2023 Year In Review
This year once again I invited some friends and colleagues to reflect on 2023
JG Thirlwell
Composer Foetus Xordox Manorexia Steroid Maximus Venture Bros Archer
2023 was an intense year. The year began with the premiere of my symphony for Alarm Will Sound and ended with guesting vocalizing with Dinosaur Jr on some Stooges classics. I completed the final season of Archer. Wrote a lot of material for new Xordox and Foetus albums. Released an album of string quartets and scored a Venture Bros movie. Worked with some great singers and premiered my Ensemble project in London.
I spent several months traveling and set up a small studio in Melbourne for a bit. Road tripped through NZ with my partner, Dora.
I played some excellent shows in London, Colchester, Auckland, Wellington, Melbourne and Sydney.
I still woke up 5am in a panic on too many occasions.
And I saw some great concerts.It was difficult to whittle down this list but here are a lot of albums I enjoyed in 2023, in no particular order.
Albums
Poil Ueda Yoshitsune (Dur et Doux)
Poil Ueda - Poil Ueda (Dur et Doux)
Genevieve Artadi Forever Forever (Brainfeeder)
Knower - Knower Forever (Brainfeeder)
Ultraphauna No No No No (Dur Et Doux)
Gahlmm Break A Leg (GEIGER Grammofon)
Oneohtrix Point Never Again (Warp)
Lankum - False Lankum (Rough Trade)
Evian Christ Revanchist (Warp)
Chromb Cinq (Dur et Doux)
Deskartes A Kant After Destruction (Cleopatra)
Gazelle Twin Then You Run (Original Score)
L’Rain I Killed Your Dog (Mexican Summer)
Loraine James Gentle Confrontation (Hyperdub)
Royal Blood Back To The Water Below (Warner)
John Luther Adams Darkness and Scattered Light (Cold Blue)
Catherine Christer Hennix Solo for Tamburium (Blank Forms)
Rachel Fannan Bjork Impersonations (Instagram)
Regal Worm Worm! (Quatermass)
Wild Up Julius Eastman Vol. 3: If You’re So Smart, Why Aren’t You Rich? (New Amsterdam)
PJ Harvey I Inside the Old Year Dying (Partisan)
Poppy I Disagree (Sumerian)
Sparks The Girl Is Crying In Her Latte (Island)
Queens Of The Stone Age In Times New Roman (Matador)
Time Wharp Spiro World (Leaving)
Murderpact Ultraheaven (Bandcamp)
RVG Brain Worms (Our Golden Friend)
HMLTD - The Worm (Lucky Number)
Catarina Barbieri - Myuthafoo (Editions Mego)
Ligeti Quartet and Anna Meredith - NUC (Mercury KX)
Mandy Indiana I’ve Seen a Way + EP(FireTalk)
Kate NV WOW (RVNG)
Kelly Moran Vesela EP (Warp)
Kurws Powiez / Fascia (Korobushka)
Fever Ray Radical Romantics (Mute)
Netherlands Severance (Svart)
Tim Hecker No Highs (Kranky)
Bohemian Flesh Bohemian Flesh (Ojet)
Pure Adult II (FatCat)
Model/Actriz - Dogsbody (True Panther Sounds)
Laurel Halo - Atlas (Awe)
Water From Your Eyes - Everyones Crushed (Matador)
Moritz Von Oswald - Silencio (tresor)
REZZETT Meant Like This (Trilogy Tapes)
Jess Johnson and Simon Ward 'Terminus' Virtual Reality exhibition at the Museum in Dunedin NZ.
Books
Naomi Klein Doppelganger
Graham Rayman and Reuven Blau Rikers : An Oral History
Thurston Moore Sonic Life
Malcolm Gladwell The Bomber Mafia
Tony Cohen Half Deaf, Completely Mad
Brett Anderson Coal Black Morning Book
Wesley Doyle Conform To Deform
Primo Levi Survival in Auschwitz
Films + TV
Beef
Barry
Fargo
The YouTube Effect
Mutiny In Heaven
Beau Is Afraid
In The Court Of The Crimson King
Oppenheimer
Concerts
01.28.23 Kodak Quartet performed at the Jack Studio Festival Event at The New School, performing a work by Khyam Allami and a stunning rendition of Ligeti’s String Quartet No 1.
02.21.23 Pure Adult opened for Gilla Band at Brooklyn Made and both were excellent!
02.22.23 Clown Core (featuring Louis Cole on drums and keys) Elsewhere in NYC.
03.02.23 Laurie Anderson performs at a drone event anchored by Lou’s guitar generating feedback drones, on the occasion of Lou Reed’s birthday .Other musicians joining the drone included Shazad Ismailey, Steven Bernstein, Stan Harrison, Briggan Krauss and more.
03.09.23 Michael Byron’s new work In One Second There Will Be A Thousand Plateaus Perhaps for two pianos and small orchestra featuring pianists Joseph Kubera and Steve Beck with Petr Kotik conducting members of the S.E.M. Ensemble. At Roulette Intermedium.
04.04.23 Pigs Pigs Pigs Pigs Pigs Pigs Pigs brought the rock power and played an intense and triumphant show at Mercury Lounge to end their first US tour.
04.08.23 Amarcord Nino Rota, a reimagining of the Hal Willner’s Nino Rota tribute album, at Roulette Intermedium.
05.03.23 Genevieve Artadi played a grreat set at Public Records in Brooklyn to support her new album Forever Forever, with Louis Cole on drums.
05.27.23 Gloryhammer at Irving Plaza. Saw them in Melbourne too.
06.27.23 Sparks played a brilliant show at the Beacon Theater in NYC and I also caught them at Palais Theater in St Kilda, Melbourne, Australia on 10.26.23
07.04.23 75 Dollar Bill at Union Pool
08.20.23 BeatFox . Incredible luck to see this guy busking on Brick Lane.
08.21.23 The very wonderful Deerhoof at The Lafayette in London
08.22.23 clipping. played a killer show at Outernet in London
08.23.23 The incredible Poil Ueda from Lyon, France played in London at the Lexington + Lost Crowns
08.24.23 Swans played an epic set at The Troxy in Londo
09.24.23 TENGGER played an amazing set at the Art Gallery of NSW.
10.06.23 Fuji|||||||||||ta at Tempo Rubato in Melbourne, Australia.
10.07.23 RVG played a killer show to a packed house at Northcote Theatre in Melbourne, Australia
10.17.23 Chloe Sobek at Make It Up Club in Melbourne Australia.
10.21.23 Paul McCartney at Marvel Stadium in Melbourne Australia
10.28.23 Sarah Mary Chadwick at Wesley Anns as part of The 86 Super Saturday Festival
10.28.23 Party Dozen from Sydney played a great set at The 86 Super Saturday Festival in Melbourne Australia.
11.10.23 Devon Townsend played a beautiful, brutal and ecsatic show in Melbourne Australia at the Forum.
12.06.23 Ashley Bathgate and percussion sextet Mantra Percussion performed Matt McBane’s Topography at National Sawdust in NYC.
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Michel Langevin
(aka Away/Voïvod)
My coups de coeur in 2023:
TV Series:
The Last of Us
Music:
The Damned - Darkadelic
Godflesh - Purge
Crown Lands - Fearless
Gong - Unending Ascending
Soft Machine - Other Doors
Best show:
KISS End of the Road World Tour in Montréal on Nov 18th
Best Moments:
-Recording and touring the new Voïvod album, Morgöth Tales, celebrating the 40th anniversary of the band
-Celebrating my 60th birthday on stage in Lyon on the Voïvod/Testament Euro tour
-Jason Newsted joining the band on stage in Fort Lauderdale, USA
-Eric Forrest joining the band on stage at Hellfest, France
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Lydia Lunch
https://www.lydia-lunch.net/
“Time-one long second that goes on forever”
So enjoy it motherfuckers!
BOOKS
Love the World or Get Killed Trying Alvina Chamberland
Mother Howl Craig Clevenger
Nein, Nein, Nein! : One Man's Tale of Depression, Psychic Torment, and a Bus Tour of the Holocaust Jerry Stahl
Mystic Debris Justin Gradin
Niagara, NY Ric Royers
The Pale-Faced Lie : A True Story David Crow
The Conspiracy Against the Human Race: A Contrivance of Horror Thomas Ligotti
The Field: The Quest for the Secret Force of the Universe
Lynne McTaggert
Yuval Noah Harari Box Set (Sapiens, Homo Deus, 21 Lessons for 21st Century)
Season of the Witch Cathi Unsworth
Every word John Tottenham utters or writes
TOURS with Sylvia Black & Gregg Foreman, Joseph Keckler, Marc Hurtado (tribute to Alan Vega & Suicide), Ian White, Kevin Shea (Sinister Impulse), Tim Dahl & Matt Nelson (Murderous Again)
Workshop & Performance Badass Babes of Burlesque w Rita D’Albert Zebulon LA
Workshop at the University of New Mexico thanks to Greg Moss
Reading with Zoe Hansen & Ron Athey at The Philosophical Research Center LA
Reading with Eugene Robinson Makeout Room SF
Finishing the documentary with Jasmine Hirst Artists - Depression, Anxiety, and Rage and premiering it in Italy
Meeting butuh Queen Azumi OE and discussing up coming performances together with Tim Dahl
Completing the 233 episode of The Lydian Spin with Tim Dahl
FUN
Nights in London & Brighton spent with Nick Soulsby, Cathi Unsworth, Billy Chainsaw, Chris Bohn, Jack Sargeant, Pam Hogg,
Tina Kit (opened for my Suicide tribute in London & Brighton) best new band of suited and booted bad boys
Squired around Europe by Sebastien Greppo, a man like no other - who so lightens my burden…
Watching every episode of The Dark Side of The Ring with Kevin Shea
Training squirrels, levitating objects, saving lives, screaming into the void.
