#Sadness isn't the same as depression

[the-casbah-way]

i cannot keep my brain happy for more than a few hours like i just get so sad for no reason like literally all the time with no warning

#i don't even take breaks at work anymore i just stay in the entire eight hours because like #what is the point. i'm just going to sit outside next to all the annoying ass fringe tourists and wish i had a cigarette #and watch everyone and tell myself they're all having so much more fun than me and they're all happier than me #it's not like i want to eat anything or do anything even if there was something to do. i just want to go home #and then i do go home and i just do the same thing i just sit there and wish i was anywhere else #like why. am i so depressed. all the time #there is no end to it i don't see it ever ending especially since the one thing i care about (my degree) is fucked #how do you find a point amongst all the tiredness and sadness and emptiness #what are you guys alive for i need to know. #i want to be alive for more than a hypothetical future that isn't entirely unbearable #what's the point

[senselessalchemist]

apparently I preordered an audiobook when I had a free one from audible (yes I know but if they want to give me a poor person an audiobook I am too weak to resist, also it's how I get my stormlight archive fix every few years) and I don't know what it is and I am also afraid to check because I am a very weird coward with issues about notifications

#what could it be #i know its not stormlight archive 5 because i would be having way more an excited fit if it were #them fuckers are my number 1 comfort books to listen to and it would be cool to have a new one #sighs #last time i checked everyone was theorizing kaladin would die in 5 #which i will accept with dignity but it will make me very sad because (sincere moment) #kaladin stormblessed being his depressed and traumatized and extremely ill self and both continuing anyway #but also recognizing that he couldnt continue in the same way #have helped me get through some real tough shit #also navani strangely enough who i was like okay with up until RoW #but then getting more of her experience while i was being severely emotionally abused kinda... yeah #but yeah my new audiobook isn't stormlight 5 so #maybe if i force myself to check it'll be a fun reveal #and then i can listen to a book i was apparently into enough to preorder #last new book i read was in august 🙃 #and i feel such pressure to read so i can be a better writer #but i dont waaaaant toooooo because emotions can be painful and i don't want to hurt #sincere moment over #positively i have written 26kish words and i kind of have an idea of how things fit together #just gotta clme up with the overarching structure for this one #the present-past flip-flop was an accident that came from the fic starting out as a one-shot and then getting Too Fucking Long #and then i decided i liked it and had a little fun time trying to tie each part to the next with some specific imagery or theme or event #this one can't do that... or at least not in exactly the same way #i have a couple of ideas and i guess ill see what works #i like gimmicky bullshit too much and i apologize #but luckily no one has to read my fics so they can't complain that im gimmicky #on thursday i have a dreaded dentist appointment but on the plus side i have often written the best in medical waiting rooms #fingers crossed #(also on thursday i am getting a pakige with stuff that will let me set up a 2nd monitor and that is exciting)

[plumbogs]

i would do something more interesting with the cain + zelda household but i genuinely do not think they would do anything other than get home from work and silently pass a bowl back and forth while watching the first 3 seasons of beavis and butthead on DVD every single day. sometimes they play halo.

#whenever he invites dustin and dirk over they do the same thing except he forces them to pay for their half of the pizza #the sims 2 isn't equipped to handle the level of loserfail trans lifestyle i envision for these people. sad #for now their goals are both to transition and become hot. then they can start making actual plans #cain will probably stop being as depressed once his parents finally bite it and he doesn't have to worry about seeing them in public

[enobariasteeth]

I love that Batman is so popular with macho toxically masculine men because Bruce Wayne is arguably the saddest, most pathetic, wet cat, weirdo little freak to ever be written

#and all his kids are ALSO sad weird little freaks #'Oh Batman isn't for girls. he's such a badass. stone cold. no emotions.' #baby girl are we comprehending the same character? #he has so many emotions and they're all BAD #this is the same man who collects every sad looking child he sees #who. instead of being a normal 21 yr old. decided to dress up as a bat and fight criminals #for arguably no reason?? like yeah Gotham was really bad but there wasn't a joker or riddler or poison ivy #he just... did that... for some reason #he also let a 9 yr old bully him into allowing said child to ALSO fight crime #Robert Pattinson's interpretation was SO accurate #and they were MAD ABOUT IT #baby. Bruce Wayne sobbing and smearing black eyeliner on his face is SO BRUCE WAYNE #that's the EPITOME of Bruce Wayne #especially pre-Robin Bruce #any Batman that doesn't have a Robin should NEVER be portrayed as someone cool and badass #he's a weird little freak #with crippling depression #and mommy issues #batman #dc #dcu #batfam #bruce wayne #and all his girlfriends are 10x cooler than him #he doesn't charm women because he's cool and suave #he charms women because they see this sad little freak and go #'I need him carnally'

