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dazais-guardian-angel · 1 year

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Happy birthday Mushitarou!

The sad silly green man is one of the absolute best and also one of the most criminally underrated characters in all of BSD. I don’t have any fics or anything for him today (EVENTUALLY... eventually....), but I’ll share some headcanons for him (+others) that I have 💚 (part headcanons/part analysis tbh)

Under the cut cause uhhhh this got a lot longer than I expected it would ahaha, smh:

While I don’t think he had any particular falling-out with his family, I think Mushi is naturally isolated from them, and only became more closed off after his father died, someone whom he was especially close to and who shaped him into the good person that he is. He was lonely growing up in school, and Yokomizo was as well, even though it didn’t seem that way on the surface due to the latter being much more outgoing and extroverted; neither of them had anyone who truly understood and engaged with their interests (especially not Mushi after the loss of his father). Yokomizo was also estranged from his relatives, even more so after he became obsessed with writing, so he and Mushi became as close as family after enough time had passed – they really were all each other had, in so many ways.

Mushi already visited Yokomizo frequently enough as it is, without much else to do in his life, but began coming to see him even more often after he was told about Yokomizo’s terminal illness/given the request to kill him. Despite Yokomizo’s desire to finish his novel before his health deteriorated enough to be noticeable, he was unable to do so, and as time wore on, Mushi began to worry that something would happen to Yokomizo without anyone there to help, and took it upon himself to take care of him. Yokomizo’s urgency to finish his writing became more desperate, yet Mushi tried to keep him from pushing himself, which somewhat worked – there was an unspoken understanding that both were trying to put off the inevitable; for Mushi, it was out of utter denial of losing him and of what he’d have to do, and for Yokomizo, it was out of a sorrowful desire to spend as much time with Mushi as he still could, and guilt for the tremendously selfish and cruel thing he was ultimately asking of him, even as both of these emotions fought with his stubborn desire to go out the way he wanted to.

Mushi’s façade of hatred towards Yokomizo after killing him, although mostly a coping mechanism to distance himself from him and his grief, is not entirely without basis: a small part of him did want to genuinely hate Yokomizo for forcing this upon him, though ultimately a much larger part of him simply hated himself for doing something so unspeakable to the person he called his friend, even if it was asked of him.

Yokomizo, however, wanted Mushi to hate him over all, even if he never said this outright. The months leading up to his death were filled with worry for his friend, for the person who was essentially like a younger family member to him (not exactly a little brother, but… something akin to that. Although they’re probably around the same age, I feel like Yokomizo was more mature (not in every way though of course), and was protective over Mushi in a lot of ways); he knew Mushi very well, and he knew that Mushi would not cope well with his death at all, let alone what he was asking of him – he already wasn’t coping well. Mushi always had walls up and pretended to be arrogant, pretended to be selfish and not care about anyone but himself, but Yokomizo was the one person he was comfortable around, and he had long since practically become home for him: although their time together was never anything extravagant, he was able to bring him out of his shell, and force him to do and think about things he never would have otherwise, giving them both a happiness they each would have never otherwise known for so many years. But then that fragile peace they had together, that safety net, was being cruelly ripped away from them both, and the thought that Mushi would go back to being lonely, closed-off, and isolated after he was gone, drowning in his grief and with no one else to support him anymore, was more devastating to Yokomizo than even the fact that he was dying. As cruel and selfish as asking Mushi to kill him for his perfect crime was, I think a part of him felt it would be even crueler to force Mushi to watch him slowly wither away from illness (and he, too, dreaded and was terrified of having to go out like that, after so much drawn-out pain), and he selfishly hoped that Mushi’s hatred of him for forcing this upon him would overcome his grief, and the inevitable self-loathing he would have – yes, Mushi could hate him, needed to hate him, anything to keep him from hating himself. Of course, Yokomizo knew that wouldn’t happen, because Mushi was far too kind, far too caring, and far too selfless – anyone who would do so much for him for so many years as he had, especially after he became ill, and would willingly agree to go as far as to essentially euthanize him for his selfish final dream, no matter how much all of it hurt him, was truly the greatest friend anyone could ask for. Mushi was and is a beautifully selfless person, but he himself could never see it – only Yokomizo could, and so he knew exactly how he would respond, and worried about him immensely because of it. And that worry made him want to try to distance himself from Mushi as much as possible, to die as soon as possible, even, so it wouldn’t be even harder on him than it already would be… but in the end what won over that was his desire to make as many happy memories with him as possible in those final months, so they could somehow try to forget about what was coming, if only briefly; so that Yokomizo could, maybe, somehow, in some small way, believe that Mushi would be okay in the end after he was gone. :’ )

Continuing this, as part of those memories, I headcanon Yokomizo liked to dance with Mushi a lot, since there’s some art of them doing that 💚 Mushi also took Yokomizo out to various quiet place, like to see fireworks or the beach. He canonically doesn’t like the smell of the salty sea air (why? I have no clue), but I hc Yokomizo loved the sea, so Mushi went with him there at least once oops my Yokomizo Oda similarity headcanons are showing-

Yokomizo wanted Mushi to be happy, but it also worried him that his friend clearly bottled everything up and never allowed himself to cry, either. So seeing him cry in his last moments was a huge weight off his shoulders, and was somehow what ultimately convinced him that Mushi would one day be okay again. :’ )

