#I'm not sure 100% either

[problemswithbooks]

What’s up with endeavour’s backstory because even after seeing the translated scans I’m like ???

I think it's a bit little to be called a backstory--it's more just an explanation/exposition.

That said I do think for now it will be a bit confusing because we'll more chapters to see what Hori is actually trying to convey with these new developments.

From what I've seen I feel people are putting a bit to much emphasis on the whole father/daughter death thing, feeling like it's his origin story in someway. This has lead to people who are critical of his character to question how this big event in his life wasn't brought up before, or how he had to be told by All Might that children and the future is what his powers should be used for as the new #1, when he should already know that given what he saw.

Personally, I don't think Enji ever viewed that moment as a defining trait of why he wanted to be a Hero. Not to say it didn't effect him greatly, but the reason he didn't really think about it before is because he never really understood how much it impacted his life. This wasn't like Nana dying for All Might, or Oboro's death for Aizawa, where they never could forget it and clearly understand that it was an event that shaped their current view of the world.

These were random strangers and so most of the time, once he got over his shock from the experience, he didn't think about them. He wasn't constantly reminded by their lack of presence in his life. His life moved on and he's gone through a lot in that time. So to me it makes sense he only recalls it when thinking back to his younger years and is actually seeming to wonder how he even became the person he did.

Now, with reflection he remembered that moment and can see how it effected his outlook on life, and probably influenced his jealously of All Might and his name as a Hero.

I don't think that some of takes where people say he took the wrong thing from incident are necessarily fair. It's true that I believe Enji didn't see the fatherly instinct in that moment and probably took away, instead the helplessness of the situation, figuring that if the father was stronger (the super-human individual he perceived All Might to be) he could saved both himself and his daughter. But I don't think that's necessarily a bad take away either, or even a surprising one given Enji was a young teen at the time--aka a child himself.

Most kids wouldn't look at that situation from a parental perspective--a "I will be the type of parent that dies to try and save my child, and probably more from the perspective of "If that was my father I'd want him to be able to save us". So it's not shocking to me that Enji didn't take away a lesson in parenting from the situation. Also, even as bad as a father as Enji has been, if he didn't freeze up, I'm sure he'd die to save his kids--heck he probably would have died to save Shoto even before his character arc. Just because a parent is willing to risk their life for their child doesn't mean they're a good, non-abusive parent.

As for what all of Enji's self refection means, again, I don't think it's possible to say yet. From what we've seen, I'd say maybe he's turned his weaknesses into his strength--aka his stubbornness to keep going in order to prove himself. At least I hope it is, because this late in the story, that is rushing toward an ending we don't have time for Enji to not move forward with his character development. But we won't know for sure until we see more of what these new revelations mean for/to Enji and how they might effect how he acts moving forward.

#ask #thanks for the ask! #bnha #bnha spoilers #mha #endeavor #enji todoroki #i'm a little confused to given we dont have much context yet #by the framing id say it's a break through #and improvement #but it's kind of vague wording wise at times #so it's more then fine to be unsure what's going on #I'm not sure 100% either

[unbidden-yidden]

Another aspect of this whole shitty discourse that's been driving me insane is that I feel like I can't actually express the criticisms I do have of Israel at all or in an unvarnished way, because if I do, it will get picked up by antisemites and people who want Israel wiped off the map and just be more fuel for the fire. I refuse to be a token and I don't want to hang out dirty laundry at a time when doing that gets Jews attacked and feeds into violent hatred for the entirety of Israel. At the same time, I feel morally obligated to discuss these things, because (a) I care about the lives it's impacting and (b) because I also refuse to be a hypocrite that prioritizes "being right" over the facts on the ground, one of the worst and most common sins in these discussions.

So then I constantly find myself doing crazy math to figure out what I can and can't responsibly speak on, because what if it gets used as a weapon against my people instead of being necessary intra-Jewish tochecha?

