#LOVE the karina pc like what is going on there ???

[aemoonie]

my aespa pulls!!!

#i'm ngl i wasn't super thrilled about pulling gi but hey now we're here #no ningning pc yet which sucks ass 😔😔 #but i got my favorite photo of her as a mini poster 🤩🤩 #one album is still about to arrive to imma pray for that one #esp bc it's the ning version of the digipack #like if i don't get ning there then what's the point 😔😔 #also idk what to do with the pre order posters 😶😶 #so yeah i'd say it was an okay deal here #LOVE the karina pc like what is going on there ??? #it's so weird #also why did i pull triple rina and gi?? #are the pre order albums assorted??? #bc that kinda sucks i'm ngl #i need diversity 🌌 #also i know there is a low chance but if anyone want to trade my giselle inclusions for ningnings i'd be very happy to swap <3 #just shooting my shot i know my girl nings is popular 😔😔 #( 💭 ) !

[jensettermandu]

six feet under - yu jimin

genre; smut, angst, hurt/comfort

pairing; karina x g!p reader

content; despite the title there's no character death (it's just for metaphors) , unhealthy relationship; lack of communication , difficulty dealing with acceptance/reality , unintentionally hurting e/o , smut; p in v :D , unprotected sex , top karina/service bottom reader , oral (reader giving) , slight breast play , some praising

synopsis; it had always been said that nothing stays the same, it had been said ever since they were little kids and that acceptance of it was important. it helped move forward because dwelling in a past that no longer existed did no one any good. to hang onto something that didn’t exist meant falling to the deepest parts of hell willingly because no matter how much it hurt it felt like it was worth it the second they looked back at what it used to be.

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It had always been said that nothing stays the same, it had been said ever since they were little kids and that acceptance of it was important. It helped move forward because dwelling in a past that no longer existed did no one any good. To hang onto something that didn’t exist meant falling to the deepest parts of hell willingly because no matter how much it hurt it felt like it was worth it the second they looked back at what it used to be. 

The silence could almost be dreading, it was so loud that it vibrated through their ribcage. It was so loud with their thoughts that they had no clue what to do. Love could be so many things, couldn’t it? It also meant that love got mistaken a lot of times too. It could make a bed feel comfortable, one they would always want to be at the end of every night, but it would always feel cold with spaces bigger than the ocean even if they were just an inch away. 

At times it felt like acknowledging the damage would only damage the rest of the world too if it was brought up. It was for everyone’s best and they could silently try to fix the damage with minimum casualties around them.

They both fell blind and only realised that they forgot to do something about it when they were dragged out of the daydreams and brought back to reality. The daydream that was the past was what made Y/n look away from her monitor once her eyes fell on the time at the bottom corner. She slipped the headphones off of her head, loose bangs falling over her forehead as they no longer were held back by the gear and she turned the chair around. Her eyes fell on the bed that was empty despite it being 0:30 AM. 

Routines changed, but they stayed. 

It had become a game of avoiding the other to not bring up the actual problems. Y/n indulged in her video games the whole day so they could avoid even looking at each other. She hadn’t spared Jimin a single glance but was now looking at the empty bed with sentiment filling her veins heavily. She deeply inhaled, trying to fill her lungs with oxygen to air out the sadness and hang on to the hope of stitching the torn back together. 

It was harder than it looked though when she had no clue how to put together a world that had been caught in a landslide and pulled them apart. It was all drifting apart, burning bridges they couldn’t stop imagining still existed. All they did was stand and look at it happening because there was nothing that they could do about these new feelings. 

She placed the headset onto the desk and reached over to the power button on the PC, her index finger coming in contact with it. Y/n pressed it and still deep in lamentful thoughts she held it for a while longer than needed before letting go. 

Just as she stood up the door opened and her tired eyes landed on Jimin whose gaze immediately was drawn to Y/n despite how far away they were. It was time to let go, but all that heaviness caused by the thoughts of finally mending their worlds and leaving the one they had built together in the past was hard to get rid of. There were so many reasons that told them to let go, but so many that told them to stay because of what once was their everything. 

“I just have to take a quick shower.” Jimin nodded at that as she stepped inside the room, leaving the door ajar as she knew what it meant. It was too cold to fall asleep beside each other on the bed, it was too uncertain of what they should do in the familiar sheets. It was easier to fall asleep alone, but it was difficult to sleep fully through the night if they weren’t both in bed at the same time. 

It had become a routine of leaving to let the other fall asleep before getting in bed too. The shower felt agonising, unsure if she had been in there long enough or if she should stay and continue to ponder. Everything around them still felt the same, but on the inside everything was different. Was it because of how suddenly it had happened? Was it because it was scary to let go of something that used to be all their comfort, scared that it was their only comfort after being it for so long? Was it because of how much they still had for each other? 

What if they got lost and became wanderers once they would let go of each other and would end up walking life without a goal to reach?

The shower felt like the only place where she could ponder now since it felt like it was too much to cry in front of each other. That would mean that they would have to talk about what was wrong and what they had to do, to do the things they weren’t ready for. The past felt so worth holding onto despite the feelings of the future never looking like they imagined. 

It was like every other time when Y/n walked back to the room, she quietly opened it, stepping inside the warmth and the comforting scent of Jimin that lingered in the air. Was it because all these things still brought her warmth and comfort? Her eyes landed on the bed that wasn’t empty this time, but would still feel cold once she settled in it. Never did they do it intentionally, but it had started happening at some point and there was nothing they could do to stop it. 

She couldn’t just not care, she always did and always would as she threw her black hoodie onto the backrest of the swivel chair she had been sitting in earlier. It merely made a sound when it landed on the chair and she walked a few small steps over to the edge of the bed where Jimin was lying. 

It had become a new routine to just stare at Jimin from a distance while trying to figure out what exactly was wrong between them. She had always adored the girl whether with words or just by looking at her from across a room, but this was different despite the adoration. This always made her eyes look a certain way, a way that whenever Jimin caught Y/n looking at her she could tell what she was thinking and Jimin found herself leaving to wipe away her tears. 

So Y/n was crouched down right by Jimin who was asleep on the bed, her head tilting as a small frown adorned her features in thought. The longer she thought the more it all felt like a pipe dream as her eyes lingered on the girl's soft features Y/n adored. The white duvet pulled up to her chin and the younger reached over to Jimin, gently grazing her fingers over the tender skin. Nothing about it had changed, it still felt as good as it always had under her fingertips. 

She pushed back some of the loose strands away from the sleeping girl’s face before she pulled her hand away fully, scared that she would wake her up, that Jimin would pull away from her touch, that they would both freeze and then go back to pretending. 

Y/n sighed at the feelings she couldn’t decipher anymore and her forehead rested on the edge of the bed for a few seconds as she closed her eyes tightly. Her fists clenched and so did her jaw to shut out everything, the landslide wiped away from her mind, the future too, the past stayed as she fished for the answers from the burning bridge. She was utterly confused, she was so lost in that field where everything had burned to the ground. 

Where did it all go? When did it all disappear?

She deeply inhaled and raised her head, shakily letting out her breath, doing it slowly to not wake Jimin up. Her fingers peeled at the cover, the small bear coming into view that Jimin was hugging–it was Y/n’s childhood plushie, but the comfort that it had held once had been transferred to Jimin. She had no clue if Jimin had transferred it further or if she still held onto it. It felt too cold at times, but they were still hanging on to the daydream.

“Goodnight, angel.” Her fists gripped onto the sheets as she left a ghost-like peck against Jimin’s soft cheek while standing up before climbing carefully over the girl to lie down by the wall. Y/n got under the duvet and laid on her back, staring at the ceiling that was empty while her head raced with thoughts that would make falling asleep so much harder. The itch to hold each other, but the fear of it not feeling the same anymore kept them at a distance and so the ache grew, but the silence didn’t dissipate. It was loud enough to mask the sounds of the heartbreak. 

Jimin heaved a sigh, her eyes opening in the silent room, knowing that Y/n was lying just behind her, but she wasn’t able to feel her. The simple peck, the brush of fingers against her skin, the goodnight, the innocent pet name; all made her eyes burn hot in the freezing weather that the room was in. It made her stiffen up her lower lip to try and keep them at bay, clutching the little bear harder, burying her nose into its brown fuzzy fur. 

Each time she blinked her eyes its fur soaked up the tears, being the only witness of them, the only thing wiping them for her, holding her sorrows inside its small frame. She was afraid that it would overfill soon enough, that the bear would turn salty and bitter from her tears, and that it wouldn’t want to give her any more comfort because of that. She longed, but they flew apart and she couldn’t figure out what exactly she longed for as Jimin felt just as lost and confused about everything as Y/n was. 

Was it all broken or just bent? She had no clue, Jimin didn’t even know what exactly it was that was wrong. Or maybe she knew just what was wrong, but pretended that she didn’t?

It echoed in Y/n’s head after the alarm had gone off around 6 AM and she had turned it off–their last rehearsal before they were off to Tokyo, Japan. What their mornings used to look like kept replaying in her head, the sounds of them like an echo of silence now because they no longer happened. There was no room filled with giggles despite it being early at dawn or noon. No words that were sweet affection were exchanged between them. There was no holding each other, hugging, kissing, and just being there with each other, close and content.

Neither could remember the last time they had said an ‘I love you’ to each other. 

It used to be always in the mornings, before bed and throughout the day. 

It made Y/n exhale while turning to lay on her back as they slept with their backs turned to each other. She tiredly stared at the ceiling unable not to look over at Jimin whose back was still turned to her, it was like a big ice wall fell and blocked them off. ‘It’s fine’ kept repeating itself in Y/n’s head as she pursed her lips and grabbed her phone to see that the time still flew and didn’t wait for them. It did not wait and they were wasting time away from each other when they could be making it meaningful. 

The footsteps outside were heard now and Y/n knew that they didn’t have more time to sit and wallow in their sorrows of holding onto something that wasn’t there. 

“We have to start getting up.” The girl mumbled just to make sure that the first alarm had managed to wake up Jimin. It did for Y/n because she hadn’t been able to fall into a deep slumber because of all the thoughts.

It was harsh, it was like a strong tornado carrying all types of feelings in it came through the room and cut through Y/n’s skin. “I know, Y/n.” The softness was gone and Y/n bit her lower lip because despite it all they hadn’t been like two snakes around each other, ready to bite and leave venom any second. They hadn’t tried to make it sting more than it already did, but it seemed impossible to do for too long. 

The younger still caught the sweet scent of Jimin that made the moment slightly less bitter, reminding her of all the good times when she’d be drowned in the scent. The duvet was thrown off of Jimin who got up from the bed, grabbing the hoodie from the chair on her way and all she left behind was a whirlwind of unspoken emotions after leaving the door ajar when she walked out. 

Y/n grabbed the little bear that fell beside her and stared at it, looking for answers in the tears she knew that Jimin was shedding every night. She pretended that she didn’t hear it, that she was asleep, that she simply didn’t know that she was making the girl cry. It was easier that way and in the morning she would look at the bear and still get no answers. She couldn’t acknowledge her silent cries because they would have to do something about everything if she did. 

Practice went as usual, almost as usual for the two of them. They both wondered if the rest had noticed their lack of communication and how they occupied themselves with the others to not make eye contact by accident. If they did notice, it wasn’t like any of them would comment on it since Y/n and Jimin’s relationship wasn’t their business. 

It didn’t even seem to be Jimin and Y/n’s business anymore as neither of them spoke about it. 

Still half panting, Y/n sat on the couch with Minjeong as the two got engulfed in the Nintendo 3DS Y/n had brought with her. There was an emptiness that she hadn’t been able to grow used to, she had become so used to having someone always right next to her for the past three years. It wasn’t constant clinging to each other, but even the small things such as brushing their legs or glancing at each other. The loss of that made a void grow bigger each second and the only thing that would fill it was if things went back to how they used to be.

It made Y/n wonder if Jimin felt the same and so she glanced away from the game, her eyes landing on her girlfriend. She was so used to it so she wasn’t sure if it was Jimin specifically or just a habit that was hard to let go of now, all that affection. The girl was busy talking to Aeri and no matter what they were doing someone’s back was always turned to the other. Y/n’s hoodie-clad the girl’s upper body and Y/n tilted her head, thinking about how maybe that was what brought Jimin the comfort of having someone next to her, just the warmth and scent. 

Their confusion about the situation was what made it hard for them to get back to the intimacy they used to share.

The door opened and Ning walked in with their manager, catching everyone’s attention as it got noisier when they started to all converse while making it to the couch. However, Y/n looked back down at the 3DS to occupy her eyes with something for a few more seconds to not try to figure out where Jimin would sit this time. 

Aeri was about to sit on the wooden floor, her eyes seeing the lone spot left beside Y/n as Ning was already on the floor by Minjeong’s legs with her drink and one of the pastries. Jimin made sure to insist that she could take the spot, but it still left her in an awkward spot on the floor by Y/n’s legs. Her shoulder brushed against them, bumping into each other constantly and she couldn’t bring herself to sit still, especially not when all the emotions were bubbling inside her. 

She couldn’t remember being this emotional before. 

How else was she supposed to be when everything felt out of control and she had no clue what to do? There was nothing she could do no matter how hard she tried to catch everything only for it to slip right through her fingers. 

Jimin wanted to cry when she took a sip of her drink and something just had to top it all off when her order seemed nothing but wrong. Everything in her life was crumbling, she was in pure distress and despair. However, things only could get worse–they had yet to reach the bottom–and not better because among the cold there was always a warmth as she tried to stop the pout on her lips while staring at her drink. 

Jimin felt like a puddle of water in the middle of the road, no one appreciated them and walked around them and all they did was harbour filth; filth being these feelings that only grew bigger, the mess of a puddle becoming bigger too. 

She looked up at the hand that took her drink, her glossy eyes meeting Y/n’s for a split second. 

The younger felt a heat shoot through her body, it was as if she broke a limb at the pain that she felt seeing Jimin actually harbour these tears and not just cry at night when she thought that Y/n was asleep. It hurt her chest, she cared about Jimin, and she knew that she always would because before she became her lover she was her best friend and member. Maybe that's why it hurt even more. Y/n had no clue who she lost in this silent war they were stuck in. 

Was she losing a lover? A best friend? A member?

“You can have mine.” Y/n knew her, Jimin hated it because it made everything even harder and Y/n could see the way the tears grew as quickly as a high tide in the girl’s eyes. She looked hurt, she was hurting, they were hurting, but they continued to do so without saying anything. Why could Y/n tell from a certain pout that Jimin wasn’t satisfied with her food or drink? Why did they have to be so caring for each other? It made cold things warm and they had no clue why things were cold to begin with.

They didn’t want to lose it.

She took the iced green tea she knew that Y/n loved and the younger took her drink. All it took was a sip of it and it all got overwhelming once again because the thoughts didn’t stop crashing inside of her head, exploding and occupying every corner of her mind. It made her wonder if Y/n was busy thinking the same things throughout her whole day too and the thought of being the only one to do so hurt immensely. 

“I will be back–restroom.”

The girls hummed, going back to what they were doing as Jimin excused herself, leaving everything behind her and she wished she could do that with the reality that she didn’t want to live in. It was haunting her. 

She missed the days when her biggest worries in a relationship were that the promised forever wouldn’t be long enough and not that everything had possibly dropped dead like flies around them, that the forever would never happen. It was a painfully slow dance in a burning room that neither of them left just to see if they could still survive once everything had crumbled fully and the smoke had filled their lungs.

Y/n knew that letting time pass would be too painful to sit through. Nothing was waiting for them. Even if it meant a bigger gap, she gave her 3DS to Minjeong who continued on the game while Y/n had become a pawn in a game no one was controlling. It was a game of chaos no one could cultivate anything out of, no order, no logic, no helpful solutions. This was a game of walking a thin line of nothing and everything. 

It was too tiring, walking inside the bathroom felt like getting locked in the confines of a place where no one would ever find her, no one would see her. No one would see if Jimin broke down in the bathroom and it made relief wash over her and the tears spilled like a broken dam. That was all it took and she tried to calm down, but it wasn’t possible as she turned on the faucet, letting it run to drown out her snivels and deep breaths. 

It was exhausting to be crying almost every day, she didn’t know what sleep was anymore and all she lived for was sorrow, she lived to continue hurting. 

Why did they make something simple so complicated? Love was what made it complicated. 

She used the pads of her palms and wiped at her eyes while tilting her head back and letting out a shaky breath. It felt like there was no calming down from this and each second only made it worse. The silence despite the running water, the echoes in the tiled bathroom, and the stalls empty. 

Jimin could still remember all the other times she had been crying in the same bathroom when everything felt like it was all for nothing because she couldn’t feel fulfilment despite her achievements. She could remember the way her girlfriend would end up in the same bathroom, coaxing it all out of her, taking all her burdens and carrying them for her. Could Y/n do the same thing now when they both were in the same shoes?

Everything reminded her of Y/n except Y/n herself. They both felt distant and like different people. 

Even the light knock on the door was familiar and she took in a shuddering breath, turning to look at Y/n when she opened the door. It fell closed right after, her hands in the pockets of her sweatpants, restricting herself from all those instincts that always kicked in. Her eyes followed the hesitance that was clear in Jimin’s body that pulled to Y/n, but with so much trouble as she held the sleeve of the hoodie against her trembling lips. 

“Come on,” Y/n mumbled, knowing that it was all that was needed to get the girl to just break down fully. “It’s okay to not be okay,” she mumbled as she wrapped her arms around the girl’s shoulders who shook in her arms. The hot tears were burning against her pale skin, wetting her neck, trailing down and spilling like they never had before. Her cheek rested against the side of Jimin’s head, pulling her closer to her body, into her warmth because it was all still the same, but it felt different. 

What was it that exactly wasn’t okay? It wasn’t just them themselves, but them together and it ended up making both of them not feel okay. 

Jimin tightly wrapped her arms around Y/n’s waist, crying into her neck. She got pulled closer, her head being cradled by Y/n’s hand. All of it made it impossible to hold the walls up, the ones that were supposed to show that she wasn’t as bothered by it as she truly was. In reality, Jimin could barely breathe through it without falling into a panic attack. Hearing Y/n’s words, and hearing that it was okay made it so much easier to let it all out, especially when she was with the girl and held by her. 

The reassurance that it was okay to cry about the landslide made it easier. Y/n recognised the burdens and Jimin wasn’t alone.

“I’m sorry for how I took it out on you in the morning.” Y/n only hummed, holding her close as Jimin had been a rose with its thorns aimed at Y/n since they woke up. From the harsh words to the ways she blatantly shut her out even when it was a small question not to her girlfriend but to the leader of Aespa. Jimin was scared and it was affecting her role as a leader too, as a member of the group. The fear was consuming her life fully and was getting in the way of everything. 

“I’m just so tired and I can barely sleep at night.” Or maybe she could sleep just fine but chose to cry at night instead of closing her eyes. She woke up more tired each day, every little second got more exhausting than the other. 

“I know, I’m sorry for all of this.” The younger knew all about it, but what she didn’t know was what exactly she was apologising for. Y/n knew that Jimin was crying at night because of what was happening between them, but she knew that it wasn’t her fault or Jimin’s. It was natural, it would have happened at some point, right? Y/n inhaled, closing her eyes because it hurt her, but seeing how much it affected Jimin made it hurt so much more and it made everything more complicated. 

“We can’t keep going without knowing where it’s all heading. I’m confused and–” Y/n stopped her before they got too deep into the truth because neither of them was ready to let go just yet, neither wanted to end it just yet. They needed some more time, some more time to find more than just one option to end their pain. There always was more than one choice. 

She pulled away from Jimin, her upper body lingered with the warmth that the shorter girl left after her. Jimin gripped at Y/n’s sweater, knowing that once they let go they would be apart for what would feel like years again. The void between them would become even bigger than it already was and they would avoid it for much longer. 

“I care about you, nothing will change that and it’s all fine, Jimin.” She held her face cupped in her hands, tears hitting her skin as the girl looked up at her with quivering eyes. They knew that these false paintings of their relationship would make them feel better for now. Not in the long run, but they tried to live in the present–it didn’t matter if they reminisced and avoided the problems of the present. 