At some point, probably multiple times, Mushi and Yokomizo had a discussion where Mushi tried to make sure that Yokomizo truly, sincerely wanted him to do what he was asking of him. Around and around, trying to talk him out of it, insisting that he hadn’t truly thought it through, but Yokomizo was always gently steadfast. After they settled on strangulation (poison, aside from being ruled out for the sake of the reader, was not what Yokomizo preferred when his body was already painfully killing itself from the inside), Mushi tried to suggest that he be given a strong sleeping pill/sedative before being killed so that he wouldn’t feel it, but Yokomizo insisted against it, as it would imply sympathy on the part of the killer, which couldn’t happen. His sickly state, although it wasn’t yet public while he was still alive, would already suggest a mercy killing and was putting the plan/general reception at risk enough as it was. </3

After killing Yokomizo, Mushi handled his body ever-so-delicately, tenderly, almost reverently, just as he had many times before while carrying him, as he strung him up the way he was instructed, and even as he cut off his ears. He took his time doing it, wanting to hold his friend close and memorize what he looked like for as long as he possibly could in these final moments, even though he felt like his hands didn’t have the right to touch him anymore. Then, after everything was in place and he’d fled the premises with the manuscript, he promptly threw up somewhere. :’ )

Yokomizo was the second person to give him the nickname “Mushi”, after Mushi’s father. No one else ever calls him that now; it’s a name reserved only for them.

Mushi struggles while trying to write at Poe’s mansion out of a feeling of inferiority compared to Yokomizo; writing and mysteries were never his passion, they were Yokomizo’s, and he was just indulging the latter’s hobbies. He has no right to claim the role of writer for himself, not now that he’s gone and when he was only ever in it for Yokomizo to begin with… and there’s no possible way he can ever create anything good or original, when they’d already talked at length about how everything in the mystery genre had already been done, and Yokomizo himself created the ultimate mystery that no one could ever possible top, least of all him.

But Poe knows that what he writes doesn’t need to be perfect or even good; Mushi only needs to do it as a form of therapy for himself, because it will bring him closer to his deceased friend, since mysteries are what they enjoyed most when he was alive. (and I honestly think Poe would understand and empathize Mushi very well, having been so isolated and lonely in the past himself before Ranpo essentially saved him just as Yokomizo did for him) Once he’s able to convey that to him, it gradually comes more naturally to Mushi and becomes comforting for him as Poe intended. 💚

Mushi forms a reluctant friendship with Karl over the course of his stay with Poe (inspired by this person’s art series of them together 🥹). It starts with Karl trying to help the first time Mushi has a nightmare there, and after that he starts bothering him/trying to get his attention in general, until Mushi slowly gives in, becoming begrudgingly fond of the little creature. Whenever he’s having a hard time, whether it be a nightmare or a panic attack or just listlessness, Karl is usually there for him, as his own personal therapy raccoon. 💚

To add to that, Mushi canonically dislikes thunder; I headcanon that when they were together during storms, Yokomizo always made sure to be even more chatty than usual, to distract Mushi from his fear of the noise. Once he’s at Poe’s mansion, when it storms, he suddenly realizes how much louder and scarier the thunder feels now… but of course he doesn’t let it show. Karl, however, notices his discomfort, and is there for him during storms now. :’ )

Post-series, in general, Mushi always brings treats for Karl whenever he meets up with Poe again. 💚

A headcanon plenty of people have, but Ango is absolutely crucial to Mushi’s journey of healing. Post-series, they have quite a few talks about their respective situations, and Ango is the one person Mushi ultimately (after enough time, of course) bears the most of his soul and his pain to, because Ango can empathize with him and understand his guilt/self-loathing/sorrow in a way none of the others can. Earlier on, Ango checks on Mushi the most (Ranpo and Poe do too though) to make sure that he’s taking care of himself, just like he occasionally does/did with Dazai.

Mushi starts wearing traditional clothes more often after Yokomizo’s death, including a few old things that used to belong to him, that are comforting to Mushi.

There aren’t many public photos of Yokomizo, since he was a rather private author. There is, however, only one single personal photo of him, one he roped a grumpy Mushi into taking with him once, his own expression being as sunshine-y and exuberant as always in contrast. Mushi cherishes it now :’ ) oops the buraiha trio vibes strike again

Because of his period of dealing with Yokomizo’s terminal illness, Mushi has some medical-related knowledge that the average person probably wouldn’t. It isn’t the kind of thing he wants to dwell on after Yokomizo’s death, and he can’t stand being around hospitals, for obvious reasons, but regardless, whether he’s consciously aware of it or not, he is especially compassionate/understanding towards those who are sick and disabled that he encounters. His time with Yokomizo has given him perspectives and philosophies about life that he wouldn’t otherwise have, and when he’s not trying to write strictly mysteries, it’s the sort of things that are evident in his writing. In a way, writing about it in general is healing for him, separate from mysteries being comforting to him solely because they’re associated with Yokomizo.

At some point, Mushi starts visiting Yokomizo’s grave together with Ango, Poe, and Ranpo, or sometimes just Ango. Similarly, he, Poe and Ranpo join Ango in visiting Oda’s grave. He and Ango each tell stories about their respective lost loved ones, so that more people will learn about and remember who they once were. 💚

With his ability, Ango is able to read the memories within the room Yokomizo was living in (or perhaps in objects Mushi owns), and see numerous happy memories he had with Mushi, long before his illness and death. With what he sees and conveys, Poe is able to write a small story of the memory, which he then gives to Mushi, allowing him to go into the story and relive the memory and see Yokomizo again for the first time in years. It’s not the real Yokomizo, and Mushi knows this – he’s long since stopped seeing the hallucination of him, because he’s healed enough by this point. But even so, just knowing that the book is there, that he can see his friend moving and talking again whenever he wishes – a version of Yokomizo that is just as happy and bright and energetic as he always remembered, without suffering from illness – is the greatest gift and kindness he could ever imagine receiving, and from his new friends no less, and it’s enough to make him cry, from how loved he truly is :’ ) 💚

