#I'm evil and only a little sorry

[bhaalsdeepbat]

Because of the implication that Karlach didn't know any of the more devious shit Gortash was doing while she was employed by him, I HC that he sold her at a point where he couldn't be as covert in his private dealings. Like it was a point where she clearly was going to be a liability and she's good. Too good. Like to her core.

And there isn't a whole lot different between himself and the tiefling rascal he took in so she could support the parents she loves so much. I think that at a certain point he'd just be kinda aggravated because, to him, her view of the world is so idealistic. I like the idea of him having a little bit of petty jealousy, but I can't see that being the motivator for the sale. I think he really believed she was strong enough to handle it - because he was strong enough to withstand the hells - and wanted her to be humbled, in a way. he needed her to have a taste of the real world, so to speak, because his understanding is that it's a cutthroat world and all people are pawns, regardless of age or relation.

that's not a way karlach can live tho

and then she comes back, broken, sure. she has her whole thing where she can consume the soul coins, which ultimately has her viewing lost souls as tokens/pawns in the way gortash sees all people, but she clearly struggles with it and it wasn't a choice she made, but something zariel pushed on her so she could survive.

regardless, karlach's optimism is unwavering and she's still so vivacious. She's angry, understandably so, she has scars, she's done shit she isn't proud of, but she, herself, was never corrupted. when she escapes, she immediately goes full hero mode, she just has the burden of the soul coins to bear bc NO ONE can come out of that situation completely unscathed. and remember the types of friends she made in the hells!!! her one only helps her if it comes with a double-edged sword. despite that, she doesn't prevent it from allowing her to bond with the companions.

so she comes back proof that you can go through what Gortash did and come out mostly in tact. you may be hurt, she shouldn't have HAD to go through that, but she's fighting for a better future for herself (even if that means dying to not return to avernus). Unlike Gortash, she doesn't need to bring the world to heel to pay for the cruelty it showed her.

in fact, everything she went through just makes her appreciate the little good in her life even more and motivates her to aggressively protect her friends.

#bat rambles #karlach #sorry for the repost i had a few things to add re: soul coins #i also am thinking abt gortash a little more and like #he's kinda pathetic in a way i'm not even sad for him about #but he is so desperate to be loved imo #not quite to the levels of Raphael's narcissism #but up there #like it was A Choice to set it up so he'd be viewed as the hero of baldur's gate #protecting them from the Evil's of the Absolute #the one person who can protect them only to be the one to sell them all out #just a mirror of what he went through y'know #the writing in this is so solid you can just see so many things that relate to one another #they're all so entangled

[demodraws0606]

Every person with a bad q!BBH opinion now is getting blocked, it's on sight /hj

#qsmp #q!bbh #q!badboyhalo #bbh #badboyhalo #qsmp purgatory #i want to enjoy my cubito being fucked up i don't need people to add morals to him that aren't there #he isn't like pure evil or anything he has attachements and love #but then people say he is good at heart or has the drive to the right thing #like no #he only does the right thing because things he cares about are on the line #WHAT ABOUT “my character will kill everyone for the eggs if he needs to” DONT YOU UNDERSTAND #i'm sorry purgatory has turned me into an angry little baby the takes are getting so BAD

[apostate-in-an-alcove]

How do you explain to people on this hellsite that the evil of Christianity isn't unique to Christianity?

#people are so ignorant its frustrating #like I'm sorry your understanding of religion doing harm only applies to Christianity but you need to broaden your horizons a little #deconstructing christianity #christianity #I'm not defending Christianity btw but acting like its uniquely evil is pretty ignorant

[snowyfrostshadows]

To be honest, this is all I can think of whenever someone tells me Dimentio wrote himself into the Dark Prognostics so Bleck would hire him

#super mario #super paper mario #i'm sorry #dimentio may be a master manipulator or whatever and THE most punchable mario villain ever #but i think he is also dumb and kinda pathetic #don't get me wrong; still hate the guy but he can still fit in with the tone of other big bads in thinking #he's cooler and more clever than he actually is #and....from what i can tell....bleck only hires the most pathetic little meow meows he can find to be his elite team of minions #i would 100% hire someone who snuck in a picture of themselves into his book of evil and thought he wouldn't be sble to tell they did that #dumb doodles

[paperhats-and-evil-schemes]

You know, I think what i fear most about all these soulless Disney remakes is that one day they'll take Hunchback of Notre Dame, one of the strongest and most daring Disney movies ever in its depiction of showing the dark sides of religion without demonizing faith as a whole, and that they'll take Judge Claude Frollo and either make him "sympathetic" or way less extreme than in the original, since Disney is nowhere near as ballsy to do something like directly criticize religious extremists anymore, I think, and that would just DESTROY the great impact that movie's messaging had.