[merkerlerspeaks]

*exhibits symptoms of disorders you have been diagnosed with and just so happen to also be depression symptoms, but isnt actually depressed*

People: Hmm I diagnose you with depression

#for reference the symptoms are fatigue/trouble motivating/general anxiety #I have had at least 4 people suggest 'Oh you might be depressed' in reference to my exhibiting symptoms of...what I have #It's very frustrating #Im tired because im chronically ill #I have trouble motivating because thats what ADHD does and being tired does #And my anxiety issues have gotten BETTER #Im am not numb hopeless or sad. I have plenty of interest in the things I like even at my worst. #my appetite is the same as its ever been #I've been through periods of self loathing. Those have passed. #and even when they were present I knew it the thoughts weren't facts bc God isn't a liar #Which that was the closest I've been to being depressed in a long time. But it still isn't depression. #If I were treated for depression rn it would totally ignore all the things ACTUALLY causing my symptoms #Life is awesome. I like doing things & I think I am the bee's knees (lol) #I have been depressed before. This just ain't it chief. #I already know what my issues are #Just cuz I got those don't mean I have to be depressed too #and I feel weird saying it too because I have the oddest feeling that I'm going to be dismissed as stubborn and blindsided #like 'you just refuse to admit it' kinda thing #But I know what it is that I am expiriencing #It's frustrating that an entirely different topic keeps coming up about it #also. the self loathing issues- they popped up when my ANXIETY got worse. #I was otherwise not expiriencing depressive symptoms outside of the things I expirience as a result of other illnesses #that I have been actually diagnosed with #blegh grr growl #Wanna focus on the actual issues not come up with false ones

[theorderofthetriad]

"it was too funny" is by far the weirdest criticism i've heard of a marvel movie- especially a Thor movie- yet.

#i have heard this SO MANY TIMES #you really think that movie would be better without the humor??? it'd be a very depressing slog. #say what you REALLY mean- it was too sad and too funny at the same time and it gave ya emotional whiplash #i for one am emphatically pro movies getting conflicting about emotions #movies are so emotionally sanitized nowadays! don't get mad just because one dared to not do that! #maybe if 'too funny' isn't something you like Thor 4 just wasn't meant for you and that's okay! #go enjoy the shitloads of bland shit available to you! let us with more taste have this movie with a bit more kick! #stop complaining about it like you're entitled to every movie suiting your specific tastes! #so many movies are so blandly formulaic! #i'm SICK of 'this is a sad scene' 'this is a funny scene' 'this is a romantic scene' #MULTIPLE EMOTIONS CAN HAPPEN AT ONCE! #YOU CAN LAUGH AND CRY AT THE SAME TIME AND THAT'S GOOD! #and there's something to be said about how the humor makes the sad parts sadder #and the sad parts make the humor more cathartic #all in all I fucking LOVE the emotional goddamn rollercoaster that was Thor love and thunder #thor love and thunder

[because-its-eurovision]

