#I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I CANT EVEN SPEAK

[farfromstrange]

After weeks of seeing pics of the little guy on social media, I finally ordered one for myself, and he arrived today!!

LOOK AT HIM!! I LOVE HIM 😭

(I’m horrible when it comes to displaying my Funkos ok pls don’t judge me I’m too excited rn to function)

#LOOK AT THE HAIR AND THE HORNS AND THE GLASSES #JUST HIM #I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I CANT EVEN SPEAK #THE SWEATER TOO NOW IM MATCHING WITH HIM WHENEVER I WEAR IT LAUWUWJW #Sorry for fangirling but this just made my day #matt murdock #funko pop #daredevil #special edition

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Master manipulator vs Master manipulator

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #xue yang #a-qing #The scenes with XY and A-Qing are so delightfully tense and anxiety inducing #They are both so deep in the mind games with each other. Convinced they have the leg up when in reality they do not know the full scope #Also is is just me or do XY and A-Qing give off the vibe of internet nemeses? #A-Qing coming in hard with 'Oh you think blind people cant do XYZ? Get canceled idiot' #Meanwhile XY is the kind to purposefully use leet speak in descriptive text to antagonize the screen reader population. #a teen girl and a 4-channer who found his way to tumblr would be awful to watch fight irl but the vibes are equivalent. #Meanwhile XXC is going on a nice little walk to pick grass. I love him so much actually. #through writing these notes I have also gone down the rabbit hole of trying to pinpoint Xue Yang's age. Hello? Is it actually not known? #The best resources I could find put him as 1-3 years younger then xxc and song lan #So? early twenties? late teens? Someone who has absorbed more mdzs knowledge...Please help #Oh no I'm even deeper in the rabbit hole now. What do you mean the ages are mostly just relative? #What do you mean cultivators can age differently (usually slower in xianxia) #Oh no oh no wwx doesn't have a golden core. I was too accurate in my homestuck AU re: lifespans. I want to go back. #(I love angst and am now marinating this thought in my little thinking chamber)

[spacedlexi]

the differences in the framing of the reuniting with minnie scene between louis and violet.. the way the hug with louis is a close up shot but with violets hug clem takes up a third of the frame.....they knew what they were doing

really including her in their moment. they said you WILL watch clems reaction to them hugging. girl why are you making a face about it 😏

#this is the shit i mean when i say clemviminnie makes me silly like this is so intentional they did Not have to include clem like that #also the fact you can tell minnie violets in charge but you cant tell her louis is in charge 💀 i know he didnt step up in ep 2 but still #idk i just found it interesting theres nothing to say about him. she doesnt even believe it about violet so why cant we lie about louis lol #my little co leaders :") #twdg #violentine #im having fun posting my cringe little thoughts >:) i love the tension between these 3 mmm theres so much meat to chew on >:) #it speaks

[daily-hanamura]

i have more screenshots but idk if tumblr can handle it

#submission #hanamura yosuke #listen i do in fact think about this scene so much. so so so much. #i cant help but think about what saki used to tell naoki about yosuke considering how during an early meeting with naoki #hes brought up how he hated yosukr as well #but listen i think for me the main thing is how much i love when yosuke's big brotherness comes out especially when someone younger #is in a vulnerable state of mind #look at how hes trying to speak to naoki and reach out to him yosuke really does want to help here #and i have such a soft spot for the fact that its yu's slink with naoki i just love when yosuke shows up in yu's slinks #but yosuke being here was so important. and they wrote him so gently #god im down bad i know im not even coherent here im just!!! really! overwhelmed!! with! emotions!! #he wants to reach out to naoki but hes also careful to do it in a way that doesn't patronise him or talks down to naoki #yosukes not the best at speaking and being articulate and he's really just doing his best here to meet naoki where he is and aaaaaaaaa

[itsrainingbubbles]

I like reading about Luffy starving because there is something wrong with me and I like to see him suffer because he's my favorite <3

But also because of the sanji angst and sanlu

Like them running out of food while they're still days away from an island so they have to ration food and Luffy needs more food because he has a really high metabolism but he refuses to eat because his crew comes first and how distraught sanji would be as the cook

He'd be begging Luffy to eat because Luffy is literally starving but Luffy would ask if there would be enough for everyone to eat and Sanji would stay quiet and then Luffy would refuse the food (forget about fish for a moment idk what happened to them but they're gone)

