means you are able to lose things, because you had things and you loved those things. Ether knows grief is the price she pays for love. She remembers many names but starts forgetting faces. Many places to stay but never a permanent home. There's a resignation in her life, knowing she never gets to keep anyone, that she's the first to lose and never the one lost. And yet she tried. She tried, and she's stopped trying. Or she's decided to stop trying but very much failing at it. Ether values life too much to stay indifferent. So she keeps forming bonds with people knowing full well that she won't keep them. But having the slight hope that she will.

To summarize: Ether's life is composed of at least four or five world-shattering losses and of hundreds of smaller ones. She believes she'll just go through it again and again. She tries to go by the "it is what it is" mentality. She doesn't know yet that maybe it doesn't have to be this way.

So we have the one that refused loss and the one who deems it inevitable.

The second one hasn't had her development yet.

I can't wait to see it. :)

#discussion of grief #discussion of loss #loss #tw grief #ether nepheli #lubell an yang #lysara #ttrpg #noarambles #i may add more to this #when it gets clearer

[rin-and-jade]

hi there, I've been very active in researching OSDD/DID for the last few years, and it came to be that around July of 2022 I realized how many applications and descriptions fit my experience. I/we don't experience amnesia, but do experience high degrees of trance-like dissociation and DPDR regularly. I/we identify as an OSDD system, and have distinctive parts/alters, who have their own body awareness, personalities, interacting with the world, and their own names, if exclusively identified.

The problem is that there is a huge amount of imposter syndrome, and self-invalidation, since we don't remember any significant trauma that would cause such a brain thing to happen. The only things we can remember are instances of emotional invalidation (and altercations ending in panic attacks from a young age) due to caregivers figures not realizing we're autistic, or how to help us. But that doesn't feel like it's enough. With all the searching we've done, we can't recover anything more specific as a recurring trauma. It hurts, and feels like we are invalid as a system, and that without something more significant there's no way we could have developed this way.

Is this enough, depending on how the brain dealt with distress? Should we keep searching for repressed trauma?

TLDR; Imposter syndrome due to lack of trauma rememberance, and what is remembered feels "too light".

Yikes.. imposter syndrome is already a pain in the ass to deal with. I'll try my best to explain multiple things to you and all ya got to do is digest all of these and do the tips i write below ok? (long post bare with me)

Following the order, let's start with the syndrome itself. This can make a distrust between you and the memories/severity you have known,, having the mindset of seeing 'worthiness' in a simple scale (of not bad to bad enough) won't cut it apparently. First you must understand that you're easy to miss the whole point which is acknowledging you have these unpleasant memories, and that is the only proof needed.

Secondly, self invalidation hits people right in the gut. Everytime. While you can't stop it from throwing punches, you can actually learn how to dodge. In this case where invalidation is trying to beat you up hard anytime,, it's time to implement the concept of worth and acceptance. By understanding that everyone has its own worth (and the same degree/amount) and even for you, that'll dodge an uppercut of "your struggles are nothing compared to others" which is much better than getting your jaw hit and halfway in the process of understanding the truth (because it lies all the time). Having acceptance that despite how 'small' or 'not really bad' traumatic experiences makes you dodge another jab punch,, invalidation hates this as it tries to put you down for good and you're going against it. Like boxing, it takes practice to create a counterattack and be fast in dodging so if you got hit once in a while, get up again, you're doing great,, beat that shit to pulp with consistency.

Thirdly, for repressed trauma/memories. I think of this sometimes, i, myself is also aware we still have many to uncover but that isn't always the important thing to dig for. How can one be sure that it has CDD? By knowing it has one already, in fact (the presenting symptoms and struggles around it, as well as history of when it happened). Finding traces is not easy and takes lot of time,, just as an investigation case where some deed had happened (cdd) and you're tasked to understand what process/action had led to this cause by looking for clues (repressed memories) and even if you, the detective have gained profound evidence (pieces of memories, etc). Because you weren't in the crime scene or whoever was involved in the deed,, not knowing the full chronology, series of events and reasons is perfectly alright. What im telling is that you don't need to see the full picture to determine something,, with enough clues that serves as concrete evidence, it had already been sufficient.