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#no need to read or react just needed to rant about my brain a bit #the next two weeks are supposed to be super exciting with BC giving us a new look and song and music video #it's umk week and my favorite for once has historically great odds of winning and a good chance to do well at eurovision as well #I'm going to see umk live with my dear sister and stay at a hotel so it's like a mini-getout and then I'm going to stockholm and oslo gigs #this is supposed to be best times of the year so far but my brain decided we can't have any of that :) #last year at this same time I got hit hard with depression and the anxiety I've always had got even worse #it got to the point that nothing made me happy or feel anything at all and I just cried all day for weeks #everything about UMK night was blurry and sad because I wasn't talking to my bestie who I've watched eurovision with for 10 years #I just started crying during the Dark Side/ Bad Idea opening and the results felt like nothing #I'll always assiociate Bad Idea with my depression because it was playing on the radio in the nurse's office when I got my meds #anyway I can feel that same darkness crawling back to my brain right now and I'm very scared #my brain decides I don't deserve to be happy and screams about how unloveable and ridiculous and embarrassing and ugly I am #it isn't helping that Joel keeps reposting the most model-looking tiktokers because I always feel a hot gush of shame run through me #and everytime I see a pic of any of their blonde skinny young gfs I just wanna kms #now it's gotten to a point that the voice in my head yells at me that I don't deserve Bc or their music and I should cancel my gig trip #because they wouldn't wanna see a disgusting cow myself being so near the stage not to mention ask for a pic or autograph #and I should just hide in my apartment forever #and everyone who has ever been nice to me is either doing that out of pity or making fun of me behind my back #I can't take this anymore #delete later

[dumb-fictionkin-sideblog]

me every single day of the week: i really need to tell my therapist about my obsessions

me on therapy day: idon'twannadothis

#sunny #uuuurgh #it's been complicated lately so even if i tried i couldn't explain what's currently happening #+ id need to have the fictionkin talk for some stuff and that's not happening #and the oc talk... and the aroace talk... #the oc one would make me look like a did faker kid and the aroace talk will get me the same result as my mom #(''you don't know yet!!!'') #my personal theory about oc isn't even dissociation related it's just really fucking heavy mood swings #idk i'm my normal self and then every once in a while i become 10x better and then i go back to normal and i get depressed #this makes it sound like something else again. i'm pretty sure it's just really heavy mood swings. #only problem being i can feel very different emotions and still feel like myself #while oc moments will just have me thinking like an entirely different brain (and then say regular me's a cringe loser lol) #(i'm joking about it but it does make me really sad because. it's someone 10x better than what i usually am who says that) #im literally just using this blog like a notes app #vent

[tockamybeloved]

Lainey Molnar

#yeah #um just so you know #depression isn't contagious #you won't get it by being around #having been in both these situations #it's accurate #people visit hospitals and bring food and talk #those same people run away because they think you're just sad #queue #true friendship is there for both

[delicate-little-honeysuckle]

I'm between meds rn and I really didn't think the antidepressant I was on was helping much, but now I'm almost off it and my depression is so much worse, I'm having 5x the amount of unbearable intrusive thoughts as I did last week, and now I'm starting to feel very insecure about my body, from my weight to my disability to my scars. I know sleeping will help and I'll feel better after, but holy shit am I gonna have a rough week before I can start the new antidepressants.

#whats worse than steadily worsening knee and hip pain that makes me double over and cry at night? #switching my depression meds at the same time. #i can deal with the body image issues i can deal with the sleep problems and all but i cant deal with the intrusive thoughts #i think its hundreds of intrusive thoughts a day. my (mental) compulsions aren't helping and i can't sit at my computer to distract myselr #because of the knee pain. the helpful music isn't helping. i can't focus on a video game or podcast with the pain #so i just have to lie down miserable and sad and guilty (because i feel guilt for being disabled ((bc the depression is bad rn)) ) #hopefully sleep will help. hopefully. if not ill probably give myself bangs soon. i look good with bangs

[writing-fanics]

more than anything

Lucifer Morningstar x F!Reader

chapter i > chapter ii > chapter iii

[summary: Charlie Morningstar arrives in hell and meets someone from her dad's past when he was an angel.]

warning: mentions of depression: angst: seemingly unrequited love: loneliness: charlie might be ooc:

Charlie gasped her eyes widened with joy, clasping her hands together jumping up and down excitedly. "Are you Y/n?!" She asked, and the angel looked at her shocked, "You already know about me?" the angel looked at the princess of hell, in disbelief.

"Of course, I do!" She exclaimed, remembering the stories her father used to tell her about, [Y/n].

"My dad would tell me stories about you when I was little!" She said smiling, at [Y/n] who's body tensed up for a moment and her cheeks darkened a little. "Really?" She mumbled, under her breath looking away from the princess for a moment. "I thought he'd forgotten about me." She mumbled, her smile faltering for a moment. Before shaking her head. Forcing a smile on her face.