Or Luffy getting captured by some pirates and he doesn't get fed for days before his crew find him and sanji having to resist the need to feed him a mountain of meat because chopper says it would be bad for him

And this is very ooc because Luffy doesn't care what anyone says about him but what if suddenly everyone yelling at him for his eating habits gets to him and he decides to just stop

He still does eat but it's usually one or two servings and it's not enough for him because of his really high metabolism and he's starving

And at first everyone was really confused about the sudden change and a little worried but Luffy seemed to be doing fine after a few days and they all accepted it as the new normal and were even encouraging it

Sanji talks about all the free time he has now that he doesn't have to constantly fight off a hungry luffy and Nami is delighted about all the money they can save on food and Usopp is really glad he no longer has to protect his plate during meals like it's the world's most precious treasure

And Luffy sees how much happier his crew is and he can't bring himself to take it away so he bites his tongue and keeps ignoring his body for them

He quickly starts losing strength and starts sleeping the days away barely waking up to eat, chopper gives him a check up but can't figure out what's wrong (idk how doctor stuff works, since he's eating enough for a normal human chopper doesn't think he could be starving)

It gets really bad and chopper is working day and night trying to figure out what's wrong and he's blaming himself for not being a good enough doctor and Luffy knows what's wrong but he doesn't want to upset his crew but they're really upset right now and he doesn't know what to do

Eventually he does come out and say it when chopper decides to ask him if he has any idea of what may be wrong and he starts off with "promise you won't be mad" because I can't imagine Luffy starting that off any other way

So Luffy tells chopper and he is horrified and immediately orders something from sanji and the word spreads quickly and soon everyone knows Luffy was starving himself because of them and they all feel really bad about it

White Luffy is being fed a soup because he became too weak to do it himself everyone is there with him crying and asking why he didn't just eat more of it was killing him and Luffy would say that they were all so happy when he stopped eating as much and he didn't want to take kr all away and it makes everyone feels worse

When he gets better they never complain about his eating habits again and they have a really low tolerance for other people commenting about it either and it becomes well known not to do that unless you have a death wish

It would probably be a slow recovery though

Luffy would still be hesitant to eat more than two plates even if Sanji had been cooking all of his favorites amd je would eventually make a full recovery but I just really want the angst of the strawhats begging their captain to eat, something they hadn't thought they'd ever need to do, and knowing he was hesitating because of them

And imagine how guilty they would all feel about the comments they made and trying to take it back and them seeing how much it really affected him

I got really carried away with that last one and I could definitely keep talking about it but at this point I might as well make it into an actual story

#monkey d. luffy #one piece #sanji #luffy #monkey d luffy #idk something about starving Luffy really speaks to my soul #the one who loves food the most not eating #i cant decide which one hurts more #him not eating by choice even though its killing him #or him wanting to eat but cant because of circumstances #eirher way it speaks to me #and it's saying i need help #seriously why do i love starving him so much

[todayisafridaynight]

At which point did you realise that the plot of IW is ass? I've seen people complain only about the ending or the halfway point where the teams separate, while I was already actively rolling my eyes like four-five chapters in

i think the moment i fully accepted that IW's story was. Definitely A Story was the moment ebina announced 'bleach japan'. like i think leading up to that point i was thinking to myself 'oh i hope i see X happen' or being like 'i wonder where this is going' and that sort but the proverbial bucket of ice was definitely that moment

#infinite wealth spoilers #snap chats #what reaaaaally hammered it in too if it wasnt obvious already was the execution of the jimas/daigo like that still irks me LMAO #i cant even remember what chapter that happened in i just know when it did i was utterly pissed #i think i started to take things less seriously once bryce entered the picture but thats only because of how distracting his VA was #like much love the JP voice actors who try to speak english and japanese but i just cant act like it's not incredibly distracting #esp when the character is supposed to be white yk what i mean- or at the very least their first language is supposed to be english #typically i can look over that thing if its a one or two time kind of deal but he had to speak in english much longer than others #im just rambling about bryce tho this aint bout him. i mean he could be a part of it the cult was executed really sloppily #it might have been the introduction of bryce actually ... i remember thinking to myself 'oh brother' with the whole messiah thing LMAO #maybe it was when kiryu told us his cancer cam from radiation instead of. smoking 💀 ESPECIALLY not even five chapters in #like straight out the gate you just wanna drop that on us mr I Can Do Everything Myself I Cant Worry Others ok #thats a post for another day tho im EVERYWHERE #POINT IS this is not about Retrospect this is about First Impressions and memory warps over time #but i know for a fact i found the bleach japan thing utterly ridiculous and was squinting at the plot the entire time thereafter #like ive said this a million times at this point but although i love IW for it's gameplay (pardon some nitpicks like lack of shortcuts) #its story really feels so messy and had much to be desired. which is so sad after the wonderful stories rgg has been making since 0.. #BUT OH WELL im still excited to replay it in english. god willing i ever get the time #i still wanna finish lost judgment <- isnt even halfway through the game #and i wanna do a fun stream Maybe with YK2 but ill get into that when i get into that #if youve read this far. thanks LOL id say sorry for the novel but thats what we expect of me at this point

