#“we're all the worst person.”

[barfcity]

Is it called Barf City because Puke City is already the name of a comic. Be honest /silly

NO?? I DIDNT KNOW PUKE CITY WAS A COMIC?!?? HELP????? serious answer though - no! it was based off the term "barf city" ("someone or something disgusting or undesirable") - and also named after a song i really like.

#barf city mail #ive never actually heard of puke city #i might check it out?? its funny they both have such similar names #so i might as well!! #OH RIGHT #this is also where the “slogan” comes from #“we're all the worst person.” #I FEEL SO EMBARRASSED #AUGH. #I AM SO SORRY FOR THE OWNER OF PUKE CITY #I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS A THIIING

[lucyflawless]

The UK is a scary fucking place to be at the moment. It's about 6 months since I was hate-crimed on the streets, and I haven't walked down that particular street since. I try to leave the house at a minimum, unless I can use my car or walk my dogs places I know few people go. I have been trying to get out more recently, but the fear that it will happen again is still there, and I mean, bigots feel extremely emboldened right now.

GCs are scared that someone in a medical setting might call them "chestfeeders", and I'm scared to leave my house because the ramp up in hatred towards trans and GNC people over the last few years is now completely out of control.

We now have dodgy "science" being used as a weapon to bludgeon us with. This isn't the first time "science" has been used to justify bigotry and hatred. A report made by a woman known to fraternise with far-right bigoted individuals and groups. Ah, but no bias there!

They won't win. They can't win. I am afraid. I'm afraid for myself, my friends, for every other queer person in this country. But I will not shut up and crawl back into a closet. I will fight for trans people forever.

#had to get this off my chest #reading all the things i have read today has left me feeling dejected at best and sickened horrified and terrified at worst #but we're not going anywhere #and i'll fight for the rest of my fucking life #transphobia #not rebloggable for obvious reasons #i dont want any freaks able to find and interact with this #personal

[imminent-danger-came]

Between

2x08 S: "As long as I'm doing something to help out a friend, I don't mind what it is! I just want to be there for 'em when they need me. Because at the end of the day, helping my friends is more important than anything in the world!"

3x03 Mei: "So wait, how did you get your gold vision back again?" MK: "I don't know! The same way I got them in the first place I guess. Every time I learned a new ability, it was because there was something I NEEDED to do, when there was no other way. Against the gold fish guy I NEEDED to do something to save my friends!" P: "Yeah, friends that YOU put in danger on purpose!"

3x10 MK: "NO! Mei is my best friend, I’d never abandon her when she needs me. We’re heroes! It’s what we do!",

3x14 MK: "A perfect world is what you make it. So as long as I have my friends by my side...this world! Is! Perfect!”

4x01 MK: "Honestly? I’m kinda liking the world as it is, right now. So...if it could just stay like this, forever? That would be awesome." SWK: "Yeah well...forever’s a long time bud...trust me."

4x02 AL: "It’s too late to save them! We can’t risk unleashing the curse into the world." MK: “You don’t know! We’d risk it for sure! I won’t abandon them when they need us."

4x07 IMK: "You can see it, can't you? This is your fate. Your friends will turn on you, seeing you for the monster you will become. They will destroy you, harbinger of chaos."

4x11 MK: "We have to try, he'd do the same—for any of us." and

4x14 YT: "I know full well what would happen should Azure fail. But- but he is my brother. I owe him my life." S: "We get it! I'd do anything to help my friends. But at the cost of the world?" P: "I'm sorry pal, but NOTHING worth that price!"

I'm like, really worried scoob.