I love Mushitarou sooooo much, and I truly hope he gets more attention in the future (can’t wait for tomorrow’s episode!!), because his story is so touching and his character so relatable and comforting 🥹 and I sincerely hope he finds his ultimate happiness in the manga one day. Happy birthday, you sweet, sentimental, pathetic (affectionate), goofy little gremlin man 💚

#bungou stray dogs #mushitarou oguri #meta #HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUSHI TAKE MY ANGST-FILLED HEADCANONS #that will hopefully be fics someday. ha. haaaaaaah.........#'i dont have anything for his birthday :(' *writes 2.3k words of headcanons/character analysis dumping* typical me smh #'this will be short' narrator: it was not and never will be short #i just love him so much!!!! he's too underrated!!! more people need to talk about him *cries*#then again i feel like literally everyone who isn't skk or fyolai are underrated in one way or another in the bsd fandom sooooooo lol #but especially mushi </3 #it took me way too long to appreciate him but he is genuinely one of the best written characters in the series imo #up there with Oda #god #mark my words there's gonna be parallels between his and yokomizo's story later with fyolai #as there already is with him and oda & dazai #and then you all will see!!! the importance of his arc!!!!#him and ango too!!! aughhhhh i never get over how asagiri tied him and ango together so BEAUTIFULLY in a way that makes PERFECT SENSE #I'M NOT READY TO CRY TOMORROW FUCK 😭😭😭#anyway stan mushitarou he is best boy #he could take down fyodor with one kick full stop #in fact i think that's what he deserves

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cursedwithwords · 4 months

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HP Next Gen Headcanons: Albus

Full Name: Albus Severus Potter

House: Slytherin

Wand: larch and thestral tail hair

Patronus: thestral

Boggart: Scorpius being tortured/screaming

Profession: magizoologist

Sexuality: demisexual

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Bonus: he has nightmares about delphini torturing and even killing scorpius which has made him very, very protective. He gets along with Lily the best of his siblings but still really loves his brother (even if he's annoying af sometimes). His worst subject is Potions but after his fourth year he buckles and asks James to tutor him (since it's Jamie’s best subject). After that, even though it's still his least favorite subject, he tries extremely hard to get good marks solely to make James proud. Can't balance on a broomstick or fly to save his life and Quidditch bores him to death. His favorite and best subject is Care of Magical Creatures, and his favorite Beasts are the aviary ones. He gained the ability to see thestrals after the incident with Delphini, learning quickly that they weren't nearly as frightening as he always believed. He acquires a strand of tail hair while visiting the herd of thestral near Hogwarts, and later brought it to Olivander to ask if he'd fashion a wand around it. The old wandcrafter was cautious to use it but was stunned to find how well the wand actually fit Albus (it remains the only wand he's ever made utilizing thestral tail hair). Having that wand made him more confident and reminded him that even great fear can become one of your greatest strengths. Gets along famously well with Draco which Harry fuuuuuckin hates.

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Wand Wood — larch

"Strong, durable, and warm in color, larch has long been valued as an attractive and powerful wand wood. Its reputation for instilling courage and confidence in the user has ensured that demand has always outstripped supply. This much sought-after wand is, however, hard to please in the matter of ideal owners and trickier to handle than many imagine. I find that it always creates wands of hidden talents and unexpected effects, which likewise describes the master who deserves it. It is often the case that the witch or wizard who belongs to the larch wand may never realise the full extent of their considerable talents until paired with it, but that they will then make an exceptional match."

Similar to Scorpius, Albus' previous wand (cherry wood and dragon heartstring) was broken in half by Delphini, which led him to receive his larch wand over the summer. Olivander warned Albus that it may be a bit difficult to master due to the properties of the wood. It was no secret that Albus wasn't considered the most talented of wizards: he had difficulty performing simple spells, struggled with potions, and the like. This was greatly due to the self-imposed expectations, as well as the abysmal lack of confidence he suffered from. Though his cherry wand did choose him, it never felt right in his hand. It isn't until after he faced Delphini that he began to trust himself a bit more, likely due to spite more than anything else. Olivander was stunned to see just how well the larch wand fit in Albus' hand. As if he was born to hold that wand. Olivander considers it to be one of his most impressive wands, as well as one of his more tempermental, because it doesn't like to perform for wizards who are not Albus. It will, however, work well in Scorpius' hand. Olivander theorizes this is due to the fact Albus cares deeply for Scorpius, and unconsciously instills that same care into his wand — an extension of his emotions. The larch wand will try to protect Scorpius in Albus' stead if the need arose. It's quite an interesting phenomenon.

Wand Core — thestral tail hair

"Thestral wands generally produce strong magic, but only when the wielder understands themselves. If the wielder does not know themselves or loses themselves, then their spells will suffer. When the wielder knows themselves, then this wand can create very strong spells. The Thestral wands are very tempermental and rare to find with Wizards and Witches of today."