#there's also the separate but related problem of never being 100% sure if the facts I'm basing those criticisms on are real #I've posted criticism only to later find out that the underlying ''facts'' were actually lies or taken wildly out of context #this has unfortunately happened multiple times #and not because I didn't do my best to verify them either

[hopeswriting]

was thinking about takeshi and how he's my favorite brand of unconditional devotion btw. the utter and absolute and all-consuming kind that runs so deep to the very core and is so intrinsic and fundamental to it, it can only express itself in the most casual and natural and certain way. without second thoughts, without any room for doubts or for any moral dilemma to be had over it, because of course he ought to always be breathing and living for his chosen person first and foremost. of course he ought to hang on their every word and make them true no matter what, no matter what he has to do to make it happen, no matter what he has to do to other people to make it happen, and no matter what it might turn him into in the process. because it's obviously the way the world should be for his chosen person. at their feet, ready to bend over backwards and break and build itself again to better answer to all their needs even if they don't ask it for it. it's the only right way it should be for them, and of course takeshi's going to do his utmost at all times to make it a reality as much as possible.

and his devotion comes out as naturally as breathing, comes out lighthearted and nonchalant like he might as well be talking about the weather, but it's not unaware of itself. it's not that takeshi doesn't know it's unhealthy and wrong and that he's willing to go entirely too far in its name for anyone's good. it's not that he wouldn't hear you out if you were to sit him down and explain to him just why he needs to tone it down a little (a lot). logically, he'd agree with you and know you're right. and then he'd tell you he's still not going to do anything whatsoever about it. that he's not bothered by it and doesn't feel the need to change anything to his attitude. makes it a point to never let anyone or anything sway him even an inch in the stand he took when it comes to that, no matter how many thousand of times you might go over the subject with him.

because the morality of his devotion isn't the point at all. is entirely irrelevant to it and doesn't affect the way he expresses it all. it's not the metric with which he draws a line in the sand to hold it accountable to. because the thing is, takeshi's entire world revolves around tsuna--tsuna is his entire world altogether, and it's just a matter of fact, that simple. to him it's a truth as unchanging as the sky being blue, and so being the way he is according to that truth is the only way he can imagine being that'd feel right to him. and so the actual and only metric that matters here is "would tsuna be happier if i were to do this?" and/or "is this something tsuna needs me to do?"

and like. i don't think takeshi ever stops being a kind person capable of compassion and understanding and mercy and forgiveness even ten years later once they became mafia through and through. and i don't think either he grows up to be feared and called a monster per se despite the things they inevitably had to do during those ten years (and the things they'll inevitably keep having to do as long as they keep being mafia), at least not in the way, for example, they'll never stop fearing and calling mukuro one. but i do think that among the tenth gen, he ends up being the one with the most ruthless, merciless and horrific blood on his hands of that particular and distinct loving kind. you know the one i mean, right? he comes to be the one most expected and the one first expected to be willing and to take it upon himself to go through with it when the need arises. and to think little of it after, if anything at all. all in the name of making tsuna's reign as easy on him as possible.

and it's to the point where it's the kind of blood that makes even mukuro pause at times. or, when takeshi is the one coming up with solutions himself during meetings, makes even reborn blink. not because it's unjustified or wouldn't be safe or efficient or anything of the sort, but because it is unwarrantedly thorough in its retaliation. and sometimes, at times like this, he's the one tsuna needs to step in for the most, because he's the only one who can reason with him that "yes, this would work in getting rid of our problem" but "no, please, don't do that takeshi". because if tsuna is the only thing that infers on just how much and in what ways he'll let himself be devoted to him, then of course, he's also the only one takeshi's willing to reign himself in for without second thoughts. because he'd hate to ever do something tsuna would disapprove of or wouldn't want him to do. or do something that'd make tsuna see him differently or love him back less even in the slightest.

and it's also like. his devotion isn't an undisciplined one. it's not one he doesn't have control over, the very opposite. it's a very purposeful and conscious choice he chooses to keep making over and over again every step of the way, and he taught himself to have control over it, to know when it's needed and/or wanted, and how much and in which ways it is when it happens, and to keep it down otherwise. and, yes, to also reign it back in at tsuna's request at times when it still slips past his control. because it's all about making tsuna's happiness easier and secure and long-lasting, and never about burdening him with just how committed he is to do that.