Charlie looked around the angel's office curiously, "So, your father?" said [Y/n], looking over at Charlie, smiling as she continued to look around the room. "So what did your father tell you about me?" She asked, and the princess of hell nodded.

"Good things I hope?" She said, and the princess of hell looked at the angel. "Of course, he said you were the only angel that believed in him." said Charlie, and the angel smiled reminiscing on times that have long since passed.

"We shared the same dream even adding some ideas onto each others, expanding on them. " said [Y/n], looking down her angelic wings seemed to go limp at her side as she frowned, "That was eons ago," She said, looking down.

Their conversation went on for what seemed like hours, the angel saw so much of the one she loved in his daughter. [Y/n] talked about Lucifer, and stories that he never told Charlie. Charlie watched as the angel's eyes sparkled as she talked about memories. [Y/n]'s heart seemed to swell, and then to suddenly falter back to sadness as she remembered, that she was to shy too scared to confess her feelings for the man she loved.

“You loved him didn’t you?” asked Charlie, and the angel looked over at her in shock and smiled softly, and chuckled softly. “Loved?” said [Y/n], and she smiled her eyes closed as she turned towards Charlie. “I still love him?” She said, her smile forced.

She said, “I couldn't bring myself to tell him,” She wrapped her arms around herself, taking a deep breath and letting out a sigh. “I was afraid of ruining the friendship we already had.” She said, placing her hand on her head her thumb resting on her cheek, as she turned away from Charlie. Letting out a sigh, “I-If he didn’t accept my feelings, I didn't wanna lose what we already had." She bit her lip nervously, and turned back towards Charlie.

“S-So I didn’t." She said, looking at Charlie. The Princess of Hell, could see the sadness and loneliness in her eyes. Eyes that were filled with so much regret, "So, I watched as he fell in love with another." Her voice cracking slightly, clearing her throat she continued.

She pursed her lips inward, "Did and said nothing as he was banished to Hell," She looked down, "But, I can't take back what happened eons ago." She said, forcing a smile on her face as she looked at Charlie.

"So tell me about this Hazbin Hotel, I've been hearing so much about?" She asked, curiously and Charlie's eyes lit up. "Your father, wouldn't of set up a meeting with Heaven, without a reason." She said, and Charlie nodded.

[Y/n] listened intently about Charlie's plan, even though she was going to hear it again in court. She nodded in response smiling, "Sounds intriguing." the angel said, looking at the girl. "I do agree that everyone deserves a second chance." She said, a smile growing across Charlie's face.

"If those sinners that come to the hotel are willing." She added, placing her hands on her desk and sighed. "But, it isn't me who you are going to have too convince." She added, and Charlie looked at her, "But, I believe in the cause." She said, smiling looking at the princess of hell.

[Y/n] looked at Charlie and saw so much of her father in her, her heart couldn't help but ache. "You remind me of your father." Charlie looked at her and smiled, "Thank you, if it wasn't for him I wouldn't be here right now." said Charlie, “The apple really doesn’t fall far from the tree.” said [Y/n] a hint of sadness in her voice.

Charlie smiled softly, "You really do love my dad don't you?" asked Charlie, and the angel looked away closing her eyes for a moment. Taking a deep breath and with a solemn look on her face, she turned back towards Charlie. "More than anything." said [Y/n] sadly, the room filled with silence. She still loves him even after eons have since passed they've last seen each other, "Sorry, I shouldn't even be saying this to you." She said shaking her head.

She scoffed at herself, "Telling you his daughter that I've got some silly crush on him," She shook her head and placed her head on her desk, "Ugh, I'm so pathetic!" She groaned, into her desk. For eons, after Lucifer was banished to Hell. [Y/n] hasn't been the same since forcing a fake smile on her face, while doing her daily angelic duties. With a fake smile plastered on her face.

One the inside she was hurting. She was lonely. She was depressed. Filled with so much regret being the cause of her own lonely existence. If she wasn't such a coward maybe things would've ended up differently maybe they wouldn't?

Charlie placed a hand on shoulder causing [Y/n], to lift her head and look up at her. "I'm sure he misses you just as you miss him." said Charlie smiling, trying to comfort the angel as much as she could.

