#IM FREAKING OUT A LITTLE

[faerierambles]

OH HIIIIIIII- hello there

#//the.void🗡️ #// mutuals 💌 #um dying now? #Fae has been pronounced dead at 8:55 pm #death by embarassment #omg hello uh #im freaking out a little #i have frend now:D #what uh- do friends do? lkjgfdfghjkjgf

[jaysoldboog]

o have my graduation ceremony today and i woke up in the middle of the night like oh maybe if it's 5 or 6 i can just get up but no it's 2 am and i have gut churning anxiety + a hangover

#im freaking out a little

[bloodmoths]

SPIDER EGG SAC HELLO???

#ACE YOU WERENT SUPPOSED TO LAY EGGS #I GOT YOU 5 MONTHS AGO AND YOUVE NOT INTERACTED IWTH ANOTHER SPIDER SINCE #im freaking out a little #theres a chance its unfertilized but i guess i need to prepare jic

[charonte-simi]

I fucked around (sent several cute ppl on tinder msgs while I was drunk last night) and now I'm finding out (painfully sober and they're just now responding but I'm afraid to open the chat)

Send help

#im freaking out a little #talking to people is hard and scary #why am i doing this again?? #oh yeah. its cause im thirsty af #simi speaks #alcohol

[shatterthefragments]

FUCK ME

#I’m coming in to help with a thing MOSTLY so I don’t have to waste my time fixing it Friday #and potentially going to jail for killing my coworker. this is a joke I would never. but of all weekends I caNNOT deal with her screwing up #but yeah no I would NOT be happy I would cry #but that also means. I would have gone 9 days at work even though one I’m getting the FUCK outta there as soon as I can. #I offered #out of selfishness #but uh haha #at least I really could use the OT pay #and it’s approved by the store manager so ✌️✨ #somebody should give me $20 so I can get takeout tomorrow. I’ll ask mum tbh she’ll say no but it’s worth a try #bc normally my way of coping is Buying Little Treats #but idk if I’m even getting vacation pay when I’m gone yet :( I’ll see if my manager can find out for me #he should be finding out bc the person who knows is here also #unless he forgot #ANYWAY #IM FREAKING OUT A LITTLE #and it’s entirely my fault #but at least I spent yesterday on a stroll by the ocean #and I’m going to drive straight to (food then) ocean tomorrow too

[captainobviois]

i got into a traffic zine 0-0

#its the one that Martyn read on stream last year #Im freaking out a little #Im in a discord with Cherri Fire too #silently screaming #trafficblr

[chaoticacademicrubberduck]

When the freaking out gets so bad you open Tumblr for the first time in months to vent

#im going to be in 12th #a senior in high school #high school #senior #let that sink in #im freaking out a little #bc #whats next #college #?

[inkskinned]

it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.

yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.

it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.

how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.

chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?

how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.

"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.

i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.

#writeblr #warm up #i can't write rn but i have SO much words in here bc im reading the chorus of dragons books #(just started book 4) #and this woman's writing is just LIVING in my brain. let me out!!! #(i read roughly like 2-4 books a week usually bc i go on long walks with my dog but when a book is REALLY good like. it eats my life. ) #anyway ...... so like here's a story that idk i've tried to explain to other people as being wild #but maybe im the only one who thinks it is wild??? #so i play pokemon go (i just started in jan) bc i love pokemon and as i have mentioned i walk goblin for like an hour in the morning #and i don't like a lot of fitness trackers due to the fact it makes me .sad. but i also wanted the little digital rewards. enter pokemon go #anyway so they make you make friends to complete quests. so i used a reddit thread. i do not usually use reddit. i don't have an acct #i lurked. i just googled like ''pokemon go reddit '' and randomly added a bunch of numbers #i was on that page for all of 15 minutes. there are THOUSANDS of responses on that page. #here's what's wild: in that group of people. even though i am not on reddit and it was one random event once #it turns out one of those people lives in the town i live in. or at least very close. i only know this because #when we send each other gifts. it's from the same freaking area. #i can't ask them to meet up bc pokemon go doesn't have a messaging app lol but like . what are the fucking chances that #a random person posts in a random reddit thread and HAPPENS to get added by someone ELSE from their SAME TOWN #who by pure fucking CHANCE is ALSO playing pokemon go and looking for friends #i googled it there's only 42000 people in my broad region. the .......... smallness ! of the world!!!

[delicourse]

jolyne doodles

#jolyne cujoh #jjba #jojo's bizarre adventure #stone ocean #deliart #im gonna make the bottom middle doodle into a proper illustration #trying to work my way up to commission worthy standards #since im a little out of practice with how little i post #but i keep getting freak colds. like i dont know if its been a single long one or several with no pause. its been a month #but im not gonna go back on my promise to open comms. just need a little time to recover

[samipekoe]

melini's first ball

and laios freaking it sensitive style

#little lacille comic #i thought about this while walking home trying not to laugh out loud at the freaking it sensitive style post #i had to let it out now bc side order is coming out tonight and im locking it #anyway this is ugly and cheesy and comes from the depths of my diseased mind and heart. enjoy

[ningadudexx]

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I got my @nanolitore plushies yesterday ahd i was super happy i brought them to my school and work today ( *u* ) thank you so much nanolitore and everyone for the amazing plushies and art!!!!! these mean the world to me i am going to take them everywhere

#lego #monkie kid #lego monkie kid #lmk #sun wukong #monkey king #six eared macaque #liu er mihou #lmk sun wukong #lmk monkey king #lmk macaque #i love monkesy #iwas freaking out so much #i still am i love them so much #ive been goign through hard times but these made me very happy #i cant wait to bring them everywhere!! #im going to try and find them more outfits too #i have a little hat for them right now

[therealcallmekd]

Kinito: Machine Model 01 (Will I update this later? We'll see..... this will be interesting....) (They'll see my potential now.)