so it comes down to this: takeshi willing to go above and beyond and more for tsuna unless tsuna explicitly asks him not to. and to tsuna needing to ask him not to every now and then. and to other people pointing out to him how too many times tsuna's already needed to stop him, and that maybe there's a hint for him to take there. and to takeshi seeing the hint, looking it straight in the eye and recognizing it for what it is and just. deciding it doesn't apply to him because it's all perfectly normal behavior to him. because it's the only kind of behavior that makes sense to him and feels right.

and so—to circle back to my first point—he can only express his devotion as naturally as breathing, so casually, almost like it's something inconsequential and not worth talking about despite how unmistakably it couldn't be further away from being the truth. it's the only way he could have always known how to express it, because, after all, who has ever taken time to ponder about the details and the hows of the way they breathe?

and i, for one, absolutely eat that shit up every time, thanks for coming to my ted talk <3

#katekyo hitman reborn #khr #khr meta #can i even call this one?? well i'm going to anyway lol #yamamoto takeshi #sawada tsunayoshi #i've never been normal about devotion in stories and characters and won't ever be so sorry if this doesn't make sense #also this is not to say the 10th gen loves tsuna any less unconditionally this isn't a competition #it's just me saying the particularities and specificities of the way takeshi specifically does it appeal to me the most #which is one of the reasons why i have such a big soft spot for 8027 #and it's not a problem in their relationship either btw that's also not what i'm saying #like tsuna doesn't mind it and absolutely /does/ reciprocate it 100% #he's just careful to keep an eye out so none of them will lose themselves along the way #also this is within the context of me shifting canon slightly to the left in the way where the 10th gen loves tsuna /so much/ #they could just as well actually and properly worship him as a god and it still wouldn't make a single difference #and me liking to lean into that fully and taking it to extremes and it inevitably becoming some extent of dark #because considering the environment canon makes them express it (the mafia) it's like. well how else are they meant to keep it alive #and make sure it survives through it without giving it sharp teeth and claws and jagged edges of its own you know? #so if you feel like this is some kind of ooc-ness you're not wrong #but also consider: i'm not wrong either <3 #anyway consider also: unconditional devotion running /so/ deep down to your marrow and to your very essence #even in the face of the whole world telling you how wrong it is and how insane and unhinged you are for it and condemning you for it #it still wouldn't so much as make you consider the thought they might have a point #and i genuinely EAT that shit up every time i love to see it <3

[moongothic]

...I... I do not know what on earth compelled me to make this nor why, but I will not be taking criticism at this time

#Moon posting #Break Week is rough y'all #Please I just needed to shitpost a little let me have this #OP Meta #I know this chart is incomprehensible you just have to accept it for what it is #No I was kind of thinking to myself it was kind of funny how of the OG Shichibukai half of them are either dads or borderline dads #And I was like. Can I make a chart of this. Can I make a Dad Chart of the Warlords. #I don't know why I made this nor what to do with this information but. Sure. Let me yeet this out. #Kuma is the Dadliest Dad to Ever Dad in One Piece. Moria canonically adopted Perona when she was little. We love the OG Goth Dad #Crocodad is real TO ME but if nothing else he does have the energy 100%. It's just short of Canon Confirmation at this point #Mihawk is a weird uncle to me. He has no dad energy. This man does not fuck. But he'll look after some kids (Zoro & Perona). Sure. #Blackbeard is like the opposite of Mihawk. He has never looked after a child but I'm sure he has spawned a bastard or two or three #(He may be a father but he is not a Dad) (But canonically as far as we know BB has no kids yet so I'm putting him in Not A Dad) #Jinbei is the new Token Father of the Strawhats according to Oda and so I'm putting him where he is based on that. Also vibes #Law's where he is kind of for similar reasons as Jinbei. This boy is too young to be a dad but dealing with Luffy gave him a few grey hairs #Doflamingo did arguably watch over Buffalo and Baby 5 as those two grew up so he's The Most Qualified in that square #Weevil is baby #Hancock could have Dad Energy in the right circumstances. Like she has THE POTENTIAL #Buggy does not fuck #...Thinking about it I probably should've switched Hancock and Buggy's placements on the chart but whatever it doesn't matter

[chiropteracupola]

No one ever told me leaving was the easy part / I've got to stay away / Leaving you was easy, now I've got to do what's hard / I've got to stay away...

