#I'll die out of embarrassment

[vse-kar-vem]

together in every universe. or something

#bojan cvjetićanin #kris guštin #joker out #im neglecting schoolwork to draw this but that seems like the norm at this point #hoping if i get it all out of my system now i'll be normal during exam szn (in like. a week 😨) #<<sorry if i keep talking about school btw (semi age reveal ahead) gcses are fucking killing me uuaghhgshhahhhaj #i actually quite like this since i started drawing on a whim this afternoon and its only ten now #i dont even mind the lineart (DONT LOOK AT BOJANS HAND OR ILL JUMP OUT A WINDOW) #only a one storey one tho 💗💗💗 can't die without seeing bokris irl <<pipe dream as im too embarrassed to go to a concert #NO because bumping into jo in london would be my worst fucking nightmare 😭😭😭 #what do i even fucking say 'hey are you jan from jo--' NO id combust on the spot #and what if im bothering them uknow 😭😭 idk but i used to live in an asian city where none of my idols from the west would ever visit #(except safiya love you safiya) so keeping the real life person and fictiinalized versions apart in my brain and/or at arms length was easy #but now that i live in the uk and the chances of seeing them irl are non-zero? and presented with the chance to #actively seek them out and you know go to a concert #im just too scared and awkward to do it #maybe i'll bully my friend into going with me #i feel safer revealing age more in the fucking depths of these tags but another thing that makes me feel awkward about going is age #like ik lots of jo fans are younger than me and there's no shame at all in bringing your parents i just feel so embarrassed?? to??? #like i'd rather go with my friends #but that would require at least us riding the train alone and i am a small east asian girl who never looks up from the floor ever #sooooo #not happening any time soon #maybe next yr?? but probably not #unless i suddenly get a lot more independant and cool #i doubt anyone's read this much of my tags but if you have 😭😭 hope you like the art i guess #at the time of me writing i want to draw more but i'll see #(you will know since it will have been posted) #a tag previously used to say 'queueing to post at school' this is false as i am now in fact nauseous at home #my art

[kaptainpastel]

THE JAGERMAN HIMSELF ‼‼

I find this guy so funny, and he was really fun to draw !!

I'll add a close up of the left side (because it works really well on it's own) below the cut :]

scrunkly

#i found out while i was drawing this that ive been spelling his name wrong??? #ive been adding an extra “e” and making it “jaegerman” #which i now know is wrong and i am very embarrassed #i cant spell #max jagerman #nerdy prudes must die #npmd #starkid npmd #npmd fanart #fanart #starkid fanart #I'll draw some michie art later

[sfsolstice]

i float in, and you're half asleep, and the specter of her reaches to wipe away stray strands of hair and to brush gentle touches against your half-lidded eyes;

you're half-delirious, wondering if you were dreaming, or if landmasses had drifted across the earth and its oceans just to bring you two together, here, now;

but i am only the angel of her, and i am here to wish you good night and sweet dreams, of light-hearted things like white rabbits, four-leaf clovers, beautiful poetry, and real, gentle love

before i, and she, must take our leave, for though her heart stays full, always she was meant to say good night and good bye, but

know and remember:

she would have taken any opportunity to have kissed your pink cheeks and to have slept beside you in the night.

#poets community #poets of tumblr #poets on tumblr #original poetry #poetry #poem #original poem #spilled ink #spilled poetry #sfsolstice #feels embarrassing sharing this #but its another one of those 'i need to get this out of me or else i'll die' moments

[redbootsindoriath]

Fëanorian Week 2023, Day 1: Maedhros

I’m so late with these I’m not even fashionably late.  But better late than never (cf. Fingolfin, probably, after finally getting to Middle Earth).

To anyone who went “Hmm I wonder if the theme this year is going to be classical sculpture?”, well, congratulations, you’re right, though I don’t know how you would have guessed that.  I was originally going to do something where I based each drawing off the meaning of the name, and since “Maitimo” means “well-shaped one” the first thing that came to mind was a Greek or Renaissance statue.  But after finishing it I decided that it had been a lot of fun and I might as well do the rest the same way.  And it sort of fit into the whole Fëanorian theme since Nerdanel is a sculptor.

