Today marks my three year anniversary w/ @toneitup!!! I love being on this journey w/ you girls. Thx for pushing me out of my comfort zone & encouraging me to grow. I used to be so intimidated by weights & strength training & now it’s my favorite thing! See you gorgeous gals on the mat this summer!! 🥂🥩🤸🏼♀️🔥🏋🏼♀️🔥🧘🏼♀️🥗🥂
Kicking up my motivation for the summer! Morning walks w/ podcasts & coffee, home workouts w/ TIU & Y7, journaling, fasting & clean eating 🍉👙☕️
༻¨*:·𝐆𝐥𝐨𝐰 𝐮𝐩 𝐢𝐧 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟎 ·:*¨༺
Hey everyone! 2020 is still young and right now motivation finally hit me like a train. Finally !! And i want to keep you guys updated and maybe i can help and motivate someone. And maybe we can take this journey together 🌹 I just want to change my life completely like I want to turn my life around 360°C a 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦. Do you want this as well ? You can do this !! The first step starts in your mind. And i‘m still not at the (mentally) point i should and i want to be. But i realized that i have to be very 𝑝𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑡 .. and believe me that’s really hard sometimes because i‘m still not happy with my life and that’s why i want a change as far as possible. But that’s life and in life you don’t get what you want the easy way.. So my challenge starts today : 26.02.2020 Let’s see how far i can get in 90 Days
- 90 Day GlowUp Challenge
𝗦𝗼 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝘆 𝗴𝗼𝗮𝗹𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝟵𝟬 𝗱𝗮𝘆𝘀 ?
🌹get fit and lose some weight
🌹recovered from my depression [or be at least less depressed]
🌹have at least 3 tattoos
🌹be my own boss & role model
🌹more self love !
🌹 hit 10k
🌹a new look !! It’s time to invest in myself
🌹 Hobby = Job
>> so i think that’s all for now <<
PRO TIP: Write down your goals and read that list every night before you go to bed !!! This helps a lot.. 💋 𝒃𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒗𝒆 𝒎𝒆 💋
I reached another small milestone - 2 weeks with no alcohol; my herbs are growing as much as I am | February 2020
Today went alright, breakfast was eggs and toast, lunch was leftovers from last night. I noticed a significant positive increase in my overall mood this morning and throughout the day. Granted, it’s a Tuesday, and Monday’s are usually rough, so it will be interesting to see if the trend continues.
I also started my gratitude journal last night (aiming to document 10 things I’m grateful for each day) and I feel really good about it.
My job just moved to a new office, which has a gym in the basement. I’ve been foam-rolling and stretching the past two days when I’m struggling to focus, and it seems to be helping a lot. Plus I’m being reminded of the way my body positively responds to being pampered and cared for. There is an essence of gratitude in each slow movement.
When I told Juan that I’d been feeling down, he actually suggested we go ice skating. I actually love skating so much, I took lessons a few years ago–but I was training for long-distance running, and the pressure on my knees made it hard to do both.
Anyway, I loved it, as usual. Even though the Zamboni hadn’t come through in hours and the ice was a bit bumpy, the way gliding quickly on the ice makes me feel in the cold air does bring me joy like few other things do.
Even though my heart is heavier than usual, I’m grateful that I’m able to do the things I love, and be free. Embracing the process feels good. I don’t need to feel better by a specific date, but, still, I’m trying to embrace the good moments as they come along with the rough ones.
I went for a 45 minute walk this morning & am celebrating a week with no alcohol. I committed to 90 days straight without drinking & feel very excited about this new chapter | January 2020
I’m quickly becoming disenchanted with my analog scale… because I can’t actually read exactly what my weight number is! But as far as I can tell, today I came in right under 134 lbs, so I’m going with:
Week 2 Weigh-In: 133.8 lbs
Change over 1 week: +1.8 lbs
Change since beginning: +0.3 lbs
There’s a chance that my scale at home is measuring me lighter than I actually am - remember the 3 lb jump when I weighed myself on the digital scale for the first time? But according to this scale, I am currently around 133.8 lbs.
Now, I have thought about this two ways. I could either be disappointed that I am back to almost exactly where I started, OR I could be impressed and happy that my body was able to bounce back to where it was so quickly after the holiday madness. I am going to go with the latter option.
I have 9 pounds to lose in the next 10 weeks. I fully believe that my body can do it, and I am excited to continue my journey of transformation!! I am back, I am focused, and I am revved up.
