#I just needed to say this cos i'm so sick of bad being hated for basically fucking existing

[demodraws0606]

It's wild how much people frame Bad as "problematic" when his actions basically are :

-Defending a person whose been friend with for years from grooming allegations that he didn't believe were true that turned out to not hold much water in the end.

-Making a self-harm joke a long time ago that he explained was based on what he went through when people pushed him about it.

-The usage of the r-slur a fucking long time ago when it was normalized which he apologized for (which is funny cos no one brings that up when its the ONE thing he has actually done wrong and apologized for)

-People lying about him being xenophobic ????????? Ig ???

Like oh god what a problematic evil person ????? Truly I'm shaking in my boots rn from all this tension

#qsmp #bbh #badboyhalo #discourse #tw:self harm #qsmp fandom neg #I just needed to say this cos i'm so sick of bad being hated for basically fucking existing

[reareaotaku]

what would miles do if you were sick???????????

HAHA! Oh wait- It's cute you think he'd care

"You're sick?"

You glare up at the male, annoyed. His uniform looked stupid on him- Well, that wasn't true, but he was annoying you so every thought of him was bad. "What does it look like, genius?"

"You look fine to me."

"Fine?" Thanks to your fever, you were paler/ lighter and your face flushed dark red/purple. Not to mention you, couldn't breathe out of your nose and your throat was drier than the savanna. "I feel like shit."

"Well, you don't look any different than usual."

"Wow, thanks Miles."

"Anything for you." He looked round your dorm room, which you thankfully had alone, because there was an uneven amount of girls- Pretty much making you a loner. Which is probably why you and Mies stuck together. "God, your room is like a hospital room."

"Thanks for noticing." You get out before coughing hard.

Miles stared at you as you had a cough attack. Possibly the most painful cough you've ever had. It was like they were coming from your chest with how rough they were.

"Well, don't die on me now, Y/n."

"Wouldn't plan on it." You lay down, covering yourself with your blanket; Thankfully snuggled up.

Miles watches you closely, still suspicious- Not believing you were truly sick. He frowns, disappointed, before he too lays on your bed across your legs. "What am I supposed to do?"

You yawn, closing your eyes, "Maybe if you were nicer this wouldn't be an issue."

You hear him scuff, but you ignore him, because you were tired. So very tired.

---

Miles groans, watching you drift off to peacefully slumber. What was he supposed to do now? The thought made him frown. You weren't his only friend [Not that he'd ever tell you you're his friend]- No, he had other people he could stand... Well, okay maybe not.

He couldn't depend on you forever... I mean he could, but that dream is for later. The last thing he needed was for you to know he likes you- or even worse, a crush. The thought made a shiver run down his spine.

He left your room, walking around the dormitory. God, he hated this school and everyone in it. Thankfully it was spring break, so most of the students were off with their families. The thought brought an ick to his stomach. Families. All he had was his sister... and you.

He liked that. He liked it being just you and him. It made you more connected with each other. But now, he was alone. What was he supposed to do? Sure, maybe he was coming off a little co-dependent, but he didn't care. You were perfect for each other, so it doesn't matter if he was toxic.

He looked up to the sky, his eyes scrunching when the glaring sun hit him. Maybe he should do something productive since you were sick. He laughed and shook his head. Yeah, no. He's not doing that. His mind went to a memory of when his mother would take care of him when he was sick and how much he loved being pampered.

Then a thought occurred to Miles. If he took care of you while you were sick, you would become dependent on him and realize how much you need and love him. It was genius and Miles wondered how he didn't think about it sooner. Now... How does one take care of a sick person?

---

You awoke not feeling much better than before you went to sleep. You groaned, rubbing your head before stretching out your hands. You clicked your tongue, sitting up. You looked towards the door when hearing it open.

"Miles."

He doesn't respond but sits at the chair next to your bed.

You smirk, "Couldn't find anything to do?"

"Would you rather me sit and watch you sleep?"

"Maybe. Who wouldn't like a cute guy at their bed side?"

"Oh, god, you must be running a bad fever and it's getting to your head, because you would never say that."

"What? No, I'm not reading any fevers. How can you read a fever?"

"Run, not read Y/n."

"Huh? Flavor? What about flavor?"

Miles rolls his eyes before groaning annoyed with you. He pulls up a bad, which you hadn't noticed before, and pulled out a pill bottle. He pops open the lid and hands you a pill.

"What's this?"

"Tylenol. To help with your fever."

"Oh, yeah, I could use that. But I don't have a drink-"

He pulls out a Sprite and hands it to you. "I was going to get an orange drink, but they're kind of bitter and I've heard Sprite is good for the throat."

"Aren't you a sweetheart?" You tease, making him grimace.

"You keep going and I won't give you this." He pulls a container out of his bag and hands it to you.

"Chicken noodle soup?"

"Yeah. My mom used to make it when me or my sister were sick. Doesn't mean I like you or anything." Miles huffs, looking away from you.

"Of course not."

#miles fairchild #yandere miles fairchild #yandere miles x reader #the turning #yandere miles fairchild x reader #miles x reader #miles fairchild x reader #yandere slasher x reader #yandere horror #yandere imagines #horror x reader #yandere x reader #yandere slasher

[krash-and-co]

hey krash, i wanted to reach out and say that i'm so sorry that you got such a hurtful reaction from one of the l&co servers for speaking up about something that genuinely needed to be addressed. i won't badmouth anyone in particular but this is not the first time this fandom has dogpiled someone over a misunderstanding, and when it happened to me i had severe anxiety over it for about a week even after it was resolved, and eventually left because of it. it left a pretty bad taste in my mouth for the fandom in general, so i mostly just stick to my small group of mutuals now lol. i wish this fandom truly was different from other fandoms, but this kind of thing is unfortunately inevitable once something reaches a certain level of popularity. but that certainly doesn't make it okay, and you didn't do anything to deserve the reaction you got. i hope you can feel peace about it soon, and i'm sorry again that it happened at all. 🫂

(please don't feel pressured to answer this if you'd rather the matter be left alone, i totally understand. i just wanted to send you an ask because i didn't know if you're comfortable with dms.)

hi im so sorry i forgot to answer!!! thank you so much this means so much to me. 💙💙💙 i read this for the first time when i was feeling pretty attacked and it really cheered me up <3

hmm other people have been telling me about how they got attacked in this fandom too. and maybe this shouldn't have surprised me as much as it did. but it's something fans never talk about and claim doesn’t exist, so i thought it didn’t. i was horribly fooled lol. as, uh, i am about to rant about; do you mind? u don’t have to read it, i won’t be offended, but halfway thru answering this ask it turned into a rant i wanted to release into the world lol, so sorry about that 😭😭😭

very important disclaimer!!! this is NOT about everyone. ABSOLUTELY NOT. most of you are absolutely amazing people, and i assure you if ur worried this is about you, it’s prob not lol

ANYWAYS!!!