Jimin blinked her eyes, trying her best to run into the daydream, trying to escape reality. Her eyes closed, hoping that she would be thrown into her daydream as Y/n kissed her forehead. 

She missed the pretty sunset sky, the fireworks, the green grass, the clouds that came in different shapes and would be fluffy. It was like a childish dream and possibly some people had been right when they said that young love was complicated. It wasn’t like they cared, they had always felt like teenagers in love with each other. 

Why wasn’t it working though? Where did it all go? It no longer felt like a daydream. It no longer felt like it used to do. 

It was so difficult to grasp something that physically wasn’t there, neither of them could grasp it, at the feelings. Love was so beautifully painful the way it painted them with all these different colours. The canvas would always be filled with them and to the eye it would always be beautiful but to the souls that served as the canvas it would always be heaven and hell. Among white there was blue, among blue there was green, among green there was red and it went on. 

The daydream was constantly corrupted by the harsh reality. 

It was like walking a tightrope.

The smallest mistakes felt deadly.

The stupidest mistakes.

It would be laughable if it weren’t for the fact that there was so much on the line. 

It was part of the social culture and Y/n had happened to fall victim to it because a few cigarettes had turned into a pack or two a week. What were her reasons? Probably all that went on in her hectic life, but it hadn’t been easy to sneak around with an addiction. It got especially hard when the dorm arrangements changed because she and Jimin got together. 

Y/n had managed to sneak around for a whole two months. All it took was one week of sharing a room with Jimin who gave up on pretending that she didn’t notice the lingering smell of tobacco on Y/n and slowly herself. 

‘Fine, I will quit for you.’

‘Not for me. For yourself and your health.’

‘Doing it for you makes it easier.’

‘Only if you don’t start doing it again. It will hurt to think that doing it for me wasn’t enough.’

‘I promise.’

Even the simplest promises were being broken. It felt all the more hopeless.

It was hard, to say the least with starting to dose down on how much she smoked until it was nothing at all. Y/n had never thought of herself as someone who grew addicted easily, but nicotine turned out to be a bitch and even a year and a half after quitting the cravings came back. There were certain times when they were extra tempting, it made her irritated and restless. It was times like these that she always had her substitutes for them, from nicotine patches to nicotine gum or simply Jimin. 

This time it felt like Jimin was the cause of the cravings. 

The world around them no longer felt real because of how they had surrounded themselves in a fake reality. 

“Did you slam the door in my face?” Venom, that was what Jimin spat out, pure venom behind her words as she locked the door to the green room. The rest were out and talking to their label mates, but it was better to make sure they didn’t walk in if they came back earlier. The last thing Jimin or Y/n wanted was for the rest to notice that everything around them was crumbling, that it had all become a smoke screen. 

Y/n inhaled deeply, rummaging through her stuff, ignoring the clatter as she was on the brink of losing it. “I didn’t and if I did, it wasn’t intentionally. I had no fucking clue you were behind me.” It was a low mutter, but it was just as poisonous as Jimin’s tone which had been louder. At the back of her head, Y/n had been expecting Jimin to be right behind her, she was the whole reason why she was buzzing with cravings. 

“You slammed it in my face and an apology wouldn’t hurt you, Y/n.” Jimin had no clue why she was letting it drag on. She could have dropped it, she was aware that Y/n didn’t know and even if she did, Jimin knew she deserved ten more doors slammed closed in her face. 

“You want me to apologise?” Y/n snapped that easily and it had never happened between the two of them–the cravings only made it worse together with the tension of constantly being on their guard not to let anything slip past them. 

They never really fought to begin with. All those small fights that never meant anything, that never held any real frustrations, it was different now. Those pent-up emotions came out and spilled right over the head of the other. Y/n wanted to throw it at Jimin because her girlfriend had been doing it since they landed in Tokyo. They were being petty for the sake of being it and not for any good causes. Y/n tossed the stuff onto the table, ignoring the even louder clatter of the things and continued to look through her stuff. 

“Called manners.” She commented. It was like she knew that something so simple would irk Y/n more than she already was, especially in this state.

“Oh, so Karina wants to talk manners.” Y/n huffed and turned around, leaning back against the table. Her arms crossed as she gripped onto her arms, hiding the tremor in her fingers as the anger and everything else was overwhelming. She hated fighting with the girl, but it felt inevitable when they were alone in the room with so much tension already lingering between them. 

The past couple of fights they’ve had been nothing but hurtful with no apologies after, pretending it never happened to begin with. 

Jimin’s eyes squinted at the words, Y/n barely called her by her stage name even when they were on stage. Hearing her bring it up was enough to let her know what Y/n was pointing at.

Jimin was falling under the pressure of juggling work and a relationship she could no longer figure out. It had never been a problem for them, but she felt like she had failed her role in the group by letting personal conflicts get in the way. 

Nonetheless, it would be impossible to admit to now when they were in an argument that grew by the second. 

“Don’t comment on my work ethic when you barely have yours under control. You’re being sensitive.” She argued, knowing very well that she had been letting her complex emotions and confusion about where she and Y/n were heading get in the way of her professionalism. 

“You’re the one crying over a door.” Y/n scoffed in disbelief, pointing at the door in question that was behind Jimin. The girl pulled on the strings of her hoodie in frustration at Y/n’s words. It only fueled her on, she couldn’t remember being able to get this angry with Y/n before, she had never thought that she could get angry with her. Or maybe it wasn’t anger that she felt towards Y/n, but just frustration because of how confusing their relationship had turned. How dead it was. 

Maybe she was angry at herself, at the world, or at how confusing love could be. She was angry at the fact that they let it die to begin with. 

“Because you slammed it in my face!” This time she let her voice fly way above what she imagined she would, her foot stomping down in frustration. The tears welled up in her eyes so easily, that constant haunting fragile mentality as everything was hurting and it didn’t let her breathe. 

“Because you are doing a shit job at being a leader!” Y/n watched Jimin pace around, watching how desperately she tried to get rid of her tears. Those tears of frustration, not knowing how else to take it out she yelled at Y/n and cried, but there was only so much that could cover her tears now. 

“Don’t comment on my work ethic, Y/n.” She repeated and found herself in front of Y/n, it almost felt dangerous to be so close to each other at a moment like this. It was scary because they had never had these fights and being so close to what used to be just comfort felt wrong, it felt wrong to bring these feelings into their safety net.

It ruined their purpose, the place they went to when they wanted to escape these feelings, the pressure, the world. It was all truly gone, wasn’t it?

She could feel it all spiral, leaving them with no control over what happened between them in the room.

“Someone has to when you forget how to separate relationships from work. Be a fucking leader and answer a fucking question instead of shutting me out because of our personal life.”

“It’s not easy when this is what it looks like!” She threw her arms, motioning to the mess they were together, the one they both had been avoiding because of how complicated it was. It was hard not to notice, but impossible to truly acknowledge and so it all mixed into everything else.  

“Nothing is ever easy for you, is it? That’s why I always become your punching bag when things go wrong.” The words left Y/n bitterly, her hands gripping onto the table behind her as she exhaled these deep breaths that helped with nothing. Watching Jimin with tears in her eyes wasn’t helping, but Y/n felt like the girl had been trampling all over her. She was using her title as a leader and girlfriend in a nonchalant way, she was neglecting Y/n as a member and not a lover. 

“That’s not true and you know it.” Jimin knew that it was all true, her tone faltering as she would feel even more guilty if she raised her voice to spit out lies. It hurt too much to say the truth of the situation. 

“It has been even more true lately,” Y/n muttered, her eyes leaving Jimin’s. 

It felt like the woman in front of her was trying to coax her into forgiving her without Jimin having to apologise. Y/n was done doing those things. She couldn’t put it all aside like all the other times when she accepted Jimin’s apologies she never even said. The ones where Y/n blatantly admitted to being wrong even when she wasn’t because she didn’t want to fight or see Jimin cry.

“Because–because—” Now came the difficult part for Jimin who had no good excuse for this and she knew that she was wrong. The problem bigger than this one was her pride and ego, they got in the way, especially now after how tense everything has been.  

“It doesn’t matter. Nothing is changing.” It made Jimin’s heart drop, Y/n’s stomach twisting at her own words that she never wanted to say. It was what it felt like though. 

She gently grabbed Jimin’s shoulder to have her step aside as she stood up to walk out the door. 

“Don’t say that.” A quiver fell from between her lips, a lump in Jimin’s throat that cut deep and made it all bleed much worse than it already was. Her hand grabbed Y/n’s to have her stay because, in the end, she didn’t want her lover to leave, not just yet and she quickly stopped in front of Y/n. She would never accept those words, not now at least because hearing them made her lightheaded, it made her chest clench and she wanted to collapse onto the floor to be swallowed before she could feel more pain.

“Where’s our manager? I need her to buy cig–”

“You’re not smoking just because things go wrong for us!” It wasn’t possible to speak with a quivering voice, it was too soft so she raised her voice again. She still cared about Y/n as a member, friend, lover and person, it didn’t matter what was going on between them. Jimin would always care about Y/n. Her hand bunched up the material of Y/n’s shirt in her hand as to keep the girl from leaving her. She refused to let go, in the end, she wasn’t supposed to want anything else but Y/n and even if her feelings were different she clung to that idea. 

That there was only one person for the both of them.

“Is this something else you want to cry about!? You didn’t bring my shit with you because you’re being petty and expect me to break habits.” It had become a habit, Jimin had become someone Y/n relied on with most of her things. If Jimin had been packing certain things for her it had become a habit that she would do it every time and it never crossed Y/n’s mind to do it herself anymore. 

It had never bothered Jimin either and now it was doing nothing but pissing both of them off. Those flaws they had accepted and learned to love before were nothing but a hassle to deal with now and they wanted the other to erase them and change. To change so they could learn to love these new people they would become.

“If you said that you quit for me then fucking keep the promise or will you break them all just because it isn’t working out for us at the moment? And I’m not your mother, Y/n, why do you rely on me packing your fucking things!” She shoved Y/n by the shoulder, wanting to get her away from her even for a split second because she was boiling over with emotions. It would never end well no matter who they were fighting with when there were too many emotions.

Jimin felt conflicted at her own pushing and pulling as she one second wanted no one but Y/n and the other second she couldn’t stand the girl.

“Everything I did for you feels like a waste at the moment when all you give me is headaches, Jimin.” Y/n’s voice was rough and loud, ignoring that they had more performances tomorrow. Jimin could feel the vibrations in her ribcage and she harshly wiped away the tears. It felt like Y/n didn’t deserve her tears at this exact moment, not after those words. She snivelled, still unable to stop them though because how couldn’t she cry when this was what they were now?

They continuously watched what they used to be washed away with each wave that clashed with their shore and dragged away the good to leave filth behind instead.

“I fucking regret even giving you an ounce of my time and life because you’re nothing but a pain to look after. You don’t get to be angry at me because I had to worry about not forgetting my stuff and yours on top of everything!” She couldn’t help but feel like all the blame was now coming her way and maybe she had let Y/n get too comfortable. Jimin couldn’t help it then, but the longer it went on the more she realised that it wouldn’t work that way. 

“You’re like a manchild for fuck’s sake.” Jimin groaned out as it continued to dawn upon her how much of an immature child Y/n could be. Had she been blind all this time? Why did she suddenly mind it? Why were these words even leaving her mouth when she had always loved and accepted Y/n for the person that she was? Were they just looking for reasons to make it all stop? 

“You made it a habit and I stuck to it. Suck it up the same way I have to suck up when I’m your punching bag whenever things don’t go your way.” Y/n couldn’t help but truly realise how much she always let Jimin get away with. The things she would say, the things she would do that hurt, Y/n always forgave her for every little thing because Jimin could do no wrong in her eyes. Jimin was spiralling right now because Y/n hadn’t forgiven her yet for how she had been pushing the younger girl around for the past few days as a member of the same group.

Here she was, still letting the woman in front of her shove her around and blame her for her own mistakes. The way she always forgave Jimin within seconds when she saw tears in her eyes even if Jimin was in the wrong. Y/n felt played by the older now as she realised how their dynamic had worked. 

Y/n would always be the one to take the blame even when it wasn’t hers to take. 

Jimin would always be the one to suffer from how much she took on herself willingly because Y/n couldn’t do it.

“You were playing video games instead of packing even after you saw how stressed I was with my stuff. You got upset over your motion sickness patches, your headphones, fucking lenses and now your gum. I’m fucking surprised you packed your clothes!” 

“I’m sorry that I couldn’t even enter the room without you getting pissed off because I would breathe. I’m not the one being immature but you, Jimin. You are the one who mixed our relationship into work, you’re the one who isn’t professional–” The older girl could feel herself boil over with anger with each point that Y/n made, each word pushing her closer to the edge. She felt like the points Y/n made were being invalidated, Y/n had yet to accept it for what it was and Jimin hated having the truth about herself being pointed out this way. 

“–the one to force habits and then thinking you can just switch them up within a second because you suddenly don’t like what you wanted. Not the whole world revolves around you, but you’ve been too fucking selfish lately to realise it.” Despite all the coldness between them and all that seemed gone, they hung on because every day small things happened that gave them hope–small gestures were enough and they were brought back to the past. It felt as if Jimin hadn’t been trying to work towards each other, but away from each other. “I’m always looking out for you and caring for you.”

Jimin was simply too scared to move anywhere at all because it felt like the smallest mistake would make what was left fall apart fully. She felt paralysed by how scared she was of the truth. It was like having bricks constantly pile on her chest, it was difficult to breathe with them there, and it was difficult to move with them there. The girl felt like she was chained to the pits of hell while staring up at heaven in hopes of it coming down to her. 

What it ended with was it looked like she was selfish for being too scared to move, as if she wanted the world to revolve around her. And maybe if it did it would make everything easier for her. 

“Go fuck yourself Y/n and stop trying to make yourself look like a hero when you make as many mistakes as I do.” Jimin scoffed and wiped at her eyes as she pushed past Y/n, they both felt completely neglected and invalidated by the other. The reality of what it always has been wasn’t easy to swallow because it had never bothered them until now. She was aware that she made mistakes, but Y/n made them too and couldn’t claim the title of a hero when they did as much caring as they did hurting.

Y/n turned on her heels as Jimin pushed past her, she could see the anger, despair and distress clouding her. It was like a grey cloud over their heads, constantly being there for them when they didn’t want it. “It doesn’t excuse your mistakes either and considering my girlfriend won’t do it, yeah, I will ‘cause she’s too busy being stuck up.” Y/n could tell that the last of her words were too much, that they were too disrespectful and insensitive, and that she shouldn’t even be thinking about it right now. Maybe Jimin was right about being nothing but a ‘manchild’. 

Y/n truly felt the consequences of her words when Jimin felt them dig deep into her heart and it was enough to throw everything else out. It was just for a second and she knew she could regret it and feel guilty about it later. The stinging on her palm would subside, but feeling disrespected by Y/n for the first time in her life would linger far longer as she turned back around and landed it across the younger’s cheek. 

“You’re an immature fucking child, Y/n. I’m not just for your pleasure and needs, so fucking respect me.” She spat out, holding onto the girl’s shirt with her stinging hand as it all shut Y/n up. The two were able to very clearly see through each other like glass, it wasn’t even like glass, but air from how clear it was and all they could see was pain and hurt. They caused each other pain and hurt and everything else they used to make each other feel was gone—but then came those moments where it wasn’t gone even if it was for a second and so they held on.

They both felt horrible as Jimin grabbed her things while wiping her tears, not sparing Y/n more glances. All she knew was that she needed to cry to let it all subside for even a bit. Y/n slumped down on the couch, the nicotine cravings slapped out of her. She held her cold palm against her cheek trying to ease the pulsating pain she knew she deserved and Jimin did too as they both were suffering for keeping each other chained down. 

Maybe they had never been perfect, to begin with.

Were all these things stuff they had always wanted to say and they now took the opportunity to do so since everything was already falling apart? Did they hold back on saying these things before because they were scared that they would ruin everything? Or were these things something that should have been brought up a long time ago to make it work out? 

They couldn’t answer that. No one could because it was too late.

Jimin had known that she would feel bad after, that the guilt would eat at her. She was terrified that their relationship had taken a new step forward, towards a goal they didn’t want to reach when Y/n slept in Minjeong’s hotel room. The two peers–in age–were close in the end and so Jimin spent the night tossing and turning wondering if the truth would come out now. That their love was under ruins, crushed and bleeding to death, setting the truth in stone and burying what they used to have six feet under to start a new life. 

She wondered if Y/n spent the whole night awake. Jimin could barely fall asleep knowing they were in the same bed, but with their backs turned to each other, let alone after what happened. She could barely sleep because of how her insides twisted in hopes of escaping to get away from the excruciating pain. The part of them being away after what went down only made her even more anxious. 

The girl got her answers the next day when Y/n was tired and Minjeong went on about her day without a single knowing glance or word. 

They had avoided each other unless they were on stage, but the second they came off it was back to normal. The new normal, they both missed the old normal but they seemingly couldn’t go back to it. 

Or so they thought because once again all that they had been missing poured over them like a rainstorm. 

The simple idea for all of them to go out and eat after the days of performing. There had been an undoubtful tension between the two and not for the same reason they would like to think. It felt horrible to sit beside each other without having apologised for what had happened. However, the longer they sat at the table the closer they seemed to get, but it could have been the alcohol in their veins. 

“I swear, it’s the first time these two aren’t all over each other.” 

Y/n felt a slight heat shoot through her, one of anxiety at Ning’s drunken words because now everyone seemed aware of the situation. It could have been the fact that they dared to speak up about it when they were drunk. Y/n didn’t know what it was, but she toyed with one of the side dishes, knowing that she and Jimin always got more affectionate when they were drunk.

“Tired, that’s all…” Y/n mumbled, trailing off as she looked over at Jimin who sat right beside her–the rest continuing the chatter. The two had been coming closer and closer with each shot of soju and every beer they finished. They could feel the other's heat on them, craving each other in this state no matter what had happened between them for the past months. They craved the affection of the other so much that it hurt, it was boiling from the inside and they were waiting for the other to cave in so they could be close. 

She watched for a second more as Jimin struggled with the marinated perilla leaf, lip between her teeth as she gently swayed, going over her limit this time. Y/n would always be the one to cave in for the older girl. Jimin rarely drank more than she could handle and even that was a lot, but Y/n could tell she was trying to drown herself further. The older woman was already drowning in all her emotions and trying to drown them in alcohol only intensified it all and Jimin felt like she would burst any second and start begging in front of everyone else. 

Y/n turned in her seat the slightest, her attention on the woman who was still the most beautiful one she had ever seen. The one she desired, but it was all so different no matter how beautiful they both were to each other. Her right hand reached over to Jimin, brushing the hair behind her ear and reaching with her left for the leaf. 

Eyes were glossed over, like polished glass from alcohol when Jimin finally looked up and Y/n picked up the leaf, her hand still holding back the hair so it wouldn’t get in the way. 

It was crushing both of them. Jimin felt her world brighten up with hope that had no space in their world anymore, but she wasn’t letting go yet. Y/n fed her with eyes gazing over Jimin’s features, feeling excruciating pain at the fact that she had made her cry, at the fact that they kept hurting each other unintentionally by holding on. It was worth it when these moments still managed to slip through the cracks and let in some light. 

Y/n let go of the latter's hair and wrapped her arm around Jimin’s waist when she leaned into her, resting her weight on Y/n’s side. Her hands found Y/n’s warmth as they pushed under the girl's loose sweater, doing all the holding on that she could. 

“I miss you.” They were sentimental words as Jimin gently whispered, her breath brushing over Y/n’s neck and the younger girl pulled her closer. Y/n took in a deep breath at how homesick she felt for a home she no longer had. They missed each other, they missed what they used to have, but no longer did and it dug into their hearts with no care, tearing them into pieces at how messy it felt. 

