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graftisms · 1 year

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JOSHUA & JENNY — DAY TWENTY-SEVEN

location : night / before bed / bedroom

featuring : @blondcs

JOSHUA

after a long, hot shower josh is feeling a bit more human, his face no longer hurting so much and ready for nothing more than to curl into bed and sleep it off. the only downside currently is the pretty blonde he shares a bed one, the same one he's been avoiding all night. of course she's in the bedroom already when he comes out of the shower, in fresh pajamas and wet hair. by now everyone's getting ready for bed as well, and it's the audience of the other islanders around him that makes him quietly slip into his side of the bed. that, and he's just too tired to start something right now. whether or not max was fucking with him or not will be a question for them tomorrow. tonight, he just wants to sleep. "hey," he mumbles, laying back in bed, eyes glancing over at her for a second. he's sure she has something to say about the fight.

JENNY

she’s been sat in their bed in nothing but his tshirt and the sleep mask holding her hair back watching him mull around the bedroom, taking his sweet time to join her. he’s been avoiding her, obviously. figured he was with medical services until production let it slip that no, he’s back—has actually been back for kind of a while—and yes, he’s fine. she wanted to rush up to him, gingerly take his face in her hands and kiss him everywhere dejan landed a blow, but something in his expression held her back. some kind of wall he’d put up. maybe with everyone. it doesn’t have to be just her, right? maybe the fight had triggered something—it had seemed pretty traumatic. she just hopes when he finally climbs beneath the covers it’ll all be okay. anticipation coils at his approach, then relaxes along with the mattress as his weight sinks down, finally loosing a breath at his greeting. “hey,” comes her own gentle hello, shifting the pillows under his head that she’d propped up, then sitting up to lean over him, one hand anchored on either side of him. “how’re you holding up? i was going crazy looking for you.” tell me everything, she pleads with her eyes.

JOSHUA

he can't look at her for too long, that doe-eyed plead she gives him only making his stomach churn in annoyance. it's like when she had been immediately begging for his forgiveness at the fire pit, but now with the added bonus of wondering what she's been doing this whole night, mostly with max--if his hands had been on her like josh's would be if he didn't have to think about it right now. he doesn't want to jump to conclusions, but the more he thinks about it, the more sense it makes. why wouldn't she try to fuck him before he left? josh hadn't called him your friend that wants to fuck you at the fire pit for no reason. and hasn't jenny taught him anything about her, if not that she loves a good chase? "were you? i was mostly with production. then i showered. you seemed preoccupied," he says breezily, though that was before he ended up with a black eye and he knows it. "but i'm fine, really. honestly, it felt really nice to do. don't let the face fool you, i got a few good punches in." and because he knows there's no way she'd leave him alone without breaking the touch barrier, his hand lightly rest on the small of her back, nudging her to lay down beside him.

JENNY

from her vantage point she can can take stock of his face, see all the cuts and bruises that pepper his skin and feel her blood boil. “fuck, him.” it bubbles out of her suddenly, fiercely, in direct contrast to the gentle hand reaching out to brush against his split lip, soft as a feather. “i should’ve been there.” not that she could’ve done much of anything, but she could’ve had his back. where was she? this whole day, where was she? her heart rate had only just slowed to normal when it’s kicking right back into gear, fight or flight even as she lays down next to him, too aware of everywhere their bodies touch, something about the natural way they fit together feeling lost in the whirlwind. maybe she’s being paranoid. maybe it’s his injuries, fear of accidentally hurting him with too much jostling or maybe she’s right to think that josh is giving her the cold shoulder. he’d have every right to, though he can’t possibly know that, can he? she’d be able to tell, wouldn’t she? she rolls onto her side so she can face him, way too high alert to even think about sleeping. a tentative hand sweeps through his hair. “are you sure you weren’t avoiding me? i swear, i feel like i was looking everywhere for you. i didn’t know if you were okay or if they were taking you guys to a hospital or if you were getting booted.” a slightly hysterical laugh. “like, i was freaking out a little.”

JOSHUA

no, she shouldn't have. josh isn't upset that nobody had been there to witness his fight with dejan until the tail end, but his eyes can't help but meet hers silently when she says that, as if to say really? he wouldn't have wanted her there, but right now all he can really think about is where she had been when it was happening. where she had been since he saw her leave the fire pit with max. it's easier not to look at her, because he doesn't want to watch her face for tells about whether she's telling the truth or not. from their very first kiss, josh knows jenny is a good liar, and the idea that it's coming back to haunt him now is a cruel irony he's not interested in unpacking. an arm slips around her body lightly, less confident than it normally is. it's more so for appearances for anything; he doesn't want anyone thinking they're not fine almost as much as he doesn't want jenny to worry about it. but of course she does, because it's jenny, so josh's eyes close as if he's already getting ready to fall asleep with the lights on. "you must not have been looking hard enough," he says, easier to be bitter when he doesn't have to see the hurt on her face. "i'm fine, seriously. how was saying goodbye to your bestie?" his eyes crack open for that, watching her closely, doing all the things he told himself moments ago he wouldn't do.

JENNY

she tries not to react but the stillness is a tell in itself, an icing out of her usual expressiveness into something hard. he’ll know he got a good jab in whether she wants him to or not. and sure, he has every right to be upset, she reminds herself, but it’s hard not to jump to the defensive when he’s practically begging her to. “it was really hard, actually,” she admits tightly. “but you don’t want to hear that so we’ll just pretend everything’s totally fine even though you can barely look at me.” her voice is low, the duvet a thin guard between them and the rest of the villa. “you’re not losing your backup plan, josh. i did, and that makes this,” she gestures between them, “really scary when i’m still not even sure i’m not the backup plan.”

JOSHUA

he shouldn't have opened that can of worms with her, the max of it all. josh should've just closed his eyes and complained about his injury so she'd let him have a peaceful rest, and they could talk about this tomorrow when he's not so annoyed. he still wants to, really, considering the best way of shutting it down. but it's the term backup plan that grates him, letting out an exhale of brief pain as he turns onto his side so he can face her, hand slipping off her waist back against his side. josh pulls the covers up so they're more hidden, though not a full cocoon. "is that what you told him, that he was your backup plan?" from the smug look on max's face in the bathroom that josh can't scrub out of his mind, he doubts it. "i'm not an idiot, jenny."

JENNY

a huff of breath enough to ruffle her hair. “obviously i never said that,” she grumbles through a roll of her eyes, scooping up his hand and putting it back. “but i mean, it’s something i had in the back of my mind, yeah. part of me keeps reminding myself that this is a game. and it’s not even that it’s about winning for me. it’s just, to make a connection and find, like, love or whatever i have to be here. i can’t go home.” she tries to angle his face to look at her. “i don’t think you’re an idiot.”

JOSHUA

hand curls around her back when she places it back there, giving her the smallest meeting of halfway. "you can't make a relationship with someone if you're worried about backups the whole time," he points out. it all feels a little too close to being with naomi, the strategy of it all. josh is tired of worrying about strategy, even if he's in bed now, fearing that he's going to have to start. his free hand grabs the one touching his face and nudging it off of him. "did something happen between you guys?" he's only going to ask this question once. he's annoyed he's asking it at all, brows raised slightly. "i'm not in the mood for another fight tonight, i just want the truth. yes or no."

JENNY

“is this a relationship?” she blinks up at him. by definition yeah, they’re two people with a connection. but is it a relationship? he’d told her more than once he wanted to have fun with her, specifically noting he didn’t want to jump into anything serious. they may act like a couple and she may like him—actually like him—but she’d been on the receiving end of too many mixed signals to see ‘not looking for anything right now’ as anything but ‘not looking for anything with you.’ maybe’s are always no’s and despite her inner hopeless romantic, she’s always leaned heavier on doubt. for a minute she can’t imagine anything worse than the cliched ‘what are we’ conversation, but it’s short lived. josh tops it expertly with the worst question she can imagine rolling off his tongue like a blow to the gut. insult to injury with the push of her hand, tucking awkwardly against her side, cold now in the absence of him. the whole bed feels cold. ’did something happen between you guys?’ it’s ice in her veins, blood running cold, though her face feels red hot under his spotlight. asks it point blank too, yes or no, completely impossible to dodge, even for her—can’t exactly seduce him into a change of subject when he won’t even touch her. she’s extremely cognizant of not dropping his gaze, eyes flicking between his in confusion as her mind races for a way to buy her time. does he already know the answer—is it a trick question to sus her out? did frankie say something when she won’t over to chat with him and rhys? will the truth really set her free or will it just dig their grave? she’s not ready to give josh up. her jaw clenches before she looks off to the side, finally shying away from the weight of his eyes. “i don’t know, josh. kind of, yeah.”

