#I’m embarrassed to exist

[stuckinapril]

I love Tumblr because nothing matters here truly. There are no influencers. Having followers doesn’t mean anything. It’s just a site where people post their sporadic thoughts and rb pretty pictures. Anyone who thinks any of this matters is woefully missing the point

#I joined tumblr for the aesthetics and now I’m here bc it’s the most low pressure social media to be on #Instagram is ppl’s highlight reel but Tumblr is where u see their pure thoughts unobstructed and I adore that #It’s very nice to have people to relate to and is def the main appeal to me but I don’t think there’s much more to it than that genuinely #Monetization on tumblr isn’t a thing and probably won’t be so it feels stupid to put more stake than necessary in it. Like you’re in the #Trenches over tumblr of all things. Embarrassing #I know chronically online people exist bc I have seen them in my or somebody else’s inbox but imagine waking up at 70 one day and the #Realization hitting u like a freight time that u wasted all ur time thinking tumblr. TUMBLR. This dying website. Has enough weight for u to #be sending anon hate or reviewing ppl’s blogs like they’re some kind of product. Brother this is licherally tumblr #I choose to laugh at this behavior than take it seriously bc absolutely no one is driving me crazy on my OWN blog. On tumblr dot com. #I refuse #I will do whatever I want forever etc

[ohitslen]

Kiss gun!

Based on this tweet!

#oooh they are so dumb UAAAAA #I only have two Vashwood moods and it’s the horrible knowledge of existence and the perishment that comes with it #and silly coocoo *airhorn* #today we got the second one. like Russian roulette you will never know what I will drop next #there is some additional parts to that tweet that I’ll doodle soon! it’s such a funny thing they are dumb and we should all embrace that #they deserve to behave in the most embarrassing ways affectionately and enjoy every ounce of it #I’m letting them be happy see? can I claim the sixty billion double kissis??? #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #vashwood #trigun fanart #vash #wolfwood #nicholas trigun #meryl stryfe #milly thompson #not sure which version this would be but I’m so tagging them all OQNWM #trigun stampede #trigun maximum #lenssi draws

[rapidhighway]

Okay this is gonna make no sense, so here’s to me posting random comics about AUs I pulled out of my ass 🥂🥂i spent the entire day sitting in a car and was suddenly just like, what if it was Sam who ended up in Purgatory with Cas? That way I can finally daydream about them having some (traumatizing) bonding time which they sooo needed after Cas destroyed Sam’s wall and then took on his cage scars. Then I remembered how pissed I was when they made purgatory to be this forest with nothing to do but fight each other, then I realized I can have Sam and Cas actually explore purgatory in my AU bc I’m sure Sam would be much more into it than Dean and here we are idk what I’m doing :’) also Cas is depressed after but what’s new. Here’s my comic about it sidhkvndfgkj

#spn #sam winchester #castiel #purgatory #supernatural #comic #art #fanart #digital art #pls accept my ramblings #I was literally so bored but didn’t want to think about any of my existing AUs and was just like #what if I invent purgatory lore now? and put Sam in it cause I want him there with cas thanks #also I think being in purgatory would be torture for Sam just bc he believes he’s a monster and that’s where he’s gonna go when he dies or #whatever #meanwhile cas wants to stay there and stuff bc they are the same #whateverrrr pls #I’m always so embarrassed when I just pull out whatever random ass au #this doesn’t even do much I just wanna good purgatory thanks #also if I made mistakes in the dialogue no one correct me I don’t care for this language

[rustyreveries]

today was the last day to be able to turn in a bunch of my work & i just paced around my room while listening to really loud music and daydreamed about salad fingers all day instead. it’s so over

#i miss my husband (he doesn’t exist) #i wanna draw him so bad but i have so much work to do.... aghh #so just. take this stupid ass thing i made in 2 minutes #salad fingers #godddd i love sal. none of you understand. idgaf what you say no one knows him like i do Sorry . #our souls are like.... intertwined.... (i sound so delusional right now) #what i’m trying to say is he’s been my man for several years now and he drives me crazy /pos #anyway fuck maladaptive daydreaming!!!! i hate it. kill it with hammers #i'm so eepy 😔😔 goodnight #i'm going to be super embarrassed abt what i said here in the tags when i wake up so be niceys to me