Lastly, i say you should not chase for memories as its counterintuitive. Like taming a cat, you can't catch it that way,, and so it works similarly with this. The more you heal on yourself and other parts, it'll uncover by itself and im sure of it. So you don't have to chase anymore because it's bound to come by itself, just like a cat.

I also made this simple graph on how your issues affect each other and its outcome in my own understanding,, by having awareness that this is creating a loop, you are bound to escape/break it easier. The writings are not dyslexic-friendly so im kinda sorry on that..

This hopefully covers up everything what you're questioning and the presented struggles as well, so, i now wish you luck and feel free to come back and tell me your progress.

- j

#did #actually did #did community #did system #did osdd #dissociative identity disorder #plural #system stuff #sysblr #janswersask

[asksoldieron]

SO-22: Don't Be So Specific

If there's a lot of engagement on this, this post is liable to get real long, beware before you expand.

No art, but I am working on it and I will add it retroactively. The eyes are letting me draw, just real slow.

Welcome to the Engagement Lounge, for The Rainbow Connection (251|22) an instalment! Short comments can go in the replies, but there's a 475 character limit. Longer ones will need a reblog. Remember to @asksoldieron if you're reblogging someone else's reblog, so I can see it too!

OK! I got super distracted talking about autism and diversity in media on the main blog. Now I get to talk about the Holocaust!

Except, no, that ain't it. And I've got to bend over backwards to show you that, because "Holocaust" and "genocide" have become synonymous. Way back when Donald Trump took Obama's children-in-cages idea and ran with it, I decided to try writing a serial. I was working on it in 2016, but it didn't come out until Trump was already President, saying the quiet part loud 24/7 and dismantling the system that already wasn't working. And I got to see the conservatives shitstains running DC's Holocaust Museum try to prevent people from comparing children in concentration camps to the Holocaust. Also, they're not "concentration camps," call them something nicer, you're being antisemitic.

I WENT to that museum as a young teen, and I got laid into like a red-headed stepchild (sorry red-heads and stepchildren, but you know how it is, idioms come from somewhere) for pushing back when my mom said, "It could never happen here." I didn't think that was what I was supposed to be learning! And, it turns out, for political reasons, that was actually what they were trying to teach me.

The Holocaust is sacred, and special, and it will never happen again. If something similar seems to be happening, you better shut your whore mouth and not compare it. Nothing compares.

And so we lose a significant portion of the language and historical context that we need to identify a genocide and respond to it, or maybe even prevent it. Well, it's not like THAT. Don't respond to it like THAT! Maybe be more reasonable, and do something incremental, because it's not THAT.

I knew what I wanted to do. I knew it would be hard as hell to get there. I knew you'd have to trust me first. And so I started to write.

Now I'm there and I don't have much of an audience that trusts me. Maybe three people are gonna read this. Five, if you count me and the spouse. If anyone rolls up after this, they're gonna know what I'm about and they'll already have opinions of me based on what I've done here, and what's going on in the world while I do it.

I already knew comparing children in cages to the Holocaust had been declared a sin. I did not expect to be pushing back against that while pushing back against a genocide in progress is also a sin, because Israel is in charge of it and Joe Biden OKed it. That got really fucking complicated on me, real fast.

There is a lot rolled into this burrito already, because eugenics did a lot of lasting damage and the Holocaust is only part of that. People come at all kinds of differences with a genocidal mindset - for example, looking to "cure" queerness, disability and neurodivergence, so there won't be people like that anymore.

Thus, the gays are here, they're involved, they're trying to help out, and they're comparing it to their experience. And so are the NDs, being an immie has some aspects of that, as well as some aspects of disability. All of these people ALSO went into the meatgrinder during the Holocaust, and are still liable to get killed when eugenics and genocide are on the table.