JOSHUA

her question makes his face heat up a little, not sure why the forwardness of it makes his heart jump a little in anxiety. it's not like he doesn't know the answer to it. "right now, it's not," he tells her, giving her a look. "we've only been together for three days, jen. but i would like a relationship to come from this," his wrist flicks around, motioning to the whole villa. "if i hadn't wanted to see where things could actually go with us, i'd be sharing a bed with rhys right now." he hates having this conversation right now, when his conversation with naomi just an hour before is so fresh in his head. nothing had happened, rationally—really, he had done far worse the night before with naomi—but it's the promise of the two of them talking tomorrow that makes him nervous. so when jenny confirms that something happened between him and max, josh knows that he shouldn't feel the twist in his gut that he feels at her betrayal. it's what they both deserve, probably. but it doesn't make it any easier to sort through these emotions, even if anger is uncharacteristically not one of them. not directed at jenny, at least. "hey." his voice is quiet, reaching for her face so she'll look back at him. she'll see his hazel eyes softer than they had been moments ago, even if his jaw holds most of his tension. "it's okay. what happened?"

JENNY

“no, no, i know. sorry, i didn’t mean it like that.” like she’s pressuring him to commit right now when she’s not the relationship type either. or, not the relationship type in practice. the idea’s appealing enough, albeit kinda terrifying, but it requires a certain risk and a certain vulnerability that she can’t really stomach. too much of her whole shtick is curated—nail colors decided by tiktok teens who’ve pseudo-psychoanalyzed men’s reaction to reds versus whites, ill-informed advice from greene’s ‘the art of seduction,’ feigning common interests after stalking instagram accounts, little tricks that’ll run out eventually and then what? josh could very well dig deeper and find there’s nothing more there that he wants. it’s strange to have her hands tucked to her chest when he’s right there, inches away, kind of full circle—afraid to touch him again but wanting to anyway. she lets him touch her, though, lets him steer her head toward him even while her eyes resist. the risk feels stupid now that max is gone. stupid and insane and so, so reckless. not shocking though. it’s maybe the most her thing she’s done since massage-gate or fingering herself for maddox—the hyper sexual grasping at straws whenever she feels lonely or needy or out of control. but he’s gone now and any what ifs along with him. just her left to pick up the pieces and pray josh can either forgive her or see his own hypocrisy—she’s still not sure if she thinks max was a horrible betrayal or a right of passage considering they’re not serious.

when her eyes eventually do slink to his she feels any fight leech out of her, completely exhausted, ready to kiss and make up. they clench shut almost immediately. “i feel like i’m losing my mind here sometimes. like, i’m so terrified you’re gonna change your mind and you’re right, it has only been, what, a few days? but i really like what we have. like, i really…” she’s looking up now, somewhere above her head, searching for words to a question he didn’t ask. “i like myself when i’m with you, you know? relationship or not. and i don’t want to get invested and then get hurt.” and what did any of that have to with what happened with max? “so it feels easier to push you away, which is such stupid, dramatic gossip girl bullshit. like, i know it’s not that serious, but it’s already so much more than i expected coming into this.” she curls a hand around his against her cheek. “i know you know i’m avoiding the question, but… i don’t know, josh. don’t make me answer that.”

JOSHUA

even with his lingering feelings for naomi looming over him the past few days, things with him and jenny had been so good. it was bound to come crashing down around them eventually, but he thought they would have more time to enjoy the honeymoon period, however long that was by the villa standards. him and naomi had never really had it, a slowburn of getting to know each other without any real issues. josh and jenny had been the opposite, fast-moving and exciting and now giving him whiplash at how much they've come to a halt in a single night. just earlier today they had been in bed talking about their parents, with josh actually imagining what it'd be like to introduce her to his family. right now he should be getting a celebratory blowjob from her for punching the guy in the face that called her pathetic. instead they can hardly look at each other, hands barely touching. he's never felt this cold around her.

even when he's mad at her, it's hard not to be sympathetic to what she's saying. josh gets it, honestly; when he had told her that she's been his rock, he had meant it. jenny had told her that he was her rock as well, but it's clear now she hadn't meant it. and while he wishes it wasn't being brought up this way, over the pretenses of whatever she did with max, guilt coils in his stomach anyway. "well what about what i want, jenny? like, do you not see how this is just making me not trust anything between us? you're so scared of me changing my mind, but you're just giving me a reason to right now." he wants to move his hand from her face, but with her hand on top of his it's impossible to pull away. even when he lets himself think about max's hands on her, maybe only hours before, lips twisting in disgust. at least he's self-aware that he's being a hypocrite. josh looks her dead in the eye. "did you screw him?"

JENNY

his face pulls more of a reaction than his words. disgust. like the very idea of her right now is completely repulsive, a different energy in this refusal to meet her eye—he can't stand to. she pushes up on one elbow suddenly, his hand falling away as she angles for a better look, face flushed hot. it has to be a joke, right? there's no way it's josh making her feel so... so judged. but she knows the whole routine of this. has cheated before, been caught in lies, had guys find out her body count and fix her with that same revulsion. maybe that's made her sensitive to it, projecting more into the small curl of his lip, giving it more weight, but whether or not it's her insecurity amplifying things, there was still something there to amplify. she doesn't have to be a mindreader to see the train of thought clear as day on his face, that he's picturing her with max, imagination running wild, though the question still comes as a completely. she doesn't give herself a second to process, all her energy going instead toward not standing up and storming off. her brows knit together, eyes narrowing in annoyance. "why would you even ask that?" a hand drags through her hair before landing against her chest, anxiously rubbing against her collarbones. "like, you already fucking know the answer, josh. you do. i know you do 'cause i would've minimized it right away if i could but you're just pushing and pushing because what, you need to hear me say it? so you can feel justified in looking at me like i'm fucking disgusting? fuck."

JOSHUA

if this is the reaction she's going to give, then he regrets asking the question. he didn't know the answer—but also he did, really. he knew it as soon as max's smarmy comments clicked in the bathroom, and jenny's reaction has only been further proof. but josh still wanted to hear her say it anyway, to take ownership of what she did. what he didn't want was to make a scene in the bedroom surrounded by the other couples. as if clockwork, jenny sits up on her elbow and the lights go out to signify the end to another incredibly looong day in the villa. she's being way too loud, all too aware of how close naomi and dylan's bed is beside them. it's embarrassing—josh actually feels embarrassed about being embarrassed right now. "hey," he grits his teeth, before yanking the covers over their head, trying to give themselves the only false sense of privacy that comes with this place. "can we not do this right now? or if we're going to, let's go into the living room or something, because... fuck," he grimaces, glancing away from her for a second. when he speaks again, it's a whisper. "this isn't the place for this." he's not sure which answer he wants from her, both seeming like a lose-lose. what more could they even say to each other right now that won't end in tears? but if they have to roll over and pretend to go to bed right now, he knows they won't be able to do it. "i just got the shit kicked out of me by a professional boxer and had to witness some jackass all but laugh at me after fucking the one person i had here, all in the span of an hour." his words are like a hiss, trying to keep himself quiet. "so sorry if i don't look fucking happy at you right now, because i'm not, and i think i'm allowed to feel that way."

JENNY

there's something reprimanding in his tone, a gruff sort of dominance to his 'hey' that, in spite of everything, sends a jolt through her. it may be the furthest thing from his mind but she's already working to reframe things as he blankets them under the covers—hasn't this entire thing really just been about jealousy? isn't there something a little hot about how possessive he is, even if he can't stand her right now? "sorry, yeah. you're right," she whispers into their cocoon, shifting closer so the duvet stays taut between their heads, not dipping down to block her already extremely limited view of him, just the gleam of his eye and his lips in the dark. "no, no, we don't have to get up, your body needs rest. i can be quiet," she insists, shifting closer yet under the guise of their hushed voices, though half of it is the proximity. a tentative leg is pressed to his. "i just—josh..." his name is like a sigh. what can she even say? "i'm so, so sorry." she wants to say more, but... needs him to go first. "tell me how i can fix everything and i will. i'll do it right now. tell me it can be fixed."

JOSHUA

he's already dreading the idea of actually having to get out of bed to move this conversation to another location, but jenny surprises him. maybe he's just used to arguing with naomi one too many times, fighting fire with fire, so to hear jenny meet him halfway and lower her voice makes him release a breath he hadn't known he'd been holding. she seems to either deflate or slowly mold into him, feeling her against him rather than seeing much of her, a calming feeling. fingers run through his hair lightly before he shifts on his pillow, moving a little closer to meet her halfway. eyes squeeze shut for a second as she asks for him to tell her what to do, as if there's a set of directions on how to get past this moment. he wishes it was just about her fucking max, but his planned conversation with naomi tomorrow is still looming over his head, a giant question mark to match this question mark. jenny's right that his body needs to rest; he feels like he hasn't slept in a year, or at least since coming to the villa. "i just need some time to think about it," he hears himself whispering in the dark, though his arms seek her out, gently curling her to lay beside him. she wants answers that he doesn't have, because she was right about one thing tonight: maybe she is his backup plan. it just hadn't felt like that until tonight. but if this is their last night together, he's selfish enough to urge her closer, carefully tilting her head to rest on his chest. "can we talk about it tomorrow?" he whispers. maybe in the morning he'll tell her about the conversation he plans on having with naomi, but right now he doesn't want to upset her any further.

JENNY

she doesn't realize she's been holding her breath until his arms wrap around her, dragging out a deep sigh that loosens her muscles until she's melting into him. "no, yeah. of course." fingers reach out, linger near his hair a moment with a tentative graze, enough warning to pull away if he wants before softly combing back over his scalp, urging him closer so she can bury herself in his neck. "tomorrow," she reaffirms, the word a breath against his skin, then a featherlight kiss, legs slotting through his. "please don't hate me."