[luna-lovegreat]

AY YOO IVE GOT MY STUPIDEST ZELDA THEORY EVER

OK SO THE SWCRET STONED

These fruit gummy fuckers everyone agrees Lonk would eat on sight

I THINK THEY TURN PEOPLE INTO FURRY GODS- I MEAN ZONAI

So let’s look at the hair, those godly locks

AWWWW YEAH

HE A GHOST AND GOAT DADDYS STILL GOT IT

But there’s two other not originally Zonai peeps with secret stones who need a special barber

But Ganondarfr didn’t have long hair before he got jelly and stole Sonia’s fruit gummy

SO WITH THE PICS OF SONIC AND GARFUNKEL THE FRUIT GUMMIES GAVE THEM LONG HAIR

And there’s another Zonai God Gal for reference the one the only MINERUUUUU

And the thing about my bestie Minnie is she’s got short hair which seems like a plot hole in my theory

But if you look at Minnieerus hair from the back it shows just as much volume and potential to be long enough to weigh her ears down so my theory is my girl just chops her hair like every day so she looks cool with her short hair and floaty scarf thingy

Btw heres my favourite pic of Zeldie with her adoptive lumps of hair

But what does that mean for Sonia?? Girl changed species???

Well looking at the other Hylians of the era it isn’t just a time difference between her and Zeldao

Here’s some of her Hylian besties and guess what their hair doesn’t reach to their ankles

Even in the murals Soniar stands out with way different features from the normal Hylians

SO I THINK GOAT DADDY I MEAN RUAUR GIFTED HER A STONE SO THEY COULD BE TWINSIES AND HER HAIR STARTED GROWING AND THEY WERE LIKE OMG WE MATCH!!!!!

Anyways that’s the hair Zonais got long hair and Soniie babe and Goofandoofle both got long hair not native to their species that they didn’t have before the fruit gummy evolution

SO SAUNA AND GANONDORK GREW LUSCIOUS LOCKS TO THE FLOOR WHEN THEY STARTED WEARING WELCHS FRUIT SNACKS

But we can’t just assume the stones turn people into Zonais on just hair alone!!!!!!!

SO LOOK AT SOME EARSSS

It’s a pretty distinct thing for goat gods I mean Zonai to have pretty long hearing flesh sticks

Once again looking at the pics and murals from before Sonnia’s Hylians of the time don’t have those long features- they do have a bit longer ears than our Zelda but Sonar’s still different my babe got a stone and her ears were growing and she was like huh cool

AND MY QUEEN (LIKE SHES AN ACTUAL QUEEN OK LIKE ROYALTY SHES MY QUEEEEEN) SONNA GOT LONGER HEAD ACCESSORIES I MEAN EARS TOO WHEN SHE GOT THAT STONE

BUT WAIT !

GABONDARFLE didn’t get longer ears!!!

(But with ears he also had different ears to begin with ewww round)

But all his features from the edible rock are also different than Sortias

WHY IS THAT?’!

Well you know what I think

I think the little transformation crap depended on how they used the power

Sonia didn’t really use it much, at least not enough to transform her in seconds like Demon Ding did

BUT WE SEE GANNONDORFLE TRANSFORM IN LIKE TWO SECONDS WITH HIS RED SKY AND ANGRY GROANING

GRRUUUUUUGHHHH

So I think my dude got different transformation features because he poured all his power at once and grew it like crazy instead of being a normal god furrie

BUT THEN WE GOT THE TEETH

They didn’t know they were gonna need a new dentist when they got stoned but they do they really do like look at those fangs

The Original Zonai tm got goat teeth but then so did Ganonfqorf when he did the Demon Ding dingy

BUT THEN GUESS WHAT THEY ALSO GOT?!

HORNS!!!!!

When Gonandorcl turned himself into a whatthehell he got himself some horns

And most everyone’s like oh he just got some horns because he’s like a demon king thing now

BUT GUESS WHO ALSO HAS HORNS?!??!

