#I AM GOING THRU IT FAM OKAY

[coffin-flop]

i know my cat knows i love him but does he know how much?

#this question haunts me #I'm literally cryinc bc it's a 'holiday' (but also fuck thanksgiving it really is and should be a national day of mourning for indigenous #communities to honor the genocide and the continued violence they face bc of american white supremacy and colonialism) #but like i do have nostalgic ties frkm childhood and im thinking abt how weird life has been #since my mom and I REALLY started growing apart (bc i started to understand things and she started spiraling) #but how none of my holidays feel lonely even whem i mostly spend then alone bc my cat almost always snuggles with me the whole time #like okay yeah this is what its all for in the end #this is what i live for lol #anyway that holiday talk sounded sad but actually it's really happy #when i tried to do holidays w the immediate fam i used to stress a lot and usually experienced something traumatic #so like it's so nice to have quiet peaceful holidays with my angel of a cat who's been here thru it all #the first time he headbutted me was when i came home from my mom's on Thanksgiving the last year i spent it with hwr #idk i just love this lil dude. hes neen a constant for almost 7 years now like wow #also sometimes i hang out w friends or facetime friends after their fam gatherings or friends who also dont celebrate #i was interested in going to an indigenous day of mourning march however i am still feeling pretty awful after my root canal 2 days ago #so i will try to go next year

[captainmera]

Depression has hit me really hard, and a lot of things are happening at the same time.

I'm simultaneously burnt out and on the verge of a collapse, but like... I can't really do anything about it. I'm just sort of waiting for the stick to break so I can work thru it and move along.

I can't even focus on important things like replying to mails without my brain circumventing into something else.

Avpd and burnout is putting me in a constant brain fog these days. And severe maladaptive daydreaming.

I'm trying to be social and grounded, but I feel like everything around me is drowned in mist, and when I speak, it's through molasses.

I know I'm disappointing ppl by putting certain things on hold, like fanfics, my comic, or asks. But I just can't do it r/n. it will come in whatever speed it comes at.

And frankly I'm just too fried and tired to extend more than a sigh of empathy to your frustration with me. I understand you, I do. But I'm just some guy. I'm not getting paid. I'm broke and tired, and I can't be arsed to even be upset.

Atm, I'm doing this Caleb-focused comic mainly just to do something else than hyperventilate or maladaptive daydream. It's helping me have some control over what I disappear into, something physical, rather than sit on the floor and stare off into space.

I could do it for ibwr, I should be putting that energy there.

But there's some stressful things going on there with contracts and whatnot that's put a damper on things. Money is stressful. At least a stressful damper. So it's difficult to concentrate on it with that humming in the background, y'know?

Anyway.

Bear with me, please. I know people are impressed by my productivity and speed - but it's not so impressive once you know I'm just unwell and trying to cope. I also have a lot of time on my hands.

I'm fine, really, I am. /GEN I just can't do four projects at once. I can do two tops. And right now it's the caleb comic and IBWR. That's it.

I'm aware it's not super great to work so much when I'm burnt out.

But know that I'm choosing one pest lesser than another greater pest. So the constant "REST!!" Comments aren't, like, fantastic. I just feel ashamed for not being better than I am or being able to practice what I preach.

Lo and behold, being mentally unwell and not being wholesome healthy about it. Who would've known it is complicated to be unwell, actually? /LHJ /GEN /notSarcasm

I know I don't owe anybody anything. But I just kinda wanted to have a sigh and vague-post-gesture at what I'm standing in to the void of the Internet.

Because I do get comments and asks asking where an update is, or why I didn't draw their ask, or why I'm putting energy in X instead of Y, etc.

So I'm just......... I'm just gonna like....... ignore it. It's not personal.

I love and appreciate your love for my work, I really do. Thank you for all of your excitement and your feedback. Its been a delight. /GEN

But... I'm just gonna have to ignore what the majority of people crave from me and do what I want in the pace I need to do it.

okay? :(

Look. Just allow it fam.

Just allow it.

Using memes to try to communicate some essence of lightheartedness.

#liveblogging

[stealingpotatoes]

askposting: imagine a creative title here

you know the drill bestie. feat. a lot of jedi survivor and some other star warsing

the more you think abt this the funnier it gets. like it means kanera are declaring their income which is absolutely stolen imperial credits to the empire, means kanan went and got a SSN/national insurance number or smthn for his fake identity, and that these ppl who live on a ship ie have no fixed residence are somehow still paying taxes to somewhere. 10/10

@engagemythrusters TUMBLR IS A FUNCTIONING WEBSITE!! i too love when he sit like a people

@finwe77 well now i want to see luke cooking for HIS mando and din being a brave soldier and saying no he's totally fine and then putting the helmet back on to cover his tears and sipping blue milk thru a straw

im like 60% sure thats that aussie dog show but i dont think im qualified to answer this

@stars-are-watching ohhhh nooooo what a shaaaame!!!!! you just HAVE to!!!!!!!

also dw i won't be going on THAT aggressive a cal kestis lockdown. i mean... i imagine you're gonna be seeing a lot of him here for a few days but--

i have to say cal's basic bitch bracca poncho, legally

--- SEVERE JEDI SURVIVOR SPOILERS BELOW!!!!!!!!!!!