Yesterday, I did not eat dinner before going home (it was just way too early), but I did eat dinner directly after working out instead of showing first. I wanted to make sure I ate all of my dinner before 8:00pm. I succeeded in that, and I think I finished eating everything for the night by 8:30pm (except for a tiny piece of chocolate that I had around 9:30pm). I have a feeling eating my dinner earlier like this is going to help! I don’t know if this is related to my earlier dinner last night, but I actually felt hungry for breakfast this morning - I usually have to force myself to eat breakfast before work.
Here’s to the next 10 weeks!
Today has been a continued bustle of productivity and positivity. I didn’t end up doing cardio, I am still pretty sore from my workout yesterday, but I still plan to go tomorrow. Food wise I probably get a solid B, not too bad, still steps forward but I could do better. It was a super busy day. I had class at 9:30 and was working on something or in a meeting till 6:30 pm. I kept up with my tasks, listened to my body, didn’t focus on the bad and really tried to not let obstacles weigh me down. Again I was in the midst of lazy mush by the time Mark stumbled out the door by 10:30 since he had bad sleep and was napping with me on the couch until he had to leave. But, knowing how well my day had started today due to my diligence last night I got up, tidied the house, painted my nails, and started this entry.
I have to say I am pretty proud of myself. Tuesdays are usually very busy for me and I almost never tackle everything I should, those things usually get pushed further and further into the week. But today I talked to three different professors about scholarships, my thesis, and looking over midterms to prepare for the final. I wrote out and formatted my final project for yoga. I worked a shift as a lab monitor after my astronomy class, game production class, and game design class. Between those I had a team meeting where I got a decent amount of work done on the design of our game while working on some concept art for it. I avoided going out to eat for dinner and saved some money even though I was super tired and wanted taco bell, stuck to my calorie goal, and was a tolerable human to others, perhaps even pleasant. The only things I didn’t do that were on my list were cardio, which my body said “no” to, and work on some posters, but the due date got moved back so I’ll work on them on a day I’m not so busy.
Productivity, Self care, and Introspection
At this rate I probably won’t be wopping out some killer before and after photos by 90 days, but honestly I think I’ll be making even more substantial progress in my mental state. My discipline, patience, and overall disposition has been shifting steadily for the better. I know I’ll probably hit more rough patches, but I’m trying to keep this ball rolling as long as possible. I want to maintain these good habits. I’ve been better at brushing my teeth, taking off my make up, and putting away my clothes when I change. I know they are small things, but I have two thoughts about these things:
-Either that neglecting these tasks can cause a snow ball affect of things not feeling right, dirty surroundings and body make you feel funky, and that leaks into other areas of your life, triggering stress, anxiety, and depression.
-The pattern of these minor self-care tasks being neglected can be an indicator that something larger is weighing on the mind, causing distress and apathy.
I don’t think its a chicken vs the egg situation, but merely something to be aware of when I start to notice certain patterns. That way I can ask myself, why do I not want to do these things? Perhaps it won’t hurt if I do them, and if that helps then great! If not, then now you have a tidy room and clean body in which to solve your larger problems.
It all seems so simple, but with so many responsibilities it is easy to loose tract of the most foundational of tasks and accidentally have your whole life topple if you overlook them for too long.
Tomorrow will be another busy day but not like today with a ton of tasks, instead after class I’ll need to really sit down and concentrate on making some headway on a project I’m working on. So, here are some goals:
- FINISH modeling that 3D model! & turn it in
- actually eat your healthy packed lunch/ dinner and don’t cave to cravings
- in reward you can get 1 small almond latte for energy while you work through the evening
It has been a week since I’ve started this journey. I’m still taking it step by step. I’ve managed to loose the thanksgiving bloat and am a tiny bit under my starting weight. I started the day with a bit of cardio and weights for 30 minutes and then 30 minutes of yoga. I had another egg quinoa salad and after class I made a tofu noodle, vodka sauce, shrimp, and brussel sprout pasta dish. But on the way back from dropping a friend off at her house, I had to pull over for gas, right by a fast food chain I know my boyfriend loves, but is very far from our house so we never go to it. So I called him to see if he wanted anything, and ended up nibbling an extra 400~ calories off his ice cream and onion rings. BUT! with how little I had eaten prior and the workout I did in the morning I still hit my calorie goal.