#''Oh haha tdp may get into the life of one person VS the life of the world and CHET may definitely happen but at least I'm safe in LMK-'' #''-what do you mean one friend isn't worth the cost of the world. WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE WON'T ABANDON THEM WHEN THEY NEED HIM.'' #MK IS LITERALLY GOING TO TRADE THE WORLD FOR HIS FRIEND'S LIVES. FUCK ME. I CAN'T ESCAPE ANYTHING #Actually no. NO NO WAIT IT COULD BE WORSE. #It might legitimately come down to destroying MK or destroying the world. Or a choice that seems like those are the only two outcomes #''They will destroy you harbinger of chaos'' OH MAN. WE'RE SO FUCKED. #Nothing is off the table anymore. Azure died painfully on screen. s4 was the worst thing ever. IT'S OVER #Good thing s4 was all about false dichotomies right hahahahahaha #This comes down to: would pigsy sandy and tang really not pay that price for someone they care about. #This isn't about Mei I know SHE would. She'd do literally anything for her friends. BUT THE OTHER THREE. #SANDY CONTRADICTS HIMSELF IN 2x08 AND 4x14. I'M SCARED SCOOB #WHY MUST EXCHANGE AS A THEME BE IN EVERYTHING I LOVE #sorry if this is hard to read/incomprehensible lol #I am just like. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #lmk #lmk rant #lmk parallels #lego monkie kid #monkie kid

[brittlebutch]

Actually, it's interesting to think about the sheer amount of footage that Jay never shows us. I'm rewatching Season One again, and Entry #3 caught my eye because Jay says he cut together about 2.5 Minutes worth of clips that he pulled from around 12 different tapes.

Depending on what kind of tape Alex's camera used, a single tape could hold anywhere from 1 to like 5 hours worth of footage -- at Minimum Jay watched 12 hours worth of footage just to make that video where he showed us like 0.002% of it.

I wouldn't go so far as to suggest that Jay was deliberate about framing Alex in any particular light when he started the channel, but it is interesting to think about the footage he decided wasn't interesting or worth sharing, and what kind of story a different cut would have told

#N posts stuff #like. when you do think about it though - intentional or not - jay Was only interested in showing Alex 'at his worst' #only the most dramatic of clips are taken; only the ones where Alex's frustration is Most tangible; only the ones Jay thinks matter #bc Jay is investigating a Strange Happening the more mundane or like 'softer' aspects of Alex's life or personality don't matter #the casual conversations Alex had with other people aren't important - only the ones where things are Weird and Off #or when Alex is sounding Suspicious to Jay do; idk it's interesting to think about. and even if you disregard all of that you Do still #have to wonder what Jay might have Missed - bc watching over 12 hours worth of footage of a guy largely just going about his day #has got to be kind of grueling and we're assuming that Jay still like. idk has a day job and shit so presumably he's cutting back on #sleep and hobbies Just so that he can comb through these tapes -- so disregard the lens of Jay's potentially biased interest and you #still have to wonder what might have slipped Jay's exhausted and overworked attention span . something to think about #mh lb #marble hornets

[hamartia-grander]

My professor took off a point from one of my scripts because I labelled a character as Nonbinary, and he claims I should've left the gender description blank because "it's not necessary for this character", as if "nonbinary" is a placeholder for "I don't care what gender" I am actually going to tear him to shreds

#This is hands down the worst professor I've ever had in my life this is the guy I've ranted about before who is so fucking pretentious #And treats us like we're all inherently going to fail at scriptwriting/film in general as if he's the all knowing being on that #Like oh I'm sorry how many scripts of yours have been produced? Oh what's that? NONE? Interesting #And he's old so he's also one of those “I know absolutely everything and you all know nothing and there's nothing more I have to learn” #Can't wait to be rid of him dear lord #Dreading my workshop with him so bad thank God this is an online class bc if I had to see him every week in person I'd kill him #Film #Film shit

[jewishfalin]

There is a very specific sort of antisemitism that is seemingly common in mental health facilities and its fucking terrifying