#feanorianweek #maedhros #the man the myth the legends #three shinies #my trash #/end classification tags #GUYS IT'S HERE #IT'S FINALLY HERE #okay no but it helped that i came out of art block in a panic to do figure studies #''wow so you used reference pictures?'' i hear someone ask #NO #I AM STUPID AND YOU ALL KNOW THIS #in like a year i'm going to look at these and shrivel up and die from delayed firsthand embarrassment #it was just trial and error on all of these #but at least i was practicing #...right? #also yes a couple of you may have noticed i'm not reblogging from the other blog this year #this is because i didn't want to post anything on deviantart right before going on a longish trip #it's just too hard to keep up with deviantart on mobile #so i guess i'll post them later after i get back #(maybe) #(because also i feel a little bit awkward about these ones) #(so i don't know yet) #ALSO also i learned today that the colors on the tablet are not the same as the colors on my phone #and neither of them are the same as the colors on my laptop #so i don't know which is right #and i hope you all are seeing the version i had on the tablet because those ones were much cooler tones and i picked them on purpose

[shorlinesorrows]

Me: writes an intro blurb for the dnd campaign I'm going to be running and sends it to my players

Them: respond with a series of excited emojis

Me: they hate it. they think it's badly written and the intro isn't interesting enough. i am the worst dm in history and i haven't even started yet

#just me? #okay #i love anxiety lol #dungeon master woes #< my new tag for freaking out about this #there is 1 (one) person on tumblr who knows me irl and knows someone in the campaign so i'm going to beg you not to share anything I mentio #with them because spoilers and also anxiety #anyway all of them are new players and then one of them has been playing for a Long Time and is a DM #so if I embarrass myself at least only one person will really Know but i'll still die of shame #wish me luck yall lol #dungeons and dragons #dnd campaign #dnd #dnd5e #doesn't help i decided to homebrew first try lol #i had a Story and i wanted to Tell It and now I'm starting to regret it because of the sheer amount of work I've made for myself #but i'm also very excited! #now i just need to balance this with school and not hyperfixate (challenge level: impossible)

[gravitasmalfunction]

Nona kisses Gideon because Gideon looked like she wanted to be kissed, because Gideon thinks Nona is Harrow and wishes Harrow would kiss her.

A good take, I can get behind it, definite angst potential here. But consider:

Nona kisses Gideon because Gideon's default ground state of existence, ever since she learned what kissing was, is wanting to be kissed. She looked in the snow leek fields wondering which skeleton was her mother and on some level it was in the hope of being kissed. Then she got older and she collected dirty mags not just because they were tittilating but because those brave Cohort soldiers snog almost as often as they fall out of their uniforms. Even when she's a revenant foxing being asleep she can't help her body language expressing this hopeless yearning for someone to love her so much they will lock their lips with hers. It takes Nona, who can read body language and isn't so well acquainted with Gideon that she dismisses this constant yearning as just a Gideon quirk, stumbling in on Gideon alone in this one perfect moment of vulnerability to actually give her what she's wanted forever. No ulterior motive. Just a kiss. Just because Gideon looked like she wanted to be kissed.

#tlt #the locked tomb #now I’m imagining Gideon getting so many kisses she passes through self conscious embarrassment to joyful playful making out #fitting more angst into maximum angst situations is my kink #this is tragic! here’s how it could be EVEN WORSE #imagine Gideon ‘nasty 19 never been kissed’ Nav thinking it was Harrow wishing Harrow would kiss her #discovering it was Nona who kissed her and wishing she would kiss her again #uhoh Nona has to die now so others can live - no more kisses from that quarter #then when she gets to the Tomb where the dead girl Harrow has had a crush on forever wakes up and pashes her #aaarrrggghhh!!! #Harrow doesn't even want to be kissed! and if she did Gideon has been RIGHT THERE this entire time! this is BULLSHIT! #Ianthe: I'll kiss you Gideon #Gideon: no thanks I'm good

[no-psi-nan]

Man, I don't know. Toritsuka and Saiki don't share any interests and their moralities don't line up and they definitely clash all the time.

But like, there's something that is so interesting about them still hanging out together primarily because they feel so desperately lonely and this is the only other person they can be real around.

