me when someone mentions chemicals, romance, parades, marching bands, sleep, teenagers, not being okay, ‘what do you do for a living?’, prison, bullets, weapons, eyes, killjoys, a desert, party, poison, stars, jets, kobras, disappearing, the end, sunsets, mirrors, ways, skylines, carrying on, death, lovers, blood, vampires, venom, wolves, cancer, someone’s mama, last words, destroying things, scarecrows, sunlight, light, the word na, summertime, kids, yesterday, sunshine, sugar, the name helena, halos, drowning, the best day ever, singing, goodnight, cubicles, turnstiles, demolition, an interlude, the color black, ghosts, cemeteries, aliens, planets, guns, money, ambulances, burning, making room, bombs, and faking your death