JOSHUA

tomorrow. suddenly so much weight rests on one day, enough that josh would want to stay awake for longer to delay it, if not for the fact that he's so tired. even if he's so mad at her right now, there's no denying how good it feels to be tangled in each other right now, even if josh is trying not to think about anyone else that's outside of the equation. his fingers comb through her hair lightly. "i don't hate you," he promises her, the very least he can give her right now. "go to sleep."

#joshua & jenny ;#joshua ;#joshua & jenny 009

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drjm-slay · 2 years

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jakes heart patch on his pants🥺 and josh’s skull tshirt w the black jeans combo😩

#greta van fleet #gvf #jake kiszka #josh kiszka #kiszka twins

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franks21blinds-blog · 7 years

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guess what came in today???

#josh dun #jishwa #jish dun #twenty øne piløts #twenty one pilots #black #tshirt #wish.com #happy

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rebeccalartfoundation · 3 years

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Textiles 3- Studio work: Disperse dye and Macramé. Homework - Boro/Sashiko

Disperse dyes and heat press

Happy to be back in the studio, we began by being shown how to use the heat press machine and using disperse dye for printing.

To transfer a print onto fabric using the heat press:

- Paint a design on cartridge paper using disperse dye. It has a similar consistency to ink and can be diluted to vary degrees for tonal range. It can also be mixed together to create colours.

-Make sure that the design on paper is completely dry. We used a hair dryer to speed up the process.

-Using the heat press: Sandwich the design and fabric to print between greaseproof paper. Place the design face down onto the fabric or you can place the design first and fabric on top. We used a polycotton for the fabric.

-Make sure the heatpress is hot enough and clamp in place with the lever. Wait for the countdown to finish (usually 30 secs) before releasing.

-Slide or peel the print away from the machine to reveal print. The design will be printed in reverse. (Health and safety- Heat press is hot, take care and do not leave unattended).

Example of fabric printed with heat press.

Heat Press experiments

Print 1 - based using a spider plant leaf as a stencil and painted around it. I then used dye transfer paper on top, which I ripped into similar shapes and layered on top.

Print 2- is of lavender painted with a brush. I mixed colours for the purple and placed ripped dye paper on top. The paper came out darker than expected as I thought it would be a pale blue/purple colour.

Print 1- Experimenting with mark making and diluted the disperse a bit for freeflowing marks.

Print 2- Based on spider plant leaves in studio, replicating veins of plants with different colours.

Print 3- My first ever print with heat press. Using colour and petal from St John’s Wort.

Print to use left over ink- Exploring more mark marking. Paint brush used and twig used for black marks.

Print 1- First print experimenting with dye paper and some scrunched to see how texture would be print on fabric. Some pieces are cut and others ripped.

Print 2- Exploring mark marking with layered dye transfer paper. It reminds me of vintage shirts. I like it!

Print 1- Print based on St John’s Wort plant as a repeat print. Painted with paintbrush.

Print 2- More marking and layered dye transfer paper. For some reason it came out quite light, I believe I might’ve placed the paper the wrong way round (Dye colour facing up instead on the fabric, which resulted in lighter colour).

Print 1- Printing on a fabric found from stash in studio. I believe its a cotton. I wanted to see how the dye paper would come out on a coloured background.

Print 2- Loose painting of St John’s Wort.

Print 1- First test with dye transfer paper. Ripped up paper. Some string got caught while in the heat press and created an interesting stencil.

Print 2- Another unexpected print. I think I placed the blue paper upside down again. Used wood material (possibly used for basket weaving??) on top of dye paper and string. The wood ending up getting partially dyed (dark bit) instead of leaving a white stencil like the string.

Print 1- Print using a twig, (dipped in ink and drawn like a pen). Representing blossoms on branch.

Print 2- First print using spider leaf plant as a stencil. Only painted around it instead of using the leaf in the heat press.

Print 1- Using spider plant leaf again as a stencil and painted around it with yellow and red. Blended the colours together.

Print 2- Dye paper and print with mark making use with brush. This was printed on a thinner polycotton.

Reflection for heat press experiments

It was a lot of fun printing using the heatpress and disperse dye. I had wanted to try translate painterly and illustrative mark onto fabric and this was a great way of producing samples for it. I had some issues using real plant leaves as a stencil as it did not leave a clear impression. Perhaps next time I could put the plant in the heat press machine with dye paper for a better print, similar to what Emma had done.

Some prints I did not like, for example the St John Wort prints when I tried painting the plant semi figuratively- I thought it would be more interesting to either create abstract prints of the plant or a stylized or figurative version. Some of the mark making did not go so well on the first try, particularly using the twig. I tried to make an impression with it but was better to draw with it like a pen.

Some prints I was really happy with include the markmaking with layered dye paper (that reminds me of a vintage shirt), the lavender illustration, the stencil of the leaves with purple and blue dye paper and the colourful lines that represent the veins of the spiderplant leaves. I was also intrigued by the print where the wooden material and string had printed, which created an interesting x-ray like effect.

Overall I was really happy with how most of my prints came out and experimented with different materials and style of painting. Sometimes it came out with unexpected results but I like the element of surprise of how it would print on fabric. For example, I hadn’t expected the disperse dye to come out so vividly (they look darker on the palette) and mixing purple for the lavender came out darker when I thought it would be brighter. I really enjoyed using the heat press and disperse dye and plan to make more samples for our final lesson.

Macramé

For part of the session we were shown how to do Macramé. Macramé is a type of textile that using knotting techniques to create products. It has been used in fashion, homeware and in sculpture.

Sketchbook notes on Macramé and used in different ways.

My macramé practice.

Jill showed us how to do two different types of knotting- A vertical lark head and a half hitch spiral. I really struggled to get the vertical lark head knot right and had to been shown a few times! I did another one in blue by myself as more practice. I found the half hitch spiral a lot easier to do and was pretty cool seeing the spiral form. It also reminds me when we did these in secondary school. Once I got the hang of it I found macramé to be quite relaxing and could be interesting to explore it more. Perhaps with fabric or creating a sculpture with it on a large scale like Judy Tadman’s rope sculpture.

Boro/ Sashiko

L-R: Traditional red Boro Tunic, Josh Blackwell Street Bags- using sashiko stitching on a plastic bag, detail photo of Boro by Jennifer Corkish, Jeans using Boro technique, detail photo of Boro by Helen Terry.

We also learnt about Boro and Sashiko. Boro is a technique that repurposes saved garment pieces and other handspun indigo fabrics. It is sewn together as a patchwork and built in layers for warmth. This art was born out of necessity in northern Japan where peasants made them during the Edo period. (1603-1863).

Sashiko is a style of stitching that commonly accompanies Boro. The stitching can be complex and create different shapes or simple with straight and long running stitches.

Homework

For homework we were tasked to create some Boro/Sashiko samples.

This sample features fabric from an old cushion, tshirt and lace from a bra. I liked the circular design and wanted to try replicate that with stitching. I found it a bit hard getting the length of stitching similar but this was due to not giving myself enough time.

The second sample features fabric from old tops and pj bottoms. I wanted to try different types of stitch, so did a cross stitch. The intention was to have cross stitch all around the plaid material but again did not have enough time. I also wanted to challenge myself and had create a pocket and stitched that into place with diagonal stitch.

The last sample was actually the first one I created and struggled with the most. I had wanted to try create pleats but the tension is uneven throughout. As I was sewing in a rush, I had also caught the wrong side with my stitching and was unable to undo it without unpicking everything. The piece came out a bit crumpled and doesn’t lie flat but was a good learning curve.

Session reflection

Overall I really enjoyed today’s session and to be back in the studio! I loved using the heat press machine and disperse dye to create painterly prints on fabric. It was also fun to use dye paper in a collage way by layering and ripping to see how that would print on fabric. I explored a lot of mark making and used natural materials of leaves and twigs for stencils and mark making. I struggled a little bit with the macramé but once I got it I found it quite enjoyable and think it could be really interesting to use in a sculpture. I found the boro/sashiko stitching the most difficult, making due to not giving myself enough time to stitch. I’ve definitely learnt that with sewing you have to take your time or end up with a poor product/ losing time to mend mistakes.

Going forward for our final lesson, I’d like to use the heatpress again and see if its possible to use the freehand embroidery machine. It would be great to create a sample with the combination as I’ve been inspired by Veronica Cay’s work ‘I hesitate’ (research towards end in a previous post) . I would like to create something similar but with my concepts of plants and mental health in mind and will try achieve that for the last lesson in the studio.

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arobandhan · 3 years

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first time

enjoyyyyy i love you @balenciagastones xx

Since meeting, Alex and Hannah had three small dates, mostly consisting of hanging out together either at the park, on a drive to Costa, and hanging at his house. The two of them had yet to make it official though they knew it was inevitable, they were hooked to each other from the first meeting and there was no sign of stopping what they had.

But nevertheless Alex wanted to take Hannah out on a proper date, one where he can show her how serious he was about their newly found relationship.