"He used to tell me so many amazing and wonderful things about you," She said. [Y/n]'s lower lip started to quiver as tears welled up in her eyes, hiding her head into desk. She glanced over at the clock on the wall; lifting her head up from the desk. She wiped away her tears, "I-It's almost time for the court meeting. You should probably get ready." said [Y/n], as she stood up from her chair.

"Maybe, you can visit once this is all over?" Charlie said, and the angel looked at her and smiled, "I'm sure that would make both his and yours day." The angel really could see so much of the man she loved in his daughter, "That sounds like a dream to me." said [Y/n], as she walked towards the door and placing her hand on the door knob.

She missed him dearly and for many years she stayed in heaven, wallowing in self-pity and regret. Loneliness and heartbreak. Grieving over the lover she was to cowards to confess her feelings towards.

"But, I don't know. Right now you should focus on convincing the angels." She said looking at the young demon, as her gaze drifted towards the ground. "I-I shouldn't of even mentioned what I said today." She said a solemn look on her face.

"You have nothing to apologize for." She said, looking at Charlie and smiling, "I have only myself to blame." She smiled sadly, and Charlie and the princess of hell a gave her a sympathetic smile. As Charlie left the room, "Charlie?" The Princess stopped and turned around, "When you see him again." She said, "L-Let him know." She stammered, nervously biting her lip her wings limp at her side.

"L-Let him know that I miss him more than anything," She said sadly, and Charlie smiled and nodded. [Y/n] watched as she walked away, and closed the door behind her and turned away. Leaning her back against the door, she sank to the ground and brought her knees to her chest and cried. "I really am pathetic," She sniffled, once again wallowing in self-pity.

"E-Even, if I were to go and visit would he even wanna see me?" She mumbled, maybe she should. She didn't expect anything from it but, maybe it would fill the hole in her immortal heart. The thought of seeing him again brought a smile to her face, she really did love him with every fiber of her being. She envied Lilith and was jealous of her not in a hateful or spiteful way.

She just..[Y/n] sighed, wiping away her tears. Standing to her feet and dusting herself off, taking a deep breath in and exhaling. As she placed her hand on the doorknob, sighed, leaving her office and making her way towards the courthouse.

If only she knew how much he truly did miss her, as on his desk. Sat a rubber duck that shared the same angelic features as her, wings and all. If only she knew how is heart would ache, as he would glance at it.

if only she knew

how much she truly means to him

a/n: ngl..i kinda wanna maybe make her charlie's stepmom.. i mean she still loves lilth of course but.. i mean.. like.. come on.. i should..

#lucifer morningstar x reader #lucifer morningstar x you #lucifer morningstar x y/n #lucifer morningstar fanfiction #lucifer morningstar #charlie morningstar x reader plantonic #charlie morningstar #hazbin hotel x reader #hazbin hotel fanfic #angst #seemingly unrequited love #unrequited feelings #hazbin hotel x you #hazbin hotel lucifer #hazbin hotel headcanon #hazbin

[bitting-my-tongue]

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#bad for your health #ill just delete this later #but ive been thinking about bad stuff and got at that crossroad of weather life is worth living #the whole thing bla bla bla #and isn't it ironic #that im willing to not disengage with physical existence for the same people who should prevent me from even thinking about it #i wont self harm to avoid the possible attention #ill avoid finishing off to prevent their pain #but at what cost yk? #and I'm so positive no one follows this blog that I'm comfortable saying such things out loud #but kinda sad #i mean #there should be someone to see through me #pathetic #tw self harm #tw suicidal thoughts #tw depression #tw anxiety #tw vent #shut up bebopty

[milo-is-rambling]

I think 19 is gonna be the year of doing all the things that I've said yeah I'll do that when I get around to it. I have so many movies and shows I've been meaning to watch and so many art forms I've wanted to try and so many recipes and hobbies I've put off but I want to do it all. I want to spend this year working and saving money and spending my free time trying to find new things to enjoy and put myself into every new interest fully and really try to be present while enjoying my free time and while living my life in general really. I wanna make a conscious effort to be present even during the mundane parts of life