im kind of feeling i was betrayed?? ig? i rlly believed everyone was so kind, and look what i know now. it genuinely seems like people are gaslighting themselves. how else do they only see our ‘harm?’ yeah, our fandom is known for being passionate, but saying we’re known for kindness is starting to make me sick. maybe we were, i know a lot of us still are, but throwing that out there in the middle of your hypocritical hate post seems like justification for the shit things people have been saying. you can say no wrong so long as you’re here. only people who don’t agree with you. so yeah, fuck krash and ljc and anyone else who doesn't agree!!! that totally shows how kind you are and how much you loved the fandom before we messed it up. nobodys visibly mad, cuz we're too scared to say shit!!!

i’ve seen too many examples of the contrary from the “victims,” wailing about how cruel we are the second they disagree with someone. (in a highly hypocritical manner, at that.) “everyone was so happy before this!” no, they weren’t, that’s why i brought it up. “stop bringing hate to this fandom! now let me fucking berate you!” do you even hear yourself? “nobody even cared before, we were all content!” we weren’t all content, we were just silent. it sometimes looks the same.

someone even declared they were leaving the fandom because ‘one person wanted to stop show saving efforts entirely because it traumatized them, and this is no longer a safe place.’ like, what? where did you even get that? for one, there were at least two of us posting together, and that’s just barely knowing anything about what’s happening. thats not even touching on how one of us (idk who the op of that post was talking about, it’s a 50/50 lol) made the fandom an unsafe place for our personal gain. what?

hella kind. hella safe on their part.

another said they saw only old fans agreeing about this so it’s just us being pissed about change. it’s us hating the show. me and ljc being upset about not being the only “big blogs” any more. our fandom is only for the elite, etc. fuck us. yet ljc is getting blackmailed. we’re getting hate replies. friends that try and help get attacked. misinformation spread. how did that even happen? we never once tried to hurt anyone; thank you to those who understand.

but to some, WE’RE the ones in the wrong.

do they SEE themselves? how hypocritical all of this is? or are their heads that far up in the ass of their petition and beloved fake idea of this fandom that they care about more than all of us?

now, this is where i add another “not everyone” message. not everyone is like this, this is not me saying i hate the petition or people who support it. hell, i signed the petition. twice. and once more from my mothers email.

i don’t regret the i love you posts i made, because i still do love this fandom, i am still absolutely here for the rest of yall. but DAMN if we weren’t hiding something under happy Save The Show, I Love Locknation! messages. perfectly smiling faces until they bite. i was surprised to see how many people did.

as if our previous problems weren’t enough, now it turned into this lol. no, that’s a lie, it didn’t. it already was, and i HATE THAT.

ig im kinda spoiled, i never really experienced hate like this from this fandom before. but now i know it happened BEFORE too, and that just pisses me off. it hurts coming from a group who says they love us. genuinely wacko (not the fun kind) behavior :[

i know this isn’t everyone’s experience, but it is mine, and enough others to make me wanna say this. and this is ofc me and @lucy-j-carlyle 's brand of hate, not yours. but it does happen and the constant chant that IT DOESN'T IT DOESNT IT DOESN'T isn't helping anyone. and now I know.

idk what im even saying anymore lol, sorry for ranting. what i mean to say is, thank you, and i wish things were better. and i love you kind people. im happy it’s most of you.

#💙💙💙💙 #if people hate on the person who asks me this !!! you will have to get thru me (i am 5’4) #okay but pls i’ll take the fall. genuinely #they did nothing wrong #im the one who answered in rant form #lockwood and co #literally idk what just happened sorry for the word vomit

[luveline]

sirius and loser!gf who's so conditioned to being a secret hookup to boys who want to be seen with someone hot not sweet, who gets so confused when sirius publicly refers to her as his girlfriend

when I saw this I saved it to my drafts instantly cos I knew I'd wanna talk about it. okay. this is my favourite thing in the whole whole world and your brain is huge and ily SLIGHTLY NSFW MDNI PLS this was supposed to be just a little blurb but it's a long informal blurb my bad

you're a normal girl, but normal isn't pretty anymore not for so many guys and you're so used to being a secret 'sneaky link' that you don't even bring it up. sirius is kind – he surprised you with how kind he is, because honestly you'd seen how pretty he is and thought okay, if he wants to use me for some fun that's alright with me. best sex of your life, he'd done all the prep ur previous links hadn't bothered to do and practically redefined aftercare for you. literally the heart attack you have afterward when he pulls you in for a hug the first time almost kills you, and when he doesn't let go for a long time you think it might've. and this keeps happening. and it's never only sex, which is the kicker, super odd, but you're not stupid enough to question a gift when you get one.

the good sex is a small small part of how kind he is. a seriously tiny part compared to all the rest. he takes you out for dinner before or after or whenever you want to go, he makes sure you have everything you need, then he starts buying you stuff you definitely don't need. he starts to call you all the time, near everyday, and you realise you like him and it's a bad idea to keep answering but you can't help yourself

he listens to you chat about your current hobbies with patience, he asks questions, and the first time he hands you a skein of embroidery thread and says, i saw this and thought it would go really nice with your skin, for one of your bracelets, you know you're in love.

but whatever, right? he won't be the first boy you can't have. i feel like you'd get so in your head about it that you can't connect the dots no matter how obvious they are. he invites you over and you don't have sex half as much as you used to and you think oh he must've changed his mind and he's too kind to send me home. he kisses you in the middle of a conversation and you can't explain it to yourself, he's just nice. you're delusional, but it feels impossible.

there's even one night where he's drawing hearts into your cheek with the tip of his finger and he says, i don't know how we got so lucky.

and you think, yeah, we do like the same things in bed, iguess that is rare. ur just stupid about it because your self esteem is soooooo so low. not in a "hate yourself way" (though maybe a little) but a "what would he really see in me?" way.

AND SO. he asks you out to meet his friends. whatever, you're nervous but not that nervous, when he finally breaks your heart you'll never see him again so why would his friends matter.

there they are, james and remus, and remus says, its nice to meet you and james says, the infamous y/n with a huge grin

sirius throws his arm around your shoulder and kisses your cheek and says, yep, this is my girlfriend Y/N

my girlfriend, james repeats like he's going to throw up. im so sick of hearing him say 'my girlfriend'. you'd think you didn't have a name.

don't be cruel, he's just excited.

yeah I'm excited! look at her

your ears are ringing. you turn to him with your lips parted in confusion and his smile fades as he sees your expression. he excuses you both quickly and pulls you outside and asks what's wrong.

im your girlfriend?

I feel like he would be so shattered at first cos in his head you've literally been going out for weeks now, spending days upon days in each other's company and kissing and just meshing together as a couple and he's thinking fuck this was all one sided???

but you maybe start crying and you're looking at his shoes and you're inconsolable pretty quickly. snivelling, words broken up by your tears, you're pathetic and it doesn't matter as you confess all your feelings for him and how you hadn't thought in a million years that he would ever like you like you like him, you're torn apart

sirius is dumbfounded but he's so in love. he catches your face in both hands and kisses the top of your head until you've calmed down, and then he tells you the FULL TRUTH. he's mad for you, he has been since he met you, he thinks you're amazing. sirius black of all people is obsessed with you and it doesn't make any sense but it does!!! of course it does!

sirius marches you back inside and introduces you as his girlfriend again. he goes around the entire pub telling people you're his, and how pretty you are, and you wanna hear her talk, mate, i could listen to her for hours.

