About those comments saying that Vessel is autistic
I keep coming across the same things and idk it kind of bothers me. Those discussions weather Vessel is on the spectrum or not. I will not discuss this in any form. I do have a moral line that I don't cross. But I will contribute to this in a different way.
You know me, right? Probably not so let me start by saying this: I have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and also have Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD or Childhood Trauma).
I've been aware of my BPD since I was about 16. That was 20 years ago. That's quite a long time. I was not aware of CPTSD until July of 2020. Even then I did not really “go” into this direction and kept looking away from my traumatic experiences.
How could this happen?
Yeah well. Sh*t happens.
Let's take a closer look.
This chart shows where BPD, CPTSD and ASD overlap but also the differences.
Let's take dissociation as an example. This is something that I struggle with a lot. Today for example I am dissociated to the point where I have physical reactions. It's not always the same. But right now I can't feel my hands and my arms and also I just feel empty. I'm using this state of being right now to write to you because it's not easy for me to talk about this topic.
I was aware of dissociation being a symptom of BPD but never thought about it also being a symptom of CPTSD. I never really looked behind that symptom. I was familiar with it being part of me and that was it. I never looked into the direction of there being potential trauma. Until that traumatized child destroyed the beliefs that I had about my life so far. My world broke apart when I realized what was done to me. And also I was already 32 when I had that realization. It can take many years to even being able to acknowledge something like that.
You see why it is kind of hard to be diagnosed or why it is hard to even see this for yourself.
There are humans out there who claim certain things about Vessel.
Like I said this is where I draw my personal line. I would never say that he has this and that. It feels unethical since I don't know him. It is up to him to address this if there is something that needs to be addressed.
Do I personally feel like he could be in there somewhere? Yeah, sure. Based on what he writes you can place him in this chart somewhere. (I said could and not that he is).
Idk that's what I wanted to say for quite some time now. Thank you.
If you are interessted in learning more:
Here is the video where I stole that chart from. I value her opinion because she also realized quite late in her life that she has childhood trauma. She is a therapist btw.
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It's incredible, in the wrong way, that this needs to be said, but...
Wikipedia is not a primary source.
Look, I use it too, sometimes it can work, but you can't jump at anyone going “did you know that—” and then answering that you read it on Wikipedia. Most of the places where the info comes from are not primary sources, but secondary ( or even not true ), from later authors. And unless those authors list their actual primary sources for their works, then they're not reliable.
So, please, don't use the well-known “argument of the ignorant” to justify your facts you made up. For the ones who don't know, that argument consists in "if there are no sources saying that THIS didn't happen, then is possible it has happened and we don't know!" Those, dear, are theories, not sources nor arguments.
I know getting primary sources is hard, but that doesn't justify misinformation, sorry if that broke your heart into pieces, buddy.
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as someone who's seen both the x files and read the inkheart series do you also see a similarity between mulder and mo??? both of them have someone disappear in their lives and seem to perpetually victimize themselves because of it. also hot headed and kind of rash and self righteous. just realized this myself
congrats on sending my absolute favorite ask i've ever received omg
i 500% see exactly what you mean--i've been thinking about this the past few days and there are so many examples i think of mo's mulder-esque rashness but when basta says he's going to start maiming meggie in inkheart to make mo read and mo doesn't even change his expression or say anything and just pitches the mug of boiling water at basta's head has GOT to be something mulder actually did in the show. has to be.
idk if you're familiar with the absolute funniest txf post on the entire internet ("ever heard of the knife alien") but the energy coming off of that is the exactly how it feels when mo tries to explain how the reading thing works.
person: "there's no way that person over there is a book character you brought to life. that's just ridiculous"
mortimer: "ever heard of fucking magic"
and resa as samantha?? i could spend Y E A R S thinking on what that says about her since we never find out what happened for sure to samantha and honestly get to decide which of the possible options we like best.. which is so in-theme with inkheart in general i want to weep. samantha's story is always told FOR her and she never got the chance to have any agency in it which. whew. is so exactly what resa was furious about in inkdeath (how the inkworld is a world for men but she will not stand by and let them tell her story for her yk!!). even before we find out in inkheart that resa is alive and well (well. not really) there's so much speculation about where she could be, why she would have left (from the people who don't know she got sucked into the book), what she's like now that i refuse to believe cornelia didn't watch the sht out of txf and internalize it even by accident. ain't no way.
detour over--mo and mulder both just. THRIVE on being the designated Sad Boy in the room. mulder does because he's an attention whore but i think it's the only way mo feels validated in a grief he can never fully explain to people for fear of looking like he believes bigfoot came from the fucking moon. he certainly doesn't have peers he confides in even in a casual, non-magic-related capacity (all of the folcharts being such crippling loners is kind of funny; someone remind me to come back to that one day) so he needs everyone he comes into contact with to acknowledge his pain without letting them actually know him. so he--for lack of a better term--acts out and gets himself into the dumbest possible situations. always tells stories like he's the only one affected by whatever happened (unless the other possible victims are resa or meggie ofc) (and this isn't rabid dustfinger-stan!kenna talking, i'm thinking about the lack of empathy for fenoglio's grandchildren being traumatized, the dismissive "wow that sucks" when strolling players were killed because of him (although maybe we can argue he just didn't feel like meggie needed to hear that idk)).
all that's up until inkdeath which is so obviously and magnificently his book. his rise above victimhood to become the avenging angel fenoglio thought he was casting as cosimo is so gorgeously written i feel like i should send cornelia $50 for rereading privileges. and that's where he and mulder finally diverge i think--and it's not quite fair to mulder because so much of his character was dependent on duchovny but mans really just took tf off on his gf and their tiny baby, had no contact with her, took no responsibility, lowkey becoming scully's samantha for a while lmao.
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Can I just say that one of my pet peeves in fandom... is when someone knows that an author hadn't thought of something at a certain time, and yet they still go back to something that was there before that thing existed and are like, "This is clearly referencing this." No. No, it is not.
Unrelated to that... but this is also becoming a pet peeve, because why--oh why--do I have to be in a number of fandoms that have done this very strange and obsessive thing: writing a freaking novel, pretty much, trying to prove how everyone is wrong in believing canon, and that your fan theory is actually correct and what the author intended. A lot of the time this is about shipping, but not always.
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