WHERE TO START!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN I SAY ALL OF IT???? EVEN IF IT EMOTIONALLY DEVASTATED ME??????

it's probably the cute mantis fam scene before everything goes to shit. theyre all being so domestic and adorable and MERRICAL!! KISS!!!!!!!!!!!! MERRICAL!!!!! cal deserves nice things even tho for the entire cutscene i was thinking "this feels exactly like a scene in another game where we're meant to be going to the final location tomorrow but then my allies betray me" AND WELL.

even if it emotionally obliterated me i also loved the entire bit after bc SO MUCH. HAPPENED. like???????? thE SHOCK OF BODE even if i was getting a bit sus of him after the dagan fight I STILL DIDNT SEE IT COMING AND I WAS SO UPSET AND THEN HE WAS A JEDI AND THEN PLAYING AS CERE!??!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?!??! I WAS GRINNING SO HARD BC OMG COOL EVEN IF CAL IS LIKE. MAYBE NOT OKAY RN THE FUN OF PLAYING AS HER WAS TOO MUCH. AND THEN. HOLY SHITTING FUCK I HAD NOT EVEN THE SLIGHTEST INKLING VADER WAS GONNA SHOW UP. I GASPED SO FUCKIN LOUD LMAO. IT WAS SUCH A GREAT FIGHT, VADER IS SO SCARY, AND I LOVE FIGHT SCENES W HIM BC YOU KNOW FROM BOTH A TACTICAL AND NARRATIVE STANDPOINT YOU CANNOT WIN AND GOD. THE LIGHTSABER FAKEOUT. DOES RESPAWN KNOW THEIR MEAT IS HUGE.

i am a big enough person to admit i cried twice and the bit after this was one of those times <3

BUT YEAH probably fave bit is the cute pre-emotional obliteration moment

#thanks for the ask!

[macfrog]

i’m lowkey shadowed banned so I’ve had to send all my asks anonymously but I just want to thank you so much for scom. I lost my baby last year and this story has so fucking healing being able to live vicariously thru your words. all of the emotions she’s going thru I felt but it’s just something special to know this story ends w a baby. so thank u for everything. for the baby shower ask 🍅 my word is thank you

ps my blog is ichaborgsm if u and the aunties ever wanna be my friend! 🥹

hi, angel! i'm sure i speak for all the aunties when i say we would love to be your friend. you are already part of the fam and we love you 🤍 also - i looked but couldn't find your blog! are you @/ichaborgasm? x

here's a lil line from pt iv!

“For getting me here, for holding my hand…Thank you.”

just a few things i'd like to add, too -

firstly, i am so, so sorry for your loss. i can't imagine the pain you've gone through, and i admire you so very much for your strength and courage. i hope you're doing okay and are surrounded by love and support. i'm sending you the biggest hug through my computer.

i feel so overwhelmed at this message (in the best way). stories hold such power, and i'm so happy that you're able to find comfort and safety in fic. i'm honored beyond words that one of mine has played a part in your healing process.

honestly, i want to say thank you - for reading, but also for letting these characters into your heart. it truly means the absolute world to me. i hope you're able to continue finding such beautiful meaning in the stories you come across.

i hope you enjoy the last part. i'm sending you all my love. please, please swing by anytime. we're all best of friends and aunties in this corner of the internet 🤍

#duckie's baby shower #🍅 #anon

[n0t-vzin1s]

bf!armin x fem!reader

guys i won't hesitate to admit that i'm head over fucking heels in love with armin and if you disagree, fucking fight me

also sorry to my gn or male readers!! these hcs would only make sense with a fem!reader due to how it was written (i am so tired i didn't even realize)

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aot manga spoilers

god where do i start with this maaan

you more or less likely grew up with him, eren, and mikasa

so one day

when you know

THE FUCKING WALLS FELL

he was with you and eren that day

and istg the scared look on his face had you IN TEARS

fuck your parents, armin is all that matters

i would sell my left kidney for armin

anyways

during training, you were almost certain that armin was gay

like absolutely in love with eren LOL

so you brought it up

"yo homie are you gay?"

and he looked at you with the most PUZZLED expression like 😨

but he was like "nah fam"

and he whipped out the "i.." awkward ass gulp "like someone else"

and you already knew it was either you or mikasa but mikasa seen him as brother

and let's b honest

who wouldn't have a crush on armin!!

yeah you were one of em

time skip to god fucking knows where

bro grows some balls and kisses your goddamn ass

regardless

halfway thru, it was ruined due to eren and mikasa walking in like "woah. who is THIS BABE??"

until they realized it was you and that they were screwed lmAo

armin is extremely soft

like not even in like his skin is soft

he's just

baby

yk?

he's so gentle and scared to hurt you

and he's constantly checking up on you and making sure you're okay

often brings you things to show you

he LOVES reading books with you about the outside world

esp b4 he seen the ocean!!

i could see him and you taking horse rides into the large forest against levi's wishes

he feels rebellious when he's with you

random hc buuuut i feel like he would LOVE to dance in the rain

or lay in the grass and watch the stars all the way to the sun rise with you

he knows every single constellation

no doubt abt that

for your birthday, he gets you books!! it's more of a gift to himself, really, but you don't mind cause it's cute!!

for HIS birthday?

you get him books.

for valentine's day?

books.

it's always fuckin books

but it's armins hobby and you love him for it

armin is extremely awkward and constantly needs praise

he has a fear of yoh leaving him for some one who he considers "better"

and you have to remind him

"armin honey there is no one better than you"

he constantly has to be near near you on the field cause he's scared of losing you

but you have to remind him that you can handle yourself

honestly

he finds it hot when you take down a titan

cause like

your muscles are flexing against the tight suit and he just likes the way it looks

he will stand up for you with his life

cleans your injuries for you since he's a goddamn doctor

what kind you may ask?

abortion

he often writes stories abt you

they don't explicitly say your name, but you often realize that they describe you

he actually wanted to be a writer at some point in his life before everything went down

during the time you visited marley, the two of you got some quality time in like eren and mikasa had

but the two of you often sought out the other for comfort when eren started changing

cause like

you grew up with that boy

and to see him change his life so drastically kinda hurt the both of you

regardless

his dreams kinda went down the drain like eren life did

he was so happy that he got to see the ocean with you of all people though

when sasha died, he cried in your arms

as well, when he hange died and he technically became the next commander

he needed a lot of comfort

cause he wasn't sure he was going to do good

but armin struggles to talk abt his feelings!! so to have him open up to you and let himself feel vulnerable infront of you is a huge step for himself