He had called her when he knew she was out of class, he had just gotten home from training, it finally being Friday, no weekend game ahead.

“Hello handsome.�� she answered the phone making him smile widely at the nickname

“Hello love, how was class?” he replied

“Boring as usual, got no new work for the weekend tho which is a blessing, howd training go?” she countered

“Well that’s good at least love, training was good just a bit tiring but it's alright,” he began, “y'know i was wonderingggg..” he dragged out making her giggle on the other side of the phone, his stomach erupting with butterflies at the sound.

“You were saying..” she giggled more wanting to hear his thoughts.

“Right i was wondering if you wanted to go on a date tonight?” he asked

“Sounds fun, handsome, I can come over and we can watch movies if you want?” she replied

“No no i was thinking like a proper date… like we can dress up a bit and go out somewhere nice,” he can hear her breath stop, “what do you think pretty girl?”

“You know you don't have to take me anywhere nice for a date baby, i hope you know that.”

“No i know love i just really wanna go out somewhere nice with you and you deserve it after a long week of school,” he started and he could hear her smile, “so what do you say beautiful?”

“Alright I’m in.” she giggled.

“Perfect beautiful, I’ll pick you up at 8? Does that sound good?” he asked

“I'll see you then robertson.” she laughed.

“See you soon angel.”

And with that the call ended, the young couple both climbed up the stairs in their respective homes to get ready for their date night.

Alex felt like a teenage girl as he looked over his appearance about a billion times before calling his sister for her opinion.

“TAYLORRR!” he yelled hoping his older sister would hear him. Next he saw was her opening his door.

“What do you want weirdo?” he turned to her with a plea for help.

“Does this look good for a date with Hannah tonight?”

She walked over to him and got a closer look, pondering before walking over to his closet grabbing his black Palm Angels zip up hoodie and handing it over to him.

“Wear this over your tshirt, it’ll complete the look,” she stated, “oo and wear one of your thin chains tonight, im sure Hannah would love it.” she finished sitting on his bed as she watched her brother finish getting ready.

“Okay, how do i look?” he asked, completely ready.

“Perfect, is she staying over tonight?” she asked making him nod remembering the text convo he had with hannah about 10 minutes before, “Well i'm heading to Josh’s tonight… and mum and dad won't be back from their event till lateee.”

“What Are you trying to say Tay?” he looked at her.

“Just use protection alright, and ask for consent please, I like Hannah for you so don’t fuck it up,” she said standing up, “Alright be safe, love you byeee” and with that she was gone.

Alex looked one last time in the mirror before texting hannah.

I'm gonna head over in 5, see you soon pretty girl xx

Hannah was currently on facetime with Adri showing her how the outfit the two of them picked earlier looked together, she read the text before replying.

okay see you soon handsome xx

“Okay Alex is leaving his to pick me up now,” she said, clicking the facetime call to see Adri’s face again, “how do we look?”

“Damn i have good taste!” Adri sighed happily making Hannah laugh.

“That you do now does it look alright?”

“It looks perfect Han, just pair it with your jewelry and you’re gonna take Alex’s breath away when he sees you.” she said smiling

“I wouldn't go that far with that.”

“Uhhh yes you should tho, from what i know and have heard from you, you have that boy wrapped around your finger, it's only a matter of time he makes it official with you and y’know maybe have a bit more fun with you….”

“ADS?!”

“Whattt im just stating the inevitable, i mean you guys are going on a nice date, you're staying the night at his, and if i'm not mistaken you mentioned that you shaved every part of your body in the shower.” Adri looked at her knowingly.

“I mean yeah i did but it doesn't mean anything is gonna happen, i just like being clean shaven.”

“So the black panties you picked out mean nothing?” Adri pointed out and Hannah began to blush.

“No they just match the outfit as a matter of a fact.”

“Mhmm yeah you keep telling yourself that, just be safe tonight, i know how much you wanna jump him already.” she laughed making Hannah giggle as she looked at herself in the mirror, turning her head to stick her tongue out at her friend.

“We’ll just have to see what happens I guess.”

“Yes we will and you better update me.” Adri responded just as Hannah received a text from Alex.

I’m outside princess coming to the door xx

“Is prince charming here?” adri asked

Then a knock was heard at the front door, Hannah's mom shouting that it was Alex waiting.

“Indeed he is, i have to go love you lots.”

“Love you too, use protection.” Adri finished and hung up before hannah could reply to her comment, rolling her eyes at her friend's words.

She grabbed her overnight bag, heading down the stairs seeing Alex in the front doorway.

“Well don't you clean up nicely.” she flirted making him chuckle nervously, he couldn’t help but be amazed at how beautiful she always looked, especially tonight,

“Have you looked at yourself angel you look beautiful.” he said, making her quickly peck his lips smiling and blushing madly.

“You two have fun.” her mom said as they walked out to his car, Alex had grabbed her overnight bag from her and carried it to his car, placing it in the trunk quickly.

Alex being the gentleman he is, opened the door for Hannah, closing the door once she was seated inside. Running around the front of his car he sat down inside and turned to her.

“Ready to go?” he asked, she nodded her head smiling widely. He leaned over and gave her a proper kiss for the first time that night. “Been waiting for that all day.” he sighed contently making her giggle and grab his hand to intertwine with his.

The car ride was filled with singing to music, banter, and lots of small flirty comments. They soon reached the restaurant and Alex brought her hand to his lips pressing a kiss on the back of it as he pulled into the parking spot.

“Oooo look at you skilled driver.” she teased making him laugh.

“What can i say i’m a man of many talents,” he winked, “wait there imma open the door for you.” he finished, giving her a short kiss before hopping out of the car, opening the door for her to get out, grabbing her hand to help her out not letting go as they walked towards the entrance of the cute little restaurant they came to.

“This place is so cute baby i love it.”

“Im glad pretty girl.” the two of them walked in and a little while later were taken to their table.

Alex pulled out the chair for Hannah earning a small peck on the cheek from her making him smirk slightly before taking his seat across from her.

“So far you have received a 100/10 rating baby.” she giggled making her boyfriend chuckle as they looked at the menu, ordering some soft drinks for themselves.

The two of them had small talk, as well as joking around due to Alex starting a game about guessing what everyone in the restaurant was thinking, the two of them having to keep their laughs to a low volume so they wouldn’t get kicked out.

When their food came they each ate their food, as well as giving the other person a bite when they asked for one, you would never think they hadn’t been a thing for very long due to how they acted. The two of them continued before they were interrupted by an older couple passing by their table.

“Sorry to interrupt i just wanted to come over and say how cute you two look together, match made in heaven i can tell,” she smiled making the young couple melt, “he’s a handsome one pretty lady, keep him close.” she winked before bidding them goodbye. The two of them bursting out in laughter.

“Did you hear that baby gotta keep me close cuz im handsomeeee.” he winked

“She seemed pretty interested in you wanna have her stay over tonight?” she joked making him laugh.

“Nahhh you know you're the only one i want in my bed tonight.” he smirked

“Cheeky boy.” she rolled her eyes playfully.

“Have i told you how gorgeous you look right now.”

“No but please tell me more.” she responded, putting her chin in her hands smiling, joking around but he continued talking.

“Well all im gonna say is i think thats my favorite dress of yours,” he winked, “let me take a picture of you i want it to be my lockscreen, say cheese.” he said pulling out his phone

Hannah smiled slightly seeing him take the picture, you could see the light blush on her cheeks and Alex had never adored someone more, taking a sip of his drink while putting the picture as his lock screen.

“Well since we’re being paparazzi, look at me so i can get a pic of you too, can have matching lock screens from tonight.” she said doing the same as him, he posed still taking sip from his drink, his phone in his other hand.

“How do i look? Handsome?” he winked

“As always.” she responded, putting the picture as her lockscreen.

The check came and even though she insisted they split, Alex paid repeating to her that he was treating her tonight. They made their way out of the restaurant hand in hand towards the car.

“I can’t get over how good you look in this dress.” he said pulling her in closer to his side, wrapping his arm around her waist and pressing a kiss to her temple. A blush creeped up to her cheeks making her smile from ear to ear.

He opened the car door for her and let her in before closing it and climbing in on the other side.

“Is anyone at your house?” she asked innocently.

“Umm no, Taylor went to Josh’s for the night, and mum and dad are at some event for mum’s work,” he replied, “why?”

“No nothing really was just wondering since i hadn’t seen them since last time i was over.”

“Youre so cute angel.” he chuckled

“Well i try.” she laughed flipping her hair.

They eventually reached his house and he climbed out first going to the trunk to grab her bag before coming to her side and opening the door for her.

They both entered the house in silence and headed towards his room, she took off her jacket and heels as he put her bag down and then laid on the bed. She crawled on the bed and laid next to him. He immediately changed positions, moving on his side with his right arm around her waist as she laid on her back. He was slightly above her just smiling like a little boy.

“Whatre you smiling for you cheeky boy?” she giggled.

“Nothinggg just like seeing you in my bed.” he smirked pecking her lips.

“Oh do you now?” she said pecking his lips again.

