#THIS IS HOW FREEDOM FEELS

[arsonyte]

No more dreaming of the dead as if death itself was undone No more calling like a crow for a boy, for a body in the garden No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love No more dreaming like a girl so in love, so in love No more dreaming like a girl, so in love with the wrong world - Florence and the Machine // "Blinding"

#florence the machine #blinding #this!!! #THIS IS HOW FREEDOM FEELS #NOW I REMEMBER #I USED TO SING THIS WITH SO MUCH PAIN #NOW I REMEMBER HOW IT WAS TO BE RESTRICTED #I AM FREE NOW #I KNOW THAT

[positivelyadhd]

i have been reading through the diary I kept from ages 14-17 and realising how helpful it can be to keep a record of how you're feeling at different moments.

not only is it helpful to write down and process how your feeling and give yourself time to truly think about it, it's nice to have something to look back on. to not just remember how you felt about a certain situation but to actually have yourself from that time tell you.

and also, from an adhd perspective, it's really lovely to have reminders of things I'd almost entirely forgotten. it's easy to think that your life right now isn't interesting, but in 5 years time? to know what songs you were listening to or book you were reading or even that Thing that you were so worried about but now you can't even remember the details. it's nice to have a physical reminder that time passes and things really can get better.

#i think part of whats makes it so special to me is that (like it is for a lot of people) those ages where so *much* #and i was so stuck in my head and socially anxious and i feel like those years of school rly shaped who i am now ect #but id kind of forgotten? its become a blur emotions over time and its nice to see it clearer #but also how i changed? and to read into it and see what i did or didn't write #im also a big fan of the inner child and doing things for your younger self and its a lovely gift to have her speaking to me directly #also if you want to journal i highly recommend doing it in a normal notebook rather than a pre planned one #it gives you the freedom for it to be whatever you want with none of the pressure #recovery #tips

[stil-lindigo]

For the past 10 weeks, there’s been weekly rallies for Palestine in Naarm/Melbourne and the government’s claim that protest like this needlessly divides Australia is such bullshit. These rallies are one of the most diverse collections of people I’ve ever seen. Indigenous elders, Palestinian students, queer teens and adults from all walks of life. I saw an old Chinese grandma here a few weeks ago with a Palestinian flag stitched onto her sunhat. At another rally, a girl had come with her service dog - on his harness she had fixed a pin of the Palestinian flag. A prominent re-occurring chant is “ From the river to the sea / Always was, always will be” which combines Palestine’s call for freedom with an affirmation of Aboriginal people’s continuing sovereignty of Australian land.

Today in the rally, the speakers emphasised the value of not losing sight of Palestinian freedom during Christmas “festivities”. If the birthplace of Jesus Christ himself is under siege, what else is Christmas but a capitalist joy fest of consumerism?

This is not to say you can’t still celebrate, but do it responsibly. Observe the rules of BDS, observe the general strike on the 18th. Be more than a convenient idiot this holiday season.

#thoughts I’m having #the solidarity I experience once a week at these rallies strengthen something in you #I hope anyone feeling full of despair in Australia can attend a rally and feel how healing it is to stand alongside thousands #of people who want the same for you. freedom for palestine #Australian media has been such a royal shitshow over palestine honestly #Rupert Murdoch and his entire family die challenge #palestine #free gaza #free palestine

[clownsuu]

Small detour of what I usually post, but I absolutely wish (other) clown the best of luck during these confusing and almost hopeless times- nobody knows how to deal with such amount of attention in such short amount of time- a blessing and a curse to behold

#Seeing their posts absolutely shattered me #I may never be able to relate to how he’s going through rn but at least I can relate to the fear of living in absolute fear #the fear of unable to be yourself in your own home with creative and personal freedom #The fear of being terrified that the thing that gives you the most innocent happiness will be heavily demonized and threatened #The fear of getting caught doing something you love and being yourself with your found identity #The fear of destruction #I relate heavily to this and to feel you are going to be caught doing anything that isn’t a crime hurts #I wish him safety and love during these stressful days #He’s brought so much joy to my life that I must keep private irl too #Whatever he decides for the fandom I will fully support it #I will still continue posting of course unless he wishes otherwise #If he sees this (which I doubt) hey other clown lmao- you are loved and not alone #It may be scary but you are not alone- you will never be alone #There will always be people out there who love you and there will always be those who are not even worth giving time of day #The internet is both a blessing and a cruel cruel unforgiving place #I hope it doesn’t deter you from doing what you love and hold dear #I hope you have anyone you can be with online or in irl that can give you the comfort you need #You deserve peace and security #Do what you feel is best #Welcome home