That's not to say I have anything against sympathetic villains, but Frollo is one that was so strong BECAUSE of how awful he was and the position he held, and that fierce kind of villainy should NEVER be changed in his case imo. Very strong teaching moments in there for kids.

#Not that any kids these days are watching Notre Dame or anything 😂 But yeah. #Hunchback of Notre Dame was literally the movie that helped make it click for me that my parents were NOT very good people actually #Kids need these kinds of movies to help them learn when they're being manipulated for the worse #and it would be a shame if this strong example of that were given a crappy half-baked shlop of the original story #It wasn't Little Mermaid specifically that got me thinking abt this bc Ursula was actually still decently evil in it #But more stuff like Cruella and Pinocchio #Well anyways. I'm sure this has been pondered on in much better ways already. I'm just ready to fight someone if they dare change Hunchback #May be the only situation that being a financial flop might be good for it lol hopefully Disney will leave it alone rather than crap on it #In a shitty remake I mean #Frollo is a goddamn legendary untouchable villain and I just KNOW a remake would ruin him #Wow sorry for the random and completely irrelevant rant but I just feel VERY strongly about this lol #OP #Disney #the hunchback of notre dame

[sweet-star-cookie]

so i finished the teal mask dlc

#i'm not okay #i'm dead fucking serious i have never been so disquieted by a POKEMON GAME PLOT like this before and i don't like it #i'm so upset #look. LOOK. listen it has been established that the player's choices in pokemon do not actually matter outside of mild dialogue changes #i'm totally fine with pokemon moving towards more consequence-based stories #but if you're going to do that here then you NEED TO ACTUALLY /GIVE THE PLAYER A CHOICE/ #THIS PLACE SUCKS I JUST CAME HERE FOR A GOOD TIME AND I'M FEELING SO ATTACKED RIGHT NOW ;;;;;;;; #FUCK YOU CARMINE I HATE YOU #I HATE YOU I HATE YOU #TALK TO ME EVER AGAIN AND I WILL DECK YOU IN THE FACE #YOU FORCED ME TO BE A BAD FRIEND TO THIS SWEET LITTLE BOY AND THEN WE TOOK AWAY HIS ONLY CHANCES AT FRIENDSHIP WITH ME /AND/ OGERPON #ABSOLUTELY HEINOUS #CRUEL AND UNUSUAL PUNISHMENT #HE TRIED SO DAMN HARD THE ENTIRE TIME AND DID NOTHING WRONG AND I WILL /DIE ON THIS HILL/ #I'M SORRY KIKI ;;;;_______;;;; #literally he had his completely justified joker moment at the end and my friend was like 'yeah sorry he's evil now' and I just paused #and then turned to her and said 'never love anything' #this is unrelated but if Iruma in M!IK ever turns actually evil like this at any point ever I am defenestrating my tv #i am SO tired and i am betrayed SO often CAN'T HAVE SHIT IN DETROIT ;;;;;;; #WHY CAN'T MY SWEET LITTLE GUYS JUST STAY SWEET LITTLE GUYS FOR ONCE #Kieran is my SON you can't DO THIS TO ME!!!!!! #also i would die for Ogerpon btw #she is my daughter and i love her #i want to squish her little face and hold her in my arms forever #i need a plush of her right the fuck now #if any of you villagers or tourists scare her or make her sad again i will cut you and that is a THREAT #my art #kind of lmao #pokemon

[lucalicatteart]

Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 16: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression

(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)

Yesterday's poll decided that The Adventurer should offer to help the travelers with their broken wagon.....

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After much internal deliberation (and some zoning out staring at butterflies), The Adventurer decides it would be best to offer his assistance. Technically, he IS still following his goal of not getting distracted, because theoretically it would make his journey much faster if he were able to catch a ride on a carriage. So really, this is all an ultimate big brain genius strategy for maximizing efficient travel.. Or, at least that sounds like a good enough justification to him.

Gathering up all of his social courage, he approaches one of the travelers fiddling with a broken wheel near the far end of the carriage and meekly asks if there's anything he could do to help.