#it's kind of insane to me remembering that I'm only 18 #like I feel so much older we'll not so much but I feel like my brain and body are both at least 22 and it's only my birth certificate that #says I'm 18. maybe that's the whole depression and trauma ages you + being big and tall or maybe everyone has a rich inner life and I need #to stop assuming that there aren't more 18 year olds with the same thoughts as me #idk #ages are weird maturing is weird feeling this attatched to a number that means nothing is weird but I can't help myself #idk what I'm gonna do for my birthday this year. dads dead. moms depressed and can't do as much as she wants to #Millie's not living near me and I have no real friends here #so I don't really expect a birthday party #idk :( brain sad about soemthing that isn't until April

[eevyerndracaneon]

Can't even fathom being around people right now

#I'm so upset even sitting in the same room as Thomas #But I have nowhere else to go and be sad alone #And maybe this isn't even healthy I don't fucking know. #I feel like shit I feel so much like shit I can't do anything I'm just fucking depressed #I think I'm just going to quietly cry and shove food in my mouth and watch videos and be as alone as I can be #I don't. Want Thomas to start trying to help #I know he will #I don't think it'll help tho #I don't think anyone can help #It's on me to either cope or figure out how to speak up abt what's making me feel so disgusting #Just. Kill me. Someone come kill me.

[r3ynah]

I just like the idea of Red hood having a medic, that always finds him whenever and wherever.

Like my boy danny, can and will go to different measures, so he can just find the boss of the crime alley alive and well.

Getting hurt? No you aren't, patched him up and forcefully tucked him into bed with a kiss, Getting depressed? No you aren't, Wrapped him in a blanket and just let him read his novels all day and feeding him, Getting kidnap? No you aren't, Cue the corrupted video of Danny breaking in the kidnapper's lair and just freeing Red hood, No blood was shed that night, well not from Red hood that is.

Danny was something else Red hood will tell you if you ever bring up his Medic into a conversation, he would stare at the man with heart eyes as he accompanied him to do random check ups on people under Red hood's care in his civilian persona. Danny may seem weak and brittle but he can give a punch if he really wanted to, He was mysterious but at the same time so open.

Danny was prideful as he wore the medal of being the only one that knows Red hood's real apartment, and the only one that could break in and enter without getting his presence known, just to make sure the crime lord was sleeping and eating properly.

Red hood practically made a joke out of this and would always tell everyone that his medic will be mad, if he isn't in bed by curfew, and he needed to be back at his house by 10:00 sharp or he'll get dragged and thrown, who knew the all so scary crime lord had a bedtime, criminals and civilians often leave him be when the clock strikes 9:50 pm afraid of enraging the meta medic.

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"I am telling you B, I can't do that right now, its almost my curfew." Red hood sighed in frustration, he was currently standing in the middle of the bat cave, ready to run if batman tried to talk again.

"This is an important, case Hood, and it requires your participation" Batman stood still, face devoid of any emotions " Afterall it has something to do, with crime alley, there has been a meta spotted, and its creating havoc all around the place."

Jason, blinked, blinked twice, then thrice

"Is that it?"

"Jason, can't you see that this person's dangerous, they had already committed several crimes of arson, assault, and destruction of property, this person is abusing it's powers."

"No im not." An offended voice, called out from the side. all head turned towards the source of the voice, only to be greeted by 6'1 tall boy, who had black hair and blue eyes, and looked just round in his younger adult years. "In my defense they deserved it, won't give me a discount when i literally had a coupon." he rolled his eyes in annoyance.

"Who are you?" Batman asked, his guard up "And how did you get in here?"

"Red hood's medic and the meta you've labeling as dangerous, nice to meet you, and it wasn't that hard to spot this lair if you have x-ray vision" Danny greeted happily offering a handshake, which the dark knight didn't take, Danny retreated his hand in awkward silence.

"That was so sad" Jason cackled, as he pointed at Danny who gave him the middle finger.

"Shut, Its 10:30 pm, your bedtime was like 15 minutes ago, you don't get to talk until you're taller than me." Danny pointed at him.

"Fucking funny, im laughing" Sarcasm was laced in Jason's tone as he glared at Danny, before giving a sigh. "10:30 already shit, time does fly fast, when you're fighting a man in a furry costume" Red hood stated, as he walked towards Danny who only rolled his eyes.