AWWWWWW YEAREAASHHHHHH

RARFU GOT HORNS TOOOOOOOOO HE AND GANONSFORE ARE TWINSIIESSS

But then we got their nails

DAMN GIRL! MINIIERROOO FOR THE WIN with her purple nails, once you’re a goat god, a Zonai, a Zoat if you will you never have to get a nail job again just look at those CLAWS

And again my queen Soneyoe (MY QUEEEEEEEN) doesn’t have those dumb features like horns and teeth and nails cause she didn’t feel like screaming like she was in labor to squeeze all the juicy power from her fruit gummy

BUT WHAT DOES THAT MEAN FOR MY GIRL ZELDA SHES GOT A SECRET STONE TOO IS SHE GONNA BECOME A ZOAT I MEAN ZONAI

Well I think she’ll be fine cause she doesn’t know her strength enough to go bonkers fucking wonkers and go full out ape god mode (same for all the sages from past and present)

But I know you fan artists and writers and comicers (love y’all you’re great Ok) have been doing some shit about Lonk turning into Zonai when he got that arm well this is your invitation to have Zeldo get her BOTW hair back and maybe some bigger ears or something idk

SO THATS MY DUMBEST ZELDA THEORY TO DATE THOSE SERCET STONES TURN PEOPLE INTO THE ZONAI LETS GOOOOOOOOOO

#guess how high I was when I made this #the answers not at all I’m just ADHD #I like this theory so I might make an actual post of it later #but I’m never spelling ganondunkle’s name right again except sometimes #loz #zelda #link #legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom #totk #loz totk #totk spoilers #Zelda theory #idk man #man #this is cringe and I think that's ok. existence is meant to be embarrassing ya know? I might delete this at one point I reserve the right #lol I love me she's such a dumbass

[chennnington]

Making friends 😁

#it’ll take ages to purge my recent emojis from this #tumblr #spam bots #I just realized I was so distracted and annoyed by the emojis that I fucked up the LP reference #I’m so ashamed #this is my lowest point #luckily the fandom doesn’t really exist on here or they’d throw me out #fuck this is so embarrassing

[devilsskettle]

i also just feel so bitter towards other people lately. all the posturing and ego and entitlement…… i see it everyday everywhere and i’m sick of it

#it’s natural for ego to play a role in how you think feel and act. but so many people let it dictate how they exist in the world #it’s kind of embarrassing tbh #anyway. that’s just a chip on my shoulder though #it’s the customer service job with highly disorganized + condescending management that’s wearing me down #not to mention a natural inclination toward antipathy that only grows the more i have to interact with people lol #but anyway that’s where i’m coming from. everybody’s been pissing me off lately #can we all calm down maybe

[cashweasel]

First art of the year is a blorbo birthday 🎉🎉🎉 officially 2 years since he’s been making me sad but I love him too much 😔👵🏻

#ocs #the ‘u tried’ stars are a stylistic choice ok djskakdjld #hbd gideon i hope your bf is throwing you the biggest party in the world rn and embarrassing you with a very bad good serenade #the difference between this year and last years post djskaldj #proud to see him embrace the edginess #also.. I think this is the first time I got to draw the tongue piercing djskakdjkdn prior to today it only existed in concept 😂 #last minute art bc I’m getting my ass kicked by chemistry rn 👎 #art #my art #my ocs #oc: gideon turbereth

[kicktwine]

So how was stormblood? I know it's very hit or miss for people, so what're your thoughts?

I understand why it’s hit or miss! It — to get to the point i would be straight up lying if I said I was an unbiased consumer because I’m not, I’m a coastal American mid 20s rando with a Lot of very current cultural baggage around concepts like patriotism and freedom. And Hamilton references. It all has a sweet and strong and very anti-occupation message (along with themes I very much enjoy dissecting like the constant assertion that it Doesn’t Have To Be This Way, or the expansion into You may not understand this person but you must be able to accept them,) but when combined with Stormblood’s shakier coherence in writing and dialogue and pacing, it comes off as A Bit Off. to me. And I think it missed ever so slightly just due to how it was all structured and set up with the characters we have and motivations we have because the stuff OUTSIDE or Adjacent to the main story, despite how out of place it could feel, was structured great!! Like the Kojin and the Ananta trial and the Kugane mishaps and trying to murder Zenos twice and the ghost ship. Could the main structure have come across very well yes absolutely! It does it on and off it succeeds in there often! But sometimes it doesn’t. I can see a lot of where concepts were promised and not fully delivered, pacing was a bit off, things just happened without really belonging there (despite how much I loved Susano, he could have been better structured. same with many instances and also I feel like the unethical science should have been MORE IMPORTANT THAN IT — maybe it comes back. Who is that scientist.), sometimes dialogue felt somewhat canned. I feel like in a consequences-heavy expansion, many things just didn’t have important consequences, which was very strange