The man was so focused on his task, he seems initially startled to look up and find someone near him. "OH..! Oh, uhh.. help? With the wagon?", he smiles pleasantly, gesturing towards a few wooden boards that are just out of his reach, "Sure, kid. If you could just hand me th-"

"Apologies, but we actually won't be needing your assistance, stranger." A taller man, surprisingly almost matching the stature of the Adventurer, suddenly slinks out from somewhere behind the carriage, sternly placing himself like a barrier in front of the man working on the wheel. Wheel Guy nervously averts his eyes, making himself smaller, silently resuming his work.

The Adventurer tries his best to maintain composure against the weight of the tall man's bitter gaze, but can't seem to muster much of a response "Aeughh,,, uh… b-but, h- Bu--HHHh,,?.."

"Look, disregard whatever my father told you, he's old, never has any clue what he's talking about. It'd be best for you to simply move along." ('Father'? They don't look alike at all, and seem to be nearly the same age..)

"W-well.. he.. he didn't really tell me anything, I me-hhH,,.. I mean, I literally just got here, s-so...."

"Good. Even more reason to be on your way."

Placing a gloved hand firmly on his shoulder, the tall man begins to motion the Adventurer away from the wagon, but a strange noise interrupts, echoing from inside. Perhaps some sort of animal sound? Or a person faintly yelling about something? Or… both?

"WH-wHggg… whAT was t-that???!!" The Adventurer immediately stops in place, pausing to listen as the tall man keeps trying to push him ahead.

"I didn't hear anything, stranger."

"No, t-there.. was dEFinitely, UHH, a-"

"Likely something in the forest."

"Wh--aah... d.. do you think it was an animal?"

The tall man continues a dramatic struggle to 'subtly' drag him further down the road, whilst the Adventurer mindlessly digs in his heels, too distracted to even notice he's being so strongly prompted to leave.

"Many animals do, indeed, exist within forests. This should not be suprising."

"...It's just.. ..eughh… s… so weird…"

"I assure you, it is not."

"I-it really sounded like.. like it came f-from insid-"

"Yes, from inside the forest. Now, please, if you would.."

The noise interrupts again. It's definitely someone, or something, in some sort of distress.. And definitely from inside of the cart.

"wHoAAGH, aa!!! T-tHat's NOT from the f-forest, that-"

The tall man fully just shoves him now, sending the Adventurer toppling across the dirt, clumsily rolling and landing just past the other side of the carriage. A mother and young child who seem to be part of the traveling group simply stare down at him with empty blank gazes, wholly unconcerned about helping him up.

As the Adventurer fumbles back to his feet (still confused as to why he was even pushed in the first place), the tall man looms by the carriage, diligently watching to ensure that he leaves.

"Travel safe, stranger."

Despite his initial obliviousness, the Adventurer begins to piece the situation together as he stares back at the man, now fully convinced something suspicious might be going on...

…What should he do next??

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Additional Information

the adventurer's current main quest: follow his map to reach the abandoned castle ruins and see the rare animal specialist about the mysterious egg he has

#paventure posting #poll #polls #choose your own adventure #ERM.. ... hee hee... yes.. alas.. it has been like two months since the last one lol #IT'S SUMMER!!!! how can anyone function in the summer..? It's literally 83F in my room indoors right now at this moment at NIGHT #I'm about to go to sleep.. who can sleep in an 80+ degree room comfortably?? ghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #Really no hope of productivity at all from like June - September basically... EVIL.. and also the spring this year had some heat waves so #AUGhh... my nemesis the Summer.. Or moreso capitalism is my nemesis for worsening climate change and also keeping people in such #economic inequality that cheap apartments with terrible ventilation get made and people cant afford air conditioners and etc. etc. #but ALSO... the summer... grrrr.. 'Heat' you will never be famous.. you will always be lame nasty and so forth.. #ANYWAY.. also sorry this is another blurb that's longer. The text is always longer when there's actually spoken interactions lol #I know I'm not very good at this style of writing (especially when rushing with these) so I always feel kind of awkward having really long #sections people will have to slog through or etc ghbjhjh but.. I don't really know how it make it shorter. the interaction #is just the interaction. certain things must be said and conveyed. peace and love on planet orth. #Ough it's been so long I almost forgot to draw his injuries lol.. in-world it's only been what like.. a day? since he got into a fight with #that mysterious cloaked person who was tracking him to steal the egg. I also always just forget how to draw him in between breaks #hopefully his hair and stuff doesn't look too different. They're meant to be really quick sketches anyway but still.. you at least want him #to be recognizable lol #ANYWAY.. another update from the Son.. what is he up to on his little traveles...