#that moment when Saiki meets Toritsuka and realizes that he's suffered similar pains due to his powers #that sealed his fate. now he can't help but let Toritsuka pester him and hang off of him and Saiki even helps him out on occasion. #and then before he knows it he's attached. just like with all of his other friends lmfao #enough exposure and he's like [god damn it. guess I'll die for you too good grief] #and then the freaking cat tank episode and Toritsuka finding out how much Saiki cares for him #and Toritsuka becoming trustworthy enough in Saiki's eyes that he entrusted his friends safety to him during the volcano episode #they are bros at the minimum. as much as they would deny that embarrassment hsfjdlshfks #nopsi meta #torisai

[shiawasekai]

I think in this convo with a friend daily. I aim for that Boss Rush learning style.

#a shadow's rambles #Am I choosing yet another boss level drawing that's going to make me cry and suffer? Yes yes i am #Albeit the last drawing had some challenging elements it was still very simplistic (and i'm still not fully satisfied with the result) #So I cannot get too comfortable it's time to go all out again #A proper ass background!!! Stuff touching!!!! #I'll die on the attempt but i'll learn from it!! #I'll also die from embarrassment at the thought of sharing it (both because subject matter AND the likely shitty result) but oh well!

[mattodore]

love seeing ask games go around like i'll always be there to send in some asks to my little friends on tumblr dot com but i won't reblog the games myself bc my anxiety is weird about that in particular for some reason <3

#river dipping #well really it’s more like my avpd not my anxiety but ya’ kno #idk if it's bc then there's an expectation for me to reply...? or if it's bc i then have to hope people send in asks??? #but i'm like. i cannot reblog that or i'll DIE of embarrassment #that last time i did it doesn't count bc someone specifically asked me to do it and i didn't want to let them down fdjkhnkdfjh #but okay................................. <33333333333333 #i am logging out and you won't see me for a while 🧍 #tonight's the series finale of my current biggest obsession alongside my ocs so. #i will be going crazy and losing my gourd over on main after i watch the episode and then i'll probably start grieving very soon after #i'm fully expecting to rewatch the ep like six times MINIMUM after it ends #like i always give the eps two or three rewatches right after i finish watching them the first time anyway ! so dkjgnhkfjn #but since it's the finale.......................... no i really am gonna be grieving it's bad for me #if you never hear from me again know that it's jesse armstrong's fault !!!!!!

[risingsunresistance]

finally killed a t2 blaze. impressive i know 😎

#JUGGLING ITEMS IS SCARY FOR ME IT IS MY WORST NIGHTMARE. PROUD OF MYSELF KJGFHG #ONLY TOOK TWO TRIES WOO #im not doing voidgloom t4 you cant make me- #i dont like fighting with people in lobbies they stress me out #and if i die i'll be so embarrassed. idk how much worse the t4 is compared to the t3 #i know it has the lasers but that doesnt look too bad tbh #ugh ONE DAY i guess. it'll get me one step closer to that pink rank #if i ever stumble across a dead lobby i'll give it a shot #i'll need my good final destination set back from ark first- #should also probably get some tank zombies from m3 like everyone suggests :/ #chat #sb

[morisdann]

Today I finally admit (after 3 weeks of denial) that our professor's assistant is fucking hot. I cannot believe there's a real ass man that isn't somewhere up in the ass of the world and I find attractive. Like what the fuck?? Didn't know they existed.

But don't get me wrong, he's hot not on a scale of "conventionally attractive and hot person", he's hot according to my "that's a little itty bitty nerd person that seems to be queer and they're real fucking smart" scale, so most people may find him... ok, at least. At most they'd side-eye me.