HOWEVER! I cannot give the new gameplay features abd dungeons any crap they are all SO GOOD. And so PRETTYYYYY. And there were so many solo duties that ruled! Every dungeon in this expansion was like whoa this is a PLACE im in you know what I mean??? I’m in a place that’s big and there’s people and there’s NEW MECHANICS and active time maneuvers (??!!!!!!!) and unique fights! I can jump on the roofs in Kugane! And, mind you, when the dialogue was good, it was good. Lyse has a fantastic voice actor. Alisaie is my favorite girl elf creature in thw world. Estinien is like the best p- the guy ever. also m’naago is my new friend. The tower was a great part of sb to me despite my singular gripe. I think Zenos’— I know it’s controversial to some people because he does assume your wol to be a bit more murderous than some people would prefer their characters be and doesn’t take no for an answer, but his um speech did something to my brain a little bit

ON that note the ending was very fast?????? Or like — not FAST, but I wasn’t expecting Zenos or Shinryu to go down in one fight. Two co-op fights, right next to each other. I kind of wanted to beat him up myself. And when Zenos was so impossible to beat before. I was expecting both of them to be WAY harder. Though Shinryu is a COOL fight I’d do the royal menagerie again in a second. I was kind of expecting a three stage trial? Like Nidhogg? I love going into space hiiii big dragon where were you this whole time… u were shafted… but u could not be suffered to live so. Maybe if we’d gotten an instance of fighting the dragon alone after beating the trial?? Could have been Themes. I don’t know

anyways no I can’t quite pin it down, but I’ve said it before I think they had the outline for the story and then built it and went oh this is too much and not enough at the same time and got stuck writing the whole thing after getting stuck in the story they already had. A COMMENDABLE job for getting turned around like that, way better than a lot of video games stories out there, good gameplay and areas that didn’t feel too empty. glances at coerthas falcons nest area. I think the ways they did the exploration thing was good, having us venture further into occupied territory etc, but so much exploration stuff felt oneoff and not there to do much for someone who has been skipping almost all of the side content except stuff I’ve been told is good. It almost felt like they were Trying New Stuff a lot, and some of it succeeded some of it failed. Such is trying stuff!! Such is trying to imitate what you had while making something new and exciting! And I can’t fault them for that

so like — putting aside the fact that I haven’t done post-sb which is like missing 40% of the Thing according to past expansions and my thoughts very well might change, i would 100% do the fights again, maybe watch some cutscenes, but I don’t think I’d NG+ this one. where is that lady selling buuz it is a CRIME i did not get to have any buuz let me buy one yoshi p

#hi Zenos I’m not going to go get tea with you but would you like to drown in a swamp with our antlers locked until someone’s head gets #ripped off and the other guy has to carry it staring at him for the rest of his miserable existence #play game #I can’t stand you as a horrible person or cancerous political presence. I bet you want to rip my throat out about it #u want me to fight you so bad it makes you look stupid #stormblood spoilers #maaah I don’t want to put my thoughts in main tags I’m writing a 30 minute high school English essay. Just grabbing thoughts and going #the more I think about it the more I think shinryu NEEDED a second one player fight #every other final fight has been multiple tri- wait well. Hm. Nidhogg was a patch quest. #no I stand by it the final HW fight was a cliffhanger so u knew a bigger fight was coming. Shinryu needed a second stage you had to fight #alone with your teeth and claws. Kill the eikon yourself; eikon-slayer. what else could you do. Nothing #nothing but kill it #This was always meant for you #maybe with Zenos inside losing control of it? maybe with him snarling at us the whole time. idk idk #I am starting to feel embarrassed for typing so much and having raw unrefined thoughts so that means I have to hit post #AND SHINRYU WAS SUPPOSED TO BE STRONGER THAN BAHAMUT I don’t know