[bennymaxxing]

arguments saying Joshua is actually good or has changed by the time honest hearts starts or barely had a role in creating the legion etc. all fall flat when you find out he's literally inspired by the destroying angels and 19th century mormonism

#I'm so sure there would be fewer Joshua apologists if they knew the history between mormons and Native Americans #tho I also know a lot of NV fans aren't American and idk how much US history they're taught #which if that's you then look up history between natives and mormons it adds a lot of context to the DLC #but yeah u can think joshua is interesting or sexy (i do too) but he's like #canonically an evil character that doesnt become any less evil unless you pass a 90 speech check #and even then thats only the beginning of his redemption he's gotta work hard and unlearn a LOT to be a good person #also sorry for joshuaposting again I have so many thoughts and mixed feelings on HH #thats for another post tho I gotta stop writing an essay in the tags #fnv #fallout new vegas #joshua graham #daniel fnv #honest hearts #my dumb little posts

[idiosyncraticrednebula]

I clicked on a video essay about Snow White and off the rip, the guy called Snow White a "passive domestic weirdo with no personality" and quickly figured out he is one of THOSE critics. He also got one about Ariel and you bet your ass he is one of these "gave up her voice for a man", "The Little Mermaid is misogynistic" dipshits. I have yet to watch the video, but I know for a fact he is one of those guys. His videos reek of that smartass, sanctimonious, leftist bullshit just by reading the titles and looking at the thumbnails. This guy also has a video defending Twilight. You can't make this damn shit up.

#disney #video essay #txt #i'm sorry but i'm so sick of people ripping the princess movies apart #like holy fucking shit i have never seen a children's entertainment property be so fucking bashed and disrespected the way disney princesse #have been disrespected and so grossly misunderstood #all because fucking cunts on the internet didn't like certain aspects about the original movies #yet fucking bratz has never gotten NOWHERE NEAR the same amount of fucking hatred they have been and they are WAY WORSE role models #these are sexualized ass dolls and materialistic directly marketed at little girls #but no the princesses got married and saved only once so that means THEY ARE THE FUCKING SCUM OF THE EARTH AND DESERVE ALL THE DAMN SCORN #i hate you fucking cunts who made it popular to shit on them #i fucking loathe you with all my heart i can't stand you #there are faaaar worse “role models” for children including little girls than them yet are blamed for every fucking evil on the planet #“these are just characters” ok but it isn't them precisely that get me mad it's people not getting the messages of the movies #it's indicative of an on-going of shitting on everything that's feminine in a positive light. that's what's pissing me off about the #bashlack. y'all notice how the characters who are more tomboyish or less traditionally feminine are seen as superior #i will defend them with every fiber of my body. i do not give a fuck if people think i'm utterly insane for that #i'm so sick of all of you #like i said i have yet to see his analysis of tlm but i just know he is gonna say some bullshit about ariel #i find it funny how disney princesses and barbie have been blamed for years and years for every bad thing on the planet and repeatedly #bashed for all the supposed “bad” messages and themes they teach to little girls because of miserable grown ass women who projected their #anger onto these fictional women that are supposed to represent the best of not just women but humanity as a whole even if they have flaws #and all yet bratz gets nowhere near the same amount of bad press despite them being clearly sexualized and materialistic as hell. they are #more damaging to little girls than barbie and disney princesses ever were. barbie and dp's have taught good things but these bitches? they #were pretty bad role models yet don't get the same amount of flack #don't get me wrong i grew up loving bratz but now i clearly see the ugliness of those characters being promoted to children as “role models #they are everything dp's and barbie have been accused of for years but no hatred for them

[cxpperhead]

Thanks to @umbrellamedic, I'm strongly considering a Pet Shop of Horrors!Verse for Copperhead. 👀

#🐍 || ooc #I've still got to complete Copperhead's about and Resident!Evil verse but I've got strong feelings for PSoH #Which is funny bc I was talking about it with another mutual only a few months ago #Seems like it's destiny it popped up again while chatting with umbrellamedic :D #Might be something to do today since spoons are a little empty or could tackle some stuff building up #Chores are finally all done today so we'll see #Sorry for all the ooc content and games/images I'm just so tired from work lately #October's shaping up to look like September all over again reeee