“Mhmm.” he responded pecking her lips, this time she pulled him by his shirt closer and deepened the kiss.

Their lips moving in sync, her hands going from his shirt to his hair, pulling at it as they fought for dominance with their lips. The two of them completely entranced in each other just contently kissing.

He pulled away first breathing heavily but still so close to her face, their noses touching.

“Be mine.” he breathed out.

“I’m already yours baby.” she responded.

“No i mean be mine as is in my girlfriend, i want you to be my girlfriend Hannah.” and with those words slipping from his mouth hers grew into a smile that could challenge the cheshire cat.

She brought his lips to his for a short and passionate kiss.

“I’d love to be your girlfriend Alex.” pulling away, the wide smile not fading from her face.

He smiled and smashed his lips onto hers again. This time the kiss was rougher, hungrier.

The two of them were no angels, they had teased each other to a point where they had to stop from going further, make out sessions that were ended with images engraved into their brains when they were alone in their respective rooms giving themselves what they couldn’t receive from the other person yet.

They wanted to take it slow, not wanting to rush something that they knew was going to happen eventually. Wanting to be sure of their feelings for one another.

They were sure as hell of them tonight.

Hannah was the first one to make a move essentially leading towards that, placing her hands on his shoulders, sliding the zip up hoodie off his shoulders as it was eventually taken off of him.

Alex then hovered over Hannah once he was rid of the outer garment, his hands immediately went to her hips, their lips never losing contact. The skirt of the dress riding up as his hands grabbed tighter around her hips. He pulled away from her lips, tugging her bottom lip with his teeth inciting a small moan from her mouth. His eyes went wide and her face was red from the blush that creeped up.

“Fuck that was hot.” he said lowly.

She smirked and leaned up smashing her lips onto his again. He leaned them both back down as they continued making out, her hands went underneath the shirt hinting at him to take it off. He did and all she can do was stare at his toned torso. He smirked connecting their lips again, his hands pushing the skirt of her dress up even more, giving him just the faintest sight of the black lace panties she was wearing underneath. She leaned them both up as she guided his hands from her hips to the back of her dress where he could feel the small zipper that held the dress closed, motioning him to take it off her.

He pulled away from her and cupped her face.

“Are you sure you want this angel?” he pecked her lips.

She smiled and replied, “More than anything baby.” and with that she reconnected their lips and go right back to where they were.

His hands went to her back, slowly unzipping the dress down, he leaned back as her hands went up to the straps of the dress pulling them down to show him that she wasn't wearing a bra underneath the dress. He moaned at the sight of her bare tits in front of him. His lips going straight to her neck as her hands went into his hair moaning at the feeling of him leaving a trail of marks on her neck. His hands pulling the dress down her legs as his lips travelled down her chest. Her dress being thrown to the floor as he was exposed to her entire body only being covered by her small balck panties.

His stare made her a little self conscious moving her arms to cover herself but he stopped her shaking his head.

“You're so gorgeous angel.” he said before kissing her again, pulling away to resume kissing her body. His lips finding her right breast, wrapping his lips around her nipple. His left hand massaging and groping the left one, his free hand remained tightly gripping her waist.

She couldn’t help but roll her eyes back in pleasure at the feeling he was giving her from just his lips. He kept his eyes on her face the entire time. His jeans became tighter as he heard the noises come out of her mouth, they sounded like heaven to him. She knew how hard he was getting so she pulled him away from her breasts and brought his face to her, crashing her lips against his.

“I need you inside of me.” she moaned in his mouth making him groan.

Her hands went to the buttons of his jeans and unbuttoned them for him, pulling them down and hooking her fingers in the band of his boxers pulling them down as well. Their lips never parted but he pulled away to full take off his jeans and boxers. Hannah’s eyes never left his body, seeing his hands finally pull down the material that was concealing what she wanted most at the time.

Her eyes widened as she saw it, she wasn’t gonna lie she had imagined what it looked like but she was stilled stunned by it. His hard on slapped the bottom of his stomach when it was freed, he was a little longer than average but definitely had more girth to it and Hannah had to keep herself from having her mouth watering.

“You like what you see?” he smirked, the face his girlfriend had on not going unnoticed by him.

“Mhmm,” she started, crawling towards him and leaning up to kiss him but kept her lips centimeters away from his, “but I’d prefer if you’d just fuck me already.” she smirked pulling away and laying back on the bed, opening her legs for him to come in between them.

“Don’t mind if i do.” he smirked, crawling and going in between her legs like she wanted. He leaned over to grab a condom from his side drawer, opening the packet before she grabbed it from his hands and slid it on him instead of letting him do it. The feeling of her hands on his member making him throw his head back in pleasure.

He kissed her making her lay back as he grabbed his member and ran it through her folds making her whine and rut her hips up.

“You ready baby?” he asked, already lined up at her entrance, she nodded her head and she felt him go slip in.

Her wetness acted as a lubricant as he slipped in so easily. He felt bigger inside of her and she let out a whine as he groaned once he bottomed out inside her. He gave her a chance to adjust before feeling her legs wrap around his waist and hearing her moan out, “you can move.”

He began thrusting slowly inside of her, loving the feeling of her tight walls clenching against his cock. Their moans were bouncing off the walls. Her hands were pulling at his hair as he increased the speed of his thrusts. Her hands had moved to his shoulders, her nails digging into his skin making him groan, his face dropping into her neck, kissing it, hearing the noises she elicited when kissing certain parts, realizing those were her soft spots and began sucking on them to leave marks.

“You feel so good, faster baby, please.” she moaned into his ear. He growled in her before picking up the pace. She was screaming his name in no time and it sounded like music to his ears.

He felt her clench more and more as he kept thrusting. She began to feel the pit in her stomach form.

“Keep clenching angel im getting closer.” he moaned out.

“I'm so close baby, you feel amazing.”

The two of them both reaching their highs together, his hips stilled as he finished and felt her come undone. He pulled out slowly, kissing her lips gently as she laid on the bed out of breath.

“That was,” he started.

“Amazing.” she finished, smiling and leaning up to kiss him.

“Indeed it was,” he smirked against her lips, “lets get you cleaned yeah?” he asked making her nod and try to get out of bed, she winced at the sore feeling between her legs making him giggle and walk over to her.

“C'mere angel ill carry you.” and with that he picked her up and took her to the bathroom. Putting her down as she went to the toilet and he took off the condom and discarded it.

“Wanna shower?” she asked looking innocently at him.

“Don’t have to ask me twice,” he smirked, making her giggle. He turned the water on in the shower and pulled her close to him and inside the shower.

The two of them clean each other, just gentle touches, some tickling and kisses. The two were enamored by each other and felt even closer than they did before.

He couldn’t help the heart eyes he had when he was with her. He stared in awe of her when she was rinsing out the soap from her body.

“I’m so in love with you.” he blurted it out, making herf freeze and turn around with wide eyes.

“What did you say?”

“I said im in love with you, and i know its early but i can’t deny it,” he got cut off by her pulling him closer to her and kissed him.”

She pulled away smiling, “Im in love with you too… boyfriend.” she winked, making him smile.

“That has a nice ring to it… girlfriend.” he replied making her laugh.

The rest of the night came with, her wearing his clothes all cuddled under the covers with him, just chatting away about anything and everything. Kisses were exchanged here and there along with them calling each other ‘boyfriend’ and ‘girlfriend’ before erupting into giggles.

Eventually it became quiet and he looked down at her cudded into his side, fast asleep. He smiled softly before kissing her forehead and turning the side lamp off.

“I love you my angel.” he said before falling asleep himself.

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taetaesbaebaepsae · 5 years

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"You're still my girl, yeah?"

Happy 1000 followers to you lovely beans! I have chosen two requests finally and I thought it'd be more fun to announce and post them at the same time.

I'm sorry I'm late! The request is *drumroll*

Anonymous said to taetaesbaebaepsae

:Hello, can you do something like it’s Jimin and you and someone from your past just came to say hi and complemented you out of nowhere (idk it might be party) and Jimin got super jealous but doesn’t show it until you are back to home together. When you are all alone he immediately starts talking about it during sex and wants you to constantly say that you are his like the sex proves it. But he is not angry with you he is maybe too fond of you? Ps: fuck this imagination i hate myself

A/N: I love your imagination, actually, I’m sweating and in my feelings over this imagine. Park Jimin is our collective boyfriend and that’s that on that, ok? I hope you like it Nonniecakes

Warnings: angst, smut, unprotected sex (condoms are important irl but boring in imagines), tooth rotting fluffy ending

Word Count:1770

Jimin is so excited to be seeing you again that at first he doesn't notice the guy standing next to you.

He'd gotten back from tour a couple days ago and was finally able to meet you for coffee and a smile spread across his face as soon as he saw you.

It faded slowly when you laughed and placed your hand on the guy's bicep.

Jimin tapped you on the shoulder and you turned around and threw yourself into his arms. He glared at the guy over your shoulder but the guy remained blank faced.

"Jimin, I missed you so much! Oh, this is my friend Josh! I wanted you guys to meet for a while now."

You gushed about your friend for a while and Jimin realized with a sinking feeling that you'd talked about him a lot, even telling him when you met, but since you hadn't said a name Jimin had assumed it was a female friend.