[romanceddawn]

post canon where tkb is mostly accepted into the group and calmed down some on the world ending thing but he cant help but be a yandere still so hes constantly being really weird on his recent crush on yugi who doesnt realize because tkb's being so nice now! he's helping yugi with security at the shop and hanging out with him! (not realizing that tkb's doing that to know where all his secruity weak points are so that he can sneak into yugi's room from his skylight and watch him while he sleeps and steal memento's for himself)

#i think hed definitely do other stuff and get weirder/worse #but i mostly just cant get him sneaking in through the skylight out of my head #like whether he's yami bakura or tkb it doesnt matter he's sneaking in and being a freak #you can take the demon out of the 3000 year old peasant but you cant take the yandere out of him #i love them so dearly #even when yugi figures out hes a weirdo hes still just like #'aw but he likes me that much? *twirling hair*' #hes also a weirdo #kleptoshipping #boundshipping #yugi mutou #thief king bakura #yami bakura #devo speaks #headcanons #boardshipping

[martyrbat]

the man who falls – secret origins (1989)

[ID: Two cropped comic pages of Bruce Wayne as a child after falling into a cave and being ambushed by a swarm of bats. There's multiple narration boxes over the pages:

Page One: a three panel sequence of Bruce being rescued by his father. In the first panel, Bruce is screaming with his eyes squeezed shut in fear. He has his fists clenched in front of him and is wearing a reddish pink turtleneck sweater. The narration says, ‘Again, he shrieked — not in terror, but in despair...’ In the second panel, Thomas Wayne is shown from behind in a low angle. He's wearing a red sweater similar to Bruce and is holding a flashlight as he jerks Bruce into him. Above them is bats surrounding them and the broken wood floors that Bruce fell through. The narration continues, ‘The arm curled around him, muffling his voice, and his cheek rubbed against the rough wool of his father's jacket... He squeezed his eyes shut, willing himself to be away from here—’. In the third panel, they're standing outside. The narration reads, ‘When he opened them, he was in the area behind the mansion, in the pale light of the autumn afternoon, and his father's words pounded at him—’. Thomas is kneeling down in front of Bruce in front of the hole he fell in. He's gripping the child's shoulders as he scolds him, “Idiot! I told you never, never to go off alone. Didn't I? Didn't I?” Martha Wayne is behind them with her hand on the side of her face as she looks at them with relief that Bruce is okay.

Page Two: Martha is defending Bruce as Bruce has his head down. Thomas is still squeezing Bruce's shoulders as Martha tells him, “Thomas, he's frightened.” Thomas replies, “He damn well ought to be. He could have been killed.” Martha replaces Thomas's spot in front of Bruce, kneeling to gently place a hand on his upper arm and using a handkerchief to wipe his forehead. Bruce is standing with his fist still clenched and grimacing as Thomas angrily says, “He's got to learn.” Bruce is shown in a low angle, looking up at his mother with wide eyes. The narration continues, ‘He listened to his father's boots crushing the dead grass, and when he could no longer hear them, he dared to ask:’ “Mommy, was I in hell?” Martha soothes, “No, baby, that was just some old cave. You're safe now,” as she hugs him. His cheek is pressed against hers and she has her eyes closed as Bruce still looks uncertain. END ID]