And Jewishness is there! Immies are somewhat Jewish, because I was trying to be sensitive to the fact that they're marginalized in fake Europe and we're going to have a war about it. It would be erasure if I didn't fold some aspects of Jewishness and the Holocaust into that! (And now it's appropriation. *sigh*) But I can't make them 1:1 Jewish, because religion doesn't work like that where they are. They can be close, like Milo and Calliope can be close to lapsed Catholics, but they're not exactly.

Immies are so many things in part because I'm trying to get you to understand that the Holocaust itself wasn't just antisemitism run riot. Fascism doesn't have to look like Nazi Germany, 1:1. We're doing it right now, and it doesn't look like that! It's wrapped in the flag and carrying the cross! We knew it would be!

And we still can't stop it. In the States, you're either gonna vote for a pro-genocide candidate this November or abstain and render yourself irrelevant that way. Either way, genocide remains on the table. And I know who's in danger when that's on the table. It's me, it's definitely me, and a lot of other people similar to me. Immies are as many of us as possible, at once, and I want you to see it.

When Vladek Spiegelman, a Holocaust survivor, goes on a racist rant against Black people, which is faithfully rendered in Maus, his son Art, the author, despairs. So does his therapist, who also lived through the Holocaust. He wonders if a newer, bigger Holocaust is necessary to teach us the lessons we somehow failed to learn. So I'm giving you one in fiction, because I don't want one in real life.

But I'm not supposed to do that. You're free to reject everything I'm trying to do because I'm not supposed to do that, and I'm being antisemitic and doing leftism wrong and I'm just one imperfect human being who will not perfectly represent everyone in my work. You can stick your fingers in your ears and go "lalala you don't mean meeee" or tear me apart so anyone who sees me will ignore me for all my faults. Or you can just never read me, which is what most people will do. I can scream until I pass out or die, and no one will hear and come help. Not systemically, which is what we need right now. I need to motivate large amounts of people to push back and keep each other safe, and I can't. I'm autistic with social deficits, limited resources, and no corporate master to promote me. It's my abusive childhood all over again, on a societal scale.

I'm going to keep writing. I will try. I do try. But it's so very little, when so many big things are so very wrong.

If any of you out there know someone bigger than me who might help me, please point them at me. Because, at this point, that's the only thing that's going to make my work matter. And this is the best thing I know how to do that might help. Otherwise, what even if the point of me and all my pain? I want to mean something more than my existence. And I want to help so much. Look what happens when nobody helps.

#tin soldier and soldier on #instalment #engagement lounge #genocide #writing #vent #i guess this is a vent too yeah sure

[egg-emperor]

You're very right in the tags of that one post. Toxic positivity is just as bad as toxic negativity, sometimes worse due to the handling of constructive criticism because of can-do-no-wrong attitude that stifles growth and creativity.

That ever-growing toxicity combined with this weird form of puritanism that has people harassing and dogpiling on others if they dare have an independent thought outside the hivemind is what's forcing me away from the Sonic fandom and never returning again, despite how much I love Eggman. I've already stopped reblogging Sonic art on my main blog and interacting with the fandom at large outside of a close circle of trusted friends across social media, they're the only thing even keeping that dying flame for this series stoked. I'm almost ready to delete it all and revamp my main blog theme to distance myself further. It hurts to know I'm no longer welcome in something that has been a major part of my life since I started gaming, something I've seen grow from literally nothing as I grew.

I still enjoy so many things about this series, and I had so much fun with everything up until this point, but being pushed out and treated like you're worse than trash for disagreeing with one thing feels like a knife being twisted in my heart. I don't want to go, but at this point I feel I have no choice to leave it all behind.

I'm sorry to sound whiny with this all, but I guess I just needed somewhere to vent. Should I consider this my goodbye letter to the Sonic series? Maybe so.

Thanks, Julian. Again, sorry for the vent.

Nah don't apologize, that's exactly how I've been feeling too. There's a big problem with both toxic positivity and negativity in this fandom and I'd say the former has been a much bigger one lately. I wouldn't say any of my criticisms of the latest media I'm not a fan of has been that harsh, aside from the occasional rants where I've been especially worked up and upset.