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Mike Berdan
(Uniform)
https://uniform-nyc.com/
ALBUMS
Lankum - False Lankum
Surgeon - Crash Recoil
Ryuichi Sakamoto - 12
Fellwinter - The Dawn Of Winter
Abysmal Lord - Bestiary Of Immortal Hunger
Death Kneel - Dawn Simulation
Shit And Shine - 2222 And Airport
Carnivorous Bells - Room Above All
Agonal Lust - Mankind Is A Talisman Of Misfortune
Godflesh - Purge
FIRST-TIME READS
A History Of Violence (1973) - David Cotner
Someone Who Isn't Me - Geoff Rickly
Your Dreams - Thomas Moore
4. In A Lonely Place - Karl Edward Wagner
Burn You The Fuck Alive - B.R. Yeager
The Holy Day - Christopher Norris
A Collapse Of Horses - Brian Evenson
The Devil Thinks I'm Pretty - Charlene Elsby
Let's Go Play At The Adams' - Mendal W. Johnson
Counterillumination - Audrey Szasz
MOVIES
Godzilla Minus One
CIGARS
Cohiba Magico Maduro Petit Robusto
God Of Fire Serie B Double Robusto
Padron Family Reserve no. 95 Maduro Petit Gordo
El Pulpo Toro
Tatuaje Reserva J21 Broadleaf Robusto
Atabey Benditos Double Corona
Romeo y Julieta Línea de Oro Nobles
H. Upmann Half Corona
Foundation Cigars The Tabernacle Robusto
OpusX Eye Of The Shark
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Mario Diaz deLeon
(composer, Luminous Vault, Bloodmist)
ALBUMS
Evita Manji - Spandrel?
Eartheater - Powders
Slowspin - Talisman
Marta DePascalis - Sky Flesh
Kalia Vandever - We Fell in Turn
Eraldo Bernocchi + Hoshiko Yamane - Sabi
JakoJako - Verve
Surgeon - Crash Recoil
Cavalera - Morbid Visions / Bestial Devastation
Bell Witch - The Clandestine Gate
Steve Lehman + Orchestre National de Jazz - Ex Machina
SONGS
Kelly Moran - Vesela
Vines - I Don’t Mind
Cybotron - Maintain
Barker - Birmingham Screwdriver
VMO - Supergaze
Omar Hisham - Adhan (Be Heaven)
EVENTS
New Firmament: MONAD - Roulette
Peter Evans: Being and Becoming - Roulette
Anna Sperber: Amplifier - Roulette
20 Years of Shinkoyo - Roulette
Anthony Braxton + Wolf Eyes - Pioneer Works
Caterina Barbieri - Pioneer Works
Felipe Lara + Claire Chase + Esperanza Spaulding + NY Phil
TAK Ensemble: Swoonfest - The Clemente Center
Kayo Dot: Choirs of The Eye - MilkBoy
Cecilia Vicuña / Raven Chacon - The Poetry Project
Krallice / Indocrithere / Geryon / Ocrilim - Saint Vitus
Cavalera: Morbid Devastation - Irving Plaza
Hulder / Blackbraid / Aeviterne - Le Poisson Rouge
Eartheater / Concrete Husband - Elsewhere
BOOKS
Roxanne Dunbar-Ortiz - An Indigenous Peoples History of the United States
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Alexander Tucker (Microcorps)
I started off the year by releasing a project very close to my heart: Fifth Continent, a collaboration with the late Keith Collins, partner and collaborator of film maker and artist Derek Jarman. The album was partially recorded in Jarman’s cottage in the desert-like landscape of Dungeness, on the South East coastline of Kent, in the UK, with elements constructed from Collins own spoken word pieces, and environmental recordings. The album was released on James Ginzberg’s Subtext label, and we also produced Fifth Quarter, an anthology publication of writing, recollections, photography and newly commissioned artworks about Jarman, Collins and Dungeness.
Although I probably made more music than usual this year, and had a greater focus than ever on the various projects I have underway, 2023 felt like a weird and often frustrating year for me and music. About five years ago I set about teaching myself modular systems, experimenting, and recording the results as I went along. This culminated in a new solo guise primarily for electronics and the synthesis of voice and acoustic instruments, MICROCORPS (the debut album Xmit came out on Alter records in 2021). Using these systems is at the same time liberating and incredibly frustrating. For a while this year nothing felt good enough: I could feel the potential of my ideas glimmering in the distance but was unable to catch up with them. I decided to take a short break from the modular, and focused upon compositions for cello, saxophone, and clarinet. But the pull of electronics is never far, so I began processing these recordings, using granular synthesis to stretch, mutate and reorganise the audio into new pieces. As soon as you want more from your practice and yourself, things can become more laborious - it’s difficult to be in the moment and focus on what’s in front of you. I used to be happy with the immediate effects I produced, but I think this is being replaced by a different approach, something more considered, which is exciting and, in some ways, sobering - even if the results are far from what you would describe as sober. I’m also so lucky to have many friends and fellow artists around me to offer help and suggestions, to whom I’m eternally grateful. As R.Crumb says, “Keep on truckin”.
Music I dug this year:
Godflesh - Purge (Avalanche Recordings)
Rắn Cạp Đuôi - *1 (nhạc_gay)
Mun Sing - Inflatable Gravestone (Planet Mu)
RS Tangent - When A Worm Wears A Wig (The Trilogy Tapes)
Arnold Dreybaltt And The Orchestra Of Excited Strings - Resolve (Drag City)
Elvin Brandhi and Lord Spikeheart - Drunken Love (Hakuna Kulala)
Mark Fell and Will Guthrie - Infoldings / Diffractions (NAKID)
Afrorack - The Afrorack (Hakuna Kulala)
Kinn - Dogtooth (First Light Records)
General Magic - Nein Aber Ja (GoTo Records)
Live shows:
Emptyset - Village Underground
Elvin Brandhi - IKLECTIK
Mick Harris/FRET – Downwards’ 30th, Centrala
Mun Sing, Crys Cole, Penelope Trappes - Boundaries Festival
Maxwell Sterling - Cafe OTO
Pole - EartH
Nik Colk Void - Too many to count!
Phew - Cafe OTO Residency
Acid Horse Festival
Devo - Hammersmith Apollo
Kinn - New Cross Road Baptist Church
Comics:
In 2023 I produced a new issue of my ongoing oblique and nonlinear comic series, Entity Reunion. For this issue I drew upon my love of HP Lovecraft, using the repetition of the comic format to peel back layers of the everyday to reveal omnipotent entities underlying all reality. The viewpoint of each page is from the point of view of the protagonists, who hold an electronic device, photographing their surroundings only to capture the blurred features of some insidious face. There are also references to Lovecraft’s own fictional grimoire the Necrononmicon. I wanted that dreamlike sensation of being the protagonists of the dream but also viewing yourself as separate entity.
Books:
I read nearly all of Patrica Highsmith’s ‘Ripley’ books, a bunch of John Le Carré novels, Mark Kermode’s book on The Exorcist and I’m currently working my way through the spy novelist Eric Ambler’s books. I also re-read Bruce Robinson’s analysis on Jack the Ripper and Victorian society, ‘They All Love Jack’.
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Tom Chiu
(composer, Flux Quartet)
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Albums Worth Exploring (including a couple entries from 2022 that I discovered late)
Bar Italia Tracey Denim (Matador)
Blur Ballad Of Darren (Parlophone)
Bush Tetras They Live In My Head (Wharf Cat)
Death Valley Girls Islands In The Sky (Suicide Squeeze)
Dummy Mono Retriever (Sub Pop)
Duster Remote Echoes (Numero Group)
En Attendant Ana Principia (Trouble In Mind)
Everything But the Girl Fuse (Verve)
Horse Lords Comradely Objects (RVNG)
Kelela Raven (Warp)
Lael Neale Star Eaters Delight (Sub Pop)
Lana Del Rey Do You Know That There's A Tunnel Under Ocean Blvd (Interscope)
Lewsberg Out And About (12XU)
Munya Jardin (Luminelle)
Slowdive Everything Is Alive (Dead Oceans)
Sweeping Promises Good Living Is Coming For You (Sub Pop)
Wednesday Rat Saw God (Dead Oceans)
Yo La Tengo This Stupid World (Matador)
Night at the Movies
Poor Things
Past Lives
Monster
Recurring Personal FAVES
FAVE Sandwich:
Mekelburg's Clinton Hill, Brooklyn
FAVE Burger:
Two8Two Bar & Burger, Boerum Hill, Brooklyn
FAVE Craft Beer Brewery
Omnipollo (Sweden), brewed at Twelve Percent Beer Project, North Haven, CT
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Pierre Cerrato
Producer - Editor
Floyd County Productions (Archer)
Favorite Movies/TV
Archer Season 14
The Last of Us
Gen V Beef
This Fool Season 2
Fargo Season 5
Primo (Amazon Prime Show)
The Bear Season 2 Episode
Barry Season 4
Favorite Records
I listened to a lot of music but these were in constant rotation.
Some are from last year but what is time and who cares?
Boris/Uniform - Bright New Disease (2023)
Birds in Row - Gris Klein (2022)
Fleshwater - We Are Not Here to Be Loved (2022)
Asunojokei - Islands (2022)
Everything But the Girl - Fuse (2023)
Night Owls - Versions (2022)
Honorable mention
Boris - Feedbacker (2003) this was my introduction to Boris. This year is the 20 year
anniversary of its release. Roberto Carlos Lange shared it with me one day while at work.
He said it was something he thought I would like. Blew my mind and I have been a fan
ever since.
Favorite Concerts
The Cure - State Farm Arena - also saw The Cure at Riot Fest but this was better of the 2.
I regret not going to Night 2 in Atlanta because they played Disintegration.