#once again pushing my 'thomas wayne was a piece of shit' propaganda #tied in with the panel of him hitting bruce #and then the alt timeline where they live and martha expresses concern that her eight year old has an obsession with criminology now #and stopped being talkative or wanting to see some train (his special interest) and thomas says good and that it was worth the scare #and ! being autistic. for me when im emotional all sound is so much louder and more overwhelming #the fact that he waited until he couldnt hear his father walking away before asking his mother if he was in hell.... #and being no older than 8 and still waiting. just tensed and taking the verbal lashing and them fighting before speaking up?? yeah. #also think it'll be interesting in the 'bruce is constantly seeing the best in people even shitty people that dont 'deserve' a second #chance or for someone to fully believe they can change. that you do bad things but aren't a bad person. that you can do good and not #be a good person. that its making a choice and that anyone can choose and decide to do better than they were yesterday' #sorta deal yknow? #just the conditioning of forgiveness for something theyre not sorry for and wanting to believe everyone is capable of being good #that traumatized 'mommy was i in hell' like god sorry brucie for the trauma but itll have a payoff in a decade or so trust me kid #also martha?? love her. hes the biggest mama's boy you cant change my mind. #bruce wayne #thomas wayne #martha wayne #baby brucie #crypt's panels #c: secret origins | the man who falls #bruce & martha #bruce's childhood

[hella1975]

sometimes i think about the fact my grandparents literally overnight just cut us off and im like. how did u even do that. does it torment you

#eeaao's 'how did you let me go so easily' moment. like i dont let myself even THINK about this too often #bc i immediately beat myself back with the 'if it's hard for you then imagine how hard it is for mum. her PARENTS cut her off' #but like. idk. my nan i couldn't give less of a shit about which is something i always find so interesting #bc even as a child with NO basis for it or any understanding of her behaviour both past and present i still wasn't Comfortable around her #like children are smart actually. i just Knew her vibes were off and i Knew my mum was weird when she was around #like i truly dont think i ever loved my nan even when she was a very frequent part of my life #but my grandad? i ADORED him. id see him multiple times a week and he's the kindest man ive ever met #and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM #like i cant actually put into words what it was about him but people just wanted to know him and spend time with him #but he was weak and let my nan walk all over him and when push came to shove he chose her and now ive not spoken to him in 3 years #& i KNOW he loved me. he thought the world of me like it's a bitter unspoken thing between me & my sister that we KNOW i was his favourite #he used to buy me egg butties at agricultural shows when my mum said no and specifically ask for two eggs #he used to sit and eat his soup with me when he came over to do work at the house #he used to play with me. he used to smile all the time. i can so clearly hear the way he'd go ''iya [my name]' with his proper rural accent #or how he'd tell anyone who would listen 'she's tough as old boots that one' #and i could make him laugh like NO ONE else could and he'd light up and go 'give over' and he genuinely enjoyed my company #i KNOW HE DID. and i havent spoken to him in 3 years. he'll be dead soon #and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it #bc she wasn't close with him like i was and she just shuts the conversation down and those are the only two people #who know my grandad and know what he meant to me so im just here like. he literally stopped speaking to me overnight #i stopped hearing from him i stopped meeting up with him im so so angry with him the love is still there i dont know where to put it now #why couldnt he stay. why did he pick her when she's a loveless void of inhumanity. why werent we enough #hella goes home #my grandparents on my dad's side are also not in the picture funnily enough but idgaf about them. she got that grandparentless swag

[ladyimaginarium]

i swear to g-d im& not even the jealous type but jfc i HAAAAAAATE this feeling when im& just lowkey like. who's :)))))) this :))))) bitch 👀👀👀👀🔪🔪🔪🔪 :))))))