"Bye B, i hope to not see you anytime this week or the next week." He nonchalantly waved bye to the older male, while walking towards his medic.

he turned his head to meet Danny's gaze, then smacked his arm making the man stumble. "Come on, now boss man do your thing"

Danny gave him, a glare before shoving him playfully, he then turned to look at empty air and practically ripped out a dimensional portal out of it, and pushed Jason in it who tripped.

"Bye Mr.Batman, it was nice meeting you" Danny bid farewell as he closed the portal on the Man who looked like he can use a break.

#dc x dp #dp x dc #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc #dc x dp crossover #dp x dc fanfic #dp x dc prompt #dpdc #dead on main #dead on main prompt

[ririblogsss]

what if Danny give no fu-ks

Ok hear me out, Dannys obsession has never truest been confirmed by the show itself (that I remember) I've seen a lot of people say his obsession comes from wanting to help / protect people. But what if he feels as though that he is now doing more damage than good, after all there are a lot of people getting hurt as colateral damage from the chases he has to go on. Or simply when he has to run away from getting captured.

What if one night he was up late and saw a post about a tragedy that happened because he slipped up (it wasn't even his fault, but he still blames himself for everything). And then he starts looking at all the bad comments against him ignoring all the good ones saying how much Danny Phantom has helped Amity. Because Danny is still human and confirmation bias is real. Imagine how he felt the moment he realized that he was causing people to get hurt instead of keeping them save.

Image the desperation clawing at him with the realization that he has never been able to fully manage his obsession. it makes him sad, desperate, angry.

His entire self is filled with too many emotions at the sametime he isn't even able to identify them and catalogue them properly like Jazz taught him.

and then everything stops and he feels nothing.

Completely and utterly numb.

Like his whole reason to keep going suddenly disappears.

And it has.

He gave up on his obsession and now he has to make / get a new one.

But it's not that easy.

This drastic change could've ended any ghost as they run on (live off) emotions.

Luckily because he's a Halfa, so that has given him the upper hand. Unfortunately it makes it so that he is completely devoid of any emotion.

Months go by and people immediately notice changes, the more drastic one is that Phantom went missing, and eventually a lot of ghost that where coming in looking for him stop. Amity Park is no longer populated by ghosts, and slowly the GIW started to retreat from Amity going to another place following a lead that says there are more ghost activities up north.

But those changes aren't the only ones noticeable. Dannys classmates and teachers can vouch that Danny has changed. Most say he was always quite , and others say he looked down right depressed. Danny didn't do much in classes not that he paid attention before. Its just this time it seems that its not out of being sleepy or anxious about another ghost attacking the school instead Danny looks like he coundn't give less of a fu-k about anything.

He never smiles anymore not even when his favorite subjects (mechanics and space) are brought up. Not even a quirk of a smile. The school decided to contact his parents about Dannys new behaviors. That includes skipping classes, not handing in work, not doing the assigned work in class ect....

And its not like his parents havent noticed, they've had more time in their hands since they aren't using hours of the day/night going out hunting anymore. and they have witnessed their son become a shell of himself. They don't know what to do, and they don't want to worry Jazz about it because she's at collage and needs to focus on her studies.

So when the school contact them and told them that the behavior is the same in school they decided major changes needed to happen. Starting with a change of environment.

Maddie and Jack decided that Amity park was too big of a city with too many people. They could nearly see the stars at night because of the light pollution, hence they decided to move next door to Alicia, Maddie sister, home in SmallVille.

They decided it was the best choice, Danny would be surrounded by nature and he could do online classes that would go the pace he wanted. The move was immediate, the day off they packed everything sold the house and moved.

They only stopped to say goodbye to Danny's friends. A small bye and hug later they were on a 7 hour road trip to their new home.

When they got there the old resident handed them the keys of the home and told them to ignore the their neighbors 'The Kents' as they often made a lot of noice and had group gatherings every month.

The one thing Jack and Maddie forgot to double check was if the house was an actual house or a farm house. Sounds similar, but completely different as they now had 2 cows, 16 chickens, 1 rooster, and 3 pigs to take care off.

Danny was put on duty of taking care of the animals, such as feeding them on time and making sure they were healthy. Jack and Maddie made more of the heavy weight as to re building broken fences and fixing the questionable roof.