Most of the time it was just calm criticism that I was being asked to talk about in my inbox, it's not like I was going onto other people's posts and inboxes trying to be negative. But it's just blown up out of proportion because people take offense merely being something they don't want to see, because I see it as anything less than perfect and amazing. And that's where the toxic positivity comes in.

What I do always comes from a place of deep passion and my boldness in expressing true feelings is dismissed as nothing but hatred. Just because again, it's not highly positive endless praise without question or criticism. There's a lot of toxic positivity and also puritanism especially when it comes to my views and creations of Eggman compared to what people would prefer I think and do instead.

I've stepped away from fandom massively too because there isn't much out there that appeals to me anymore. It's a hivemind where you're not allowed to voice different opinions or even state facts as it's immediately taken as an attack. It's full of high praise of everything and intolerance towards people that don't feel the same, they accuse me of being horrible and hateful and trying to attack specific people with things I make on my own blog.

I don't think I'm ever really going to come back either beyond interaction with the small amount of people I still follow that aren't with that crowd and their mindset and either feel the same or accept I feel differently, like I can with them as long as they respect me too. I don't seek out content from anywhere else aside from heavily filtered Tumblr search. I'll never search Eggman on Twitter again for the sake of my sanity lol

While it does help me feel better to not surround myself with things that make me uncomfortable and avoid it as well as I can, it does hurt to leave almost everything behind and not feel welcome amongst the masses just because we can't agree on everything and are open with criticism, no matter how sensible and calm we are about it. I'm going to miss out on the small amount of stuff out there I would like as a result which is sad too.

But then when I'm at my worst after all recent events, I've contemplated deleting everything and leaving because even though there are a few reasons I have to stick around and it's not all bad, it still feels like I don't belong and do everything wrong in some people's eyes and am hated by many and it just makes me miserable with all the constant reminders. It hurts that something that's been so special and important to me almost all my life is now attached to this pain.

It was fun up until this point for me too but now I feel pushed out because of how many places I've been kicked out of and how many I've been blocked by. It really does hurt a lot, how it feels like everything can go wrong just for being yourself and being open and honest about how you feel. It does stifle growth and creativity a lot when different perspectives and ideas are immediately shunned and looked down upon and responded to aggressively.

I don't really want to go either but I've accepted I need to take a step back, as big of a part of my life it was for so long. And I've been considering that I might have to leave official media behind soon as it just feels like there might not be anything for me anymore. Even before shit really hit the fan fandom wise, I started pondering it. Leaving that will hurt even more but I'm trying not to hold on to what hurts or discomforts me and just doesn't bring me the happiness it did before.

If I do have to leave both fandom and official media behind entirely, it will hurt a lot but I still appreciate for the people I still follow, old official content, and sharing my analysis, headcanons, fics, gushing, etc. I'm still passionate as ever about Eggman and love to create from it and share it, that's why I care so much and have such strong opinions and bold ways of expressing it in the first place. It's sad that it had to come to this but I appreciate the good times and memories and I won't let all this stop me from doing what I love.

But yeah you're not alone in this, I feel exactly the same way and I'm saying my goodbye to most of the fandom too and possibly the entire series itself soon with the way things might be going from here.

You're welcome and no need to be sorry 💜

#asks

[wlfpet]

NOT SURE if this is what you were going for but papi bones reminded me of those early 2000's young adult books and movies I used to be obsessed with when I was 15 (saying this in the best way possible, they shaped who I am today. I would be nothing without slightly annoying main characters whom I loved no matter what) and the way you wrote the fic brought back this warm familiar early 2000's nostalgia that I felt when reading and watching those books/movies back then ♡ loved it so so much can't wait for more