He's polite during coffee but he panics inwardly the more he thinks about it, watching closely every time you smile at the other man, flinching every time you touch him while gesturing and swallowing hard and looking away when you give your friend a full body hug to wish him goodbye.

"You look beautiful today, Y/n." Josh says with a wink and a smirk and Jimin's hands close into fists.

He nods goodbye and rushes off, you running to catch up with him.

He's uncharacteristically quiet on the walk to your place, smiling weakly when you tease him about it.

He murmurs that he's just tired but his mind is racing.

"You guys are pretty close, huh?" He asks, and you brighten.

"Oh for sure, he's my new best friend. We have so much in common and he really keeps me company when you're away. He's the best."

Jimin sets his jaw and nods but you don't notice his expression, taking his hand in yours and pulling him quicker into your apartment building.

You're shocked when he kisses you hungrily, pushing you against the door to shut it because he's been so quiet this morning. You thought he was tired or something but he's kissing you like he means it, hands roaming over your back, hips and ass.

You make it to the bedroom, strewing clothes all over the apartment and by the time he throws you onto the bed he's got your breasts pulled out of your bra, worrying your nipple between his teeth.

Your whole body is aching for him but when he bunches up your skirt and impatiently pushes aside your panties, you still his hand.

"Wait, Jimin, slow down..."

You don't want him to stop but he seems off and you want to know why.

His eyes shoot to yours.

"Why?" He whines. "I want you so bad, Y/n, I'm so hard for you," and he puts your hand on him and he's not lying, his cock straining against the zipper of his jeans.

You moan against your better judgement and unbuckle his jeans and slip under his boxer briefs to stroke him.

He throws his head back with a strangled groan and slides his fingers up and down your slit. When his fingers come away wet he sticks them in his mouth and sucks, smirking at you.

"You want me just as much as I want you, baby. No one else can make you this wet this fast, right?"

You notice his choice of words and wonder what's going on with him when he pushes inside you, slowly, pushing the crotch if your panties aside.

You stop thinking, then, because he fills you up so well and you're panting when he fucks you slow and languid, watching your face intently.

"I missed you," he moans and stills inside you. "Did you miss me? Were you lonely? Or did you have company?"

You frown. "Jimin, what's wrong-" you cry out when he snaps his hips back and thrusts back into you, hard, hitting your gspot just the way you like it.

His eyes are dark with lust but also something you can't put your finger on and he keeps talking while he fucks you hard, speed peppered with grunts and moans.

"You wouldn't let anyone else fuck you like this? Ah...you're this hot and wet just for me? You're gonna come for me, huh? You're still my girl, yeah?"

You nod frantically, not liking the uncertainty in his voice but also chasing your orgasm.

"All yours, Jimin, always."

He stills again and you cry out. His eyes search your face, tongue coming out to wet his lips.

"Say that again," he commands in a hoarse whisper.

"I'm yours," you say, staring right back at him. "I'm yours, Jimin."

You purposely clench your muscles around him, hoping to spur him to move.

He lets out a low groan and twitches as if he's desperate to buck into you but he doesn't, not yet, goes down on one elbow to caress your face, staring into your eyes.

"Promise?"

"I swear Jimin, please...I'm yours, all yours and I need you to fuck me, please, baby--"

That's all it takes and he snaps his hips forward, fucking you with short, quick strokes until you're a keening mess beneath him, arching your back and locking your ankles around his hips.

You cry out his name when you come, black spots at the corners of your vision.

He's not far behind, hair damp with sweat and falling into his face.

"I love you so fucking much, Y/n. I missed my girl so bad. Don't forget me when I go away again. You'll wait for me, yeah? You love me?"

His voice is hoarse and almost desperate so you nod again.

"I love you so much, Jiminie. I belong to you and you belong to me, yeah?"

He nods frantically, looking almost relieved as if that's what he needed to find his release and after two or three strokes he pulls out with a loud groan and shoots thick white stripes onto your bare breasts and stomach.

He instantly pulls off his tshirt and wipes you hastily and you're far from clean but it isn't uncomfortable when he lies down beside you, forearm over his eyes, panting.

He keeps his forearm over his eyes when he speaks, voice hoarse.

"I want you to tell me everything."

"Jimin, what are you talking about?" You ask tiredly, placing your hand on his bare chest.

He twists toward you, face serious, eyes dark and wet.

"I love you too much to let this end things, but please be understanding. I'll try not to get mad, but I need to know every detail."

"Jimin, what do you mean?" You're confused and worried.

He takes in a shaky breath and runs a hand through his hair, sitting up with his back against the wall.

"I need to know how it happened. I need to know exactly where he touched you and where you touched him. Did he make you come? Did you moan his name? Did you-Did you even think about me?"

His voice breaks and you scramble up, straddling his lap and hug him tight and you're horrified to feel tears on your neck when he buries his face there.

"No, no, Jimin, stop..." You croon, trying to reassure him with tears threatening at the backs of your eyes.

How could he not know how much he meant to you? You must be the world's worst girlfriend.

Jimin misunderstands and he mumbles against your neck in a broken voice.

"I'll go crazy if you don't tell me, Jagi, please."

You pull back and kiss him hard. You scoot back off him so you can see him clearly and he watches you miserably, eyes following you as you sit between his thighs, hands on his shoulders.

"Park Jimin, I would never, ever cheat on you. No one laid a hand on me and I would never let them."

His eyes light up with hope but he's searching your face.

"Don't lie to me, Jagi, please. You talked about him nonstop for weeks and I saw the way he looked at you..."

"He's just my friend, Jimin! He's the shoulder I cried on when I missed you so bad I couldn't breathe, that's all. And I hope he's not looking at me like that because his fiancee would beat my ass."

Jimin ducked his head, smiling finally, and you let out a sigh of relief.

"You swear? You really waited for me? You're really mine?"

"Of course I am. I haven't even so much as looked at another guy that way since we got serious."

He looks at you for a moment and then throws himself at you, making you squeal as he ended up on top of you, your head hanging off the edge of the bed as he kissed your throat.

"Oh, thank God! You scared me so bad! you're not allowed to be that touchy with your male friends ever again, ok?"

You're giggling as you bat him away when he nips at your collarbone.

"Get off me, you big jealous idiot! I can't believe you thought I cheated on you!"

He sits up, allowing you to and pouts at you.

"I'm sorry, Y/n, but I was gone so long and after this morning I couldn't stop thinking about what might have happened...I was going crazy. My heart hurt so bad!"

He grabbed his chest dramatically and you smiled at him.

"Talk to me next time instead of just jumping my bones and maybe this won't happen again, dummy."

He smirks at you. "But it makes me feel better to jump you first and talk about it later."

You roll your eyes at him but he's all smiles and pouts and you can't be mad at him after he got so upset.

"I need to tell you I'm yours more often to make you believe it, I guess."

His eyes widen.

"Yes," he breathes, "every day, Jagi, please."

That night while watching a movie, while he's playing with your hair absently and you're dozing off, you turn to look at him.

He looks down at you with a fond smile.

"Your girl needs you to take me to bed, Jiminie, I'm tired," you say sleepily, and he cradles you in his arms and lies down on the bed with you.

Just before you fall asleep you whisper, "I'm yours, remember?"

Jimin strokes your hair and watches you sleep for a while before he drifts off, wondering how he got so lucky.

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hutchhitched · 4 years

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Everlark Self-Inteview

Okay, this spiraled out of control. My apologies. Here are some thoughts on this fine Friday.

I posted my first Everlark story in September 2013. I still feel like a newbie in the fandom.

Fanfiction is a creative outlet for me. Some days the muse is strong and feeds me. Some weeks/months it does not. I am never trying to put someone off or delay posting. I know that doesn’t make the wait any easier or shorter.

Be kind to others. We’re all trying.

Edit your story before posting. Typos drive me crazy. Please let me know when I have one. I always go back and fix them when I find them. (Also, read more links are your friend.)

New people come into this fandom every day. It’s intimidating. I’ve been here a long time, and I still feel like no one knows who I am. Find out the history of the fandom, but you don’t apologize for being new. I, for one, am happy you’re here.

The rest of the interview is under the cut. Also, my past interview is here.

Writing process:

Do you outline?

This is going to come up a lot, but the honest answer is it depends on the story. I’ve been writing for a very long time. I’m in my early forties, and I wrote my first story when I was in second grade. Every story I write has its own voice and method and process, but one thing is similar. I’m a thinker. I don’t always write down an outline. I’m a procrastinator, which is code for, “I think about things until I’ve got it organized in my head. Then I’ll write.”

That said, there are some stories that have pretty elaborate outlines. Too Familiar has an outline now, but it didn’t when I started it since it was only supposed to be a one shot. Always Rivals has an outline. End of Love has an outline. All my completed JHutch and Joshifer stories had outlines. I know District 14 and Code Name: Mockingjay need outlines (and am procrastinating on making them). When a story gets long(ish), I end up needing an outline.

Do you use a beta?

Again, it depends on the story. I used to use a beta for everything I wrote. @myusernamehere and @jennagill and @cheeks-and-white-tshirts and @xerxia31 have all been regular betas for me. A few others have looked things over. Now, I tend not to use a beta, although @xerxia31 still glances over a lot of things for me before I post.