H20 - Riot Fest 2023 Set
Fleshwater - Riot Fest 2023 Set
Future Islands - Shakey Knees 2023 Set
The Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Shakey Knees 2023 Set
Converge / Brutus - The Masquerade
Drain / Drug Church - The Masquerade
Donny Benet - Terminal West
Idles - Re:Set 2023 Set
Favorite Food
MF Sushi - Atlanta - went twice and each time it was a special occasion.
Heirloom Market BBQ - Atlanta - best BBQ in my neck of the woods.
The Aviary - Chicago - specialty cocktails with spectacular presentation.
Cafe Tola - Chicago - best empanadas i've ever had in my life.
Selva Negra - Miami - a solid contender for Nica food.
Jaguar - Miami - great vibes, service and ceviche!
No Hard Feelings - Chatanooga - great cocktails and vibes!
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Zachary Lipez
(editor at large of Creem Magazine, writer, singer of Publicist UK)
Music
I made a (very) long list on my wildly popular blog, Abundant Living. But, for kicks and with the understanding that maybe you don’t feel like reading (or subscribing to) my wildly popular blog, here’s some stuff I included and some stuff I forgot (with particular attention paid to albums I think might be of particular interest to JG friends/fans but which may have slipped through the radar) (meaning: I mainly put the stuff that wasn’t on too many other lists).
Fatboi Sharif Decay (Backwoodz)
Skech185 He Left Nothing for the Swim Back (Backwoodz)
Zohra Murder In The Temple (American Dreams)
The Native Cats The Way On Is The Way Off (Chapel)
Geese 3D Country (Partisan)
Gold Dime No More Blue Skies (No-Gold)
Algiers Shook (Matador)
EXEK The Map and the Territory (Foreign)
Skinhead Everything Was Beautiful and Nothing Hurt (Closed Casket)
Débruit & Alsarah Aljawal الجوال (Soundway)
Fairytale Shooting Star (Toxic State)
Among The Rocks and Roots Pariah (Cacophonous Revival)
Full of Hell, Nothing When No Birds Sang (Closed Casket)
Uniform & Boris Bright New Disease (Sacred Bones)
Sleaford Mods UK Grim (Rough Trade)
Money&King Act Unnaturally (self released)
Blu Anxxiety Morbid Now, Morbid Later (Toxic State)
Nana Benz du Togo AGO (Komos)
Citric Dummies Zen and the Arcade of Beating Your Ass (Feel It)
Ghösh Prismassive (Ramp Local)
Peasdez Fenomenologia Del Espiritu Agonico: De La Existencia Sordida Al Pendulo De La Nada (SPHC)
Upper Wilds Jupiter (Thrill Jockey)
Death Valley Girls Islands In The Sky (Suicide Squeeze)
Raphael Rogiński Talán
Body Void Atrocity Machine (Prosthetic)
Feeling Figures Migration Magic (Perennial)
Ryan Davis & the Roadhouse Band Dancing on the Edge (Sophomore Lounge)
Nosaj from New Kingdom & steel tipped dove House of Disorder (Fused Arrow Records)
mclusky unpopular parts of a pig / the digger you deep (self released)
Advertisement Escorts (Feel It)
King Vision Ultra Shook World (hosted by Algiers) (PTP)
Live Shows that Stand Out In My Memory
Moor Mother/Armand Hammer/The Caretaker/Raphael Roginski for the Unsound Fest at Lincoln Center (I covered this for The Quietus if yr interested)
Sleaford Mods at Coachella (profiled them for CREEM)
Lydia Lunch/Zohra at St.Vitus
Lydia Lunch Retrovirus last American show ever (?) at TV Eye
Various skinhead/nü oï bands at the Monarch/TV Eye etc. with Liberty & Justice being the standout
Son Rompe Pera at TV Eye
Chisel (the Ted Leo outfit, not the neo-bootboy band with the “the” in their name) at LPR
BOOKS
My phone has pretty much eliminated my ability to read. I did read the first 100 pages of more books than I care to admit. I finally finished Mark Andrews’ Paint My Name In Black and Gold: The Rise of the Sisters of Mercy and I recommend it if, like me, you think The Sisters of Mercy are better than the Beatles (or whatever inane comparison annoys your friends the most). I also discovered Gene Wolfe and read the first book in the Book of the New Sun trilogy. Otherwise, it’s pretty much been just using Louise Glück poetry as inspiration to write terrible versions of Louise Glück poetry.
TV
Doom Patrol
Pokerface
Rick and Morty (idc idc idc idc)
HasanAbi twitch stream
A ludicrous amount of Britbox mysteries and—passively, yes, but not without a fair amount of emotional investment—various Real Housewife shows/spinoffs
Movies
Didn’t watch any new movies this year but I did have a lot of youtube videos playing in the background while I did other things, and sometimes those videos would be three hour long screeds about what was wrong with a number of movies I’d never heard of. So I feel like I got the gist.
LIFE
Converted to Islam and married Zohra in January. Both choices have proven to be rewarding as all hell. Cashing in my “as a Jew I…” argument card—while simultaneously being too new a Muslim to reasonably claim either special knowledge and/or marginalization status—has really fucked with my ability to be self-righteous online. But the love that Zohra and her family have shown me has more than made up for my newfound inability to really wipe the floor with a motherfucker in the instagram comments. In fact, I liked marrying Zohra so much that I did it again in December (first time was a religious ceremony, the second time was our rendering to Caesar etc). If you know me/us and weren’t invited to either that’s because essentially no one was. As my parents couldn’t attend (on account of being dead) I didn’t really see the point of a big party. That was perhaps selfish. We love you (probably) and will have some sort of to-do in 2024.
Otherwise, I am still very much enjoying working for the new CREEM Magazine (please subscribe) and doing my newsletter (please subscribe). Musically, I lived vicariously through Zohra and the release of her first solo album. Murder In The Temple, with amazing production by Ben Greenberg and contributions by Lydia Lunch, is a synthesis of so many of Zohra’s obsessions. It’s unlike anything in the post-goth-dark-whatever sphere and I can’t express how proud I am of it and her. As for my music, I did some neat-o Scientists-esque stuff with Telematics (Sohrab Habibion, Robert Austin, and Alexis Fleisig) and Zohra and I did a Sheer Terror cover in the style of Tindersticks to commemorate Paul Bearer’s marriage. Also, I’m pretty sure my most successful band (Publicist UK) got dropped by our label (apparently taking eight years to finish a demo is a long time) so get at me if you have a low-to-mid tier label and want to put out an album of eight minute gothic metal songs with zero mosh parts, about an aging hipster loving his wife and cats and missing his dead mom and dad. C’mon, do it. You’d be printing money.
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Jim Siegel
Vivid Oblivion
Records And Other Things I Liked In 2023
Lankum - False Lankum (Rough Trade)
Milford Graves with Arthur Doyle and Hugh Glover - Children Of The Forest (Black Editions Archive)
Nakibembe Embaire Group (Nyege Nyege Tapes)
Henning Christiansen - Mediterranean Music-Water (Holidays)
Alain Goraguer - La Planete Sauvage (Expanded) (Decca)
Phill Niblock - Boston III (Alga Marghen)
Sam McLoughlin & David Chatton Barker - The Heavenly Realms (Folklore Tapes)
Svitlana Nianio & Tom James Scott - Eye Of The Sea (Skire)
Half Mortal - Creature Of Christ (Hospital Productions)
Pharoah Sanders - Pharoah box (Luaka Bop)
Ragnar Johnson & Jessica Mayer - Spirit Cry Flutes And Bamboo Jews Harps From Papua New Guinea (Ideologic Organ)
PJ Harvey - I Inside The Old Year Dying (Partisan)
Jana Winderen - The Blue Beyond (Touch)
Rezzett - Meant Like This (The Trilogy Tapes)
Arsenije Jovanovic - Sailboat Galiola Nuria's Unfinished Logbook (Pentiments)
Only Voices Vol. 1 + 2 (DDS)
Wounded Son - Pain Is All I Have For You (Hospital Productions)
Various - Cease & Resist: Sonic Subversion & Anarcho Punk In The UK 1979-1986 (Optimo Music)
Umeko Ando - Upopo Sanke (Pingipung)
Philip Jeck & Chris Watson - Oxmardyke (Touch)
Lori Vambe - Space-Time Dreamtime: The Four Dimensional Music Of Lori Vambe (Strut)
Mozart Estate - Pop-Up! Ker-Ching! And The Possibilities Of Modern Shopping (West Midlands)
Sandwell District - Feed Forward box (The Point Of Departure)
Japan Blues - Japan Blues Meets The Dengie Hundred (DDS)
Various - A Web Of Braided Willow - The Folklore Of The Wickerman (Folklore Tapes)
Surgeon - Crash Recoil (Tresor)
Mark Glynne And Bart Zwier - Home Comfort (La Scie Doree)
Ariel Kalma - French Archives Vol. III 1964-89 (Black Sweat)
Marginal Consort - 06 06 16 (St Elisabeth Kirche, Berlin) (901 Editions)
Brendan Perry - Eye Of The Hunter / Live At The I.C.A (4AD)
The Complete Obscure Records Collection box (Dialogo)
Various - Avant Garde 21xCD Box (Deutsche Grammophon)
Bill Nace Live at Public Records, December 2023
The Elephant 6 Recording Co. Documentary