he often doubts his self-worth!! like way too often to be considered normal

anyways

when the rumbling started, his priorities were both you, and mikasa

and he did his best to keep you safe

but hot goth mommy mikasa honestly did better

don't tell him that tho

he never talked about the future

like what would happen after all the titans went away

omg how could i forget

when he became a titan, he started closing himself off for weeks at a time cause he didn't like killing innocent people

but when he opened up you felt bad for him

cause he was so exhausted

like he hadn't slept for weeks at a time

armins trauma is so overlooked

anyways back to the future

he honestly wanted to travel the world and write about what he'd seen over the years

he also wouldn't allow himself to get into a relationship with you until the whole thing was over

cause even tho it would hurt, atleast you or him would've died knowing that there wasn't a future for either of you

buuut it still hurts lol

anyways when he killed eren, he literally sobbed for weeks

regardless if he was seen as a hero in others eyes, he didn't see himself as one

but during the aftermath, when he gets to finally settle down with you, he feels ecstatic

mikasa, you and him (as well as the other living cadets) often visit erens grave and leave things there

armin usually leaves little notes telling him about his life and how things are doing

and they always end in the same way

"how are you doing up there?"

and he usually gets a sign back from the universe somehow, sometimes it'll be a bird landing on him, and other times it could be leaves swirling around him

regardless, it leaves him happy and you in tears every damn time

whenever there's a thunderstorm, armin always says (without failure)

"oo, someone pissed eren off again" while laughing

and you can never understand how he's not sad by his death

he is

god i wrote this with the intention of it being happy but i'm fucking sobbing i hate this

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#armin attack on titan #armin x reader #armin arlert #armin headcanons #armin fluff #attack on titan #aot spoilers #aot fluff #aot anime #aot headcanons #headcanon

[sultrybaby]

Things ENHA hyung line boyzz would do to get ur attention (cuz ur hot)

a/n: Okay so i cant believe we're finally alone im actually writing. i have let school get in the way of writing, which is stupid cuz im way too gorgeous to let school change my lifestyle (also my fam moved and i am a board student and i have 3 projects and im also yearbook editor and i also have a dance performance as well as a fashion show to work on and i have my violin exams plus a separate performance but that does not mean anything its defo academics that is the problem). if i sound mildly drunk thru this shit its cuz i am. why is this so long. anyhoo enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

HEESEUNG: suddenly start humming to impress u like a dumass. He's not gonna sing out loud cuz that is too obvious, but then his only impressive talent is singing (ok jk jk its for the plot dONT ATTACK ME) so whenever ur around he just starts humming an extremely difficult song and hits the perfect notes (i rlly dont wanna do this but my brain just thought of him tryna impress u like dis while he has a blocked nose so now i gotta put that in ur head too LOL). Luckily for him, almost all of us r gonna fall for that shit cuz its so cute :"] (were so gone like what have they done to us)

JAY: grabs ur phone outta ur hand cuz ur not listening to him/ closes ur laptop and carries u to the bed when u stop talking to him mid sentence and he sees u fall asleep on ur desk/ pull u up and feed u something and lecture u when u ignore him while sleepily clicking across an imaginary laptop etc etc (AKJFHKFHDJKFHJKDHFDHK CARETAKER JAY DKFGJDLGJDIGHDHG)

JAKE: does these lil body thingies...like he would say smth and u wouldnt respond so he would go 'eh? *tilts head*' or you did not immediately react to him calling ur name so he kinda rubs the back of his neck. or when he cant sau anything but his waving did not get ur attention so he holds onto ur pinky yk that stuff??

SUNGHOON: okay THIS guy i think u would ignore him on purpose cuz that is how u act around ur crush but then sunghoon wants ur attention but is initially shy to ask for it. so in those stages i think he's start LOUDLY talking to someone nearby in a very awkward manner liek 'HEY DuDeE how was UR weeKENd??' or say smth random like 'd'you know if u were drowning and a dolphin saw u its ore likely to r@Pe u than to save u' and u would pretend to not haave heard but internally this weird stuff be making u fall even more pfft- but then once u two get closer it will be the whole 'i can annoy u forever' x 'i can ignore u forever' duo. for example u would purposely ignore hoon's narcissistic (my god i love it) monologue by pretending to be on ur phone, so he would take away ur phone. so you would not give a reaction and just grab a book. so then he snatches the book. so u go eat something. and then he drops it. and this just keeps going until yall end up not being petty anymore.

#enhypen #enhypen headcannons #enhypen fluff #enhypen x reader #sunghoon #heeseung #jake #jay #niki #sunoo #jungwon #kpop #fanfiction #writer #writerblr #enhypen fanfiction #fanfics #sunghoon fluff #heeseung fluff #jay fluff #jake fluff #jay park #works writing

[nikrei]

March Comics Round-Up

For my own edification, here's what i read during March:

JLA (224-257) (1984-1987)

Okay the transition of the justice league from focusing on world ending threats to street level is both hilarious and the stupidest shit i have seen: it's the fuckin justice league. They have other comics to be street level in. I like all the new characters but its just such a funny direction to take the justice league in. Also the reason they give for switching up the team is that they want full time members, not part time, but then it only takes like 15 issues for them all to be broke and hunting for day jobs.

Fury of Firestorm (1-42) (1982-86)

Ronnie and Martin continue to be a delight, i continue to hate Ed, and Lorraine is my baby girl.

Saga of the Swamp Thing (1-50) (1982-86)

Issues 1-19 are Not Great and also I hate martin pasko now, but oh wow does alan moore's run make up for it, it is so so good. If you are not completionist scum like me just skip to issue 21. (Issue 20 is where moore wraps up all the problems pasko made)

Blue Devil (1-19) (1984-86)

100% a comedy and a breath of fresh air from all the super serious drama going in all these other runs. Dan is definitely not a hero no sir and I love him.

Jonni Thunder (1-4) (1985)

She is The Most hardboiled wet cat detective of all time, if you like noir at all plsplspls read this it's only 4 issues. If you are reading Infinity Inc please read this she shows up in that halfway through and you will love her so much more if you know how much of a wet cat she is.