I think he would spend a long time after that trying to build your confidence and your esteem. like, insane heart aching heart to hearts and the gooiest warmest sex of your life. hugs in the middle of the supermarket, random gifts. he frames a photo of you and puts that shit on his desk because he is in love with you. everything about you especially all the shit u don't like yourself. and plus when you actually know you're his girlfriend and he's your boyfriend, you realise you can do all the things you'd wanted to. you can call him from work and you can ask him to shower with you and you can make him bracelets and clay pots and anything you want. you can kiss his high cheekbones and play with his hair. i think he'd have an aneurysm

#jade's asks #ily #the loser gf origin story skeleton by accident #this should've been fully fleshed but i really didnt think i was gonna write as much as i did #thank you for sharing your thoughts with me this is the most severe 'brain rot' ive ever experienced #sirius black #blurb????

[nightcall99]

Notes from 17.4.24

We're not making shit up regarding these signs. I mean, in the dream, there was no feeling to say that the things we took note of were 'right' or 'true', necessarily (because that's only the case for that moment). But it was definitely pointing toward the fact that we should take notice. I got confirmation of this today. A bit over a month ago, I had a dream where I suddenly had the knowing that AL had been on date with someone and kept it secret from me. In the dream, I didn't care that she hadn't told me, I was very detached. Today, this basically happened. She told me she has been seeing some guy, I think, for a couple of months now and I didn't care, when usually I'd be gutted. I thought, Shit, these dreams are for something.

Another weird thing happened. So I told my co-worker about the birthday cake picture dream, and how the doctor had addressed it to her and I. Then she launched into telling me about the dream she had this morning. So for context, she lost an expensive ring yesterday, one that her partner had gotten her only a few weeks ago and she was stressed about finding it. She said in the dream, SM had appeared with his partner and he announced that they had just gotten engaged. And then they showed her the diamond engagement ring. She ended up finding the ring for real this morning between the mattress and the bed base, it had fallen off while changing the sheets. I don't know what I'm supposed to take away from this.

Honestly, I felt really bad today. Yesterday night, my HS prompted me to watch the film Past Lives and I was sobbing for hours afterward. It gave me the same feeling that I got after watching Everything, Everywhere, All At Once and reading Normal People. Everything is just pointless. And we just continue. Each moment is not new, each second has been completely stripped bare from it's inception, and I pretend otherwise. It's fine. I mean, I have everything I need and we're on our way out of here, I just feel my own ridiculousness. The hypocrisy of every waking moment. The games we play, being chained to each pole, which are as far apart as can be and the chains, pulling. I'm taut. I'm snapping but hastily glued back together because I have to, I have to play. Today I met the new placement student and I've never had so much in common with someone. The thing is, I don't even know why I'm talking to her, it's just that I can't help it, while knowing it's for absolutely nothing. What can I do? Nothing. I can't do anything. Except be as I am. I apologise, I make up the difference, I endure. I try to ignore. I try to unsee. I'm sick of my reflexes, my instincts, my nature. Sick of all that I am, always reflected back to me. I hate that I am everything. I'm so, so on edge.

[hueberryshortcake]

hellooooo tagged by @delladucker !!!<3 yes it took me two weeks to remember and finish this don't worry about it

how many fics do you have on ao3?

- currently 10

what's your total ao3 word count?

- 52,149..... when did that happen

what fandoms do you write for?

- currently usually ducktales of course but I still mess around in my howl's castle series drafts every once in awhile. everything else is from when I was afflicted with being 14 and doesn't count

what are your top five fics by kudos?

- "giving off sparks" which I did not put much effort into but I guess the people needed more Castle in the Air content

- the singular thing that survived the post-tma purge, that michael mcfuckhands thing, which is allowed to remain simply bc it was a little funny

- "wednesday morning 3am" - yeahhhHHhHhHh

- "after changes upon changes" - I will never forget the day I found out there was a secret sixth verse to the boxer and I think I may have ascended. anyway yeah this one was cute

- "prodigal" yea

do you respond to comments? why or why not?

- I try to but I'm shy and my brain is made out of spaghetti and pop rocks so if you left one and I didn't respond. <3.

what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

- in general? probably one wtnv fic from the Bad Times (freshman year). attached to my ao3 probably "a home she could not keep" I have thoughts about Goldie o Gilt

what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

- OUVGHGR idk I think that kind of depends on your definition of happy ending..... wednesday morning is cute changes upon changes is cute prodigal I definitely was writing the end like "this is so silly and sappy. POST!" but like idk I'm largely tired with pointless angst personally. like I'm okay with things sucking really bad for our heroes in the middle but ending a story on an upward trajectory is important to me when I'm writing

do you get hate on your fics?

- sometimes people say weird stuff about della in my comments and it makes me mad because she is just some guy

do you write smut?

- no I'd rather lock my barbies in the house and then shake it and yell EARTHQUAKE than make them kiss or heaven forbid.... anyway I have more important things to be doing personally

do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one you've ever written?

- no I do like the occasional silly au though like the howl pendragon/ben suliman/sophie hatter Vicious au which appealed to exactly two people and never saw the light of day

have you ever had a fic stolen?

- no can you imagine if someone broke into ur house and then stole only a spiral notebook full of crayon drawings and disney stickers. it would be like that to me and it would be so funny

have you ever had a fic translated?

no that would be sick

have you ever cowritten a fic before?

no but there was a time when ex wife and I were co brainstorming so hard it may well have been cowriting if you squinted

what's your all time favorite ship?

- howl and sophie jenkins-pendragon-hatter........... they were holding hands and smiling and smiling quite unable to stop....... I gotta take a walk

what's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

- hallmark chronic illness sophie hatter christmas..... also I just found a document that's five sentences of Benjamin Chang actually stuck in a time loop in s6e1. cool

what are your writing strengths?

- I completely blanked because I think I suck at everything so I phoned a friend and asked my ex wife and he said "your writing strengths are themes and motifs and also sick ass metaphors" Thank you ex wife

what are your writing weaknesses?

- actually writing

thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

- ummmm like I've written some stuff in French before because I'm proficient in it but I always heavily double check everything I've written so idk. I keep it to a couple lines at maximum because I'm not super comfortable with it

first fandom you wrote for?

- there isn't a way to answer this that isn't incredibly embarrassing so I guess that time I wrote a self insert character who was kind of weird and not like anybody else and got sorted into ravenclaw (I was eleven)

favorite fic you've ever written?

- oh how to choose! if I've posted it in the last two years I like it. I reread prodigal the most and people seemed to like it a lot but whenever I reread Wednesday Morning 3AM I'm like wait this rocks. wed3am is like my eldest daughter carved immaculately from marble that I forget exists and prodigal is the son I worship despite his formatting errors (they are part of the charm I'm not fixing them. I'm too stubborn)

tagging..... @justaboot @aaandbackstabbed

#if it was written before 2022 you don't need to worry about it lol. #hueberry shortcake

[rileyh20]

Quick vent ig, TW: Swearing, Divorce, Sad stuff, Small mention of suicide.