“I miss you–miss us,” Y/n mumbled, their world shutting the rest out, inhaling the smog-filled air of everything that had burned down to ashes. Jimin hummed as her eyes closed, hoping that the drunk sentiment would be able to suffice for now even if it was for just one night. All they needed was one night to figure it out, to get to feel what they missed and see if they could bring it all back to life. She felt Y/n’s soft lips press against her head and she nuzzled her face further into the scent that used to be a home and now was only what was left of one.

Her lips gently pressed over Y/n’s skin, her nails gently scratching over Y/n’s back as she moved her other hand up. She cupped the younger’s face, thumb caressing the porcelain-like skin she deeply regretted putting her hand on but she couldn’t regret it when she thought back on what they said to each other. Jimin deserved to suffer for her actions and Y/n deserved to suffer just as much. They would continue until they did the necessary.

Y/n got her head tilted down and looked at Jimin who rested her head against the younger’s shoulder. Her eyes pleaded for a remedy for all the heartbreak even if it was for just one night. To just get away from reality for a few hours. Her fingers brushed over Y/n’s cheek. Y/n gave a small nod and reached over for the beer she had left, finishing it and hoping it would all last long enough and not end the way it did a few days ago. 

“Will you guys mind if we leave early?” The girl asked, but it was already set in stone as she grabbed her jacket and helped Jimin up. They looked over at the two who were closer to each other than they had been for the past few months as Y/n put her jacket over Jimin. 

“Not at all,” Aeri replied, the rest humming in agreement.

It was a short walk to the hotel, wrapped up in each other the whole way and not letting go for a second as they walked in silence, scared to let go or say something that would make it difficult to be this way again. 

They at last did let go as they walked inside the hotel room, but it all shifted for a second as Y/n kicked off her shoes and sat down at the foot of the bed. There was no escaping this landslide, the clash that destroyed so much as she missed what she used to have with Jimin, but had no clue if they could get that back. It tied knots around her heart and tugged on it constantly. 

The latter managed to get her shoes off, the jacket falling after her as she walked over to Y/n. Despite the slight blur, she could see clearly through everything else and now was the only time she knew she could apologise. 

It used to be easier. 

“Y/n…” 

The girl took a deep breath and looked away from her hands and at Jimin who kneeled beside her. Her chin rested against Y/n’s thigh as she stared up at her girlfriend, her lower lip slightly jutted out. The younger one hummed, her hand running through Jimin’s hair as she caressed her scalp gently, missing the touch of someone else. The back of her fingers trailed over Jimin’s cold cheek who grabbed hold of Y/n’s hand, intertwining their fingers.

The silence braced them as they stared at each other, heads tilting, ears filling with the heavy yet soft breaths from alcohol-filled veins, the buzz of the outside world only faint. That silence of acceptance of what their love was, what it used to be and how it no longer was. 

Jimin heaved a sigh and rested her cheek against Y/n’s thigh, staring off into the dimly lit hotel room. The sentiment of sorrow, sadness and nostalgia as everything had become too farro reach now and it would be hard to save anything. If they could continue to pretend then everything would go back to being fine. If they lived a lie long enough, it would become their reality. 

“I’m sorry about the other day—” She mumbled, slumped on the floor and her gaze moved as she tilted her head to look Y/n in the eye. Their eyes connected, filled with the buzz of alcohol, and the perception of the fake reality they had created in their head washed over them. Those small gestures that made hope wash over them wouldn’t change anything, would they? They didn’t want to think about it. “I shouldn’t have raised my hand,” her lips momentarily formed into a pout at the disdain she felt for her actions.

Jimin knew there was no excuse for it even if she felt like an emotional wreck. They were losing control and it was starting to deeply affect them. They were going full speed through crossings with no hands on the wheels, covering their eyes to not look at the truth and soon enough they would crash right into a wall. 

“It’s okay, it’s fine,” Y/n always let Jimin get away with everything and nothing would probably ever change that.

Jimin shook her head, lifting it from Y/n’s thigh as she got up to stand on her two feet. Y/n’s fingers tangled into the sweatshirt the girl had on as she stood between her legs. Despite the slight tremors in Jimin’s fingers, buzzing with more than just alcohol, but also a surge of feelings, the uncertainty, longing, feelings of loss and hope; she cupped Y/n’s face in her hands. Her touch was soft as Y/n’s glimmering eyes met her.

“I shouldn’t have acted the way I did either.” Y/n mumbled, closing her eyes and resting in Jmin’s hands who caressed her features with her thumbs. They still would always melt at the affection because it was normal to crave, but it didn’t feel like it used to. Aside from it feeling good, those other things didn’t spread across them. “I’m sorry.” 

That sorry felt like it was for more than what happened in that room and Jimin knew it. She knew that the apology was because they both genuinely felt bad for letting a promise of forever die. 

‘I love you.’

‘Never stop loving me, Y/n.’

‘I will love you forever, I promise.’

‘I will love you forever, Y/n, I will always care about you.’

‘Don’t cry, Jimin, I’m always here for you.’

Jimin deeply exhaled and closed her eyes before she could let the tears even form and with a lump in her throat she closed the gap between them. Their lips met in a kiss to suckle on the hope left in them. It was eagerness, it was to forget and not to remember. Y/n’s hands grabbed hold of Jimin’s hips, pulling her closer.

They tilted their heads to meet tongues that tasted as bitter as the beer they had and the longing for what they had lost, as sweet as the sake they downed and the reverie they lived in. It was with desperation because it felt like it was the last of them that was left and they would do everything to latch onto it and stick forever. The forever they had promised. 

Jimin ran her fingers through Y/n’s hair, pushing deeper, wanting to feel more, she needed more. She needed Y/n, she missed the touch against her body and that was all that it felt like for them now. The fulfilment of each other’s needs and nothing else as Jimin discarded Y/n’s sweater, letting it fall to the floor. Her cool hands ran over the warm skin, leaving a trail of goosebumps, emotions swirling under their skin as they pulled away to remove Jimin’s top. 

Their eyes locked, looking for something, searching, but they had no clue what they were trying to find anymore. It ended quicker than expected and their lips met once again, meeting tongues and letting out desperate sounds. Y/n’s fingertips grazed over Jimin’s skin as if the girl was made of gold, the gentle and careful touch making the latter bubble with more need. She ran them over her sides, tracing every ridge, coming to her spine with one hand as the other slid over her ribs until she reached the hem of Jimin’s jeans. 

With ease she undid them and as they fell to the floor the older girl straddled Y/n who huffed at the weight that pressed down against her growing cock. As Jimin looked Y/n in the eye, the girl reached over to her face, brushing away the black strands of hair. She could still see a sparkle in Y/n’s eyes, but it was flickering. It wasn’t there for the same reasons that it used to sparkle. This was for the lust that would always linger inside their veins.

“Make me feel good, you owe me this,” Jimin mumbled, knowing that they both owed each other this for the things they had been putting the other through for the past months. This was finally their chance to make the other feel good in a way that was more than just sentimental. There was no sentiment in lust because it had never been part of it, but now it ruled them. 

She grabbed Y/n’s hand which was still by her face and captured those sweet lips while guiding the hand to the back of her bra. Jimin trailed her kisses away from Y/n’s lips and along her jawline, slowly going further and nuzzling her nose into her neck. The scent was still one of her favourites. She took it in and ran her tongue over the skin before wrapping her lips around it. 

It made Y/n stall with the bra, a faint whimper falling from between her lips as Jimin slowly started to gyrate her hips, rolling her heat against Y/n’s that was straining against her jeans. “I want your lips on me Y/n.” She breathed out against the red mark, wanting to feel the pleasure, they both wanted to be brought out of this hell they had painted as heaven. This was their chance. 

Y/n bit her lower lip, her neck being plated with kisses by Jimin all while the girl continued to press against her cock, grinding slowly while releasing shaky breaths between kisses. The girl managed to undo the bra and only then did her girlfriend pull away, letting Y/n remove it fully whose eyes focused on her chest right away. Jimin’s words hadn’t fallen deaf to her ears and all she wanted was to give the girl exactly what she wanted. This was the only thing that they could make work. 

“I love every inch of you.” Any other time the words would burn within Jimin’s soul and leave their mark and they had done so permanently, but they no longer reached as deep. They were all for the outside as they had changed from the inside towards each other. 

Her fingers tangled at the back of Y/n’s head, gently making her look her in the eye as she tilted her head. “Show me instead.” It was like a whisper, her lips ghosting Y/n’s, knowing that she would be able to feel more from actions rather than words now. 

Y/n manoeuvred them, laying Jimin down on the bed, legs wrapped around her waist as she stood by the edge of the bed. The girl bunched up the duvet beside Jimin’s head, taking one last look at her chest before she leaned down to show how much she appreciated her body. With fingers tangled in her hair and nails scratching her scalp Y/n started to leave scorching kisses along Jimin’s skin.

Her tongue soothed over the pulse, tenderly kissing down, her kisses tickling as she trailed down, taking in the soft hums and breaths that the girl let out. She came down to her collarbones, grazing her teeth over them, leaving her marks after her as those were the only good ones they managed to leave on each other now. Everything that went deeper hurt. 

A faint gasp left Jimin’s mouth when lips fervently latched onto her chest, all the heat running through her body and shooting straight to her aching clit. “Fuck,” was all that she could mutter at the warm tongue playing with her nipple, sucking on the tender flesh. Y/n’s devotion to what was left of them was shown through the way she consumed her flesh, leaving her bites to linger.

Y/n moved her mouth to the other nipple, her hand coming down to fondle the older’s chest. It was enough for more sounds to start coming from Jimin at the way her nipples were being played with and her chest littered with kisses. It made her thighs tense around Y/n’s waist, pulling her closer and when the rough material pressed against her cunt a moan fell from her lips. The younger girl hummed, pressing more against Jimin while toying with the hard nipples with her mouth and fingers, twisting and pulling, touching her in a way only she knew. 

It was yet another thing that was hard to let go of. The fact that they knew each other’s bodies so well and knew exactly what to do. It was all working against what should be done and driving them towards pipe dreams.

Her chest heaved, losing her words as they all came out breathless, being greedy for more to fill all the emptiness that had been growing for the past months. “You’re so good, baby.” She hummed, her eyes closing as her mind finally went empty, it went silent with everything else and all they could focus on was the moment and not what was and what would be. It was enough to make Y/n’s hips press more into Jimin, slowly moving them for friction while leaving the older’s chest glistening. 

She slowly started to move down further, kissing along the heaving slim stomach until she was on her knees in front of Jimin. The lacy black underwear seeped through with her arousal and Y/n’s fingers hooked at their hem, looking up at Jimin who was sitting up and looking down at her with lust-clouded eyes. She leaned back against her palms, raising her hips and letting Y/n peel off the last piece of her body.

Her hands ran over Jimin’s thighs, spreading her legs further apart while biting onto her lower lip at the view of her glistening pussy that was leaking with juices. She lifted the girl’s leg and rested it over her shoulder before she started to kiss along her inner thighs, gently biting and sucking on the soft flesh as her hands needily kneaded them. It made Jimin heave a sigh, her hand coming to grab hold of Y/n’s head, dwelling in the feeling of the butterfly kisses left along her inner thighs. 

Through her hooded eyes, she watched Y/n, making eye contact every time the younger looked up through her lashes for approval of what she was doing despite knowing Jimin’s body better than most things. Her fingers pressed into the flesh as her arm was wrapped around one of her thighs, inching closer until she reached the girl’s heat. It was enough to make the older girl squirm the slightest when she got pulled closer to the edge before feeling the wet muscle drag between her folds.

Y/n grabbed hold of her waist with her free hand, holding Jimin in place to not have her squirm too much. Her tongue ran between her folds, spreading the wetness as she dipped her head and circled the grasping hole. The grip on her hair tightened, ears being filled with soft moans and whimpers as she continued to work her tongue and lips around the puffy cunt. She sucked on her lips, enjoying the mess that was spreading on her chin, lapping every little bit up to get more on her tongue. 

Jimin slowly felt herself lose her mind at the teasing tongue, Y/n taking her time to continue working her up. The need continued to bubble inside her, her clit throbbing for attention and her hole clenching as she wanted to be filled until she would feel numb in the brain for at least a few minutes. This was finally something they could grasp at, the escape from everything even the daydream they had created, getting to a real one even if it wouldn’t last too long.

The light moans filled the hotel room when Y/n’s lips at last wrapped around her swollen clit, her tongue coming out to flick at the bud. The pace between slow and fast, sucking and flicking was making Jimin’s thighs tremble around the girl’s head. Her fingers were tangled in Y/n’s hair, pulling her closer to her pussy as her hips faintly bucked at the pleasure. 

Y/n drowned, getting as much pleasure from drowning between Jimin’s soft thighs as the girl above her was feeling from the tongue that was toying with her needy cunt. She caressed her heaving stomach with her other hand, kneading the plush flesh of her thigh as she felt Jimin pull her further into her with her leg that was on her shoulder. 

“Fuck, Y/n–” She whined, her breathing picking up and growing heavier the longer her clit was played with. She could feel it all slowly approaching her and soon enough she would reach the edge and fall off of it. 

The girl dipped her head, her nose rubbing against the swollen clit and her tongue lapped at the juices. The room filled with the sopping sounds of Jimin’s pussy and moans and Y/n’s mouth messily eating her out, moaning at the taste and tugs on her hair, her cock throbbing at how good it felt. With the sticky mess collected on her tongue, she circled her clit and went back to flicking at it and tugging with her lips. 

“So close, ‘m so close, baby.” 

Her body started to tense up, Y/n’s ears muffled at how the thighs locked around her head with her head being held in place. It made her sore tongue work harder to be able to hear Jimin’s voice go up higher. 

That was enough for the older girl to lose her control and the sounds started to spill from her mouth, moaning Y/n’s name in a high pitch. Her body got consumed by heat as her vision blacked out and her ears started to buzz when the orgasm hit its peak as Y/n continued to flick at her clit. It was making her whine and buck her hips for more until she felt herself crash back down to reality. She heaved for air, loosening her grip on Y/n’s hair and the girl slowed down, only leaving small kisses along her skin that was scorching. 

When she got back up on her feet their lips met in a vivid kiss, Jimin’s hands working on Y/n’s jeans to undo the loose material. She tugged them down together with Y/n’s boxers, her hand wrapping around the thick cock that was scalding in her hold as she pumped it, smearing the precum as she reached the swollen tip. The whimpers that fell from Y/n’s lips were swallowed by Jimin, moaning into the intense kiss. 

She pulled Y/n down, making her lay down on the bed, the younger girl moved back until she was in the middle of the bed, leaning against her elbows. Her eyes were on Jimin who got on the bed before crawling over to her. They got engulfed in each other's heat as she straddled Y/n who slumped back, running her hands over the girl’s thighs and to the back of her ass to caress it. 

“No one knows me like you do.” She whispered, leaning down and letting her lips brush over Y/n’s with her fingers tracing along her jawline. No one knew Jimin like Y/n did and no one knew Y/n like Jimin did and even if it looked the way it did, they carried that fact with pride. She pecked the girl's lips, pulling away and letting Y/n chase after her as she tried to grab hold of Jimin’s face, but got her hands pinned down to the bed. 

“Jimin–” She tried although was cut off as she let her head fall back against the mattress, fingers twisting the duvet as her wrists were held down by the girl on top of her. 

“I hate that now.” She admitted, hating that no one knew her as well as Y/n and that no one would ever get to know her as well again. They had learned from their mistakes and now no one would ever be able to compare. There was no one she would open up to like this again, not when it hurt so much when it all died. They didn’t want to go through this pain twice when they never wanted to experience it to begin with.

“I know.” Jimin huffed, her lips brushing over Y/n’s neck because obviously, the younger girl would know that Jimin hated it now. “Do you regret it?” Y/n mumbled, doing her best to not squirm under the girl who was leaving light kisses along her neck. The words from the other day still lingering, but Jimin knew that she never meant what she said about regretting it.

“No matter how much it hurts–” Jimin pulled away and looked Y/n in the eye, the younger’s head tilting to the side as she stared up at her with hopeful eyes. Y/n’s eyes alone were enough for Jimin to know the answer, she knew it right away as she reached her hand down to Y/n’s face, one still holding her wrists down. Her thumb tenderly caressed along Y/n’s cheek and over her lips. “I could never regret everything I’ve given you.” And everything she gave was all that she had after she placed herself in Y/n’s hands and she would always be there even if what made her give herself in the first place had withered. 

Her thumb tugged down on Y/n’s lip before she leaned down and attached their lips once again. Sighs fell from between their lips, Jimin’s hand running between their bodies to grab hold of Y/n’s cock. 

Y/n pulled away from the kiss, panting for air as her eyes fell between their bodies, watching Jimin drag the swollen tip through her folds, the slickness and warmth were enough to make Y/n bite back a whine at how good it felt. The grip on her wrists tightened when her tip made contact with Jimin’s clenching hole, slowly pushing into the tightness that sucked her in. 

“So tight.” The younger mumbled, her chest heaving at the anticipation as she watched herself slowly disappear inside of the girl on top of her, splitting her folds with her cock. The tight walls engulfed her length, grasping it and sucking her inside with greed as they continuously clenched at the stretch. 

“You make me feel so full.” Jimin sighed with a whine at the slight pain. 

Y/n’s eyes stayed glued on how her cock got engulfed by Jimin’s tight pussy, splitting her lips around the thick shaft and she slowly moved. The older girl hummed, letting go of Y/n’s wrists. Both her palms rested on top of the girl’s stomach with her nails slightly digging in at the painful stretch. Hands caressed her thighs while she lowered herself until she felt Y/n deep inside her, filling her to the hilt. 

Y/n dropped her head, shutting her eyes tightly when she was fully inside Jimin who let out a light moan at the feeling. Her cock was throbbing, twitching at how good it felt, the warm and wet walls were pulsating around her and her stomach flexed with every little move. 

She slowly started moving her hips back and forth, her clit still sensitive from her first orgasm as it dragged along Y/n’s pelvis. Her walls fluttered, and being filled up was making her crave more at how good it felt. The feeling of Y/n’s veiny cock raw inside her tight cunt was overwhelmingly good, making out each vein that dragged along her walls.

She gyrated them as they whined back and forth on Y/n’s dick whose lips were parted at the way it dragged along the clenching walls. Her ears were graced by Jimin’s soft gasps and sighs, nails digging into her stomach. The older’s thighs flexed, her walls pulsating and clit throbbing as she slowly increased her speed, chasing her pleasure by using Y/n. 

“I love using your cock to make myself feel good,” Jimin whined, her head getting thrown back and Y/n groaned at the words that made her dick ache inside the hot and wet cunt of the girl. Their bodies moved and fit together perfectly like waves that collided against waves, their bodies buzzing with that feeling from the inside as their head splashed with desires. 

Her chest heaved at the sight of her girlfriend grinding along her cock, watching how she chased her high once again. The sounds were starting to get more lewd with each moan falling from the girl’s lips, Jimin’s wetness coating Y/n’s base and the mess only got bigger.

“You look so good doing it.” Y/n could feel the way the walls clasped around her at the words, the girl taking all the pleasure in using Y/n for her benefit as Y/n enjoyed it just as much. The way the girl would go on and have her orgasms before Y/n even got to think of hers.

Jimin was on top of her with a vice grip on her cock with her sopping cunt. Y/n’s hands were on her the thighs flexed with each movement and her tip was hitting all the right spots deep inside her. She watched the way the older gasped and threw her head back, dragging her swollen clit along Y/n’s pelvis. Jimin reached behind her and held onto Y/n’s tense thighs instead, rolling her hips in a way that was making her stomach tighten and warm up as she fucked herself on top of the girl.

“I’m so close, baby–fuck, so good.” Her voice cut into a higher pitch as the orgasm started to wash over her with her hips bucking for more and Y/n’s thumb found its way to her swollen clit. She circled the bud as Jimin kept bucking her hips against her, watching the way her chest bounced with each movement.