YES!!!! you’re so right, I was a bit nervous because I was definitely testing out new writing styles (I really struggle with making my writing seem casual and my narrator is usually very serious about everything all the time) so I really wanted it to read like a campy YA/college movie would watch, something like American Pie, Spring Breakers, The House Bunny, Jennifer’s Body, (the names are leaving me but I could go on) I watched a lot of them as a kid, when I shouldn’t have been 😂 but they were very special to me in a way that I think is now kind of a relic of it’s time in a way, how those movies have been almost completely phased out now but were such a pivotal part of early 2000s culture and in a way were snapshots of the mental mindset of the time — of course in the fantasy spectrum but fulfilling our wishes of living without responsibility or shame and even though they were products of their time a genre that doesn’t really exist anymore have a lot of specialness and charm that always really captured me, as a viewer and writing wise 😭 how they’re so immersive, really suspending the disbelief that all of these comparatively small issues were actually that big a deal 😂😂

I think that in the 2000s everyone wanted to be young, wild and free forever and I think those movies are at least a representation of that, so I really wanted PB to read fun, and to capture even a fraction of the vibe a shitty 2000s college movie had and i really want Jackson university to read like that as I continue posting fics using that thematic. I hope I did that and I really appreciate the kind words forever 🫶

#tiki answers #anon messages!! #Ellie got the loud pack I am so high 😭

[bluemoondust]

do u have a bnha oc or a demon slayer oc snd can u write them as a yanfere

:0 I'm pleasantly surprised to see someone request my ocs! I do have ocs for both but I'll go with Demon Slayer for this (I have two more I didn't include here because they're not too developed yet) and I'll talk about the others another time. Hope you enjoy! 😊 Also, since I don't have drawings of them yet, I will say that Rōnin's face is mostly covered by a kitsune mask. I'll post drawings of them when I can!

Warning(s): Controlling Behavior, Overprotective Behavior, Guilt Tripping, Possessive Behavior/Mindset, Passive Aggressive Behavior, Hints of Sadistic Tendencies, Mentions of Stalking, Delusional Mindset/Behavior, Mentions of Violence (not towards darling)

✧Igarashi, Ohta — Breath of Glass✧

Like many other people in this world, Ohta has lost people close to her and has seen the lives of others being taken. Everything in her life was going to be perfect but it all shattered under the force of those who destroy lives. Since then, Ohta has shut her heart away in fear of being hurt again. Though, that all changes once she meets you. She denies her feelings in the beginning. All good things come to an abrupt end for her, so it would hurt all the worse if she were to indulge in what her heart wants.

What gets her to give in is the realization that now... Now she knows how to protect. Ohta laughed at the irony of it all; she was seen to be wedded by someone who would love and protect her (unfortunately his life was taken by demons), but now she is the one who will defend you from the dangers of the world. On that day, she vowed to devote her time in keeping you safe for she loves you so much. Even if you aren't aware of her presence due to how nervous she becomes when approaching you.

It gets to a point where she gets extremely controlling since she takes this as a heavy responsibility. What else is she if she can't do anything for you? If you were a fellow demon slayer, she refuses to leave you alone on missions. Practically demands to be partnered up with you for every one. In some sense, she does see you as someone who is unable to protect themself at all, much like Rengoku. Refusing her sends her into an unhealthy spiral as she resorts to guilt tripping methods. Why won't you let her do this for you? Do you see her as worthless? She can't bear to see you die! She wants to live by your side and start a family!

✧Gushiken, Tetsurō — Breath of Metal✧

Tetsurō is deemed as perfect husband material by many in his village, even Ohta's parents agreed! Hardworking, good cook, kind smile, and a fighting spirit. What they don't know is the growing possessiveness he feels when with you. He is a realistic man and knows not everything in life can go the way he wants. However... Just this once he will defy such views in favor of having you all to himself. Tetsurō doesn't like to be arrogant, but he does have the need to brag to himself about how his accomplishments and amazing personality could be the perfect way to draw you in. No one could compare.

Though that doesn't mean he does not possess any... Undesirable traits. Insecurities brings out jealous tendencies. People who are getting too comfortable around you are faced with passive aggressive comments. Especially if they are of higher position. He just isn't very fond of those who like to step over those who are 'beneath' them. It brings bad memories, plus, he'd hate to see you be tainted by their ugly views.