- I woke up early
- I worked out
- I stayed productive & positive most of the day
- I didn’t turn into a potato at night
I usually dissolve into an unproductive mush once Mark leaves for work around 10:30. I fall asleep with the lights on, make up still on, the house a mess, no clothes laid out, teeth not brushed. I’ll get sucked into instagram or youtube and get sad or tired or both and crash. This time I caught myself, did a small painting (pictured above or below), then tided, prepped for tomorrow morning, and am now blogging before I brush my teeth and turn in. Honestly, knowing that if I got up and got productive and then I could blog really helped.
- is going to be VERY busy
- I will avoid unnecessary snacking
- I will do cardio!
- I won’t go home until everything is done
- and in reward I’ll get myself a nice hot lunch of a hot soup and light sandwich! (but no cookie or chips, which I usually end up getting)
Nothing too profound or anything today. Other than I have had a quiet pride that is steadily growing as my consistency continues.
Thanksgiving week is over and I have come through grateful and only about a pound or two heavier with all the extra food volume. I’d be lying if I said it was easy to no have a tun of food guilt, tolerate the comments on my appearance, and general anxiety of eating around people and having them look at me. Since we live out of town I always have grand notions that by the next time they see me there will be noticeable change, and when there isn’t I beat myself up, and if there is then I feel awful that I was ever bigger in the first place. I have really been working on being more patient and kind with myself, that even if what I did or ate didn’t completely fit “The plan” that it isn’t ruined, I don’t have to start all over. Today is still day 6. So instead of starting, messing up, stopping, being sad, rinse and repeat I will learn and continue from my mistakes.
So here are some things I’ve learned this week
- I like how eggs & quinoa make me feel
- HAVING to blog everyday makes me a little stressed, so I’m just going to blog whenever I’ve got stuff to write, which might end up being everyday
- I crave sugary things still, but I don’t get joy from them like I used to
- Earl Grey gives me the best amount of caffeine to no anxious getters ratio
- I do very well with going to bed early and waking up early 11 pm tp 7 am
Changes I’ll make this week
- Try intermittent fasting 1-7pm
- actually work out this week 5 days
- try a kinda Keto, under 50g carbs
- drink less coffee more tea
- really focus on self-discipline
I want to be flexible mentally and physically. I can’t let every little change to a schedule or slip up break me. I always just end up moping on the couch looking out the window in a pool of self loathing and it takes forever to get out of the funk.
Burn out is another source of self loathing I have been working on. I just can’t seem to produce any art, and every time I try I just get so frustrated. The last time I was this dry the thing that pulled me out was 3D modeling, so I’t try to sit and do a side project tomorrow to get the juices flowing again.
Setting my goals for december:
So week 2 out of 13 went pretty uneventful. I have made some progress and lost a total of 0.3 kg which could also be water weight. This week I really struggled with eating healthy and it’s because I’ve become so used to eating sugary chocolate bars and junk. I have no one but myself to blame but at the same time, the environment and people around me really influence me as well. I can’t do much against the people I’m around at the moment so I will have to build up my self control instead. I’m the only person in my way.
In December, I WILL reach my goals. I WILL be focused and work hard. I gained 2.5 kg in 2 months (October-November) so my goal for December is to lose weight around that same rate (1 - 1.25 kg/month). I also completely disregarded the healthy eating and exercise habits I worked hard on over the summer. So I’m taking then back.
- Get back to around 54 kg
- Cut out junk food completely for the first week of December
- Work out 4-5 times a week again, cardio for at least 25 minutes at a time
- Flexibility goal: Do the splits and improve my turnout
- Strength goal: Be able to do 5 regular pushups in a row and improve my extensions (leg + back strength)
I’m so excited to take back my habits and continue on my journey! I might have gone backwards for a while but I’m going to get back up again.
Sunday was a lazy day for sure. Even on my relax day I still do a 4 mile walk but nope. I ended my fast an hour early Sunday morning and had my overnight oats while watching Iron Man. I’m trying to watch all the Marvel films on Disney + in chronological order. So far I’ve seen Captain America, Captain Marvel, Iron Man and now Iron Man 2. Next up will be Thor which I’ve seen and liked so no harm watching again.
Later in the day I went to see The Lighthouse. Holy hell that movie is beautiful. I can’t explain what the movie is about but film making wise it’s a masterpiece. I’ll be shocked if it doesn’t win at least one award.