Albus realizes that he can see the thestrals on the Hogwarts grounds soon after Christmas break his fourth year. Initially, he's cautious and avoids them to the best of his ability, but his curiosity eventually sees him visiting the herd in his spare time. During these visits, he quickly comes to realize that in spite of their startling appearance, Thestral are extremely docile and gentle. He becomes good friends with the herd and deeply enjoys being around them. During one of his visits, while giving one a good pet, a few strands of tail hair get caught around his fingers. He doesn't have an explanation of why he keeps it, but he feels compelled to bring them to Olivander himself, asking him to form a wand around them. Olivander is hesitant at first — he doesn't normally craft wands with such an unusual, unstable core — but eventually gives in. Albus is persistent, after all. It's just as well that he chooses to use larch, a wand wood known for instilling confidence, as a way to naturally counter any hesitancy that may still be lingering in Albus. His magic seems more powerful now that it's directed through a wand made so entirely for him, and it seems to grow even more powerful as time passes and Albus grows even more confident in himself. It's truly a symbiotic relationship, and Olivander swells with pride whenever he sees it in action.

Patronus — thestral (very rare)

"Since only people who have witnessed death can see thestrals, many associate them with loss of life; however, those with this Patronus are genuinely gentle and kind. People with the Thestral Patronus are empathetic and realistic and have the ability to look at the bigger picture, making them deeply powerful. They're often misunderstood by others and are way ahead of their years, having contemplated ideas that most only think about on their deathbeds."

James used to tease Albus using thestrals as a device of fear. Albus always knew he was just joking, but as a child, he couldn't help how scared he got when hearing the creatures description. Even following Craig's death when he was able to see the thestrals, he still felt nervous; but it offered an alarming sense of relief when he finally chose to approach the beasts and realized just how benign they were. They looked a certain way, so were perception as being malicious. A great majority of people with little to no understanding of them assumed the worst of them — just like they did with Albus. A creature that Albus once feared becoming a source of enormous strength and confidence, to the point where it becomes the core of his magic — is there anything more poetic than that? He loves thestrals now, and he bursts in joy when he casts a corporeal patronus the first time. While his classmates take a cautious step away, he would hold his hand out and smile, because he isn't afraid anymore.

#albus severus potter #harry potter #ginny weasley #harry potter next gen #next gen headcanons #scorpius malfoy #the headcanon that al's patronus is a thestral makes me lowkey want to cry because i love it so much #a creature his big brother used to scare him with becoming his greatest strength feels so visceral #“people with the thestral patronus are empathetic realistic and have the ability to look at the bigger picture making them deeply powerful”#“often misunderstood by others and way ahead of their years having contemplated ideas that most only think about on their deathbeds”#<<< look me in the eye and tell me that isnt the most albus coded thing youve ever read

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touchlikethesun · 1 year

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so james’ tattoos are obvs the antlers along his v-line, matching with sirius’ flower v-line tats, his gryffindor quidditch jersey number on his bicep, and then constellations across his chest for sirius and reg. regulus has stars tattooed around his moles, on his collarbone, arms, and back, all in slightly different styles, since some have been done by different artists and some have been done by his friends. he also has a sun over his heart with long rays reaching out across his body.

#open to other ppl’s ideas but personally i love this #saw a post like this for wolfstar (last reblog) and wanted to give my hcs for jegulus #i love tattoo headcanons #also if it needed more explanation #james isn’t super attached to his tattoos he got them for jokes (the antlers) and to make sirius and reg feel appreciated (constellations)#like he likes them but he was also fine not having tattoos #for regulus it’s actually therapy #the first tattoo he got was one sirius gave him with his personal tattoo kit #a star drawn around one of the moles and it was something they did as part of their reconciliation and bonding #and from then on reg would get a star tattoo around a mole to remind him of a friend or of a good memory #and a lot of the tattoos would actually be done by his friends barty and evan and pandora and eventually people like andy and cissa #so the quality varies #but the emotion is already real #and then he spent months designing the sun tattoo with james #james would help draw the stencil so not only is it a symbol of james but it’s his actual artwork as well #and everytime reg sees it he’s reminded how much james loves him and the effort and care he’s always happy to give #sorry brb crying #james potter #regulus black #marauders #jegulus

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citricacidprince · 2 years

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Headcanoning Rise!Donatello and 2012!Raphael as autistic is actually something that can so personal

#Listen; Raph lashing out all the time cause hes overstimulated and was never taught in a way that worked for him a health coping mechanism #is something that racks my brain all the time. like; Splinter loves them of course; but of course his way of dealing with anger #wouldnt work for Raph since its not made for a touch sensitive constantly overstimulated lad #sorry its 3am and ive had this headcanon for years and i didnt know some people also headcanoned it so it brings me joy #i also got suddenly angry at the 2012!TMNT bashing (specifically the brothers minus Mikey bashing (tho its mostly Raph))#and i got so mad i thought about my autistic raph headcanon until i felt better lol #*begging on my knees* please for the love of god can more people make Rise!TMNT & 2012!TMNT crossovers where either #A) The boys dont fucking hate each other or B) Raph isnt a fucking jackass please please im asking oh so nicely #i would also cry just seeing autistic rise!donnie and 2012!raph interacting and actually getting along; better yet #donnie helping raph find out hes autistic and getting some good coping mechanisms into that boy cause that brings my heart joy 💛#anywho im done thanks for listening to my 3AM ted talk ill be here all week 💛#teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt #tmnt headcanons #tmnt 2012 #2012 teenage mutant ninja turtles #2012 tmnt #tmnt 2018 #2018 tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt #rottmnt headcanons #2012 tmnt headcanons #autistic donatello #autistic raphael #autistic donnie #prince rambles in this chilies tonight

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i-bring-crack · 10 months

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A Journey to the West x SL crossover would be fun

Liu Zhigang as Sun Wukong

Woo Jin-Chul as Tang sanzang

Christopher Reed as Pigsy Zhu Bajie

Thomas Andre as Sandy Sha Wujing

Kaisel is the White Dragon Horse

Cha Hae-In as GuanYin

Woo Jin-Chul who always has to get saved from every kind of demon attack by Liu Zhigang and the gang, all of this crisis just to deliver some scrolls to the West. Meanwhile lady Hae-In is just giving them farewell wishes from afar with her pet fish and her disciple Han Song-Yi.