[a tristan for @mortiscausa’s ’march to camelot,’ for the prompt ‘love’]

#em draws stuff #march to camelot #arthurian things #arthuriana #tristan and iseult #BACK ON THIS HORSE AGAIN! it is going to STAY MARCH until I am DONE WITH ONE MORE OF THESE and THEN it may be april #this one was So Very Hard and I'm still not 100% sure on it but it's done and I did it and anyway I like it more than the cei one :/ #I'm VERY pleased with the dragon altho' I can't rightly say where it was that I found the version of the story where there Is a dragon #I suppose it was either in roger lancelyn green or in rosemary sutcliff's 'the sword and the circle' #but having neither on hand at present I cannot exactly Check alas alack #caption lyrics are from 'stayaway' by muna as I was listening to the tiny desk version whilst drawing and I felt it was only apt

[tofuwildcard]

Whump: The Musical Day 8 || Hadestown || Doomed Narrative

#whump: the musical #hadestown #orpheus and eurydice #orpheus #eurydice #greek mythology #artists on tumblr #*runs in over a week late with not-starbucks* #and I'm not 100% sure it counts as super-whumpy either BUT hey the prompt inspired me to do #*gestures vaguely at all of this*

[scentedcandlecryptid]

This goes on for several more minutes before they’re dragged away from each other by their respective team mates. (click for better quality)

sort of a sequel to this but it can be read on it’s own

...well, they did say please

@save-young-justice​ , Ask and yee shall receive! (I too needed this interaction)

#young justice cartoon meets young justice 1998 #young justice 1998 #young justice #crossover #fanart #young just us #young justice animated #dc superboy #conner kent #kon el kent #the comment about the belts is 100% me projecting because of how annoying it is to draw them all #sure technically I could just not and it'd be fine #but it's important #sorry if either of them are ooc #I'm bad at writing dialog #plus I haven't watched the show past the first few episodes and clips online #also for the record #I prefer comics kon's outfit #but it is infinitely easier to draw cartoon conner's #and I respect that

[ihideinbathroomsatparties]

the one who risked everything trying to escape captivity & the one who risked everything trying to stay in captivity

#art #Finding Nemo #Finding Dory #I've just always been so fascinated for reasons with the idea of these two meeting somehow... #also semi-experimental piece bc I was kinda toying with a new shading method in here #and I'm not 100% sure if I've got a firm handle on it quite yet #so I also didn't go super detailed on it either #but like. this piece was sitting unfinished for TOO LONG so tbh it feels nice to kinda wrap it up for now lol

[asleepinawell]

I had the absolutely most surreal ffxiv dream ever last night. I wandered into some random house (unclear why) and it is like the most kitschy cottagecore house in existence and it belongs to. zenos. there is cross-stitch on the wall. lacy curtains. a scythe on the wall but it's for gardening. and the dude himself in just sitting there in his little kitchen on a chair with a fluffy pillow and staring blankly right next to the jars of homemade fruit preserves on his counter

and, like, you have to understand that this is an aesthetic I deeply abhor and already the equivalent of a horror movie for me and this fucker is just sitting there dissociating in his kitchen with his slow lizard blinks while I'm examining his antique teddy bear collection and trying desperately to think of what to say because I can't just leave without saying anything and it was so intensely awkward that I woke up out of sheer desperation

anyway what the fuck

#I was trying to solo his ex trial before bed and I'm 100% sure that's what caused this #but why this particularly? unclear and upsetting #the worst part is I can see him having this house #it's either this or the single white guy empty apartment with a mattress on the floor #if I walked into this house irl I would assume it belonged to a serial killer and this dream just proves me right #ffxiv #ffxivmp #mp #zenos #I should have a tag for the fucked up ffxiv dreams I have I think there's been 3 now #like the laha has a kangaroo farm one #and the ex trial irl in a gerbil infested building #what is going on in critically acclaimed mmorpg my sleeping brain

[everysongineverykey]

i fucking remember when i was like 13 and thought i was fat because my thighs got bigger when i sat down. which is something that happens to 99% of afab people including thin ones. weight culture is fucked actually