Dinner we went to a restaurant and thankfully they had a beyond burger. My date who isn’t vegan also ordered one and was surprised by how much he liked it. I still think at home black bean burgers are the best but I am happy vegans have so many options these days. That’s probably one of the reasons it took me so long to finally make the change.
Not much else happened on Sunday. A pretty relaxing day.
I had my first craving today (for unhealthy food, that is) since I started this journey! I was actually really surprised that for the past four days, I haven’t craved all of the unhealthy food I was eating before. But today, I was at an event with free donuts and it was all I could do to not grab one. And when I got home, even after I’d eaten a full meal, I still wanted to make cookies and devour the whole batch! Not sure where the sudden craving for junk food came from, but it wasn’t fun. However, I should just be grateful that I haven’t had those cravings this entire time! Hopefully they won’t stick around.
H O W I F E L T
I felt pretty decent today! My body is pretty sore, though - which is unsurprising, considering that I went from literally never exercising to working out for an hour everyday. In order to try to give my most used muscles a break, I decided to do only blogilates workout videos today (instead of more cardio, which is the bulk of what I’ve been doing).
E X E R C I S E
I honestly didn’t have much of a strategy going into this today. The only thing I wanted to make sure I focused on was my arms, since my cardio workouts haven’t hit them much. Here are the videos I did (all blogilates):
- Fun yoga
- Pumped up cardio warmup
- Brutal booty - I only did the first three-ish minutes of this because my legs were already so sore from all the elliptical / treadmill work I’ve been doing!
- 7 minute arms
- Bridal bootcamp arms
- Quick burn arms
- Shape of your thighs
I was a little less excited to work out today - probably because my body feels pretty worn out at this point. I mean - I’ve never worked out like this before! But I’m traveling in a few days and won’t be able to exercise while I’m on the road, and I want to make the most of my time at home. So no rest days for me for another few days.
Holy crap today was a day!
My gym had their claim your mile. It’s their most difficult workout and happens once a month. Every workout we are on these assault bikes and basically the faster you go, the harder it is. During normal classes, it’s hard to maintain even a 20 mph speed throughout. Claim your mile you have to get either a 5, 6 or 7 mile total distance throughout the entire class. My partner and I were able to achieve 10 miles which meant we both maintained 20 mph through the whole class and both earned 5 mile t-shirts.
Afterwards I had tofu scramble with seitan, sweet corn and salsa. Took a quick nap before going on 7 mile run to pick up my bib and shirt for the Thanksgiving 10k. It was definitely a hard run given I just busted my ass at claim your mile haha. Also I ran the whole thing with my blood sugar in the low 100s range. It was nerve wracking but I pushed through
For dinner, I made a sweet potato with chickpeas mixed with tahini little bit of maple syrup. A more carb filled meal but my blood sugar didn’t spike. Honestly my blood sugar all day has been great besides a few minor spikes. I think I just need to be comfortable being at 80-120 during physical activity.
I also need to learn not to rely on my dexcom 100%. When I was getting ready for bed, I felt really shaky but it was steady at 90. I kept ignoring it but my body kept shaking me awake. Eventually, I checked on my meter and I was 60. I ate some gummies and adjusted my calibration.
I finally feel like I have a day I can fully be proud of.
H O W I F E L T
It was a really good day. I woke up feeling motivated, energized - all the good things! I don’t know if it had to do with me having such a great cardio day on Day 2, but I was flying high. My focus was great too.
M E A L S
- Breakfast: boiled egg; 1 banana; ¼ cup of cocoa almond granola
I ate the egg before I remembered to take a pic, but here’s the banana and granola combo.
- Snack: 1 cup decaf mocha
- Lunch: chicken fried rice from Costco
- Pre-workout snack: 10 unsalted almonds; ½ fuji apple; 5 baby dill pickles
- Post-workout snack: 1 cup 2% milk; ¾ tbsp chocolate syrup (to create a quick chocolate milk)
- Dinner: 1 boiled egg; 30 unsalted almonds; 1 tbsp pine nuts; 1.5 tbsp peanut butter; 1/3 banana; ½ fuji apple; 1/3 cup of cocoa almond granola
Calories: 1823 (Carbs: 190g; Fat: 81g; Protein: 57g)
E X E R C I S E
- Blogilates “quick burn back exercises”
- Blogilates “ultimate back workout”
- Treadmill - 30 mins (mostly power walking with some jogging; usually at difficulty level 4)
- Elliptical - 15 mins
The blogilates ab workout from Day 2 KILLED ME, but I was actually able to do two blogilates back workouts on Day 3 and feel pretty decent. I also am truly terrible at planking, so I’m starting to wonder if I just have really weak abs. If that is the case, then it’s something to work on!