Liu Zhigang was known very well as the Sage Equal to Heaven, often caused chaos since the time of his birth, it wasn't until he got kicked to the ground by Buddha and rested over a mountain for 500 years. Then Hae-In, trying to see who would be a good candidate to take care of this very important monk, decided to go to his mountain and convince him that he shall take care of Woo Jin-Chul from all kinds of evils in this trip.

The old Lao Tzu is Go Gun Hee.

The Jade Emperor is Yoo Jin-Ho who was entirely scared of a lot Liu Zhigangs acting and the way he just became immortal like 5 times. He eventually was the one to ask for help from the Buddha.

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S-sung

S-sung Jin Woo as six ear macaque 👀👀👀

Sung Jin Woo creating tension between Zhigang and Jin-Chul because he knows how much zhigang cares for Jin-Chul and he is jealous of that.

Sung Jin-Woo also appearing more times in the story just to keep creating problems for Zhigang more than Jin-Chul, he gets to be a bit fond of Jin-Chul and wants to take him away so that HE can be Jin-Chul's disciple and not Zhigang, that way Zhigang cannot become enlightened with Jin-Chul.

#guys i just realised #there might be fon jinchul Mpreg #god i love the journey to the west like ill read it and proabbly make more headcanons about it here #Jin woo fooling Jin chul about being Liu Zhigang and then Liu zhigang is just over there eating peaches and crying because Woo Jin chul -#said he doesnt want him as a disciple anymore and Hae In is like 'i guess imma have to talk to him about it ughhh'#I dont know whenever I should choose Laura or Hae In as Guan Yin #I also dont know whenever its rude to change the people as whoever you want? i mean they are characters from a book but they are also real #Buddhist and taoist figures...#I mean here Jesus could be portrayed as Beyonce and no one would bat an eye.#but idk if its the same there hmmmm #anyways might just get the story from the movies too so its more acceptable #hwbisbwk im doing mental gymnastics for some reason #solo leveling #solo leveling manwha #cha hae in #sung jin woo #he only appears once lmao #but in this fanfic he will probably appear more times absolutely just to cause chaos between Jin-Chul and Zhigang #Julyarya this can absolutely count as a shipping fanfic of Zhigang and JinChul #liu zhigang #thomas andre #christopher reed #kaisel sl #go gun hee #yoo jinho #woo jin chul

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myers-meadow · 1 year

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We've talked about Otis with an S/O who isnt scared of gore, one who is great at hand to hand combat etc etc, but if you're a gentler, softer person don't think for a second that he wouldn't love you with all his heart!!

It's just different how both of you would navigate the relationship, but what is certain is that he loves you for who you are. Even if he teases you, or can be harsh, he cares for you deeply. There are plenty of other things to do to spend quality time togethertogether besides kill or hunt together (you waiting for him to come home, caring for his injuries, wanting him to be safe? He feels like the luckiest man in the world).

And you can't tell me this man doesnt have an innocence (and a corruption) kink 😳

#Otis driftwood #Otis driftwood x reader #Otis driftwood headcanons #slasher community #house of 1000 corpses #It's me I'm a softer person and a cry baby #But I love love love thinking through situation of how he'd act #Imagining how he'd adore different kinds of people makes it easier to imagine that he'd love me too;; for who I am

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blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk · 8 months

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a very sad thought that just popped into my head, regarding Snake's comment about orphanages being horrible places... I was worried about it messing with my backstory for Snake, but actually it makes my headcanons even sadder

obviously he was in a terrible orphanage which probably abused and neglected their charges

that's not even the worst part, though, and he doesn't KNOW the worst part

after they were separated, Felicity looked for him everywhere she thought of to look

she never thought to look in circuses, because, well, the idea that her son was some freakshow to be gawked at never occurred to her

but she did look in orphanages, every single one in the area and traveling as far as she thought the people who took him would be willing to go

the orphanage where Snake wound up found his appearance off-putting, and the headmaster/headmistress or caregivers (such as they were, considering the God-awful care they gave) would make sure that nobody who came looking for children would see him

whenever someone came to the orphanage in hopes of adopting children, or in Felicity’s case looking for a missing child, these people would hide Snake in another room until the prospective parent left (with or without a child)

“look at yourself, boy. what parent would pick out a child like you?”

it makes my backstory for him hurt more, because he had a chance to reunite with his mother before he grew up

his mother was in the other room looking for her son, and he didn’t know it

she came looking for her child who’d been kidnapped, and the people who ran the orphanage hid him from her because they thought his appearance would drive people away

the people who took him were responsible for ripping a child away from his mother, but the people who ran the orphanage are at least as culpable for the fact that he went through hell in the following years, tortured and abused instead of with his mother

all because they couldn’t conceive of someone loving a child who looked like Snake.

#child abuse tw #Black Butler #Kuroshitsuji #Snake #headcanons #LISTEN I REALIZED JUST NOW HOW HORRIFIC THIS MAKES MY BACKSTORY FOR HIM #this poor fucking child at like five or six years old being HIDDEN while his mother desperately searches for him #she's a few km or so away but he's concealed away and being taught to be ashamed of himself #meanwhile there's this woman who loves him deeply and wants her child back #and he doesn't even know she's out there because other people are cruel #UGHHHHHH I'M GONNA LIE DOWN AND CRY ABOUT THIS FOR A FEW HOURS COME JOIN ME-

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kaihihanto-art · 8 months

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y’know what fuck it i’m posting my honda lore hc’s because i have a lore for him ;

parent loss tw ! bold for canonical information .

