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(picture abow is stupid octopus, black rat is cat)
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im crying myself drunk, my rat (stupid octopus) died today. i held him right before they took him in to put to sleep, i cried so much. ive cried for hours non stop. i will never let this go, i cant forgive myself for letting him die. he was ONE years old and his death is all my parents fault, they refused to take him to the doctor and i cant forgive them. i dont want to be harsh on my parents but knowing he died while being scared and unable to breath breaks me. especially now that i know it could have been prevented. i blame them and i blame myself for being so stupid. his brother is now all alone and im scared that he will get depressed, my parents promised me we will get some new ones so that he wont be alone and sad, he needs a friend. but after all this im not sure if they are telling the truth. his brother (cat) might be completely broken right now and knowing i cant do much about it breaks me, it makes me want to break my fingers. i struggled with eating before but after stupid octopuses death i cant eat at all. i ate a burger today and i want to puke it up, i dont deserve the peace to eat, especially when i know it might be my fault he is dead, cat is sad, i am sad and he is dead. my parents try to comfort me but i cant help but burst into even more tears everytime i see them. i dont belive in god but if he exist, i hate him. i blame him. stupid octopus dont deserve this, no god should let innocent animals die. some might say that its the way of life but i dont agree with that, no god should let something like this happen, i blame god more then i blame my parents. i blame randoms more then i blame god, i blame randoms because it gives me peace, i will never be happy and i will never let others be happy. atleast not after his death, he didnt deserve to die scared and unable to breath. i cried into his fur, i pet him and kissed him before they took him. i blame them too, i will put them down. i wont eat until i can sleep, i can never sleep until i have gotten an explanation for his death. if im a bad person, why punish him? he didnt deserve it, neither does cat. i will never rest before i know for sure that he is at peace. i will go on with him in my memory and do all that i can for cat, give cheese, give treats, give healthy food, give pets, give kisses, give much water, give toys, give freedom, give peace, give him revenge for what they did to his brother. they loved eachother, in a brother way and it breaks me knowing he cant love him anymore. i will love cat and i will live for stupid octopus, i will love cat for myself and for stupid octopus, i will give everything to cat, both because he deserves it and so stupid octopus knows that even tough he cant protect his younger brother anymore, cat is still protected. rest easy stupid octopus. i will live for you, i will take your brother to your favorite place to remember you in, i will do everything for him you wherent able to finish, me and cat will miss you forever♡
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