Everywhere I go, I hope to see you there
I know that once you’ve realized
The feelings that I tried to hide
Hidden behind weakened walls
That didn’t really work at all
You’d probably say goodbye
Without a hug, without a smile
Leave me all alone
With the damage for awhile
I should have been more cautious
With my words, I wasn’t safe
To jump to conversations
I didn’t think was bait
I took them anyway
And it led to my demise
Should’ve read the warning signs
Embedded in your eyes
I’m surprised you didn’t notice
I barely had to hide at all
When will this be over?
I don’t have the time to fall
In love with you
I think I might be in too deep
And I may have
Lost some sleep
•Written: Nov. 11th, 2018•
Ngl, I’m simping for this guy big time…
There is a lot I would like to say
but every time I open my mouth,
nothing ever comes out.
I would like to tell you how beautiful you look,
that my heart flutters from the little things you do.
I would like to ramble about how your voice sounds like
a glass of warm milk tea on a cold night.
I would like to tell the world how much I adore you,
how I’ve never met someone quite like you,
someone whom i have never met but feel so familiar,
someone who hates what I like and loves what I don’t.
You’re really weird, you know?
But you’re my kind of weird.
I want to be able to tell you all that.
I’m sorry I couldn’t.
I don’t think I can ever.
Because you have eyes for someone,
who is apparently,
My crush: *compliments me*
Me, externally: oh wow.. that is so sweet! Thank you so much!!!
Me, internally: *already on my knees* *begging* please shut the fuck up. I love you but stop. You need to shut that beautiful mouth of yours. I can’t fucking take it!!! Don’t ever say anything nice about me ever again!!
a playlist of songs that remind me of someone i love who probably no longer loves me back.
the highlight of this playlist is “necromancer” by joy again. when we first started our relationship, he sent me this song and it described us almost perfectly. it’s a form of bittersweet nostalgia in my eyes.
can’t you just leave me
can’t your face stop
haunting my dreams
i try and i try to run away
but you’ve got me wrapped
around your finger
you lure me in
and cup me in your hands
you whisper in my ear a simple
like any other good person
but it doesn’t matter whether
anyone else would do that
it came from you
Johnny chuckled as he saw Doyoung directed a glare toward him
It’s not like it was his fault, he’s already too late.
Taeyong is already his, Doyoung can’t do anything to snatch him away.
Genre : Light Angst, Unrequited love, One-sided Love
Tags : Heartache, Jealousy, Unrequited Love
Pairing : Suh Youngho | Johnny/Lee Taeyong, Kim Dongyoung | Doyoung/Lee Taeyong
Wordcount : 779
Read HERE Or On AO3!
I met my crush’s girlfriend tonight, she seemed pretty nice, which doesn’t surprise me because the guy I like is such a sweetheart I couldn’t imagine him dating anyone who wasn’t a super kind person themselves.
I’m kinda a jealous person but I’m trying to unlearn that. I refuse to be the type of girl that hates other women solely for dating someone I’m interested in. Ideally I will continue becoming friends with this guy, eventually get over him, and then befriend his girlfriend as well. Because I always want new friends.
Saying I loved you was the worst thing I’ve done
It gave you the right to say you needed time
sitting here watching you flirt with everyone’s son
And drinking their gifts of vodka flavored lime
I told you I loved you so you kissed my best friend
You didn’t care it would shatter every aching bone
Instead you said “I hope you will be ok in the end”
But can I move on when my heart is still on loan
You were not the first that this has happened with
So maybe it’s my fault that I don’t violently rush in
But why rush you acted like loving me was a myth
Yet I am no monster that has done any great sin
Maybe it’s that I am not chiseled like the other
I apologize for the lack of abs and defined muscle
But you said I didn’t need to be anymore buffer
thank you for all the hopes it was a great hustle
I can’t be the backup plan once you’re done kissing
I know one day You will stop being the one I’m missing
I have a love/hate relationship with my crush..
“I won’t ask for forever, but please stay until I have the chance to get better.”
- Learning to Love
i find it so funny i don’t even go to real people anymore. when i’m feeling sad i anonymously tell like 100 other people i never even talk to😂😂😂 wtf
“Can you love me again- so I can learn by example?”
- Learning to Love
Being able to express myself here and in my songs is the only thing keeping me sane. I have too many things to say that if I didn’t have a safe outlet I’m pretty sure I’d go crazy.