[caeslxys]

certain beloved members of vm and m9 are similar levels of morally ambiguous and unable to decisively deal with their personal shit that imogen temult is but only one them is constantly shit on for it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#cr spoilers #vaguely? I don't even wanna tag that bc this is a little controversial in tone #'but imogen's shit doesn't make sense bc she has a support system and still refuses to deal' #liam obrien had an evil caleb playlist READY TO GO like???? #taliesan has talked On END about how percy is a piece of shit #(affectionate) #god forbid the woman who had her entire life repeatedly wrecked from before the first episode and every five or so episodes after #be just like. a little fucking frayed. a bit on edge #also she repeatedly REPEATEDLY asked to just be told she was wrong all episode. she was BEGGING for clarity #not because she thought they were right. but because it's so hard for her to say that her mother is wrong #when she so badly wants to be able to save her and love her #she just wishes her mother wasn't involved how she is??? #oh I'm sorry I forgot she's supposed to just. get over that. in a totally believable and human way #this is the closest I'm gonna get to Discourse bc it's not worth it but keeping these thoughts in my brain is abt to make me explode so #also!! this is not me shitting on percy or caleb!! they are also The Skrunkly of their respective campaigns for me!! #and I don't think either is a bad person!!! #I do think they were given more incentive to heal in less episodes than imogen has been given all campaign tho lol #also yes I know that people exist who Do shit on these two for exactly this #even with that it is not nearly what I have seen go imogen's way #also the universal queer sentiment of 'she tried to show me a world that was peaceful if only I went back to being normal' #I just don't get it 😭

[lyxchen]

I don't know if this is a controversial opinion but almost every fighting scene that's over 3 minutes long is boring

#like i'm not watching that i'm sorry #Nothing Happens #i don't care about your power fight it's boring Stop #there's only people hitting each other but nobody is better than the other so nobody wins #like especially with marvel movies #so much fighting and so little plot #the only movies where i've enjoyed fighting scenes are birds of prey and atomic blonde #also school for good and evil #because they have good and interesting fighting choreo but also the fighting doesn't take up All of the movie #lea's random thoughts

[musical-chick-13]

Thinking about that "If K*ylo R*n were a woman everything would be better and this character would have worked" post, but after some consideration...I genuinely would have still hated this character.

Like...Idk maybe there's something to be said for the still-subversive nature of characters like this being allowed to be horrible women, but I don't hate this character because he's horrible, or even because he exemplifies a bunch of things in fiction I'm tired of seeing, I hate him because he doesn't feel fully-formed as a character to me and I don't think the movies know what they're trying to accomplish with him from a narrative standpoint (which are, imo, the biggest Story Sins a writer can commit). All of which would still hold true if this character were a woman.

#I WILL say. this character wouldn't be as popular as they are (and they ARE popular. fandom is not just limited to pockets of tumblr) if #they were a woman. nor would The Popular Ship be r*ylo. that's not me scaremongering about misogyny that's just. true. #we have SEEN that be true again and again and again #the OTHER thing about this character is that...I feel like he was MEANT to come across as #'he's so tortured and pained and complicated' but then they never did anything to SHOW ME THAT COMPLEXITY #if I look at like...(idk using another Tortured Male Character Who Did Bad Things) Theon. I can get from point a to point b with him. #I SEE the things that influenced him and I SEE how he got to a point where he thought acting the way he did was the only way forward. #I do not see that with. the other guy (sorry I am trying SO hard to make sure this doesn't accidentally end up in the character tag) #you either need to show me where the 'horrible'-ness comes from or you need to commit to the character just choosing to be horrible #not every character needs to have some Deep Reason Why they do what they do (like they can literally just be evil it's fine) but you can't #try to convince me there IS a Deep Reason Why and then NOT EVER SHOW ME THAT REASON #they (meaning sequel trilogy) like...sort of tried? a little? I guess? but the 'trying' was...barely anything and then they #didn't ever fully COMMIT to it. #THAT'S the problem I have. #(the 'not following through on alleged complexity' is also one of the big problems I have with [character I also hate but whose #name I'm not saying for reasons of self-preservation]) #and yeah maybe because of Subconscious Bias they WOULDN'T have been so wishy-washy on how Deep or sympathetic™ this character's #motivations were if they'd been a woman maybe they really WOULD have just made her straight-up evil with no Underlying Reason #(which yeah that WOULD have worked better for me I think?) but if we are saying 'this character is exactly the same but a woman' #.......no sorry. unfortunately a female character I can't defend this time. #(and I DID think about this. like 'do I hate this character due to a knee-jerk reaction toward men--even fictional ones--I consider to be #threatening/because he reminds me of people I don't like irl' or 'do I prioritize Hating Men' but...no I truly would just #hate this character regardless) #like I really do think my biggest pet peeve is when the story/creator themselves tries to hit me over the head with 'this character is #so COMPLICATED and DEEP and PSYCHOLOGICALLY INTRICATE' and then not ever actually PROVING that to me

[gravitywonagain]

A Necessary Evil

I have made... pain. Set in the book canon after the Bloodbath at Nightless Sky, in the cave where Lan Zhan has taken Wei Ying. This is all just dialogue. I may flesh it out into a full scene later, but I kind of like this stripped down version, so (with the help of my favorite enabler @dovebeast) I decided to just... post it.