Squaring The Circle - The Story Of Hipgnosis
Shame And Dignity with Stanley Schtinter and Sukhdev Sandhu at UnionDocs, NY November 2023
Godland, dir. Hlynur Palmason
Wawa Pretzel w/ Melted Cheese (Sandwich)
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Simon Karis
(CEO of Nice Music, recording artist)
Okay so fave releases of 2023
Absurd Cosmos Late Nite 'These Magic Clothes Don't Play Themselves' (Reseach Laboratories)
Actress 'LXXXVIII' (Ninja Tune)
Armand Hammer 'We Buy Diabetic Test Strips' (Fat Possum)
Danny Brown 'Quaranta' (Warp)
De-Bons-En-Pierre 'Card Short Of A Full Deck' (Dark Entries)
Evian Christ 'Revanchist' (Warp)
Eyes Of The Amaryllis 'Perceptible To Everyone' (Horn Of Plenty)
Francis Plagne 'Into Closed Air' (Bison)
Francis Plagne 'Udge' (Horn Of Plenty)
Giuseppe Ielasi 'Down On Darkened Meetings' (Black Truffle)
HHOST 'Windswept Italics' (Altered States Tapes)
HHOST 'Veil' (Snail Editions)
JPEGMAFIA & Danny Brown 'Scaring The Hoes' (no label)
Kassell Jaeger 'Shifted In Dreams' (Shelter Press)
Khanate 'To Be Cruel' (Sacred Bones)
Klein 'Doubt'/'Normani's Torment'/'STORM' (no label)
L'Rain 'I Killed Your Dog' (Mexican Summer)
Land's Air 'Land's Air' (Tone List)
Locust 'The First Cause' (Mysteries Of The Deep)
Low Flung 'The Wheel' (Snail Editions)
Matt Harkin 'The Door Knocker' (no label)
Nick Ashwood 'Inside The Body Of A Wave' (no label)
Nuno Loureiro 'Lua Onus' (Super Pang)
Patten 'Mirage FM' (555-5555)
Pissed Jeans 'No Convenient Apocalypse' (Sub Pop)
Princess Nokia 'I Love You But This Is Goodbye' (Arista)
Red Wine & Sugar 'Turkish Coffee & Twice Baked Potatoes' (Chocolate Monk)
Rezzett 'Meant Like This' (The Trilogy Tapes)
Richard Youngs 'Modern Sorrow' (Black Truffle)
Rory J S 'P' (no label)
Rrose 'Please Touch' (Eaux)
Solo Andata 'Slip Casting' (12k)
WPH 'III' (no label)
100 Gecs '10,000 Gecs' (Dog Show/Atlantic)
fave back catalogue listens that made sense in 2023
Armand Hammer & The Alchemist 'Haram' (Backwoodz Studioz)
Beherit 'H418ov21.C' (Spinefarm)
Bernard Parmegiani 'De Natura Sonorum' (INA-GRM)
Bowery Electric 'Beat' (Kranky)
Charalambides 'Exile' (Kranky)
Def Leppard 'Hysteria' (Mercury)
Elastica 'Elastica' (Deceptive/Geffen)
Elucid 'I Told Bessie' (Backwoodz Studioz)
Emptyset 'Demiurge' (Subtext)
Emptyset 'Recur' (Raster-Noton)
Hematic Sunsets 'Musik Aus Dem Aroma Club' (Klang Der Festung)
Joey Beltram 'Classics' (R&S)
Ka 'Languish Arts' (Iron Works)
Kim Cascone 'Cathodeflower' (Ritornell)
The Kinks 'Lola Vs Powerman And The Moneygoround Part One' (Reprise/Pye)
Kreator 'Terrible Certainty' (Noise International)
Lol Coxhill & Morgan Fisher 'Slow Music' (Pipe/Aguirre)
Low 'Hey What' (Sub Pop)
Marsfield 'The Towering Sky' (Faraway Press)
Massive Attack 'Mezzanine' (Virgin)
Matt Harkin 'Sanctuary 1, 2015-2016' (Hobbies Galore)
Maurizio Bianchi 'Endometrio' (no label/Dais)
Moodymann 'Mahogany Brown' (Peacefrog)
Moor Mother & billy woods 'Brass' (Backwoodz Studioz)
Nearly God 'Nearly God' (4th & Broadway)
Nightcrawlers '2031 AD' (no label)
Richard Youngs 'Beyond The Valley Of The Ultrahits' (Sonic Oyster)
Rita Revell 'I Had A Very Bad Time!' (Happy Endin')
Roc Marciano 'Reloaded' (Decon)
Seine Trance-Parenz Fredi Alberti 'Klaenge Aus Dem Engelsraum (Die Verdunklung Der Sonne Und Des Mondes)' (Scribble Art)
Simbiosi 'Elements' (Werkdiscs)
Suede 'Dog Man Star' (Nude)
Valerio Tricoli 'Say Goodbye To The Wind' (Shelter Press)
100 Gecs '1000 Gecs' (Dog Show)
fave melbourne/naarm restaurants in 2023
Khabbay (Indian/Pakistani, Carlton)
Laksa Village (Malaysian/Chinese, Donvale)
Cinger Biang Biang (Dolan/Uyghur/Chinese, Carlton)
Lim Kopi (Malaysian, Naarm/Melbourne CBD)
Raya (South East Asian desserts, Naarm/Melbourne CBD)
Taste Hunan (Hunan/Sichuan/Chinese, Naarm/Melbourne, CBD)
Laksa House (Malaysian, Naarm/Melbourne, CBD)
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Brendon Randall-Myers
(composer, Scarcity, Marateck, Glenn Branca Ensemble)
If 2022 was the Return of the Show and the Return of Travel, 2023 was about Building Stability (i.e. making my teaching studio a primary income source), Hunkering Down to Finish Two Albums, and Re-Learning How to Be a Human Being. I also played a bunch of cool shows with Dither (collabs w/ Carla Kilhlstedt, Lee Ranaldo/Brian Chase, Amirtha Kidambi, AJ Santillan, and Laurie Spiegel; playing Electric Counterpoint on GFA), a couple fun Scarcity shows (playing with Liturgy, improvising on graphic scores by Anthony Hawley) and did some performances with Whimbrels and Contemporaneous.
These were albums I enjoyed (incessantly) at some point during 2023 that were mostly - but not exclusively - also released in 2023.
Agriculture - Agriculture
Armand Hammer - We Buy Diabetic Test Strips
Arnold Dreyblatt - Resolve
Big Brave - Nature Morte
Blackbraid - Blackbraid II
Bummer - Dead Horse
Caroline Polachek - Desire, I Want to Turn Into You
goat (JP) - Joy in Fear
Goldfeather - Change
JPEGMAFIA & Danny Brown - SCARING THE HOES
Jute Gyte - Unus Mundus Patet
KEN Mode - VOID
Killing Joke - Night Time
Krallice - Mass Cathexis 2 - The Kinetic Infinite
Model/Actriz - Dogsbody
Modern Nature - How to Live
Nabihah Iqbal - Dreamer
Neil Young - Greatest Hits
Oren Ambarchi - Shebang
Pink Pantheress - Heaven knows
The Prodigy - The Fat of the Land
Rid Of Me - Traveling
Slowspin - Talisman
Smashing Pumpkins - Siamese Dream
Swans - The Beggar
Trauma Bond - Winter’s Light
Tristan Kasten-Krause and Jessica Pavone - Images of One
Victory Over the Sun - Dance You Monster To My Soft Song!
Yaeji - With A Hammer
Here were some shows I attended:
Wolf Eyes + Raven Chacon @Union Pool
Liturgy @TV Eye
Gamelan Dharma Swara, Ridgewood Presbyterian Church
Moor Mother @Merkin Hall
Object Collection @The Brick Theater
Spectral Wound @Saint Vitus
Pyrrhon + Barrsheadahl @Saint Vitus
The Smile @Forest Hills Stadium
Krallice @Saint Vitus
Mediaqueer @Windjammer
Sarah Hennies + Tristan Kasten-Krause @Issue Project Room
Peter and the Wolf @Guggenheim
Model/Actriz @Music Hall of Williamsburg
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Grace Bergere
(songwriter / singer / performer)
This year was full of firsts for me!
Definitely the most musically eventful year of my life to date.
I went on my first tour playing bass with my great friends in COP/OUT, supporting Days n' Daze (A band I'd been listening to for years as a young punk kid.) I immediately realized touring is really all I want to do.
I also got to tour alongside Subhumans in Cop/Out. Meeting them and getting to know them was mind expanding.
They were all kind and humble thoughtful individuals, completely down to earth and engaged with everyone they spoke to. Every night across the midwest they brought the crowd to a cathartic screaming euphoric mess. Working with COP/OUT, whose message is so clear; to be good to each other, question everything even when it means swimming upstream with every bit of strength you have, filled me with hope.
Playing on that tour with them, and watching Subhumans every night reminded me the power of music to affect real social change which is something I believed to have been lost in recent years. I met my great friend Jessica Mills on that tour and we still talk all the time.
I also started playing guitar in The Art Gray Noizz Quintet. One of my longtime favorite bands (that my very talented cool boyfriend happens to play bass in.) We went all across the West Coast, landing in Las Vegas.
Playing with them has demanded I advance as a guitarist, stepping into Andrea Sicco's shoes. Andrea is a complete beast of a musician and all of his musical projects are awesome. Check out MOVIE MOVIE, his most recent project.
I also joined Crazy And The Brains on second guitar. They’re a super fun high energy punk band. I love being around such positive fun loving musicians and watching them bounce around while I do my best to keep up.
I recently finished recording my album at HOBO SOUND in Hoboken by James Frazee. The time and effort it took over the several years since I started, was at times grueling. But James never stopped caring or checked out. He helped me shape this album into something I am truly proud of, along with Richard Dev Greene, one of the first people to ever believe in my music. I am so grateful to both of them.
I started spending time with Victoria and Kay of Puzzled Panther. They quickly have become two of my best friends. It is so meaningful for me to have found such badass, driven young women to share a dream with. Puzzled Panther is raw and hypnotizing. They have a unique strong hold over their audience and every show of theirs I’ve been to has been fantastic. Victoria has joined me a few times on a song at my shows, and every time I believe has been one of the strongest points in my set.