#the last 2 times ive been in a mental hospital it was always the most visibly jewish person who got targeted by nurses #and i happened to be the most visibly jewish person in a psychward the last time #its like. the 1st time there were more jewish people in there and the one of us who got it the worst was an older woman with bipolar disord #and like. many of us who noticed how terrible she was getting treated had to tell staff off multiple times #like wtf stop u r literally just poking her with a stick at this point trying to get her to have a meltdown so u have an excuse #to lock her away #it was so fucked #and the rest of us jews in there were like... slightly more stable enough to ignore the taunting from staff #like they'd find the smallest shit to get on our asses about or tell us we're being delusional abt things out of nowhere #like they tried to get a rise out of us specifically so they could frame us as crazy and neurotic when we get frustrated #and the last time i had the mosfortune of being the 1 of 2 jews who was visible and very unstable #i was made sick by nurses on purpose and then gaslit when i was up all night vomiting #i had to be given an injection and sedated the next day just so i would stop projectile vomiting all over my room #i had multiple seizures and they told.me i was throwing myself on the floor #they did things to make me break on purpose #and they did it to others to but #it was different w how they did it to me? #and when they didn't let me go to the main eating area bc i kept fainting/seizing they ordered me shit with pork when i have kosher diet #it was fucked and i know this is a problem #its a problem in outpatient too #i ended up homeless for like a year bc an antisemitic counselor fucked me over #vent

[icarusbetide]

this bastard (affectionate) asked me which founding father i liked best, and then proceeded to raise his eyebrow, look me dead in the eye and say "that's such a basic answer. hamilton is everyone's fav." sat there stunned. why am i being judged for my fav founding father again? the fact that you paint yourself as superior to me for liking a more obscure founding father? that's the worst PR i have ever seen. nerdiest of nerd behavior.

and what's worse is that i almost defended myself with "i grew to like him independent of the musical actually" 💀. saved my dignity at the last moment.

#humiliating for both of us #two nerds yapping at each other about how “mainstream” alexander hamilton is #i can't help it #i know it's a basic answer but come on! #the man has such a compelling life and personality in the best and worst ways possible #i'm sorry but thomas jefferson you are my enemy #once again #all these men are problematic but there's something about jefferson that makes my eye twitch #if there are any jefferson enthusiasts reading this i'm in no way judging! #we're all in the same boat here #but i can't help it all the same #historical hamilton #amrev

[karmaphone]

I can see some of y'all are deep in the colonial romance fantasies re silna 😒😒😒

#terrorposting #the thing about goodsir/silna is that it's good because it didn't happen #she doesn't love him like that. he's the man who (symbolically) killed her father he's her jailer he's the information leech worming #it's way into her vocabulary #he loves her like that of course. how could he not with the tales of native romances he's been spoon-fed. and she knows that he doesn't see #her as a Whole Unique Person. she's the arctic to him. she's the unyielding ice and wind that cuts at your skin and the beast haunting them #they're not made for each other it's not 'anything could've happened' - it's good because it didn't #there was clearly a draw and a connection there - but this show is EXCELLENT at illustrating how fuzzy the borderline between chemistry and #what people are truly capable of at their worst #can be #it's 'for all the love that could have been if we were both different. if the world was different. if we weren't here (but if we weren't #here we never could be)' #it's you are clearly bad for me but I cannot tear myself away #it's you bring me comfort but I wish you weren't here (I wish we both weren't here) #it's we're going through this awful thing together. despite it all despite what either of us wants we're in this together #it's not some fuckign. uwu THIS white man will treat her good. how can you say that after a single second of considering the sexualization #of native women #they're fascinating because of the situation not because it's some 'better' romance #some of y'all suck the nuance right outta things like a juice box I swear to GOD

[goosefeathered]

1813-1883, Charles Bukowski, You get so alone at times that it just makes sense

#some men never live #charles bukowski #quote #the worst person you know has just started reading bukowski #anyway #poetry #words #spilled ink #but we're all alive tonight #hope #core core #1813-1883 #the title is 1813-1883 i formatted it confusing idkw hy #you get so alone at times that it just makes sense