Good betas who will tell you if your story is crap and/or needs development or whatever are the best and absolutely amazing. I am super grateful for them. The reason I stopped using one every time is more for timing reasons than anything else. I’m a procrastinator, so asking someone to beta when I’m up against a timeline just isn’t fair to those who are volunteering to help me. Also, I’m a pretty good proofreader and editor, and I’m usually fairly confident about what I want to do in a story. I’ve typically talked out the plot with someone beforehand, so the chapter by chapter beta-ing isn’t needed the same as it used to be.

Do you post right away?

Almost never. Drabble challenges, yes. I’ve actually whipped out some @talesofpanem stories in a couple of hours and posted, but that’s only because of the deadlines. I tend to let a story sit for a while and edit a few times before posting it. It helps catch repetitious words and typos I wouldn’t catch otherwise. I don’t want to post something half-assed because I don’t want to read something half-assed.

I’ve posted one story that was completed before I started. It was a Josh/OC story, so nothing from Everlark. However, that will change with the two @fandomtrumpshate stories I’m writing. Both will be complete and shared with their respective bidders before I start posting to tumblr and AO3. I’m also trying to use this month’s Nanowrimo to finish some stories (or get a big jump on them), so posting time between chapters isn’t so long. I understand people’s frustration. I really do. I’m trying to be better.

Story questions:

Where did the story come from?

Too Familiar—I’ve put this out there before, but here it is again. I was in grad school, and another grad student and I met and clicked instantly. He was married. We became the best of friends and ended up falling madly in love with each other. I honestly believe if soulmates exist, we are it. The hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life is give him up. Eventually (after I moved to Houston), we cut off communication. I talked to him for the first time in eight years last month. He still loves me. He’s still with his wife. He thanked me for the sacrifice I made by letting him go. It is a terrible, awful, horrible situation, and there is no happy ending for either of us. In the story, I tried to give Everlark one, even though it’s messy and complicated and some readers hate both Katniss and Peeta in it. But it happens. People don’t always do things the right way, and that’s what I was trying to show in the story. Sometimes love isn’t fair or right or moral or good. Sometimes it’s painful and raw and means breaking the rules—at least in fanfiction.

Sole Beneficiary—I had an ex-boyfriend who worked nights. He and I still really liked each other, and I was lonely and stressed out in grad school. I used to go over to his place after morning workouts and climb into bed and cuddle with him. He was all sleepy and warm and teddy bear-like, and it was really comforting. It was also really confusing, which is what the story’s about.

Cattle Show—I used to show cattle when I was in 4-H. There was a family from a neighboring town with three brothers. The middle one was named Brett, and he was one of the kindest, sweetest, most gorgeous creatures I’d ever met. His family owned a registered farm with a logo and everything, and my family rented our farm and didn’t have the money to invest in outward appearances. Still, those nights at the fair were some of the best of my childhood memories. Sleeping in the cattle trailers (and me in the bean truck) and hanging out after it was dark and a lot of people drinking and people sneaking off together all happened. I was younger and much more innocent, but those three brothers were always in the middle of it all. Brett was always kind to me, even though I was five years younger and kind of on the outskirt of things. He passed away a few years ago in his early forties, and the world is a darker place because of it.

Which was the easiest to write?

Of the three, Cattle Show is lighter and more fun. It’s also the one that doesn’t really skirt the boundaries of acceptable moral behavior. Because of that, people have accepted it more readily even though the others have gotten more attention.

What is your favorite part of the story?

Too Familiar—I just wrote the exchange between Madge and Katniss, and that was A LOT of fun (and probably not what people are expecting). However, I think my favorite part was when Peeta confesses how he feels about her for the first time and then is absolutely mortified when he does at the end of chapter 1 and beginning of chapter 2. He’s so vulnerable, and she’s so stunned and angry. It’s kind of beautiful and simultaneously heartbreaking.

Sole Beneficiary—I love this line: “I swear someday I’m going to say no to you,” he growls and tugs my clothes off. “Someday I’m going to realize I’m a fool for letting you use me. Someday I’m going to find someone else.”

Cattle Show—There’s some drunk Peeta in there, and I adore writing drunk Peeta.

Were you shocked or disappointed by the reaction the story got?

Too Familiar—Not exactly. It’s gotten a lot of attention on AO3, and not all of it’s good. There are some readers who hate both main characters and say there’s nothing redeeming about either of them and no excuses for their actions. I’m not really sure why they keep reading the story, to be honest. It disappoints me that the story I’m trying to tell about gray areas is being read in black and white terms.

Sole Beneficiary—Not for this one. I’ve been really pleasantly pleased that people seem to want more. I get more requests for this than any other story. I don’t really know why it’s so compelling to so many, but I’m appreciative of the reception.

Cattle Show—I’m always a little surprised when someone tells me this is their favorite. It kinda flew under the radar, so when it comes up, that makes me happy.

Future plans:

Top tier priority—Too Familiar, Three Months, Maybe This Summer, Float Your Boat, Playlist: Home, Hold It

Second tier priority—Always Rivals, Code Name: Mockingjay, Influenza, Sole Beneficiary, District 14

I’ll get to them eventually—Extended Office Hours, The Cipher, Mother of Pearl, Bullseye, We Wish Real, High Society, Go With Me, Hope Boldly, The Doppelganger, The Worst Day, Small Town Secrets, The Cry

#everlarkselfinterview #everlark fanfiction #hutchhitched #i rambled a bit

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matsislander-blog · 5 years

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We found love in a Bar

“Hey could you do an imagine with Josh Anderson? Anything is fine really I just love your writing! And Josh lol thanks!“ -anon

I’m finally home from vacation, so I’m going to be answering all of the requests in my inbox! I hope you guys enjoy :)

Word: 1488

Warnings: not edited

It all started when you decided to download tinder. You don’t know why you did it. You were bored, and maybe looking for some fun, so why not? You were swiping through guys left and right, when you landed on a guy named Josh. He was extremely hot. With fluffy brown hair, and soft stubble on his face. You looked through more of his pictures and realized that he was a hockey player, and played for the Columbus Blue Jackets. You couldn’t believe a guy who looked like that was on tinder. You immediately swiped right on him. You were surprised to see an alert pop up, “It’s A Match!” Your heart started beating so quickly, you were so excited. After about an hour, you received a message from Josh, just a simple, “hey :)”. You continued to talk until Josh had asked you on a date the following night. You didn’t think too much of it. He was a professional athlete after all. He was probably just looking for a quick hook up and then you’d never talk again. But, you agreed to the date, wanting to go out and have fun.

So that’s what brought you here. In your bathroom, getting ready to go out on a date with Josh. He told you that you’d be going to a local place called Little Rock Bar, where there’d be karaoke. You thought it was a good first date, as it’d be easy to keep a conversation going, and there’d be some entertainment if there was any awkward silence. You continued to get ready, nerves starting to shake you a little bit. Just as you were having second thoughts, your phone buzzed. Josh: “Hey, I’m on my way! I’ll be there in like 10 :)”. Too late now, you thought to yourself. “Ok, see you then :)” you responded. You decided to wear light denim jeans, with a white bodysuit, that showed some cleavage. You were really feeling yourself tonight, so whatever the outcome was, you really weren’t too concerned. You checked your phone and saw you only had a few more minutes before Josh would be here, so you started to put on your shoes. You were nude heels that had one strap over the toes. You went to grab your purse, and then heard a knock on the door. You opened the door, and there was Josh. He was standing there, hands in the front pockets of his black jeans. His biceps showing through the white tshirt, and blue flannel he was wearing. When you opened the door, he turned and look at you and smiled. “You look amazing.” He said. “You don’t look too bad yourself.” you said with a small laugh. He smiled, “thanks, you ready to go?” You shook your head yes, and shut the door behind you. He put his arm out for you to hold while walking down the steps of your home. You happily accepted and held onto his arm until you reached his car. He opened the door for you and helped you in, then walked around to the driver seat. The ride there was filled with conversation about your lives, your families, etc. The conversation flowed so easily it felt as if you’d known each other for months. You tried to remind yourself not to think too much of it, as this is probably a one time thing.