The throbbing walls clasped around her cock, squeezing it tightly enough for the movement to slow down. Her thighs quivered and she let out cries of pleasure, her voice light and bringing Y/n closer to the edge at how good she looked on top of her. Nails dug into Y/n’s thighs, heat pouring over Jimin’s whole body at her second orgasm.

She heaved for breath, stopping her movement and shivering at the shocks going through her warm body. Her body got engulfed in Y/n’s arms when the girl sat up, her cock still buried deep within the confines of Jimin’s pulsating pussy. She wrapped her arms around Y/n’s shoulders, palms running over her back which was covered in a sheen of sweat. 

As Jimin looked at Y/n, she didn’t want to be done yet, she wished she could drag this out for the rest of her life. To make this serene moment last forever as their bodies became one and all that had been on her mind disappeared. Those worries were gone, it was just now, the present forgotten and the future didn’t exist until it was tomorrow and by then it was present again. 

She tangled her fingers at the back of Y/n’s hair, slowly moving up and down while pulling Y/n more into her. Their breaths mingled, parted lips grazing until she caught Y/n’s lower lip between hers and gently tugged. It was all that they needed, to be back in each other’s arms, to be close and it started to ignite the spark of hope although it didn’t seem to glow strong enough as it continued to flicker back to life before disappearing. 

“I miss you–so much,” Jimin mumbled as she pulled away, moving her hips back and forth as Y/n’s breaths grew heavier. The younger buried her face in the crook of her neck, planting tender kisses. Jimin could feel it all coming back, maybe she hadn’t been drunk enough, or maybe no matter how drunk she was on lust and alcohol she would never be able to drown out the pain of a breaking heart. 

The alcohol and lust weren’t able to mend their hearts. 

Y/n looked up when Jimin pulled her away from her sweltering neck, their eyes met, Jimin’s were glimmering and the entry to her soul had always been open for Y/n. The longer she stared into the window of her soul, the more she realised how crushed Jimin was and it was enough to clarify that they were both suffering. Her hand smoothed over Y/n’s jaw, running along it as she tilted the girl’s head back, her movement not stopping as she watched Y/n slowly crumble under her.

It was shattering her insides to see Y/n this way, the same way it was shattering Y/n to see Jimin like that. They had never thought that the person they loved the most would be the one to destroy them the most too. 

Love was lethal no matter how much two people loved each other.

“Fuck–” Y/n breathed out, being cut off by Jimin’s soft lips, the girl could feel the length inside her grow harder and twitch as it was clasped inside her heat. They swallowed each other’s moans until they no longer could and the older’s pace picked up, her ass colliding with Y/n’s thighs each time she went down while letting out quick and sharp breaths. Y/n’s hands gripped onto her ass, fingers digging into the soft yet firm flesh as she helped Jimin move, feeling the movement slack off at times. 

A soft and light moan escaped Jimin’s lips, grounding herself down on Y/n’s cock, arms wrapped around her shoulders as she panted against her neck. Teeth dug into her shoulder, the whimper suppressed from the younger as she could feel the ropes of cum shoot one after another into her, painting her walls white. Y/n pulled away from her shoulder, slipping out of Jimin’s warmth as they eased down to reality.

Everything stilled as the younger girl still held Jimin in her arms, caressing her warm back while taking deep breaths. It felt like neither of them planned to move any second as the girl snuggled closer into Y/n’s neck, burying her face in the crook of it, her eyes shutting tightly.

It was making Jimin’s chest heave at the panic she felt because she could only watch it all slip through her fingers, unable to do anything to save it.

The attempt to suppress her sobs was feeble as the first one slipped through and then a second followed and her tears were staining Y/n’s skin once again. “Jimin–” 

“I’m scared, Y/n.” She cried into her neck, sobbing and snivelling as it overwhelmed her once again, this time she wasn’t able to hold back on releasing what was heavily on her chest. It didn’t matter how scared they were to bring up the obvious because the thought of how it would end was terrifying. Neither wanted it to end. However, the realisation dawned upon them and it would all end much sooner than intended if they did nothing about it. 

“I’m right here.” Y/n slowly pulled her away, manoeuvring Jimin’s body like fragile butterfly wings that could crumble with a little too much pressure. The girl continued to cry, pulling her knees to her chest, crying into them as Y/n draped the duvet over her, covering her naked body. 

She couldn’t grasp at it, at how all the promises died the second their love did, that they made promises they couldn’t keep and it never should have been this way. They promised to love each other forever and they did, but it no longer was the love that was beyond care and compassion. It was adoration and not love, the love; was gone. 

Jimin refused to accept it, no, she couldn’t accept that and would dig through every little corner until she found something that would help the withered flower bloom back to life. She’d shed all her tears until her eyes would be bleeding just to have enough to water their flower of love that had died. There had to be some way to save it even if it hurt, even if it hurt more than it already did.

Y/n got back onto the bed after she pulled on her boxers, Jimin was still crying into her knees until the younger girl sat behind her, the duvet resting over the both of them. She held back on her tears as she cradled the weeping girl’s head, lending her shoulder to cry on once again and she would continue doing so until her last breath. It would never matter what type of love they held for each other, she would always care even if everything else they used to have that was deeper had died. 

It was a death neither of them knew how to cope with.

“I’m here for you.” She reassured her, kissing the top of her head.

“I hate this, Y/n—” Her sobs cut through her words, her hands gripping the duvet before they let go, feeling hopeless; what was there to hold on to in reality? There was nothing to hold onto as they both freely fell through hell for each other. It made them weak in so many ways. “Nothing is the same anymore and I don’t know what to do.” Acceptance was hard for anyone, it had always been hard, but it was even harder when it came to something they made their whole lives revolve around. How could they just accept that their worlds no longer circled the other? 

It stung, it hurt deeply to think that this was possible, something they had never thought about had become their reality. The flower that bloomed with their love was dead. Yet these tears and the pain they felt at the thought of needing to let go made them want to try again. One last try to revive something that had been dead and cold for months. If some miracle happened, they would be able to bring it back to life. Their love would bloom from a dead flower at some point, they would continue watering it with their tears, crying over the dead flower that was their love in hopes of it coming back to life.

“We can make it work again.” Y/n wasn’t brave enough to say the words, she wasn’t strong enough to say them for Jimin and herself. To admit for the both of them that what was lost was lost and that it was time to say goodbye and bury their love because there was nothing to save once it was already gone.It was too difficult to bury it when they had yet to accept its death. They had no clue how to cope with everything.

It was eating at them, tearing them apart and glueing them back together into an even bigger mess.

“We can fix everything,” Y/n reassured, knowing that these could as well be empty words and new promises to break, but she couldn’t give up. She couldn’t give up on Jimin even if they were mistaking care and compassion for a small ember of love that they could turn into a fire. That fire had gone out a while ago and what was left were ashes.

“Do you think that’s possible?” She whimpered, wanting to do anything to try and grasp at that false little ember of hope.

“I don’t know,” Y/n whispered, just as uncertain, but she would do anything for Jimin even if it meant ruining herself. 

They couldn’t know, but at least it was reassurance that they didn’t have to let go yet and could continue no matter how much it hurt because it would hurt even more if they were apart. It was too difficult to let go of someone they had built their lives around. They would hurt for each other and they would choose that over happiness with someone else because no one would ever be able to give them what they used to have.

They longed for each other’s love. They missed it and just wanted to feel it again but it was all gone. It no longer felt like it used to and they missed those feelings they used to have. Where did they go wrong for it to happen in the first place? What were they supposed to do to fix it? Let go and move on. Stay and continue to drag through the impossible to try and fix it?

They weren’t in love anymore, they just loved each other.

#jimin x reader #karina x reader #yu jimin #aespa x reader #aespa x g!p reader #aespa #aespa smut #yu jimin x g!p reader #karina smut #yu jimin smut #aespa fanfic #fanfiction #girl group smut #kpop smut #smut #g!p reader #angst #karina angst #karina x g!p reader #yu jimin angst #jimin x g!p reader #hurt/comfort #yu jimin x reader #karina imagines

[simplyjake]

Enha hyungs w / idol!reader !!

summary: tbh its pretty self explanitory, fem!reader

a/n guys maybe at one point ill write for maknae line but also idk so dont hold me to it, not proof-read

Heeseung

Let’s say ur in aespa

So rmbr the drama challenge they did

Instead of winter it was you and karina right

OUUUU ik he was giggling when you asked him to do the challenge with you

At the end of the challenge he puts his arm around u 

He looks at u like you hung the stars one by one

Heeseung pls this is gonna be posted later

ITS WORSE AT AWARD SHOWS

When you are on screen performing 

He has the biggest heart eyes and a slight smile pls

Its like he dgaf if yall get caught

Definitely interacts with you in public when he can

He wants to see all those ship edits

Invites you to his concerts and you invite him to yours

Once bought like 500 albums so he can get all of ur pcs and inclusions

Ur honor he was being silly!

And in luv w you!!!

Jay

Okay stayc member i see u

He learns how to play ur songs on guitar

Such a cute supportive bf

You guys have sm matching things tgt

Phone cases, hats, jewelry and more

Surprisingly no one has caught on yet.

He lurks on stayc twt for updates when hes away on tour

Even tho he can just text u himself

You accidentally left your jay signed album in the open on live

EVERYONE WAS FREAKING OUT

“Omfg yall since when did y/n and jay know each other”

” Wait but the signed album? Do yall rmbr when we caught them w matching hats but no one batted an eye WHAT ABT THIS”

Call jake for the dating rumor damage control selfie

Anyways he has all ur albums and you have all his

He found out you voted for him during Iland days and sobbed

Staycs number 1 fan, will fight ANYONE for that title

JAKE

Worse than heeseung when it comes to hiding things

Oh lord here we go

“My girl- i mean my friend” its rover.

On live streams he uses this to promote your group without looking suspicious 

“Have you guys heard le sserafims comeback? It’s so good”

“Oh Y/n? Yeah her part was amazing as well”

When he sings your part of the song it has u blushing on the other end of the phone

Once you were on a live, you forgot to let jake know

You were showing some photos that youre gonna post on instagram and all of a sudden

Is this love by Bob Marley aka the ringtone you have for jake

And his contact name “yunie<3” pops up

Quickly you decline the call and look sheepishly to the camera

Hoons time to do the selca damage control.

He accidentally liked a y/njake post on twt on the main acc tho

Ruh roh 

Sunghoon

Definition of nonchalant 

Nonchalant king if u will

Well besides that one time when he was mcing

And your group purple kiss was with him and wony

He was definitely getting side eyed by the fandom after sending you quick glances and a smile!!

Other than that baby hes an illusion

He dont know you

Well at least to the cameras, he doesnt know you

Otherwise hes the sweetest bf to ever bf

Sends you flowers to your dressing room after performances

Always claps whenever you guys win an award

Once a camera was pointed on him at an award show during your song

But he pointed to ur group telling them to focus on yall instead

UGH i love supportive bf hoon!!

Ofc your one of enhas biggest supporters as well

No one knows this but you have a secret sunghoon fan acc

He thinks its cute, a way to publicly say u love him

Without it actually being public yk

#enhypen #enha #enha x reader #enhypen imagines #enha imagines #heeseung #jay park #park jongseong #jake sim #sim jaeyun #park sunghoon #heeseung x reader #jay park x reader #jake sim x reader #sunghoon x reader #enhypen reactions #enhypen x reader

[carlyraejepsans]

hey, sorry for bothering you but i'm seriously considering starting to draw digitally (i have never drawn before except for when i was a little kid). i love your art so i was thinking if you would maybe give me some tips? about anything, really. like if i should at first just purely focus on the basis and nothing else, graphic program recommendations (preferably free or cheap ones since i'm not 100% sure if i'll actually keep drawing long-term), etc.

just anything that you think would be useful for me.

thank you a lot in advance

OOOH BOY where to start (｡・//ε//・｡)

it partly depends on whether you already know how to draw a little. I'm not saying you have to be good at it, but if you've already put some work into your traditional skillz it's going to help. oh also, if you do have some tradart background and you switch to digital? be prepared because with your first few drawings it's either going to be the best you've ever drawn or it's gonna feel like you're picking up a pencil for the first time in your life all over again. both of these stages are temporary, and generally settle on an equal middle ground in a few days, at least until your hand's gotten used to the medium

my FIRST chance at digital art? drawing with my finger on my phone. it's far from ideal, as you can probably guess, but it got the job done while i played around with the things only digital art could do. the next step, still on mobile devices, was getting one of those pens for writing on your phone. no pressure sensitivity, accuracy was still shite, but it did allow me to draw in a way that was more similar to how i drew traditionally. try to check if your device has compatibility with digital pen accessories, you might get one that's a bit more sophisticated than literally just a tube with a flat nib that works through normal touchscreen. i bought the sketchbook app back when it was still property of Autodesk. I haven't updated it since, so i have no idea how the new company is handling it, but it was a pretty solid app when i used it

if you already want to go full drawing tablet then DO NOT, for the love of god, DO NOT buy a screen tablet. i promise, drawing on a screenless one is in no way harder or more unnatural, you hand-eye coordination adapts to it very quickly. they're super cheap compared to screen tablets, more portable and better suited for a beginner. my first serius tablet was a wacom intuos back in the time when wacom partnered with clip studio paint, which was a DEAL because now i have a lifetime access to it despite having bought the tablet years ago and the PRO version of the program costing like 50 fucking dollars. definitely keep your eyes peeled if they do anything like that again because it's very much worth it, but if they don't you can also choose a cheaper brand. fuck wacom, go small corp.

for pc/laptop art programs your best bet in the open source scene is 100% krita. it has a couple of unique settings that make it weird to draw on for people who are used to "standard" professional art programs (which is the reason I don't go back to it anymore), but if you have no experience with any other art program, then absolutely go check it out, it won't be an issue. it's got a thriving community that keeps updating and adding stuff, so they're not gonna drop you off out of nowhere. as for the drawing itself? once again that's gonna depend on where in your art journey you are. it's been wayy too long for me to remember good videos for absolute beginners, but if you've got some of the bases down then proko and sinix design are some of the best teachers i can recommend wholeheartedly. i do have a couple more people on YouTube in mind, but I haven't seen their work in a while, so i wouldn't wanna risk sending you in the wrong direction.

one final tip that's worked out very well for me. y'know what's one of the best things you can watch? drawfee. animator vs cartoonist. pros animating in gartic phone. not only because karina and julia are the funniest motherfuckers on earth, but because seeing people's drawing process in real time (coupled with the sense of companionship of watching a group of friends have fun for your entertainment) actually puts you in the mindset to draw yourself and lets you study their work in a way that simply viewing the finished product never could.

trace trace trace, trace references, trace photos, trace art you like (but don't post it) and do it smartly ie try to figure out WHAT you're tracing, the shapes you're actually putting on paper and how they interact with one another and their environment. take your time, experiment with different techniques, take a break when you need to, watch your neck and back posture, draw from your your shoulders, not your wrist, those 30s "do this and this and this to draw this thing" style tutorials that don't explain the thought process behind those passages are a scam so fuck em, make mistakes make SO MANY MISTAKES, then learn from them, grow from them and make some more.

oh, and have fun, of course.

welcome to art :D

#ain't rereading all that so if you see typos no you didn't ✌🏻😗 #good luck and have fun! #answered asks

[miuszn]

bae as a fellow kpop stan ellie luvr i have to know. what are ur ult groups? -🪐

hii bub !! omg i honestly love any and all ggs .. but i was a HUGE iz*one ult back in the day since i stanned from debut n preordered all their albums so i have a soft spot for them , id say my ults rn are ive and le sserafim !! but i also like aespa , stayc , loona , and most recently xg <3 i also listen to newjeans but it feels so wrong to stan them bc i’m older than all of them except for minji 😭 my ult bias as u can probs tell is wonyoung , i supported her since produce 48 id tune in every week to watch her , i even used to call my older cousin who lives in korea asking her to vote for her since i couldn’t bc i don’t live there hehe but i supported her from the very start i get emotional seeing how far she’s come like we pretty much grew up together we’re the same age .. aaa i just love her sm !! i collect her pcs i have all of them except some from music shows n showcases i haven’t managed to get my hands on bc of how expensive n hard to find they are 😭</3

my biases from each group r wonyoung ( ofc ) , yunjin / sakura , karina , sumin , yves / olivia ( FREE THEM !!! ) , and jurin !!

this response is soooo long hope that doesn’t bother u but i could go on for hours abt my fav groups and wony especially

#wonyoung is literally the love of my life #i don’t think any wony stan luvs her more than me heheh #🪐 anon

[gameguides]

The Last Secret Walkthrough & Guide

You can have a general idea about the game in this guide to the last secret. And you can see the walkthroughs of some episodes.

The Last Secret Walkthrough & Guide

Character Creation Here you can create the character. You can choose between female and male. Here you can let your imagination run wild. Create yourself or do you have your own character in mind that you always wanted to send on an adventure? There are no limits to your fantasy. These two lovingly designed anime characters will hardly be seen in the game, if at all. That's why you can also imagine someone else's appearance if you or your self-imagined character actually looks different.

There is also an option to turn on which also gives you the option to match same gender.

You dont need a Printer The game will ask you exactly this:

You don't need a printer. You have four options for memorizing the clues: 1. Use Paint and Snipping Tool to help (Should be available on every Microsoft PC) 2. Use your smartphone to take pictures of the screen or take notes 3. Screenshots 4. Pen and Paper Relationship Character You can win the heart of these five characters for you (There is a small/short description of the characters in the lower area):

Anna - A mysterious girl who appears out of nowhere. Meilin - The player character's childhood best friend and neighbor. She likes to annoy you. Karina - A friend who is new to the friends group. She's really into math. Ben - A member of a band. He already seems to be famous and gives concerts. Honghong - A nice, humble and intelligent young man. A very strong Go player. As with most dating simulators, in order to win the character of your heart you have to pay special attention to this character. There are key events that already show you how attached the character is to you. However, you should not neglect the small things in life (conversations). First Riddle (Squares on Field 13x11) Here is the first riddle if you at least take the right decision.

When you click "No problem, show me." Then you get the riddle. In this puzzle you have to make it in a field of 13x11 the complete field with as few squares as possible. Here you can sit down and try to solve the riddle if you want. My tip would be that you try to solve the puzzles for the fun of the game. In an emergency, you can still rewind or load. Here you can solve the puzzles immediately. There are 6 squares. The largest is 7x7. Picture that you understand the answer:

Second Riddle (Go game Liberties) Here is the second riddle if you at least take the right decision.

When you click "Yeah, and I´am supposed to figure that out how?." Then you get the riddle. To solve this riddle you should do the Go tutorial to know how to play Go and the rules of this game. You can also select "And what did you mean by "liberties"?". Then the necessary knowledge will be explained to you to solve the puzzle. If you are now ready for the puzzle, a board will appear that is empty. On this you have to put the stones together so that you have a group. Place the 8 stones in such a way that you have as little freedom as possible. If you want you can see how here, then you just have to count the freedoms.

Here you get the answer directly: 10 Freedoms Here the explanation:

Let's beat him

Here's a joker you can defeat for an achievement. To get this achievement all you have to do is: Do what the vision tells you. Put the stone in the corner.

Let's beat her

Magarita is a sweet and lovely girl. But on this playing field, she is your enemy and you must defeat her. To get this achievement all you have to do is: You have to take the group's eyes as explained in the Go rules. As soon as something has 2 or more eyes, it can survive. Take this option. If you want to know more, look at the picture.

Fair Game As a rule, the game will warn you in some situations if you make wrong decisions. However, since this game is very diverse and, in my opinion, the paths to be taken are large, some decisions can also lead to an immediate end. But don't worry... The game has several ways to make this easier for you: 1. Game loading 2. Rewind 3. If you don't save for a while, don't worry. It often saves automatically. This is an example of how such an "ending" is prevented by the second chance game(when you click wrong:

Second Chance:

Third Riddle (The Escape Room) Here is the third and probably the biggest puzzle in the entire game. This puzzle consists of many different puzzles. In these puzzles you have the following options: 1. You can try to solve it yourself. 2. You can ask your friends for help in the different categories 3. You can completely solve/skip the puzzle with the help of Karina. 4. You can show on the Internet. Of course you can use my guide to solve and understand the puzzles piece by piece OR I will provide the solution for the last puzzle at the very end so that you can finish it quickly and still have solved it yourself. I will now show you three pictures with numbers from 1 - 11. Only below will I try to solve all the puzzles piece by piece as best as I can. I don't want to take away all the fun from you right away.