Deadman (1-7)(1985) but actually (1967-68)

Apparently a reprint of Strange Adventures 205-214, which i didn't realize till i looked it up, like, this seems like it's from a lot earlier than the 80s.... and it was! Actually its the 60s introduction of Deadman. I enjoyed it but it is... very 60s....

Red Tornado (1-4) (1985)

Hes my guy and I love him but this is very much a continuing sort of story for him rather than an intro or standalone so not recommended unless you are already into him.

Crisis on Infinite Earths (1-12) + all tie-ins (1985-86)

Second read thru of coie but the first with all the tie-ins as well. I Love this event So Much and hugely recommend it for anyone into this era but man it has a problem with killing off all the girls (Kara gets a lot of screen time and respect, but Tula, Lory, Helena, and Kole all get one panel or offscreen deaths which sucks) and also overall I don't like how the reset treats the wonder fam (everything to do with earth-2 wonders (justice for lyta omg)) and basically killing/erasing earth-1 wonder woman (returning her to clay, erasing her, her (married during the crisis) husband, and her version of themyscira) in a way that seems solely calculated to keep Diana young and pretty and also destroy her damn legacy (space titan donna retcon I am looking at you).

Amethyst Princess of Gemworld (1-13, 1-17, 1-4) (1983-87)

Read one issue of this as a coie tie in and had to read the whole thing. Its amazing, I love it, it is the ultimate pre-teen girl power fantasy (at least in the first run including all the blood). If I had been introduced to this in th 9-12 range I would have gone fucking feral (the only thing its missing is 'oh no I have to be a boy for reasons' that was complete catnip for me as a child)

#actually made it through coie this month 🙌 #have added two more big runs to the reading list tho rip #next month im really gonna be juggling #nik reads dc #monthly roundup

[hoshi-y]

Hello there! Can I request Akane(male), Mitsuba, Kou, and Yashiro with a reader that is like Anya from spy x family?

A Reader that is like Anya from Spy x Family

genre : Fluff

characters : Mitsuba Sousuke, Minamoto Kou, Aoi Akane, Yashiro Nene

TW : None

A/N : Is this a sign that I should continue Spy x Fam, WAHAHAHA I haven't finished it yet

So, Her Personality :

- impressionable towards the people around her

- quite clever

- she has abandonment issues

- doesn't have good social skills

- severe lack of situational issues & common sense

- tends to be completely honest (too honest)

- Possess a kind and emphatic side

I just wrote that down so I can have a clearer idea HAHA

Troublemaker

You were so impressed about him keeping the title of top student for years now

But when you found out he was a half wonder

aha, This you didn't let it slide

You had a HUGE Interest with supernaturals

and schools 7 Mysteries you just had to know

So when you knew, You started following him around

WHATS HE GONNA DO??

Is he gonna bring out a big clock??

CAN HE STOP TIME?

So you started bombarding him with questions

"Akane Pleeaaassee—"

"For the Last time [F/N] I am not doing that."

But this wasn't the end of your investigation!

After school you'd notice he would always dissappear

So like any other totally not noisy person

You followed him

Buutt it didn't end pretty well

Almost got attacked by a supernatural

and a huge lecture from akane....

As Akane was finishing off the supernatural, You were planning your escape from his wrath

You did not want to deal with an angry Akane, Nope not today, Well it was also your fault for being so noisy at whatever he is doing afterschool..

Right before you could exit, he grabs you by the arm "[F/N]...." Tensing up a bit and slowly looking at him

He was glaring daggers at you—

"How many times do I have to tell you that you can't go here? It's dangerous! What if I hadn't come in on time that supernatural could've hurted you—" You disturbed him by hugging him tightly

"I'm sorry.. I won't do it again.." Looking up at him with slight tears in your eyes

Sighing softly he gently wipes off the tears in your eyes and kisses your forehead "You should, Other wise that would be extra work for me.. You are ome big troublemaker I hope you know that.. " He laughs as he teases you

"Lets get out of here.. Okay?" You nod and you two started heading back to wherever you entered from

Focus on something else

Your first time meeting with him was ehh, I guess not so great

Met him thru Kou!

And found out that he was one of the 7 wonders

You once tried to enter his boundary

Always get dragged out by friends...

Did he call them his friends? Ehh you'll know eventually

He would always say he was too cute to hurt anyone because of his rumor

But you were a bit 'too' honest

"Cute? You look more of a 4/10.." You said scratching your cheek with your pointer finger while you stared at a very stoned Mitsuba

"WHHAAATTT IM CUTE! CUTER THAN YOU!" He crossed his arms and heard a 'Hmp!' From him

He hates how TOO honest you are

You cant seem to lie, Always the truth

But yk, The cold truth is better than a warm lie

Aside from that, He loved your kind and warm nature

Also smart, But had poor social skills..

He once brought you to the broadcasting room

Introduced you to the gang

Ended up shaken as Tsukasa pinned you down for answers..

"hey! Hey! Are you Mitsubas S/O?!?" He said as he pinned you down making Natsuhiko panic

"O-oy! This isn't right Tsukasa get off of them!"

"No way they're so squishy!" He said as he hugged you tightly

Luckily Mitsuba entered and quickly dragged you away from Tsukasa's Touch, You a bit shaken as he pinned you down with no explanation whatsoever

"C-can you not pin anyone I bring in here down?! You scared them!" Petting your head as you were in the verge of tears already

Mitsuba would stick to while you were staying in the broadcasting room

Cause you can't seem to hold a decent conversation sometimes

But eventually warmed up

And really enjoyed your stay!

I guess Mitsubas plan to take your mind on something else rather than his boundary and him being a wonder worked

I'm here

He didn't know how severe your abandonment issues were

Actually he doesn't know about it at all

He soon found out about it when he asked you to hangout at this carnival

The area was new to you so you clinged onto him or stuck beside him

Played lots of games!