This isn't what I usually would post, but I felt like I needed to get something off my chest without feeling like I'm complaining. Now, I have a great life, probably better then most people. My parents are usually nice to me, even if I feel like my mom doesn't care for me as much as she says she does. Yes, they are getting a divorce, but that isn't because of me. I knew they were most likely going to get a divorce when I was around 7 (seven) years old. I wasn't surprised, I wasn't even all that saddened. But I'm done being my parents therapist. I am sick of being in the middle of their toddler behavior. I know that isn't fair, but if they actually needed help, they would get help. Especially my mom, I'm sick of her venting to me and making almost every comment I make about the divorce or her! It's not fair to her for me feeling this way, but I am sick of it. I'm sick of her being one of the only things bringing down my mental health, of course she isn't all of it, but she's most of it. I don't need a therapist, despite what people say. Because I am very bad off, but I know this. I don't need a therapist to tell me what I already know. And I would just be complaining at that point! Why would I waste a therapist's time with my shit?

And my mom is so jealous for no fucking reason! My dad tells me to not tell my mom anything when I hangout with his co-worker, or if we do stuff together. Let me say it, she is married with a kid!! And she would have no interest in my dad (sorry dad). I don't get why my mom is so jealous of her for no reason! My mom said once that if I was friend's with that co-worker, I would be betraying her. Betraying. You know what? I am friends with her, and I don't care what my mom says anymore about me being friends with her!! I want to hangout with her and her kid. I want to be able to make my own friends without my mom thinking I'm betraying her.

And for some of you who might think my mom is real for being jealous, she really isn't. My dad's co-worker would never get with him, and he doesn't want her either. They are just really good friends, because my dad is friends with almost everyone!

So I sometimes wish I could see and hangout with my dad more? Yeah. But he doesn't make everything about him when I am with him. He tries his best to shield me away from most things, while also not treating me like a kid. I know I have a good life. Shit, most of my friends have worse lives and parents. So I don't know why I'm depressed, or have panic attacks, or mental breakdowns, or dissociate, or how I can no longer seem to fucking cry anymore!!

Sure, I may think my mom loves our dog more then me. I think my mom hates me at times, but that isn't true. But I am sick of this. I don't want to live like this anymore. Sometimes I think of suicide, but I would never do it. Not anymore. It is not worth my dad crying over that.

My parents have had shitty lives, really shitty ones. My dad's mom and dad got divorced (on good terms tho), then his dad's next wife was abusive and didn't care for him, and now his dad has his new wife who also wasn't that nice, but better.

My mom's mom got divorced after she was born, then again after her sister was born, and then her next husband killed himself. So I could say I have it much better then them.

I don't know why I feel like this, I have a much better life then others, but I don't know..

#vent post

[luvmmarner]

Cale Makar - jealousy , jealousy

PART OF SOUR SERIES (not my gif) TW: self esteem, that's all I think. For @haydee5010 IM SO SORRY I DIDN'T FINISH THIS I WAS FOCUSED ON ANOTHER IMAGINE BUT I HOPE YOU LIKE IT! <3 - I kinda wanna throw my phone across the room

'Cause all I see are girls too good to be true

With paper-white teeth and perfect bodies

Wish I didn't care

You always wanted to be as beautiful as those models you have seen on TV. They always had perfect bodies and every boy loved that. You tried telling yourself you didn’t care, but you did, especially when you started dating Cale.

You were surprised when Cale asked you to be his girlfriend. You never thought you were enough for him. He was handsome and could get any girl he wanted, but he wanted you.

Co-comparison is killing me slowly

I think, I think too much

'Bout kids who don't know me

I'm so sick of myself

I'd rather be, rather be

Anyone, anyone else

At first, you didn't seem to mind that Cale would occasionally travel away on road trips and stay in hotels during such trips. You weren't bothered by the fact that he played hockey professionally. That is, until he started hanging out with his other teammates and other girls. One picture in particular made you start to compare yourself to the others. It was a picture of a young woman with blond hair who was beaming a smile; her teeth were white and pretty.. There was no doubt that she was attractive.

Overtime you kept comparing yourself and it was slowly killing your self confidence. You always dreamed of being someone else, someone that was beautiful and had no lack of confidence. You would constantly wish that you were anybody else, because you were just sick of yourself. 

And I see everyone getting all the things I want

And I'm happy for them, but then again, I'm not

Everyone was getting what they wanted especially your friends while you weren’t. They had no self esteem problems unlike you. You tried to pretend to be happy whenever they got new stuff, but you weren’t. They had the one thing you so badly wanted was ‘confidence’.

All your friends are so cool, you go out every night

In your nice car, yeah, you're living the life

Got a pretty face, a pretty boyfriend too

I wanna be you so bad, and I don't even know you

All I see is what I should be

Happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy It didn’t take long for Cale to break up with you and leave you for someone more beautiful and way more confident. You were expecting it. He was getting tired of constantly convincing you there was no other girl in his life. It hurt and you tried to get over it, but the girl was so pretty and they looked so good together. 

You just wanted to be her so badly. She was able to go out in public and not care what anybody had to say about her. You wished you could so desperately do the same. You didn’t even know her, but you wanted to be her.

There was no denying that you were jealous. You were jealous of her looks and her and Cale. They all posted on social media like it was nothing, not even hate comments stopped them from going out and living their best life. Like it did with you.

Oh, I'm so sick of myself

I'd rather be, rather be (oh-oh)

Anyone, anyone else

Jealousy, jealousy

You knew the jealousy wouldn’t stop and your confidence would take some time to get back. You were sick of how much you lacked it, but you would desperately try to get it back no matter what it takes. You even went out to a club and had the best night of your life. Even after a month everything seemed to be going normal because it was. You got your confidence you so needed back and you stopped comparing yourself to other people on the internet.

However the jealousy still remained and it would. You lost a life that could’ve been amazing. Cale was a great boyfriend and you destroyed that relationship beause of your self esteem. He found someone else and you were just glad he was happy, because now so are you.

#cale makar #nhl hockey #nhl imagine #nhl #hockey imagine #hockey #hockey angst #pure angst #angst #cale makar imagine #cale makar fic #colorado avalanche #nhl angst #sour series #nhl sour #jealousy #heart break

[ellaintrigue]

Me at 3 months old. I sent the last photo of all three of us to dad and he ignored it. I asked if he got it because I didn't want it to have not sent (he has bad reception) and he did, he's just not into babies. He never wanted kids and didn't even want to touch me after I was born.

That is okay! I am not faulting him for that at all because I am the same way! It runs in my family. My grandmother did not want my dad and would throw things at him or hit him, resulting in a busted lip or bloody forehead each time. She told him he "wouldn't amount to a row of shithouses." That's a direct quote. What terrible things to do to a small boy.

I am no genius but I credit myself with being smart enough to know I wasn't meant to be a mom. For as long as I could remember I hated babies. I was given a baby doll one Christmas and I was enraged and threw it. I was about 5. By the time I was 6 or 7 (I have vague, but strong memories) I was given another baby doll and I gouged its eyes out and buried it in my sandbox. My grandmother thought I was confused so she bought me another one and I did the same thing again. By the time I was about 11 I knew how to clean my room and make small choices for myself. One of the first ones was shoving that baby doll in the trash.