Step 1: You can press 1, 5, 9 and 10 directly to unlock some of the clues/puzzles. 1: "What does vegetable mean in italien?" - Ask Meilin 5: a small yellow note is on the wall - That is for Number 3 9: "The next code number is 28, but not 92" - With green point 10: "The next code number is 92, but not 28" - With red point Step 2: If you solved 1Now you can go 11: Note 1: The immovable will become movable once everything is in place - Connected with 5 and 3 Note 2: For the combination lock on the cabinet, you need a secret number, which is written on the next slip of paper Note 3: The secret number is the smallest three-digit happy number - Ask Karina Step 3: If you solved Note 3: Go to 8 and open the closet with the result of Note 3 - 100 Step 4: If you solved 8: Now you can do the following: A: Take a closer look at the Go Bowls Not important B: Take a closer look at the iPad Dont use it. Wrong Code = Game Over

Dont use it. Wrong Code = Game Over C: Look closely at the Note

A letter with "The black stones form a code number for the iPad" You can go to Meilin, but they will send you to Honghong or go directly to Honghong. After Honghong's explanation (It's best to photograph/screeshot/use the snipping tool and paste the explanation into Paint) Save the board as the explanation and then fill it in using the explanation. Don't forget that the first stone placed is black, meaning all odd numbers are black stones. Here is the result of the puzzle: 31 D: Examine the scroll

Ask Hong Hong Endresult: Q 1: Tanzania - T Q 2: Israel - I Q 3: Asutralia - A Q 4: Nippon - N So its "TIAN" but you can solve the puzzle instant when you ask Honghong "All of them would be great, to be honest with you". Then you get Solve it with the Chinese Letter. That TIAN ist not important only the chinese letter for what TIAN stand.

Step 5: If you solved C from Step 4 Enter the result into the iPad. 31 Play the Game on the iPad Help by every Stage: Stage 1: Right, Down, Left, Right, Down, Left, Right, Down, Left, Up, Right, Down, Left Stage 2: Right, Left, Up, Right, Left, Up, Right, Up, Right Stage 3: Up, Left, Down, Right, Up, Left, Down, Right, Down, Left, Down, Right, Up Stage 4: Right, Up, Right, Down, Left, Up, Left, Right, Up, Right, Down, Left, Up, Left Stage 5: Up, Right, Down, Right, Up, Left, Down The Result: Try the year on top of the mouse as a code on the iPad/ Look at 2 Step 6: If you solved Step 5 Look at 2 for the code to enter on the iPad - 2020 Step 7: If you solved Step 6 Give the Code in the iPad - 2020 Now come: "Another code number for the iPad = mass of Go Stone in g" Now go to 7. Step 8: If you solved Step 7 Now click on 7 to use the digital scale. Weight a Go Stone and go back to the iPad. Result: 6 Step 9: If you solved Step 8 Give the Code in the iPad - 6 Now the Wooden Cabinet open for you. Go to 6. Step 10: If you solved Step 9 Now think carefully about this puzzle which color comes out when you mix the two colors in the equation. Each color is marked with a character. Just see what is required. The result can be found on the internet OR you ask Karina.

Result: Light Green Step 11: If you solved Step 10 Now look at your note with the knowledge of the correct color and enter the number in the iPad. Light Green

Result: 28 Step 12: If you solved Step 11 Give the Number in the iPad - 28 Now the Chinese Text come. In this text you have to mark the TIAN.

Result: "Move the boxes according to where the prime numbers are!" When you solve it then go to 3 and make the box riddle. Step 13: If you solved Step 12 Here you have to find out the prime numbers (all numbers that can only be divided by themselves and by 1) and put the boxes there. Here is the solution: 2, 3, 5, 7, 11, 13, 17

Step 14: If you solved Step 13 Go to 4 and look in the metal boxes. You get the question:"What is the answer to the question about life, the universe and all the rest?" Its a question that is in one Science Fiction Movie/Book. The code number is for the iPad. Ask Karina Result: 42 b]Step 15: If you solved Step 14 Give the Code in the iPad and make the last Test/Game. - 42

This Game is not hard. Its easy. Take the present(Magic Marble) and never use them for yourself. Just help the other people all the time and NEVER use them for yourself. Result:

b]Step 16: If you solved Step 15 Now Ask Meilin about the Result from the Game and the door Open. Here is the best skip for this big Riddle with not mutch work: Just open with 100 the 8(Where the iPad is inside) and then use the iPad with the number 42 and follow Step 15 and you speedrun it. After one run you can skip that part without this trick. Fourth Riddle (Picture Failure) This is the fourth riddle. In this puzzle you have to find things that are inconsistent. Then you have to talk to Honghong. Below this text I will mark the picture as a spoiler so you can see all the stuff.

1. Click on the corn and then to Honghong. "Honghong, ask your encyclopedia up there when corn came to china!" 2. Click on the button and then to Honghong. "When were the first buttons invented?" 3. Click on the individual Go stone and then push to the answers below. "Both Stones on the Point 4-4 are white." Then: "Because people used to put stones on these points in the beginning." Fifth Riddle (Concert) This is the fifth riddle. You have to listen carefully to the opening because the singer says something that is then the answer to your first question.

I follow you Now you have to talk a little bit with the band. Then you have to press the following: "I heard two songs..." Then: "Maybe the accident won't happen at this concert?" Then: "Why not?" Then you can enjoy some of the concert. Then next you can click this: "I nodded." Then something important happens. You need to remember/save this:

0118334499 Date Day This is the day when you can really look forward to a date with the character you like the most. I don't want to sound weird, but I don't quite understand the mechanics of the game yet, so I suggest you be extra nice to the character you like. You shouldn't be mean to the others now. But it may be that if you are friendly to another character like Karina because of her Hoddys and math problems then for example the date with my darling Anna is not possible. One of the best moments in the game for me(Anna Date Day Night):

Sixth Riddle (Escape) This is the sixth riddle. I'll just call it a riddle because you have a few things to consider about the visions. In the first vision this passage is important:

In the second vision this passage is important:

Here comes the first decision to be made after the two unknown men (secret service): "You´re right." Then you have to choose this: "Stop! We should take another road." (From Vision 2 the warning) Then you have to choose this: "Qucik, get on the train on track 2!"(From Vision 1 the warning) Call Someone Now you can use the Number from the Autogrammcard: 0118334499

Seventh Riddle (Wood walk) In the seventh riddle you have to memorize a map very well. (It is best to save it). Then you have to find your destination with the help of the map and the descriptions from the forest.

If one of your three friends is your favorite, then you can go with them and maybe share a nice moment. Here is my resolution: "Straight ahead." Then: "The path straight ahead." Then: "Go around the bend in the path." Then: "Down to the right." Then: "Are Read the full article

[giosiip]

If I had my my own Pokemon League......

My league would be strong and it would have a difference.Instead of having 4 elite members I would have 6 because the more the better.

First my Pokemon League would be located somewhere beautiful and filled with flowers.

When you enter there would be a pokemon center of course and a mini shop or a pokemart you can call it to buy your potions and heals.

Then you would get in a beautiful gold,pink and white life filled with beautiful flower designs.Next there would be security or staff that checks your badges,name and pokemons your gonna use for the elite battle.Then you go straight and enter a door.

Then there will be our "first elite member" Lady Dialwe

Lady Dialwe is really strong and very good but twist...she's not a elite member she's actually a Ultra Level Battler that gets trainers ready for what they actually are about expericence.She is a normal type trainer.Her pokemon are:

Bewear

Furfrou

Persian

Lopunny

They might look plain and easy to defeat but they're not!

After you beat her you will proceed to the next door where we will meet our first elite member Karmon

Karmon is a tough member.He especializes in electrical type.His pokemon are:

Magneton

Manectric

Luxray

Raichu

Heliolisk

They're strong and really a cool team.They will definitely scare your water types.

After you beat him you proceed to a elevator where you will go the second tall floor where you meet our elite member 2

Tiarla.Tiarla is a very gentle person but when it comes to battles she goes ham.She loves water types.Can you beat her?......

Gastrodon

Clawitzer

Wailord

Swampert

Milotic

That's it but it sounds like a tough team doesn't it?After you beat her you proceed to the next door.There is our mighty member 3 Jacob Nisary.He loves his flying and they are:

Crobat

Noivern

Swellow

Corviknight

Fearow

Altaria

You need hide your pokemon that are weak to flying type!He is from heonn region!Now you need to get on a elevator again to reach highest floor of the building to meet Karina elite member 4.Fire type lover:

Darmanitan

Magmar

Arcanine

Typlhosion

Torkoal

Blaziken

The battle will be lit just like Travis Scott concerts.When you proceed to next door a strong battler awaits you.Elite member 5 Jackary.He is a rock and fighting type battler.They are:

Makuhita

Onix

Lairon

Machamp

Rampardos

Mega Lucario

They're strong and hard to beat.When you beat him you'll obtain two items.3x rare candies and a super potion.Then you will proceed to the next door which is pink,fluffy

and white it's really beautiful!You'll meet our last member!The room is beautiful and bright and there she is standing.Snixlowra,

fairy type battler:

Togekiss

Primarina

Gardevoir

Sylveon

Galarian Rapidash

Hatterene

The battle will be magical!Finally you've beaten the Elite 6.Now all you have to do is beat the Pokemon Champion.......MASTER GIOSIIP!Giosiip is the raining champion for many years and is said to be impossible to defeat.While battling GIOSIIP you have to have 9 pokemon beacause she will also have 9 pokemon.So there will be 9 pokemon who will battle.There will be a little pokemon center with a PC and a pokemart.

Giosiip(me) is really strong so it'll be hard beating me:

Steelix

Clefable

Wailord

Shaymin

Kommo-o

Garchomp

Palkia

Palkia is a strong pokemon and very brave...?BUT there's no doubt 90% will lose so yeah..but if you do beat her your now the champion and a master!

Let me know the 9 pokemon youll be using on your journey to become the master or 6 pokemon it doesn't matter!

[galenfm]

          ·ﾟ☀ i am already so tired of myself and i have class soon aGAIN ........ ugh well again , i am teddy , a she / her pronoun user and current mun to two muses in this delightful shining star of a group ! i now present galen , my newest gaming gf creation who just wants everyone to fucking include each other ! my preferred plotting method is via discord over at 𝐤𝐲𝐨𝐬𝐡𝐢 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐫 !#6439 , i’ll make a plotting call there and i’ll reach out to everyone who likes this !

      *       read   all   about   galen sorenson ,   otherwise   affectionately  nicknamed   the champ.   the   twenty - one  year  old  gamer  and  blossoming  actress  is   widely   known   for   being   uninhibited,   magnanimous,   self - deprecating,   capricious   and   recently   made   headlines   when   they   allegedly   dropped a sponsor due to their support of autism speaks .   apparently   judas   claims   to   be   sitting   on   an   even   bigger  story   involving   them   -   whatever   the   truth   may   be,   i'm   sure   it   won't   stay   hidden   for   long.   &    a screaming laugh following a jumpscare waking the whole house , overthinking an interaction hours after it’s passed , a childhood spent begging to be read the ugly duckling and lingering on every word , neurodiversity stickers pasted all over a gaming pc. ◜   ⭒  ic:   alisha boe.   cis woman.   she / her.    

BIO : mohammed and karina sorenson have never been a conventional pair . to start , they meet when he , the biggest male model of the 80′s , is hired to walk for her winter collection , being one of europe’s top knitwear designers who never seems to go out of style . he’s eccentric and as magnetic as can be , she’s demure and has never said a word regarding anything but her work . they don’t make sense , but they’re married two years in secret before finally making their relationship known . mohammed , progressive and independent minded despite his traditional somali family , takes her last name and relocates to norway , where karina gives birth to a stunning baby girl that steals the hearts of the eu as the tabloids go crazy over her . 

elissa is nearly 18 when her mother has the news to shock a nation : she’s miraculously pregnant , once more , far enough along that she intends to keep the baby despite both her and mohammed being into their 40′s . karina , having named their first baby , gives the reigns over to mo for their second child , but isn’t too happy with his pick

galen literally translates to mad , to incorrect , she argues , elissa firmly on her side

it gives her a chance to choose her own path . it gives her something to make for herself , mohammed counters , and that ends that .

galen is born in olso and is every bit as precious as her sister , now old enough to even potentially be her mother . her parents , busy with their ventures but over the moon to have a new baby in the house , raise her for her first few years in a small norwegian town to shield her from the prying eyes of the public

mohammed is first to notice that she doesn’t respond to her name or seem interested in looking at him , keeping her focus on whatever toy catches her eye for the day . he and karina write it off when she doesn’t hit her talking milestones or hold crayons the way other toddlers do , or figure she’s just an introvert when her preschool teacher mentions she doesn’t enjoy playing with the other kids during free time

they can’t ignore it any longer when she hits grade school , instantly falling behind with the rigorous private school pace and eventually warranting a visit from the school psychologist . she remembers the worry that paints her parents weathered faces when , at six years old , she’s given a laundry list of diagnoses and recommended for “ alternate �� schooling

something about the way her teachers treat her , so broken and unworthy of respect , makes her shut down , regressing with any progress she had shown and really refusing to cooperate with most adults she comes by . elissa is a budding starlet taking weekends off from film roles to spend time with her little sister , knowing that behind the quiet dark eyes of the child who wouldn’t look at you was a bright mind teeming with unsaid thoughts

her parents go to all ends to hire her private tutors and special therapists , which help her keep up at grade level . she’s in middle school when her science teacher , noting galen’s aptitude on exams and incredible recall , says she may fare better in an american school , recommending one he knows will accept a prestigious line such as the sorensons . 

she moves to pennsylvania at 12 and the change is hard . she again regresses and suffers at the hands of her peers at the private catholic school she attends , her parents reaching a level of despair thinking they’ve failed their daughter , unable to get her the help she deserves despite their best attempts . galen , sick of being deemed the broken doll , seeks out an escape from the world to try and give her some reprieve from the constant pity she wishes she could express is only doing more harm than good

she likes makeup but sucks at it , enjoys art but can’t seem to draw for the life of her . she knows she’s tone deaf as all hell and doesn’t like sweating enough to be willing to dance . for once in her life , despite all the years of trying to ignore the well - meaning comments of those around her , galen starts to believe maybe there is something wrong about her .

it’s elissa’s celeb boyfriend who buys her an xbox for christmas , figuring the two could play it as a bonding experience . brimming with quiet gratitude , galen spends hours on the damn thing in between study sessions . tutors notice an improvement in focus , more motivation to work and get things done so she can finally hop back onto the console and escape into a fantasy .

she begs her parents to let her do homeschooling for her high school years , to which they agree and she thrives . she upgrades now to a gaming pc and plays through everything she can get her hands on . people on her teams don’t know her , and they don’t treat her any differently than anyone else , so before long she’s unlocking a bubblier side to herself that just feels content .

she records her playthroughs in silence ( she’s gaining confidence , but still shy , and god knows how the internet treats female gamers ) and uploads them to youtube under a stupid channel name with only a few hundred subscribers . noting the accuracy and speed with which galen destroys shooter games , someone suggests she try overwatch .

galen is hooked in an instant . she plays matches in between daily activities and quickly climbs ranks to becoming a force to be reckoned with in the competitive community . after finding a team where she feels particularly at - home , they launch to stardom due to their sweeping wins and incredible cohesion . galen becomes something of an overnight sensation , quiet and unassuming , and this recognition feels like the validation she’s been seeking for herself this whole time

she blossoms and cements her legacy as an overwatch competitive titan by the time she graduates , reaching grandmaster status and being known throughout the community for her strategy and technique . her youtube channel grows exponentially , and after realizing this is a viable future for herself , galen posts her playthroughs with her commentary and finds that people love what she does . she moves to new york in order to collaborate with other big gamers , and on her channel , she does a combination of horror games , overwatch trainings , and new release reviews and builds a following similar to markiplier or jackseptic eye , with a second vlog channel to document when she goes off to tournaments or simple things from her days

she’s 19 when her repeated wins get the attention of a massive gaming studio who invite her to come record some lines as an easter egg of sorts for her fans in a new game they’re developing . her work is met with rave reviews and suddenly game titans are nearly breaking down her door for more voice acting work . galen , who’s always felt like the ugly duckling compared to her sister’s perfect legacy , takes this opportunity to emulate her sister’s career , and nearly doubles over when a film studio approaches her with interest of casting her as a supporting role in a project of theirs . though she’s never pictured herself to be in front of a camera quite like that , with some coaching , galen nails it , and finds the high of acting catapults her from relative fame into newfound stardom .

she’s one of the newer members of the brat pack considering her youtube fame was more inconspicuous than her film work , though she still is adjusting to life in the limelight . she stays close to her roots and continues to post regularly to her channel and streams on twitch , collaborating with other increasingly big names to gain her more views . 

galen’s most notable push since rising to fame has been her advocacy for neurodiversity and recognition for how poorly people with learning disabilities are treated in society . she doesn’t go in detail with her diagnoses but she does make jokes about them on her stream in order to normalize their mentions . she recently dropped a sponsor for their support of autism speaks and donates a majority of her merch revenue and tournament winnings to advocacy causes . she’s proud of who she is and hopes the future can be shaped into what kids like her needed when they were growing up .

galen lives up to her father’s prediction this whole time and changes her channel’s name to galengaming , proud to tout the moniker that spurred her to create a path she wanted rather than be told who to be by the world around her . 

PERSONALITY : galen has an energy about her that is like the sun hidden behind a cloud . upon first impressions , she’s a bit more timorous and nervous as she gets her footing of wherever she may be , especially with some of the more public - eye type settings she’s been put in since sort of being sucked into the brat pack . she wants to make sure she’s acting appropriately for whatever the situation calls and may often seem tense or apprehensive .

once she’s loosened up or seen a familiar face she can latch onto , she blossoms into a ball of unfiltered energy . she loves humor and memes and can often be found competitively launching memes she’s found into her team’s group discord server . she’s witty and often makes herself the butt of her own jokes in order to lighten the mood , though she’ll be sure to clarify that she loves herself and only does so to keep herself humble lmao . 

her playthroughs are VERY stream of consciousness but its this lack of filter that seems to be her fans’ favorite thing about her , a willingness to say whatever unhinged thing she may be thinking followed by a shrieking scream after a jumpscare or a string of screeching expletives after missing a goal

she can perhaps sometimes be too unfiltered and unwittingly come across as harsh or blunt , though she’ll often realize this after the fact and feel incredibly remorseful . galen has a habit to overthink and will panic for the rest of the night if she fears she’s inadvertently offended you , but won’t apologize due to being too nervous to figure out exactly how to do so ssksksks

one of galen’s most notable qualities is her heart , her benevolence and empathy that lead her to want everyone to feel included regardless of how different they may be . though she tries to give everyone a chance , there’s a fair amount of people perhaps too materialistic for her to get along with , and her polite way to ignore them is simply keeping her distance and pretending to not know them

which . in her own way . comes across as shady sksksk “oh you know so and so ? ” omg no i dont haha who are they “ u literally met them last night ” hahaha no i didnt x

she can be prone to mood swings simply due to a sensitivity to her own feelings and a tendency to overthink . she’ll wonder why she feels weird and even if it’s just because she’s hungry she’ll assume it’s because she said “thanks you too” when the cashier told her to enjoy her meal and then she has to sulk and play animal crossing alone in the dark for an hour before she can come out and be chill again even tho she feels worse than when she started bc shes just HUNGRY ASKSKKS

she’s used to being infantilized so she tends to be sort of short tempered if people talk down to her . this is when the wit kicks in as she is really just tired of being treated poorly by people who don’t even know her and has decided she will refuse to take any more shit ! can be a bit snippy even without realizing it but if she’s close to you she’ll usually be like “ oh my god that was rude as fuck im so sorry ” and feel bad for 20 minutes even after you say its okay lmaoo

random blurbs : um DONT ask me who she plays in her overwatch tournaments bc im using opossum and wikipedia to figure shit out as i goes , but i know for sure she calls out a lot of misogyny in the gaming world on social media !

always has her switch with her i KNOW this for a fact

anime nerd ....... nobody call her out on it she will deny until she is blue in the face and then hum the one punch man intro in her streams as if hundreds of thousands of people arent witnesses LMAO

this is so stereotypical nerd but she hates the outdoors ! says the US is so dirty and stuffy she says scandanavia is the only place she’ll ever like to be outside , she slips into norwegian when she’s recording if she gets jumpscared so she doesnt get demonetized for over - swearing lmao

also speaks french because she picked it up from her mom ! her dad usually only spoke english or norwegian , so galen didn’t get to pick up on much somali or arabic but she def knows at least a few words here and there

she vlogs a good amount of her life but she’s kinda shy about talking about who she’s dating , will probably try to keep her romantic life to herself !

excited as all hell to get into acting but the super fame that’s coming with it kinda freaks her out . she knows it’s a trade off bc she loves the feeling it gives her but hates how people are now overstepping a lot of boundaries that they didn’t before when she was just a popular youtuber

inspos are juno from the iconic movie juno , toph beifong from atla , louis theroux YES THE DOCUMENTARY GUY LEAF ME AL ONE , & amy from booksmart !