He even caught a fish for you ooo

Eventually you two got hungry

Decided to go for takoyaki

You were waiting in line

But Kou? Nah, He was about to walk up to you when the crowd started flooding in the food court

He didn't get the chance to tell you since he couldn't see where you were anymore

So he got swept away by the crowd without your knowledge

"Hmmm, We should go buy Fruit shakes later—" You turned around to ask him what he wants but he wasn't there

Looking around you, You couldn't see any messy blond hair anywhere

Where did he go?

You started walking all around the place hoping to atleast see him wandering around playing in the booths or just looking

But you couldn't find him anywhere, Your phone was dead so you couldn't call him

Did he leave you here? Or much worse did he abandoned you here... What if he got kidnapped—

Your thoughts were interrupted by a hand gently placed on your shoulder "there you are! I was looking all ov—" You turned around and hugged him

"Where did you go?.. I thought something bad happened to you.." Yoy mumbled, Still a bit shaken on what had happened earlier

He patted your head in jopes that it will calm you down "Hey.. Don't worry now.. I'm here.." He said, As soon as you calmed down, The two of you started to enjoy the rest of the day in the carnival

You think I'm pretty?..

She absolutely adored you!

She thinks you're very cute

and wants to get to know you

But you had poor social skills

meaning, You sometimes space out when she talks to you or tend to not reply

Kind of struggling to keep up the conversation

But that's alright! She made it her goal to help you feel comfortable around her!

Started with small talks turned into long conversations!

You surprised her when you started talking first

Ahhh So proud TT

"Nene-Chan, Can I ask you a question?" turning your head to face her as you put the watering can down on the desk

"sure [F/N]! You can ask me anything!" She said

Taking a deep breath you asked—

"Why.. Do you have.. Fat ankles? Do they hurt?" You asked starring at her legs

You've been curious about her legs for awhile now, It amazes you that a human body can be formed in different shapes

You look back up at her and she looked like she was about to break down "You think it's ugly huh?.." You shook you heard

"I think it's amazing that the human body can be formed into different shapes! Plus you look like of those chibis I see on anime" You told her

"AWWW, If only the guys I liked thought of me like that too.. They always say I have ugly daikon legs.."

"Mmm, You're pretty Nene, You don't need a guys validation on what they think about you! If they start commenting about your legs I don't think they are the one for you"

"You think I'm pretty?.." You nodded your head as she hugged you "WAAHHH [F/N] YOU'RE SO KIND"

A new profound confidence was boosted into our heroine Yashiro Nene that day, And she wants to thank you for that

This took me, A loongg time trying to write LMAO

#toilet bound hanako kun #jibaku shoujo hanako kun #tbhk x reader #jshk #jshk mitsuba #jshk akane #jshk kou #jshk nene #tbhk mitsuba #spy x family

[imagine-a-life-like-this]

hello friend it was me the shy anon who asked you about the message app and how you inspired me 🥺 (you dont have to post this if you dont want to, completely up to you!!) but the amount of your scenarios/fake texts of skz, those honestly got me thru a rough time these past few weeks and it pulled me out of a mental state that made me feel like things are worth fighting for and moving forward despite the darkness ;v;

i’m new to fake text aus and it’s because of you (and a few others) that made me want to get back into making reader inserts (maybe on a new blog on tumblr LOL) to make others smile and hopefully feel as happy as i did; honestly im probably rambling rn and not making any sense but tl;dr you’re an amazing, creative person and your works helped me during a bad time to the point where i wanna be a similar light to others too 🥹🫶🏼 thank you for being you 💗thank you for taking the time to read my message 💖🫶🏼

(pls do let me know if i can be added to any future taglists of yours for skz works but if not its okay 🥰 the priority is you knowing the face behind the anon)

Omg hello friend 🥰🥰🥰

I am so glad I could be that for you 🥺 messages like these are what keep me going and posting even when I feel like throwing in the towel. (And my Prismatic Chaos fam but shh that's a secret)

I'm so excited to see what you come up with !!! It really warms my heart that I could help you in some way 🥺💕🥺💕

And yes you can absolutely be added to my Stray Kids taglist 🥺💕

#ask

[safyresky]

JUST TO GIVE YALL AN IDEA OF THE NONSENSE I AM GOING THRU TODAY

PARENTS WERE SUPPOSED TO COME UP FOR THE WEEKEND TO SEE ME

THEN THEY SAID THEY WEREN'T BC THEY WERE TOO BUSY 'AIRING DIRTY LAUNDRY' (metaphorical. they was yellin)

BC MY DAD WENT TO ASK MY BROTHER. WHO ALREADY SAID NO. IF HE WANTED TO COME

THIS IS USUALLY FOLLOWED BY A GUILT TRIP OF 'U NEVER DO ANYTHING WITH US BLAH BLAH BLAH'

so they do that. anyway

ABOUT TWENTY MINUTES AFTER THAT CALL MOM SAYS WE'RE GOOD WE ALL GOT IT OUT OF OUR SYSTEM ON OUR WAY! UR BROTHER IS STAYING HOME! :)

YEAH

I COULDA TOLD YOU THAT

TEN H O U R S AGO

They live 3 hours away from me. as an aside. for context. (thank god)

SO THEY DRIVE UP

MY MOM SENDS HER LOCATION

NO IDEA HOW SHE MANAGED TO ACTUALLY DO IT CORRECTLY

HALF AN HOUR AFTER THEY GET THRU TRAFFIC

A PICTURE OF A DOG IS IN THE FAM CHAT

NO EXPLIBNATION

I'M LIKE ???

MY SISTER EXPLAINS. IN GREAT DETAIL. HOW SHE WANTS A DOG BY 2023

THEY'RE BRAIN STORMING NAMES

THEY SEND ME A PHOTO OF THE BIG APPLE.

I DESPISE THE BIG APPLE

I START DINNER

THEY TELL ME DAD'S BDAY IS FAIRY THEMED THIS YEAR

HE BELIEVES IN FAIRIES SO THEY WANT TO GIVE HIM A TINKERBELL PARTY

OKAY COOL. WHATEVER

THEY ASK IF I NEED GROCERIES

NO! I WENT GROCERY SHOPPING! ALREADY!