[M, 870, 1/1, Wangxian]

WWX's POV, LWJ's POV

Tags: Major Character Death, time travel, hurt/comfort but mostly hurt, I'm not going to lie this is all angst, not a happy ending

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"Did you see them, Lan Zhan? Did you see?"

"Wei Ying--"

"United in their hate."

"Let me--"

"But they were united."

"Wei Ying?"

"It doesn't work if there's no villain, Lan Zhan. This world doesn't work if there's no one to hate."

"I don't understand."

"You should go. Leave me. They'll only hurt you if they find you here."

"I won't leave you."

"So stubborn, Lan Zhan. So good. Always so good."

"Wei Ying, I--"

"At least Shijie is alive this time."

"This time?"

"Yes. Oh, Lan Zhan, I've done this so many times. I'm so tired."

"Rest. I will be here."

"They're coming. They'll be here soon. They'll take you. You should let them take you."

"I will not le--"

"A'Yuan needs you, Lan Zhan. Let them take you."

"Wei Ying?"

"It's okay. I-- Like I said, it doesn't work if there's no villain."

"Why you?"

"If not me, then who?"

"Not you."

"It's okay, Lan Zhan. I know. I know. You've stayed with me before."

"Before?"

"Yes. You're always so good. Too good. They hurt you when you fight. Don't-- Don't let them hurt you. A'Yuan needs you."

"A'Yuan?"

"He needs you to raise him. I know you'll take such good care of him, Lan Zhan. You always do."

"Wei Ying, I don't understand."

"I know. It's okay."

"Please, Wei Ying, I--"

"Don't say it. Don't say it, Lan Zhan. It only hurts more if you say it. If I-- Don't say it."

"Okay. Okay, Wei Ying."

"Let them take you. When they come, just go with them. Don't fight."

"They will kill you."

"Yes."

"I won't--"

"You must. They need a villain. They don't need two. But if you stay with me, if you fight them for me, that is what you become. A'Yuan needs you."

"Okay. Okay, Wei Ying."

"Hold my hand?"

"But--"

"I only said not to say it. Not that it's unwelcome."

"Wei Ying--"

"Shh. Hush now, Lan Zhan. Just hold me. They'll be here soon."

"If you've done this before, why not fix it? Why not live?"

"It doesn't work. It all falls apart. The clans fall to each other if not to Wen Ruohan. They need--"

"A villain. So you've said."

"Ah, Lan Zhan! Interrupting me, so bold!"

"I am trying to understand."

"I know. I know. There's no time. Which will be very funny to you later. Nothing but time. Maybe I will see you again, Lan Zhan."

"They will kill you."

"Yes. Yes, and you should let them. So you can save A'Yuan. Maybe, maybe you can make them all see. Make them open their eyes in the Burial Mounds. Make them see who it is they're running through."

"Why can't we show them together, Wei Ying? Why?"

"It doesn't work. It's too late for me. You saw what I did to them. You saw the monster I've become."

"Wei Ying--"

"I asked you to kill me once. If I was too far gone. Do you remember that?"

"I do."

"Would you do it now?"

"Wei Ying?!"

"I know. You're too good, Lan Zhan. You never agree to that."

"Wei Ying, please."

"I could make you."

"Wei Ying?"

"I could make you kill me. I haven't tried that before. You would be the hero, then maybe you could stop the slaughter."

"You are not a villain, Wei Ying!"

"I am. I'm a monster, haven't you heard? A demon. You would be venerated for putting me down."

"Please..."

"It would crush you to do it, I know. We could do it together, you and I. Draw your sword, Lan Zhan."

"No."

"Lan Zhan, they'll kill me either way. Let me die like this: in your arms, with you by my side."

"I can't--"

"A quick slide, right through my ribs. It will be almost peaceful this way."

"No!"

"You can hold me. They'll praise you for it. You'll hate that, but then the spoils will be yours. You can claim them. It could work, Lan Zhan."