[hella1975]

going crazy about an oc again. like it's my fault

#this is normal behaviour but i get SO pissed off when it's an oc i make for a fic #bc i only ever make fic ocs when their sole purpose is to symbolise something and/or move the plot #like believe it or not i really do try not to have ocs unless it's specifically for the greater good of the fic #so it's like. you are an object to me. you are a tool. WHY have you got your own playlist #cassie you are so. like she's demented she's haunted by a past that broke her she has tried to return three different times regardless #she's whimsical she's erratic she wants to love the world when she has only ever seen the worst sides of it #she found one person who respected her (didn't even treat her kindly. he just viewed her as an autonomous person. that was enough) #and she latched on and didnt let go and now we're here. she followed him to war. she never wanted to fight #she probably wont make it. what the fuck ever #dog teeth #there's another oc in dog teeth that drives me crazy too but his part is much more minimal #i REALLY went hard with dog teeth ocs like they are all so compelling and painful come ON #cass and sasaki u were real to me. im sorry

[trimmedarmor]

doing the equivalent of gripping something intensely hard then forcing myself to let it go every time i see something about the stupid fandom drama i got pulled into earlier this year

#nothing bad ppl just... bringing up its existence...AGAIN...... #every time i see it i wanna go on a rant for a billion years but the worst place to do that would be on tumblr #I rly don't wanna see anyone talking abt it unless it's to criticize the ppl who started the false accusations or to apologize to us #for the harassment #Buster: You Really Think Someone Would Do That? Just Go On the Internet and Tell Lies? #anyway I cant believe ive had the misfortune of interacting w some1 who has to b vindictive toward others to quell their own insecurity #to accuse us of racism because he wasn't allowed to be in a personal friends discord group... #and then saying that we didn't wanna let him in bc he wasn't a 'popular' account? 1. he has way more followers than some ppl in the server #hence why he was able to get so many ppl to attack us #2. he can't keep his own story straight. First we're racist then we're ableist then we gatekeep popularity? #Dude... we don't like you because you're vindictive and take minor slights way too personally...hence...everything that fucking happened #anyway idk who reported him but i thank them for it and i hope that was worth their account getting suspended for getting paid to harass us #to anyone outside of all this reading this mess... please question the validity of ppls accounts if they don't offer concrete proof #and the only proof is based on assuming that certain actions COULD POSSIBLY line up to the accusations #this includes if multiple people have the same accusation without proof because that's EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED #except it was dumber because several of their accusations literally contradicted themselves #wowww people apologized and informed their audience about possible microagressions once they were informed. they MUST be racist! #and if you don't want to dig into it that deep..then by all means mind your own damn business before you join in on someone else's witchhun

[touchlikethesun]

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#right i forgot the worst part about being at my parents house #the malnutrition #of what i can eat in the fridge we have a variety of sauces and jams and in the pantry there is flour and salt #and my mother just informed me that we're not going grocery shopping for at least a week maybe two in order to 'use up what we have' #that is NOT the reason i can guarantee it #she's doing this because she thinks it'll help her lose weight #you'd think after 35 years of yoyo dieting she'd figure out that starving and under nourishing yourself actually is bad for your health #it's not like i'm great at taking care of myself either but at least i get my food groups #i'm just so frustrated because i can't afford to leave #but being here is so disasterous not just for my mental health but my physical health as well #and also i've actually put ON weight being here because since we have like no real food in the house all i have to eat really are pancakes #which are calorically dense but nutritionally void and because i'm not getting any nutrients i'm always hungry #i think i'll just go to the shops later tonight or tomorrow and get food just for myself #if she wants to 'use up what we have' she can but i'm not doing that i'm just not #but also that's also annoying cause i have no current income and also i'm not allowed to drive so i'll have to get my bro to take me #which is a whole thing in of itself and i just grrrr #personal #vent

[ftmtftm]

Hey I like your posts. I hope people aren’t uncomfortably parasocial in your ask box anymore. Have a good one

Thank you - I appreciate the sentiment.

Honestly? I'm probably just gonna publish the ask I've been working on answering tomorrow and then take a break for a few days. That ask is triggering something in me and I need to take time sort out that feeling.