[wyvernne]

heard neuvillette speak one word and immediately folded

#it took me an embarrassing amount of tries to spell his name bye #anyway #VAs slaying in fontaine fr #it’s so nice to have like #female voices that aren’t unearthly pitches #SCREECHED when i heard clorinde speak #i know i’m not putting my beef into words well 😭 #obviously soft spoken women exist but #when hoyo directs the female VAs to do like #childlike voices? #i hope y’all know what i’m talking about 😭 #the uwu discord kitten voice as the kids call it

[deerabled]

i have decided that it’s NOT cringe for me to go out in public with a walker. what IS cringe is people judging me or staring at me for going out in public with a walker

#literally next time i’m out and i see someone side eye me i’m straight up just saying ‘you’re embarrassing yourself for caring so much about #me. someone who you don’t even know and is just trying to exist’ #or maybe i’ll just settle on sending them telepathic messages saying they’re cringe #because they are #you’re literally a grown ass adult have some fucking manners #the same type of people who say i have no manners for being young are the exact type of people to stare at me in the supermarket #like i could run over their feet but i don’t wanna infect my walker with their gross nasty bullshit <3 #also bc i’m bigger than that x

[mitchmarner]

not to be cheesy but i love sports so fucking much. i think it’s the coolest thing in the world how much it bonds the most random types of people in their joy/sadness/whatever. you’re all sharing a genuinely universal experience as you watch unfathomable athletic feats. it’s just sick.

#i love spotting other fans in the most random places and reading the dumbest fight between the most brain dead fans #i’m feeling emo tonight #i also love getting into a sport and just having this massive history i get to learn #getting into f1 has been so rewarding because i just get to learn so many new things every day #it gives me something to look forward to #and the leafs are just a shared trauma and i love having all these people to commiserate with #i love days like today #the fact that justin bieber and i are sitting here feeling the same exact emotions is wild #sean durzi just existed today and now a million people simply decided to hate him and we are all in agreement. thats so funny. #obviously tv and bands and whatever also bond people and 1d/5sos fandoms were my first experience with this #but sports are a very unique bond and i really really really love it #anyway this post is embarrassing but idc #*

[jorvikzelda]

had a dream I called the Danish emergency services (I was in Denmark) and they hung up on me :(

#was trying to tell them about leads i found in a murder #i also dreamed I had my hair cut and the hairdresser cut it way too long #(different dream) #also I kept biking to some church that doesn’t exist irl. not sure what i was doing there. going to concerts i think? #i am not religious never have been #was wearing my winter coat and a wool hat and embarrassed i was wearing that much so early in the year #even though it was cold as balls in the dream #also my bike had two really big lamps #but only one of them worked. or. so i assumed. didn’t actually try #OH and then i dreamed manda was recommended a random funny facebook post about one of my family members with like 900 likes #and sent it to me because it was funny also not realising it was my family member #creeped dream me out to hell and back #anyway big night for dreams idk why i’m using tumblr as my dream journal felt important #don’t usually dream this much/vividly/remember all of them at all #i did wake up in mis murder mystery dream though so maybe that’s why #oh yeah the murder mystery dream was like fucking. point and click video game format. i was walking around the apartment where the murder #happened just poking around shit until i found 3 leads which was my. goal? and then i called the police #and actually at first i accidentally called the swedish police. i forgot to put the danish country code in front of the number. so i hung up #on them and called the danish police instead #i’m not sure that’s how it actually works #like idk if you need the country code or if your phone will recognise what country you’re in i feel like it’s the latter #also the cell coverage was really bad so i heard like half of. what the emergency responder was saying #z talks #not horse game #sso spoilers #WILD FUCKING NIGHT IM GONNA GO BACK TO SLEEP NOW

[sweetcitrusboi]

Watching gaming dudebros have full-on heart attacks and stroking out over tasm2 not winning or any of their basic ass shooting games and running around talking about how “nobody played Alan Wake 2 or BG3” when in fact a shitload of people did play both games and yall refuse to branch out and play other games and yall live in a bubble of just Fortnite, Cod, and other games just like it, and now you’re going out of your way to be unhinged individuals online about it instead of showing good sportsmanship and congratulating the amazing games and teams behind them that did win an award.

