Today has been a continued bustle of productivity and positivity. I didn’t end up doing cardio, I am still pretty sore from my workout yesterday, but I still plan to go tomorrow. Food wise I probably get a solid B, not too bad, still steps forward but I could do better. It was a super busy day. I had class at 9:30 and was working on something or in a meeting till 6:30 pm. I kept up with my tasks, listened to my body, didn’t focus on the bad and really tried to not let obstacles weigh me down. Again I was in the midst of lazy mush by the time Mark stumbled out the door by 10:30 since he had bad sleep and was napping with me on the couch until he had to leave. But, knowing how well my day had started today due to my diligence last night I got up, tidied the house, painted my nails, and started this entry.
I have to say I am pretty proud of myself. Tuesdays are usually very busy for me and I almost never tackle everything I should, those things usually get pushed further and further into the week. But today I talked to three different professors about scholarships, my thesis, and looking over midterms to prepare for the final. I wrote out and formatted my final project for yoga. I worked a shift as a lab monitor after my astronomy class, game production class, and game design class. Between those I had a team meeting where I got a decent amount of work done on the design of our game while working on some concept art for it. I avoided going out to eat for dinner and saved some money even though I was super tired and wanted taco bell, stuck to my calorie goal, and was a tolerable human to others, perhaps even pleasant. The only things I didn’t do that were on my list were cardio, which my body said “no” to, and work on some posters, but the due date got moved back so I’ll work on them on a day I’m not so busy.
Productivity, Self care, and Introspection
At this rate I probably won’t be wopping out some killer before and after photos by 90 days, but honestly I think I’ll be making even more substantial progress in my mental state. My discipline, patience, and overall disposition has been shifting steadily for the better. I know I’ll probably hit more rough patches, but I’m trying to keep this ball rolling as long as possible. I want to maintain these good habits. I’ve been better at brushing my teeth, taking off my make up, and putting away my clothes when I change. I know they are small things, but I have two thoughts about these things:
-Either that neglecting these tasks can cause a snow ball affect of things not feeling right, dirty surroundings and body make you feel funky, and that leaks into other areas of your life, triggering stress, anxiety, and depression.
-The pattern of these minor self-care tasks being neglected can be an indicator that something larger is weighing on the mind, causing distress and apathy.
I don’t think its a chicken vs the egg situation, but merely something to be aware of when I start to notice certain patterns. That way I can ask myself, why do I not want to do these things? Perhaps it won’t hurt if I do them, and if that helps then great! If not, then now you have a tidy room and clean body in which to solve your larger problems.
It all seems so simple, but with so many responsibilities it is easy to loose tract of the most foundational of tasks and accidentally have your whole life topple if you overlook them for too long.
Tomorrow will be another busy day but not like today with a ton of tasks, instead after class I’ll need to really sit down and concentrate on making some headway on a project I’m working on. So, here are some goals:
- FINISH modeling that 3D model! & turn it in
- actually eat your healthy packed lunch/ dinner and don’t cave to cravings
- in reward you can get 1 small almond latte for energy while you work through the evening