#frankly - i don't want to talk to whoever that anon was because i'm deeply soured on them #but in the future? my dms are open #you can just talk to me directly if you don't understand the context of something i've said #you can just ask #like. i'm guarded because - well - this is the internet #and also i'm. deeply autistic. and i'm very open about that. #and sometimes? i do fail to communicate ideas in the ways i intend #and if that happens you can just ask - i am still a person behind the persona i attempt to uphold on this blog #i curate an idea of myself out of necessity #and i think most people on here do that too #but yeah. we're all people underneath that. #but also i'm not going to extend that kind of vulnerability publicly to strangers online #especially not ones who are assuming the worst in me #asks #anon

[fushiglow]

Hi! I would just like to say that I love your writing and the stories that you've chosen to tell (specifically over the threshold but that SW AU too, even just from that lil snippet) the way you write is so immersive to me? I don't know how you do it and I admire you immensely for it. Everything is crafted so brilliantly, the setting, the characterization, the dialogue. There's no stutter or awkwardness in the way everything flows that takes you out of the moment.

I just really wanted to tell you that, and I look forward to reading anything you write in the future!

Hopefully that didn't come off too awkwardly, I'm very out of practice trying to make new friends. If you're interested in chatting more or even if you just need a beta reader, feel free to drop me a line! 😁

Don't think I haven't noticed that you're always there cheering me on, I'm incredibly grateful! Honestly, it's been on my mental to-do list to reach out to you, but things have been a little wild online and offline recently so I never got round to it — I'm sorry ♥️

Thank you so much for your lovely compliments, I'm blushing! I also really appreciate you dropping into my inbox to say hello, I've followed you back and I'd love to chat more — your ask got me thinking about this though!

In truth, although I feel like SUCH a dick saying this, it's been getting harder and harder to stay on top of online interactions. It used to be a little easier to build two-way relationships on here, but as my notifications get busier, I worry that I don't show enough gratitude to the people who consistently have my back. It's actually a fairly big source of anxiety for me, so I try not to let myself spiral into unhelpful thinking about it most of the time because otherwise I become paralysed by it!

For that reason, people are ALWAYS welcome to strike up a conversation with me! This is an open invitation to anyone reading to slide into my DMs or my ask box any time they want to say hello, there's absolutely no need to feel shy! I am an autistic disaster in any and all social situations, so I'm definitely not going to judge because I know how intimidating this stuff can get.

Sorry for using your ask to go off about all of that, but it seemed like a good opportunity to address it! ♥️

#we're all just floating around seeking connection with people at the end of the day #i'm so glad i decided to be brave and start interacting with people last summer because i've made real friends through this fandom #me!! a person who has struggled with friendships their entire adult life!!! and through a goddamn animanga!!!! #so yeah #don't be afraid to reach out to people online #the worst they can do is ignore you #but it's usually just because they're busy #people are generally kind and they'll probably surprise you #♥️ #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #ask fushiglow

[chamerionwrites]

Unrelated but I'm tired of hearing about Rogue One's apparently tortured/chaotic/piecemeal development process. It's certainly not a perfect movie, I could (and would if someone sent me an intriguing enough ask) write the essay on what I personally think its strengths and weaknesses are, but 9.9 times out of 10 I'm just hearing people gesture vaguely at this as evidence that it's bad while failing to say anything about the film itself. Sure it has its flaws, but as a viewer I give precisely zero fucks about how chaotic the production was or wasn't. I'm judging based on the quality of what was ultimately put onscreen!

#rogue one #star wars #also what am I supposed to consider a better sw movie? #tfa is wildly derivative tros might be THE worst movie i've seen #the PT is full of interesting ideas but a mess in execution (i would slot tlj in here as well imo the pacing is really rough) #rotj has some great scenes VERY shakily stitched together #even anh has some CLUNKY george lucas dialogue #what's the standard by which we're judging here you know #i'm not putting all those movies down but so often people basically say ''rogue one is bad because it's imperfect'' #while praising other star wars movies with imperfections that just personally bother them less #my posts

[slippery-minghus]

hmm. had an actual conversation with nightmare coworker today that seemed mutually productive. she apologized for saying some bullshit that hurt my feelings and i clarified that my intentions are to help not to undermine her, and we both agreed that there's no competition against each other and that it's the lack of growth in our role that's the problem. it was...productive.