MOM'S AMDE A GROCERY LIST!

I GO TO CHECK MESSAGES BC IM SURE THERE'S A FRESH UPDATE

SISTER CALLS ME

SAYS MY MOM WANTS TO KNOW IF I HAVE BREAKFAST FOOD

???????

OF COURSE I DO?? I FUCKING LOVE BREAKFAST

AND

EVERY TIME I SEE MY MIL, SHE GIVES ME 7 PACKS OF BACON! WHY WOULDN'T I HAVE BREAKI FOOD!

MY SISTER'S LIKE 'i dont think mom thinks u have food for us'

I KNEW U WERE COMING! I GOT FOOD!

I WENT G R O C E R Y SHOPPING! THE FUCK!

they're at the grocery store now

dad's just staring into space in an aisle

lasgana's probably cold

i am tired yall

#dani speaks #dani YELLS #long post #dani vents #when the blog becomes the diary #guys im loosing it

[radgranny]

Hi you don’t have to answer this unless if u want to, but. I think things will be okay. Umm I recently broke up with someone I was with for abt 8 years and, at first I felt the same as you, like... completely alone because that was the only person I was ever rly close to for my whole life? My whole routine was talking to them and at first I didn’t know what to do without that familiarity. Like, I’m not close with my family and I don’t rly have friends, just acquaintances I barely talk to at work. I felt scared bc I was completely by myself. But after like a month of being broken up... I realize I rly love being single. I feel like a whole entire person. Like, my thoughts are My Thoughts and I don’t have to think any my ex’s opinion. Yes I’m still lonely sometimes like in a familial sense and sometimes romantic and definitely platonic, but like, I realized I did not need that One Single Person I was so attached to. In fact I don’t even want to speak to her at all anymore (nothing bad happened I just realize I am feeling so free being away from the routine of speaking to someone everyday out of obligation rather than love) so like... idk what I’m trying to say is, your breakup was necessary and it is not going to break you. You are hurting and sad and lonely but you will not feel that way forever. And like, because I am now Not Talking to my ex, I’m suddenly finding more free time to talk to other ppl. I don’t have a best friend or anything yet but sometimes I have a full conversation with someone I think is cool and I’ll think “whoa hey look at that”

You say in the future that one day you’ll be broken and that will be the final straw... but you can’t see the future, what if so many good things enter your life by that point? I know it’s hard to picture but hear me out: what if, a year from now, you made a new friend? What if you find hobbies you enjoy or become very absorbed in a new tv show or book or series in five years? Our lives change and opportunities always come and inevitably we do not stay in the same place even if it feels like we are stuck, eventually the universe gives us a push. Like yeah you might be lonely in the future but it won’t be permanent, it will come in waves, and you’ll have grown so much by then, the loneliness will be easier to handle compared to right now where you’re still testing the waters. You’re a different person today than you were one year ago. That’s just how humans work. Anyway I’m sorry if I was overstepping but literally everything you wrote really resonated with me and idk. I am someone going thru similar feelings as u and I promise shit’s gonna be okay fam

thank you for writing all of this out. i can't describe how much i appreciate it.

just reading this makes me feel like i can breathe a little easier--i really needed to hear it from someone that's been in a similar situation and made it to the other side.

#answered

[faerie-goddess]

my chronic migraine/brain trauma/ptsd timeline is actually:

infancy was spent with horrendous ear infections that led to the discovery im allergic to penicillin and my left ear suffered major ear damage, i could only hear 75% as a child, its worse now. i had to have speech therapy as it affected how i learned to speak. -ages 1-3

whacked in the head with golf club (frontal bone, left side above eye) had to get stitches - age 3

first distinct memories of having migraines - grade school

got glasses; actually remember parents, fam and doctor encouraging/hoping/praying it would fix my migraines - 3rd grade

glasses dont magically fix migraine issue, lots of going to doctor and a neurologist, tests, CT scans, diet restrictions, pills, and weekends spent in the dark with a wet rag on my head while my parents hosted parties - 4th grade

dentist realizes i will need braces but also orders removal of 8 teeth and then i had spacers :) - 4th grade also!!

neurologist told my parents good news is nothing is showing up. i dont actually have any idea what was actually concluded. i only remember stopping the medicine(s) and being told we would go back after puberty????? i think it was abandoned and assumed i would "grow out of it" - between 4th and 5th grade

"your dad has enlisted and will be going away for 3 months for basic training" - 5th grade oh yeah so that explains why it was suddenly dropped.

lots of moments with my best friend erica's family on trips spent puking in public or their car from my migraines amd calls to my parents and my sweet friend stroking my head for me. when we played pretend at sleepovers we would try old school witchcraft and even resorted to black magic to try to cure me. light as a feather but her head stiff as a board no cap - 6th grade

me to my dad one summer day in the BK drive thru: hey dad... my left hand and arm are tingly hehehe is this puberty?

dad: hold these fries we are going to the ER right now

*hours later* ER doc: ah yes what your daughter is experiencing are migraine PRE-symptoms its quite normal for those who suffer from migraines often. its like a warning bell youre about to have one. hope this helps. thank you come again. -summer before 7th grade. this was the day i realized migraines are just basically microdosing having a stroke. i realized i could have a stroke one day over age 30 and i will chalk it up to another pesky ole migraine and will die. sometimes the problems choose you. this day/revelation was a major pillar in my decision to never get pregnant. in a nutshell: my quality of life already sucks lmao fuck adding more shit to it.

