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astriloquus1 · 27 days

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What goes around comes around Like I drowned. So do I let you in? Do I fall back to your pinky and spin?

Oh she’s gone again Darling I’ve fallen all over again I tell you it won't happen again. Been there, done that. Yet again, You quietly call the bluff in my voice. Again and again and again And again.

A million times, I’d choose you if I could. But I never did decide. Cause falling isn't a choice, I understood You walk in and I realize There you stand, And here I am, damned.

What goes around comes around. Pretty much how you downed. So do you get another chance? Was any of this ever a romance?

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astriloquus1 · 6 months

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Can I fall into you now? I'm nothing if not yours.

Can you hear me at all? Standing behind these doors.

Can you feel the tug? Every time it's your name I curse.

Can I drown in you finally? The void just keeps getting worse.

Can you hold me when I break? Not strong enough to stay away.

Can you stop hurting me now? Promise to let you have your way.

None of me rhymes without you, Nothing makes sense.

Can we be us forever? I can't do it anyway else.

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astriloquus1 · 1 year

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You lit the lamp but hid the fire

Show me the glow what about the warmth

And I'm fine with thorns as long as its a rose

Understood your silence not your words

Your blinkers are on what are you saying

Is it a good bye, see you soon Or I love you?

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astriloquus1 · 29 days

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The boy from forever

WHy do we not have center align.

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astriloquus1 · 3 months

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Look at the moon and think of me Think of how I kept you up on your birthday Stayed up all night dreaming when i heard you say 'This might actually work' (Too afraid to stand up after we fell face first)

Ask a question and think of our games. Think of how my cheeks flared when I caught your stare. Favorite colors and food, 3 things i love? 'You, you and you.' (Now that answer just might be the worst)

I hope you hear a laugh and think of mine Take a picture and think of mine Watch a movie and think It should've been with me.

I hope every time you say that one word you feel you throat dry down, eyes well up and you think, She used to be mine.

A table or Taylor swift. Library or late nights. the sky and a sunset. Pasta or brownies. Your little snores when you fell asleep and my sighs you always felt were something else

Read every story, that could've been us. If only we weren't fucked up But I know I'm not to blame you I know this was karma's fated due These poems are turning into my infamy I sit here, waiting for you to stir back our alchemy

So I hope, when you think of us there's a little smile on your face. And then you realize I'm all you want I'm where you want to sit at the restaurant You know my smile is everything you ever wish to see And baby i really hope, every damn minute, you think of me.

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astriloquus1 · 4 months

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My world goes around Yours turned upside down.

My love couldn't make you stay Yours made you step away.

The blame game has finally settled. For once, I win. and its left me stiffled. Gave you space enough to fall now the void has me threatened.

The anchor snapped in the storm. Always, I'd be there, But only in your dorm You grew sick of this house when you lost your home

This broken boy is new. Baby, I've got no idea what to do.

A picture put us at the start Then the verity pulled it apart.

Left in the epilogue Places I'll never go, Words I'll never hear Colors I'll never see Your Love, that I'll never feel.

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astriloquus1 · 1 year

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You've ruined me I've given so much to the point that nothing's left. not broken anymore

You've turned me into a void Ive stopped feeling from so much to nothing at all

Hollow and empty unfeeling unloving im done i give up

Youve ruined me and its all my fault

Some days you love me and some days you dont. Karma's here to bite me saying hypocrisy much?

Leaving this incomplete cause the words are still choking my throat,

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astriloquus1 · 8 months

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undeciphered stares hold declarations unspoken

almost touching hands leave lingering temptations

unkept promises hide dangerous hope

stars light years away illusioned together by constellations

threads of the souls woven and torn by heart

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astriloquus1 · 1 year

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Yellow light blinking too bright Slow down & stop or get ready & go ? Eyes shut wide waiting for the tide Anchor or a dead weight sinking, wishing you were my fate.

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astriloquus1 · 2 years

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I hate you

I don't feel strong emotions. I don't show them. That's what people want. And, guess I am a people pleaser. I stay quiet, put my head down. The more I look at others, the more I hate myself. But you, when I look at you, I hate you.

I hate you For being so loud, and for making me want to look at you. And just as I turn to look away, I hate you, for smiling and making me smile. (And just like that, I knew, Darling I'd set the world on fire for you. I'm scared, How far have I set this yearn for you ablaze?)

I hate you You talk and I want to listen, I want to look into your eyes and get lost And I know I sound crazy, And I hate you, for making me crazy about you.

(And as much as I deny it, I knew, I hate you so much that I think about you all the time. Can you hear it, in my silence that reaches to you?)

I hate you. Ruffling your perfect hair, Making me wonder how it would feel, To wake up next to you And see how perfect your hair would be.

(And my heart flutters around you. I hate you for giving me these feelings, I'm confused, what am I to do with this?)

I hate you For staying, For not running away I hate you, for not trying to melt my ice down, but guarding it with your own flames.

I hate you stupid.

I hate you for taking away a part of me, without even trying. I hate you for giving me all of you, without even asking. i hate you, for making me fall for you.

(And somewhere, In between or beyond these lines, I think, that I dread, that I love you.)

{ I knew you were a bad idea but here I am. And it's been the best idea I've ever had. }

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astriloquus1 · 2 years

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We have forever, you say So why does it feel like our time's already over?

All that while that flew With just me alone looking over at you.

You're gorgeous, you say Well why haven't you looked past the cover?

So quick to make me fit in stead With that picture of me you've painted in your head.

This is real, you say But why do you try so hard to act like my dream of a lover?

It feels like a forced serendipity You used to stir my imagination, but now not even my curiosity

We're a beautiful Could be But never Will be.

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astriloquus1 · 9 months

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I feel wicked contempt

crawling underneath my skin

Your fingernails dig into my flesh

to let it raise, make me loathe you

But you strike my veins by accident

and it gushes out, the shameful love I hide.

More sickly than the hatred

leaves me only a bundle of nerves

You pick out my broken heart

claim it as a trophy and make leave

I beg you to slit my throat, tear my lungs

you only stare, for me to fathom

what lies in those lifeless eyes.

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astriloquus1 · 1 year

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I wish youd break me just at once Snap my heart into half But that'd be easy to put together, And soon as I was fixed, I'd be back

So slowly crumble me into pieces Shatter me worse enough To dust that I can't reach for Make me a void, paint my soul dark.

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astriloquus1 · 1 year

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You're my slow poison. So certain you'll be the death of me.

And I should run away. So why the fuck do I stay? When I know this isn't what I need, why do I want it? What do I owe to you that I let you destroy me so well? Even after I know that I deserve so much more. Im worth the world and you ground me to the basement floor.

You're in my daydreams and my nightmares. I cant tell the difference while playing solitaires. I can't even blame you. This is what you are, Always kept your heart ajar. Set the bar so damn low And yet here I am dancing limbo. How am I bound to you? Soul laid out to your force. I dont want my love turn to remorse. I know I'll never love anyone like this I dont realize how Im giving so amiss Let me go, I try to whisper against my might. But all I want to say is treat me right.

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astriloquus1 · 2 years

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I don't need to write a lot anymore. I don't need to watch sappy romcoms or read books about love. I don't need to draw or paint or cook or stress clean anymore All that I did to get my mind off a void of yearning, I don't need to do anymore. My mind's not tangled all up. I don't have that conflict of heart anymore.

Everything feels like it's all right, Nothing worries me like it used to, Everything seems more beautiful.

All of this, because of you. So if this isn't love, What is?

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astriloquus1 · 1 year

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"I gave my heart to a boy who threw it away. Now I simply don't have one." "Thats alright, keep mine."

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