I Met Eugene Hutz of Gogol Bordello (the first huge band I ever went to see as a young teenager.) He will be releasing my upcoming single and video for “Come And Go” on his label Casa Gogol Records in early 2024.
I just played the biggest show I’ve ever played with my solo project that plays under my name.
We were on a bill with Gogol Bordello and JON SPENCER (Also one of my favorite artists.) Being on that stage standing there in front of more people I’ve ever seen in an audience from that vantage point, I felt like every second of my life was leading to that moment. Each song brought me back to the time in my life when Id written it and it felt very much like watching my life projected in front of me. It was indescribably satisfying to be on that stage. Later, in the audience, I screamed along to Gogol and watched my mom dance to songs she'd heard me blasting through the house as a kid, and felt just as moved by them as I did as a young teenager the first time I saw them.
I am so grateful to be working with Eugene. He is kind and thoughtful in his feedback and hugely supportive of me and my dreams.
I will be playing New Years Eve with the Art Gray Noizz Quintet before Kid Congo Powers and The Pink Monkey Birds !!
This last week I can honestly say, has been the best of my life to date. Like looking out over a valley after climbing for years.
BEST SHOWS
(other than the ones I was lucky enough to play at listed above)
RICHARD DAWSON
I got to see Richard Dawson three whole times!!! it was his first US appearance. He is a completely unique force. I’ve never seen such a captivated crowd. we all cried and screamed along with him.
PIGS X 7
One of those times he was playing with Pigs x7. They quickly became another favorite band of mine despite having severe technical difficulties. it was actually kind of a highlight because their front man just started joking around and had the entire audience laughing along with him and talking for about 10 minutes. I got to see them two other times that went perfectly. What a band..
JON SPENCER AND THE HIT MAKERS
I saw them at TV Eye. I had been able to squeeze myself into the DJ booth for their set. They hammered away into some kind of magical hypnosis that made me feel like I'd taken MDMA. (I had not.) I had to lean against a wall to keep my balance. They played with Licks, a badass 60s garage rock inspired band fronted by my friend Skunk.
LYDIA LUNCH RETROVIRUS
Also driving and hypnotic and loud as hell. I was left with a similar feeling of having been dosed with something at all of their shows…
JOSEPH KECKLER
The first time I saw Joseph perform was at TV eye with Lydia Lunch. He’s completely unique. He writes gorgeous songs that he sings in an incomprehensibly wide range, sometimes in languages that he has invented himself! His seamlessly mixes humor with honest beautiful songwriting.
SONGS I LISTENED TO A BILLION TIMES THIS YEAR.
ART GRAY NOIZZ QUINTET- Lie Come True
JOSEPH KECKLER- The Ride
JON SPENCER AND THE HIT MAKERS- Death Ray
GOGOL BORDELLO- Shot Of Solidaritine
PUZZLED PANTHER- Smoke And The Mirrors We Broke
PIGSX 7 - Reducer
ARCHERS OF LOAF- Banging On a Dead Drum
OLDER HITS THAT WERE NEW TO ME
LAURIE ANDERSON- Poison
POISON GIRLS- Fear Of Freedom
CULTURE SHOCK- Things To Do
CAPTAIN BEEFHEART- Tropical Hot Dog
WARREN ZEVON- Desperados Under The Eves
MINNIE RIPERTON- Les Fleurs
BOBBY GENTRY - Ode To Billy Joe
TOWNES VAN ZANDT- Highway Kind
BOOKS
Joseph Keckler- Dragon at the edge of a flat world.
Mark Lanegan- Sing Backwards and Weep
Miriam Toews- Fight Night
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Marc Urselli
producer / engineer / sound designer
I want to thank JG Thirlwell for inviting me to submit my 2023 Year in Review. I had never done one of these before and it's been a fun challenge to go through my calendar and social media to remember and realize how much I was able to pack into this year! Selecting and writing down all of these things also helped me further grasp and understand how tremendously privileged and lucky I am to be able to do what I love all year around, year after year, and to live my life to the fullest and according to my own wishes and my own design. I don't take this lightly and I don't take it for granted. I am very aware that it comes from hard work, limitless passion and unweavery dedication, not just luck and good fortune, but nevertheless I am grateful every single day for this life and for being healthy, being able to do all of this, and for all the people in my path who trust me, inspire me, support me, challenge me, and enlighten me!
STUDIO SESSIONS, ALBUMS & PRODUCTIONS
When compiling this list, it really dawned on me how fortunate I am to be working with such incredible talents and how priviledged I am to be able to witness, participate and contribute to the creation of exceptional works such as the following:
Producing, Recording & Mixing sessions with David J of Bauhaus, Norwegian artist Ihsahn (of Emperor) & Toby Driver (of Kyao Dot), John Stanier (of Battles), Brian Chase (of Yeah Yeah Yeahs), Restless Spirit, Vicki Peterson (of the Bangles), John Cowsill (of the Cowsill Family and The Beach Boys touring band) and many others for my new RAMONES tribute album to come out next year on Magnetic Eye records
Producing, Recording and Mixing a cover of Soundgarden's song "4th of July" with my doom metal / throat singing project SteppenDoom for the Magnetic Eye album "Soundgarden (Redux) and featuring Matt Cameron of Soundgarden themselves on drums
seeing the release of Brian Carpenter's "Ghost Train Orchestra & Kronos Quartet - The Music of Moondog" album featuring Kronos Quartet (which I recorded at EastSide Sound) and many other amazing guest artists
Producing, Recording, Mixing, and Mastering a live album by Brazilian artists Zé Ibarra, Dora Morelenbaum and Julia Mestre of Bala Desejo for Glasshaus Presents & Tower Records
Mixing new albums by Glenn Max Vanderwolf (produced by Dennis Martin), by Bloodmist (Toby Driver, Mario Diaz De Leon, Jeremiah Cymermann), and by Ikue Mori & Zeena Parkins at EastSide Sound fully utilizing the analog console and the analog outboard gear (something nowadays is more and more rare)
Recording & Mixing 6 new albums by John Zorn this year alone, which brings my total JZ count to over 120 albums, and which as of this year can finally be heard on streaming platforms as well!
Recording and Producing a new album by Marco Cappelli's Italian-inspired band IDR at EastSide Sound in NYC and then going to Rome, Italy to overdub trombone and vocals with famed contemporary Neapolitan singer Raiz
Producing, Recording, Mixing, and Mastering 2 new albums by incognito jazz / blues artist Russell Orr with legendary Brian Marsella & Brian Mitchell on keys, respectively
Recording, Mixing, and Mastering two new albums by Jessica Pavone and her trio
Producing, Recording, Mixing and Mastering a "We Are the World"-type track for NYC Mayor's Office of Immigrant Affairs with a song composed by Captain Beefheart / Jeff Buckley's guitarist Gary Lucas and 10 other musicians from various parts of the world playing their local instruments and singing in their mother's tongue
Recording and Mixing the new album by Italian singer/songwriter Beppe Voltarelli, produced by Simone Giuliani, which took second place in Italy's Premio Tenco
Recording a new film score by composer Billy Martin (of Medeski, Martin & Wood) and arranged by Simon Hanes (of Tredici Bacci)
Producing, Recording, Mixing, and Mastering contemporary classical music sessions commissioned by Miller Theater and Columbia University with artists such as Laura Barger & Julia Den Boer, Miguel Zenon, Matt Mitchell & Miles Okazaki, Russell Greenberg & Vicky Chow
Recording new albums by contemporary classical/jazz musicians such as Miles Okazaki, Brian Drye, Anna Webber & Matt Mitchell and others
Recording new albums by amazing Latin Jazz artists such as Gili Lopes, Homan Alvarez, Rodrigo Recabarren, Benjamin Furman
seeing the HBO release of John Lurie’s “Painting with John” new season where all the music was recorded & mixed by me and seeing my face briefly on TV
recording in an old church in Italy with Adriano Viterbini and Vincenzo Vasi for a project that will come out sometimes next year hopefully
SOUND DESIGN GIGS & LIVE SOUND MIXING GIGS
Similarly to the list above, I am eternally greatful for the fact that all these wonderfully talented people trust me with designing, mixing and amplifying their sound so that the rest of the world can truly and fully experience their art in the most complete, sonically articulated, detailed and full spectrum way there is! Some of these highlights include:
Mixing a 90-piece orchestra + 90-piece choir playing the score to Stanley Kubrick "2001: A Space Odyssey" live-to-picture conducted by Brad Lubman in the Auditorio Nacional of Mexico City to a sold-out crowd of 10'000 people
Mixing the Grammy Award Premiere Ceremony in Los Angeles and being there to amplify and mix the immensely talented house band led by Cheche Alara and the performances by musicians such as Samara Joy, Anoushka Shankar, Arooj Aftab and more…
Mixing the Robbie Robertson tribute concert & memorial organized by Martin Scorsese at Village Studios in Los Angeles with artists such as Jackson Browne, Jason Isbell, Rocco DeLuca, Citizen Cope, Angela McCluskey, Blake Mills and Jim Keltner
Mixing the National Christmas Tree Lighting Ceremony concert at the White House with artists such as Dionne Warwick, Samara Joy, Joe Walsh of the Eagles, St. Vincent and others.