#arcana.vents #& its like. kinda irrational bc we're just friends & just vibing & we're not even together but like. i cant help it so fuck me ig lmao #like obvi he can have friends & shit & w/e so im not gonna like. tell him anything bc i dont wanna like push him away or push anything yk?? #& he said he missed me & everything but like. damn. why arent you talking to me like that. i wish you would talk to me like that. #i miss you too & i wish you would tell me you loved me more :< #im just like bitch chill he aint even your man. but he's sweet & good to me & he's deadass one of the funniest ppl ever. #& we have literally so much in common & he said i was a miracle & resilient since birth & that sb should make a documentary about me ehehe. #& we're both autistic poc4poc & have a lotta solidarity between our communities & he makes me blush & giggle & i love his curls & his smile #& the color of his skin's so pretty & he said that it'd be neat if we just. played videogames in a pillowfort #& he makes spongebob refs & he likes anime & horror & buffy & ethel cain nicole dollanganger & lana del rey & he got a nasty ass vocabulary #& he said it'd be cool if we explored abandoned places together & go to concerts together & he has the cutest name ive deadass ever heard #when nicole said ''when i see you i cant find the words to speak my cheeks go as red as two big cherries'' & ''you're so cool''... YEAH. #im gonna start fuckin chewing on the fuckin walls dude. im GNAWING at the bars of my cage. i need him to firmly grasp it. #i wanna feed him the world's sweetest strawberry!!!! #we have lost the entire fucking plot besties lmfaoooo #& i rarely if ever feel like this for cis dudes & my mind is blaring sirens like he gonna leave me im just. getting war flashbacks to. yeah #the red sirens be blaring like HE'S GONNA ABANDON ME!!!!! its so irritating #ill be goddamned if i EVER feel replaced to that degree ever again. id actually rather get hit by a car & throw myself into the sea lmao #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BPD SPLITTING I HATE YOU #this was from a few hours ago but i forgot to post it so lmao

[tsukisdiary]

sometimes i think about the fact that rick's mom canonically didn't give a shit about his achievements when he was growing up and after his daughter died he had to encounter multiple versions of her who were constantly frustrated due to having their potential nipped as a teenager because of something that happened when they were seventeen without even knowing that in multiple realities the same event that changed their lives was also orchestrated by the same fathers that abandoned them. and how angry he must feel with everything; with the citadel, with other ricks, with himself for even leading the fucking other ricks to begin with. and just being so angry he can't shoulder all the guilt so he chooses to project it on his son in law who happens to be an incompetent, egotistical, idiot

#like imagine seeing all the grownup versions that your own daughter could've been like only to see them be ... so miserable like sure #at the end of the day beth is now choosing to be there for her kids and trying to be a good mom but she cant erase what she has done to #summer her whole life like starting to change when shes seventeen I mean you're doing something and she appreciates it but is it enough? #canonically summer doesn't have enough self confidence to admit it to herself that she is in fact a lesbian and then she found out the #version of herself that is able to come out is the one that was properly taken care of by her mother #same beth that is allergic to fucking wine #and yes she can try to do better with morty but she just seems to associate him so much with jerry she ends up just letting her dad take #him whenever #and im not saying she doesn't love her children because she does #but i also think she doesn't know how to properly love them #which ultimately ends up being linked to her upbringing and her relationship with her dad and her abandonment issues and the fact that this #rick she has right now is not hers and she doesn't even know how important that detail is because even if she knows that's not strictly #speaking her father #he also is one of the two ricks who have never abandoned a young beth #rick and morty #oh my god these long ass tags #rick sanchez #beth smith #its just... sad

[potatobugz]

what if I didn't go to bed actually and just drew my fantrolls again

#homestuck #hs #homestuck oc #homestuck fantroll #fantroll #hi please look at emeret please please i love him so much #i could not think of a name for pizzah. i did not try bc two out of the three designs on the last page were just 4 fun #i think its funny that she is named that #speaking of names almost all of them have names now #clown fish is xyogaa ubleck :3 #j still dont have a name for wheel guy...... #also hes turning out to be really similar to tavros. help #ok COMCEPT I THOUGHT OF BUT HAVENT DRAWN YET #YVANNI CAN READ MINDS BUT HE HEARS THE THOUGHTS OF THE PEOPLE AROUND HIM CONSTANTLY & CANT TURN IT OFF #AND IT GIVES HIM HEADACHES #but vigila is a void player #& so one day yvanni sits next 2 him and just hears. calm quiet for once #and he can think clearly to himself. and vigila doesnt even know it hes just sitting there #idk man #theyre not even kismeses at this point i have no idea what their deal is #theres somethin wrog w them... /lh /j #potatart

[rosygaze]

noah schnapp is a sick racist zionist loser.

