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[ka1f]

[To : Yeosang: ] Your hands tangled in my hair after hours running through them , a lazy afternoon on the couch , messy hair and the bed too warm under us . The sun is shining but our legs are glued to the softness of the mattress under us .

#KANG YEOSANGGGGGG #him and his blond mullet ergh #ateez #writing #aesthetic #words #havent made one of these in a while oof #i missed you all !!

[ka1f]

A journalist drinking coffee , in a plain blue shirt and navy jeans . She works on a new article as fresh air circulates . There’s lush greenery outside and she wears a gold ring . She’s writing an article on the environment.

#random #literally me right now but im not a journalist and im making memes

[ka1f]

Me : wants to learn psychology

Me : wants to become a youtuber

Me : wants to learn philosophy

Me : wants to become an author

Me : wants to top the academics

Me : wants to learn literature and history

Me : wants to be aesthetic

Me : wants to know dark academia

Me : wants to become famous

AlsO mE : *procrastinates and listen to sad songs*

[ka1f]

To make a difference in someone's life, you don't have to be brilliant, rich, beautiful or perfect. You just have to care.

— Mandy Hale

[ka1f]

we play wrestle on the couch, and i let you pin me. you hold my arms above my head and lower yourself for a kiss, but i turn away. laughing, you call me a sore loser, and kiss my jaw. your laugh is bright yellow and carbonated, tiny bubbles bursting in the air.

#soobin #im going through a phase #txt #have yall seen the mv #soobin and hongjoong #OMG YES

[ka1f]

[ka1f]

Because with the right person, sometimes kissing feels like healing.

Lisa McMann (via bnmxfld)

[ka1f]

Yeah but what about owning a bookstore at the corner of a street and having customers walk in and once in a while ask you “wasn’t there a cat here last time ?” . Humming and nodding towards a bookshelf in the back and watching them pull the third book to the left . Leading a secret organisation and being a witch . Magic and books and whispers of the legends we are .

#witch #booktore

[ka1f]

[for : yunho] I’m talking pulling me into your lap when no one’s looking and kisses behind podiums . i mean swearing at life and winking from across the room . i mean hiding texts and calls and sneaking in by climbing over the balcony .im talking smiles before our lips meet and secret romances

#yunho #ateez #aesthetic #words #romance

[ka1f]

They taught you that you had to file yourself down to be acceptable; that you had to calm down or want less or smile more or feel less or speak less - that your passions were ugly and that your desires were selfish. You couldn't admit to the bad nights, that was burdensome. You couldn't ask for better, you couldn't cry that loudly. When you said "Look what I made", the answer was ".... Oh." You became a sectioned person - good and not-good. The prayer in public and that private, terrible sin.

And then they looked at you and said - why don't you trust anyone enough to let them in?

[ka1f]

characters for a book i’ve yet to write

Narabelle Zayne- Wonderland Remix (Ateez)

a long ponytail swaying as you walk , confidence in every step , power and addiction , snarky comments , moonlight and street racing , lowering your sunglasses when you check someone out , tilting your head , leather jackets  . laughter and cackling before holding a hand to your lips in embarrassment . swears for her friends . the ‘bad’ friend . actual cutie i swear. nAnA. Indian.

Hawa Ali --I Love You 3000 (stephanie poetri)

her version of swearing is basically the muslim mom reaction to your kids shit dictionary , muslim and proud , hijabi , the kind of girl who’ll drag you out of a fight by the scruff of your neck . stressed smiles . friendship and light pinks . throwing the edge of your shawl over your shoulder before you get to work . boomer and very open about her bOomerness . “wHat iS this tiK tOk yOu sPeak oF” malay.

Katya Merlin --Boom  (Nct 127)

. polaroids everywhere . here to be your emotional support girl . gay as fuck. pretends to be straight just to annoy assholes then steals their girlfriends. 

“males suck and that’s on period”

 “do you mean it like blowjobs or like-”

 “fuck off , nana”

 korean-english. watch her keyboard smash in real life . big stupid but like good stupid . nice girl . respectful babe . wouldn’t break your heart . puppies and summer .

Martin Ruth --Freaks (Jordan Clarke)

the only sane one . nerdy boyfriend vibes . mario kart in his basement . doesn’t mind having these guys as his best friends . plays soccer too . nickname is shopping mart . father friend except to Katya . No , he dares Katya to dive into lakes at 3am because he knows she’ll do it . doesn’t mind these idiots . Latino . Bisexual .

Bryan Khai --Icy (ITZY)

second gayest bitch on the block . open flirt . deep conversations at midnight and then he’ll go “fuck i just finished 2 cheese pizzas ew my skin . oh well” confident and will hype you up . yes , the stereotypical gay kid . wears rainbows because “im obliged to , Kitkat (katya)”  Arabic . His family don’t know yet . 

#ocs #writing #characters #i dont know yet #wips #meet my characters #i am in love with them #they probably named their friend group ergh #need these guys in my life #them and ateez #yes omg

[ka1f]

yeah dating apps sound fun but what about painting strangers in paris when one of them sits down in the perfect position for me to paint them because they think i’m cute and will also get a good look of my face ?

#romance #paris #perhaps song mingi #painting

[ka1f]

No babe , I’m not asking for hard kisses and teeth clashing . I’m  asking for you to hold my hand under the table and kiss me softly . To wipe my tears and tuck me in . I’m not looking for drunk nights under neon signs and gucci . I’m asking for fond looks and comforting words that we mean . I’m not saying we can’t do all that . I’m just saying I want you comfortable with me.  

#you wanna guess who #song #mingi #song mingi #ateez mingi #soft #romAntiC #idk anymore #i just want a man #dont need one #want one

[ka1f]

work until you no longer have to introduce yourself --i have no clue but damn this quote made me feel something

#quotes

[ka1f]

I wanna fall in love with my pen pal and drink tea from my saucer . i want to give off a different energy and make people’s heads turn . I want to wear short red dresses and long midnight gowns . I want to shave half my head and donate money to charity . I want to be so calm even though I am chaos . I want to be me and me only.

#penpals #love #chaos #words #poetry idk

[ka1f]

me at night trying to sleep: concocts an elaborate novel length story complete with romantic subplots, mysteries, and numerous different arcs.

me during the day trying to write: no thoughts, head empty.

#yes #big yes #BIGGEST YES #also is the klaus the klaus from ASOUE or umbrella acad ? #tbh id die for both

[ka1f]

What do I mean ? I mean reading books meant for a ‘higher level’ and skipping back from the library with a wide range of books from plays and botany to neurosurgery . I mean reciting poetry and correcting people who misquote . I mean reading ahead of your class and getting bored . I mean scribbled notes and theories about death . I mean philosophical debates and pointing out a teacher’s mistake . I mean snarky comments and reading beneath trees . I mean high sarcasm and old references . I mean pointing out constellations to the person who has taken an interest in you and blushing when you turn and see them staring at you with every star in their eyes. I mean museum and dates and smacking your crush’s head when they flirt and tease , just to hide your blush . I mean it and i mean it all.

#dark academia #i think #poems #maybe #Song mingi ofc #its him #hes the boy #mingi #ateez