#i'm. not 100% sure if it happens to amab people too cause i've never seen it #but either way

[luvsavos]

for how mentally ill i am about monster hunter and shara ishvalda specifically i sure am always noticing new things about them

#monster hunter #mar.txt #shara ishvalda #this is of course a good thing #when i just fought shara a bit ago i noticed that a) they seem to，at least with their front paws，stand on their toes rather than the full #paw (alatreon does this too，but on all paws instead of just the front ones) #which explains why only their back paws have defined paw pads #b) after their eyes open every time they do one of the ground liquefaction attacks you can see mountains/giant rocky spires in the #background collapse; i THINK all of the remaining ones collapse with their first spirit bomb? but i'm gonna check #also i didn't JUST notice it i noticed it the other night but i tested it last i fought them but they seem to Only have their jaw hanging #open when their eyes are open? they keep it closed when their eyes are closed #i'm honestly not sure why，my running theories are either it's some kind of reaction to their light sensitivity or its deliberately done to #be more scary/intimidating looking #but tbqh there is soooooo much about shara that i Do Not Understand. like how the rocks on their face twitch when they have their mantle on #but i am 100% fine with that i do not think shara is Meant to be Understood #god is beyond my comprehension and i am fine with that

[gaykamenridermemes]

#Kamen Rider Agito #Shouichi Tsugami #This was inspired by the repeated CT scans the poor guy has to go through during the Scorpion Incident #I mean I'm not 100% sure that was a CT scanner but it would make the most sense given that they have no idea of his medical history #An MRI would be horrifically dangerous if he had metallic implants they didn't know about. And it's not like he'd know about them either. #Update: It was a Toshiba Xpeed CT scanner. They don't make those anymore I don't think. #Anyway Shouichi's motorcycle counts as farm equipment and in this essay I WILL-

[lieutenantselnia]

I was rewatching AWE the other day and got remembered of Davy's absolutely feral growl in this scene. I have no idea whether it was scripted this way or not, but I'm glad they left it in because honestly - I absolutely love it. and I kind of want more feral Davy now

#I swear there was something more sophisticated I wanted to add to the caption but my brain just kinda stopped working #I don't know why but hearing him growl like that is doing things to me #like it literally makes me feel a shudder running down my back (in a positive way) #also fun fact: I'm not sure if I remember correctly but I think I once watched an interview with Bill Nighy where he talked about- #working on the underworld films and how the characters were basically just constantly growling and hissing at each other- #and he found it absolutely hilarious #makes me wonder if Davy's growl here was actually in the script or more of a spontaneous acting decision from Bill #either way he did great <3 #although I'm not even 100% sure if it was Bill playing him in this scene bc they also had a stuntman for the fights #but I'm kinda assuming he was bc it was rather close up so his behaviour and body language would be more authentic #davy jones #davy jones potc #bill nighy #pirates of the caribbean #potc #at world's end #potc awe #potc 3 #jack sparrow #selniasoriginal

[dayssinceabrandcrossedmarkiplier]

100 days since a brand crossed Markiplier

29/8/23

(Be careful when reading the tags if you're sensitive to, albeit glancing, references to sexual assault/grooming)

#markiplier #someone made a joke about resetting because Mark didn't win a gamer streamy the other night #I skipped watching the award show because I knew Dream would be involved and I refuse to interact with anything that gives him a platform #but when I looked up who beat Markiplier in that category my unease grew #like obviously I'm not going to bring mcyt drama to a markiplier blog #but god it makes me so uncomfortable that a groomer who is 100% unremorseful about his actions was allowed to be a nominee #let alone *win* when genuinely good people who work hard on their channels were in the same category #anyway that's all I'll say about it because this is supposed to be a fun little fandom based sideblog #however I have been on the fence this evening about whether to genuinely go #'fuck the streamys for letting Dream have a chance to win let alone actually walk away with an award' #I'm still undecided and need to check how the winner was picked (I think public vote but wanna be sure) #I'm just mad and disgusted and completely uneasy #either way I wanted to quickly get my thoughts out but now I've delayed the post by 20 minutes by typing so sorry and here you go

[shimmerluna]

WAIT Elle has box braids in s3??? I could cry

I don't think she had bad hair in s1 or s2, but I'm excited that they're actually giving the Black girls Black hairstyles instead of having them wear it out.