"your dad and i have decided its best we are your parents separately. oh also your dad is deploying to iraq so like though separate, we are united. okay? okay." - 7th grade

rehearsed cheer routine during halftime game for junior cheer team, i was a flyer, was thrown into basket toss, wasnt caught on my way down. i remember it all. everything about that day. everything but when i blacked out when i hit the ground. coach jumped onto field running to check on me, my mother screamed "my baby my baby my baby" made a huge show. i stood up and finished routine bc i am committed. it wasnt until i was re-telling this story at age 29 to my boss that i actually had a eureka moment when boss asked me "what did the ER say after? i bet you had a concussion!!! you poor thing!" and I was like "ummm what do you mean? my mom took me home?" I blacked out after hitting the ground for an unknown amount of time, and i was not even taken to get looked at after. - 7th grade, dad was deployed so i bet he would have taken me tbh.

migraines raged on, but remained fallen to the wayside because when my parents got too wrapped up in themselves, my migraine pain was dismissed, gaslit or simply ignored. (or made fun of.) i accepted there was no fixing it anymore and had for a long time, and was committed to just ... dealing with it. especially when kicked out my fathers house the summer i graduated high school, and was then promptly without health insurance until age 28. dealing with them is all i know.

i should add my rape to the timeline. most of it i dont recall. thank fucking heavens. but because it was a huge gap in time, i should consider if i received any head trauma during as well. who knows. the alcohol addiction i fell into after most definitely damaged my brain either way. - age 19.

so yeah if you see me getting uppity with either of my parents NOW who have the fucking balls to try to tell me "why dont you try using mind over matter?" im going to say with no holds barred right back to them "let me hit your head with a golf club and you tell me if YOU can use mind over matter"

im done with their narrative of throwing up their hands and being like welp oh well what can you do??? because what i have been doing is connecting all the fucking dots in my childhood and theyre painting a very obvious picture.

my migraines have to stem from BRAIN TRAUMA right?

i have huge memory lapses in most of my childhood and thats partly from many times spent laying with migraines and also because some blocks are there on purpose. one babysitter my brother and i had was abusive. she did a lot of fucked up things that i remember and i know she did worse bc recently these memories have been resurfacing to me!!! i will only mention what i think relates to migraines: this bitch would lock all the older kids outside every single day (i was one of the older kids) for hours and never would allow us back inside for anything. i was severely dehydrated and prob suffered from mild heat strokes. i remember crying my eyes out to her husband on a harder day when he would always bring the one alotted cup of apple juice bc i hated apple juice and would wail for water. i remember and even discussed in therapy how when i told my parents this they didnt take action. but when i told my grandma the babysitter ripped my 1 year old brother off her couch holding him by just 1 arm to toss his ass on the floor THEN did we finally get told we would be going to a new babysitter. again new memories have been resurfacing but only in flashes and i k n o w i suffered abuse there. i remember trying to find words for the shit i was seeing at age 6 that i didnt know the words to yet because i was 6 that now when these memories present themselves im reminded of how bad it was.

its just beyond infuriating and frustrating now all because my parents had it in their minds i would "grow out of it" so now that we are here presently still with my migraines.... unchanging. still roaring. still chronic. (nothings changed but my routine in preventing and caring which is damn better now that i am in control as a responsible adult BTW.) now that all proof of childhood neglect is staring them in the fucking face theyre blaming me actively in the tone of "you STILL cant figure them out?" which is.... hello???????? hello?!?!!! where do i even begin with that statement....

i just wanted to make this list to remind myself it isnt all in my head.

#personal #abridged chronic migraine life #just the tip of the iceburg

[pantherloid]

#vocaloid #kagamine len #len kagamine #oops - kept him in the basement too long #lowkey vent art #i am going THRU IT fams ☝️☝️ #vent-ish but okay to interact anyway u like!! #basement len

[scoreplings]

angels do exist

#the entire universe has been Screaming at me to love myself today and i did. not listen. #but i am going to try to now #omg sorry for being... not sane on main so much tonight 😐 #well not actually sorry bcuz this is my blog but a little sorry bcuz i like to be Positive here usually nd im not -_- but y feel me right #i dunno #still feel rotten and evil BUT. #instead of punishing myself for it i am going to clean my room. as a treat. #and then go play dnd with my friends. as a treat #yes i will be 24+ hours no sleep and trying to take exams but WHO. cares abt that okay im kissing u on the forehead now mwah mwah mwah okay #i will go clean good Night <3 #OH the reason i made this post was one boy who um. well i was expecting him to be mean to me #but he was super sweet and called me fam and we fistbumped... thru text #yes. he was th angel tonight

[uptownhags]

a story about how tumblr user uptownhags is gonna mind her business. i’m v sorry if you are on mobile and forced to take this wild ride. 

context from a long time ago: sister has a TBI, starts medication, has impaired judgement and memory problems for several years. NOT CUTE, there are major consequences. ‘that never happened,’ ‘idk what you’re talking about,’ still come up in the year 2022. but it wasn’t her fault. 

2017: seeing this guy we called [pick a name] who is also the closest friend i’ve ever had. he’s a lil younger than me, a lil fun™. he gets in a car crash.  he made a bad choice. in hospital, has a TBI. starts medication for migraines, etc. it’s the same one. he is going thru it, is super vulnerable with me, tells me a LOT of serious things. i reciprocate. we’re still walking around with each other’s big secrets. he has memory trouble, but it’s manageable.  2018: i formally meet his brother’s whole sweet family and his cool as hell uncle. my mom and brother love him. ‘i didn’t know that,’ ‘i’m sorry i forgot,’ etc. are a regular thing, but he still makes plans and speeches. he’s a lil salty. doubles meds. physically sick a whole lot, but i know how to handle it.   early 2019:  we name our eventual kids. we celebrate ‘future mothers’ day’ and talk about a tiny back yard wedding with [cutest bb] as flower girl. ‘his parents will come around.’ fall 2019: while i’m out of town, his mother sets him up with a more suitable ((rich af; lawyer)) woman in a different city who shares his culture. it’s v unexpected for all 3 of us. the light in his eyes is gone. we have 2 months of conversations about all the things we’ve been through. he is fuzzy on moments that i consider big. he knows he loves me, but is not totallyyy 100% sure what got us here. he is devastated and cries into my hair. the lawyer friend requests me. it turns out we have mutual friends and i don’t say shit to most people. [pick a name] and i are ‘pals, it’s fine.’  [for 6 months]: i am kind of an asshole privately and say/let my friends and fam say terrible things about the whole situation. who among us has not? pls note 1 or 2 of them were correct, for example he is kinda little. the worst insult queen of tx has is ‘she didn’t trust that gorgeous dumbass to be on time.’ he explains changing his treatment, and he is sober. we remain cordial but, understandably, it is weird. c*vid hits, he travels twice to bring his parents to/from his brother’s house, we stop talking, and he’s not on social media.  last week: i have a conversation with his family about art and maybe continuing their kiddos’ portrait series bc it’s their favorite thing. bb is ‘an artist like me.’ they are all doing very well. his parents are mostly back in their home country. there have been no real developments in his relationship (aka he never put a ring on it). has some new, different friends. he texts me to check if i’m okay, when i’m home alone and sick. we talk on NYE and day. he would like to meet for a friendly coffee. i haven’t said yes to the art or the coffee. 

