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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 months

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NOT USING THIS ONE ANYMORE, ILL MAKE i-am-too-much-7 ANY MINUTE NOW!!!

Hi, I’m I-am-too-much! Thanks for checking my profile.

I’m LGBTQIA+ friendly!

I’m here, because writing about my struggles with ED helps with my other mental health issues.

If you want to report me, please don’t. As you can see, that’s my fifth account, and there’s gonna be more than that. Just report.

Anyways, I’m usually reblogging, but I do write my own stuff sometimes.

I’m actually fluctuating between 115 and 105kg/170cm. That’s a lot :) (gonna update that!)

My dm's are open, I’ve always tried to be a selfspace for all of you :))

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 months

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OMG IM BACK I FOUND THE EMAIL ADRESS I USED TO MAKE THIS ACC

#ftm ed #anamia #male thinspi #trans ana #model thin #malespiration #trans ed #male ed

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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Pretty boys too ^^

pretty girls can't do math, but they suddenly can when they need to count the amount of cals they ate today. i'm that pretty girl

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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Garlic*

i’m deadass just eating everything bagel seasoning

this is rock bottom

#ftm ed

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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#meirl #funny #memes #memedaddy #anamia #ftm ed #male thinspi #trans ana #malespiration #skinnnny

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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I’m at McDonald’s with my friend, and I’m fucking starving. I want to eat, but the only thing that makes me not eating is literally money. If I don’t buy myself food today I will buy myself a manga tomorrow.

Besides we were drinking beverages at Starbucks today ;p

#anamia #ftm ed #male thinspi #trans ana #malespiration #skinnnny #ana male #pro recovery #male ed #male thinpo

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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no offence to the people on this site but what the fuck is wrong with everybody

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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My mother asked me if i wanted a kitchen scale, and i said i do. Next day she asked if i wanted a scale, and i said no, but my ed made me say Yes anyways.

#anamia #ftm ed #male thinspi #trans ana #malespiration #skinnnny #ana male #pro recovery #male ed #male thinpo

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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Shout out to people that will never be able to speak “flawlessly” in another language because they are mute, semi verbal, or have a speech impediment, shout out to people that will always need captions/subtitles when watching stuff in their target language because they have hearing loss, APD, etc.

Shout out to people who can't stick to strict routines to study because they have chronic fatigue, chronic pain, ADHD, or alike, shout out to people whose spelling will never be perfect because they are dyslexic, to people who will always struggle to write in other alphabets because they have motrix issues.

Shout out to people whose brains won’t collaborate when they want it to, hindering their study. To people who will always have to neglect one aspect of language because of their disability, to people that have to work with inaccessible resources and are told to just “put up” with it and to just get through

Shout out to people that are disabled and neurodivergent and have to deal daily with the expectations and impossible goals people put on us that deems us “not good enough” in our own language, and much less in any target language we might have

#i offer this little thing while i actually put any though on writing that post i want to make abt being dyslexic and hoh and multilingual #and how i feel in the "language community because of it #but it can serve as a way for people to step in and talk about it i guess?#is not much #i just wanted to get it off my chest not gonna lie #actually disabled #disabled #disability #actuallyhoh #actually deaf #actuallymentallyill #thank you

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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Omg i’m losing weight again. I’m gonna be thin someday guyzzzzz

#anamia #ftm ed #male thinspi #malesp0 #trans ana #ana boy #ftm ana #male ana #malespiration #skinnnny

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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I wish mental illness was how it is in the movies; crying in your bathtub at 2 am and doing all of these wild things, and someone coming along to save you. But in reality you just lock yourself in your room all day and stare at the ceiling; and the world keeps moving around you but you just stand still.

#personal #anamia #ftm ed #male thinspi #malesp0 #trans ana #ana boy #ftm ana #male ana #malespiration

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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Anyone else feel like they’re just procrastinating their suicide

#skx.rb #bpd #actually bpd #actually borderline #borderline personality disorder #bpd things #anamia #ftm ed #male thinspi #malesp0

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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In case anyone is having a bad night:

Here is the fudgiest brownie in a mug recipe I’ve found

Here are some fun sites

Here is a master post of Adventure Time episodes and comics

Here is a master post of movies including Disney and Studio Ghibli

Here is a master post of other master posts to TV shows and movies

*tucks you in with fuzzy blanket* *pats your head*

You’ll be okay, friend <3

#anamia #ftm ed #male thinspi #malesp0 #trans ana #ana boy #ftm ana #male ana #malespiration #skinnnny

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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to “newbies” in the ana community:

this is gonna be a long one but if the title applies to you, i IMPLORE you to read the whole thing. if it doesn’t, please reblog. you might save someone from this fucking nightmare.

i found a diary entry on the day that i decided to go on tumblr and search up “thinspo”. i was feeling awful about my body for some time but never really thought about calories or eating less or anything.

i wrote (verbatim): “i don’t want to have an eating disorder or anything, i just want to lose 10lbs”

not even a month later, it was like nothing could stop me from reaching my goal. i kept telling myself i wasn’t in too deep. i ate 500 cals a day and no more. i exercised 300 cals away.

now, the only thing i want is that blissful ignorance. not even thinking twice about my body. not caring what i ate. understanding the boundaries of healthy eating. not feeling faint and dizzy when standing up.

I WISH THAT I HAD SEEN A POST TELLING ME THAT IF YOURE LOOKING AT THINSPO “just to motivate you,” THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF A PROBLEM AND THE START OF A CYCLE YOU WILL REGRET EVER BEGINNING AS SOON AS YOU REALIZE YOU HAVE NO CONTROL OVER YOUR ADDICTION TO STARVING. at this time in my life i would listen to NOBODY and NO POST could stop me from slowly crawling into the arms of my developing eating disorder. BUT IM BEGGING YOU, IF YOU ARE BEGINNING THIS STRUGGLE, GET OUT WHILE YOU STILL HAVE CONTROL. you see all these posts telling you that over 1,000 calories is disgusting and so on, DO NOT LISTEN. PLEASE! you have no idea how quickly this shit can get in your head. no matter what your intentions for going on the ana tags are, LEAVE THEM NOW IF YOU STILL CAN. LEAVE AND DONT LOOK BACK. OR ELSE YOU WILL END UP DISORDER RIDDEN AND HATING YOURSELF LIKE ME, because once you’ve been here long enough, it doesn’t matter if you hit your UGW or you’re still at your sw; you will always always always see yourself as fat. that is a promise. and it’s disgusting.

this is a dirty, horrible disease that teaches you to hate yourself. it perpetuates symptoms of anxiety and depression and causes thoughts and feelings that you never believed possible in yourself. it destroys your identity, your relationships, you family life, your grades, your ambitions, and your health. if you have a choice not to fall into it, DONT FUCKING DO IT. don’t fucking do it for the love of god.

#anamia #pro recovery #recovery #anotexic #ftm ed #male thinspi #malesp0 #trans ana #ana boy #ftm ana

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i-am-too-much-5 · 2 years

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