#cross.start #* ◞ 𝐢 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝖈𝖚𝖙 𝒕𝒐 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 . ❪ 𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐃 : INTRO . #❪ yes her tags are carly rae jep/sen lyrics and hall and oates songs respectively #no i will not apologize or stop hyping EITHER of those musical geniuses up

[herondalelucies]

rules: answer the questions, then ask ten of your own for those you’ve tagged to answer.

thanks @lord-fallen for tagging me !! <3

1. Do you research for your WIP(s), and what kind of research is it?

no i usually don’t! i set them in either completely fantasy worlds i create or in a society/placing i’m familiar with mostly because i am lazy and research will get me approximately nowhere.   

2. How do you select the names of your characters?

i search baby websites like i’m a mom and usually go with “unusual ____ names” and pray i find one i like; or i keyboard smash

3. What made you want to actually start writing? 

reading books ! i fell in love with books when i was a kid and never grew out of loving how much i could want to care for another character, how invested i was in a world or plotline --> then it became me creating my own children and here we are

4. What’s the most difficult part about writing for you?

the beginning and probably any sort of an outline; i like to freestyle my life which is not advisable for novels lol

5. What genre do you read, but wouldn’t consider to write a WIP in?

oh? sci-fi ! i have read some (warcross by marie lu) but i don’t think i’d be any good at writing sci-fi mostly bc my brain isn’t wired well in technological terms and whatnot (hence why everything fantasy is written in like medieval settings)

6. What character personality do you enjoy writing the most and why?

oh hm,, how do i describe this? like soft but hurting sort of personality, someone who has gone through loss and is working their way out of it? i love, love angst and growth, which is why a lot of my characters reflect that (hopefully) (yes, if anyone noticed, i attempted to describe what tanashi is because that’s the sort of [male] characters i usually write?)

7. What is your proudest example of symbolism in your WIP?

ooooh in my wip specifically? i think tanashi’s description of bryce being a hurricane was pretty fun, though there is a part in tmrw’s chapter where kai describes karina’s beauty/facial features, or UH maybe the one where karina (?) talked about how bryce was like clear water bc she was so expressive with her emotions

(list one? idk how to)

8. What is your favorite original creature / species / race? (e.g. a type of a witch, animal, shapeshifter, etc.)

original???? i um, in a novel idea i have like elves? with specific oriented powers but like is that really original,,,

9. Does your writing have a common theme, and which is it?

anything you can call ya is like, the essence of what my writing probably reflects; theme wise, it’d be angst angst and angst+fluff

10. Paper or laptop/PC?

laptop !! i used to write/plan on paper back when i did some short stories/”show” format of fanfics on an old site i will not name, but now i’m all laptop man i lost all my papers xD also its tiring to transcribe your work from paper to laptop

okay my questions for y’all:

1. what are some of your favorite tropes to write in? 2. would you say your characters reflect you as an outer person (like who you are publicly) or you as an inner person (who you are secretly within, your dreams and aspirations, who you wish to be)? or neither? 3. was there a specific book or author that inspired you to want to write? or did you just have the creative bug all along? 4. what is your process for coming up with a wip? do you start with characters or plot? 5. what do you think is your strongest point in writing? 6. what is a genre you thought you wouldn’t like but found yourself enjoying when you tried it? (if any) 7. angst or fluff? 8. do you like redemption arcs for villains? 9. do you have a writing playlist? if so, what sorts of sounds are on it? 10. if you could take your favorite book character and place it in your wip, how do you think they would fare?

tagging: @emdrabbles @andromdae @rapunzelles @popovs @luxaurorae @maergheritas and anyone else who wants to do it !! 

#tag games #tagged #this was fun

[kylorenpunk]

Well I challenged @masonjar828 to do this ask meme like 200 years ago and he challenged me back but I’ve been busy so here we are. 

200: My crush’s name is: don’t have one. men suck. 199: I was born in: Mickey Mouse’s lair aka Orlando 198: I am really: trying not to make a self deprecating joke rn 197: My cellphone company is: Not being disclosed bc I don’t need stalkers 196: My eye color is: brown 195: My shoe size is: 8. I’m pretty sure I’m supposed to be taller than I am bc of that shoe size 194: My ring size is: Uh no idea. Maybe 9? 193: My height is: Five foot three inches 192: I am allergic to: A couple of antibiotics but that’s it  191: My 1st car was: 1995 Honda Accord. RIP Goldeen. 190: My 1st job was: Technically I was an assistant for an occupational therapy clinic that paid me under the table. My first paid job was a pool attendant for a hotel.  189: Last book you read: My professor’s shitty textbook.  188: My bed is: currently unmade.  187: My pet: doesn’t exist. Bro is allergic to the entire animal kingdom 186: My best friend: I have multiple and love them all very much  185: My favorite shampoo is: Just recently bought a new shampoo from OGX (coconut curls I think?)  184: Xbox or ps3: xbox 183: Piggy banks are: Not a bad concept. I have upgraded to using mason jars to save money  182: In my pockets: Not wearing pockets atm. Usually I only carry my phone tho 181: On my calendar: Is a bunch of doctor’s appointments 180: Marriage is: Fantastic with the right person 179: Spongebob can: ??? do whatever he wants? idk what op was thinking 178: My mom: is great and shouldn’t have to deal with my shit 177: The last three songs I bought were? I haven’t bought music in over two years. Spotify is my life. 176: Last YouTube video watched: I watch so many a day that I forgot what I last watched.  175: How many cousins do you have? 5 on paternal side. 3 on maternal. But I’m hispanic so it’s def more than immediate family  174: Do you have any siblings? 1 and he’s a pain but I love him 173: Are your parents divorced? nope. fun fact. I used to think divorce was normal as a child and wondered when I would get a second set of parents.  172: Are you taller than your mom? No I’m like 4 inches shorter 171: Do you play an instrument? is mayonnaise an instrument 170: What did you do yesterday? future job training and watched my brother [ I Believe In ] 169: Love at first sight: Lust at first sight  168: Luck: kinda 167: Fate: sure 166: Yourself: a lot more than I used to  165: Aliens: why not 164: Heaven: in a way 163: Hell: sure 162: God: the catholic in me says yes 161: Horoscopes: yes and no  160: Soul mates: tough question. 21 year old me would have said yes. 23 me is on the fence. Maybe for other people but I don’t really believe it for myself.  159: Ghosts: I love ghost walks so I hope they’re real 158: Gay Marriage: Of fucking course 157: War: No 156: Orbs: Isn’t this the same as ghosts? 155: Magic: No  [ This or That ] 154: Hugs or Kisses: Either one has it’s benefits 153: Drunk or High: Never been high so I guess drunk  152: Phone or Online: they mean the same thing now 151: Red heads or Black haired: dark hair 150: Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes 149: Hot or cold: hot  148: Summer or winter: summer 147: Autumn or Spring: spring 146: Chocolate or vanilla: depends. rn I want vanilla 145: Night or Day: day 144: Oranges or Apples: oranges 143: Curly or Straight hair: doesn’t matter. I feel more myself with straight hair tho 142: McDonalds or Burger King: mcdonald’s  141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk  140: Mac or PC: pc. Apple is a peice of shit.  139: Flip flops or high heals: heals 138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: this is a weird question 137: Coke or Pepsi: depends on whether it’s a can, glass or on ice 136: Hillary or Obama: lol was this made in 2008 135: Burried or cremated: not sure. i wanna say burried tho 134: Singing or Dancing: I’m bad at both 133: Coach or Chanel:  neither 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who 131: Small town or Big city: small town 130: Wal-Mart or Target: target  129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: ben stiller 128: Manicure or Pedicure: pedicure. my hands never last 127: East Coast or West Coast: east  126: Your Birthday or Christmas: christmas bc I can see my family 125: Chocolate or Flowers: flowers 124: Disney or Six Flags: six flags despite the fact that i’ve never been 123: Yankees or Red Sox: I don’t give a shit about sports [ Here’s What I Think About ] 122: War: dumb 121: George Bush: dumb 120: Gay Marriage: I’m hoping for a day where the LGBTQ+ community is no longer discrimated against 119: The presidential election: dumb 118: Abortion: No woman should be denied a right to abortion  117: MySpace: yeah this was made in 2008 116: Reality TV: dumb 115: Parents: great wonderful  114: Back stabbers: dumb 113: Ebay: useful 112: Facebook: kinda useful 111: Work: a necessity 110: My Neighbors: I don’t talk to them 109: Gas Prices: could be lower 108: Designer Clothes: I don’t care 107: College: a scam but education is worth it 106: Sports: depends on the sport 105: My family: great wonderful 104: The future: idk [ Last time I ] 103: Hugged someone: yesterday 102: Last time you ate: when I started this thing 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: last month 100: Cried in front of someone: Two weeks ago 99: Went to a movie theater: going tonight 98: Took a vacation: three years ago. going soon tho 97: Swam in a pool: I don’t even remember.  96: Changed a diaper: never 95: Got my nails done: a year and a half ago 94: Went to a wedding: a year and a half ago 93: Broke a bone: never 92: Got a peircing: three years ago 91: Broke the law: probs when I was underage drinking 90: Texted: yesterday [ MISC ] 89: Who makes you laugh the most: all of my friends 88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: free food and family 87: The last movie I saw: toy story 4 86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: starting my career job 85: The thing im not looking forward to: taxes being taken out of my paycheck 84: People call me: Karina, Kari or Rina 83: The most difficult thing to do is: let go of someone in your life 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope 81: My zodiac sign is: cancer 80: The first person i talked to today was: no one. Update my boss just called lol 79: First time you had a crush: 1st grade lmao 78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: myself 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: uh recently I think  76: Right now I am talking to: Romantic? no one Normally? No one lmao  75: What are you going to do when you grow up: I’m grown but I’m not disclosing my job on here 74: I have/will get a job: already have one 73: Tomorrow: I’m working 72: Today: I’m cleaning 71: Next Summer: No idea 70: Next Weekend: no idea 69: I have these pets: no I don’t 68: The worst sound in the world: styrofoam 67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my mother 66: People that make you happy: family and friends 65: Last time I cried: Thursday 64: My friends are: cool great wonderful 63: My computer is: working 62: My School: I’m graduated 61: My Car: I need to wash today 60: I lose all respect for people who: have no respect 59: The movie I cried at was: toy story 4 58: Your hair color is: brown 57: TV shows you watch: Sabrina, jane the virgin 56: Favorite web site: twitter 55: Your dream vacation: new york 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: wisdom teeth 53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium rare 52: My room is: a mess 51: My favorite celebrity is: chris evans 50: Where would you like to be: on vacation 49: Do you want children: yes 48: Ever been in love: three times. Ironically only one was with someone I actually dated 47: Who’s your best friend: I have multiple 46: More guy friends or girl friends: good mixture of both 45: One thing that makes you feel great is: makeup 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: a few 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: hell no 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: not a physical list 41: Have you pre-named your children: kinda 40: Last person I got mad at: no disclosing 39: I would like to move to: the smokey mountains 38: I wish I was a professional: MUA [ My Favorites ] 37: Candy: lifesaver gummies 36: Vehicle: hondas 35: President: obama 34: State visited: TN 33: Cellphone provider: ATT 32: Athlete: n/a 31: Actor: i can’t choose 30: Actress: cant choose 29: Singer: can’t choose 28: Band: currently little mix 27: Clothing store: rip charolette russe 26: Grocery store: publix is the only acceptable floridian answer 25: TV show: jane the virgin 24: Movie: high school musical 23: Website: twitter 22: Animal: meerkat 21: Theme park: busch gardens 20: Holiday: halloween 19: Sport to watch: soccer  18: Sport to play: none 17: Magazine: n/a 16: Book: eragon 15: Day of the week: friday 14: Beach: n/a 13: Concert attended: hannah montana? 12: Thing to cook: beans 11: Food: rice 10: Restaurant: taco bell 9: Radio station: n/a 8: Yankee candle scent: n/a 7: Perfume: anything fruity 6: Flower: rose? 5: Color: pink or blue 4: Talk show host: ellen 3: Comedian: n/a 2: Dog breed:  black lab 1: Did you answer all these truthfully?  wouldn’t you like to know

#ask meme #personal shit #why do i curse myself with these #sorry mason

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the wedding of prince harry inspired me to think of barbie movies lmao. What the wedding of sophia and nicholas would be like? I mean how fancy will it be, who will be the guests? and what about broadcasting on tv? if you got some ideas, I'd love to hear them

Firstly, I think that Sophia doesn’t really like fancy things. She likes it okay when she’s at PCS bc it’s kind of a magical fairytale thing but then she becomes the princess and everything is fancy all the time and she really, really hates it so she tries to get around a lot of rules and restrictions where she can. Like, I have a very clear picture of her in her like, queen office, barefoot but she’s wearing a maxi dress so no one can tell. But she knows and she likes that little bit of rebellion. So, the wedding is basically as pared down as a royal wedding could possibly be. I don’t really know beyond that, altho fun fact: According to my timeline, she and Nicholas actually got married in the summer of 2017. (With the movie taking place 2010-2011.)

Sophia told Nicholas, like, right after graduation that she liked him but didn’t really have time to date right then bc you know, she had just become the princess and there was a lot to do with that while they had to do DNA tests to confirm and then she had to stop Dame Devin’s construction project from tearing down her old neighborhood, and then of course the murder trial was all going on. So they didn’t get together right away but Nicholas was like if you need someone to talk to about all that craziness, I’m right here for you. Also, sadly, Prince died pretty soon after she graduated (bc he’s like an 18 year old dog and golden retrievers usually only live like 12 years so he’s ancient). However, on her next birthday Nicholas got her a puppy named Princess, which was after a lot of that all had calmed down, and that’s when they really started dating. (Also fun fact, I think Prince was a gift from her father on her first birthday so it’s really like a full circle thing.)

It bothers me a lot that Sophia is crowned princess at the end of the movie, bc the established highest title is queen so it’s definitely a kingdom and not a principality or anything. So to get around that I decided that to be crowned queen of Gardania, you have to be married or turn 21, which Sophia says is a stupid rule so when they start dating, she tells Nicholas in no uncertain terms does she want him to propose before she’s 21 bc she’s definitely going to age into being queen and NOT get married to do it. He’s fine with that and is basically like well just tell me when you want me to propose then lol. Which is not for a few years after that, obviously, but Sophia really puts it off for longer than she really would have liked bc she hates all the fuss about it and she hates her life being so public and doesn’t want it to turn into a whole Thing, but she’s a queen so of course it has to be a thing. (Sometimes she wishes she never found out about being the lost princess, but then she has to remind herself that at least there’s not a murderer running the country anymore.)

I imagine the wedding would be on TV, since the PCS graduation was. I don’t know beyond that. (I don’t watch the real royal weddings or anything so idk what all goes on there.)

And finally, guest list, which is pretty much off the top of my head and obviously doesn’t include everyone, just the notable characters. I tried to group them all reasonably and didn’t include all the relationships but hopefully the gist is there.

From Gardania: Miss Willows, Emily Willows, Delancy (duh), Sloane, Ms Privet

From Meribella: King Frederic (Sophia’s grandfather), Tori, Meredith, Trevi, Duchess Amelia, Queen Jocelyn (Frederic’s new wife), Felix (Frederic’s son b. 2014)

From Narcissia: Queen Portia (+ Brad), Princess Courtney (+ Marcus), Lady Lorraine, Lady Josette

From Bellmere: Queen Camilla, King Albert, Princess Olivia

From Windemere: King Kristoff, Queen Karina, Kara (+ Frankie?), Zooey, Gabby, Lady Anne, Finn Oxford

From Bulovia: King Terrance, Queen Adrienne, Alexa (+ Kieran), Lillian

From various kingdoms: Princess Hadley, Princess Isla

I feel like I’m forgetting a lot but it’s late so here you go

#mel irl #barbie babbles #long post #anonymous #thanks for asking #nicholas x sophia #brilliant echo: princess charm school

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Part 87 Alignment May Vary: The Sea of Moving Ice

One of the biggest rules of being a good DM is letting your players take direction and control over the story. It is hard to do, sometimes, especially in D&D, where the DM is often put in the position of knowing everything the PCs are going to encounter (per a dungeon map) and in charge of directing a story that they are told by a module. It is something I have gotten better at as I’ve developed as a DM and yet this game presents a unique challenge in that it has gone on for so long and has incorporated so many story elements and plot lines that, as we draw close to a conclusion, there is an element of linearity that is being assumed (we aren’t starting any new huge unresolveable plotlines).

During this next section, which took us about six sessions to play through, and will be broken into two blog posts, I had to remind myself of that a lot and ultimately was able to let go and let the PCs steer the plot into areas I didn’t foresee at all.

Speaking of steering, this section opens with the Players traveling through a teleport in Vraath Keep to Waterdeep, and from there boarding a vessel, an Icebreaker, to take them north into the uncharted Sea of Moving Ice. This is an adventure lifted straight from Tyranny of Dragons, though changed drastically to fit our story needs. I fell in love with the idea of a dungeon embedded in an iceberg and really wanted to bring that into the campaign.

Brief note on the party’s time in Waterdeep: just to set the stage for the current political climate, while in Waterdeep the party learns that while the Alliance (a political banding together of Waterdeep, Baldur’s Gate, and five lesser cities, whose seat of power is in Waterdeep) has allowed Karina to link her teleport to their city, they are not very supportive of her war effort and feel that getting involved in a war on foreign soil in the Elsir Vale is not very worth their time or attention. They feel powerful enough to repel any invasion that happens to cross the water and seek to attack the Sword Coast; they worry  that Karina’s power and influence make her a figure that people would follow and there are some that mutter that the best thing to happen would be for her and the undead to die fighting each other. 

Into the White

So why are the PCs heading into the Frozen North? What are they looking for? The set up I use for this adventure is that Karina gets a vision in a dream, a message from a dragon she once gave The Rod of Storms to, in exchange for “treasure when she needed it.” The dream tells her to go to the Sea of Moving Ice and find a particular iceberg named Oyaviggaton, which is native for “Winter’s Crown.” However, Karina cannot leave Vraath Keep right now. This vision comes 80 years or so after she initially traded for it. She did not suspect she would be in the middle of running a war when it came. Karina sends the players, in her stead, telling them that her visions showed her an iceberg, and beneath the iceberg, a library. And beneath the library, something for her, waiting... encased in a massive wall of ice.