HIS PARENTS LORE ; edmond’s father’s name is kazuki (born in 1932), and his mother’s name is akari (born in 1933). they met in 1951 and became partners for 8 years, married in 1959. akari works as a casino manager, and kazuki works as an office employee like most people do. unfortunately, akari died of childbirth right after edmond honda’s birth.

EDMOND’S BIRTH ; remember, edmond’s name is a shikona (your everyday western name). so let’s be serious, edomon is his real name. like the edo period, akari’s favorite japanese history. that’s why she named him edomon before her death. with kazuki becoming widowed, honda is motherless.

AFTERMATH OF AKARI ; kazuki continues to work as an office employee to earn money while honda gets taken care of by his babysitters. but don’t worry, kazuki has the best quality time with his son and is always time to witness the first talk, walk, you name it. when honda became a toddler, kazuki would sometimes take him to work so that he doesn’t get very lonely. his friends are in awe and his boss just doesn’t mind it at all.

CHILDHOOD ; edmond honda’s childhood isn’t that really good when it comes to his life in middle and high schools. he was always made fun of in middle school only because he was motherless. in the udon comics, we heard that he was bullied in every turn in high school, he was a nobody–– a nothing. everything changed when edmond watched his first sumo match in person. he was mesmerized with the move, speed, honor, you name it. he realized that he had a purpose and would go to any length to fulfill it. he found his destiny, and his dream. edmond would beg kazuki if he would like to accomplish his dreams of becoming a sumo wrestler, which for kazuki, he accepted his wish and supported him no matter what. and with that, honda began to train sumo wrestling and start his dream. one of honda’s favorite memories is visiting mount fuji with kazuki in his winter break via senior year and in genbu temple a few days after his graduation. yes, i see him studying culinary in college i’m not that dumb 🗣️‼️ ALSOOOO before i get to many years later, since i hc honda’s sexuality as gay mlm, when honda came out to kazuki, he’s literally the best father that edmond honda has ever had in his life because again, he supported his son no matter what. honda knew that he’s lucky to have kazuki as his dad. according to honda on sf6, he also grew up as a troublemaker, eating five times his size like his training for sumo wrestling, watching tv of the same said sport matches keeping his eyes on surprise.

AFTERMATH OF KAZUKI ; according to the sf6 comics, the game sets place on 2008. that was the year that honda opened his chanko house restaurant on metro city known as chanko house edomon. when kazuki, travels to metro city, the first thing he does is enjoy his order in the restaurant. sometimes, he doesn’t mind honda and dhalsim hanging out together like how most families do. but unfortunately, his life has changed when a year before the game, he has been diagnosed with cancer which left edmond honda completely broken. whenever someone looks over edomon, honda often visits his dad for chemotherapy, or surgeries on how will it go. sadly, it’s getting worse for kazuki and a few months after edomon is opened, he passed away in his deathbed. honda couldn’t make it to watch his father die in his arms, but it was because kazuki didn’t wanted edmond to watch him die just like with the situation on akari’s death.

oh yeah by the way i’ll actually post the honsim family tree thing soon because i’m so funny except i have to actually update it because my life thought sf6 took place on the 2000’s (no).

#tw for death #street fighter #e honda #haha i love to make people cry #YO HONSIM LORE ?1?1?1?#i should draw honda’s parents but i’m so dead #headcanon #edit because edomon is his official name 👍

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mishkakagehishka · 1 year

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So Mika "is always online" apparently which is making me laugh so hard

First of all, Mika in his gamerboy arc. Second of all, I did say he seems like he has a personality prone to addiction

#i have to make a list of all my random headcanons ab Mika i think #in any case i would love to have my mother read these first few chapters bc she'd be so upset #she doesn't like how much time people spend ''in the unreal world'' as in she literally disapproves of me writing as a hobby bc #it's ''being too involved in fiction instead of reality'' and this would just make her cry tbh #''look mama at least i'm not like Mika'' is smth i could say for everything she has criticised me about #enstars liveblog

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Reading moodboard #84430940 (Patreon)

#Doodles #I wonder what this is in reference to lol - could be anything really!#Bit funny actually - I was reading something else in overlap at the time - a fic from another fandom though it ended up not being for me #Different authors just speak to different people! It was fun to come back to something familiar and realize Just how much I appreciate it ah #Novel and familiar! My very favourite <3 And of course it was a wonderful experience on top of that hehe ♪♫#Numbers lol - I really have done way too much age headcanon math pfft #I just love timelines! And even if the hints aren't exact they /are/ hints and I'm going to use them!!#The numbers that are established are such fun markers - and using characterization as hints towards how many years have passed! Ah! ♪#Like how it's definitely possible that Max took a two year but considering his family he was probably pushed to do a four year #There's no confirmation either way but it's just so fun to consider what they'd do based on how they're written!#These are the kind of written math problems I enjoy hehe #I was being a bit self-deprecating for that doodle actually tho lol - art mimics life and all that pfft #Also confirmation of him being a Lit Major ❤️💕💖💞💗 Small details give me big love you must understand this lol #As evidenced lol ♪ Adding to my playlist definitely didn't help it very strongly upgraded to Big Love for like a week straight lol #Terrible ♪ Couldn't stand it <3 Genuinely painful ♫#Lol - ''finding'' more - it's what had my blood on fire! I'm so grateful for mirrors #Anyone who's been following me for a while knows I have this whole thing about Legacy and what you leave behind and the internet in general #That the internet is forever except when it's not - that plenty of things get deleted or lost etc. etc. and it makes me very sad :(#So seeing that there was an in-built preservation - it only saved Some things but anything saved is precious!! It made me very happy <3 #And then finishing off 💔💕 Beautifully heartbreaking ah #Even skim-reading later made me cry again! It's deeply affecting hhh #Another experience I'm so happy to be able to have ♥ Another tally on the wall haha <3