Before, it felt like the (all-white, for context) hair department was just ignorant about Black hair, so they put wigs on the Black actresses and only did styles that also work on nonblack hair for their own sake/convenience. This theory was especially supported by the fact that Tara, whose 4c hair couldn't really be styled the same as nonblack hair, wore a twistout that would take literal hours to do every day, but she had box braids in s2! and Elle has box braids now!! I'm so excited!!!

I also feel like this fits her bold, fashion-loving personality so much better than leaving her hair out. Our hair is basically its own accessory, and the long box braids are very feminine. Again, I'm not saying not having a protective style isn't feminine or fashionable (I myself am a fashion girlie with an Afro), but having one is another outlet for her creativity, and I'm glad they're recognizing that now.

#shimmer's thoughts #heartstopper #elle argent #i have heard that apparently black people aren't allowed to have braids in uk schools? which is legitimately fucking wild #although it kinda looks like this had a big turning point in 2022 according to a quick google? but i'm not 100% sure #it depends on how much influence the ehrc has over the government. which doesn't seem to be much #we do have hair dress codes with huge anti-black bias here but no braids usually isn't in there explicitly #or something that's enforced afaik #all that to say it might just be that this happens to be a summer season and that's why their hair is like that #although even then I don't think Tara would be doing a twistout every day #i think slicking takes way less time so she'd probably be doing that if they didn't like afros either #she might though. i don't know exactly why she would do that but she might decide to do that #also to clarify again i'm not saying not having a protective style as a black girl is bad or negative or anything #i'm saying in the context of the hair and makeup team being completely white #and alice oseman being a white person who originally only gave the comic characters wavy/barely curly hair #them not giving them protective(/realistic for Tara) styles was sus. and this is a welcome change #i mean. we haven't seen Tara's hair for this season yet. and they really love that twistout #so maybe i shouldn't get my hopes up yet. but i'll give them their flowers for this at least

[soryualeksi]

I honestly think we've reached absolute Pit Social Media when the images of deceased infants get meme-ed around because "lololol IT looks so stupid IT looks so fake IT is obviously a doll haha let's have some fun here hahaha". And they know dead bodies only from how they're made to look in movies OR maybe open-casket funerals where a mortician worked their ass off for the family to have a pretty corpse to say their goodbyes to.

I. Honestly.

I can't even wrap my mind around how devoid of humanity some people are. All of this has really opened my eyes about the people around me.

Tell them - and they don't even know what death looks like - that a real human person in distress is "actually an actor/a prop/a doll" and they're meme-ing the shit out of anh atrocity.

That's how corpses become internet fun memes. A big party for everyone. Because we're upholding CiViLiSaTiOn here and sHoWiNg ThEm TeRroRiStS.

As a kid, I was stupid enough to ask myself, how could anyone stand by when the Holocaust happen.

Now I know the people around us wouldn't only stand by, they would cheerfully join in AND make socmed memes about it. Because "hahaha those aren't real people, it's all a big movie stage - and if they were real, they'd DESERVE it".

I can't go back to seeing people like I did before.

#yes the current meme baby 100% looks like how malnourished baby corpses can look like #and now we're parading baby corpse pictures around on our socmed to meme about how 'hahaha plastic and stupid' they look #people would have taken fucking selfies at the auschwitz fence #it would have been a meme challenge #baby corpses as funny memes because not pretty and 'realistic' enough #i hope you all get mauled by rabid animals #there is a limit #yes dead people look like this. #and no their eyes aren't magically closed either and sometimes very persistently stay open #but sure have fun meme a little jerk off a little we get it you enjoy this #this is how genocides happen and have always happened #people are ready to go about their daily lives then laugh about dead children of people they consider subhuman then go back to their day job #with ukraine it was already beyond disgusting how people were like 'not our problem let them fend for themselves' #but with Palestinians it's just endless memeing and partying #a Palestinian friend said to me 'the whole world has made us out to be demons' #i don't know whether there is hope for our species when people meme about dead infants #I'm just done #palestine genocide #harm to children cw #child death cw #racist violence cw