At that point I was strongly obsessed with cars which I had played with since age 3. I had tons of Hot Rod and Matchbox cars but everyone was telling me it was just a silly phase and that all little girls wanted to be mommies and keep house. By age 16 I knew I wanted to be a mechanic and I knew I didn't want kids. But I was not allowed to go to school to become one because I was a girl. And girls are meant to get married and have babies, so they said. Even in adulthood I have men tell me that's how it should be and that I'm "just following a trendy liberal feminist trend" but I've literally had no interest in kids my entire life. It has nothing to do with politics or feminism.

At 18 I had tears in my eyes when one Christmas I walked outside and saw a used car waiting for me. Babies were still the last thing on my mind.

By my mid-20s my mom and others suggested I have a baby because I could be on welfare and it would be free. Mom wanted to be a grandmother really bad. Again, I've never wanted kids, but I am on some welfare myself now, because my health is so poor. It's really not a good feeling because it's A: being co-dependent, B: you can lose it over any little thing, and C: having a kid just to live off the government is wrong. The EBT and heat assistance (only things I qualify for) are things I do need and deserve because I'm too sick to work like I used to. But welfare babies? No, people should not be rewarded for popping out kids.

My mother said I would come to love hypothetical baby because I "love those cats" but cats are not children. I spent over $3,000 in vet bills for one cat which is fine. The little guy deserved the best care. But he was either sleeping or wandering around all day, not any real responsibility. That's what I like about cats, they're independent. And let's face it, you will hate that I say this, and you will judge me, but I like my damn car more than anything still, including men, cats, or children.

But give me credit for this: at least I'm not a neglectful/abusive mother or a welfare statistic.

#Baby #Retro #Aesthetic #Old photo #Cute #Childhood #Family #Childfree

[firstmatedville]

20 questions for fic writers

tagged by my wife @dxppercxdxver (although I really don't consider myself a fic writer these days lmao)

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

5 (and 2 orphaned)

2. what’s your total ao3 word count?

22,856

3. what fandoms do you write for?

considering I have at maximum 2 fics per fandom. you could say none! although my most popular fics were broadchurch and good omens

4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

the first is an orphaned batman/joker fic (does anyone remember that era of this blog? I'm so sorry lmao)

she - broadchurch

i love to live so pleasantly (lazing on a sunny afternoon) - good omens

Blueberry - IT (2017) (an incredibly cringe fic I wrote as a teenager for the love of god please don't read this)

i just want to be held (by your cold hands) - broadchurch

5. do you respond to comments? why or why not?

occasionally! if there's something that like. needs a response I do try to give them but otherwise I am very bad at getting back to comments. I do read and appreciate them all though!

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

it's the IT one tagged above lmao due to the like. 15/16 year old me projecting. I'm not very good at writing angst!

7. what’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

probably either of the broadchurch fics due to. trans joy and also gay domesticity

8. do you get hate on fics?

not actively? during my batman/b*tjokes years (bearing in mind I was about 14) I used to get occasional hate on tumblr due to trans/gay headcanons but that wasn't necessarily fic related. I also once had a pretty big b*tjokes writer comment on an old fic (like three or four years after I'd written it, when I was no longer In The Fandom) claiming I'd stolen their ideas and needed to either remove my work or credit them despite. only having read a few of their works very briefly. the work of mine in Question being a prompt fill. and me just following a lot of the trends of the fandom at the time? like sorry you don't actually have a trademark on hurt/comfort sick fics buddy it's a Fairly Popular Concept. anyway yeah that's about it.

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

nope <3 I've never tried and frankly I don't think I'd be very good at getting any ideas I have Across in a way that reads as sexy or hot enough to warrant actually writing it lmao

10. do you write crossovers? what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I don't think I've fully written or published any crossovers, however! every character I've ever liked has been thrown into a killjoys au in my brain at one point or another (including but not limited to: the scooby doo gang, the penumbra pod gang, the eos 10 gang, Cecil and Carlos wtnv, ect). myself and jon plotted a whole magnus archives/mst3k au that I Wish one of us had written, and another mst3k/the mechanisms au that started as a joke and become so insanely important to us it sincerely helped us get together as a couple. we also had an overall eos10/penumbra podcast crossover that I personally never wrote anything for but I think jon Started some unpublished fics that never got finished.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

not as far as I know!

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

again, i dont beliebe so, but people are more than welcome to do so as long as im credited ofc

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

I class at least the first of my broadchurch fics as partially co-written with Jon bc he was a Huge Help in that fic getting written, and as you might be able to tell from above we've Plotted a lot of fic ideas together (another includes a very goofy villain-decay bill cipher gravity falls fic) but basically none of them ever actually get written

14. what’s your all time favourite ship?

argh I can't choose one all time favourite. jonmartin themagnusarchives are insanely dear and important to me, jongerry / jonmartingerry are closely behind that. poly scooby doo gang. vince/howard from the mighty boosh. these are all just sentimental ships if I'm honest. also I became ridiculously attached to mine and Jon's crackship of jonny d'ville themechanisms / Mike mst3k

15. what’s a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

honestly I'm kind of past the point of hoping to get back into writing due to. complete lack of willpower. but I wish I'd gotten round to writing the third trans Hardy fic I had planned at one point </3

16. what are your writing strengths?

idk!! I think I'm good at capturing like. very specific moments of domesticity and comfort. and I think when I'm imagining A Scene I'm quite good at getting the vibes of that scene across. but other than that I'm really not sure

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

oh god uhh. actually writing. linking scenes together. Plot other than just vague "here's two characters hanging out and existing". the list goes on

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I don't think I've actually attempted it myself? due to most characters I've written have been. incredibly British. I will say a pet peeve of mine in Reading a fic is when it is a fic in 99% English that'll have a large chunk of dialogue in another language, without a translation available somewhere for it. like a word or two is fine but if there's some actual plot in there and you're expecting me to Google translate it, that feels kind of the same as when subtitles simply say (speaking french) or whatever instead of Telling Us What They're Saying

19. first fandom you wrote for?

embarrassingly and horrifically. h*rry p*tter (I was 11)

20. favourite fic you’ve written?

it has to be she simply due to the Amount of trans love and support I got to hear about in the comments of that fic :,)

I'm not tagging anyone bc to be completely honest I don't remember which of my mutaks actively write <3

#anything censored is purely to avoid showing up in tags #beep beep caelan

[eddieydewr]

i'm a zionist jew, and i don't understand people's negative reaction to noah possibly being a zionist. to me antisemitism and antizionism are often the same thing, even if people don't realize it. like i'm sorry but when celebrities like bella hadid and dua lipa say they're not anti semitic but that they're antizionism/pro free palestine, i am doubtful. my personal opinion is that you have to be anti jew, at least deep down, to believe that we cannot have a exclusive jewish nation state in our rightful HOMELAND (where we are free from persecution). and i know that palestinians also claim historical and national rights to the same place and believe that we shouldn't have conquered the land, but there is CLEAR evidence showing that jews are indigenous to the land of israel, like we have roots in the land dating back THOUSANDS of years. not to mention that in the 1940's before the state of israel was formed, there was no independent and sovereign state called Palestine!! i'm not saying i love the israel government (obviously they need to calm down with some of their actions), but i do believe israel has a right to defend itself against hamas. i'm also so sick of people in the left never condemning hamas. hamas started this on october 7th (regardless of israel's reaction, hamas always starts it), but that is conveniently ignored.