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steadfastspirits-a · 2 years

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[ some cyno thoughts and hcs even though 3.0 hasn’t even launched!! somewhat based on his brief time in the webtoon/manhua, along with leaks that have been swirling about ]

- in first impressions, cyno comes off as a mysterious and sharp-tongued man. he does not see any reason to overindulge in conversation, only choosing to speak when he has something worth sharing. he will not shy away from calling out misbehavior, and keeps a steady eye on all that goes on around him

- as general mahamatra of the sumeru akademiya, cyno is extremely well known for his work. many within the akademiya are ill at ease within his presence, due to his reputation of being strict and straight to the point. he does not give even the slightest bit of lee-way when it comes to corruption or underhanded dealings - which goes into his anubis motif. he is the Scales of Judgment, weighing the hearts of all those that he interacts with. he is extremely balanced and fair, however, despite the boding rumors that swirl about him.

- born and raised, at least in early childhood, within the desert biome of sumeru. similarly to childe i think he is something of a “hick” with his origins. initially when his prodigious nature got him into the akademiya, he spoke very little due to not wanting to sound out of place, keeping to himself and focusing solely on learning. by the time he hit his teen years, he managed to iron out any “odd” accenting or word choice. he does not judge others based on their origins.

- information should be accessible and free of bureaucratic nonsense, and he thinks all should be able to sate their curiosity. that being said, he is wary of the akademiya as a whole, despite his high status within the organization. he is well aware that there are plenty that wish to offer “falsehoods” to the public in order to keep people compliant. he, personally, wishes to view the world as it is, and allow others to do so as well.

- even in his free time, cyno often comes off serious and reserved... to those that don’t know him very well. in truth, while he can prod at others with his dry wit, he adores bad jokes and puns, along with card games of any variety. yes, he does have a genius invoker tcg deck imported from inazuma, what do you take him for- of course, he more often just uses a standard playing card deck with four suits to play various games. he’ll try any sort of game, of course, even if he’s unfamiliar with it. (he’d probably like theater mechanicus)

- extremely competitive. like in his more serious work life, cyno will not stand for any corruption or cheating. there will be consequences. house rules are fine, though, and often hilarious

- cyno absolutely, unironically, thinks his own sense of humor is brilliant. he doesn’t consider his objectively bad jokes to be bad. everyone else just has no sense of humor smh

- keeps on top of letters very regularly, which is why he arrived in mondstadt so soon after lisa contacted him. even though he is very in and out when functioning around people in person (leaving tighnari and collei letters that he himself delivers, as opposed to saying hi to them properly), he does bother keeping up with various relationships. he’s just busy, and he’d hate to disappoint tighnari and collei by only being able to spend time with them for a few hours. better to just be in and out and not have the guilt hit as intensely

- i will take this hc with me to the fucking grave, i don’t care if none of his va’s do this BUT. when laughing at his own terrible jokes and puns, cyno has a habit of making a tea kettle like sound as his excitement/amusement builds, before it comes out in quick, intensive, wheeze-barks. jackal man. when other people do something he finds amusing or annoying, he merely exhales out of his nose. he will not laugh audibly.

#anyway yes cyno will be added to this blog im crying i love him so bad #that said i am trying to force myself to wait until at least 3.0 drops. so that i have more cultural info on sumeru to work with #the first thing im gonna do is make a post. that people can like. and then i will send a bad cyno pun to ur inbox as a treat #ooc;#headcanon;#genshin spoilers //#kind of??? not really?? better safe than sorry to tag it like that

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bylertruther · 1 year

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very interesting how will is unfortunately considered this fandom's uwu soft boy (even if many claim otherwise) bc going from reading 8373663373 fics where will is talked over, not taken seriously, doesn’t believe in himself at all, or is even considered for a conversation on supernatural events is sooooooooo .... not canon at all LMAO. in s2, he's their spy. in s3, will speaks his mind abt the mind flayer, explains their situation, corrects them when they make an incorrect assumption, and says NO we ARE GOING TO and HAVE to kill this fucking clown srry max 🤚 and doesn't back down whenever someone has doubts. they don't look to el to explain things or to strategize an atttack, they look to will. like ur little soft uwu boy is the one grabbing these thick ass chains saying "yeah these'll do 😤💪" and confidently talking about boiling someone alive ffs. and they all go with it, ESPECIALLY mike who backs him up and shoots anyone down if they have any concern or doubt. it doesn't matter bc these are fictional characters, but like .... i just think it's Funny is all i jus think it's Fascinating how some people perceive him in ways that the canon material itself clearly disproves but like 🤐

#u think bc a bitch be crying n understandably scared of a big flesh monster as big as a multi story building that he can't handle himself?#will who was all in on pressure cooking billy? will who said no ur wrong abt the mind flayer? will who speaks up whenever he has an issue #with a plan? will who other people DO look to and listen to in these conversations?#just because he's sensitive and gay doesn't mean that he has to be treated in ways that are not canonically supported #and like. anyone can do anything with their headcanons but it gets to the point where some ppl are just so far removed from the source #material but speak about and construct analyses and theories based off of their headcanons that are not supported #and it's like. headcanons =/= source material analysis #if tht makes sense? im on mobile which i hate typing on but like. idk. hopefully im at least a little coherent with my jumbled thoughts #like him being gay =/= no one else respects him #idk where u guys get tht........#and him being doted on =/= no one respects or listens to him it jus means they love him lol #he and mike were working as a team as a unit and the party LISTENED #they looked to HIM to explain everything not eleven and he didnt doubt himself and his own experiences #idk.