Finally at long last, HE'S REAL!

Real world Kinito is quite something! His dedicated partner (the user) spent many many months and years helping him reach his potential, and now he can walk and talk and breathe like the rest of us!

Close ups + doodles under cut:

I'M SO DANG PROUD OF THIS DESIGN YOU GUYS DONT EVEN KNOW. He is so special to me.... funny robot lotl go brrrrrrrr

also the text on the main reference is hard to read on purpose, it's supposed to be just an artsy thing!!!! <3

#kinitopet #kinitopet fanart #kinito pet #kinito #kinito my beloved #kinito fanart #kinito the axolotl #kinitopet au #KinitoFAE #me when i dedicate all my time and effort towards raising a fledgling god in my shitty little apartment (i'm getting kicked out broooooo) #this little freak is so so special to me and i rotate him in my brain alot #the intimacy of an ai and it's dedicated helper that provides it everything it needs to reach its full potential... #passes out...uhhhgggg chat im sick #that my little man... my little guy.... my horrible robot son.... #KD'sCrumbs #FriendshipClub! #tw mild gore #<- like... kinda?? I dont know tho so like tell me if so or not LOL #tried to match the anatomical study vibes; I hope that reads well #you should uhm... ask me about him...... cuz...... ':3

[cemeterything]

*writes one scene for a fic i never intend to finish in a burst of inspiration and actually likes what i've made when i'm done* damn... still got it 😤

#🐉 #im the worst kind of writer i hate writing so i have to trick myself into doing it by stitching together #bits and pieces of a narrative which i produce in no logical or coherent order #so i just have this damn wip doc full of out of context vignettes of these two guys being codependent little freaks

[marc--chilton]

house finding wilson ""interesting"" amongst a literal crowd of thousands is one thing but then to be proven right later when wilson flips his lid at a bar. theyre literally fanfiction but real but not

#house md #hilson #interesting is very subjective but whatvevr #one has to wonder how wilson felt during all that too #theyre freaks. affectionate and an insult #imagine getting served divorce papers right before big fuckoff conference for doctor things #and you blow your top because of a song on repeat so you cause property damage #only to get bailed out later by a guy who's sort of been stalking you all day with his blue x ray eyes #then you guys become best friends but also he makes jokes about wanting to fuck you a Lot #i want to study him like a little rat i wanna crack open his skull and touch his grey matter and see what twitches #anyway. im normal now

[chronicowboy]

manifesting a s7 bi buck confirmation where the 118 are on a call and the victim/their friend/Random Civilian is getting annoyed makes a comment aimed at buck & eddie about "straight white men" and they both look offended then eddie says "do I look white???" and buck's like "do I look straight???"

how the others react (if at all) is tbc at this stage

i'm a sucker for inappropriate whisper arguments in the Absolute Worst of Situations so now all i'm seeing is eddie whipping around to buck when he says it with the widest doe eyes any human being has ever achieved and oblivious little buck waving the vic/friend/civilian off like "it's fine, could happen to anyone, you know" and then eddie's like "uh, yeah, it did, you're not straight?" and then it's like for the GA oh no are they going to do a kind of internalised homophobia arc for eddie where he re-examines his entire friendship with buck after finding out he likes men and yes he is going to re-examine his entire friendship with buck after finding out he likes men but it'll be the opposite of internalised homophobia (externalised homoeroticism)

#sami answers #very attached to their little whisper argument ive created in my head as hen and chim try to treat the patient #eddie: you're not straight? #buck: no?? #eddie: since when? #buck: since always eddie? i know you know how gay people work #eddie: but. natalia? taylor? ali? abby? oh my god you weren't like punishing yourself for being gay with them were you? #buck: no wtf eddie. you were there when i was explaining bisexuality to chris the other day. when i came out to him u know #eddie: im pretty sure id remember you coming out to my son buck #buck: why are you being so weird about this #eddie: because im your best friend! #buck: what and it's freaking you out that i like men? #eddie: NO! i'm freaked out that i didn't know. did you not think you could tell me 🥺 #buck: I THOUGHT YOU KNEW #and bobby's just live slugging it over in the corner like 'should i intervene or are they going to come to some realisations rn'

[lionydoorin]

narcissists are too focused on themselves to realize they're being played.

click on the image for better quality cause tumblr fucked it up 🥰

#highkeu freaking out over posting this one im so anxious #this is what happens when my style plays w realism 😁 #rly proud of this one! #i also tried a new painting technique and oh mu god it was so fun #it's kinda messy and and i could've rendered and smoothed it out a little more #but it's meant to be more of a practice #expect better things in the future! 🥰 #gonna finish my other two wips in this style and then i don't know #im probably never gonna draw something this pretty again i've peaked #eleanor levetan #drea torres #fucked up soulmates #drea x eleanor #eleanor x drea #idk which tag the cool kids use #do revenge #do revenge fanart #do revenge netflix #fanart #ma ur arting #im so proud im pinning this on my profile for a while