#i'm cringe but i'm free #personal ramblings #also this fuck is super bloody quiet and he manages to appear out of the void at most random fucking moments and scare the shit out us #just imagine #you code in an almost complete silence in a pretty dark room (cuz ✨computer science✨ major) #and then suddenly you hear a soft almost feyrish voice “there's a mistake” behind your back #sir. respectfully. stop it. #if he does this to me I'll either slap him in the face on autopilot and die of embarrassment or die of a heart and panic attack

[peppermintbutch]

Sleepover w my probably unrequited crush was NOT good for me

#going insane. i slept for 2 hours mainly bcs i spent most of the time near cardiac arrest #such a cringefail moment nothing has changed since highschool etc. well it has but ive had 2 hrs of sleep and im being dramatic #i dont even know if shes in a relationship i think maybe shes in like a fwb situation w this guy she spends a lot of time with #who is very nice honestly might not even mind that like everyone here is polyam anyway lol but idk if she even likes me that way at all. #and i physically cannot talk to her abt this i think i'd genuinely die of a heart attack and bury myself alive no matter the outcome #but also i guess my life will stay this way forever if i dont eventually do smth abt crushes but im like SO scared #though i guess realistically the worst outcome is that i embarrass myself. like she's bisexual she's not going to kill me or be disgusted #WELL. Maybe I'll do smth abt this tomorrow (probably not) #but also im soo worried that if it's reciprocated it turns out i dont actually want anything from her #bcs that would mean i have Fucked Up Issues and i don't even know how to begin thinking abt solving them #anyway GOODNIGHT. I am tired and not in a state of mind to do deep psychoanalysis on myself 🗣

[graviconscientia]

I think everyone should message me on Trollian, right now. And it should be a law. Absolutely. 100%. graviConscientia, if you do. Help an old lady get out of her own head.

#ic #[[i downloaded the damn thing like a week ago?]] #[[who is to say if i got it right]] #[[if u try to message her and it doesn't work? tell me.]] #[[i'll figure it out but let me die of embarrassment first xoxo]]

[zhongrin]

The next time you see me rin it's for a link for all the filth I have for Zhongli but I will not be held responsible for all the loss of blood and nosebleeds that will happen when I give you that link. Here are a few teasers hope you survive😈😈😈😈

it is 9:47 am in the morning and i am now horny fml

chocolate or zhongli? hah, what a stupid question.

both. i want both.

but if i can only have one obviously i'll have zhongli what kinda question is that-

JFC THE SIZE OF THAT DICK AND THOSE LEWD EXPRESSIONS I- *purrs* *snarls* *hisses*

......

i can't decide if i like picture 5 or picture 6 more.

............

i'll settle with picture 6 bc he looks ready to be worshipped

and i am very much ready to worship ;)

sir that mouth can be of use somewhere else hehe hehe winkwonk

#rin answers #rin is having tea with: sheepmc #i want to save these in my gallery so bad but if my parents saw them i think i'll die out of embarrassment #minors dni

[prominenceprison]

「 @universestreasures​​ | Ahmes / Aichi Sendou」 issued a challenge:  

“Percy?” A young Ahmes speaks as he tugs the older knight’s sleeve, the prince positioned behind him as they both looked down at the humans being dropped off at the palace gates for the annual offering. “Why did Papa say I’ll be getting a human this time? I don’t wanna drink from anyone. He knows that. You know that. Everyone does. Besides, I bet any human wouldn’t like me. I bet I’d cause them to run away.”

(Smol Club Ahmes Aichi establish the deep lore, and when him and Percy Gaillard were close since he and Ashlei were the only friends he had when he got sick before Toshiki showed up)

Across the grand hall, on the lower floor they watch as the humans were escorted by the Liberators. The Jewelers were down there as well, preparing for the ceremony that was to be taking place later that evening. One among them was to be chosen by the prince, the rest would be pawned off to lesser nobles as nothing more than over glorified leftovers. 

Gone were the days of needlessly plucking humans from dark parts of the streets in order to feed. Vampires having been in power for so long now that the humans offered their own, more than willingly, in order to remain in good favor to their supreme rulers.

Each human down there was rather young, but the youngest couldn't be much older than Percival or the prince himself. Normally offerings weren't collected until they contained enough blood to sustain a noble without dying immediately, but that boy down there... The knight could see him discarded by the end of the night. Percival doesn't seem to mind the fact that this was probably going to be the first and only time he'd see most of these... people. 

Perhaps it was due to his history with humankind, but the idea of them infesting the palace like rats made him seethe. But knowing most of them wouldn’t last a lord nowhere near their expected lifetime seemed to make their presence tolerable. To the young knight this was a kindness that they did not deserve. He wanted to watch them all perish in the flames of the Liberators’ judgment, just as they set everything he once knew ablaze in the name of their own holy flames.