If anyone were to try and voice their concern over his behavior... No one would really believe them. Tetsurō, who has done nothing but good in both assisting those in need and protecting others from demons, threatening a life? No. That's not him. Also, do not get me started on how sadistic this man can get when he's really pushed past his limits of patience.

✧Kurosawa, Rōnin — Breath of Ashes✧

He's an odd one for sure. Everytime he speaks seems to be pure monologue as if he were playing a character in a play/book. Calling himself someone who rose from the ashes of the flames before him and demons the absolute evil he must vanquish. You wouldn't be able to tell if he was a yandere or not, which makes things all the more worse. You'd never see it coming.

Rōnin is delusional when he notices his feelings towards you and immediately seeks out ways to express them. Following and watching at night are just his way of showing you. No one will harm you! He fully believes you'll fall for him just as he did for you. Why wouldn't you? He's seen the way you are. You wouldn't be so cruel as to push him to the side and leave him to being alone once again... Right? He's brave. Strong. Helpful. Amazing. Skilled. What more could a partner ask? Any demon or human who even thinks of approaching you with less than good intentions will have to face his wrath. Either by having them choke on ashes or tear them apart even without his nichirin sword. Oh, the irony of him wanting to purge the evil that is demons when he himself has become what he swore to destroy.

But... You'd love him, right? You stuck around even with his eccentric personality. So this discovery shouldn't be an issue if you were unbothered by him.

#yandere imagines #yandere x reader #yandere x you #yandere demon slayer #yandere kny #yandere kimetsu no yaiba #yandere demon slayer oc #yandere kny oc #yandere oc #yandere oc x reader #female yandere #male yandere

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so we know that ggdd didnt do any fanservice for the cql. do you know why (or whats your opinion abt) theres so many joined interviews of them for cql promotion in comparison to their other shows? ive tried seeing if they had this many/more of them with their other costars and i cant find any.

This is in reference to a previous post.

They did do a bit of what I'd call 'fan service' for interviews and fan meets during promo for The Untamed (such as all the cute games they were asked to play together during fan meets, that forced them into close, cute or funny situations together), but nothing major and they've done no CP marketing whatsoever, which is I think what you were responding to.

By CP marketing, I'm talking about joint endorsement campaigns with brands using the CP/both actors (such as we saw for WOH and a lot of straight romance dramas).

As for other dramas GG and DD have done, there are plenty of cutesy interviews and fan servicey moments for Gank Your Heart promo if you look around on YouTube. Probably for others as well - I don't know, I really don't pay any attention to that stuff.

I think comparisons with other dramas, trying to parse out how much fan service and CP-related promo they've done with X drama vs with CQL is a completely pointless fool's errand. I don't know what you think you're going to learn from that. Every drama is going to be a bit different in terms of how things are handled, and will be coming out at a different time, in a different entertainment climate, and will require its own approach.

For example, a drama about gaming that comes out around the time of a major international gaming tournament would almost certainly involve some sort of gaming-related marketing and promo. A romance that comes out near Qixi is going to have romance themed promo. A drama that airs after a major natural disaster where hundreds die isn't going to do a lot of promo at all, or it will be more sombre or hopeful in tone.

Every situation is different and you can't attribute everything to GG and DD's personal lives and relationship.

I see a lot of turtles trying to compare and do 'double-standard' analysis, where GG or DD behave this way around such-and-such a person but with each other they behave that way. Where things were this way with CQL but that way with other dramas, etc..

This is not the sort of thing I go in for. If it's something you enjoy don't let me stand in your way, but I personally try to stay away from that kind of thing or at least keep it to a minimum because it feels a bit toxic. It feels too much like turtles are trying to downplay other relationships or dramas GG and DD have done while puffing up what they've done/are together, and I don't like the mindset that generates. Maybe it feels different for others, but for me, that's what it feels like.

Just my personal opinion, Anon. If it makes you happy don't let me stand in your way.

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