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Izutsumi character study

#dungeon meshi #izutsumi #One of my goals for this year was to spend more time doing art studies. #What better way to start than with my favourite danmeshi character (not seen: a whole page of figuring out her features) #I feel like she is by far one of the most poorly understood characters in the series. Partially due to her 'late party member' status. #'She's abrasive and mean' - 'she's a picky eater' - 'she's a catgirl who acts like an asshole cat ' YES and that is the point! #Everyone in dungeon meshi is traumatized and messy about it but izutsumi is just less polite in how she tries to cope. #Izutsumi is a extremely traumatized teenager who has utterly lacked autonomy her entire life. #She is the epitome of a “If I can just have X thing then all my problems will be solved!” character. And the X is 'Freedom'. #Her epilogue was one of the best and wrapped up her character so wonderfully (WARNING: I WILL NOW SPOIL PART OF THE ENDING) #Because she finally gets her freedom! She can go where she wants to and she doesn't need anybody! Yet...it doesn't fix her. #She is so focused on doing only what she wants that she forgets her own needs. Sometimes you have to eat the things you don't want. #And sometimes you have to face the hard truths that you need more than just one thing to make you happy. #Life is not all about only seeking pleasures and avoiding pain. You need to be balanced in order to grow. #Eat your vegetables (including the metaphorical ones: I am eating more art veggies this year by doing art studies!!!)

[lovehours]

i don’t even fucking care

#house md #house spoilers #hilson #the fact that house is consistently selfish. that he’s an addict. he’s always in pain #but he gave up his vicodin for wilson. mind you the pain in his thigh must have been excruciating #bc consistently whenever he’s extremely stressed or worried the pain gets worse #but wilson is still his priority. he put wilson above the burning pain god man😭 #him giving up his freedom HIS LIFE for someone who has less than half a year to live like oh my god #the love house has for wilson actually makes me sick bc even outside of the cancer arc house has done things for wilsons sake #like almost killing himself just to help him and amber. drugging him at that one conference from s6 #he’s an asshole often times but he truly is the only constant in his life. they both are for each other #i actually feel sick. im not on everybody dies yet (im on the c word rn) but god idk how im gonna get thru this😭 #5x13 big baby #8x19 the c word #1x01 everybody lies #8x22 everybody dies #7x15 bombshells #8x21 holding on #where the quotes are from btw #sorry for the essay in tags

[0ransje]

Mikey Mikey Mikey Mikey Mikey M

#rottmnt #rottmnt future mikey #rottmnt mikey #rottmnt fanart #cass fanart tag #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #I like turtles :) #I forgot how much I love digital art #Idk something abt it feels like there's more freedom to mess around and finish things #probably the access to the back button #my art

[haunted-xander]

Song of Oblivion

#ooough my poor cataclysmic bird daughter #she loved so much and destroy everything for it #she denounces existance because to exist is to suffer- and suffering is her enemy #not realizing that in doing so she breeds so much of the suffering she hates #several of the fallen stars only fell because her question spurred them into a self-absorbing path #and then... and then the one singular meteia that realize her folly... who could be convinced of lifes meaning #by seeing you continue ever onwards even with your dearest friends' deaths on your shoulder #by seeing how everyone accepts oblivion for another tomorrow- even if they had suffered so much. even if they wanted to die #no matter what they fought. they fought and died and kept marching forward even in death #they loved life enough to sacrifice it. how could she not accept that? #and the realization that the reason she came to the conclusion she did was because she was flawed- bc hermes was flawed #as hermes said- he gave her wings to fly but did not teach her how to tread the earth #she was given freedom to experience the feelings and emotions of the world- but not the groundwork to understand it #she could see. she could hear. but she could not comprehend #she has knowledge- but without context it gets misinterperated and warped #OUGH im going to scream. i miss her. #meteion #endsinger #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[nozomi-mats]

Timelapse for recent comm work, once again. This time for a more complex piece.

#nozomiarts #commission art #timelapse #one of these days I will record process for lined works #but anyways #this is how I do more complex pieces. #I feel I could have been way more efficient in the early stages #like. trace directly off the 3d ref but I wanted a bit more freedom #aaand it ended up taking lots of time ; v ;

[anachronistic-falsehood]

i just. love qpac and qcellbit and their weird complex relationships. like when I hear celltw i think of cannibalism and the prison and all the fucked up implications of just. everything that went on there. when i hear pacbit i think of cellbit telling pac e mike that he loves them and that he’s no longer cell and that that monster died, and cellbit telling pac after the happy pills arc that he’s not alone anymore and he’s a hero, and them raising a kid together and joking about their past. like. it’s insane that one character can change so fuckijg much that two different ship names can make me think of two completely different dynamics, even though cell and cellbit are the same exact character in different points in time and celltw and pacbit are essentially the same ship