Cliff Notes: A long while ago, during the Haggemoth adventure, Karina traded the Rod of Storms away to a Bronze Dragon. It was a cool moment and at the time it let me get rid of a troublesome item and focus on the character growth that was happening with Karina. But the dragon made a promise: one day, when the time was right, it would repay her with a gift. Now that time has come! The Rod of Storms ended up coming back into the game, as well, in the hands of one of the Red Hand generals, and from there it was taken by Nysyries, and when she was killed by Harpies it.... geez, I actually don’t recall after that. I remember at some point Aldric got it and it got powered up by an elemental elder on the plane of air, and then Imoaza killed Aldric to get the Rod and then it was used to build Black Razor Alpha... I mean, this item has woven itself in and out of our story. I thank Robert Kendzie for designing it, as part of Haggemoth!

There is a mechanic in the Sea of Moving Ice adventure that determines, using simple dice rolls, how often a random encounter occurs and after how many encounters the PCs find the iceberg they are looking for. I take this table for our use, but with a twist: I come up with a bunch of new encounters and, depending on what they roll, decide to use those to build up the next part of the story. Imoaza’s player ends up getting the first encounter and it’s one I had hoped to use... three Buer Hags (from Vollo’s Guide).

Buer hags are ice Hags, and I play this encounter up, where they attack the Icebreaker while wheeling and laughing about in a storm they created. They try to lock the Icebreaker onto the side of a huge glacier and partially succeed before the party drives them off with powerful magic. But a few things come out of this encounter. First, they realize that Ruz is a changeling and they tell her something strange: “You’ve come looking for the other one, haven’t you? But you can’t have her. You can’t have our child!”

Also, during the fight, one of the Hags descends on a crewsman manning the crow’s nest and brutally devours him alive. The gory display combined with a blast of a spell from the Hags to amplify its effects overloads Milosh’s circuits and he becomes convinced that he is on a mission in his old life, chasing something infinitely important and yet completely undefinable across the fertile plains of his homeworld, Eberon. He charges out into the icy waste and disappears. After combat, Imoaza and Ruz wait for him for a while while helping to fix up the ship. But when he doesn’t return after an hour, they decide they need to go find him. What follows is definitely a side quest and was nothing I expected to happen this adventure, but it is a piece I love. All three of them become lost out in the snowy expanse of the glacier, trying to come up with ways to find their way and find each other. Like Milosh uses a scrying spell to try to find if anyone is around him. And Imoaza has a cool idea. A while back I mentioned she got a glimpse of the Weave, the magic that surrounds everything. So now she asks if she can try to find the Weave again and use it to trace Milosh’s passage. It’s such a fun idea, we run with it, and Imoaza rolls for Arcana, scoring a critical success! With this, the dice are telling the story for us: Imoaza not only taps into the Weave Sight but finds that she can see more than ever before! Around this time, Milosh casts his scrying spell, and to Imoaza it is like a siren going off in her Weave Sight. She tells Ruz and they head off towards Milosh’s location.

The crater Milosh found himself in was cut in half by a humongous Chasm. Milosh thought briefly of taking shelter there from the coming storm but almost immediately discarded the thought. Something about the chasm was uninviting. Or no, that wasn’t quite right. Uninviting means uncomfortable, the opposite of desirous. And a hole in the ground certainly fit that description. But the chasm went beyond this. Looking at it Milosh could almost see the chasm walls pulsing, like they were breathing, like he was staring down the gullet of a gigantic black beast. Milosh didn’t react without purpose to most things, yet staring into that void he shuddered involuntarily and took a step back.

The Crater does indeed hold a monster and it attacks just as Ruz and Imoaza find and reach Milosh. A mighty Remorhaz bursts free of the chasm and chases down the players, fully intending to swallow one of them to slowly digest as it returns to hibernation. Rather than fight it, Ruz casts fly on everyone and they boost out of there, Milosh firing a delayed fireball out of his gun-arm into the furnace like maw of the Remorhaz as they do... as the Remorhaz is immune to fire, it does nothing, except convince them they are making the right choice. This sets us up to run a crazy chase scene, the Remorhaz charging through the snow beneath them as they fly away, trying to not let the building storm knock them back into the awakened creature’s grasp.

They eventually lose it and make their way back to the ship, but one more thing happens before they set sail.

it looked like an abandoned battle site than a camp, Ruz could now see. She silently thanked Karina for the gift of the magical robes that seemed to keep her warm as she bent in the snow and ran a fur-gloved hand through the wreckage of bone and wood that she had found nestled into the shadow of the rock. She frowned as her hand bumped against something else, something made of leather. A bag... and inside, a journal? She picked it up. The pages had not gotten wet, thankfully, and so she teased open the frozen spine and began to read.

As they finally sail away from this glacier, the party spots an old campsite next to what looks like a fortress wall and decides to investigate. They find the remains of some kind of explorer’s party and Ruz finds a journal he does not share with the others. It belonged to a Changeling, someone who was being rescued from the Buer Hags who had stolen her. However, before the party could escape, they were found here in their final campsite and wiped out (or so Ruz can assume, for the journal ends with the words, “I can feel it in the air. My mothers are close.”)

While Ruz reads, Imoaza and Milosh examine the fortress wall. Imoaza finds strange runes all over it and before she can warn him, Milosh scales the wall and sees beyond it where a hole disappears into the earth. Imoaza’s Weave Sight shows her the runes lighting up and something awakening beyond the wall, just as Milosh hears the sobbing of babies coming from the hole and a scrabbling sound.

Terried, the three dart back to the ship and sail away. 

Ready Player Two?

The players are ambushed. It starts with Kobolds, dropping boulders on their ship as it sails down a narrow avenue formed by two glaciers that will, over the course of decades, eventually touch each other. Imoaza flies up to the glacier lip to do battle and while up there, she is attacked by something far worse, a hideous long limbed humanoid which makes a cry like a wailing child as it leaps at her. Imoaza is taken.

This scenario was set up based on their action last time, which released something, or many somethings, that have been hunting them since. But it was also a necessity from a meta game perspective, as we have a session where Imoaza’s player won’t be joining us. So this removes her from the action while keeping suspension high.

I had intended this to be a quick scene, where the PCs realize they are outnumbered and have to abandon their ship to sail away on rowboats, as the boulders from the Kobolds are sinking their boat. Ruz actually does something incredibly clever: he uses a chromatic orb of cold to freeze the holes in the ship and asks if the ship can stay afloat long enough to get them out of there. I say yes... but then I also effectively cut this out as a possibility as three of the long limbed demon-like horrors drop down on the deck and start killing crew.

The result is the scene I intended: there are some nice moments of tension as Ruz and Milosh try to fight back while also freeing their rowboats (some cool uses of Telekineses to do this) and trying to save as many of the crew as possible from the horrid beasts. At the same time, it puts the players on rails more than I like to do. My general thoughts when DMing are not to overplan and not to try to force players into a specific scenario unless the story absolutely calls for it. Those times are RARE, and even then should be made as natural and organic as possible and STILL a DM should be ready for everything to change on them in an instant. Truly good games come from those unexpected changes, those twists and turns that the DM cannot anticipate and must follow to their conclusion. In this case, having the float still be a factor would not have been a detriment to the story and would have made the players feel empowered, which has always been my goal. But I miss it in the moment, and so they escape the ship and Milosh blows it up with a delayed fireball (kinda becoming his Megabuster Signature move).

Still, despite me missing this opportunity, other things arise because of it. The PCs pick up a few survivors out of the water, including the one-eyed, hook handed Captain, and set out into a lonely night broken by a sea of stars above them. And in this moment, Ruz and Milosh share a very cool, player directed, bonding moment. Ruz casts a psychic spell so they can speak without “speaking,” and maybe because of the quiet blackness, the rocking of the boat, their exhaustion, or the incredible otherworldly view of the stars, they transcend the physical plane and end up together in another space. Hear, Milosh sees Ruz’s true Changeling form and Ruz reveals what she is. She also reveals what she read in the journal and that she believes there is another Changeling out here on the ice, somewhere. The two speak of Imoaza and refuse to believe she is gone. They speak of their purpose and realize that both of them have lost a piece of their purpose. Milosh’s entire existence was devoted to the Surveyor, or in this case the next closest thing (Carrick, possessed of a piece of the Surveyor’s soul). With him gone, he now doggedly pursues the prophecy, trying to stop it from coming to fruition. But he does so without direction and without a thought to what might come after. Ruz, on the other hand, lost her entire history, displaced from a world she knew to a near eternity spent in Chaos. Now she has returned to find her city destroyed, her homeland under siege, and she has no one left to fight for except herself. Ruz says that no matter what, she will not be a sacrifice to this new Faerun she doesn’t know. She has sacrificed enough. She wants to find a family and live again. They both agree that their goals mean seeing this war through to its end, winning it, and then having the freedom to move on. Overwhelmed by Ruz’s candor, Milosh reveals his truth to her, as well: that he was taken from another world, aeons ago... so long ago he is not even sure that world exists anymore. He was placed in this cybernetic body by the Surveyor and told to pursue the prophecy. He does not know what future he would even want for himself, now.

Their discussion is interrupted by the captain, who tells them they are coming up on the iceberg they sought.

In Tyranny of Dragons, Oyaviggaton is the primary dungeon, an iceberg home to a white dragon who is dominating the Eskimo-esque villagers who reside on its floating lair. I’ve changed this scenario a little, making the Dragon a trio of witches and adding in some story-related pieces to the dungeon, as well as changing some of its challenges to match my level 16 and 17 (Milosh) characters. But the primary outline I’ve kept the same, and that ends up leading to some unexpected ire on the part of my players. See, in the original, the natives on the island are suspicious of the outsiders and stage a fight between them and their champion warrior, Orcaheart. They say it is to be a one-on-one fight with NO MAGIC... and then they cheat during the fight (the shaman, Bonecarver, heals Orcaheart). And if caught cheating, they turn this around on the players and attack them for daring to accuse their shaman. It’s a very hostile moment and it is definitely meant to conjure up the “hostile natives in a strange land” trope that is part of many pulp fiction works of yore. And despite it being anachronistic and unintentionally racist, it does touch on a style of storytelling that is so embedded in Western culture that I can’t help but be enamored with the moment. It’s problematically familiar. 

That said, it also has a major design trap for the unwary DM. And tonite, I was that DM.

See, if the natives are under the thrall of an evil force, then the whole point is that the PCs should want to help them. Having the natives cheat and lie during what is supposed to be an honorable fight doesn’t enamor them to the PCs. In fact, it is liable to make players loathe them. This could potentially be circumvented by some really big clues as to what is going on behind the scenes or, even better, by making one of the natives a very obvious ally, who can then also explain what’s going on. The text even suggests this be Bonecarver... but that is hurt by the fact that they also make Bonecarver the one who cheats!

Had I thought about this ahead of time, I would have taken out the cheating entirely. It doesn’t add anything except more conflict, and this is already literally a head on brawl. You don’t need the extra bit. But I don’t think about it and the end result is a laughable amount of rage being directed at these already victimized natives. Milosh is the one to go up against the mighty Orcaheart and he almost wins... but the cheating means he gets knocked unconscious and when Ruz spots and points out the cheating by using magic of his own to strengthen his voice, the natives turn on him as an evil mage and knock him out, too.

Oh man, the players are pissed! They wake up inside the iceberg dungeon and, spotting three frog-like humanoids going through their belongings, immediately unleash hell upon one of them, smashing him to jelly against a wall. The others reveal they were sent by Bonecarver to help them proceed deeper into the iceberg and fight the witches. Then they hand them potions (a third is currently smashed against the wall) and flee for their lives.

The players make a pact to (a) stop the witches, and (b) burn the village to the ground.

Below the Berg

Now inside the Iceberg (and on a new session), it’s time to bring the party back together. Milosh and Ruze begin searching the dungeon and in the process come across a couple of trophy rooms: rooms where giant monsters and even an entire treasure galleon have been frozen by the power of the Bhuer Sisters. They also encounter more Kobolds, these ones carrying Imoaza, who has been frozen in a block of ice!

The players make quick work of the Kobolds (two turns) and go to work on freeing Imoaza with fire spells. When the block of ice is damaged enough, she comes back to her senses and breaks free with Blackrazor suddenly in her hand and a wild look in her eyes. Her two companions back away and try to talk sense into her. But Imoaza is seeing other people... Aldric is in front of her, accusing her of his murder and taunting her for getting trapped in a cold place... like the place he died. Imoaza reacts as she does to most opposition: disdainfully. And in her disdain, she finds her way back to the present. But Aldric’s voice will forever be taunting her, now. This is an indefinite madness, a leftover of her harrowing experience being ambushed by the Wendigo, the hideous creature with the cry like a child that captured her and brought her unconscious to the witches, who froze her for their keepsake. Aldric’s player (now playing Milosh) actually role plays this voice out when appropriate, basically bringing the voice of Aldric back into the game, even if Imoaza is the only one who can hear it.

The three, now reunited, set about exploring more of the iceberg. They find many interesting things here, which will be detailed in the next post: Still Frozen.

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First off I want to say thank you, for everything. When I made this blog back in January I had no idea it would get off the ground the way it did and I had no idea I would connect with Keith in the way that I do. That’s all thanks to all the amazing friends I’ve come to meet along the way. I’m forever grateful for everyone I’ve met and all the people I’ve made smile with my meme’s and for the people that are too scared to interact with me, don’t be. I promise to give every single one of you my eternal love. 

My Family

@marksmcn + your billion other blogs  I’ve said so much about you in a lot of posts, you know I love you, fuck I adore you. You’re literally my best friend and honestly one of the best people I’ve ever met. You’re my soulmate and my love for you knows no actual bounds. You’re there for me whenever I’m not there for myself and I couldn’t be happier for all the late night discord calls and overwatch ranking we do. You have no idea what kind of impact you’ve had on my life and I swear on my life that one day I will meet you and give you all the love I hold in my heart in person because you’re the one person in the world who deserves it most. 

@binarytinker + your billion other blogs First off, thank you for introducing me to Karina, seriously that’s probably changed my life for the better in a huge way. Yet without you I probably wouldn’t have a pc right now and I probably wouldn’t be playing online games as seriously as I am. I know we don’t talk all that often outside of vc anymore but I seriously love you and everything you’ve brought with you. 

@emoticlysm You’re probably the first person in a long ass time to make me laugh so hard I nearly die. Not only have I been stalking your blog for years but I’ve finally been able to talk to you and be your friend and jesus christ you’re the funniest person I’ve ever met. Not only is your writing something I look at for inspiration but you yourself are such a strong don’t give a fuck woman and I so wish I could be like that. You’re a true ride or die and I love you with my whole heart

@armsmcn You’re my actual dad idc what anyone else says. You’re the one person I can go to and know I’m going to get an honest answer that’s something I need to hear. It’s hard for me to connect with people the way I connect with you. I know you don’t really write a lot on here at least anymore and I still love you and follow your blog and will do anything for you. Thank you for the late nights when you should’ve been sleeping but you were helping my emo ass get my head on straight. 

@regihelion

Sam I honest to god don’t know where I’d be without you. You’re such a ray of sunshine in my life that I know I wouldn’t be in the mental place I’m in if I didn’t have you. You’re one of the best Allura’s I’ve ever seen and your dedication to her and her culture and her world is such a breath of fresh air. You breathe life into her and make her a well rounded character. Also whenever you get drunk and jump in voice chat I know it’s going to be a lit hell of a time

The people I could write blurbs about but this post would be a million miles long

@terrahelion @pluvihelion @caelihelion @castitatli @whipsmcn @astrallance @lazuliss  @manaborn @lifewilled @stormfated @virdihelion @wrathtied @empyrebled @roguehelion @ibellator @daystained

Top tier people I stalk 

@cosmicdvst @desbearer @whtcoats @blkcoats @spiritforge @flngergcns @alienne @svpernovae @geniusbled +everyone else I might’ve missed.

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Travel blog

Tagaytay

A component city on Cavite Tagaytay is the one of the most renowed tourist spots in the country. It has actually bees a Favorite destination especially from the people in the metro.With an overlooking views of the beutiful taal Lake.And pleasent temperature made this place the country's 2nd summer capital.

Your Tagaytay tour will not be complete without visiting this local market located on the 2nd floor of the mahogany market,there are several eatiries to choose from offering the famous tagaytay bulalo.

Pet blog

I remember my dog named "jumbo" when I was young. He is a puppy of my dog also named "hotdog". Jumbo's color is pure brown. Jumbo is kind of a dog that sweet, why I said it..? Because jumbo always be on my side when I go to my grandfather's house he follow me, when I go inside the house he follow me, when I play out doors he follow me. He loves to play with and he also loves when I take him a bath. I loved jumbo and I feel he loved me also. One day jumbo got sick and not eating his food and it continues and then me died . I miss carrying a dog like jumbo.

Food blog

AThere are many delicious dishes from different cuisines – American, Indian, Mexican, Greek, Chinese, etc. Each has its tastes, peculiarities of cooking. But which country has the best food? The question “What is my favorite food?” may occur to students when they are assigned with essay writing on this topic. Hm… and indeed, what is that? Determining with the favorite food is half the battle. Now, you should start writing about it. It isn’t enough to state, “My favorite food is … I like it because of …”. The descriptive essay writing is meant to be another – describing food as concisely and vividly as possible. Describing your favorite food, don’t be afraid of touching on a taste receptor of the reader.

So, in this article, you’ll be shown how to write a descriptive essay on “My Favorite Food”. Moreover, you are given an essay sample to show how it should be done in practice. Follow it and write your own essay!

Gaming blog

Mobile Legends: Bang Bang is a 5v5 Multiplayer Online Battle Arena popularly known as MOBA game for Android and iOS platforms created by Moonton, a game developer company in China and it was released on November 2016. It is Free-to-Play but has an in-app purchase and this includes Diamonds which you can use to buy heroes and skins, and are completely optional as the game stands for their title "5v5 Fair MOBA for Mobile".

Mobile Legends is considered as an action real-time strategy (ARTS) game, is a genre of strategy video games that originated as a subgenre of a Real time strategy game, where a player controls a single character in one of the two teams. The objective of the game is to destroy the opposing team’s main structures especially the nexus, kill enemy heroes, and defend your base with the assistance of periodically spawned AI units or minions who fight forward with you along the set paths.

Mobile Legends Quick Review

Mobile Legends is a very popular mobile MOBA game especially in the Philippines, it is commonly called by players as ML or MLBB. Events and tournaments are also being held by two big Philippine Telecom Companies, Globe and Smart to encourage more Filipino mobile users to play Mobile Legends.

From my perspective, Mobile Legends accents are mostly copied from League of Legends (LoL) because you can get the feels of LoL map and characters while playing ML. Because it features much of what players would expect from a PC MOBA like DOTA, League of Legends or SMITE, including: laning, jungling, item builds, hero roles, hero abilities, skins, and much more.

The interesting part with Mobile Legends is that you can buy your equipment even without going back to your fountain, and you don’t need to buy potion as you had a spell called regen which will heal you health point for some time. This is a fast paced game, where on one run you only need at least 10-20 minutes play to win or lose.

If you are attached to PC MOBA like DOTA 2, LoL, HoN, SMITE or Heroes of the Storm, you might had a hard time adapting to mobile MOBA game especially Mobile Legends. But if you enjoyed playing Mobile Legends, you surely love it. Aside from its quick gameplay which will save your precious time, it is also portable because you can play it anytime anywhere with your android or iOS phone, just be sure have a good signal reception of 3G/4G/LTE to experience smooth gaming. If you're experiencing lag due to high ping, see how to lower your ping (fix lag in Mobile Legends).

Some of known Mobile Legends competitors on mobile MOBA community are the following: Vainglory, Ace of Arenas, Heroes Evolved, Destiny of Thrones, Garena Arena of Valor, Heroes of Order & Chaos, Heroes of SoulCraft and MOBA Duels. Most of these MOBA games have similarities with each other so expect to be confused on what MOBA game will you going to choose.