i think it was the stickers that got people rly riled up. i’ll agree that it was ignorant and extremely insensitive considering the current climate but it was some loser who went through noah’s friends’ accounts (looking for ammo, i’m guessing) and found the video on one of their insta stories. it wasn’t meant for public consumption (idk if it was public or friends only viewing); but it wasn’t noah himself who posted the video on his official account. and people wrote their own narratives despite not knowing anything, saying things like he was handing out stickers (he was IN the video, recording on his phone and smiling), and he’s pro-genocide, thinks the idea of genocide is sexy 💀😭 oh, and he’s islamophobic bc the other sticker said hamas is ISIS. like i’m aware ISIS doesn’t align with hamas and is pretty much worse as they seem to be absolutely against everyone and everything whereas hamas just wants all jewish people gone, as well as their own liberation, even it means killing their own people. the people they’re supposed to represent, as a ‘government’. but their values are similar and they are antisemitic. i don’t get how this makes noah islamophobic. are we supposed to root for terrorist orgs now?

people just ignore everything noah (or whoever wrote the post) said on insta. he sympathises with israelis and palestinians. he even made the distinction between hamas and palestinians clear but people still believe he referred to all palestinians as terrorists. so there it is, he’s an islamophobic, zionist genocidal maniac. apparently. and the painfully online leftists want noah and brett gelman gone, will byers to be recast, AND to cancel the show or boycott the next season.

anyway, i’m in agreement with you. there’s historical evidence, and yeah, it sucks that the UN had to get involved bc the british didn’t know what to do but there was an opportunity for israelis and palestinians to co-exist within a two state solution but iirc, palestinians didn’t want it and not only they but also neighbouring countries started to attack israelis. this whole conflict is being viewed through a westernised lens; israelis are all white and evil. never mind the fact that there are many israelis who disagree with their government and don’t like how the conflict is handled. i assume zionism is an umbrella term, or it just gets used by antisemites when they see a jewish person behave badly and call them a zionist. aka a bad jew. it’s unfair. jewish people aren’t a monolith. it’s telling that non jew zionists don’t get as much flack.

btw, even without the current climate, people would hate on noah for the stickers anyway. i could do the same and say annibyniaeth is sexy, and people wouldn’t give a toss, apart from brit nats and the butcher’s apron bootlickers, lmao. but we’re not taken seriously anyway 💀 maybe a better example would be irish independence, or reunification. it’s politically charged but they get a lot of supporters too.

#annibyniaeth means welsh independence :) and it is sexy. yay for self governance! #i’m sorry for the long reply omg 😭 #beth answers

[sapphicrpc]

I'm saying let's normalise just not liking people sometimes, and not needing them to be Cancelled and Problematic to justify that!//

Honestly, I'm here for this. I've had a friend who codes beautiful themes, writes epic plots, and enjoys running groups that a lot of people who actually interact with him, love to be on and post with him. 9 or so years ago he pissed off a then very popular blog and got labeled as this and that. A year later that blog was gone and the admin of a group that contributed to the story that blog spread apologized to him saying they were fans of that popular blog. They didn't like him, and they were being trolled by one of the MANY ex members that didn't like that group anymore (a lot of them admit it was toxic and had their horror stories). So they just blamed him and believed it til he got the actual person that was trolling them and harassing their members to admit to doing it because she was mad at the admin for talking crap about her and knew they'd blame it on my friend who she was co-adminning a group with.

To this day he still gets hate anons saying he needs to get his head bashed in or alt-delete himself because of that old drama which was proven to be completely untrue by the very words of every single person who contributed to it.

EXACTLY!!

someone who's annoying or a bit weird and socially awkward is not automatically a toxic person, someone who snaps at you when they're having a bad day is not automatically a bully or an abuser, someone who made an inappropriate comment one time is not automatically a raging racist/sexist/homophobe, and someone who you personally don't like is not necessarily a bad human being just because you don't like them!!

i don't know your friend, but i see it all the time when people just don't fucking like someone, and instead of bitching to their friends and avoiding them, they search for something that this person did wrong to "cancel" them for it...

i'm so sick of seeing people being labelled as toxic, bullies, abusers, when they're NOT. all this does is weaken the meaning of those words and make it easier for actual toxic bully abusers to take advantage of the fact that the words are thrown around like basketballs to minimise their genuinely shitty actions.

#rpt

[einsatzzz]

[Help!] The Boy I Like Won't Respond to My Texts (´･ω･`) - Part 1

Incorrect Textpost/thread based on this translated 2ch thread that @amiahoshi sent me. Timeline is during Tsuna&Co's high school years and is kind of just crack (lol) and also likely OOC for some characters. I still made it because it's funny to read through Yui being decimated. I put random doodles in between.

Summary: For the first time in his life, Yui fell head over heels in love with a boy whose identity he would like to hide behind the alias "Denko" (It's Hiyori). But lately, Denko hasn't been responding to his texts, so he takes it up to Vongola and Oniyanagi's shared anonymous message board...for some...advice.

Message Board Participants: Yui (OP), Minato, Gokudera, Spanner, Shiki, Hibari, Rei, Kurumi, Shoichi, Mukuro, Kana, Yamamoto, Tsuna, Dr. Shamal, Bianchi

Note: Everyone is anonymous here, but I put names for convenience and easy discernment. OC References can be found here.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) There's this boy I have feelings for. We've known each other since middle school, and now we're in high school. We'll call him Denko.

Once we hit second year, we began hanging out a bit more, and we even got to exchange numbers.

We started out talking often, but he hasn't answered my texts in three days now.

I'm getting depressed just thinking that Denko might be angry at me, or that something happened to him… (´･ω･`)

Please, somebody give me some advice.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Minato HE DOESN'T LIKE YOU. GIVE IT UP.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Gokudera Maybe your text messages are a pain in the ass.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) Well, I called him too in case he was sick or something happened… (´･ω･`)

Maybe this last email I sent did something that offended him? Give me your opinion here:

Yahoo! Good weather today. You haven't emailed me or called me, so I'm just sending this since I'm worried. Did I do something bad? PS. The stars were pretty last night.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Spanner Guys, I managed to make ramen flavored lollipops. Does anyone wanna try?

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Shiki Looks cool. I just had shoyu ramen earlier, what flavor is this?

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Spanner Tonkatsu.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Hibari Unconventional, but interesting enough.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Shiki Is this for sale somewhere? I'm curious about the taste.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Spanner Not really. I'd give it away for free if I knew who you guys are.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Shiki Can I track your location so we can meet and I can get it? I'll bring other snacks with me.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Spanner

Sure, if you can.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) Wh… This isn't a thread about ramen, okay?! Someone here who has experience, I need advice! I haven't slept for an entire day…

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Rei Just hypothetically speaking, what would you think if you got a text like that from a boy you don't have any interest in?