"Wei Ying, please do not ask this of me."

"It's too much. I know. I know, Zhiji."

"Zhiji. Zhiyin. Wei Ying."

"You would do it if I asked you to. I know you would. But is that something I can let myself ask of you? Is it too cruel? To make you bear this with me? To make you take some of the weight."

"Please, don't... Please, Wei Ying."

"Draw your sword, Lan Zhan."

"Wei Ying."

"Good. Good. It'll be quick. So quick. Don't worry, they'll be here soon. They'll see. They'll help you. Your brother will help you. Yes, right there. It's okay, Lan Zhan. It's okay. It's okay if it's you."

"This is not--"

"I know. I know. Just hold me."

"Wei Ying?"

"Yes, Lan Zhan?"

"May I say it."

"Ha. Yes, Lan Zhan. I think. I think I'd like to hear it."

"I love you, Wei Ying."

"I know. I love you, too, Lan Zhan."

"I know."

"It's okay, Lan Zhan. Deep breath. That's it. It's okay. It will be okay."

"What's that?"

"Footsteps. They're almost here. Lan Zhan, please. You can do it. Please. Lan Zh--"

"Wei Ying."

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"Wei Ying."

.

"I love you."

.

"I'm here."

.

.

.

"Wangji?"

"Xiongzhang. He's gone."

"Oh, Wangji."

#wangxian #mdzs #fanfiction #wei wuxian #lan wangji #i'm sorry this is a little bit evil #okay it's very evil #angst #major character death #time travel #canon divergence #not a fix it but also not not a fix it #not a happy ending #unless you project into the future and say that the plan works #hurt/comfort #but mostly hurt #dialogue only #i may build this out later but we'll see #my writing

[loisroo]

For my beyond evil prompt post! thanks @tiffanylamps for the inspiration!!

It's not like he wants to be here, if Joo Won had an actual choice he would be at his apartment, cooking the new recipe he discovered while listening to music before settling down for the night to read his book.

But Kwon Hyuk was getting married and as much as Joo Won hates his father, he cares triple that for his adoptive brother....most days.

Joo Won sighs again as he pulls gently on his tie, it feels tight and suffocating around his throat. The whole outfit makes him uncomfortable now, they used to fit like a glove but he gave up suits and tuxedos and a manicured life years ago.

He's watching Kwon Hyuk dance with his bride, Oh Ji Hwa who looks stunning in a simple white dress and something inside of him squeezes in equal parts envy and happiness for his brother. Hyuk couldn't have chosen a better bride (despite his fathers complaints about it) she was strong, fierce, and patient and has had her now husband wrapped around her finger since day one.

She's good for him, makes Hyuk stand up for himself more and start demanding more control over his father's company, helps his adopted brother balance the expectations and the reality of what it means to take over a company. Plus Joo Won thinks that Han Ki Kwan might be a little afraid of her, which makes her almost perfect in his book.

Joo Won takes a sip of his drink, looking down at his watch and sighing when he realizes it's still too early to leave without being extremely rude. The chandelier in the banquet hall feels too bright and the sounds are spread out but loud and chaotic-- people talking, others laughing, music blaring and it's all too much for Joo Won's brain at the moment.

He swallows the last bit of his drink before standing, grabbing another full one and making his way to one of the small balconies on the other side of the room.

The fresh, cool air feels like a gift and he finally allows himself to loosen his tie.

He's taking another sip of his drink when the door pushes open and he looks over to see a familiar mess of curls, the sigh that leaves his lips in almost involuntary at this point.

Dong Sik glances up at the noise before his whole face alights, "Joo Won- ah! There you are!"

Joo Won scrunches his nose up at the familiarity, "Lee Dong Sik-ssi, i've told you to stop being so informal with me."

The smile only grows at his words and the older man comes to stand next to him, only a few inches apart and Joo Won can't bring himself to put distance between them. There's alot of things he can't seem to do around the older man.

"You're late."

He says it to fill the silence, watching as the older man seems surprised but then a soft smile appears on his face. Joo Won hates when Dong Sik uses those looks around him... they make him feel things he's unfamiliar with.

Dong Sik's shoulder brushes his and Joo Won's whole body responds, like it always does. The tingle shooting from his arm all the way down to his toes.

"Hmm... did you miss me, Joo Won-ah?"

It's said so softly, so sincerely and Joo Won inhales sharply, turning to grab the older man by his tie and yank him in for a hard, burning kiss. Dong Sik seems shocked for a half second before leaning in, resting his hands on Joo Won's hips in a way that pins him to the spot but soft enough for him to break free. Dong Sik always leaves him an out.