Sound Designing and Mixing the world premiere of "Perle Noire: Meditations for Joséphine" at the DNO Dutch National Opera House in Amsterdam, a beautiful performance/concert/opera directed by Peter Sellars, composed by Tyshawn Sorey and performed by Tyshawn Sorey and ICE International Contemporary Ensemble with soprano Julia Bullock
One of my sound design pieces inspired by Icelandic nature sounds and folklore was presented at the "Le Son 7" Art Gallery in Madrid between the 3rd and the 13th of May 2023, after it was presented the year before in London and will be presented in January 2024 in New York
mixing 12 shows by John Zorn in 2 days at Big Ears Festival in Knoxville TN
mixing more shows by John Zorn to celebrate his 70th birthday in places like Walker Art Center in Minneapolis, Miller Theater in New York, Reggio Emilia and Modena in Italy, Philharmonie in Paris, November Music Festival in Den Bosch Netherlands and Mexico City
Mixing Brian Carpenter's Ghost Train Orchestra live at Roulette with special guests David Byrne, Karen Mantler, Joan As Policewoman AND doing so right after I mixed another matinee gig earlier in the day with the New York Choral Society
working sound for the Met Gala at the Metropolitan Museum of Art with musical guests Lizzo and David Byrne
Mixing Claudia Acuna at Lincoln Center
mixing Idina Menzel's performance in Trafalgar Square in London for Gay Pride 2023
playing keys (something I almost never ever do!) for Japanese electronic artist Coppé's first-ever performance in Italy
mixing my first ever K-pop gig in Times Square NY
teaching Mixing Workshops at SAE in Mexico City and MOB Studios in Rome, Italy
RECORDS
In no particular order, here are some of my favorite records of 2023 that I was not involved with but I wish I had been ;-)
Anohni and the Johnsons "My Back Was a Bridge for you to Cross"
Lil Yachty "Let's Start Here"
Boygenius "The Record"
Ryuichi Sakamoto "12"
Jaimie Branch "Fly or Die Fly or Die Fly or Die ((World War))"
Arooj Aftab / Vijay Iyer / Shahzad Ismaily "Love in Exile"
Peter Gabriel "I/O"
Hania Rani "Ghosts"
Meshell Ndegeocello "The Omnichord Real Book"
Bill Frisell "Four"
- Ambrose Akinmusire, Bill Frisell, Herlin Riley "Owl song"
Porcupine Tree "Closure / Continuation"
Dr. John "The Brightest Smile in Town"
Spencer Zahn "Statues II"
Meshuggah "Chaosphere 25th anniversary 2023 Remastered edition"
Ennio Morricone "Segreto Songbook 1962-1973"
Sin Fang, Kjartan Holm "Angakok"
MUSIC SHOWS
It's always hard for me to recount the shows I've seen because I usually see about 300-500 shows every year. LPR (Le Poisson Rouge) definitely shines through as my favorite venue and the one I've visited most often! Here are some of the highlights of 2023:
Spotlights, Imperial Triumphant, Puzzled Panthers at Saint Vitus
"La Splendida", a heavy metal opera by Laurent David & Kilter at Culture Lab LIC
Exotech 3 times, at Public Records, Mark Morris Dance Theater and at LPR
Tredici Bacci at least 2-3 times, one of which at Sultan Room
John Cale at Paradiso, Amsterdam
Plini at Melkweg, Amsterdam
Mary Halvorson Quintet at Bimhuis, Amsterdam
Thurston Moore at OCCII, Amsterdam
Jeff Goldblum at Town Hall
Xylorius White at LPR
Hal Willner's Amarcord tribute concert at Roulette
Snarky Puppy at Beacon Theater
Tim Bernardes at LPR
Groa at Taste of Iceland showcase at Pianos
JG Thirlwell & Mivos Quartet at National Sawdust
Bloodywood at Irving Plaza
Hermeto Pascoal twice, at Pioneer Works and LPR
Sexmob at Fotografiska
Grace Jones at Hammerstein Ballroom
Lisa Fisher at Blue Note
Iggy Pop and Debbie Harry / Blondie, London
Laurie Anderson & SexMob Let X=X at Barbican in London and BAM in Brooklyn
- The Cult at MEDIMEX festival in Taranto, Italy
- Tom Morello at MEDIMEX festival in Taranto, Italy
Emperor at Kings Theater
Ibrahim Malouff at Drom
- Elan Mehler & Dave Douglas at Fotografiska
The Misfits at Prudential Center
- Oumou Sangare at Brooklyn Bandshell
Red Fang at Gramercy Theater
The Eagles & Steely Dan at MSG
- Tammy Faye Starlight at Joe's Pub
Julian Lage at Village Vanguard
- Mdou Moctar at Summerstage
Makaya McCraven at Locus Festival, in Locorotondo Italy
Fatoumata Diawara at Locus Festival, in Locorotondo Italy
Sisters of Mercy at Cinzella Festival, in Grottaglie Italy
SunRa Arkestra at Locus Festival, in Locorotondo Italy
Robert Plant at Locus Festival, in Bari Italy
Mr. Bungle at Terminal 5
Melvins, Boris and all the other amazing bands at Desert Fest at Knockdown Center
Front Line Assembly at LPR
Peter Gabriel at MSG
Empire State Bastard at LPR & St Vitus
Cavalera Conspiracy at Irving Plaza
Swans at Music Hall of Williamsburg
- Steven Bernstein w/ Millennial Territory at Dizzy's
Nick Cave & Jonny Greenwood 3 times, twice at Beacon Theater and once at Kings Theater
The Mission at LPR
- Titan to Tychons at NuBlu
Dresden Dolls at Bowery Ballroom
Robert Glasper's Art Blakey tribute at Blue Note
- Puzzled Panthers at Bowery Electric
Ghost Train Orchestra at Roulette
Arthur Brown in London
The Mongol Khan theater production at the Coliseum in London
8 Bit Big Band at Sony Hall
Bud Spencer Blues Explosion at Monk in Rome Italy
plus all the amazing artists I can't recall individually that I have seen at Winter Jazz Festival, Long Play Festival and Big Ears Festival
BOOKS
I am sadly a slow reader and my pile of books on my bedside table is always bigger than the time awake I have when I finally do get to bed, but here are some I have read, or started to read or am planning on starting to read:
Kid Congo Powers "Some New Kind Of Kick"
Nick Cave & Seán O'Hagan "Faith, Hope and Carnage"
Warren Ellis "Nina Simone's Gum"
Rick Rubin "The Creative Act: A Way of Being"
Quincy Jones "12 Notes: On Life and Creativity"
Quincy Trouple "Miles & Me"
MUSEUMS
I try to visit museums in every city I go to, whether I am on tour, working, traveling for pleasure or whatever the reason is… Art is my passion, my love and a way of life…
Museu Picasso, Barcelona, Spain
Fundcaio Joan Miró, Barcelona, Spain
The Salvador Dali Theater and Museum, Figueres, Spain
Salvador Dalí House / Fundació Gala, Cadaqués, Port Lligat, Spain
Park Gúell, Barcelona, Spain
Moco Museum, Barcelona, Spain
Sagrada Familia, Barcelona, Spain
Vermeer Exhibit, Rijksmuseum, Amsterdam, Netherlands
Moco Museum, Amsterdam, Netherlands
Rijksmuseum, Amsterdam, Netherlands
Amsterdam Museum, Amsterdam, Netherlands
Stedelijk Museum, Amsterdam, Netherlands
Van Gogh Museum, Amsterdam, Netherlands
Art on Paper, New York
Frieze, New York
Karl Lagerfled "A Line of Beauty", Metropolitan Museum of Art, NY
Yayoi Kusama "Infinity Mirror Rooms", Tate Modern, London, UK
Frida Kahlo & Diego Riviera House & Studio, Mexico City
Palacio De Bellas Artes, Mexico City
Museo Jumex, Mexico City
Museo Tamayo Arte Contemporanea, Mexico City
Paul Gugelmann "Poetic Machines", Aarau, Switzerland
MOVIES
There are soooo many movies I still want to / need to see… I love movies but I prioritize work and live music in my life and I will only watch movies on planes, on (very very) rainy days or those rare times when I don't have a concert on my calendar, so here are a few of those rainy/non-concert films, in no particular order:
Killers of the Flower Moon (for the story, the acting and the soundtrack)
Equalizer 3 (because aside from its Hollywood-ish story and ending, it's a realistic look at how organized crime works in Italy)
Little Richard: I am Everything (for his story, his character, his music and his courage!)
Psychedelicized: The Electric Circus Stroy (for the amazing portrait of a time that's past but that changed NYC forever!)
American Symphony (for the amazing story, talent, spirit and courage of Jon Batiste)
32 Sounds (because my life is about sound…)
Hallelujah: Leonard Cohen, A Journey, A Song (because Leonard was an amazing artist and songwriter and singer and so many friends are in this movie)
Oppenheimer (because that history is so complex and so divided as the country in which it took place)
TRAVEL
Travel is the richess of life! I travel SO MUCH that I am on a plane AT LEAST once a month and usually it is to an international location… This year was no different, so I've decided to only list 12 trips for this section:
January: Ringing in the year in a medieval tower in Barcelona and spending the first 4 days of the new year trying all the tapas bars, restaurants, food stands this beautiful city has to offer and seing the Sagrada Familia cathedral for the 3rd time in my life
February: Living in Amsterdam for 3 weeks visiting all the musuems, all the music venues and all the while working at the Dutch National Opera with some amazing folks (see list above)
March: Snowboarding the Swiss and the French alps
April: Visiting Knoxville Tennessee for Big Ears (easily the best independent music festival in the US!!!) for the 2nd time in 2 years, and hopefully the beginning of many more visits in the future!
May: Spending time in sunny Los Angeles and plotting a way to spend more time there and make music
June: Visiting London twice in one month to work and see amazing music shows, theater shows and art exhibits
July: coming back from London on July 6th only to realize that strangely there is no travel for the rest of this month! So weird and unusual!
August: Spending the month in Puglia, Southern Italy eating good food, kitesurfing in the Adriatic and Ionium sea, seeing tons of concerts and playing one myself!