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) Duh, of course I wouldn't like it. But I've had my eye on Denko since middle school, and…

I don't know how to say it, but I think it might be mutual… (´･ω･`)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Gokudera Pretty sure he hates you and is too shy to say it.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Kurumi I'll divine OP and his crush's love from their birthdays! Post your birthday here, if possible. (⭑￫ 𓎟 ￩ ⭑)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) My birthday's July 1st, Denko's is December 22nd!

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Kurumi Oh...

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) Oh, what...? (´･ω･`)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Shoichi To be perfectly honest, your texts sound incredibly shifty.

That's why everyone is talking about ramen instead… ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) I don't really have much experience falling for someone like this. I'm usually on the receiving end, but now… (´･ω･`)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Mukuro So you got responses before? What kind of emails are you sending?

It could be, you know, interesting, fufu…

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) At first, we just talked about how strange it was that we only started texting each other in high school, despite being in the same year of middle school.

What I'm sending… well, I'm worried about his lack of reply, so I've sent him around 600 texts.

They're mostly reports on my current mental state, I guess…? (´･ω･`)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Kana 600? Really? That's not a typo? Sending 600 texts out of worry from the lack of response… How spammy can you get…

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) Don't make fun of me, okay! (´･ω･`)

I don't have anyone I can ask in confidence about this! So I need to rely on this anonymous message board!

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Kana …(゜д゜)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) 600 texts and still no reply, so I'm really thinking something might have happened… (´･ω･`)

And I really don't think there's any aspect with what I said that would displease him. They're like this:

"I'm drinking banana milk red bull right now, thinking about what robot to make next."

Maybe I'm a bit too casual? (´･ω･`)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Hibari So you're a troll. And if you're not? Give it up. You're disrupting the order of this message board.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Kana Knows he doesn't have any friends. Oozes human filth right down to his emoticons. And sending 600 texts in three days is stalker-level creepy.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) Alright, alright, maybe people think I'm creepy! But even so, I'm really, honestly in love with him!

You understand, right? I'll try not to be as creepy about it from now on!

So anyone, please, give me advice on how to get Denko to respond! ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yamamoto I thought it's a joke, hahaha. You seriously sent 600 texts in three days? Or is this what people call live action role-play?

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) Well, I think it was only around 50 the first two days. (´･ω･`)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Kurumi Why wouldn't he respond if he wasn't dumping you? If something happened, maybe his power went out! Try calling him up, it should at least get his attention. (*꧆▽꧆*)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) All right, I'll try calling him. But I'm awful at talking when it comes to him, I might piss him off. So give me something to talk about.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Mukuro I want to see what your conversations were like when you got replies first.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP)

Me: "What do you do for fun? What do you listen to? I like watching lots of movies, reading lots of books and making robots, I guess… (´･ω･`)" Denko: "I don’t know. Why the hell do you use so much emoticons? Anyway, I'm busy right now."

That sort of thing.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Rei LOL, wow did he cut things short… Did it ever go on any longer than that?

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP)

Me: "Do students studying medicine do the thing where you turn socks inside-out to use them for a week?" Denko: "Absolutely not, that's too fucking dirty. I usually wash them after a day." Me: "Well, your socks can't possibly be dirty! Unlike mine… (´･ω･`)" Denko: "Do you really fucking wear the same socks for a week?" Me: "No, uh, I heard about it from a friend."

Like that.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) I'M CALLING HIM NOW

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) HE'S ON ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Tsuna RUN FOR YOUR LIFE, DENKO!!

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) OH MY! I WAS SO NERVOUS I PANICKED AND HUNG UP ON HIM (´；ω；`)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Kurumi The cherry blossoms! Invite him to go see the cherry blossoms, OP!!!

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) Okay, I'll do that! I'm too tense to use the phone, so I'll send him a text.

I've never been so nervous about talking to somebody aaaaaUUUUUGH I'm usually so confident, but I'm such a coward right now (´･ω･`)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Tsuna Just… apologize for hanging up. This might be your last chance.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) Do you really want me to call him again? I sent him a text saying I knew I shouldn't have hung up, and my hand just slipped. (´･ω･`)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Dr. Shamal God damn, I've never seen such a revolting sack of crap. I've got a good idea of why you can't get Denko, or any friends.

I'm guessing you've been bullied all your life?

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) I was bullied in grade school, but I've been fine since middle school. (´･ω･`)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Hibari (´･ω･`) ← This is starting to piss me off.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Gokudera Get off this thread then. And take OP with you, while you're at it.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Shiki Anon with the ramen lollipops! I found your location, I'm coming over tomorrow. What kind of ramen would you like?

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Spanner Some authentic shoyu ramen would be nice. Seafood ramen too, if you can.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Shiki Aight, ez.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) WHY IS EVERYONE BEING MEAN AND TALKING ABOUT RAMEN AGAIN?

Hello? I need help here??? (´；ω；`)

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Kurumi Here you go, OP!（＾ワ＾） 1. What classes are you taking? 2. I'm bored -> Can we go see the cherry blossoms at night?

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) Oh! You must be super social, huh? (´･ω･`) Okay, I'm going to try calling again with that.

My armpits are sweating real bad, though.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) YSEYESYES

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Kana What is this, a romance board?

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Mukuro Are you really willing to call this romance? lol

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Bianchi I had a stalker once too, but it's even more disgusting to think that he had the same thought processes as this guy.

600 texts? You have to be trolling. Someone, tell me that's a troll. People like these are the scum of the earth.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yamamoto Speaking of food, what are you guy's favorite sushi?

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Hibari Kanpachi and Hirame Engawa.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Kana Recently ate Aburi Engawa and Saba.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yamamoto Woah, good taste! We got some connoisseurs in here!

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Spanner I want to try these sushi and make lollipops out of them.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yamamoto Secret Menu Tip: It usually just says Engawa in the menu, but you can ask the chef if you want anything specific, like if it's Hirame or Aburi!

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Spanner I see, thanks for the tip.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Bianchi I hope that creepy OP doesn't come back. Let's keep talking about food.

Speaking of, I've been trying to make sushi lately, like the Fugu sushi. I also want to try something with piranhas, barracudas and moray eels too.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yamamoto Fugu sushi, huh? You must be very skilled! Looks like you like to prepare unique dishes too!

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Bianchi Yes, I take pride in it. Cooking is my passion, it's how I show my love ♡ ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Spanner This thread is unexpectedly helpful. There really is treasure in the trash. I'm learning new things about Japan.

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Yui (OP) I TALKED WITH DENKO! And I invited him to see the cherry blossoms!

Apparently his schedule was packed at his intern work, so he said some other time! Oh well, still good news!

Gotta buy some clothes now… (´･ω･`) Hurry hurry…

I accidentally told him about how I was sweating really bad, haha…

And he said he was sorry he was too busy to reply to my texts. (´･ω･`)

For now, I'm glad Denko is safe and is not pissed at me. I was worried what might happen since I'm so bad at talking right now because I really like him, but I guess I managed…

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Bianchi Tch...

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Tsuna So, you're really serious...

━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ [To be continued...?]