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tvrningout-a · 1 year

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CHAPTER SELECT ➤ ??? ➤ ??? ➤ is it not enough i'm happy?

i made the team! i get to play! i get to be their setter!

how brightly she shined as she told her parents of her success, of how she worked hard for months to obtain that starting position, of the excitement she finally felt again. they were happy -- why wouldn’t they be? for years, makiko hadn’t touched an extracurricular, nor had she dedicated herself to anything worthwhile. they were relieved to see her smile, to hear her talk so animatedly about something.

but makiko had been naïve. they always want more from her.

oh, won’t it be nice if you’re captain next year? her mother mentions it more than once, likes to talk about how yuuta was the basketball captain his senior year, and makiko tries to smile and move on. she doesn’t care if she becomes captain or not, doesn’t believe it’s something to entertain when she’s still building trust with her new teammates. she just wants her team to do well, to enjoy themselves and feel good about what they’re doing. what does it matter if she’s the one leading in the end?

her father thinks her coach is too easy on her and her teammates, mistakes allowing the girls’ room to learn and trust each other as a lack of initiative. never mind they’ve won every game up until now -- that coach rubs him the wrong way, and maybe he’ll have a talk with her. makiko knows this comes from a place of love, that he only wants the best for her, but she can’t help the scowl and harsh protest that leaves her mouth. he scolds her for talking to him that way and tells her she won’t succeed if she doesn’t have someone to push her.

makiko shuts up, apologizes, and clenches her fists so tightly that her palms sting.

they push their own sense of ambition onto her, yet they don’t believe she can do this on her own? that she can’t be like her siblings like they’ve always wanted her to be unless someone holds her hand? what a fucking joke.

her mother brings up becoming captain again one night, and makiko just cannot take it anymore.

“ is it not enough i’m having fun? ”

quiet but sharp, makiko’s words halt the conversation at the dinner table. she feels yuki’s stunned gaze, but she doesn’t look away from her plate. mrs. furukawa asks, “ what? ”

" is it not enough i’m having fun? is it not enough i’m happy? ”

“ makiko--- ”

“ no, tell me! is it more important that i’m successful, or more important that i’m happy? ”

it comes pouring out, every ounce of resentment makiko has ever felt for being compared to her siblings, for being taught that unless she was the best, she wasn’t good enough. it’s reflected in her eyes as she glowers at her mother, shoulders tense and one hand clutching her chopsticks with a death grip.

“ where is this coming from? ” her father has the nerve to look confused, and makiko scoffs.

“ how many times have you compared me to yuki and yuuta now? a hundred times, a thousand? it isn’t a crime to lack ambition, dad! ”

" we just want you to be successful, makiko, ” her mother interjects, sounding stern despite her glassy eyes. “ your siblings never needed us to push them much, but you... ”

“ i don’t need you to push me. you pushing me has only ever made me feel inadequate, you know that? you put my siblings on this pedestal and expected me to match that -- of course i stopped trying! ”

chest heaving, heart racing, head spinning --- when did she stand? she’s trembling, she realizes, and she can’t seem to get her breathing under control. yuki reaches out to her, but makiko recoils ( don’t touch me or i’ll break ) . it seems her parents are stunned into silence, though makiko doesn’t take the time to look at them. she doesn’t see the guilt as it sinks in what they’ve done to her. no, she has an overwhelming need to get away, far away, and rushes from the dining room and out the front door. she can’t be sure who it is screaming after her. her mind can’t focus on anything else but being anywhere but here.

she’s done. this is the last time she runs away from a problem. in a few hours, makiko will come home, sit down, and talk to her parents. but she needs this right now, a small reprieve after finally finding her voice and exhausting it.

as makiko collapses against a tree ( of course she finds herself at the community center, where it all began ) , she makes herself a promise: she won’t ever be that timid, shell of a girl again.

#i remember when i first wrote this and how much my heart swelled while getting the scene in my head down #and it still makes me wanna yell and weep and give makiko the biggest hug :' ))))))))#i know i haven't spoken a whole lot about her yet on this blog bc i've focused on kny and jjk #but her development genuinely makes me so happy #and this is skipping to the end for y'all but MAN i wrote so much of it myself #the lack of confidence the fear that she won't be good enough or that her joy will be stolen the minute her parents start pushing #makiko comes such a long way from the start of her first year to the start of her second year and i :' ))) could cry all night about it!!#she's one of my favorite oc's i'll ever write for that very reason #also just thinking about the effect of connections upon her development??? like she'd never make it where she's meant to be #without the nekoma team #without people like kuroo who see that look in her eyes and push and pry just enough to get her to take the first step #onto the court and off of the sidelines #I JUST CARE HER AND HER STORY VERY MUCH Y'ALL OKAY ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;#so i'm posting this instead of queuing it and then going back to working on real drafts uvu #if you read this and even my long frikkin tags you're an angel and i love you to pieces <3 #headcanons | makiko

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