#do not come for me abt this i'm trying to be GOOD #i just needed to vomit it #tbd tbd tbd

[misstalwyn]

FORBIDDEN WEST IMPRESSIONS SO FAR,,

I just unlocked “the base” (pls god let us name it something cooler 😭) and I get the idea this is about halfway thru the game? But then I look at how much of my map is still cloudy and idk, so,,

SPOILERS BELOW

Avad, my beloved,,

Giving him a focus before they left was SO obvious and they just,, didnt,,,, 😭😭😭

I JUST WANTED TO TALK TO HIM WHILE WE GO ON OUR BIG WESTERN JOURNEY OK, GUERRILLA!!

anyways the daunt immediately blew me away, I almost didn’t wanna leave it! It’s such a perfect starter area I think it really nails everything I loved most about the first game

Shoutout to Javad, love that guy 😂

my first big issue is that there’s a LOT of stuff that’s just locked up for later. like at one point I was only finding things I COULDNT do and it was so deflating :///

Am I crazy for thinking ZD just turned you loose outside the sacred lands? That’s right, right?? I know that’s what I loved most about it, you could tackle whatever you wanted, whenever you wanted

I would’ve been okay with one or two things, like the firegleam tool I think you get soon enough after that it doesn’t bother me, but I’m just gonna be pissed until I get the tool for swimming now bc I’m going into week TWO without it with a shitton of [MISSING TOOL REQUIRED] on my map and it’s infuriating!

I spent so much time loitering around plainsong bc I thought you could get more tools there and I was so wrong, I should’ve just sprinted thru it to the base tbh

Zo is cool tho, no offense to her

Her peoples’ concept is the neatest one since the Carja tho, love my plant people that sing to robot cows, that’s sick

Shoutout to Varl for doing in 48 hours what Avad has failed to do in over 6 months lol

Varl was my first love in ZD tho, rip that early game infatuation from before I met Avad :)

lmao @ the revisionist history of the hunting grounds tho. Are they just gonna wind up saying the Carja stole their traditions from everyone around them??

Poor Avad is left behind to defend his people from THIRTEEN GENERATIONS of shitty precedent, no wonder he wants off the throne so bad 😭 let my mans be a wandering scholar already!!

when I was seeing the base the first time, I just kept thinking that he’d love that place, and it’d be PERFECT for checking up on him and every other ally that has to stay where they are

It’s also the first thing that makes me consider the next game already, like, are we gonna be anchored there now, like Meridian was last game? Or are we gonna unlock some wild form of teleportation to finally address the “world” part of “saving the world” ??

It’s the one part of all the wild sci-fi shit they’re pulling in that I can roll with rn. Really not feeling the super advanced space people rn tbh, it’s very “ohhh, we got you with this one!!” When really it’s like, no, I liked the story of the new generation of humans with advanced technology from their past

My personal theory w/far zenith was that if their exploding ship really was a fake, then they never intended to leave at all and probably bunkered down like Ted did, and maybe these new people were their crazy kids who’ve been fed an incorrect history, too??

So,,,,, I got halfway there and I’m not really with the whole ass mass effect plot we got incoming COMPLETE WITH REAPERS (??!??!) because, well,,, I just spent half of last year playing mass effect? And if I wanted more I’d just go play more of that??

I think my issue lies in that the concept of an “old” future was very novel and really played out well in ZD’s conflict but now we’re barreling past the present with brand new shit FROM SPACE?? I’m just, well, uhhhh now you’re just regular ass sci-fi again, fam :///

I didn’t want a star war, I didn’t want a halo, I wanted a horizon and now you’re giving me this?? 😣

But like I said, I’m only at the base, runnin towards AETHER next (after I waste 8 more hours just wandering lol) so I’m not totally hopeless, and I did love just about everything about finally rebooting GAIA, so I have some confidence that I won’t hate everything about the alien humans lol

for now I think no matter how they use her, I just don’t like the concept of another Sobeck clone on principle. Like, even the way GAIA tried to explain her existence sounded like a desperate attempt to patch a plot hole lmao

Anyways, SAY HI TO YOUR NEW SISTER ALOY PLEASE DONT NAME HER AFTER YOUR DEAD KINDA SORTA OLDER SISTER??

I really like the archaeological couple, they’re very camp (literally and figuratively) but I’m SO mad I can’t do their quest without whatever tf POSIDEON is gonna give me ig!!

I think, collection wise, they did one or two things too many. Like I straight up missed the daunt vista point even tho I did the ruins there right away bc there’s so much packed into that tiny area I just never noticed! And I really dislike the survey drones (I just did the one parked right on top of the thunderjaw site 😬😬😬) sooo something’s gotta give here tbh

and dont even get me started on the fucking endgame tallneck in the SECOND AREA i already wasted a couple hours on thinking i had to wait for a sandstorm to fly up there with :((((((

#hfw spoilers #fwspoilers #horizon forbidden west #text #people have platinumed the whole damn game by now and i'm still just....running around w/kotallo lol #san francisco? i'll see you in 2 more weeks maybe lmao