LIKE cellbit has changed so much but pac has stayed more or less the same and i just wonder what the hell cellbit must look like from his eyes. yk. how one person can change so much that your entire relationship has flipped on its head and now you’re family but you still find yourself scared of who he used to be sometimes regardless of how he’s changed. the duality of these fucking guys. i’m going to eat the floorboards

#it’s soooo interesting #bc celltw to me is like. mostly fanon. it’s built off canon ofc but a lot of blanks are filled in by fans #which gives us soooo much freedom to just. dick around with how we think their dynamic evolved and what happened during and after prison #but pacbit feels like. something a bit more understanding yk. something a bit nicer #instead of using the cell part of his name that he used in prison we’re using the bit part because he is different!! and he has changed!!!! #dude i could honestly go on for hours about cellbit’s identity and how his name reflects it i need to make an analysis post about it NOW #do I make any sense????? i hope so #whiskeys word soup #qsmp #pacbit #celltw

[lesbiangracehanson]

another day, another j7 scene that makes me feel insane 

#insane + turned on at the same time. it's a terrible predicament #olivia watches voyager #j7 #seven of nine #kathryn janeway #star trek voyager #i think janeway Did need to hear this im ngl..... #like the fact that she clearly takes it on board + it affects how she proceeds with the doctor confirms that imo #and seven was making good points! #i'm glad she advocated for the doctor #bc it did feel like the whole crew was regressing a bit in their treatment of him recently idk #voyager's continually grappling with this tension between 'giving' someone their freedom/encouraging them to explore it #and then abruptly retracting that freedom when it's convenient #e.g. obvs the doctor with the memory wiping + the fairly regular 'i'm gonna deactivate ur programme' threats #seven with the 'ur an individual but there's also ever-shifting parameters to ur individuality' etc #also 'ur an individual but we will harvest u for nanoprobes on demand + ur objection will be noted but ignored' lol #but also tom in a recent ep of s5 - janeway bringing up how she freed him from the penal colony #+ also b'elanna in s5 - janeway barely giving her 2 seconds to recover #before ordering her to 'move on' from her anger re: that holo cardassian operating on her #it's like. yes all starfleet ships have their hierarchy + individual freedom exists in tension with that #but bc there's such an amalgamation of characters on voyager #from backgrounds that aren't starfleet/aren't strictly starfleet #and that - by their presence on the ship - have been 'indebted' in some way from the beginning #it all feels even more complicated #anyway why have i just written all these tags lol <3

[moraent-keys]

Seeing other aroace people who ship Radioapple is the best

It’s like, no matter which way you ship it, you get it. Like some deeper sense of understanding we all have?? Does that make sense?

#this is just me ranting a bit #idk how to explain this I’m a lil tired #like a deeper sense of community and understanding #and the freedom to explore how that relationship would work while trying to navigate our own feelings surround it?? #I know that doesn’t specifically apply to every aroace but it’s something I see a lot #radioapple #appleradio #ship talk #text post #also applies to any other Alastor ship #I just personally only enjoy appleradio out of all of em

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Something something about the alien hand call in 7x05 and Buck being the one being strangled.

Something something about Buck grappling with this new part of himself and coming out to people. Something something about the ‘fear’ of being judged or treated differently having him in a stranglehold because it’s still new to him and he doesn’t have it figured out himself yet.

Something something about being in 2 minds about telling people, about revealing himself - because the alien hand syndrome in this call occurs when the brains two lobes are separated - the connection severed - the brain is split in two

#I don’t know there’s just something about not having control over part of yourself or how people will react to it #something about buck being in two minds about telling people but also wanting to experience the freedom of discovering a new and big part of #who he is #there’s also something about learning a new way of existing #but theres also something about being in the grip of jealousy and not fully in control of your actions or behaviour because you don’t #understand what is going on #(we know this call got shifted from the last ep so the jealousy element is still kind of relevant and I also feel like jealousy is meant to #be a running them for this season) #911 spoilers #911 abc #bi buck #evan 'buck' buckley #evan buckley

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Aw! XL cooking reminded me of when I was working with children and they'd get nightmares/scared of monsters, so was go to the garden and make Monster Soup! Anything that looked good would go into the nearest source of water (often a bird bath) so that the monsters would know we are kind people and stay outside and not come inside. Also the monsters would think of us as friends and protect us instead of scaring us. Now I'm hoping that I have turned any of these kids into bad cooks bc I was like that flower looks good! Toss it in! 😅😄😄😄

Thank you for reminding me of this memory!

I'm-In-Love-With-The-Monster Soup.