and further cementing for me that it is time to begin making my Exit. i will be sending out my resume to a few places this weekend.

i'm still processing the conversation, and am struggling to place myself in where i am responsible to better my behavior. because i genuinely don't want to be an ass, even though i really don't like this lady and will jump for joy the day i never have to see her again. she stated that she knows my intentions aren't to hurt her, and that she thinks i'm very kind. i apologized for if my behavior came off as undermining her, and said that my intentions are only to better my own growth—and that i know she's trying to succeed too. i validated her feelings, and complemented the effort she is putting in.

where i'm struggling with is: am i in the wrong/causing harm and needing to change if the issue is that her feelings are incongruent with what she knows of my intentions? her feelings are her responsibility (WOW i almost typed "her feelings are my responsibility". i feel like that's a freudian slip) and she states that she knows i don't mean to hurt her. i'm going to try to be more clear in wording my intentions with her (she feels like me trying to take work off her plate is to undermine her. when really, i'm caught up and see her getting overwhelmed, and i want to help and also have something to do since i'm bored).

but i'm really struggling to look at my role in this and pass judgement on myself. i can and want to do better, and i don't think i did anything wrong, but i'm always so hesitant to say it's not my fault or i didn't do something bad. like i can't trust my judgement on that. my intentions were good, her bad feelings are ones caused by her insecurities, which she more or less has expressed to be aware that they are not true—the hurtful thing she said to me, she acknowledged was said out of hurt and not what she actually thinks. so, is it fair to say i'm not the bad guy? i'm not in the wrong? i know good intentions that still result in harm don't absolve anyone, but when the things that are clashing are insufficient communication and reactive insecurities... i'm not a monster, am i?

#well. i AM probably a monster for how much i dislike this lady #but i don't ACT on it #and i genuinely couldn't care less about her. i participate in decent human pleasantries because i am a decent human. #and at work we're stuck together #the thing that's irked me so much about this conversation is just.. her self centeredness #that she thinks everyone is out to get her. to undermine her. whatever. #bitch nobody cares about you enough one way or the other to put in that kind of effort. i sure don't #i empathize but i do not sympathize. to feel that pit that makes you feel like the worst kind of center of attention #i get it. but genuinely you are not the main character and no one is going to spend their limited time and energy to slowly attack you #you are not the cat with all the knives pointed at it #it's a terrible feeling to feel like you are! but when it influences your behavior to the point that you are making snide comments #to people who have no option not to interact with you then uh. then you're in the wrong buddy #and the people around you (who cannot easily leave! bc work!) should not have to bend over backwards to assure you #that they're not pointing knives at you. to protect themselves from your feelings making you say mean shit #like yes. i can be more clear with my intentions. i'm generally not the greatest at that. but my baseline that i want to #modify my behavior from is NOT one that a regular well adjusted person would take as anything but kind #and if a regular well adjusted person got a little offput by me volunteering to take work off their hands we would've had a very chill #3 sentence conversation about it MONTHS AGO. #i understand and respect (even if i find it annoying and overbearing) the need for me to announce my intentions like im working in a kitchen #and saying 'hot water' or 'knife' as i move around other people but we shouldn't have reached this conclusion this way #and frankly who's to fucking say me being more clear with my intentions will only feed the flames of her thinking i'm out to get her! #'i caught up on my stuff and your plate looks full. i'm bored. anything i can do to help?' could be a pointed knife for all i know!! #and if it is- and my actions still hurt her in that scenario- am i still responsible for the hurt caused?? #like WHERE DOES IT FUCKING E N D ? #personal #*exhales* okay i feel better now #i just hate talking about my interactions with her bc i just want NOTHING to do with it. i want her out of my head!! #but until i process it i can't let go #and i'm still going to have to go over all of this with my shrink tomorrow #it just makes me mad how much of my time this bitch takes up. i'm not getting paid to think about work right now!!!!