He was observing solely to help determine a good candidate for his prince. It was a mission given to him by the king himself, so he was sure to take it seriously.

❝ King Alfred wishes for you to have one on the off chance you change your mind in the future. ❞ Which Percival was reassured would happen one of these days. There was no way a vampire could abstain forever, especially when harboring the power of those with pure, noble blood such as Ahmes.

As the knight watches on, he catches sight of the young boy seemingly trip over himself, his hands weighed down by heavy iron shackles meant to bind an adult.

--Pathetic...

A weak offering. It was nearly an insult to have someone so weak in the offering pool meant for prince Ahmes to choose from. Percival makes a mental note later to seek out the codex marking the details of this years offerings. Whomever decided such a human was a suitable candidate for the prince should be dealt with for such latent disrespect.

❝ Any human should be happy to offer their services to their future king... But it doesn’t matter if a human likes you or not. They cannot run from you, your highness. ❞

Once a Jeweler’s collar was locked and talisman's link established with it’s owner that was that.

A life lived in servitude to their lords. That’s what was expected of those brought back by the Seekers. And if an offering was accepted the villages of the families who had procured them would receive all sorts of benefits; ranging from protection or tax reliefs. To sacrifice the few in favor of the many... Humans were incredibly selfish creatures, worthy of bearing the heavy title of ‘sinner’. Such was the sentiment of the entire Liberator faction. The young knight couldn’t agree more now since watching the ant line of humans as they were forced down onto their knees at the base of the stairs leading up to the pair of thrones at the end of the grand hall.

❝ It is a great honor to receive an offering. It shows the humans submissiveness to your power as one of royal standing. This is only the first of many, you are in line for the throne after all. You can expect many more as you come into power; as human and vampire societies alike will hope to gain your favor. ❞

The display below was sure to be overwhelming to the prince, who was always hesitant about the idea of feeding off humans. But this was but a step towards Ahmes’ eventual rise into power. The young knight’s rust colored hues break away from the commotion below in order to set their sights on his charge. Tonight's ceremony was akin to a coming-of-age celebration for vampires in noble standing... And Percival himself was going to not only bear witness to such a grandacious event he was taking a pivotal part in it. 

To stand by Ahmes’ side and remain there... Such a thing was everything to him, to the boy who had lost everything until Ahmes had become part of his newfound life. So he offers his hand to the prince, signaling it was time to go.

❝ Looks like... they’re being prepared for the ceremonial ritual. Are you ready, Prince Ahmes? Remember: You must choose one. ❞ -

#.//''PERCY'' UVUVUVUU #LIBERATE THE LOCK「ic」 #QUERY「asks」 #VERSE.// OBSTINATE FLAMES OF FATE #universestreasures #CORNERSTONE OF THE SANCTUARY「universestreasures | Aichi Sendou」 #.//i kid u not only did the power go out twice while working on this bUT TUMGLR ALSO LOGGED ME OUT HALFWAY THRU LMAO #.//i could see ahmes refuses to choose at first #.//which then forced percy to pick the weak one thinking he'd die off and then TOSHIKI JUST STUCK AROUND EVER SINCE LMAOOO #.//can't have ahmes embarrassing papa alfred infront of all his friends during the ceremony nope #.//also i wrote some LOREEEEE in my memos about toshiki's pov on all this and had an idea lolol i'll share it with u laterr #.//also good luck i hope this made coherent sense bc i wrote this twice and smashed both attempts together lolol #tw long post #tw enslavement #.//babu gaillard tho;;;; squishes his face

[gojoest]

i have a pea brain when it comes to names

#ran into a boy from uni omw home that i haven’t seen in a while and we chatted a little bit #BUT i was so out of it the entire time bc i couldn’t quite recall his name #it was on the tip of my tongue but just couldn’t put my finger on it and it was so awkward bc #he kept saying my name and i was like HSJDSHBDDKSA WHAT WAS IT on the inside #eventually i remembered and when saying our byes i went all 'see you [redacted]' like super confidently about it #i rly hope i recalled correctly or i'll just choke myself and die #time to go through my socials and find out the truth #if you do not see me ever again i just died from embarrassment