#also I’m like the biggest spiderman fan out there but ofc bg3 sweep had to come through but even im not sitting here screaming over tasm2 #i feel like dudebros crying about their games not winning when they single handedly refuse to interact in fandom spaces and support content #is the main reason why ur games didn’t win bc y’all don’t interact with anything outside of the game #it was the dedicated fanbases and the ppl who loved these companies and the actors/writers/producers/etc tht got their deserved awards #bc they actually care !!! #yall don’t gaf about anything outside of just gameplay yall sit in isolated bubbles and act like every other game is “mid” and non existent #bc u refuse to interact and yalls weird thing with specific genre games tht I won’t get into rn bc tht will go into weird masculinity play #in gaming spaces but #stop being weird ass adults online bc your game didn’t win #just saw a shit load of comments admitting they “weren’t voting” for anything while pissing bc bg3 got goty like make it make sense???? #don’t call something mid or bash the va who rightfully got an award when u showed no support for ur game #like looking at half of these tweets and corny ass dramatic reaction videos by grown ass men is embarrassing #I’m so glad that I’m an actually a well adjusted adult bc I couldn’t be acting like some of yall fr #bg3 #alan wake 2 #goty 2023

[fell-in-love-with-a-fantasy]

olivia rodrigo is right, love is embarrassing as hell

#having a crush is the most embarrassing thing in the world i swear #like i’m obsessed with this person and they don’t even know i exist #i don’t get people who can so openly talk about crushes #olivia rodrigo #z talks

[peekychu]

If this isn't weird or anything, how did coming to find out you identified as a xenogender go for you? I guess, in other words, how did you know? What's it mean for you? (Oh god I really hope this doesn't sound like a bad faith question LOL)

This doesn’t sound bad faith at all, it’s kind of u to ask!!

So if I’m being honest, I don’t have a STRONG connection to xenogender stuff really? It’s kind of passive and cozy to think of myself being like, catgender and stuff bc my identity is a bit silly :P

For a while I’d see stuff about neopronouns and xenogender flags and my first thought was “This is kind of dumb” which is a little rude LOL, but a common first impression I think. As most things like this go, my own insecurities about being seen as cringeworthy reflected onto how other people were expressing themselves. I do have a lot of deep rooted insecurities about my place in the LGBT community (even though I’ve identified as nonbinary and pansexual for a good while), so seeing people on the internet using animal/object related pronouns made my brain go “Okay well I may be an embarrassing snowflake on the internet, but not like THAT though!”

Little did I know 😔

Honestly my mind kind of flipped when i found an artist I really looked up to had neopronouns in their bio, completely casually. I thought this was kind of punk rock, u know? And it made me think about myself and how fun it’d be to have my own silly pronouns and to play with gender identity in a fun way, because why not?

I don’t rly expect people to use my neopronouns (pika/star/chao/mewself hehehe) because I understand grammatically they can be a bit awkward to use, but the principle of them is just so fun to me!

Obviously in most situations irl I accept that I’m gonna be seen as a girl, and I don’t mind being a girl! Being called she is nice. When people close to me acknowledge my nonbinary identity and refer to me as they, that’s rad! And on the internet where people mostly see me as a cartoon creature through my icons and drawings, why not say my gender is Pikachu?

Basically what it means to me is that if gender is a construct that can be changed, why not get a little silly with it 😹 Mostly I hope that my openness to express myself in embarrassing ways encourages other ppl to do the same. Most things that are fun are also kind of embarrassing

#brainposting #hope this answered ur question haha it got a little long xD #i understand the general distaste towards xenogender stuff in the queer community but I also think like #why not u know? #i mean the answer to why not is ‘bc it’s embarrassing’ and ‘nobody will take u seriously’ #but I’m gonna be weird for existing anyways so I might as well have some fun with it