(The first thing Danny did when meeting all the animals was name them. After all this was about all the interaction he was going to do.)

Danny didn't have time to think about his lost obsession or his lack of emotions as he was now too busy making sure each animal was taken care off.

Marcy and linda (the cows) were danny's favorite they were very gentle and he felt that they could understand him when he spoke to them the stories of his vigilante past.

On the other hand The Chickens were a nightmare, Glinda was cool as she never chased him down. But Matilda and Bethany were a nightmarish duo spiteful too when he was seconds late to the finding time. Mark the rooster was chill he mainly acted as of he was part of the group that needed protection.

Marice, Betty, and Miss Piggy were the chillest of the bunch never gave Danny any trouble when feeding them and always made a point that they loved their new mudbath installation that Danny made for them on his first 2 days on the farm.

A month after arriving at the farm house Danny noticed that mark was missing. Danny looked everywhere around the property and saw him from afar, at the road. So Danny did the sensible thing anyone would do when spotting a run away pet, and that is call their name at the top of your lungs whilst running after them.

naturally Mark the escape artist run the opposite direction. By the time Danny caught up to him Danny didn't recognize the house he was infant off. So with Mark comfortably in his arms He swears he can see a smug look on marks face. Danny turned away from the house to start his walk back to the farm, but he was met with a kid his age looking at him with distrust.

"Ehhh look kid Im sorry to have crossed the properties border but Mark here" Danny made a point to acentuate Mark in his arms "Runaway from me this morning and I've been trying to catch him ever since, anyways I need to go feed the girls"

The kid starred at him for a second "OMG your from the new family in Mr.duncans farm right? in Aver ST.?" and wow the kid was like a ray of sunshine.

"Yea-" Danny could even finish his sentence before the kid cut him off by starting to talk a mile a minute about how he was so exited to meet people his age that lived near by and how farm chores were harder that normal house chores.

"Jon, give him time to respond. Im Damian this is Jon" Danny jumped he hadn't noticed the second kid at all

"Oh yeah... sorry about that what's your name?" The kid (Jon) slightly less enthusiasm, a bit embarrassed if his tone of voice was anything to get by.

"Danny, Im 15" he responded before he started walking away after all he did need to get in time to feed the chickens unless he wants to suffer their furry. Danny shuddered at the memory that popped up in his head.

"Wait!!! I just thought we could be friends cause we live close by u know" Jon said catching up with Dannys steps. Damian was following from behind.

"Sure kid I don't care" Dannys voice was monotone much like it had been for months.

"Hey were not kids for your information, Im 14 and Damians 16 soon to be 17, so if anything you night be the actual kid!" Danny chuckled slightly it was more similar to releasing air from his lips than a laugh.

Soon a quite and enjoyable science encompassed the group as they went to Dannys home.

"Hmm... you're hold on Mark is adequate and the your determination for getting home in time for feeding is acceptable" Damian spoke up after a while of the passive silence.

"yeah and what is It to you" Danny was slightly urked by Damians default setting speach. He told him as such.

Jon blanched before erupting into giggles that sent him to lay down on the grass uncontrollably laughing. Damians right eyebrow quirked up in what Danny assumed was amusement.

Thus a new friendship grew that day.

They often gathered at Dannys or Jons yard to have picnic in the weekends (as Damian and Jon has school in Metropolis on week days) and hangout with the animals. Danny found out that Damian was a vegetarian and that he had various animals at home. One time he brought his Great Dane Titus, who bodied Danny on sight to give him kisses.

Also Damian was Damian Wayne as in bruce Wayne, Batman sugar daddy. When he said that, Jons milk flew out of his nose and Damian choked on his cucumber wrap. Even Titus gave him a judgemental stare.

Slowly Danny started to smile more, laugh every so often. And things were feeling so much better after not being able to feel anything for a while.

Jazz, Aunt Alicia and especially Maddie and Jack felt so relived to see that Danny was slowly coming back to them.

Danny to this day backs the fact that Mark knew something and planned the whole thing.

#dc x dp #dpxdc #dp x dc crossover #danny fenton #mark the chicken is definitely a meta with super intelligence