#ill be pirating s5 lmao as long as him and brett gelman are on that show I'm not watching it #ill still run this blog but you will never see me post about him or will anymore i cant even stand to look at him knowing all the damage #he's done #i love ST so much but i cant see the show the same way after what these two losers have been saying #she speaks

[daily-hanamura]

#hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #persona 4 #persona 4 arena ultimax #p4au #p4 #souyo #narukami yu #this was such a good scene it absolutely melted me entirely because it speaks to yosuke's character so well #on the one hand it's yosuke's usual self deprecating humour where he plays down himself #on the other hand its also him being SEEN by yu and being understood on such a fundamental level #yosuke IS an overthinker and Yu has mentioned it previously #he gets so into his own head because hes worried about how hes perceived #hes worried about his peers hes worried about whether hes doing enough hes such a worrier!!! #but him being a worrier is also not a bad thing because it also demonstrates how much he cares about everything #i love that Yu is of course extremely nonjudgmental and GETS him and Yosuke knows that as well but even so #even so he cant let go of his own hangups even as hes admitting something like this to Yu #and it's so extremely Yosuke #he's good with his queue

[p4nishers]

i know some people already pointed it out but like. eddie was in black. BLACK. he was in LITERAL MOURNING CLOTHES. he was already mourning. already prepared for the worst.

#buddie #crying about this is not enough i need to jump off a building. #no cause THIS hurts so bad actually now that i think about it cause if u had a loved on in hospital in critical condition u KNOW this #feeling so intimately where u think u already lost time. that time frame before the confirmation where u cant help but to wear black cause #u dont know what else u could possibly do and doing anything else feels impossibly #its such a simple thing really to wear a specific color but it feels like equivalent of giving up. in the days leading up to my #grandmothers death i wore nothing but black all the way to her funeral which i couldn't attend. god i understand him so bad. #god i love him so much he was already prepared for the worst he's so familiar with grief he just knew. im so glad he didn't to lose buck #but also just that whole entire scene. how the moment he knew chris was secure he turned away and wipped a hand down his face and the #moment he started to speak his eyes filled with theirs bc its just so much easier to hold it together when u r silent #like OF COURSE we didn't get a scene where eddie was only w buck OF COURSE like he couldn't even look at him he was only there bc of chris #cause he just couldn't face the possibility of losing buck. im so not well #eddie diaz #evan buckley #911 6x11 #911 spoilers #911 6b #jesus fuck the typos are embarrassing im so sorry

[vilelittlecritter]

Me: "I don't like people, I prefer being on my own and not talking"

People: "oh okay we'll leave you be then"

Me: "wait no PLEASE COME BACK I WANT LOVE-"

#its not that i dont like people. its just that i have resorted to avoiding people out of habit and a sense that i make things worse #like its not that i DON'T want to message my friend. its just that I cant bring myself to since i usually dont #ha ha ha. god i am desperate to just speak to people but I want to be left alone and im scared of people turning out to be mean #i kinda feel like crying when i see people say how they love their friends and cuddle up with them and have fun #lol one of my old best friends caused me to have awful anxiety about myself because he judged and made fun of ke constantly #oh yeah and that other time after i broke up with a friend because we stupidly decided to try and date and it didnt go well #the bastard asked the person out that night. they said no because they aren't an ass or dumb. god i should have left him when he said that #oh yeah he also made fun of my sunny cosplay i did and then left me alone in the comic con crowd for half an hour #as someone with anxiety that fucked me up just a little #so yeah bad past friendships and terrible social skills have left me to just go lol cant get hurt if i dont have friends! #ha ha. this is agony. #i have like one actaul friend i talk to and she's going through some stuff and wants to be left alone #which is understandable but now I'm talking to absolutely no one #also even if i were to talk to people i just feel i make things worse #i feel like im obnoxious and weird constantly and I'm sobscsred that people are going to think I'm creepy #its not that im doing anything super weird its just that with my autism I can get overly excited and start rambling and not thinking #yet another reason why I've chosen to stop speaking as much #im also just really snappy sometimes #I remember a while ago someone i was kinda friends with asked me if i was okay and i said i was fine #they kept pushing because they were concerned and no ones ever really done that so i kind of panicked and raised my voice at them #i wasn't angry i just never had someone try and actually pry that deep before other than maybe my parents #they seem like a lovely person but i still feel so horrible for doing that to them #sure i apologises later and they understood but i felt like it was one of the most awful things ive done to someone #i hate even the thought of being cruel or mean and all they were trying to do was help and i snapped at them for it #sorry for being ranty but I'm starting to think im really not okay #I've pondered the idea of possibly having deppression but thats a conversation for my counselor #again sorry for sumoing and ill probably delete this soon #if anyone has read all of this im honestly impressed #personal rambles #vent tag