He shoves his fingers into Dong Sik's hair, the softness on his finger tips making his chest ache with need and the older man lets out a breathy moan as their mouths pull apart slightly.

They are both breathing heavily, the taste of Dong Sik still on his lips as the older man's breath fans across his mouth and Joo Won's heart lurches at the intimacy of it all.

He loves this stupid old fool so much, probably has since the day he met Ji Hwa and her friends. Joo Won can remember being equally interested and annoyed with the loud older man, who smiled and laughed like the entire world and it's problems meant nothing-- a complete contrast to the recently disowned Joo Won.

Joo Won takes a deep breath, scared of what he was going to say next but also certain in his actions. He looks up at the older man and breathes out a soft, almost strangled, "Yes."

Dong Sik blinks at him in confusion, "What?"

Joo Won feels the blush on his face, feels his ears burning hot but he leans back in and softly kisses Dong Sik's lips again before pulling back and speaking louder, "Yes... to the question you asked me a while ago."

Dong Sik still looks confused before it suddenly dawns on him, and Joo Won isn't prepared for the way Dong Sik lurches forward and captures his lips into a searing kiss. It's hot and molten, making his insides feel hot and when the older man's tongue licks into his mouth deeper Joo Won feels his legs shake. Dong Sik's hands are tight against his hips and Joo Won gasps when the older man bites his bottom lip before pulling away.

He can't imagine what he must look like right now but Dong Sik's lips are swollen and red, his eyes blown wide but are still bright with happiness, "Yes. You are finally going to date me?"

Joo Won snorts, leaning his forehead on Dong Sik's shoulder, "I think we've been dating for a while now."

He feels Dong Sik's head shake and he already knows what the man is going to say, "Nope, the stubborn prince I'm in love with refused to make it official."

Joo Won feels a little guilt rise in his belly but he ignores it in favor of the way the older man said 'love' and the hand Dong Sik has rubbing up and down his back, "Well, he sounds like an idiot."

Dong Sik laughs out loud, the noise sending tingles down Joo Won's back and he smiles into his lovers neck. The older man hums, "No, he was never an idiot. My prince was just hurt and needed some time to recover."

Joo Won blinks back tears and straightens back to his full height, looking down at Dong Sik and into his eyes, "Lee Dong Sik-ssi. Would you please date me?"

Dong Sik smiles and kisses him gently, "Yes. Of course, my stubborn prince."

#beyond evil #beyond evil prompts #beyond evil au #I hope you liked this my friend!!! #thank you so much for the inspiration! #they might be a little OC but i tried to keep them in character as much as i could with little background being given #i hope it worked! #also sorry for any errors #i will only go back through them alot if i'm gonna post them on ao3 #but i hope you still like it!

[fallowtail]

i try not to let it get to me but the knowledge i am always going to be The Stupid One in every situation i’m in just…really, really sucks. sigh. oh well. i stay silly :3c

#cant even blame it on being audhd because everyone else i know who is #is smart and talented and their brains work alright 😭 i'm just stupid and incapable #i feel like i’m the only person out there who does not get to experience any of the benefits or joys of these things #for me it is nothing but brain damage and endless suffering with no brightside or intelligence or anything #but then everyone tells me i’m the bad guy because if there was a magic button that would make me not audhd i would click it immediately #like why am i wrong for not wanting to suffer #everyone else seems to have a special interest or a fixation and they can remember information about those things but i...dont. i can't. LO #i do not experience the autistic joy everyone else talks about. i dont have the adhd focusing on what you like superpowers or whatever #my autism made me barely pass highschool and i couldnt handle community college and i had to drop out and i can barely handle having #an entry level job that everyone patronizes me about #i'm barely verbal and i am losing my ability to function to brainfog and everyone around me treats me like i'm their little pet idiot #but wanting to change that about myself makes me evil and bad or something i guess #sorry to whine on tumblr like the good old days but twitter is sick of my shit LOL 😭 #pmdd making me spiral worse than usual #one of those times where i'm realizing that if everyone else experiences these things totally different from me than maybe that was never #what was wrong with me in the first place lol. maybe i dont have an explanation and i'm back to being 10 15 19 24 sobbing wondering why im #like this. why i'm so stupid. not even in a self hating way in a legitimately proven way that i am functioning below average intelligence. #ok im done sorryyyyy god i forgot how good tumblr is to vent on #z