Once you arrive at the bar, you both walk up to the bartender. You both order a beer, and then find a table in the middle of the bar to listen to the people participating in Karaoke. “You gonna give it a go?” you ask Josh, winking at him. “I don’t think so, you’ll definitely never want to talk to me again if you hear me sing.” He laughs, taking a sip of his beer. An older man walks onto the stage, and points to the two of you. “This song goes out to all of you young people in here. I hope you can all find love in this bar tonight. ” He says. You and Josh both look at each other, laugh awkwardly and look back to the man. He begins to sing Love in a Bar, by Ryan Hurd. Other people start to stand up and dance. Josh moves his chair closer to yours and whispers in your ear. “Wanna dance?”. You look at him and laugh. “I don’t think you’ll wanna see me again if you see me dance” you joke. He shakes his head and laughs, “lets go” he says as he stands and extends his arm for you to take it. You accept his hand and stand up. You both walk to the dance floor and he puts his hands on your hips, yours finding his shoulders. You both sway to the music, and Josh pulls you closer. This feels very different than just a “hook up” date. It feels more intimate. “You look incredible tonight” he says into your ear. “You’re so outta my league” he says. You blush. “I think you’re out of my league Mr. NHL” you joke back. “no, seriously. Look at you.” Josh says, looking at you with admiration. As you’re about to answer back, the song ends and everyone starts to clap. Josh takes your hand, leading you back to the table and ordering more drinks. You both spend the night laughing at drunk people singing Cardi B, Justin Bieber and The Backstreet Boys. You and Josh sitting side by side, his arm slung across the back of your chair. You’re starting to feel a bit buzzed, so you take the bit of confidence and rest your head on Joshs shoulder, and put your hand on his leg. He looks down at you, and wraps his arm around your shoulder, pulling you into him, kissing you on the head. Before you know it, it’s 2 am and the bar’s closing. You can’t help but feel sad because this means the dates over. You aren’t ready to say goodbye to him. As you’re walking out to his car, he wraps his arm around you shoulders.

“Do you need to be home anytime soon?” he asks. “no” you look up at him, wondering what he’s thinking. “we should do something” he says, looking down at you. “Like what?” you ask laughing, “it’s 2 am”. “let’s get something to eat” he suggests. You nod in agreement and slide into the passenger side of his car. As he’s walking to the drivers side, you can’t help but smile and feel so happy that he doesn’t want this night to end either. There’s minimal talking in the car, but it’s a comfortable silence. You arrive at Denny’s and just as you’re about to walk to a table, he pulls your hand back. “We’re getting this to go” he says. “why?” you ask him, thinking he changed his mind and wants to drop you off. “I have an idea” he says, giving you a slanted smile. “ok….” you say, looking confused. You both order and sit on the bench waiting for your food. You have your head resting against his shoulder, and his arms wrapped around your shoulder again. You look up at him, “what’s this idea you have?”. “You’ll see” he says, standing when the waitress brings over your food in a bag. “Come with me” he says. He leads you back to his car, and starts to drive down the road. He pulls into a parking lot, and you realize that you’re at the beach. You look at him and laugh. “why the beach?” you ask him. “It’s a nice view to look at, and it’s relaxing. He gets out of the car and opens the trunk. “Come here” he says, while he opens your door, holding his hand out. You step out of the car and go to the trunk. You both sit on the edge of the trunk and begin to eat your food. Looking at the beach, and listening to the calming sounds of the water. “beautiful” Josh says quietly. You look at him, expecting him to be looking at the water, but he’s looking at you. “it is” you say, smiling at him. “I’m talking about you” he says, blushing and looking down. You bring your head up from leaning on his shoulder and bring your hands up reaching for his face. He looks over at you, and leans down slowly, letting you pull away if you don’t want to. Your lips meet and he sighs in relief. He puts his arms around your waist and pulls you as close to him as he could. You guys continued to kiss for a couple of minutes, when he pulled back and rests his forehead on yours. “That old man was right.” Joshs says. “Right about what?” you ask, a little confused. “I did find love in the bar tonight.”

#josh anderson #josh anderson imagine #nhl #nhl imagine #columbus blue jackets #columbus blue jackets imagine

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manabingu · 5 years

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Metrocon 2019!

Hey yall sorry I haven't been as active, I was busy literally every single day of Metrocon and I finally got a breather. Anyway I wanna just summerize what I can remember because I don't wanna completely forget these wonderful memories. I wanna look back at em over and over again 💕

THURSDAY:

Thursday was the 5 year anniversary of my Gundam Wing cosplay group! I got to hang out with my Metrowing buds and we did a nice photoshoot with the pilots and we had so much fun! I miss them dearly cuz they live out of state but the time I had with them is one I always cherish.

I pretty much spent the whole day with them and I decided that Thurs/Fri would be autograph day for us. By golly the VAs were all so super sweet. All of them loved the candy and the pictures I made for them and as I predicted I got really emotional and kinda cried in front of Luci Christian cuz she is one reason I wanted to VA. Her range is insanely versatile! I legit would call her the Meryl Streep of anime & she was SO kind to me ;///;! When I started crying she said "Don't ever apologize for being real. You're a very sweet person, & I believe in you, there is always room for everyone in this industry ❤️"

And man I just felt so happy at that. She makes me feel confident and I wanna keep trying my best. Same with Josh, Alexis, David & Kara! They were all super encouraging and OmG like ok I think I astral projected when Josh did Armin's or Yuri's voice when he was signing stuff. I teared up QwQ I love his energy and dedication!

I think one of my fave moments during the autographs was when I made the "I'm gonna Bertell you what I Bertold him" joke and David and Josh absolutely lost it xD! They were like OMG WE NEED THAT AS A TSHIRT FOR DAVID XD! Like "You just got BERTOLD" and then they proceeded to make jokes about how he roasted Armin in many ways xD it was hilarious 😂! But oof.

I spent most of the Thursday browsing the Dealer Room and this is was one of the first times I was able to find new Takanori Nishikawa CDs so I bought some that I don't have TTwTT I was so happy! We ended the day by doing a run through of our performances for Anime Idol with Trowa. And it went really well🎶Also, at the cosplay booth, the staff liked my sis' Clear Card Sakura so much they asked her to enter the cosplay hallway contest and I'm so proud of her cuz this her first cosplay ever ^u^- she looks so cute! And many people wanted her pic all weekend :D

FRIDAY:

As usual this is Anime Idol day and I was super busy prepping. I was a bit more confident now that I finally had performed in front of a test audience. But as usual I am always still nervous no matter how much I prepe. Luckily for me in the morning I was getting last minute autographs and as I was getting Darker Than Black signed by Luci, I commented on Anime Idol and she said break a leg! I had given her an Ochaco mug as a gift which made her SUPER happy 😊! I felt much more confident after that and I went to the Main Events hall happily soon after.

Anime Idol was really fun this year! There was some nervousness from the contestants but we all just got together and made some fun friendships! I'm so proud not only of Mama Trowa but also of the other contestants I mentored or was able to help feel less nervous. The winners did deserve it! It was a very good act! And as for myself, I advertised a bit and got some new people from the toku community to come watch the show! I even saw a Kamen Rider Geiz cosplayer who came to the show it was AWESOME! My bffs who were only there for Friday also came & a few Golden*Star members too I was just so happy and thankful! They really made my day! My bffs were dressed in Ghibli heroines and OMG they were lovely & we did a small Tik Tol together ^_^ it was fun!

After the show my new Golden*Star member came up to me and I legit almost cried cuz they were SUPER adorable and kind and they had prepared a Cecil Ajima merch box for me saying thanks for allowing them to join and that they look up to me as a mentor and friend and I'm so happy I had waterproof eyeliner that day cuz oh boy that hit me in the feels 😭! I love! I got them back tho, for initiation I got down on one knee and gave em a flower bouquet,haichews & a golden star balloon as a way to welcome them to the Utapri cosplay group! So now we have a lovely new Tokiya 😊 yay!

SATURDAY:

Ok so despite loosing one prop, Saturday was really fun! I finally debuted Poppy Pipopapo and I basically used the entire day to find video game character cosplayers and we got to dance with them! I was shooting a music video for People Game for Kamen Rider Ex-Aid Abridged ^u^! Everyone whom I asked to dance with me was excited for it and it was a blast! I loved being able to spread so much fun and positivity as Poppy :) it was a dream cosplay come true! I can't wait to pit the vid together ^^🌸💕🎼🎵🎶! Later at night, I ran into my new friend who is gonna be Tokiya (they were dressed as Eiichi & their bud was Kira from HE★VENS!) we spent a good 2 hrs taling about all our future plans with Golden*Star and their other friend was so impressed with how friendly our Utapri group was that they wanted to join ;w; it was actually really sweet💕

SUNDAY:

Was THE BIG DAY AT LAST. The very first time my Utapri cosplay group Golden*Star Cosplay would finally have our first meeting/photoshoot together as ST☆RISH & QUARTET NIGHT! And it went flawless like a dream! Guys, omg I hit a milliom dollar jackpot. I love this group so much 😭! Everyone was on time, we all worked together so well, the photoshoot went perfectly! And we livestreamed it! After the photos, we sang Reiji a Happy Birthday 🎁 cuz it was his character bday the day before & I bought cupcakes and fried chicken for everyone xD! Cuz that's what Shining Live said happened fffff. In the most complimentary way, I feel like this cast is so on point, we are all pretty much our characters xD! I thought managing an 11 member group would be too hard at first but we have all grown so close over this year & we all have so much love and respect for one another, we all just felt so natural hanging out, as of we had done this for years ;U; ! It was lovely!

We tried stalling saying goodbye cuz we didn't wanna leave ;///; but we had to. We are still planning to watch Maji Love Kingdom as a group when SentaiFilmworks gives the green light for theatrical releases. But for now we will work hard to make HolMat even better! I love them all and can't wait to keep working together to make more wonderful memories! See yall next con!

#Metrocon 2019 #metrocon #Mana's lief #GoldenStar Cosplay #metrowing 2019

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