In conclusion, Mobile Legends has both Dota 2 and LoL aspect combine which made it a pretty fun game. To know more about the game, continue reading for its Guide, Tips and Tricks.

Mobile Legends Guide

This Mobile Legends guide is intended for newbies or starters, or even advanced players who are looking for some information. To familiarize Mobile Legends, it is important to know every single details of the game, its different game modes, the heroes, skins, emblems, abilities and gears which will help you survive all the way.

Mobile Legends has five different game modes:

1. Match Up Mode - Player vs Player 5v5 (Casual Gameplay), Trilane map.

2. Ranked Game - Same as Match up but competing for Ranks (Warrior, Elite, Master, Grandmaster, Epic, Legend, Glorious Legend), Trilane map.

3. Brawl Mode - 5v5 PvP fight with Random Choice of Characters, Single lane map.

4. Human vs. AI - 5 players vs 5 AIs depending on Difficulty, Mode, + you will need to invite 4 others to get started. (or leap of faith by finding 4 others by random), Trilane map.

5. Custom Mode - 1 vs 1+, this mode is Human vs. AI but you can play alone and have up to 1-5 AIs against you.

HEROES: There are 46 heroes currently available which you can choose from right now in the game, and these are the following: Akai, Alice, Alpha, Alucard, Argus, Aurora, Balmond, Bane, Bruno, Chou, Clint, Cyclops, Estes, Eudora, Fanny, Franco, Freya, Gatotkaca, Gord, Grock, Harley, Hayabusa, Hilda, Irithel, Johnson, Kagura, Karina, Karrie, Lapu-lapu, Layla, Lolita, Minotaur, Miya, Moskov, Nana, Natalia, Odette, Rafaela, Roger, Ruby, Saber, Sun Wukong, Tigreal, Vexana, Yi Sun-Shin and Yun Zhao.

Most of the heroes are available through either buying them using in-game credits or real money (converted to Diamonds). These 46 heroes are categorized into 6 different roles: fighter, tank, mage, assassin, marksman and support.

Heroes of Rotation or Weekly Free Heroes. At the beginning you’re given a few heroes for free then after that you have to obtain them through currency (diamonds). But putting the thought of currency (diamonds) aside you can still play decently as some of the heroes through the hero rotation. Every week a new group of heroes becomes free for you to play until the week is up.

Sports blog

NBC CAMPS BLOG / BASKETBALL

MARCH 04, 2020 | TAGGED MOTIVATION

BASKETBALL TIP: IMPROVE YOUR WILLPOWER

Becoming great at basketball requires you to have willpower. It's easy to assume we know that that means. Take a look to find ways to improve your willpower.

What does "will" mean?

The word "will" is from Old English and means "what you set your mind to, your purpose, desire or request." People create a will so that when they die, their desires or plans are carried out. Your will motivates your mind and body toward a plan. The term weak-willed was used to describe people who were powerless to achieve what they set their mind to do especially when they encountered difficulty.

Willpower Energy

Your power to achieve your goals is limited. You only have so much energy. If you need a great deal of willpower to achieve your dreams, you need to have a plan. For example, a person wakes up and does 15 minutes of ball handling. At noon, he works on his shooting. After dinner, he plans to do his jump training and conditioning workout, but an awesome show comes on the TV. He loses his willpower to complete his training. Be sure you know what tempts you to quit and give up or to lose momentum.

Key ways to improve your willpower:

Willpower is contagious. Get around people with strong willpower. Take a look at your friends, they are one of your greatest influencers. If your friends lack willpower you will too.

Rate the contagiousness of the willpower in your environment: High Moderate LowSleep affects your willpower. Limited sleep = limited willpower.

Rate your sleep habits: Great Fair PoorMake tasks fun. The more fun you have working out, studying, practicing, the more willpower you will have. 5= You love it 0=You hate it

Rate the fun you have: (Working out ___ Studying ___ Practicing ____)Forgive yourself. If you have a setback, don’t be hard on yourself. The harder you are on your mistakes and the more guilt and shame you have, the more you will mess up the next time. Athletes who make a mistake on the basketball court and then yell at themselves or make a big show on how much they messed up, will be the most likely on the court to make a big mistake again.

Rate yourself on how easily you forgive yourself ____

How easily do you forgive others ___

5=Very Easily 0=Not able to forgiveStay positive. For example, if you make a bad pass in the moment, be kind to yourself, picture in your mind making a better pass in the future, and be mentally strong.

Rate yourself on your PMA (positive mental attitude) _____

5=Great PMA 0=No PMAPicture the negative consequences. When you are creating your goals and work out plan, picture as clearly as possible what it would be like if you don’t reach your goal. Imagine sitting on the bench next season if you do not follow through with your workout. The more you can feel how it will be like, the more likely you will be to follow through when you don’t want to and to find the willpower to achieve your dreams.

Rate your skill at foreseeing the possible negative consequences of when you lose your willpower. _____

5 =Great Ability to foresee 0= No ability

Fashion blog

"Fashion is a way to express yourself"

Wear whatever you want to wear, follow your heart follow your style. If your sense of fashion is a little boyish then go with it. If you want some revealing clothes then wear those. If you want some cool trendy clothes then be with it. Stick to the fashion you want because in that you can have your self-expression.

For me, fashion is wearing something presentable to the eye of the people. I admit that sometimes I wear revealing clothes but for me its a happiness because I can express my self, I can express the sense of fashion that I want and I believe that girls should never choose a clothe that they should wear because if a guys is really pervert then he will be, some girl are wearing long sleeves and loose pants but then they still receive a catcall from people who is lack of intellectual capacity that doesn't know the word RESPECT.

Fashion is like freedom,wear what you want to wear and give yourself a chance to have its own voice.

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How To Connect With Powerful And Influential People

What’s today, my name is Catrina, karina hi Karina, oh, hi Karina, hey guys, nice to meet you, somewhere problem is, how do I grow in a saturated Market space, what’s a lean team but we’re very agile, can you tell me more about your business, word entertainment, so we make video games, make video games okay, no one in this room here plays a lot of video games maybe like one, in every 10 people here play video games or no, yeah I play video games I get it, do you want to buy my game what kind of game do you make, bC okay, not anything like that just PC, just Pizza, okay okay and then what was the strategy game like kind of family Ben Moore, so our games would be more like, tactics, tactics for big kids, okay, chest, chelsea earlier, what’s a like, fallout is, action games, Real time, okay hammer, i would have both how many games have you made, in my career, i’ve made a lot of apps, the mobile apps, okay, which one is the most expensive, we have one game was about 1.7 million, oh yeah download, okay, free downloads right, space, yes, okay so you have to wait till you’ve got one game on a p on app that’s got 1.7, million downloads which is good, and then, and then you have in-game purchase and things like that right, yep okay, what’s a profitable, not really not really okay, even Dusty music, people, got it on your own, okay, how long been doing it on your own, not long, less than, lesson 6, okay and usually how long does it take to develop a game, so we’re borracho it would usually take about 2 years, we can do it in about, a year-and-a-half, notice asking questions what am I doing, What am I doing, no but also yes but wasn’t one of my doing though, you understand her business so same thing with you I see you listening, thing until she can do the same thing with Whipple what you do, are we friends, okay so what’s up with that, tomoka said something about some download now you’re doing on your own for PC and so what’s your challenge, so we’re trying to enter a Distributing, platform with about a hundred twenty million users, yes, many many other games, yes, if we have a very lean budget how do we get outside help, so with this type of model as you know that not too saturated you in the gaming industry, play song by, i have a big company, you have a lot of, the absence of a different apps you have, guys independent company they’re going to do the whole thing and try to make it big, But most but game you talkin PC games right.

Give me one of the most popular PC games, workout right, play when I was in high school, okay, okay now, what’s lucky me one that’s most popular, you’re solid DOTA League of Legends, okay yep that’s also very popular, so you know there’s a lot in this game cost, how much money to make, million million how much money to Market, also million so it’s all did the author not so good right, how many viewers watch Dragons Den, anyone watch Dragons Den, yeah I love Dragons Den, you know they sometimes your entrepreneur they’ve got this product, and is so emotionally attached to the product, and then sometimes the dragons to say, no you no remember I forgot which episode but this, entrepreneurs develop this product, and he said how you know I’m going to, Find distribution I’m going to pitch the company I’m going to get shelf-space I’m going to tell her that I think some kind of bug, game maybe board game I don’t quite remember, and then he was talking about this and Kevin O’Leary was like that’s a stupid idea, you don’t want to do that you should license this thing to big company who’s already got distribution, who has already got their contact with God, like I don’t so much believe in I’m not saying you cannot be done, but, the author Knocked Up, what if I have data, 4, so if we want to enter the PC platform, sent, test products, is the environment and we only made 2000, impressions, good, what would you suggest, so you got a better traction okay so you mean you can raise money to to push that, Potentially, okay so you do raise the money separate N I can give you any amount of money that you need, what would you do, we’d hire marketing strategist first of all, okay sweetheart we need some concentrators so we’d hired programmer we hire an artist, that’s all we need just, chargers, and then they would do what, prepare us for lunch mostly make sure that we have, so right when we launch our product we got 2,000 Impressions just organically but we need about, 10000, to make a, worx official, so if we had that marketing strategist he was able to kind of, rompis up towards that we think we could have reached 10000, so if you reach 10000 how much money you would have made, well if we we shouldn’t well is a hundred grand, your small small team is not bad to get a started, so think there many many things going on here, So with, first of all the product itself noticed in terms of your goal, if you just want to make a couple hundred grand that’s what I call a lifestyle entrepreneur, okay I love you a lifestyle entrepreneur like graphic designers consultants and coaches too happy with that, and they only know a hundred grand a year that’s that’s comfortable for me and that’s all I wanted, but if you want to grow, that’s one thing, if you want to grow a company that’s a whole different thing right, oh okay is a very different thing sold object if you say you know what I want want to sell $10 I want to sell a hundred thousand, versus, how communities games versus, all just want to make enough money so I can comfortable K see the difference, yes, yeah it’s derrington objective, both are good but I’m just saying if you want to get your game, I believe anything that you do you should do it to the highest degree.

If you going to get out to the marketplace, i would rather proves attraction and then pitched a company that you know what we’ve got traction, i would license the game for you, and then you can pay a little bit of money, i brought you some kind right and then just get paid, versus you go through all of them, look at entrepreneurs I mean that’s why 95% of spouses, play on the first 10 years, the odds are against you, and if that’s the case how can we be that 5% what you get into that 5%, dislike what we was talking about without if you don’t have to put in a ton of money, and you can leverage existing platform you lower your risk, so I would do that instead like what is the shortest path to, Do profit, then this way you make it enough attraction and fam why don’t use their money, why don’t you stay contact, and chances are even if you raise the money, if you hire a marketing company to do that, you still don’t know, you don’t know how give me work sometimes some games that takes off sometimes you think I’m stupid people, who wants to play., gaming, what is a couple years ago has a game was a little burro what is it, flappy Bird, like what the f*** is this right, united remember I was playing on it and my friend show it to me I was playing is it what is this, like, 30 minutes later, how much is the dumbest thing ever, don’t bother me let me do this, who would have thought of like if I tell you know what I’m going to make a game that’s so difficult to play with, Superbird going through these obstacles and chances are you won’t go very far, what the hell is this, but you know what I mean, something you never know, one question yes, how would I pitch my company or my product right now if let’s say that was my pitch how would I, alyssa now you have traction, i got this more often like who do I talk to, i don’t have contacts that’s all it’s all limiting belief, truly Limited, because anyone anybody now would lend you can find a person who’s in charge, and that department, who’s in charge of the games licensing, what what what app is that department you can guess who those people, just like the podcast called shoulders of Titans, autofinance.com can listen listen to it, people ask me, how do I get access to some of these people, The people interview couple weeks ago I interview the founder of priceline.com, good company from CO2 to billion dollars right, i don’t know him, daniel must have some magical connection, his the magic is Courtney male, i emailed the guy, and he said no, and I emailed him again, he said no, after 12 times a day, stop bothering me I’ll do it, is no magic, is hustle, is it harder for these people so it’s not like you need some magic and once you have a proven game is a good game, you got some proven traction, you just picture you know what I’m talkin to this company, and then you tell them you’re talking to other companies as well, we’re looking for, you know my partner with one licenses game, and you can see this what we have and if you can play in the right, And then you never just pitch them.

You might have to pick up more than once, walt Weiss, but once you get one game in, your aunt, cuz next time you’re like you know what, i know you I like what your team with your team is done it’s getting more difficult right, okay these guys know what they’re doing it’s like one of my companies are copper Champions we have clients, will clients who are Microsoft Amazon, telus, he was a how do you get through to them, he’s just telling his LinkedIn and you contact with them and you fall off and you email your phone call, like it’s not rocket science, and you talk to 110 would say yes, and then next year and all these companies, amazon.com Aldi top companies, would you like in bubble sure, that’s a holiday is right it was a duty-free shop in the Salt Company all day, This one, and I can tell you how we started is, actually if you curious, ., we started, giving away, what we do for free, so we get the first couple name, in the door, so we got the, credit Union, as a as a as a as a client but the first year we actually gave it for free, what we offer the service, the second year they came back and saved full price, but it’s better if I get credit union I can talk to, vancity I can talk to TD Bank I can talk to you all I want. Credit union does that make sense, who in your Market if you could get that person, you would get everybody else, the Kingpin your Marketplace, if you get that influencer, you get everybody else, it helps, Right, 10 times your finances 10 times your business 10 times your marketing, 10 * your life hit the Subscribe button now.

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IGF Awards’ 2018 nominees level to this yr’s video games to observe

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IGF Awards’ 2018 nominees level to this yr’s video games to observe

The nominees for the 20th Annual Impartial Sport Competition are out, and the record accommodates a captivating mixture of a few of 2017’s greatest indies — and what might be 2018’s future hits.

For those who’re curious as to how that’s attainable, that is how eligibility for the IGF Awards works:

State of Growth: All Entered Video games should both be at present launched, or be considerably feature-complete. You should have intent, on the time of submission, to launch the sport inside 12 months of the IGF Ceremony, in case your sport is just not already launched or publicly playable.

That’s why we’re seeing each a few of our favourite video games of 2017 up for the Seamus McNally Grand Prize (and in its honorable mentions) alongside indie video games many people could not have heard of. The whole record is beneath.

Getting Over It with Bennett Foddy (Bennett Foddy)

Night time within the Woods (Infinite Fall)

West of Loathing (Uneven Publications)

Into the Breach (Subset Video games)

Warmth Signature (Suspicious Developments)

Baba is You (Hempuli)

Honorable Mentions: Tacoma (Fullbright); Rain World (VIDEOCULT); Dream Daddy: A Dad Relationship Simulator (Sport Grumps); Cosmic Prime Secret (klassefilm); Hole Knight (Workforce Cherry); Cuphead (StudioMDHR); All the things Is Going to Be OK (Nathalie Lawhead)

Nearly all of these launched final yr, with some even attaining mainstream acclaim. (We had been massive followers of Getting Over It, Night time within the Woods and Cuphead, specifically.) However the shock look of Baba is You within the high six ought to instantly add it to your record of anticipated video games of 2018. The PC sport is an esoteric puzzle sport that resembles an outdated MS-DOS title from the 1980s; it’s due in summer season 2018.

Fascinating inclusions are Nuovo Award nominee 10 Mississippi, which makes use of stop-motion animation to let gamers study extra about its younger feminine lead; first deliberate for a fall 2017 launch, 10 Mississippi remains to be unreleased. There’s additionally Youngsters, which is described as an “experimental undertaking” that appears extraordinarily claustrophobic — gamers are misplaced in a big crowd.

Different video games of word are Celeste, the devilishly troublesome follow-up to fan favourite TowerFall; and The Gardens Under, which we final noticed throughout Sony’s Paris Video games Week in October. Its look on the record is a pleasant reminder of how a lot this Q3 2018 puzzle sport excited us after we noticed its newest teaser.

The remainder of the record is populated with some nice titles you will have missed out on final yr as effectively. Test it out beneath to seek out new additions to your gaming backlog. The winners will probably be introduced on March 21 throughout this yr’s Sport Builders Convention.

Night time within the Woods (Infinite Fall)

Cuphead (StudioMDHR)

Echo (ULTRA ULTRA)

Luna (Funomena)

The Gardens Between (The Voxel Brokers)

Chuchel (Amanita Design)

Honorable Mentions: Jettomero: Hero of the Universe (Ghost Time Video games); Useless Cells (Movement Twin); AER – Reminiscences of Previous (Forgotten Key); Tooth and Tail (Pocketwatch Video games); Rain World (VIDEOCULT); Form of the World(Hole Tree Video games); Hole Knight (Workforce Cherry)

Tormentor X Punisher (e-studio)

Cuphead (StudioMDHR)

Vignettes (Skeleton Enterprise)

Rain World (VIDEOCULT)

Uurnog Uurnlimited (Nifflas Video games)

Celeste (Matt Makes Video games)

Honorable Mentions: Tumbleseed (Benedict Fritz, Greg Wohlwend, Joel Corelitz, David Laskey and Jenna Blazevich); Hole Knight (Workforce Cherry); Tacoma (Fullbright); Tooth and Tail (Pocketwatch Video games); Million Onion Lodge (Onion Video games); Night time within the Woods (Infinite Fall)

Into the Breach (Subset Video games)

Shenzhen I/O (Zachtronics)

Wilmot’s Warehouse (Richard Hogg, Ricky Haggett, Eli Rainsberry)

Baba Is You (Hempuli)

Uurnog Uurnlimited (Nifflas Video games)

Getting Over It with Bennett Foddy (Bennett Foddy)

Honorable Mentions: Warmth Signature (Suspicious Developments); Useless Cells (Movement Twin); Factorio (Wube Software program); Area Pirate Coach (I-Illusions); Battle Chef Brigade (Trinket Studios)

Tacoma (Fullbright)

Attentat 1942 (Charles College and Czech Academy of Sciences)

The place the Water Tastes Like Wine (Dim Bulb Video games)

Night time within the Woods (Infinite Fall)

Butterfly Soup (Brianna Lei)

Tooth and Tail (Pocketwatch Video games)

Honorable Mentions: A Mortician’s Story (Laundry Bear Video games); Misplaced Reminiscences Dot Internet (Star Maid Video games); Dream Daddy: A Dad Relationship Simulator (Sport Grumps); Bury me, my Love (The Pixel Hunt, Figs and ARTE France); Cosmic Prime Secret (klassefilm); West of Loathing (Uneven Publications); Rakuen (Laura Shigihara)

Getting Over It with Bennett Foddy (Bennett Foddy)

Tarotica Voo Doo (TPM.CO SOFT WORKS)

10 Mississippi (Karina Popp)

A Mortician’s Story (Laundry Bear Video games)

Cosmic Prime Secret (klassefilm)

All the things Is Going to Be OK (Nathalie Lawhead)

Baba Is You (Hempuli)

Youngsters (Playables)

Honorable Mentions: The place the Water Tastes Like Wine (Dim Bulb Video games); IO Interloper (DANG!); The Norwood Suite (Cosmo D Studios); Low-cost Golf (Pixeljam); Witchball (S.L.Clark); Million Onion Lodge (Onion Video games)

IO Interloper (DANG!)

Do not Make Love (Maggese)

Penny Blue Finds a Clue (DigiPen Workforce Cactus Curse)

We Have been Right here (Whole Mayhem Video games)

Baba Is You (Hempuli)

Guardian of the Gears (DigiPen Workforce Studio 76)

Honorable Mentions: Crewsaders (Titan Squad); A.L.F.R.E.D. (Hugo Lefevre, Joseph Reichenbach, Romain Jaohar-Gaillard, Garance Royere Lebigre, Nicolas Tham, Marion Speiser, Delphine Migeot de Baran, Tune Huang); MOLOCH(Seemingly Pointless); Kyklo’s Code (Dice Manufacturing unit); Membrane (Excellent Hat / Seth S. Scott); That Blooming Feeling(The Tots Workforce); Inform Me What You See (Pesky Bees)