#tfw ur oc is pathetic and is a fcking loser (affectionate) #this is so fun! #actually what tags do i use again? #oc #ocs #original character #khr oc #khr #katekyo hitman reborn #khre #oniyanagi #yorimitsu yui #mikan minato #gokudera hayato #spanner khr #yukimura shiki #hibari kyoya #ishioka rei #ninomiya kurumi #shoichi irie #rokudo mukuro #ninomiya kanako #yamamoto takeshi #sawada tsunayoshi #shamal khr #bianchi khr #einart #khre denko thread #ig this counts as #yuihiyo

[luveline]

Hi Jade, just wanted to say, that it's totally okay to feel that way, It really is. You went through something that sucked so fucking much and you shouldn't feel angry at yourself for feeling what you are feeling. Honestly, if someone did the same to me I would feel the same.

I hope that stupid fucking idiots don't keep you away from your writing, because you are so talented it hurts🤭. Please take your time, the real ones will wait for you to return, whenever you feel better.

Love uuuu, hope you'll feel better.💕💕💕💕🥰🥰

There's part of me that knows it sucked and sucks and will suck for a while and then there's part of me that's like — okay babe you can simmer down now, it wasn't too bad. I think I have this dual awareness of it like – yeah that hurt your feelings but if you wanted to whine about it you should've done it at the time and — I don't know. I think I'm so sick of constantly trying to calculate how people will react to my feelings like . I don't wanna be a cunt about stuff and have it come back to bite me. Luveline's that egotistical freak who couldn't cope with a mutual accidentally paraphrasing her fic (though I'd like to reaffirm that this is not the sole reason I'm having a nervy b)

I'm sick of myself as im answering this ask right now cos I'm thinking, someone might take this the wrong way, someone's gonna say you're being disingenuous, or a wussy, I am so so terrified of being a bad sport or a bitch that it's like I have this constant babble in the back of my head telling me to stop talking

Stupid fucking idiots — I love you so much for your ask but I just wanna take a second to say I can't agree with this part 'cause it was an accident, you know? Unless you mean the mean anons then yes I'm seconding it and people are idiots. Which isn't to say 'mean anons' are without credibility (no I'm not saying you should send people hate) I'm sure I've received critique that was sorely needed at that point and nobody is above review but also sometimes people are fucking idiots (revisting my earlier point — I'm very tired of myself because as I'm writing this I'm worrying about all the ways someone might take it out of context). People suck sooooo much but that's because they're people, we are all idiots and none of us are infallible, but people r also great too like you, who took the time to send me something encouraging and sweet and empathetic when you absolutely didn't have to, so thank you

#jade's asks #ily

[alarrytale]

I can't decide if Harry is in a better or worse place now regarding his closet. Sure he is so flamboyant and interacts with gay culture much more confidently whereas back in 1D/his early so career he was more subtle and shy about it. But back then he talked more freely about his attraction to men and now every interview feels so scripted. There's the queerbaiting backlash, his stunts getting worse and the growing list of PR girlfriends. But he's got to do stuff like MP, Coachella (very camp), Vogue etc. So I guess it's taking the bad with the good? I understand why he is stunting now, because he is at his peak and wants to make the most of it while he can. He's had a hugely successful album and tour. He's not quite icon status yet. Another 1 or 2 will do it to prove he isn't a 'flash in the pan'. But having said that, I'm so sick of it. I hate that we can't enjoy his content because stunts come with it. I'm looking forward to HS4 but know it's going to be promoted to be about Olivia or Taylor. I'm looking forward to him joining a new fashion house (Loewe?) but Taylor is an ambassador? so more stunts. Other than when he's on tour, the only times we see him is when he is stunting... and sometimes even on tour he is stunting. I'm so tired and feel like I might need to take a step back because it is messing with my mental health. Which is sad because I love him. Part of me wonders if he is 'headline trading' with the British tabloids because they have stories on him and can 'out' him. I noticed that a lot of his stunt content is exclusive to the Daily Mail and they're one of the worst tabloids for outing celebrities. So maybe he is providing them content so they don't out him. I don't know. I'll just be really disappointed if he is still doing this in his mid 30s. I'm not saying he has to CO but at least have an image change. Maybe show there is more to him than just 'dating' women.

Hi anon,

I think most of us have really complicated feelings about Harry right now. Your feelings are valid, and if it's impacting your mental health negatively, it's important to prioritise yourself. If this means taking breaks from fandom or Harry, then do that. You can come back anytime when you're ready.

I think Harry is neither better or worse off with his closet, it's the same as it's always been. The difference is he's gone from being a little bit gay and a little bit straight to being very gay and very straight. For fandom the highs are higher and the lows are lower. As he's grown bigger he's got to deal with more critisism, from both sides. He's playing the Hollywood games more than ever, and now with a smile on his face. He's overexposed and everyone is tired. It's been a long time since we've got a glimpse of Harry the person, the human. He's not relatable anymore and he's distanced himself from his fandom. That has consequences. The ig banter with Joe Lycett was great, but we'd never know about if it weren't for Joe. I'd kill for a 'forgot to turn on the dishwasher' tweet from him. I think things like that would heal the rift and the distance people are feeling towards Harry. It's especially important when he's stunting and people are down about it.

I struggle with the choices he's making and his priorities. I don't understand his goals properly and i hate the means he's using to get there. There are still ways to justify (some of) his actions, so i'm giving him the benefit of the doubt for now. I'm not a solo harry fan, or a fan of his brand, just a fan of him as a person, so i think this all is perhaps different for me than you. I'm able to look past his image (even though he's not giving us much incentive to do so as of late), but i wish his image was different so i could be a fan and not be embarrased to call myself one.

I don't know how long he's going to keep this up for, but i think it's going to become harder for him to balance it all, when he's trying to please everyone like he currently is. It depends on his ambitions and how much of his soul he's willing to sell to get there.

#he's not getting icon status if he continues stunting the next five years #i can tell you as much #harry image #solo harry

[facelessxchurch]

The whole premise of Skulduggery Pleasant is nonsensical Shaddy

I mean, it's about talking skeleton, so obviously.

I meant it's nonsensical within its own pre-established canon. I can already tell there are gonna be inconsistent power levels and Mev and Nef will get done dirty again so Skul can look even more important and powerful. I already hated that about Vile. It's not enough that Skul is a central 'good guy' he ALSO needs to be a central 'bad guy'. And now even his good guy version gotta be important to the bad guys in a non-enemy way.

I'm having hard time with... words, right now. But it's essentially my old point of me being sick of Skul not living in his world, but the world he lives him revolving around him. I'd rather split it into two books, one about the Dead Men doing their thing and one about Mev and Co. doing their thing. Or just write the DM book. Leave my favs alone, he has ruined them enough already.

Ngl I'm pretty worried about the "Skulduggery is presented with the opportunity to finally get revenge on Nefarian Serpine" part of the summary. What is Landy gonna do to my boi? After the way he was a punching bag in SoW and how dirty he was done in UtE I don't trust Landy with Nef anymore.

All excitement I had for HBL is fucking dead. Ya know, I tried to watch the SecondLife Interview thing but I only got to part 2 bc I'm so pissed off that everything Landy says about writing is just flat out wrong. No bloody surprise this series has become such a disaster. No surprise everything else he did flopped so hard. His movies, Demon Road, and even his Marvel run just got soft-cancelled. This manchild is a moron.

#rant #SP Hell Breaks Loose #answered #anonymous