September: arriving in Mexico City and getting my very own police escort motorcade to make it in time from the airport to the theater
October: On tour with John Zorn in Italy, France and the Netherlands
November: Flying to Los Angeles with a 36 hour notice for a concert I was hired for in secrecy having been told "we need a mixing engineer who can mix music for a room full of musicians" and showing up for the Robbie Robertson tribute orgnaized by Martin Scorsese with people like Joni Mitchell and Leonardo DiCaprio in attendance
December: DC-to-DF aka flying to Washgington DC to work at the White House and then flying straight to Mexico City
I've finished the year with travel to my motherland of Switzerland, my fatherland of Italy and my second home of London UK!
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DJ Food aka Kevin Foakes
Music:
Kosmischer Laufer - Volume 5 LP (UCR)
Soia, Julien Sénélas, Jérôme Vassereau - In C for 11 Oscillators and 53 Forms LP (unjenesaisquoi)
Cate Brooks - Tapeworks DL (Cafe Kaput)
Memorials - Music For Film: Tramps! LP (State 51 Conspiracy)
King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard - PetroDragonic Apocalypse… LP (Album of the year)
Brian Eno - The Lighthouse radio station (Sonos) (most listened to)
Niholoxica - Source of Denial LP (Crammed Discs)
SareemOne - Olivine Window
Coast Contra - Breathe & Stop Freestyle/Never Freestyle/Scenario Freestyle
Move78 - Grains LP
Heiroglyphic Being - The Moon Dance LP (Apnea)
Raj Pannu - Past Crimes EP 12" (To Pikap Records)
Gordon Chapman-Fox - The Nine Travellers LP (Castles In Space Subscription Library)
Gigs / Events:
Beyond The Streets exhibition @Saatchi gallery, London
Sunroof / Finlay Shakespeare @iklectik, London
The Light Surgeons - The Consensual Hallucination @iklectik, London
Memorials at the State 51 Summer Psych party @State 51, London
FogFest2 @iklectik, London
JG Thirlwell & Ensemble @Bush Hall, London
Machina Bristronica, Bristol
Visiting Peel Acres with Eilon Paz for Dust & Grooves
Nihiloxia @the Jazz Cafe, London
Design / Packaging:
Yves Malone - A Hello To A Goodbye LP (Castles In Space)
Drumetrics - Phuzzle (Drumetrics)
Waclaw Zimpel - Train Spotter LP (State 51)
David Boulter - Factory 3" CD (Clay Pipe Music)
Fluctuosa - Wetware EP 12" (Analogical Force)
Fluxus - Orbit & Shine LP (Castles In Space)
Floating Points - Birth4000 12" (Ninja Tune)
Cate Brooks - Easel Studies LP + badge (Clay Pipe Music)
Brian Eno - Top Boy OST CD (Beatink)
Books / Magazines / Comics:
Medical Grade Music - Steve Davis & Kavis Torabi (White Rabbit)
Doctor Strange - Fall Sunrise - Tradd & Heather Moore (Marvel)
Tales To Enlighten - The New Testament - Matt King and James Edward Clark
Pop - Milton Glaser (Phaidon)
Kevin O'Neill Apex Edition (2000AD)
Mark Stafford - Salmonella Smorgasbord (Soaring Penguin Press)
Savage Impressions - Bruce Lichen (Independent Project Records)
Hexagon Bridge - Richard Blake (Image)
Monica - Daniel Clowes (Fantagraphics)
Acid Valley - Luke Insect
Petrol Head - Rob Williams & Pye Parr (Image)
Lawless - Dan Abnett & Phil Winslade (Rebellion)
Giant Robot Hellboy - Mignola/Fegredo (Dark Horse)
Facelss & The Family - Matt Lesniewski (Oni Press)
Films:
Barbie
Squaring The Circle : The Story of Hipgnosis
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Just Friends | edwards x Luke!twin
Here is the Ethan fic, hope you enjoy!
Part 2 | Insta Edit
~You are Luke Hughes’s twin sister and play hockey and softball at the University of Michigan. You are very close with Luke given that you are twins. You are best friends with teammate, Ethan Edwards. You and Ethan were always flirty with each other but were always strictly friends. Until, maybe you weren’t.~
*This is a part one of I don’t know yet. Takes place freshman year.*
October, 2021
Morgan’s POV
I’m currently hanging out with my brother and our teammates. We decided to have a movie night in Ethan and Mark’s dorm, since I had a projector and Ethan didn’t put anything on his wall. I put on Miracle because we couldn’t decide on anything and I figured that everyone would be happy, and they were.
Somehow, I wound up squished between Ethan and Mark. Ethan is quite literally my best friend. We do everything together and it’s been that way since we stepped foot on campus. When we’re not in class, at hockey, or me at softball (because I’m a two sport athlete) we’re always together.
Ethan put his arm around me and pulled me closer to him. This was a common thing we did. Me and Ethan are just friends though. I lean my head against his shoulder because I’m starting to get tired. I had 6 am weights for softball on top of three classes and hockey practice. This was a regular thing for me. I feel Ethan kiss my head (something that was also a common thing between us) and say, “Go to sleep, you had a long day. I’ll wake you when the movie is over and walk you back. Just close your eyes morgs.”
I nod and listen to him. I don’t really remember falling asleep but I remember hearing a camera click and someone that sounds like Dylan say, “They’re cute. Are we sure that they are just friends?”
“Yes. Morgan would’ve told me if she had a boyfriend. I’d know anyways, we’re twins remember.” Luke said in a ‘duh’ tone.
Mark comments. “And Ethan would’ve mentioned it. He talks about her a lot so it would’ve come up.”
“And neither Sarah or McKenna have mentioned it. So they’re just friends Dylan. Just drop it dude. Should we wake them?”
“Nah. She can stay. He’ll walk her home in the morning so it’s fine. She had a long day so let’s not disturb her. You guys should get some sleep too.” Next thing I know, I feel Ethan’s arms tighten around me and I drift back to sleep.
January, 2022
Morgan’s POV
Now that the spring semester has started, my days have become longer as the softball team is in preseason mode. I have to rearrange my entire schedule to accommodate lift, two practices, 5 classes and games. It’s stressing me out. Hutch is letting me do individual practice with a coach. It’s pissing a lot of my teammates off because they think I’m slacking off when I’m doing double the work. They have started being bitches to me and it pisses me off.
I taught Ethan how to soft toss so that I could get BP in everyday. He’s actually pretty good at it. He throws to me every time I ask and I could not be more grateful. We’re at the cages right now since I had a break in my day. He says, “Three more mego. Then can we be done? I have homework and we have practice at 4.”
“Only if they are good ones.”
“Ok Ms. Perfectionist.” He says with attitude. He throws them and I hit all three of them perfectly to the top right corner of the cage. I put my bat down and we pick the balls up. I turn to Ethan who’s holding the bucket, and say, “Can we go to chipotle or something? I haven’t eaten today.”
“Seriously? It’s 12:30 and you had six am lift on top of back to back classes. And we have practice today.”
“I know that Ethan. I really don’t need you telling me what my schedule is. You sound like Luke.”
“I’m sorry, I’m just worried. You need to take care of yourself morgs.”
“Ethan, I’m fine. Can we just pick these up and get food?”
“Yea. And I’m buying your lunch.”
“Ethan…”
“Not up for debate. Just help me pick these up.” I laugh and we pick the rest of them up before we head to Ethan’s car and to chipotle. He stays true to his word and buys me lunch despite me protesting. A few of the girls from the team come in and see me with Ethan. Jess comments, “Oh, little miss hockey player is here. Must be blowing off practice again. Wish I could skip like that.”
“Oh and she’s with her little boyfriend. How cute? Wonder what he thinks of her skipping practice all the time.” Sierra says. Hearing that pisses me off. I don’t know why but it just does. I say, “can we go?” Ethan says, “yea. Are you ok?” I shake my head no and he says, “Ok. Let’s go then, yea?”
I nod and he holds my hand and leads me out to the car but we don’t get in it. He pulls me in for a hug and I relax under his touch. I think I’m developing feelings for him and it scares me. Ethan rubs my back and whispers, “Hey, it’s ok. Morgs, you’re ok.”
He kisses my head and I pull away no longer wanted to hit something. I wipe the tears that I apparently shed. He forces me to look at him and he asks, “What happened back there? I’ve never seen you mad like that before.”
“I told you about the softball team basically hating me because of me doing individual practices right?” He nods so I continue, “Well, they’ve been making comments and shit. I usually use it as motivation but it’s been getting to my head. Only Luke knows. He’s the only one I wanted to know. And now you.”
“So then what just happened?”
“Two of the girls in there were on the team and made comments about how I must be skipping practice again and how I’m with my little boyfriend as they refer to you as and said something about what you must think about me skipping practice. That’s not even the worst thing that’s been said. I’m just done with it, all of it Ethan. Sometimes I wish I just played hockey and never played softball in the first place. I can’t keep doing this, it doesn’t feel worth it anymore Eddy.”
He pulls me back in for a hug and he says, “you know that they aren’t right meg. You are the hardest working person I’ve ever met. It takes real talent, skill, dedication, and sacrifice to play two division one sports like you’re doing. We’re extremely proud of you. Luke for damn sure is. He brags about you when you’re not around. I’m proud of you too. Don’t let them get in your head. I know it sucks. But you’ve worked so hard for this. Hutch knows that, she knows knows that your putting in double the work. It’s gonna pay off. And I’ll be at every damn game, cheering the loudest for number 6 who is my best friend in whole fucking world.”
I mutter, “thank you.” We pull away and head back to school so try and get homework done before practice. I mean we are students too. I hope he’s right and that everything will pay off in the end.
April, 2022
Morgan’s POV
Today is our rivalry game against State. The whole hockey team is here. I’m excited. Ever since our season ended, they’ve been at every home game and even traveled when we played State at State. These boys really do have my back and I love them for it.