Today was a good day for food an exercise.
I hit all my targets on my Samsung watch which include burning 500 cals thru activity, being active for 12 hours, exercising for an hour, and walking 15k steps (I hit 19k+ today wooo). I know that the trackers aren’t as accurate as we’d like, but it helps keep me on the mindset to move even if the numbers aren’t as high as I’d hope.
Regardless, my diet was good today. Hit under my calorie goal by about 100 maybe so the exercise probably took a bit off too. I’m ok with that because I’m gonna have my high calorie days tomorrow and Saturday so this is giving me wiggle room to eat a lil more if I need to later. For example, I’m going to an Indian restaurant with a coworker tomorrow and I have no idea how to gauge the calories other than to avoid high cal stuff like breads and rice.
The only real worry factor for me right now is my stress since I know it can impact weight loss like sleep. Work got super freaky and my body just feels stressed. The short story is I think my lesbian coworker has a crush on me. She’s super weird in awkward in how she communicates so she wrote me this long ass bizarre letter about how I don’t talk to her as much as I used to (because I’m fucking busy) and this long ass explanation about how she thinks she messed up and other weird shit. It made me mad and it made me feel violated and I could feel my body react to these feelings. Hopefully I can avoid her and she’ll get the hint to leave me alone because I’m too busy with work and exercise to get distracted with weirdness.
(ok I need to get pictures in here eventually)
Today was definitely better on the diet component, but not on the exercise one :( I did a little bit of glute work and just a bit of walking. I wanted to go to the gym at lunch, but got caught in a conversation at lunch with someone at work so I missed my window to go to the gym. I wanted to go after work, but my boss put me in a 2hr meeting that, of course, true to his nature, went over the time limit so I left really late haha.
BUT I was still able to get a smidge under my calorie target for today so that’s good. Tomorrow will be a low day too for me, but I’ll also have a training session and will gym in the morning too so I can probably add a bit of calories too.
Nothing else special to report with food today. No candy today and ate everything I planned to eat. I just wished I could move more.
So my bloat is still in full effect and the period is still rocking me on the inside lol. I don’t want to weigh myself during this time because it’s not accurate and I don’t want to get discouraged.
I had a lot of cucumber today, yay, and some light protein snacks along the way, but no full meals because i was busy in meetings and work so I didn’t get to really sit down and eat………
Actually I did, but it was because my coworker John brought leftover turkey from his birthday dinner and we ended up having an impromptu Friendsgiving at work. I had a bit of turkey, gravy, and cranberry sauce which was soooooooo good and worth it. Being with coworkers and my boss was also fun to just talk and have an early Friendsgiving.
So my good foods I had:
-lots of cucumbers
-kale soup with turkey meatballs
-vanilla tootsie rolls (2)
-Trader Joe’s Greek Yogurt Egg Nog flavor
The egg nog yogurt was sooooo worth eating though!!! NO REGRETS.
- 1hr stride elliptical machine: watch said I burned 600 cals
- Personal training session doing back work (idk how much for that)
-walked about 30 mins during break at work
I could have done better with the food, yes, but I didn’t do nearly as bad as I do before. This is an exercise in balance and restraint. Having 2 vanilla tootsie rolls a day is not a big deal with the amount of exercise I do…..I mean I wouldn’t eat 2 pieces a day lol but just to know it’s not that big of a deal. I also exercised a lot so it’s really not a big deal. I didn’t need to have the egg nog yogurt either but I did to treat myself as a post workout snack.
I lost track of my calories, but I would estimate somewhere around 1500-1600. I’m just going to consider today a higher calorie day (per my first post) so tomorrow I’m going to target 1200-1275 calories so I’m still on target for staying in a deficit.
ANYWAY not the start I thought, but the good thing is I’m feeling good and not at all guilty for failing like I usually do, because….well, I didn’t fail!!!
On to Tuesday!
Do you have any expierence with food journals? Tell us about your experiences and thoughts.
I don’t think I’ve ever food journaled. Is that like tracking with MyFitnessPal or something different?
Personally, I like how the app tells me the calories I’m eating versus me having to look it up and manually add everything together. I’m so busy some days I’m more likely not to take the extra time to figure that all out.