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[strawberriesandvapes]

im laughing about it , but it actually hurts . so fucking much . i just want everything to be over .

#actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #tw self destruction #self sabotage #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #borderline personality disorder #actually bpd #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing stuff

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I wonder how the young version of myself sees me, how does she feel when she sees what I've let these men do to me ?

#sa tw #self sabotage #vent post #vent #what is wrong with me #what have i done #what have i become #actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #inner child #sorry for being depressing

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Every little part of me is saying that I deserve to bleed .

#self h@rm #tw self destruction #self mutalition #i deserve this #actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #vent post #vent #vent tw #hitting styro

[strawberriesandvapes]

"how can i fix and break someone at the same time?" i asked him , before realising that's exactly what he had done to me .

#depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw self destruction #self sabatoge #actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #what the fuck #what is wrong with me #tw depressing stuff #sorry for being depressing #bpd #bpd vent #bpd shit #tw grooming #sa tw

[strawberriesandvapes]

sorry i didn't respond darling , i had convinced myself you're a horrible person <3

#bpd thoughts #bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd #i hate myself #mentally fucked #actually mentally ill #i need therapy #self sabatoge

[strawberriesandvapes]

the pride of getting to say you're the smallest size possible is so much more satisfying than any meal could ever be .

#ana rant #tw ana trigger #ana buddie #tw ed but not sheeran #4norexla #3d f4st #@na vent #tw ana rant #tw 3d vent #ana meal #ed dairy #tw ed diet #th1nspi #disordered eating thoughts #thinspø #i need to be weightless

[strawberriesandvapes]

im going to die , and im going to die pretty .

#ana rant #tw ana trigger #tw ed but not sheeran #3d f4st #4norexla #tw ana rant #@na vent #tw 3d vent #ed dairy #light as a feather #i need to lose this weight #i wanna lose weight #🌟ving #🕯️as a feather #analog #disordered eating thoughts #thinspø

[strawberriesandvapes]

when he says you're his pretty girl , but you know you'd be prettier if you were thinner .

#tw ana trigger #ana buddie #tw ed but not sheeran #4norexla #3d f4st #girlblogging #@na vent #tw ana rant #tw 3d vent #ed dairy #th1nspi #i need to be weightless #i wanna lose weight #ana rant #ana trigger

[strawberriesandvapes]

im not hungry , i just need a distraction .

#tw ana trigger #ana buddie #tw ed but not sheeran #tw ana diary #fatsp0 #pro for me not for thee #pro a4a #4norexla #@na vent #tw ana rant #tw 3d vent #ed dairy

[strawberriesandvapes]

It'll be worth it . Every dizzy spell is worth it . Every hunger cramp is worth it . If you want it , you have to be willing to work for it , and stop at nothing until you get it .

#meanspir0 #tw ana trigger #ana buddie #ana trigger #tw ed but not sheeran #tw restrictive ed #4norexla #ana bllog #ana rant #3d f4st #@na vent #pro for me not for thee #prose #pro a4a #th1n$pø #th1nspi

[strawberriesandvapes]

*someone displays discontentment towards me*

my brain : time to throw up and starve !!

#ana rant #tw ana trigger #ana buddie #ana trigger #tw ed but not sheeran #tw restrictive ed #4norexla #ana bllog #3d f4st #@na vent #tw ana diary #anatumblr #tw ana rant

[strawberriesandvapes]

im in love again ,, watch me spiral and fall apart and starve for days on end to try and feel the sense of control i just lost .

#tw ana trigger #ana buddie #ana trigger #tw ed but not sheeran #tw restrictive ed #4norexla #ana bllog #ana rant #3d f4st #@na vent #anatumblr #tw ana diary #tw ana rant

[strawberriesandvapes]

th1nsp0 tags on Pinterest :

♡ th1ns

♡ coquette wl

♡ b0ne $p0ne

♡ th1nnyy

♡ sk1nnyjeans

#tw ana trigger #ana buddie #ana trigger #tw ed but not sheeran #tw restrictive ed #4norexla #ana bllog #ana rant #3d f4st #@na vent #@na trigger #@n@ buddy #@n@ tips #@nor3×14 #@na tips #@n0r3xia #th1n$pø #th1nspi #th1gh g@p #th1nspø #th1nnsp0 #th1nsp1ration

[strawberriesandvapes]

another failed suicide ,, more friends worried , more blood loss , more feelings like shit . what have i done , why can't i control anything ?

#mental health #actually mentally ill #suic1de #vent #what is wrong with me #self mutalition #self h@rm #hitting styro #hitting beans #asylum

[strawberriesandvapes]

being sick and having to eat <<<<<<

#ana rant #tw ana trigger #ana buddie #ana trigger #tw ed but not sheeran #tw restrictive ed #3d f4st #4norexla #@na vent #ana bllog #anatumblr #tw ana diary #tw ana rant

[strawberriesandvapes]

one more ,, how long until th1nsp0 ಥ⁠╭⁠╮⁠ಥ

#tw ana trigger #ana trigger #ana buddie #tw ed but not sheeran #tw restrictive ed #4norexla #3d f4st #@na vent #ana bllog #b0dy check #b0dych3x #body chex #th1n$pø #th1nspi #am i thinspo yet

[strawberriesandvapes]

body chex !! can't do too revealing stuff , since yk , im a minor (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

#tw ana trigger #ana buddie #ana trigger #tw ed but not sheeran #tw restrictive ed #4norexla #ana bllog #b0dy ch3ck #b0dy check #b0dych3x #body ch3ck #body chex