#tgcf #xie lian #hua cheng #ask #This story was extremely sweet thank you so much for sharing B'*) #I also used to work with kids and I really miss it!! This brought back lovely memories for me as well. #I am sure you helped a lot of kids through rough feelings by taking them seriously and letting them grow by confronting their fears. #Monster soup is something I am going to be thinking about for a long time.... #If anything; experimenting in the kitchen and feeling the permission of freedom to cook helps encourage kids to learn! #even if its a pretend kitchen. A birdbath is just as valid as a soup pot! #Comic-commentary time: I am so sorry to people who didn't know or forgot that this is how I draw the TGCF pair. #Xie Lian actually tried to make a sandwich but it got to wet so he had to put it in a bowl. #no one knows where the green colour came from. #One more comic on this coming tomorrow (what have WWX and HC been up to?)

[revvethasmythh]

Some aspects of Laudna's behavior from the most recent ep have really started to stand out to me re: her backstory. We're told basically that after leaving Whitestone she roamed to different cities and was subsequently run out of many places by the townsfolk for being...well, a creepy undead witch. This is really all we know of thirty years of her life, we have nothing more detailed than that until Gelvaan, which is also not very detailed on what exactly she was doing there. And it's interesting because this backstory feels like it's meant to elicit a lot of sympathy on Laudna's behalf--i.e. she is being wrongly chased out of places for the crime of being/looking different. But something about the way she approached Imahara Joe's establishment--sending in the creepy whispers, specifically making a bunch of terrifying "rattling noises", and responding with a smile and saying "It works every time" when they heard a noise in response--really has me like. okay. Laudna, did you get chased out of places because you were terrorizing people in those places? because it sounds like you've done this before, potentially many times, and what's "fun scary" to one person can so very easily be "scary scary" to the people on the other end of the schtick.

Laudna clearly loves people, but I do have to wonder if she experiences a certain amount of dissonance about the effects that her actions cause. She very much has this Manic Demon Nightmare Girl persona thing going on, and that delighted, manic energy mixed with her penchant for the macabre, often directed at other people where she enjoys their freaked out reactions? I think, perhaps, there were reasons she kept getting run out of places that we have not, uh, unpacked as of yet.

To go deeper with this, Laudna is a character who rarely feels like she's in charge of her own destiny. Some of this is intentional, like the repeated puppet imagery re: Delilah. But I wonder if, perhaps, Laudna is someone who has had so many things--bad things, terrible things--happen to her that she had learned to erase her own role in her life. There was nothing she could do when the Briarwoods took over Whitestone, there was nothing she could do when she was murdered by Delilah, and there was nothing she could do when she was resurrected as the undead creachure that she is today. But there are thing she could have done in the intervening thirty years to change her situation. She could have pursued threads about getting rid of Delilah for thirty years, long before meeting Imogen. She could have (somewhat) altered her behavior so she wasn't freaking people out wherever she went and maybe she could have stayed somewhere. She could have been proactive in making changes and pursuing things in her life and I just wonder if she has forgotten that she can do that for herself and that the things she does do have consequences. In ep 49, she told Imogen, "The gods have never kept us from our ability to have a choice." But she only says this to Imogen. When does Laudna finally make an active choice? When does she realized that her behavior and the consequences of the behavior are in her control? When does Laudna decide that it's time to stop being a spectator in her own story, a person that things happen to? Soon, I hope. She should be the main character of her own story, and right now she simply isn't

#I feel like I'm going to get cancelled for victim blaming but also #being scary toward people and then people not liking that feels like an excellent example of cause and effect #and tbh #even laudna's relationship with imogen feels like something that has happened TO her #what does laudna want? what are her desires? I feel like if you asked she'd respond with ''whatever imogen wants'' #which just. makes me kind of sad. I hope laudna figures out how to be a person with desires and a future that are HERS unequivocally #that can (and probably will!) include imogen. but a simple cottage raising horses is Imogen's dream #what does laudna dream of? freedom? what does that look like? does she even know? #like I said. it's SAD #cr spoilers #this is rebloggable but I'm not maintagging this

[rustedrocket]

thinkin about these dudes as teens.. what're they up to, y'know? what're those kooky kids doin

#sonadow #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sth #shth #i cooked up some lore for them and didn't realize how much it was until i wrote it all down. really didn't feel like much in my head #basically the conceit of this romance is that shadow has trust issues and sonic just wants this cool guy to chill out and like him. y'know? #it was fun to think about bc i pulled from the sonic bible for some stuff and got to giggle maniacally about that #i know sonadow is not a word in the sonic bible your honor but it is my denomination #religious freedom is a beautiful thing #anyway yes lore exists. there is background. but the vibes are all here on this page #and then something something they grow old together and i cry about it