Ethan was right, I got this. Bottom of the seventh, tied at 0, two outs. I get down to my last strike. The pitcher winds up and I get my bat on the ball, sending it over the fence, to win the game. As I’m rounding first base, I hear from the stands, “That’s my best friend right there. WOO! Go blue!”
I shake my head at my Ethan. I can hear Luke too, “That’s my twin right there. Hell yea morg! Go blue!” I turn and see Ethan and Luke chest bump. God I hate them sometimes. But they pulled up like they promised so I deal with it. I approach third base and get ready to high-five Hutch as I jog by. Literally the whole hockey team is on their feet cheering for me especially since we just beat State.
“That’s our girl.” I hear from Nolan Moyle.
“WOO! That’s my girl right there! Number 6 on the field, number 1 in my heart! I love you morgs!” I hear from Ethan fucking Edwards. Oh my god. Ethan is definitely drunk. I laugh it off and get greeted by the team. They're happy but I think it’s because we won, not because I hit a walk off.
It sucks because straight up only like 6 girls like me. Alex, McKenna, Audrey, Kaylee, Sarah, and Ella. Alex is transferring and using her 5th year somewhere else so I’m losing one of my girls. It’s tough but I got my boys.
After we shake hands and everything, I head to the locker room and grab my backpack. I usually just change at the house after games. I go out to all of the boys waiting for me. Ethan comes running over and engulfs me in a huge hug. He reeks of beer. He says, “I’m so proud of you.”
“Party at my house at 9 morgan. Invite whoever. We’re celebrating.” J Bone says. J Bone and his parties. I nod and text my girls and tell them. I ask them not to tell the other girls because I wanted to drink and get drunk tonight.
*At J Bone’s*
I walk in and everybody cheers for me. I immediately get a drink put in my hand by the bone man himself. J Bone stands up by the speakers and. He says, “Alright, everybody shut up for a sec. For those who don’t know, our girl Morgan Hughes, is a two sport athlete. She dominates on the ice for us and kicks ass on the softball field. Today she hit a walk off homerun to beat State. So this is for her. A toast to our superstar. To Morgan!”
“To Morgan!” Everyone toasts me, making me blush. He gets down and turns the music back on. I immediately down my drink and get another before finding my girls. I get greeted in a hug by them. McKenna says, “Ethan is staring.”
“He’s staring at you with heart eyes.” Alex says.
“He’s my best friend. He’s also drunk and probably just horny. Let’s not talk about Ethan.” I say.
“As you wish.” Audrey says. We start dancing together. After about two hours, I’m like 7 or 8 in and drunk as fuck. I feel hands go on my hips and someone behind me. I start dancing on them. I’m feeling extra confident, probably the booze. Oh I’m definitely not gonna remember any of this tomorrow. I turn and see my best friend, Ethan Edwards. Neither of us have a problem with this since we’ve always been flirty with each other. We stay like that for a bit before Ethan whispers, “I’m gonna get another, do you want one?”
“Yes please.” I say and kiss his cheek. I could smell the alcohol on him. I also say, “I’m gonna go find Luke while I can still kinda walk.”
“Ok. Just stay there until I come with your drink.” He says kissing my cheek this time. I stumble through the house to find my brother talking with J Bone, Chic, Moyle, Keato, and Grano. I stumble into him saying, “Lukey!” He grabs me smiling, “Morgy. Having fun?”
“Fuck yea. J Bone, your a g man. Sick fucking party.” I say slurring my words. The guys laugh. J Bone says, “Thanks lady Hughes. How many have you had?”
“Uh, I can’t count that high J Bone. Ethan went to get me another one.”
Moyle says, “Oh boy. Good to know.”
“Was he drunk at my game? He seemed it.” I asked. Luke laughs and says,“Yes. You’re staying at my house tonight by the way. You have no choice.”
I say, “Ok.” “You doing ok?” He asks being a little concerned. I nod, “I’m doing great. Has Ethan been drinking all day?” Luke laughs, “Oh yea. He started when he got out of class. I’ve never seen him drink this much.”
“Oh. Can I tell you a secret? But you have to promise not to tell Ethan.” I say. He looks at me smiling, “Twin promise.”
“Boys, block your ears. Lukey’s ears only.” They laugh and then block their ears. I pull Luke down closer to me since he’s so fucking tall and whisper in his ear, “I’m in love with Ethan.”
“I knew that morgy. It’s obvious. You just play it off as best friends. But you’re both drunk so make a move. You both won’t remember so no harm no foul.”
“This is why your my favorite. Your so smart.”
“Glad I can help.” He taps J Bone and they unplug their ears. I stumble over my own feet and Moyle grabs me before I fall. “Woah, you ok lady Hughes?”
“I’m fucking wonderful Moyle. We beat State, there’s no reason to not be ok.”
They all laugh and I hug Luke. He wraps one arm around me to keep me from falling over. Ethan eventually finds us and hands me my drink. I say, “Oh yay! You just became my favorite. Sorry not sorry Luke.” Ethans wraps an arm around me pulling me into him. I smile and say, “Let’s dance Ethan.” We walk off towards the dance floor.
Luke’s POV
I use Morgan going off with Ethan as my opportunity to make a move on McKenna. We’ve been flirting for a few months but I really like her and want her to be my girl.
I see her dancing with the girls so I go up behind McKenna and whisper in her ear, “Hey baby.” and then kiss her cheek. She turns and smiles at me. “Hey lukey. Finally come to hit the dance floor?”
“Just for you baby.” I say a smirk and pull her close to me.
I grab her hips to dance along with her. She looks up and at me smiles. She reaches up and runs her fingers through my hair. I look down at her with a smirk, “Can I kiss you McKenna?” She nods and I lean in to kiss her.
Morgan’s POV
I look to my right while dancing with Ethan and see Luke kissing McKenna. What the fuck? She’s my best friend. A heads up would’ve been nice. I point it out to Ethan, “He’s kissing her. She’s my best friend.”
“So then kiss his.”
“I am not kissing Dylan.”
“I meant me morgs.”
“Oh. ok.” He leans in and kisses me. I have a feeling that we are both so drunk that we aren’t gonna remember this in the morning. I can taste the beer on his lips. Everything is so fuzzy right now, but I think that’s the alcohol. I don’t remember us stopping but somehow I’m in Luke’s car and cuddled into Ethan’s side in the back while McKenna is in the front seat holding luke’s hand. I’m cold, tired, drunk. “Ethan I’m cold.”
“I know baby. We’re almost at the house. I’ll give you a sweatshirt to sleep in.”
“Thank you. Can I stay with you tonight?” I plead.
“Yea.” Luke pulls into the driveway and has to help us both inside. Ethan almost falls over getting out which is problematic to say the least. I do fall over getting out. “Ow. Ethan why’d you let me fall?”
“I tried baby.”
“No you didn’t. Neither did you Luke, your a bad brother.”
“Morgan, come on. Your drunk and it’s cold. You need to get to bed.” He says trying to get me up. Ethan comes over and tries to help too. I swat their hands away and try to get up myself. I say, “I can take care of myself. And I’m not that drunk.”
“Morgan, seriously. Stop being difficult.”
“I can take care of myself Luke. Just because we’re twins doesn’t mean I need you every second of every day. I’m 18. I don’t need you anymore.”
“Stop being fucking difficult Morgan. Just let us fucking help you. You’re black out drunk right now and don’t know what your doing. Stop being a stubborn bitch, shut up, and just let us fucking help.” He snaps at me. He’s never snapped at me like that. I stand up and lean against Ethan. I snap back at Luke, “Fuck you Luke. Go to hell. Don’t talk to me like that.”
Ethan and I stumble our way up to Ethan’s room. He hands me a sweatshirt and I change for bed. I’ll deal with makeup later. “Hey Ethan?” He looks at me with a raised eyebrow. I kiss him one last time for the night and say, “Good night.”
“Good night.” We climb into bed and drift off to sleep.
I wake up the next morning and I’m in Ethan’s sweatshirt and cuddled into Ethan. I look under the covers and check that we are both wearing clothes which is a relief but I don’t remember anything from last night. I don’t even remember getting here. What the fuck happened last night?
I hear Ethan moving next to me, “Why do I feel like I was hit by a bus?”
“I don’t know. Last thing I remember is being at J Bone’s with McKenna and the girls. What do you remember?” I say rubbing my eyes.
“I remember your brother scolding me for pregaming your game. And I remember your homerun. After that, couldn’t tell you.”
We laugh and then drag ourselves downstairs. I see Luke sitting on the couch watch tv with McKenna. When the fuck did she get here? Luke hears us and says, “Morning. Tylenol is on the counter.”
“Indoor voices.” I say rubbing my temple trying to sooth the headache. I grab the Tylenol and chug some gatorade. Ethan does the same and we both feel like death. I groan and lean against him hugging him. He hugs me back and asks Luke, “What happened last night? Neither of us remember anything.”
“Well, eddy you blacked out at like five from your day drinking. You guys spent most of J Bone’s party with each other. We had eyes on you since you both were blacked out. I was sober and drove home. You guys fell asleep within a half hour of being home.”
I zoned out like halfway through Luke talking. I need food or I’m gonna puke. I use ethan’s chest to hide the light because of my headache. I groan and say, “I’m starving. Can we get food?”
“Yea. I’ll drive. I’m good to drive I promise.”
“Ok.” We got into his car and drove off the get breakfast. He paid for mine, like he usually does no matter my protests. And we head back to the house. I take it nothing happened last night because Luke would’ve said something. We go to Ethan’s room and I cuddle into him to sleep this hangover off.
At least I can chalk up anything I did last night to being drunk. I’m just hoping that I didn’t blurt out that I’m in love with him.
(I have a part 2 ready and currently working on part 3 if anyone's interested)
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